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You have to do it! Grocery shopping with Quinn! đ âșïž
Because of those shopping gifs, huh? I know the ones!
"Ready, babe?" Quinn spoke louder than his usual, putting on his flat-billed hat in the mirror while he waited for you at the door. He had been ready to go for a few minutes but would never purposefully rush you, especially for something as mundane as grocery shopping. He really didn't want to go but the house was looking a little bare and the fridge was near depleted of anything fresh. It was simply time to go.
Quinn had told you that he was fine going solo but you had insisted on keeping him company, and didn't think it fair to make him go alone when you used equally as much of everything as he did, if not more especially when he was on the road.
"Yeah, I'm ready!" You said, hurrying from somewhere else in the apartment. You were still buttoning your coat when you got to his side.
"You look cute," he commented, wrapping his arms around you for a moment.
You smiled, "Thanks, babe! You don't look too bad yourself!"
Quinn would laugh and give you a quick kiss before opening the door for you. You had no idea where the two of you were headed, but anywhere with Quinn was a good place to be. Outside, it was much colder than it was normally due to the Artic blast moving through the region, and it made being outside quite uncomfortable. Thankfully, you wouldn't have too far to walk, in any of your errand stops, but when the air hurt to breathe -- it was never ideal.
"I don't think I've ever missed the rain so much in my life," you joked, climbing into the passenger seat.
"This isn't my favourite either," he replied clicking both seat warmers on as soon as the car was started. "Won't take long now. You know you can stay home, babe. No sense in you being cold if you don't have to."
"I know, but I don't want you to go alone!"
Quinn shook his head as he smiled, "Babe--"
"I know, I know, you don't mind," you mocked him playfully. "But I mind, so I'm going with you!"
"You're ridiculous," he laughed. "Alright, well, if you're sure. Off we go."
- - -
"I'm going to drop you at the door then I'll go find a parking spot," Quinn said, pulling into the lot. "And before you say anything, I want you to go inside and be warm."
Mustering the deepest pout you could, you looked at Quinn as the car came to a stop, but he wasn't having any part of it. "Quinn--"
"Babe, just trust me, please."
"Fiiiiiine," you whined, slipping out of the car and going into the store alone. You'd stay just inside the automatic doors and wait to see where he parked. Everyone and their mothers seemed to be out shopping today, forcing Quinn to have to park in the near back lot. He looked so miserable as he rushed toward the store, trying to duck down in to his coat as his hands were buried in his pockets. When the double doors opened, he'd make his way to you, his cheeks red from the harsh air.
"Brrr!" Quinn remarked, putting an arm around you. "It's cold in here, too!"
"Says the hockey player!"
He laughed, sheepishly, "It's not that cold on the ice like it is outside!"
"Fair enough," you teased. "Basket or cart?"
"Probably cart. Stock you up before I go out of town next week."
You looked down at being reminded that Quinn would soon be leaving for more games away from home. Your bed wouldn't be as warm, there would be no one to share a bath with before bed, no one to laugh with over dinner in the evenings, and the apartment would soon be deafly quiet. Being unable to keep your expression from dropping, you would turn your face away from him for a moment to keep from crying in public.
Quinn, always in tune with your usual moods would notice this change and would ask you about it after returning from getting you both a cart. "You got quiet, babe. What's wrong?"
"Nothing," you mumbled, picking up a random item to look at it as if you were interested in taking it home.
"I didn't think you liked peanut butter," he quipped, leaning over your shoulder at the package of fudge you were holding.
"I-- don't," you said, unable to lie, and putting it back on the display you had robbed it from. Your cover was blown before you could even get behind it. Damn Quinn for being so quick sometimes, though you knew he hated when you kept things from you, namely when things were bothering you.
"Did I say something?" Quinn questioned, his hand resting on your waist, hoping you'd look at him.
"No, baby, it's me being sad over you leaving," you finally confessed, only looking at him after you had spoken your truth. "I'm just-- being a baby."
"You're my baby," he would whisper in your ear, in the hopes that it might make you smile if only because of how cringe it had been. "I know you don't like when I leave, and trust me, I know how it feels."
Your eyes were beginning to sting, fighting against your emotions, "I know it's your job, Quinn. I'm not trying to be one of those girls who comes off all spoiled and selfish. I just-- I just miss you."
Quinn smiled, bringing his lips to your forehead while you still faced him. "I know you do, and I don't think you're being selfish. You understand that this is my life. No one says it's easy, sweetheart."
With a sigh you leaned into him, face buried in the curve of his neck. At the moment, you didn't care that you were in public, having an episode of emotional weakness. You were in Quinn's arms and safe, everyone else could kick rocks. They didn't need to understand.
"Do you want to go home, babe?" He asked, leaning his head against yours.
You wouldn't answer him, you'd just shake your head slightly.
"For what it's worth, I'm not gone yet," he said with a smile in his tone.
This would get you to pull your eyes back to his. He had a point, and one that you were thankful for.
"I sorry, Quinn," you apologized solemnly. "I shouldn't be that way."
He kissed you again, knowing it often fixed things when you were feeling down, but he felt that you were struggling. "You're perfectly fine. I should be more careful with my words."
"You don't need to do that. I'll be okay. Maybe one day it won't hurt as bad-- but...I dunno."
Frowning, Quinn would touch your cheek, but his hands were cold. You'd take it in both of yours and try your best to give him a smile. "I love you. Sorry you have to put up with me like this."
"I just hope I help instead of making you sad."
"You do, I promise."
On that positive note, the two of you would finally get back to the reason of why you were there in the first place. "Should we get to shopping?" He laughed.
"Probably!"
- - -
"Bread?" He asked, standing before a literal wall of options.
"Oh, yeah! Sourdough!"
"Which is--," he stammered, watching you pinpoint the loaf you were after before he could finish his question. "That-- was oddly impressive."
"I know my bread!"
"That you do," he laughed, as you placed in in the cart. "What else do you want?"
Looking at the contents of the cart, you wondered if there was anything else that you needed. There was meat, vegetables and fruit, there were even a couple bottles of wine, and nothing else was ringing in your brain that you needed to get. That would likely hit you only after you were home.
"I can't think of anything. Is there anything you want?"
Quinn looked just as lost as you did which is probably why he laughed at your question. "I can't think of anything either."
"Oh! I know!" You said, excitedly. "I've been craving breaded shrimp!"
"Really?"
"Yeah! Remember those sushi rolls I made with the fried shrimp, avocado and cucumber?"
His face lit up at the mention of sushi, "Those were so good! Are you saying we're having sushi for dinner?"
"Of course!"
- - -
"Here, take my card. I'm going to run out and get the car started and then I'll meet you out front and get them loaded, okay?"
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah," he said before placing another kiss your forehead. "Wait for me inside, please."
Not wanting to argue with him when he was being so kind and considerate, you nodded while he headed for the harsh world outside the store. It would take a while to get everything scanned and bagged, but eventually the time had come to brace for going back out into it.
Quinn was right where he said he would be, the silver SUV rolling into view when he saw you waiting there. He'd get out and insist on taking the cart while you got into the warmed interior of the car.
"I can help you," you begged, talking to him from the front seat.
"It's alright, babe, you just sit tight. I'm alright. Hockey player, remember?"
You'd roll your eyes at him while smiling. "I offered."
"I know you did, and I appreciate it."
Once everything was said and done, the heat was set on full as the two of you headed off from the grocery; safe and sound from the blistering wind battering the car.
"Anywhere else we need to go?" He asked, a cold hand finding your thigh.
"I just want to go home."
"Home it is."
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hi baby bells, or cheese factory tourists⊠ive come to feed you animal knowledge in the form of tooth-rotting ghost x reader fluff, today are PRARIE VOLESSSSS
Tipsy activities with Simon would include making out, celebrity gossip where you would blab about and he would listen or drunkenly make food which tasted either really bad or really good, no in between. But today you unlocked a new tipsy activity, watching animal documentaries together.
You were curled up next to Simon, wearing one of his old shirts and a random pair of underwear, a blanket wrapped tightly around you with a bowl of chips in your lap. Simon nursed a whiskey, oddly enough but it was 10 PM, reasonable time. Whatever. You were stressed out the entire fucking day, hence why you had a few drinks.
His mask was left forgotten on the coffee table as the both of you stared at the television, the star of the episode today were prairie voles, youâd learned now thanks to National Geographic that prairie voles are extremely affectionate animals. They sense when their partner is stressed then shower them in affection, just like you and Simon.
The scene switched to two voles grooming each other and you giggled and elbowed Simon in his side gently to get his attention, when you felt his eyes on you, you grinned. âThatâs literally us.â You spoke, jutting your chin to the screen as he looked at the screen and chuckled. âAye, thatâs us.â He spoke. âLetâs recreate that scene, hm?â He added.
He snatched the bowl of popcorn off your lap and put it on the coffee table next to his mask as he pulled you onto his lap and wrapped his arms around your waist, his touch gentle. He leaned in and started peppering kisses all over your face, neck, and shoulders as you giggled. âSimon!â You playfully scolded, trying to squirm away but his hold on you tightened.
âHm?â He hummed, smiling away as you grinned like an idiot, continuing his affection shower. Alcohol made him a lot more affectionate than usual, sober Simon was affectionate of course but tipsy Simon was so much more lovey with you. He was like a big lovebird, you debated at least weekly to get him drunk so that heâd shower you with love.
âYouâre so stupid.â You slurred as he snorted and kept kissing you, and not an inch of skin was left unloved, and it never would be as long as you had him. Somehow a big muscle wall of a soldier could transform into your own big stupid prairie vole, only for you.
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those little town blues (pt 1)
the modern percabeth ghost whisperer au. girl, at this point you have to trust me. first 5k or so as i edit the big mama doc for ao3. sorry not sorry to tease! i'd give this section a t rating
âFor someone who just moved here, you really know your way around,â Piper says. âI absolutely thought you were taking us to the wrong platform.âÂ
Two descending notes play through the speaker above their heads. The Q trainâs doors slide closed. The breaks release in a puffy exhale and the car lurches as they begin to move out of the Canal St station.Â
Annabeth shrugs. âI like research,â she says. âFigured if I was going to do the whole âmove to New York as a broke twenty-something,â I might as well be prepared for it.â
âWhat a load of baloney,â Percy says from somewhere behind her. âYou were walking right for the Downtown platform, too. You could say âthank you,â by the way.â
Piper doesnât reactâof course she doesnât. She just tells Annabeth with a sheepish smile, âmore than I did. God, this is so embarrassing, but I really did Uber everywhere for my first few weeks.â
âAsshole,â Percy cuts in again. âI canât stand people who do that.â
Annabeth kicks one foot back as subtly as possible. She doesnât feel it connect with his shin, but he does quiet down.
âYouâre getting the hang of it,â Annabeth reassures her. âSilena said you moved hereâwhat, two months before me?â
âSomething like that.â
âPlus, I did a lot of exploring in the past few weeks and got turned around a lot of times. Youâre seeing a well made facade.â
âIs that how you found that Wo Hop?â Piper asks. âGod, I canât get over that tofu. And it was in some random basement!â
While Piper waxes poetic about their lunch, Annabethâs eyes slide to the left. Itâs not an overly crowded subway car. Thereâs a couple pouring over the map on the wall, a short man reading a book in the seat parallel to the window, and around a dozen solo commuters buried in phones or listening to music.Â
But to Annabethâs left, leaning against the door, is a man with short cropped hair and an angular jaw. His button up shirt is untucked, wrinkled, and saturated with blood. She has to breathe through her mouth because she can smell it wafting off of him. From the corner of her eye, she can spot the elderly woman trying to read over the shoulder of the man by the window, ranting a rant he canât hear. And, of course, right behind her is Percy, dripping wet.Â
âI really hope youâre not about to take credit for finding Wo Hop on your own,â he says.Â
â...in an article, right?â Piper asks, forcing Annabeth to tune back in again.
âYeah, about the James Beard Foundation Awards,â Annabeth says. âItâs officially an American Classic.â
âFucking typical,â Percy says. âIâm not telling you where that halal cart is now.â
âSo cool,â Piper enthuses. âI didnât even realize how much food there was out there that Iâve never even tried, you know? This city is crazy.â
âBest city in the world,â Percy and Annabeth say in perfect unison.Â
Of course, only Annabeth and Percy know that.Â
//
It started on her third day in New York, because Annabeth has, in general, always had completely shit luck. With a week until her new job began and her boxes (almost) unpacked, she woke up to a sliver of perfect blue sky visible between the brick walls outside her window and decided to spend the day exploring.Â
While she waited for the shower to heat up, she drank a glass of waterâstraight from the tapâand looked around her joke of a studio apartment. Despite the near negative space she now called her own for the next twelve months, her singular closet was pitifully half empty.Â
Annabeth frowned into her water. Half full? Sheâd never had many clothes, was the point. The t-shirts and jeans sheâd favored in high school had stopped fitting once she started doing track and field more seriously, and her college dorm room hadnât offered an abundance of space, either.Â
She wandered back to the bathroom and stuck a hand under the tap. Only lukewarm. The previous two days' experience told her she had another minute before it would get hot, so she took out her phone and googled thrift stores nyc.Â
The results were almost too many to believe. She shook her head.Â
âBest city in the world,â she said to herself, and finally stripped down to step into the shower.Â
In the end, she chose a thrift store in lower Manhattan, a little to the east so it was on the yellow line and she wouldnât have to transfer trains. It was close to Washington Square Park, too, so she could check that off her architecture bucket list. Just like that, she had a plan for the dayâand Annabeth loved having a plan.
She flew down the four flights of stairs, keeping her eyes on her feet so she wouldnât get drawn into whatever was going on with the man who always lingered on the second floor landing. He left something in his jacket pocket, but Annabeth had never stuck around long enough to hear what it was or who he needed to tell. Sheâd get around to it eventually. Probably.
After riding the N train two stops in the wrong direction, she managed to get on a Manhattan and Brooklyn bound W. It was all part of the learning curve. The car was near empty, so close to the origin in Astoria, so she found a seat by the window and watched as the lower buildings of northwest Queens morphed into the skyscrapers of Long Island City before the train finally went underground. She pulled a book out of her tote bag before long and focused her gaze on the paper, even though the letters were swirling around the page so aggressively that she couldnât read a word.Â
Her dyslexia always got worse when she was stressed. She turned a page in her book, a perfect pantomime of reading, so that the three ghosts standing within fifteen feet of her donât realize that she can both see and hear them.Â
Spirits, earthbound souls, whatever. They were all ghosts, really, haunting people or places or things. She thought maybe they were haunting this specific subway car, except a man in a navy suit got off at 59th street and one of themâthe woman in bright red lipstick and a mink coatâfollowed him off.Â
Annabeth kept looking at her book, flipping forward a page every minute or so. She had long ago perfected the half-glazed over expression that tricked most ghosts into thinking she was just like everyone elseâunable to see them. It was a small part of the reason sheâd decided to move to New York: everyone here had that expression on. Everyone here avoided eye contact on the sidewalk and went about their business, so maybeâjust maybeâAnnabeth wouldnât acquire her usual ârude and standoffishâ reputation.Â
One of the ghosts sat down next to her. He was mumbling in a language she didn't recognize. Hungarian, maybeâa relief. She wouldnât have to try so hard to not react if he said something appalling.Â
Annabeth turned to the next page in her book. She didnât even remember what it was about. The stops got more frequent in Manhattan, crawling at times only five blocks between stations after Times Square, before the W finally pulled into 8th Street-NYU.Â
Annabeth put her book back into her tote and stood, edging around the ghostâs legs with a mumbled, âexcuse me.â
She realized her mistake two steps later, when the voice got panicked and excited, rapid-fire consonant heavy speech trying to get her attention again. Annabeth kept her head down and walked towards the closest exit like she knew it would take her where she wanted. It worked, either because he thought it was a fluke or he was tied enough to that train car to stay put, and when she walked up into the autumn sunlight she was once again alone.Â
Not unhaunted. She was never really unhaunted, but she could beâhowever brieflyâalone.Â
Maps told her that the Buffalo Exchange was close, only a few blocks south. She made her way there, realized she was on the wrong side of the street, and blatantly jaywalked to get to her destination. One thing she certainly would not miss about California was driving and cars and mechanics. She hoped Clarisse would love the hunk of bolts Annabeth couldnât have more joyously parted with.
The thrift store wasnât too crowded inside, because it was around 11 on a Tuesday, so Annabeth took her time. She started in the back, sifting through womenâs cut jeans and giving up quickly, moving to the menâs section in the front where the inseams were longer. She found a few potential successes, all dark wash enough that she could probably dress them up for work, and made her way towards one of the circular clothing racks in the middle of the shop.Â
Annabeth hadnât lived on the east coast since she was twelve, but she remembered the cold bite of the winters. She didnât have nearly enough sweaters to get her through January and February, only a few short months away. A few hoodies with stains and holes got flipped past, but eventually she came across a maroon crewneck with a faded lettering that said MONTAUK. She threw it on over her shirt and managed to catch her reflection in a nearby mirrorâexactly the kind of baggy sheâs always preferred. Perfect.Â
âThatâs mine,â someone said.
Annabeth looked over and gasped. Standing next to her, soaked from head to foot, was a guy about her age. He was a bit taller, with dark hair plastered to his head and green eyes so bright they forced the air out of Annabethâs lungs. Every inch of him was dripping water in the middle of the perfectly dry Buffalo Exchange.
âYou can see me,â he realized, eyes getting wider. âYou can actuallyâholy fuck.âÂ
She bought the sweater, in the end, because she stopped letting ghosts decide what she was and wasnât going to do a long time ago. PercyâIâm Percy, by the way, can you still see me?â didnât seem to mind, even as she ignored him and checked out with her new pants and sweater.Â
âI know you can hear me,â Percy said, following her out the door. âYouâre not a very good actor, you know.â
Annabeth pulled out her headphones and slipped them on. She fiddled with her phone, miming a call, and finally turned to face the very wet ghost beside her.Â
âPercy, you said?â She asked.Â
He grinned. âYes! Yeah, Iâm Percy. I canât believe you can hear me. Itâs, like, so great to talk to someone.â
âIâm Annabeth.â She didnât reach out to shake his hand, because they wouldnât be able to anyway. âIâm going to the park. Want to come?â
They walked the two blocks to the north side of the park, until Annabeth stood directly under Stanford Whiteâs famous arch. She knew it already, of courseâthe Tuckahoe marble used to construct it, the fact that it commemorated the centennial of George Washingtonâs presidential address in 1789âbut Annabethâs favorite thing about architecture isnât facts or materials. Itâs the way she feels looking at it; itâs something about the innate nature of human beings and the way they just canât help their desire to create.
She could see Percy out of the corner of her eye, watching her. As she stood there, her gaze still fixed upward, someone in a purple t-shirt walked right through him.
âOkay,â she finally said. âWhatâs your deal? Normally Iâve gotten a whole life story by now.â
âNormally,â he repeated. âThis happen to you a lot?â
âLook, do you see a white light?â Annabeth asked, already losing her patience.Â
âA what?â
âGod, I can really pick âem,â Annabeth muttered to herself. âA white light. Bright, blinding even. Maybe a loved one standing there waiting for you? Walk into it.â
âIâwhat?âÂ
âUnless thereâs something youâve left unfinished?â Annabeth prompted. It usually went smoother if the ghost came to terms on their own, but this whole conversation was messing with Annabethâs plan for the day. She wanted it over and done with.
âWhat are you talking about?â Percy asked, his accent hitting harder than it had before. His ah vowel was like an A and U and W smushed together. âWhy are you the only one who can see me?â
Annabeth closed her eyes. âFuck,â she said. âSeriously? This is just my luck.â She turned back to Percy, kind of vaguely relishing how no one around them seemed to care that she was talking to thin air. âYouâre dead.â
Percy blinked at her. A drop of water made its way down the arch of his nose. âWhat?â
âI can see ghosts. Spirits. People who havenât yet moved on.â She let that sink in for a moment, then added, âlike you.â
âMoved on to what?â He asked, his voice getting louder with pure panic.Â
âYour guess is as good as mine,â she said. âIâm not dead. I just have the pleasure of seeing all of you on your journey in between.â
âFuck. What the fuck?â Percy started to pace, his hands on his head. âI canât be dead! Thatâs such bullshit. Iâve never even left the tri-state area! And I donât know what the hell youâre talking about, ladyââ
âAnnabeth.â
ââAnnabeth, because there ainât no fuckinâ light, alright? Thereâs just this stupid park and a bunch of asshole NYU students walking right through me, and apparently, the only person who can see me is a goddamn Yankees fan, which is fucking rich. And!â He turned back to her, an almost triumphant expression on his face. âAnd I bet you youâre not from here, am I right? No shot.â
âIâm fromâŠâ Annabeth trailed off. She couldâve said Virginia, or the Bay Area, or something else. In the end, she just confirmed his suspicion. âIâm not from here, youâre right. This is my third day in New York.â
That made him laugh uproariously, too dramatic to be earnest, his hands flung out to the sides. âOf course! A fucking transplant in a Yankees hat. I can hardly believe my luck.â
With him standing facing her once more, Annabeth finally saw the logo made dark by his wet t-shirt. A baseball with dark blue skyline and orange piping, Mets written out across the front.Â
âAre you done?â Annabeth asked. âI want to go see the narrowest house in the city next.â
âIâm not a tour guide,â he seethed.
âWhich way is Bedford Street?â
He pointed behind him. âLike, six blocks that way.â
And so Annabethâs first friend in the big city was a chronically damp, kind of asshole ghost named Percy.
//
âSilena said Piper liked you,â Clarisse says. Theyâre playing Battleship online as they FaceTime, both unwilling to admit that they want to talk for the sake of talking, and certainly unwilling to admit they might miss each other.Â
Itâs one thing to move across the country to an apartment youâve never actually seen for the sake of a life you think you might like, and another to do it knowing youâll leave behind the two best friends youâve made in your entire twenty-two years on Earth.Â
That are still alive, at least.
âShe was cool,â Annabeth says. âSo different from Silena, though. We got greasy Chinese food.â
Clarisse snorts. âUh, yeah. Duh. Get sunk, by the way.â Her missile lands in open water. âSeriously? What the hell.â
âBe better,â Annabeth replies, confidently clicking on G3. Sure enough, a tiny explosion graphic goes off on G3.Â
âWhat theâis there someone behind me giving you clues? I know thatâs how you kept winning poker night in junior yearââ
âI canât see ghosts through FaceTime, that would be ridiculous,â Annabeth scoffs.Â
âOh, thatâs ridiculous,â Clarisse scowls. âSure.â One of her shots finally connects, but Annabethâs still smiling, two ships in the lead.Â
âDid I tell you Iâve got a new one?â Annabeth asks, pulling her fidget cube out from its drawer and flicking one side of it.Â
âA Casper? No.â
âHis nameâs Percy. Heâs wet.â
âIs that some kind of horrible New York slang?â
âWhat?â Annabeth laughs. âNo, heâs actually wet. Like, dripping water.â
âThatâs new.â
âPlus, he had no idea he was dead. Bizarre.â
Clarisse frowns. Clarisse always looks like sheâs frowning, so itâs really hard to tell when she actually is, but at this point Annabethâs had years of practice. âThatâs happened before,â she says.
Annabeth gets a flash of sun-bleached blond hair and that awful scar in her mindâs eye before she manages to shove it back into the box in the corner of her mind. âSânot common, though,â she says. âUsually means the death was traumatic.âÂ
âNot to play Silena,â Clarisse says slowly, finally managing to figure out which way Annabethâs submarine is pointing, âbut should you be doing this?â
âTalking to you?â Annabeth snarks. Her next shot misses.Â
âGetting wrapped up in helping a ghost your first few weeks in New York. Isnât that why you left California? Oh, get fucked, I knew that was your battleship.âÂ
Annabeth shuts that right down. âI left because I got a job. I knew New York would have a lot of earthbound spirits; that was kind of a given, itâs huge. And yeah, I did say I was going to try and focus on me a little more, butâŠI donât know, thereâs something about him.â
Clarisse looks like she doesnât know what to do with that. âHeâsâŠnice?â She asks.
Annabeth laughs. âUh, no. Iâm not sure I would be if I just found out I was dead, so.â She shrugs. âI wonât be able to help him cross over until he starts to remember more, anyway. Googling âPercy NYCâ got me a dollar pizza place in the West Village and some place called Percyâs Tavern that isnât even open anymore.â
âSilenaâs going to be so pissed that all we talked about on our call is your new familiar.â
Annabeth sinks Clarisseâs final ship. âNo, sheâs not.â
Clarisse raises her eyebrows. âOh, yeah?â
âMhm.â Annabeth smirks. âBecause you get to tell her that the new ghost is, like, seriously hot.â
Clarisse just shakes her head, grinning. âShe is going to love that. Damn. Well, good luck. Iâll call whenever my ego can handle a rematch.â
âOkay,â Annabeth says softly. âBye.â
âLove you. No homo.âÂ
Before Annabeth can reply, she gets hung up on.
âTypical,â she says to her empty studio apartment. No one, alive or dead, replies.
//
âAlright,â Annabeth says as she steps out of her office building, her headphones on. âWhere am I getting lunch?â
âIâm not telling you,â Percy sulks. âYou just abuse my knowledge. I spent a lifetime accumulating this stuff, only to give it away to some yuppie. Barf.â
Annabeth picks a direction and starts walking. âI read that Ess-a-Bagel is good,â she says, already knowing what will happen next with only a week and a half of experience.
âOverrated,â Percy says. He canât seem to help himself. âLike, itâs good, but they only put the seeds nâ shit on one side. Shmear options are okay,â he adds a little begrudgingly.
âLike, cream cheese?â
âLike, cream cheese?â Percy mocks, his voice high-pitched and whiny. âIf you ask for them to scoop out your bagel, Iâm actually going to start haunting you.â
âAs opposed to what this is,â Annabeth murmurs to herself, well aware that he can hear her.Â
âHey! Iâm, like, super chill. I havenât even tried to get your lights to flicker.â
âYouâve never even appeared in my apartment,â Annabeth acquiesces. âOr at work.â
He shrugs, falling into step beside her. âSeems rude.âÂ
Annabeth almost stops in the middle of the sidewalk, sheâs so surprised. âOkay, thatâs a first.â
âAre the people you see always rude?â
She wrinkles her nose. âItâs more likeâŠitâs all on their terms. No oneâs ever been that concerned about appearing in the middle of my calc final, for example.â
âYikes.â
âExactly.â Despite having the light, she looks both ways before joining the crowd in crossing 6th. One of the idling cars honks at her.
Percy flips the car off. It doesnât make a difference to anyone but her, but she appreciates it. âIf you want to spend too much money on a bagel, Iâm not going to stop you,â he tells her.Â
Annabeth walks into Herald Square; sheâd rather go through a tiny park than down the crowded sidewalk. âWhere would you go for a bagel?â
âAbsolute Bagels. 108 and Broadway.â
She snorts out a laugh. âYou knew that answer way too quickly.â
âIâm tired of these bougie, overpriced bagels! Absolute is good enough I drag my ass to the west sideâthatâs how you know itâs legit.â
âSo youâre from the east side,â Annabeth follows, nodding. âOkay, thatâs something. Remember anything more specific?â
âYeah.â Percy grins proudly, pushing his wet bangs out of his face. âEl Barrio, baby! Proud of it. Just off 2nd andâŠâ His grin fades. âShit. Goddamn it.â
âItâs okay,â Annabeth soothes. âThatâs something. Iâm assuming thatâsâŠa Hispanic neighborhood?â
âSpanish Harlem,â he says. âEast side, north of, like, 96.â He wrinkles his nose in distaste. âThese days, north of 110.â
Theyâre already on the other side of Herald Square; Percy picks up into a jog. Annabeth follows suit, only realizing that heâs trying to catch the light before it changes a few seconds later. They make it to the other side and slow back to a walk.Â
âIf you want,â Annabeth offers, âI could go there. With you, I mean. We could walk around, maybe spark a memory.â
âYouâd do that?â Percy asks, his voice almost severe in its sudden quiet volume.Â
Annabeth shrugs. She pauses on the corner, barely a moment of hesitation, but Percy points diagonally to the side of the street she wants to be on. With a wince of thanks, she says, âI want to see more of the city. Might as well check off a good deed while Iâm at it.âÂ
âWell, I can make it worth your while,â he says with a confident nod. âDâyou like Italian food?âÂ
âAm I human?â
âOkay, so weâll swing by Patsyâs, then. Oh, or Samâs! And that bakery with the killer conchasââ
âI have no idea what that is, but Iâm sold,â Annabeth says. âWhy does Spanish Harlem have Italian food?â
He shrugs, sending tiny flicks of water flying. âDunno. Better Italian food than Little Italy, though.â
âHavenât seen it yet,â Annabeth says, pushing her way into the surprisingly large bagel shop and immediately struggling to focus.Â
âItâs mostly gone, honestly. Hey, you good?â
âHm?â Annabeth blinks away from the menu behind the counter. âOh, yeah, itâs just loud in here. You werenât kidding about the cream cheese.â
Percy doesnât say much as they wait in line, or as she ordersâtoasted sesame bagel with olive cream cheeseâbut he sort of squints his eyes, like heâs sizing her up.Â
âWhat?â She hisses out of the corner of her mouth as the cashier rings up her order.Â
Percy shrugs, the movement of his shoulders just barely visible out of the corner of her eye. âNothing.â
She raises as much of an eyebrow as she dares, smiling quickly at the cashier, tapping her credit card, and hoping to get back outside as quickly as possible.
âItâs clearly not nothing,â Annabeth says once theyâre on their way again. The bagel is hot even through the paper bag itâd been stuffed in.Â
Percy moves like he wants to grab the door for her, then awkwardly follows her as she jerks it open herself. âI just think youâre a sociopath for getting olive cream cheese.â
Annabeth rolls her eyes. âYouâre so dramatic. Ever heard of not yucking someone elseâs yum?â
âNope. Where we headed?â
âI thought weâd sit in the park?âÂ
âThe squirrels are going to maul you.â
âWell, youâve never seen me fight before.âÂ
Privately, even as Percy laughs, she casts a few suspicious glances at lingering squirrels as they make their way into the park. Most are high in the trees or lingering around the trash cans. She picks a free table thatâs far away from both, sits down, and kicks out the empty chair so that Percy can sit down, too.
âI feel like a food critic,â she says, unwrapping her lunch. She opens the bagel using two hands to get the visual, her stomach rumbling at the sight of cream cheese going a little runny from being sandwiched between two warm halves of bagel. âExcept kind of like Iâm cheating, you know? I havenât had to look up any new things to try in two weeks.â
âYouâre welcome,â Percy says. He rubs at one eye and flicks the water off his hand after. âBut I feel like you should know that Iâm not telling you everything.â
Annabeth gasps in mock offence. âBut youâre so endeared by me.â
âLie. Iâm living vicariously through you.â
âBy not telling me everything?â Annabeth asks cheekily, taking her first, relatively heavenly bite.
âYou know what?â Percy says, clearly trying to sound pissed off but failing by laughing halfway through his sentence. He flicks some water at her, and Annabeth swears she can feel it land on her arm.Â
âWhatâre these big secrets youâve been keeping?â She asks. âItâs not like Iâve gotten food poisoning or anything.â
Percy sighs, still kind of smiling. âWell, then they wouldnât be secrets, would they? Gotta keep some stuff for the locals.â
Annabeth pouts. Percy rolls his eyes.
âFine, whatever.â He jerks his thumb over his shoulder, gesturing back across the street. âYou didnât have to wait on line in there.â
Annabeth chews slowly, trying to figure out whatâs been lost in translation. âIâŠordered in person?â She says. âI didnât use, like, an app or something.âÂ
Percy looks just as confused. âYeah, I was there. Iâm saying you couldâve skipped the line.â
âNo, you said I didnât need to be online.â
âYeah,â he repeats a little slower. âYou didnât have to wait on the line. Have you, like, stopped being able to hear me?â
âWho says wait on the line?â Annabeth asks incredulously. âYou wait in a line, Percy.â
âEverybody says that! Thereâs an invisible line on the ground, and we all stand on it.â
Annabeth takes a bite without looking away from him, wondering how she ended up here. âIâve literally never heard that before in my life,â she says through her mouthful. âOnline is the internet. You wait in a line. I live in a city. I ride in a car.â
âYou get on a bus. I ride on the subway. And I wait,â Percy says, leaning in, âon line.âÂ
âMaybe youâre not dead,â Annabeth theorizes. âMaybe youâre a demon raised from hell, come to torment me. Maybe youâre from an alternate universe!â
âThis is what I get for revealing the schmear only express line at Ess-a-Bagel.â Percy shakes his head. âI shouldâa known.â
âWhat?â Annabeth asks. âI didnât have to wait in that stupid fucking line?â
Percy throws his hands up. âThatâs what Iâve been saying!â
âTell me that before next time. You had to wait in the line, too.â
He shrugs. âNot so bad. Iâve got nowhere to be.â
It sends her into a little bit of a tailspin. Sure, heâs actively dripping water on an otherwise dry and sunny day, but heâs around her age and died relatively recently, if the in-style cut of his jeans is anything to go by. Heâs easy to talk to. Itâs easy to forget heâs dead.
Annabeth takes another bite of her bagel. Itâs a little strange that the sesame seeds are only on one side, but itâs just the right amount of chewy and pretty big for what she paid. The olive cream cheese is more of a disappointment, but sheâs not going to tell Percy that.
âThis is really good,â she says. âYour place is better? Or are you going to gatekeep that now?â
âOh, shut up. Itâs not like Absolute is a big secret, theyâve got a crazy line all weekend.â
âGood to know.â
âI donât fuck around when it comes to bagels, Annabeth. Honestly, have any of my food recommendations let you down?â
âNo,â she agrees. âWhy do you think you remember all of that so well?â
He shrugs, his eyes sliding to the side. Annabeth doesnât think heâs particularly interested in the squirrel eating a cigarette butt, so he probably just wants to avoid looking at her. It strikes her somewhere beneath her ribs, how sad it is, to wander around your home with only the innocuous pieces left.
Not for the first time, she wonders what will happen when she dies. Will someone see her? Will she even know that sheâs dead? Will she be here, or in San Francisco, or on Berkeleyâs campus, or back in Richmond? Has she ever known a place her soul would cling to?
âWhatâs your favorite thing about New York?â Annabeth asks, deciding suddenly to change tactics. âSince you keep insisting us transplants donât knowââ
ââknow shit about shit,â Percy finishes. He looks back at her. âUh, itâs the best city in the world.â
Annabeth rolls her eyes. âI know that. Thatâs why I moved here. You could argue that means I love it more than you.â
âShut up,â Percy says, his face screwed up with indignation. âNo, it doesnât!â
âGreat comeback,â she drawls.Â
âOkay, I love the people,â Percy answers. âI love New Yorkers, and the way we treat each other.â
âLike?â Annabeth prompts him.
âWe leave each other alone, but if Iâm short a dollar on groceries thereâs almost always someone whoâll cover me. And I justâŠI love walking places, and the subway, and I love it when I hop the turnstyle so smooth you canât even tell I jumped it. I love the old guys who play chess in the park. The graffiti. I love riding the bus at night and Biggie, and shitting on Jersey and the goddamn Mets. I love not giving a fuck, I guess.âÂ
âWell, thatâs things you love, but whatâs your favorite?â Annabeth pushes. âMine is easy, itâs theââ
ââthe architecture, I know,â Percy finishes again. âI like that, too. IâŠwell, maybe itâs the food. The food here is the best.â
Percy has admitted to never going anywhere else, so Annabeth doesnât really know how he knows itâs the best, but she doesnât call him on it.Â
âBut my favoriteâŠâ Percy goes a little still, like heâs remembered something. âMy favorite thing when I was a kid is gone now,â he says.Â
âYeah?â Annabeth prompts
âYeah. It was on the west side, if you can believe it. When you got off an uptown 1 at 79th, if you went up the staircase that took you to the northwest cornerâthere used to be a Circuit City there, next to the DSW.â
âThereâs a name I havenât heard in a while,â Annabeth mutters.
âYeah, it closed ages ago, but it was in this little, two story building. And it meant, when you were going up the stairs, if you looked up all you could see was the sky. Like the sky was the ocean and you got to go down the ladder and jump into it.â He goes quiet for a moment. Then, ânow thereâs an ugly fucking apartment building.â
Annabeth resists the urge to scoff. âYou think any new building is ugly.â
âThatâs not true! I like the Jenga building downtown.â
âThe JengaâŠâ Annabeth thinks. âYou mean 56 Leonard?â
âIs 56 Leonard the building that looks like a wonky Jenga tower?â
âIââ She sighs. âYes. But itâs a Herzog & de Meuron.â
âYouâre a hotdog and demure one.â
âYouâre not that funny.â
He shrugs. âI dunno, youâre smiling.â
Youâre flirting, Annabeth realizes. Youâre flirting with a ghost, and heâs flirting back.Â
âI can show you the ugly building some time,â he offers, blinking some water out of his eyelashes. âItâs right by the Natural History Museum. You like museums, right?â
âMy second favorite thing about New York,â Annabeth confirms, and just manages to stop herself from saying itâs a date.Â
//
Her dad texts her on a Saturday morning, the first time heâs reached out since she moved to the east coast, and his message reads [ Hi, Annabeth. I hope youâre settling in well at your new job. How is New York? Let me know when you might be free to talk.]
She doesnât respond for three days. Whatâs there to say? She wishes she could explain to him that you can walk south on the east side of Broadway, from Grand to Howard, and you can look up and see the top of One World Trade peak through the buildings. You can look down so you wonât trip over the subway grate, and when you look back up again 56 Leonard has taken its place.Â
She could tell him that if you walk past the entrance to the NQWR to the corner of Canal, you can see all of Herzog & de Meuronâs creativity, bottom to top, and you can decide that from then on out youâll be calling it the Jenga Tower. She could type it out, or even try and call and inevitably tell him in a voicemail, but he wouldnât get it. Heâd probably say something ridiculous, like ask what Jenga was, or tell her about an exhibit that has something to do with planes thatâs soon to arrive in the tri-state area, and Annabeth would remember why she hadnât reached out either.
Instead, she tells him about work, and doesnât talk about buildings or bagel shops or the bitter and charming conundrum of a ghost thatâs taken to appearing at her shoulder as she makes a city her father hates her home.Â
#ghost whisperer au#my writing#percabeth#percabeth au#sorry to be chaotic again! but its fun#if u like a part of this and tell me what part i will immediately go into a fugue state where i write nonstop for many days#xoxo
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ivy: and now Iâm covered in you..
she canât seem to keep herself out of trouble and it irritates him more than it should
(part 4)
masterlist / ivy series
word count: 14.3k
warnings/tags: harry x fem oc, alcohol use, angst, enemies to lovers
The small weekend getaway came quicker than Ivy anticipated it would. She had three weeks to mentally prepare for literally anything that was possible. Would she have a perfect weekend with no rude comments or harsh death glares, or would she feel the wrath of someone in particularâs attitude? She wasnât sure, but she hoped she would be able to enjoy her time away. For the rather short car ride, she made sure to pack her current diary so she could jot down her thoughts if things become too chaotic in her mind.
Ivy mumbled a quiet âthank youâ to Niall as he grabbed her bag from her and tossed it in the trunk of his car.
âGot everything?â Emma asked just as Ivy grabbed the car door to get in.
âYeah, I triple checked.â
Unfortunately for her, all the preparation she did to ensure herself that sheâd be able to handle any situation that occured within the group was pretty much wasted. Emma told her that Niall insisted they carpool, and that they ride with him. That part wasnât the issue, of course, it was the fact that someone else would be joining them. When Ivy opened the back door and quietly got in the car, she felt a pair of cold eyes looking her way.
Harry offered up the front seat to Emma, which led him to the back with her. He wasnât necessarily thrilled with the arrangement either, but he could easily get over it, unlike Ivy. She was already feeling the nervousness building in her gut, threatening to spill out of her mouth and empty her stomach contents. No amount of preparation could have prepared her for this. She hadnât been this close to him before, the table at the restaurant was much wider than the space between them in the car. Thankfully, Niall placed Emmaâs rolled up throw blanket in the middle, securing the separation between them.
âAlright. Letâs hit the road.â Niall said with a sigh as he shut his door and quickly adjusted his rear view mirror.
Ivy had her small tote bag resting on her lap, it was filled with a few essential things along with some random things to keep her occupied in the car and during downtime at the hotel. She wanted to grab her diary already, they hadnât even left the neighbor yet, and spill her guts out onto the pages. The radio was quietly buzzing in the car as Niall and Emma chatted amongst themselves about the directions. She was glad it wasnât completely silent, and she was even more appreciative of the fact nobody was trying to make conversation with her.
She opted to let her eyes stare mindlessly out of the window as Niall navigated through the city. So far, she was content with his driving and she wasnât feeling any sort of motion sickness from riding. Maybe this would be better than she first thought. As long as she was able to stay calm and focused on everything but the person next to her, then sheâd be perfectly fine.
Thirty minutes into the drive, Ivy decided that she needed to busy herself with a task before she got the chance to get lost in her thoughts. She reached into her bag and pulled out the small book she had been using as a diary the past few weeks. She wrote an awful lot, so she filled books quickly. Her newest choice was a travel sized spiral bound notebook with a thick front cover decorated with a few random stickers she had. She clicked the pen, flipping to the page where she left off last. She wasnât concerned with writing neatly, so she just held it in her opposite hand as she started to write.
Words were coming naturally to her, her thoughts filling the page so easily. This book just so happened to be slap full of inserts that pertained to Harry. They werenât her thoughts of infatuation and obsession, but instead it was the worry and anxious ideas that lined the pages. After a few lines, she paused on the writing and decided to doodle a small flower in the lower corner of the page.
âHarry?â Niall said loud enough to catch Ivyâs attention.
She lifted her head and saw that Niall was looking in the mirror at him, but he was obviously not successful in getting him to answer. She looked over and saw that he had his arms over his chest, earbuds in his ears, and his eyes were staring out of the window. His music was loud enough for her to tell that he had it on, but she couldnât make out anything specific.
âHeâs listening to music.â She said after Niall called his name again.
He huffed. âCan you hit him? I need him to text Zayn.â
Ivy felt her throat start to swell. She had been so relaxed and calm during the drive, but it was all circling down the drain now. Niall had asked her a simple question, wanted her to do a small favor - she couldnât act like he said something insane. She swallowed gently and pulled all of her courage together. Her heart stammered over a beat, missing it entirely, as she reached over to him. Ivy tapped her fingertip against his arm, just above his elbow. He didnât jump or flinch, he simply turned his head to look at her. His brows were lowered, a bit of confusion on his expression. She expected him to react differently, assumed he would scream at her or ask her why she thought she could touch him.
When she pointed towards Niall, Harry dropped his eyes to his phone and picked it up from his leg, pausing his music and looking at Niallâs reflection in the mirror.
âWhat?â He mumbled out, not entirely pleased with being disturbed but it wasnât that big of a deal.
âCan you text Zayn and ask them how far out they are? Coryâs driving them.â
Harry nodded, unlocking his phone so he could type. âYeah.â
Ivy had already turned her attention back to her diary, but she was still working on the small bouquet of flowers she was drawing in the corner. It was definitely nothing artistic or perfect, just a little doodle to fill the space. She was aware of Harryâs presence again, and she didnât want him to see her writing. After a couple of silent moments, she flipped the book shut and laid her hand over it, her curious eyes moving to the window.
âHe said theyâve got like half an hour.â Harry said, his deep voice rattling through the car and cutting straight through the wall Ivy built up to avoid him.
She shifted her head enough so that she could look at him from the corner of her eye. An obvious stare would be entirely too awkward while in the car, so she stuck to her sneaky glances.
After assuming Niall didnât want to say anything else to him, Harry turned his music back on and reverted to his previous position. Ivy found it intriguing how he was slowly moving his fingers that were tucked beneath his arm. The simple gesture was making her bite the inside of her cheek. He wasnât even aware of it himself, yet she was focused on it like it was the most spectacular thing.
She couldnât resist looking at the tattoos she could see living on his skin. The dark ink settled in his flesh was eye catching, she wondered if he had more she couldnât see. While observing him from this point of view, she noticed a piercing hole in his lobe. She made a mental note to try to catch a glimpse of his other one to see if thereâs a matching hole. She hadnât noticed any earrings before, so maybe he didnât wear them often. Her tongue poked out to coat her lips as she looked at his long eyelashes, they were resting gently on his cheek. Was he asleep? No, she didnât think so. He just was relaxing and closing his eyes for a while. Her question was answered within a second as his eyes slowly peeled open, his gaze fixed on the window.
She moved her eyes down his frame. He was wearing a faded t-shirt with a design on the front that his arms hid from her view. He ditched his dark jeans for sweatpants, she supposed to be more comfortable during the drive. She was surprised he could appear so relaxed and normal, instead of uptight and cocky.
Ivy finally picked her eyes back up, choosing to stare at his face for a bit longer. Her eyes widened and flames burst on her cheeks as she met his eyes. She stayed like that, just staring at him, for a long moment. She wondered what he was thinking. Surely something along the lines of âthis girl is crazyâ. She felt the eruption of butterflies in her stomach, causing her to rip her gaze from his. She opted to stare at the back of the seat in front of her, embarrassed to have been caught by him. It wasnât the first time she had been caught staring at him, and she feared it wouldnât be the last.
He didnât say anything to her, though. He wasnât annoyed or irritated, he only looked her way because her stare was so intense. He could feel it on him, burning holes through him. Maybe she was just looking around the car while thinking about something and her eyes just so happened to land on him, or maybe it was purposeful - he wasnât certain. He didnât look away from her just yet. It was so easy to tell she was nervous. Was it because he caught her or was it because they were so close? It was most likely both. Harry ran his eyes over her, taking in her appearance and body language. She was like a statue, not daring to move one little bit. He just knew that if she looked back his way and saw he was still eyeing her down, sheâd combust.
For the remainder of the drive, Ivy kept her eyes down on her notebook and Harry fixated his on the back of his eyelids. She was grateful that he had fallen asleep and couldnât give her glances that took her breath away and made her heart race. The ride itself was calming, though. Niall and Emma didnât talk much, just listened to the radio. Once they got to the hotel, Ivy sent Michelle a text to let her know they were there. They would be sharing a room for the weekend. The others arrived way before them and already had their room keys.
Niall popped the trunk and gestured for everyone to take their bags. Ivy reached in for hers, tugging it out of the pile and shoving the strap on her shoulder. She stepped back and accidentally brushed her bag against Harry. She didnât notice, but he did. A light sigh came from his lips as she walked off to the door. Emma was following close behind her.
âWe all should be on the same floor.â Emma said as they entered the lobby.
Ivy glanced over her shoulder. âI think so. Michelle said ours is on three.â
âUgh. I have to wait for Niall to check in.â She groaned as Ivy headed to the elevator.
She stopped and decided to wait with Emma instead, just so she wouldnât be by herself. Niall and Harry strolled through the door together, talking about something neither of the girls could hear. Niall went to the counter, leaving Harry to head to the elevator.
âGuess Iâll go over there.â Emma mumbled, grabbing her bag from the floor, then started the short trip to Niall.
Ivy took a deep breath as she prepared herself for what was about to come. She beat Harry to the elevator, but when she pushed the button it decided to be extremely slow. Cory was his roommate for the weekend, and he was waiting upstairs like everyone else. Harry came up behind her, his eyes fixed on the elevator door as he waited. Ivy wanted to throw up right there, just wanted to lose her mind and all control of her body. She didnât want to be alone with him.
When the door opened, someone stepped out and gave them both a polite smile. Ivy returned it, she was sure Harry didnât. She chose the spot closest to the control panel, hoping that Harry would wait for the next one. He didnât do that, of course, he got on with her. He stood in the back corner, the furthest he could get from her in the small space. She pressed in the three button and glanced back at Harry, but when he didnât say anything about a different floor, she turned her eyes back to the display of buttons.
The elevator was moving at snail speed. It felt like absolute torture. He was right behind her and there was nothing she could do to change it right now. She had to deal with it, and to be frank, she was failing at doing so. Her stomach was flipping and twisting inside of her body, her heart racing and skipping beats like she was falling from an airplane. Her feet felt like they weighed a ton as she stood still, not wanting to move any closer to him by accident.
Finally, after what felt like a torturous eternity, the elevator stopped and the door opened. Harry let her walk out first, and she did her best to get a good distance ahead of him. She didnât know where his room was, and she didnât necessarily care, she just had to find hers first. His strides were much longer than hers, and he was practically walking beside her down the hall. He kept space between them. It was obvious to him that she didnât feel comfortable being so close to him, so he tried to keep the distance.
Her eyes hastily scanned over the room numbers, wishing that hers would magically appear. It seemed as though she was walking down an endless hall. Her worrying had taken over her body. In reality, her room was just a short walk from the elevator. She stopped as she found the room number, a sigh of relief escaping past her lips. She knocked on the door and waited patiently for Michelle to open it. Curiously, she turned her head to see where Harry ended up, and to her dismay.. his room just happened to be right next to hers.
A cool whiff of air made her skin crawl as Michelle opened the door, a smile on her face as she greeted Ivy with a quick hug. She grabbed her hand and pulled her inside the room.
âI havenât picked a bed yet. I didnât know your preference.. whether you wanted by the window or what.â Michelle said with a laugh as Ivy dropped her bag in front of the empty dresser.
âIt doesnât matter to me. Iâll take this one, I guess.â She gestured to the one closest to the window.
âPerfect!â Michelle picked her own bag off the floor and tossed it on the bed that was now hers for the weekend. âHow was the drive?â
Ivy copied her, moving her bag onto the bed so she could unpack a few essential things. âIt was nice. It was quiet and peaceful.â
Michelle scoffed. âPeaceful? With Niall and Harry?â
Ivy shrugged lightly as she crossed her legs on the bed. âWe didnât really.. talk or anything. I think everyone was tired.â
When she looked towards Michelle, she didnât expect to be met with a narrow gaze and pursed lips. She didnât look like she believed what had been said to her. Ivy tried to ignore it, maybe she was just in shock that Niallâs energetic demeanor wasnât present during the drive.
âSo.. nothing else happened with Harry?â Michelle asked curiously as she took out the ensemble she would be wearing later.
âNo.. He didnât say anything to me. It was very calm.â
âWell thatâs good. Maybe heâs warming up to you.â
Michelleâs words were comical. If anything, they were more cold to each other than when they first met. Ivy didnât want to be in the same room with him, and he didnât seem to give a damn about her existence. She decided to let it go and not focus on the worrying thoughts right now.
âHow was the drive for you?â Ivy asked, wanting to change the topic away from herself.
Michelle shook her head. âIt was interesting. Cory and Zayn had some weird conversations.â
âI can only imagine. Iâve only heard a few of their stories.. but I already know theyâre crazy together.â
As Michelle got up to grab one of the hotel hangers, she continued talking. âYeah, theyâre a good time, though. Hey, you missed our last show. Are you gonna come to the next one?â
Ivy swallowed as she contemplated what to say back. She purposely chose to skip the show two weeks ago. Emma begged her for days to change her mind, but she ultimately decided it would be better if she didnât. She didnât want to be around Harry at the time. The dinner situation had soured her feelings again, made her very confused with herself. Niall wasnât offended by her decision, though, he assured her they would have another show soon that she could attend. She used the excuse of being overworked and wanting to relax, and it worked for the most part.
âUm, probably. I told Emma I would.â She said almost hesitantly. She didnât want to promise something then change her mind and break it. âWhen is it?â
âThree weeks.â Michelle said as she fixed her outfit on the hanger and put it in the small closet. She didnât want it to have wrinkles once it was time to get dressed.
âIâll try to. I wonât make any other plans or anything.â
âGood! We can have a redo. Hopefully everything will go perfectly.â
Ivy let out an unamused laugh. âYeah.. hopefully.â
âZayn and Alyssa are across the hall, by the way. And Cory and Harry are next to us.â Michelle said as she glanced down at her phone, a text coming through. âAnd looks like Niall and Emma are a few rooms down.â
Ivy didnât say, just gave her a nod when Michelle looked over at her. She felt a sting in her stomach as she realized Harry was on the other side of the wall she was staring at. What was he doing in there? Was he catching up with Cory, was he unpacking his clothes, was he laying down to finish the nap he took in the car? She found herself really lost in wondering what he could be up to. If she knew anything for sure, it was that this was going to be a long weekend.
ââąâ
Michelle was humming quietly to herself as she stared at her reflection in the mirror hanging on the wall, checking to see if her makeup looked good. Ivy looked at her from the bathroom doorway, she had just finished applying her makeup and putting her jewelry on.
âYou look great.â
Michelle smiled and turned to face her. âThanks. So do you, hot stuff!â She waved her hand in front of her face, pretending to faint.
Ivy rolled her eyes and walked out of the bathroom, a shy smile on her lips as she grabbed the small purse she brought along to carry. It was on a gold colored chain that she could put over her body, keeping the bag close to her. She caught a glimpse of her reflection and decided to admire it for a moment. Michelle watched with a proud grin as Ivy rotated in the mirror, looking at her self in great detail. She had to make sure everything was perfect.
âThis dress doesnât make my stomach poke out too much, does it?â She asked as she started to chew on her cheek.
Michelle moved to be next to her, her eyes landing on their reflections. âYou look great.â
âThatâs not what I asked.â
âI donât think it draws attention to your stomach at all. Itâs not too tight, not too loose. Itâs very flattering on you.â Michelle explained further, hoping she would help the anxiety disappear.
âAnd the color? Dark green isnât.. ugly on me, is it?â
Michelle examined the dark green fabric of the dress, noting how nice it looked against her skin and with her hair. âItâs hot. Makes your eyes pop. You look good.â
Ivy took a deep breath and very slowly pushed it out. âThanks.â
âYou worry too much.â Michelle playfully pinched her elbow. âYouâre gorgeous.â
âI.. I donât know about that.â Ivy mumbled back as she gently pushed her hair over her shoulder, exposing the thick strap of her dress. She thought the dress was nice, so hearing that Michelle believed the same was reassuring. âI just get.. nervous.â
âNo need to be nervous, trust me. Youâre glowing, darling.â Michelle gave her a laugh and a quick hug, wanting her to feel better about her appearance.
Michelle left her side to put her shoes on, leaving Ivy to stare at herself alone. She felt her throat go dry as she twisted her body from side to side, kicking her leg out gently and posing for herself. She wasnât as confident as she wanted to be right now. Michelle eyed her the whole time, and it was obvious that Ivy wasnât pleased.
âHey, can I ask you something?â Michelle said as she stayed perched on the foot of the hotel bed.
âYeah.â
âWhy do you think youâre not hot? Like.. I can tell you want to love the way you look right now.. but somethingâs stopping you.â
Although Emma was a very close friend, she had never asked anything like that before. Emma was always so supportive and did her best to hype Ivy up. Michelle seemed more interested in solving the problem. Ivy let out a quiet laugh and turned away from the mirror, opting to stare at her own feet instead.
âWell.. thereâs gotta be something wrong with me.â She shrugged, a nonchalant expression taking over her face.
Michelle frowned and stood up, immediately going to grab her elbows to get her attention. When Ivy lifted her head up to look at her, she could tell something was wrong. It went farther than the fit of a dress. There wasnât much Ivy could do to escape this, so she just stayed silent and waited for Michelle to say something.
âWhat do you mean?â
Ivy licked her lips, her eyes trailing off to stare at the wall behind Michelle. âI donât know.. I must be.. not attractive.â
âWhy are you saying that? Has someone told you that before?â Michelle was quick with her responses, not wanting to give the impression that she didnât care to listen.
âNo, but.. do you see a man here?â Ivy looked around, lifting her brows as the weighted thoughts began to come out of her mouth. âIâm obviously not.. attractive enough to be someoneâs girlfriend.â
Michelle felt her own heart sink at the words that left her mouth. âIvy, donât say that. Youâre literally so beautiful. Any decent guy would see that. Youâre a prize. Youâre sweet and funny and kind.. on top of being gorgeous.â
She shook her head and tried her best to compose herself, she didnât want to cry and ruin her makeup. She spent too long getting ready to have it all smudged. Michelle released her arms, but didnât move back. Ivy wondered why it was so important to Michelle, why did she care so much?
âI donât really want to talk about it anymore.â She mumbled under her breath, turning away from Michelle entirely. She was aware of the time and knew they had to meet the others in the lobby soon. âWe should go.â
Michelle wanted to keep the conversation going, but she didnât want to cross any lines or press any wrong buttons. Ivy clearly didnât want to discuss any more, so she was going to respect that. She thought maybe she could carry it on when they got back, or even tomorrow while they were alone in the room. Right now wasnât the time.
When they got to the lobby, almost everyone was waiting in a small huddle. Zayn and Alyssa were the only ones not downstairs. As soon as Emma laid her eyes on Ivy, she squealed and ran over to her, excitedly hugging her like theyâd been apart for months. She complimented her outfit and raved about how perfect she looked, which warranted a shy shake of the head from Ivy. Michelle added a few comments to further empower her, making sure to give her a bright smile. She was grateful for the kind words and she hoped they would remain in her head for the rest of the night. She wasnât going out to purposely hunt for a man, she just wanted to have fun with everyone.
Once Zayn and Alyssa finally joined them, they headed out of the door. The place they were going was just a few short blocks away, and everyone agreed on walking there. Taking a cab back to the hotel later that night would most likely be everyoneâs decision, but for now they were fine with walking together. Niall made a comment about Emma and Ivy wearing heels, but they both assured him they were perfectly fine. Other than that, everyone either kept to themselves or made small talk as they walked down sidewalks and crossed roads, zigzagging through the area.
Ivy was well aware that she was walking in front of Harry, and that nobody was walking behind him. Their group had to form a line when they got to the busier sections of the area, not wanting to be in anyoneâs way as they passed through. She wasnât sure how she ended up behind Michelle, but she was somewhat glad that she wasnât at the very end. Although she was comfortable and confident in her heels, they did make her walk just a tad bit slower than normal. Just as they were about to reach a corner where they needed to turn, her phone buzzed in her small purse. She furrowed her brows and pulled it out, unsure of who was texting her. It was a message from her dad asking if she was still planning on going to see him next weekend. She was typing up a reply, a smile on her face as she stared at the screen. She hadnât seen her dad in a few weeks, he had been so busy with work, so she was excited for the plans they had made. The moment she pressed the send button, she felt her weight shift and a shriek flew from her mouth.
Before she could fall and hurt her ankle or scrape up her exposed skin, something grabbed onto her and tugged her the opposite way, steadily her body on the sidewalk. She looked down and saw the curb, she was extremely close to stepping off it and falling into the road. When she turned her head to look next to her, her heart started to pump faster than it ever had before.
Ivy was met with a stern glare from a set of familiar green eyes. He had his lips in a straight line, his brows tight on his forehead. She quickly licked her lips and tried to speak, but he interrupted her before she could even take a breath.
âWatch where youâre walking.â Harry said through a huff as he finally released the pressure his hand created on her arm.
She swallowed the lump that was trying to stop up her throat. âSorry, thanks.â
He gave her a weird look. âWhy are you apologizing? Just pay attention.â
Ivy couldnât verbally respond, something inside of her was preventing that from happening. She could only nod and give him a soft smile, which he didnât return in any way. He gestured for her to start walking again to catch up with the others, they had already turned the corner. She got the gist and began walking again, this time with her phone tucked away in her purse and her eyes fixed on what was ahead of her. Harryâs presence stayed behind her, close enough for her to sense him, but far enough to keep a distance. He didnât want to run into her if she decided to distract herself again.
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Ivy was slightly overwhelmed by the thick crowd of people they ended up being stuck in the middle of. She made sure to stay close to everyone else to prevent getting lost or swept away by a sea of people. The event space was much larger than the bar they had her in weeks ago, but that definitely didnât mean there was any free standing room anywhere. She felt a little bit of suffocation, but she hoped the drink in her hand would ease her nerves.
Niall was yelling over the music at Michelle and Alyssa, trying to explain something to them but Ivy really couldnât hear him. She kept her eyes to herself, not wanting to accidentally find herself staring at anyone. Emma was already swaying her hips side to side to the music, bumping into Ivy every now and then. She wanted to get comfortable and enjoy the music, too, but she was still too nervous. So, she just sipped her drink and waited patiently for it to kick in.
The band wasnât supposed to come for another fifteen minutes, they had been there for half an hour already. Niallâs hand was clutching a beer, Cory and Zayn started off with two shots each. Ivy noticed while they were at the bar earlier that Alyssa didnât get anything. Maybe she wasnât big on drinking. The rest of them got something to start the night with.
âI love this song!â Emma yelled happily, grabbing Ivyâs hand as she jumped up and down. She just laughed and gave her a nod, not as enthused by the music as Emma was. âDance with me!â
âMaybe later!â She yelled back, lifting her drink to indicate sheâd need another, or possibly three before she could let loose.
Emma groaned, but decided to not let it drag her mood down. She turned to Niall, pulling him from his conversation and forcing him to somewhat dance with her. He was mostly just nodding his head and grinning at her. Michelle was starting to vibe with the music, facing towards Alyssa in an attempt to get her to join. She soon did, leaving Zayn to talk with Cory and Harry.
Harry.. Of course she hadnât forgotten about him. She made a few quick glances at him since they arrived, but she tried her best to mind her business. She was afraid something would be said, that same old feeling she gets when sheâs around him. It was almost too natural of a feeling. But she couldnât really resist the temptation, especially since he was so close to her. He was leaning in to Cory and Zayn when he spoke so they could hear him over the loud music. He put a smirk on his lips and laughed a few times, making Ivyâs heart skip a beat.
She thought he looked rather well put together tonight. His hair was a bit messy from the gentle breeze during the walk over, but it still looked so perfect. He was wearing his usual dark jeans, paired with a pair of black boots with a short heel, and a blue shirt. The sleeves were purposely rolled and pushed up to his elbows, his tattoos on display for anyoneâs lingering eyes. She even caught a whiff of his cologne while they were walking, when he caught her, and she thought it was nice. Her teeth bit down on her cheek as she looked at his chest, some of his skin exposed from the undone buttons. She thought it was an interesting look, but it fit his style well. He was as eye catching as ever.
It was so easy for her to get lost in him. She tore her eyes away, looking towards Emma but she was fully caught up with Niall and not worried about anything else. That feeling of being the odd one out was building in her gut. Everyone was accompanied by someone except her.
Ivyâs attention fell to her drink. She shook the cup, watching the ice swirl in the liquid. She shouldâve gotten something stronger. She huffed to herself before taking a drink. Maybe if she drank it faster it would work better. The thought of Harry had quickly faded from her mind, the new worry of being alone was taking over entirely. It was hard to not feel like she didnât belong. Even though this isnât the first time sheâs been around everyone, she still didnât know them as well as they knew each other. Sure, she could spark up a conversation would Zayn if she wanted to, but what if he was responding just to be polite? The idea of them pretending to like her was difficult to ignore. She didnât want to be so anxious about it and let those crazy thoughts run wild, but it was almost impossible to stop it once it begins.
Time slipped by while Ivy stayed to herself. There was an announcement that the band was about to come on the stage on the other side of the room. It was much larger than the theater-turned-club stage she watched them perform on. This was definitely a much bigger venue with a more serious act taking stage. Niall yelled something about trying to get closer, which prompted Emma to take Ivyâs hand. As a group, they navigated through the crowd. Not everyone was turned towards the band, so it was easier to slide through.
They didnât get right up on the stage, but they werenât far. Emma let go of her hand once they were settled in a space. She was excited about the show and hoped that it would make her forget all the things filling her head. Before long, the band filed onto the stage and started their set. Emma made sure to stay next to her, which she appreciated immensely. She was sort of worried about being knocked over or pulled from the group by people shoving their way through. Nobody seemed to be pushing around just yet, though.
For the most part, the experience was very fun and positive for Ivy. The worry she had suffered through was far gone now. She was enjoying the music and knew most of the songs they were doing. She danced and cheered through their original songs, as well, not carrying that she hadnât heard them before. It was exhilarating to just jump around and throw her hands up in the air. She had successfully pushed down all those anxious thoughts and emotions that were bothering her. She felt happy and free, like nothing could stop this high.
Niall and Cory offered to make a run to the bar for everyone, so she gladly threw in her drink order. She was definitely feeling the buzz of the alcohol creeping through her veins, and she was craving more of it. As soon as they returned, she started drinking from the new plastic cup. Her hips never stopped moving to the music, Emma grabbing her every now and then to dance together.
Everything was going well, it almost seemed too good to be true. Ivy kept her focus on the band, not caring what was going on around her aside from Emma. Niall had her attention now though, so Ivy was dancing along to the music on her own. She was so into the moment that she didnât realize she was moving around so much, until she backed into something that stopped her.
She turned slightly to apologize to the random person she hit, but she audibly gasped and her eyes went wide. Harry was standing there, a gentle lift of his brow served as his response.
âSorry!â She yelled over the music, her stomach dropping as she realized he had been behind her while she was dancing.
He rolled his eyes and gave her a nod, instantly shifting his stare back to the stage. She was unsure of how long he had been behind her, the last time she checked he was over by Zayn and Alyssa, the complete opposite side of the space their lot was taking up. There was no need to worry over it, she shook it from her mind and continued where she left off.
Emma squealed and immediately dropped Niallâs hands to turn to Ivy. The band was doing another cover, and this time it was one of their favorite songs to karaoke together. Ivy let out a laugh as Emma grabbed onto her waist and pulled her close. Niall shook his head and just chuckled at them, letting them have their moment together.
The girls were extremely expressive as the Joan Jett song blasted through the room. They were both impressed by the bandâs performance of the song, and they showed their support by singing and dancing along. With every whip of Ivyâs head from side to side, her hair swung in the air. Emma was practically screaming the lyrics out, feeling like she was on another planet. If they did anything right together, it was have the time of their lives.
Once the song ended, Ivy had to catch her breath. She shook her head when Emma tried to make her keep on, the next song was just as good. She couldnât handle it right now, she was out of breath and her throat hurt from all the screaming. Emma chose to focus on Niall again, forcing him to dance now, leaving her to collect herself.
Even though she craved water, she didnât dismiss the drink in her hand. Somehow, most of the liquid managed to stay in the cup. She took a big guzzle, aiming to coat her mouth with the cold feeling to soothe it. The effects of the alcohol were the least of her worries. As much as she loved to dance and sing with Emma, she was worn out already. A good ten or so minutes of staying idle would do her some good.
A grunt pushed past her lips as she felt her stomach twirl around. Maybe she shouldnât be jumping around so much while thereâs alcohol roaming in her body. She pressed her hand to her stomach, taking a few slow breaths to try and calm herself. The last thing she wanted to do was throw up. Thankfully, after a few more minutes of staying still and focusing on settling herself down, her stomach stopped aching and she felt much better.
The feeling didnât stick around very long, though. She was nodding her head to the music, enjoying the current song the band was playing, when someone started pushing their way through the crowd. Ivyâs eyes were locked on the band as she peeked between all the heads in front of her to get a good look at them. She didnât notice that someone was trying to get by.
She jumped the second she felt a hand on her waist. Her body was pushed to the side, the person trying to get by then easily walked past her. Her instincts kicked in and she realized someone was actually touching her. She grabbed the wrist of the hand and pushed it down, her nails scratching into skin. When she turned to scream at the stranger she assumed sheâd see, her mouth went dry and her lips fell part, no words coming out. Harry gave her an irritated look, glancing down at his now scratched hand.
âYou were in the way.â He told her loudly, forcing his voice over the music.
She swallowed gently. âI.. I didnât know.â
Harry gave her a sarcastic gasp. âObviously.â
Ivy wanted to be more confident in herself than she had managed to be all day, so she quickly gave it back to him. âYouâre so rude.â
âSays the one who was in the damn way.â He lifted the corner of his mouth, amused by her comeback.
She rolled her eyes at him and turned back around, hoping to forget that he was there. There was an angry feeling sparking up in her gut. How could someone show such arrogance over a simple situation? She could have thanked him for moving her aside so she wouldnât get shoved, but she figured he didnât care about her gratitude. And more than that, he didnât deserve it.
After another hour, the band had finished their set and everyone agreed that theyâd stay a bit longer and enjoy the night. Some of the crowd had disappeared, leaving the place easier to navigate through, but it was still a good number of people around. Ivy went with Emma and Michelle to the bathroom, separating themselves from the others. They joined the short line that was waiting inside. Ivy let a deep breath push through her nose as her body leaned against the wall. She didnât care about the sanitary conditions of the bathroom, she had other things on her mind.
Michelle took notice and gently nudged her. âWhatâs wrong?â
She shook her head and licked her lips quickly. âNothing.. just got a little sick to my stomach earlier.â
âDo you feel sick?â Emma frowned back.
Ivy shrugged, even though she knew the feeling was more because of anxiety than sickness, she didnât want to tell them what had happened. She was sure nobody noticed, they were all so distracted by everything going on around them. The less she talked about Harry, the easier it was to imagine it was all fake. She didnât want him to be there, she didnât want him to exist in her life, she didnât want to keep those small moments alive in her mind. Why did he have to be walking behind her on the sidewalk, why was he so close to her while the band was playing, why did he care if someone pushed her over or not? Why was he so worried about her, and why did she let it bother her so much?
âNo, I think I was just doing too much earlier.. with the dancing. Iâm okay now.â She assured them with a quick smile.
âOkay, if you say so.â Emma didnât seem to believe it, but she wasnât going to stress her out by prying. âIf you feel like you wanna leave.. let me know and we can head back.â
âYeah, Iâll go with you, too, if you want.â Michelle reached up and casually pushed Ivyâs hair over her shoulder. âEspecially if you feel sick.â
âThanks.. but Iâm pretty sure Iâm okay right now.â
They didnât have to wait very long to get into a stall. Once they were all done, they left the bathroom together. Ivy thought about stopping by the bar for some water, but she didnât want to cause an inconvenience. Maybe one of the guys would offer to go to the bar for everyone and she could take advantage of that.
The girls made their way back to where they left Niall and Cory. Zayn and Alyssa had gone off to be on their own and Harry was nowhere around. Emma kept an eye on Ivy to make sure she wasnât getting sick. She made sure to tell Niall that they might possibly have to leave earlier than planned if something happened. Ivy overheard them talking and she assured Niall she was fine.
It didnât take long for Emma and Michelle to start moving to the music again. Emma grabbed Ivyâs hand and playfully shook her arm around, trying to get her to participate. She gave them a laugh and joined them, but she kept her feet grounded. The jumping was too intense earlier, she needed to stay more relaxed. The music playing through the speakers was good, they all seemed to enjoy it.
The chaotic scene of the club was enough to keep her mind off of things for a while. She swayed side to side to the music, occasionally grabbing onto Emma to belt out lyrics with her. After a while, the need for something to drink was weighing on her, making her throat dry and her head start to spin. Ivy tapped Emmaâs shoulder to get her attention, she was talking to Niall about something as a slower song was playing.
âIâll be right back.â
âWhere are you going? Are you feeling bad?â Emmaâs brows dropped and she frowned, instantly worried for her friend.
Ivy smiled and shook her head. âNo, just thirsty.â
âOh.. okay!â
Niall leaned closer so he could talk over all the noise. âBe careful.â
âI will. Iâll be right back!â
With a sigh, she walked off from them, heading towards the bar. As she made her way there, she let herself reflect on the nightâs events. All the dancing and singing was so joyful and exciting, she was grateful for the fun experience. Everyone was getting along, nothing too crazy had occurred. Sure, she had a few incidents with Harry, but nobody else was a witness to them that she was aware of. Knowing that made it sort of easier to deal with. She didnât have to worry about whether or not they would get irritated with her, too. She was glad the moments she had to share with him werenât full of hateful comments or rude looks like the previous ones had been. He wasnât necessarily the sweetest person tonight, but at least he was better than normal.
For once in her life, she actually felt like she belonged within a group. Those unsure worries about whether they liked her or not had faded. Most of them had proved they did enjoy her company, and she definitely enjoyed theirs. The dynamics of the group were so different, everyone had their own personality and somehow they all merged together well. Harry was sort of an outlier, but only when it came to Ivy. He was perfectly fine with everyone else.
When she finally got to the bar, she let out a sigh of relief. There was an open stool at the end and she gladly took it. The bartender noticed her and gave her a lift of his finger, indicating heâd be over to her in a minute. She just smiled back and waited patiently. She folded her hands on the bar, looking down at her painted nails. The red polish shifted colors beneath the colored lights.
Ivy covered her mouth as she yawned, a tired feeling creeping into her body. She knew she didnât want to be the one to make everyone go back to the hotel early, so sheâd just have to push through it and wake herself up. The bartender came over to her, smiling as he asked how he could help her. She asked for a cup of ice, an awkward confession of how she wasnât feeling the best followed her request. He gave her a laugh and said he understood the feeling.
âItâs on me! Take care of yourself.â He said as he passed her the plastic cup full of ice cubes.
âOh, thank you!â
Ivy twisted the stool around so that she could prop her elbow on the bar and look out at the dancing crowd. Some people were just standing around talking or laughing, but most of them were doing some form of dancing. She tipped the cup back, a piece of ice falling into her mouth. She let it sit on her tongue for a few moments, slowly melting as the warmth of her mouth engulfed it. The feeling was calming, she felt like she was recovering already. The plan was to sit for a few minutes and eat a couple pieces of ice, then sheâd go back to where she left from.
When she finished her second piece, she reached into her purse to grab her lip gloss. She could feel the dryness of her lips and had to take care of that. Her phone acted as a mirror while she applied the gloss over her lips, fully coating each of them. She rubbed them together, then smiled at herself to make sure nothing spread past the line of her lips.
âYou didnât miss a spot.â
Ivy quickly pulled her phone down and turned her head, her eyes meeting those of a stranger. It was a man with dark hair, he was tall with broad shoulders. A smile shaped his mouth, a set of shiny white teeth popping out behind his lips.
She gulped gently and let out a slightly nervous laugh. âYeah, I guess not.â
He let his eyes quickly roam over her body. She kept her stare on his face, watching every move he made closely. That anxious feeling she fought off so often was returning, but even she knew that it was for a real reason this time.
âAre you not drinking tonight?â He asked, nodding his head to the cup of ice. The question was posed in a way that made it seem like he knew her so well.. like he was surprised she wasnât drinking.
She went along with it, just to prevent anything drastic from happening. âUm, taking a break for right now.â
âIf you want to end that break, I could get a drink.â The cocky smirk he put on for her was not pleasing to her eyes.
Ivy sucked on the inside of her cheek for a moment as she glanced at her ice cubes. âI think my break will last the rest of the night.â
He gave her a very slow nod, his eyes moving away from her for the first time since he approached. He shifted his weight, looking past her at the person next to her on the stool. Maybe he thought she didnât know that person, since it didnât seem like she was making a point to give them any attention. A thousand thoughts started to fill her mind as she started to consider all the different ways this could play out. She took a mental note of what he was wearing, just in case. It was a burgundy collared shirt with a pair of dark wash, loose fitting jeans. He dressed like any other guy, which made him blend in too easily.
âSo, are you here with someone?â He finally asked, lifting his brows as he moved his eyes back to her face.
She was quick to contemplate lying or not. If she said she was here with a man, and this person had been watching her, then heâd know that wasnât true. If he just saw her at the bar and not any other time tonight, then maybe she could get away with it. The thing was, she didnât know what he knew about her. She was nervous that he had been watching her and was waiting for an opportunity.
Ivy pushed down the lump in her throat and remained confident, not wanting him to see that she was becoming afraid. âWith a group of friends, yeah.â
âOh, friends?â He said, looking around at the people who clearly didnât know her. Nobody had interacted with her since she got to the bar, aside from him.
âYeah.â She kept her reply short and simple, hoping heâd get the point.
Unfortunately, that didnât seem to be the case. He leaned closer to her, his hand reaching out to touch her waist. She stiffened on the stool, her back straight as she tried to keep her distance. His hand wasnât gripping her tight, but it was definitely pressed against her.
âLet me get you a drink.â He said with a chuckle, trying to play like he was flirting but she knew it was something more dangerous.
She gently shook her head and lifted her hand between them. âNo, thanks. Iâm not.. drinking anymore.â
He gave her a look that made her skin crawl. âDonât want to have some fun with me?â
âUm, I should.. get back to my friends.â She said with a fake smile, pushing against his chest to move him.
At first he didnât budge, but after a moment he leaned back, his hand falling from her side. âCâmon, donât be so uptight. Let me show you a good time.â
The very second he took a step back, she saw the opportunity to escape. Ivy slid off the stool, abandoning her cup of ice on the bar, and started hastily walking away. When she looked over her shoulder, she saw that he pushed himself off the bar and started walking in the same direction. Her stomach dropped as she quickly came to terms with what was happening. There was nothing she could do other than run through this crowd and make it to Emma.
Ivy darted her eyes around, trying to find familiar things she made sure to take notice of when she walked off. She had to find her way back somehow, but it seemed her tricks werenât working. The anxiety flooding through her body was shielding her memory - she couldnât think of anything else. Her lungs felt heavy as she pushed through the crowd, trying her best to find Emma or Niall or somebody she knew. Maybe sheâd run across Zayn, she hadnât seen him in a while. She was getting sick to her stomach, its contents threatening to come up.
She took another look behind her, and even through the people she moved past, she saw him. His eyes were scanning around, searching for her as she weaved through the dancing bodies.
The mix of colorful lights flashing all around the space was making it difficult for her to make out anything. She thought she was losing her mind, she couldnât focus on anything. Strangersâ faces littered the room, she couldnât find anyone she recognized. How long could she out run him? How big was this building? Would she be able to seek refuge in the womenâs restroom or would he disregard any barriers and search for her there? Could she make it back to the front where the security guard was? Her feet were starting to feel weak as the worry spiraled in her mind. She was going to get hurt, she just knew it. The night had been going so well, something just had to ruin it like always.
Ivy suddenly broke through the edge of the crowd, making her stumble over her own feet. Her body shook with each desperate pant, her lungs trying so hard to stay strong. She twisted her head around, trying to find something to shelter herself. She saw no kind of doors to slip into, the restrooms were on the opposite side as was the entrance. She didnât even know where she was.
Tears swelled in her eyes as she decided to keep walking, trying to throw him off her tracks. Maybe if she cut back into the crowd and went a different direction, she could lose him entirely. She nervously walked on the edge of the crowd, mumbling quiet excuse meâs that nobody heard. She kept her eyes on alert, trying to find one of the people she knew. It was like everyone had disappeared.
Ivy let out a delicate whimper as she felt tears slide down her cheeks. She was terrified to stop walking, to turn around. She feared he would be there to grab her again, and this time heâd force his way to what he wanted. She reached into her purse, digging out her phone to try and make a call to someone. She had one bar of service, and she wasnât sure if the others had any at all. She tried to call Emma, but it went to voicemail as if her phone was dead. Her hand was shaking so hard she almost dropped her phone. She was so afraid that she completely thought over the idea of calling Niall. The phone ended up back in her purse, and her eyes moved over her shoulder.
Her stomach churned as she saw him further back. He had lost sight of her for a minute, and it caused their distance to grow. He was determined to find her, and she was absolutely horrified. She had never been in a situation like this. She almost always stayed with Emma when they went out. She never strayed away like that, especially in a place sheâd never been to before.
Just as she was about to slip back into the sea of people, she spotted someone she recognized. Of course, it wasnât the best option out of everyone she knew, but it was better than nothing. She quickened her pace and aimed straight for him. It was Harry, pulled away from the crowd with his hand on a womanâs hip. He was clearly occupied and enjoying the company he had. Ivy wasnât necessarily focusing on what he was doing, but she saw how a smirk was stuck to his lips as he listened to whatever the woman was saying to him.
Ivy practically threw herself on him, her hands grabbing onto his arm instantly. The woman he was holding smacked her lips and said something to him, but Ivy didnât care to listen. Harry tried to shake her off, and after a few seconds she let him go, but she didn't move away.
âHa-Harry.â She choked on his name, quickly shooting her eyes over her shoulder to see if he was near.
âGo away.â Harry grunted, giving her an annoyed expression. He was still holding onto the woman, so he guided her a few feet away, trying to get away from Ivy.
âHarry.â She said his name again, this time louder.
The woman didnât appear to like that he was attracting attention that wasnât from her. She told him to forget it and rolled her eyes as she turned away from him.
âWhat the fuck do you want?â He threw his hands in the air as he moved to face Ivy, who he was very irritated by.
âPlease just act like you know me for five minutes!â She whined out, her eyes pleading with him.
Thatâs when he noticed she was crying, but he was confused. âHuh?â
âPlease!â She yelled back, her hand reaching up to grab onto his shirt. She didnât even realize she was doing it.
Harry just stared at her a moment, then looked down to where she was fisting his shirt. âWhatâs wrong with you?â
âThereâs.. thereâs a guy following me and.. Iâm scared.â She looked past her shoulder again, then quickly back to him. âHarry, please.â
He moved his eyes behind her, trying to see if he could figure out what she was looking at. âFollowing you? What happened?â
For the first time since theyâve met, she could tell he was sincere with his concern. He leaned his head down so he could hear her over the music. Her wet eyes looked over his features as she tried to gather her thoughts. Everything was happening so fast. His green eyes were softened as he fixed them on her, and his brows were furrowed as he waited for an answer. This is when she realized she was clutching his shirt. She nervously looked down at her hand, then released her grip on him. He didnât say anything about it, just watched her closely.
âI.. I was at the bar.. by myself.. and this guy kept bothering me.â She explained in a broken voice, her eyes searching his face for something she wasn't even sure of. She was just trying to distract herself from what was going on. âI.. I walked off and he started following me.â
âWhy the fuck were you by yourself?â
She huffed. âI donât know! I.. I couldnât find Emma or Niall or anyone.. I-I just saw you.â
Harry let out a sigh and let his eyes linger behind her again. âWhatâs he wearing?â
âHeâs behind me, I know he is. I saw him.â
He glanced at her, wishing she would just tell him but he understood she was afraid. âShow me.â
Ivy nodded slowly and turned her head back, once again searching for his presence behind her. And immediately she saw him, he was looking around, walking slower with his hands stuck in his pockets. He had a snarl on his face, like he was pissed off that he lost sight of her again. When she returned her eyes to Harry, he furrowed his brows tighter. It was so easy to see how terrified the girl was. As much as he acted like he usually didnât care about anything at all, he was taking this very seriously.
âWho is it?â
âThe guy right there.. by the girl with the blue dress on.â
Harry easily saw who she was referring to. He had never been in the situation where he had to do this for one of his friends, but he was smart enough to figure out the obvious solution.
âStay close to me, alright?â The way his hand curved to fit against her waist felt more natural than it was supposed to.
She kept her eyes on his chest, staring at the cross dangling from his neck. She wanted to melt into a puddle or shoot up through the ceiling, she wanted to disappear from this place. Not only was she terrified, but she was embarrassed by the way she reacted when she found Harry. She had interrupted whatever he was up to and fell against him like he was supposed to be a hero. Of course, that was now taking over her mind and the whole bar situation was gone from her focus. Harry easily took center stage in her mind..
He kept his eyes locked on the guy, he had gotten closer already. The natural instinct to protect was present, which led to his hand sliding to the small of her back as the guy locked eyes with him. He recognized the girl he had been chasing, he was familiar with her backside. Harry didnât dare blink as the guy stared him down.
âIs.. is he.. gone?â Ivyâs head fell back to look at Harry. She was unaware of just how close they were. Their bodies were touching, her hands were lifted between them and gently brushing his abdomen as she waited for him to answer her. âHarry..â
The quiet chirp of his name made him dart his eyes down for just a second. She had stopped crying, but her eyes were puffy and her makeup was smudged on her skin. He felt bad for the girl, she hadnât asked for any of this to happen. She was sure he hated her guts and didnât want to be around her, but she was grateful he was keeping her close right now. Maybe he was good at pretending to care.
âJust be quiet right now.â
His choice of words wasnât what she wanted to hear, but she didnât have a choice. She let her eyes fall back to his chest, maybe she could distract herself with the ink that was peeking out from beneath his shirt. She wondered what else his body hid. Was he covered from shoulders to thighs, was his back inked, what about his legs?
Ivy let out a shriek all of a sudden. âOw!â
Harry groaned as he realized his fingers were tangled in her hair. The rings stuck on his fingers were catching pieces of her hair. He pulled his hand back, taking a few pieces with him. She felt each strand that was being plucked from her scalp.
âWhy the fuck is your hair so long?â He was frustrated now.
âOw! Stop, that hurts!â She scooped her hair over her shoulder, trying to get it away from his fingers.
âNot my fault.â He huffed out, shaking his head in disbelief at their situation.
She went quiet again, not even moving as he returned his hand to her back. He was gentle with his touches, not wanting to scare her or make her uncomfortable especially since sheâs been harassed already tonight. The guy had moved to the wall, his arms crossed as he pretended to not notice her. He gave them a glance every couple of seconds, trying to catch Harry off guard but it wouldnât work. He wasnât going to let Ivy slip away and get harmed, no matter how much he wanted her to leave him alone.
âHeâs still staring at you.â Harry felt a sting in his chest as the guy licked his lips, his eyes attached to her body. âDid you say you were here alone?â
She hesitated at first to answer. âNo.. I said I was with friends.â
âDid he touch you?â Harry asked the question the very moment she pushed her curled hands into his body, she was leaning against him.
For some reason, he was feeling extremely conflicted by all of this. Was he reacting so intensely because he knew the girl? If it were a stranger, would he be this focused on handling the issue and solving her problems, soothing her worries? He didnât know how to feel about it, all he knew was that he was pissed off someone thought they could get away with this. He didnât have much time to ponder it, the anticipation of her answer was driving him crazy. If she said yes, he feared he would have to slam the guyâs head into the wall.
âLike.. did he grope me?â Her voice finally broke out.
Harry licked his lips and carefully nudged her chin with the side of his index finger, pushing her head back so he could see her. âDid he touch you in any way, Ivy?â
He didnât care if he just shook her hand, if her answer was yes he was going to lose his composure. Ivy couldnât talk back, her heart was too busy pounding in her chest. Her eyes widened as she stared at him, the sound of her name being spoken in his voice was foreign to her. She was absolutely sure that he had never said her name before, never mumbled it or even said it in front of her to someone else. Harry softened his hard stare and withdrew his touch from her chin.
âAnswer me, please.â He gave her a stern lift of his brows, silently instructing that she do what he said.
She quickly nodded. âYes.. he touched my waist.â
Harry clenched his jaw and shot his gaze to the guy who was in the same spot, as if he was waiting for her to be set free so he could take her for himself. He moved his hand to her waist and slightly squeezed her, and of course she noticed it. Her stomach filled with butterflies as he leaned even closer down to her level, even her heels didnât make her tall enough for him.
âStay right here. Do not move, do you understand me?â He spoke calmly, hoping that she would just listen to him.
âYes.. I understand.â Ivyâs voice was as light as a feather.
He wasnât too surprised that her bright, outgoing personality had fallen to such a fragile demeanor. He witnessed it at the restaurant when she grew so shy in front of him, how hesitant and timid she could get..
âDonât move.â He repeated.
Harry dropped his arm from her body and took a step forward, but she quickly grabbed his wrist and jumped in front of him. He looked down at her with knitted brows.
âWait! What if.. someone else..â Her voice trailed off as the endless possibilities began to fill her mind.
Harry didnât let her stop him, though. He shewed her hand back and gave her some reassurance. âNobody will touch you. Stay right here.â
Ivy rotated just so she could keep her eyes on Harry. The last thing she wanted was to get separated again. She bit down on her cheek as she watched Harry walk up to the guy. She saw his mouth moving, but had no clue what he was saying. Nobody cared to look at them, everyone was just dancing and minding their own business. Harry took a step closer, his height was even to the man who had chased her through the crowd.
She felt her hands shaking by her sides as Harry obviously became heated. He was yelling now, pointing his finger at the man like he was scolding a child. Ivy was curious to know what he was saying. Was he throwing threats out and telling him how shitty it was to be that way towards someone? Was he telling him heâd beat the hell out of him if he looked her way again? A thousand thoughts flew to her mind, but none were strong enough to distract her from Harry. She gasped, throwing her hand over her chest as she watched Harry shove the guy into the wall, but he withdrew hands clearly not wanting to fight.
What she didnât know was that Harry was telling him that if he saw him look her way one more time, heâd beat the absolute hell out of him. He made sure to mention specific ways he could bury his fist into the guyâs body and face, how he could break his nose or knock a few teeth out. His ultimate goal was to terrify the guy just as much as Ivy was. Harry gave him one last push into the wall before walking away.
Her pulse increased rapidly as he quickly rejoined her, his hand reaching for her waist as a way to guide her. His skin was flushed from the yelling, his body tense and his chest tight. He was angry, more angry than Ivy had ever seen him. The look on his face beat out any irritated expression or rude glance heâd ever given her.
âCâmon.â He grumbled out, reaching down to grab her hand.
The butterflies in her stomach grew to the size of dragons as she felt his warm skin against hers. Now wasnât the time to swoon over him, though. This was a more serious situation that she had a dire need to escape from. Harry didnât give her any other choice, he started walking and yanked her behind him.
They navigated their way to the entrance, Harry leading her like a lost puppy through the crowd. He wasnât being polite in any way, of course. He was ramming his shoulder into people as he walked past them and pushing past stubborn ones who wouldnât move at all. Ivy stayed close behind him, her hand clutching his for dear life. He didnât return her strong grip, he just allowed her to hold on to him so she wouldnât get lost again. He had never had anyone hold his hand as tight as this girl was. It sort of amazed him, her strength was probably from the fear, but it impressed him. Heâd never tell her that.
When they finally reached the entrance and made it outside, Ivy felt a weight lift off her shoulders. The breeze began to blow her hair around, the cool wind covered her skin in bumps. She felt like she had freedom for the first time. There were no more crowds, no suffocating people with sweaty skin and loud screams. There was no intense shaking of the ceiling and floor from the loud music, no more chaos..
Harry walked her away from the entrance. When he stopped and turned to face her, he felt an odd feeling in his chest. She still had a pout on her thick lips, tear stained cheeks, and wide eyes. He exhaled, licking over his lips as he stared at her for a moment longer. Finally, he released her hand and pulled his phone from his pocket.
Ivy felt a wave of nausea. It was more intense than what she experienced earlier in the night. Now that she was out in the open, able to fully comprehend everything that happened, she was feeling her bodyâs reaction to the anxiety. She pressed her hand over her stomach, groaning as she felt something come up her throat.
She turned away from Harry, not wanting him to witness her empty her stomach. It was coming, she could literally feel it.
âHey, look we have a problem.â She heard his voice as he spoke to Niall on the phone, but this time it wasnât enough to distract her..
Ivy swatted her hair over her shoulder just in time. She leaned over and started throwing up. She didnât have time to be embarrassed. It came quickly, everything she had consumed throughout the day was out of her system. She let out a quiet grunt and wiped her hand over her mouth. The only good thing was that now she felt much better.
Harry had told Niall a brief summary of what happened, and said that it would be best if someone takes her back to the hotel. Niall said he would round everyone up and they would all leave. Ivy didnât care what was being said on the phone, she was just staring off at nothing. Her stomach was starting to relax now, recovering from what it just went through.
âAre you alright?â Harry came up behind her, but he didnât reach for her like he had easily done earlier. He didnât want to overstep any boundaries she had.
âYeah.â She mumbled while twisting around to face him. âI think so.â
âFirst you almost break your ankle.. then you try to get drugged at the bar. How do you make it on your own?â He questioned, unable to believe that she was capable of surviving.
âIâm sorry.â She uttered out, her voice as soft as a feather. She nervously folded her arms on her chest and looked down at her feet. She felt ashamed.
âStop apologizing.â
Ivy furrowed her brows, but kept her eyes locked on the ground. âWhat do you want me to say then?â
âI donât know.â
For a second, she was just going to ignore him and go mute until Emma made it to her, but something changed. She felt that usual sense of confidence and sass enter her body. The memory of what happened at the bar that night replayed in her mind. She defended herself, but soon after the worrying began. Ivy didnât want to worry about him anymore. He had this power over her she wanted to destroy.
âAlmost tripping is one thing, but I didnât ask to get harassed.â Her voice was at a normal level now, her tone mimicking the rude one he usually gave her. âDonât you dare say itâs my fault.â
Harry huffed. âI didnât mean it like that.â
âSounded like it.â
He pushed his hand through his hair, tugging back the long locks. âI didnât say it was your fucking fault.â
âThatâs your favorite word, isnât it? Fuck this, fuck that, fuck everything!â She yelled back, her hands balled into fists by her side now.
He scoffed at her. âAre you trying to offend me? I couldnât care less.â
âIâm trying to treat you like you treat me!â
âAnd what the fuck is that supposed to mean?â
Ivy could explode from the anger she was feeling. âYouâre a terrible person!â
Harry let out an unamused laugh and threw his arms up. He walked off, shaking his head in disbelief, but he didnât go far. He turned to face her again, a dumbfounded look on his face.
âIf it werenât for me, youâd be drugged in the back of someoneâs fucking car right now. I think thatâs me treating you fucking nicely.â
She could hardly believe she was actually arguing with him and holding her own. He used to be so intimidating and unapproachable, but not anymore. There was no more shyness or fear filling her veins. She was angry and she wanted to get it all out.
âDonât act like youâre an angel. You treat me like you hate me! You donât even know me.â She fired back, steam rolling out of her ears.
Harry looked towards the front entrance in time to see Niall and the others walking out, their eyes searching for them. He wanted to say more to her, but he didnât have the time. He didnât want anyone to overhear this conversation.
âIf I hated you, I wouldâve let you get hurt tonight.â
Ivy parted her lips to speak, but Emmaâs voice calling out her name stopped her. Harry backed up when everyone came running up to her. He didnât want to overplay his part. It was all quickly pushed aside.
âIvy! Oh my god, are you okay?â Emma embraced her in a tight hug, squeezing her tight.
âIâm okay, yeah.â She breathed out, squeezing her eyes shut.
âI shouldnât have let you go alone, Iâm so sorry.â
âEmma, no.â Ivy pulled back and took hold of both of her hands. âDonât say that.â
It was obvious that Emma wanted to cry, but she was trying to hold back the tears. The second Niall told her what happened, she felt her heart shatter. Something happening to her friend was never a good thing to think about.
Niall reached over and touched her elbow. âAre you sure youâre okay?â
âYeah.. I.. threw up over there, but Iâm okay.â
Emma moved to let Michelle hug her, and she quickly walked to where Harry stood. He gave her a smile when she thanked him for being there for Ivy. He didnât say much back, not wanting to make a big deal out of it. He felt as though he didnât do that much, really. He was just in the right place at the right time. He got her away from the guy before anything could happen. As much as he tried to convince himself it wasnât a big deal, he was glad he was there when she needed it most.
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During the night, Ivy experienced a few unsettling dreams that woke her up from her sleep. One of them was so intense that she had to get up and stand by the air conditioner, cooling her flushed face and trying to relax her body. She slept horribly. She would bet she didnât even get three full hours. Despite it being a bad night, she didnât wake up Michelle or call Emma to bother her. She thought about it, but she had already done so much that she believed put a damper in the trip, she didnât want to ruin anything else.
The morning in the hotel was a lot better. She felt less stressed once she was able to get some socialization. Emma and Alyssa had came into the room to have some girl time before they all had to get ready. They didnât have any big plans for Saturday, but there were some things everyone wanted to do. Zayn, Alyssa, and Michelle decided to go on a historic tour of a house they all found interesting while the others chose to stroll through the downtown area. Ivy had mentioned something about an art gallery she found while searching up things to do in the area. Emma was intrigued with it, so she forced Niall to go along with her. Cory and Harry tagged along, too.
As they walked down the sidewalk, Ivy let her eyes wonder in the shop windows. There was an antique store that she found interesting, perhaps sheâd suggest they swing by it before they leave the area. There was a small cafe that pumped the smell of fresh baked sweets out onto the street. It was a quaint area, she found it very lovely.
When they got to the gallery, they sort of went their separate ways. Niall and Emma walked hand in hand as they observed the displayed work. Ivy decided to walk on her own. There were a variety of artists who were being showcased at the gallery. The information pamphlet they were each given when they first came in listed details about the artists. Ivy read over the paragraphs of each artist. She was very much in her element while being here. This was one of her favorite things to do. She turned the corner into the next room and quietly swallowed as she saw that Harry was the only one occupying the room.
She tried to keep her footsteps light so she wouldnât be a disturbance. He appeared to be very focused by the painting he was standing in front of. His arms were behind his back, his hand holding onto his other wrist. He leaned forward to get a better look at the piece, but he maintained a respectful distance.
As she got closer, she could hear him mumbling to himself. She tried to ignore it as she looked at the adjacent wallâs pieces. The artist displayed in this room was more of a contemporary abstract artist. This wasnât necessarily her favorite category of art, but she was appreciative of the personâs creativity and craft. She strolled by the collection, admiring the striking colors and shapes, but not focusing as much on a singular piece as someone was.
She hadnât realized how close she was to Harry until she heard him more clearly. A smile toyed on her lips at his comment.
âThatâs an interesting color choice. I wouldnât do that.â
Ivy didnât want to scare him, though she was sure he knew someone was in here even if he didnât know it was specifically her. She took a breath and decided to be polite to him, instead of doing everything in her power to ignore his existence.
âDo you critique often?â
Harry turned his head towards her, not realizing she was speaking to him at first. He didnât respond, just gave her a momentary stare. There was a desire inside of him that craved to burst out - he wanted to talk to her. It was difficult because he knew she didnât like being around him. Their first impressions of each other didnât go well, and nothing since seemed to work out either. So, he shifted his stare back to the painting.
Ivy wasnât surprised at all by him, yet she didnât want to give in to his game. Based on how intensely focused he was, she believed he wouldnât behave in an aggressive way in the gallery. Now if they were elsewhere, he might would tell her to fuck off, thatâs his favorite word after all..
âWhatâs the interesting choice you donât like?â Her voice distributed the silence again, making him set his jaw. He wanted to be alone.
Harry studied the side of her face as intensely as he did the painting. He wondered what was on her mind. The blue of her eyes sparkled under the bright lights above them. Her lips were set in a very subtle smile as she read over the paragraph about the artist. He shifted his eyes back to the piece.
âThe bright orange. It wouldnât have been my pick.â He finally stated.
âDo you paint?â
Her quick reply made him softly sigh. He didnât really want to conversate with her, but he purposely chose no other option.
âNo, not at all. Just an observer.â
Ivy nodded slowly, opting to not say anything. She admired the painting for a few minutes, curious to know what his thoughts were. How did he interpret the piece? There were no purposeful shapes or patterns, it was completely random and abstract. Did he find anxiety in that like she did, or was he the kind of person who could understand and feel abstractness? She assumed he would walk away if she asked anything like that, so she didnât. Instead, she reverted to the thought sheâs had all day. As much as she wanted to forget last night, it was impossible.
âThanks for last night.â She spoke a bit louder this time.
Harry smirked to himself, she didnât catch it. âDid we do something I donât remember?â
His cocky attitude was nothing new, and she just rolled her eyes at him. Maybe that was his way of being friendly, by sort of being a jackass with his comments. She didnât know him well enough to decide if that was true. She was leaning more towards âheâs just a dickâ.
âIâm serious, Harry. Thanks for helping me.â She said through a deep breath, her eyes falling from the painting. âI really appreciate it.â
He shrugged lightly. âDonât mention it.â
âAnd Iâm sorry for being mean to you about it. I was just overwhelmed.â
She didnât expect him to turn towards her. She copied his movements, not sure what was next. Was he going to be nice to her for once? It was more likely that heâd snap at her. Her heart started to beat faster than normal.
âI donât want to talk about it. Itâs over now. Donât thank me and donât apologize. You like apologizing when you donât need to.â
Although his words were harsh, she was sort of grateful that his tone was normal. He spoke to her like he knew she was human. All she gave him in return was an understanding nod. When he rotated himself to face the painting again, she made the decision to leave him alone. She left the room and moved onto the next one. It was obvious he didnât want to talk to her about anything, so there was no need to keep trying.
[a/n: I have been waiting forever to post this part of the series. Things are moving along now, weâre building that drama and suspense (I hope). thanks for being patient with the slow burn, itâll be worth it I promise! More to come soon! part 5 will be like 3 where itâs necessary for the plot line. 6 and on will be juicy!! Reblog, like, tell me how you feel in the comments! <3]
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Why I Love The Owl House: Part Six-Praises, Problems, and Perotations
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âŠPerotations is a synonym for âConclusions.â Had to stretch for illiteracy, thereâŠAnyways.
Salutations, random people on the internet who are already skimming past this! I am an Ordinary Schmuck. I write stories and reviews and draw comics and cartoons.
Here it is, friends and followers. The very last thing I have to say about The Owl House. Or things, plural. You see, this isnât like the previous parts. In the past, weâve discussed the show in every possible aspect all while circulating around a common theme, whether itâd be the characters, their relationships, the arcs, and the messages that the series is trying to tell. However, thereâs a lot more to discuss about The Owl House than just those four things. Itâs just difficult to find a theme for each topic because, well, I donât have much left to say. That and thereâs nothing these last few points have in common with each other to lump into a shared post. So this final part of this whole long ass thing is sort of me just me listing out the last few praises and problems I have with the series before reaching that perotation. And yes, Iâm still sticking with perotation. Might as well commit.
Also, to keep things fair, each praise I give the show will be immediately followed up with a nitpickâI mean, problem. Thatâs how itâs gonna go for this whole part, as we go back and forth from praise to problem, praise to problem, and so on and so forth until we reach the end. Weâre in the homestretch here, folks, so letâs stop stalling and finally wrap up a review thatâs three years in the making as I finally answer WHY I love The Owl House.
Praise: It rewards multiple rewatches
Thatâs the best thing to say about a serialized show like The Owl House. Knowing about big reveals or the direction of the story is going helps make rewatching it a little more fun. You get to pick up on all the little clues that the writers left behind or how moments can be recontextualized. Thereâs little stuff like how Amity tried running away from Luz in the ROMANCE section of the library or the proud look in Aladorâs eye as Amity fends off the abomaton, showing that there were ideas that the crew were planning to set up but left behind these hints, both subtle and not, and making fans realize that the writers thought that far ahead (Most of the time). Even the little things like seeing a Grom poster in the background in an episode leaves a nice teaser for something fun thatâs to come while making fans smile at that particular attention to detail.
But it gets better with the bigger reveals. Raine especially is a great example of this, as they have two big moments that recontextualize how they interact with Eda in previous episodes. In âEdaâs Requiem,â itâs clear that thereâs some romantic tension between the two, with Eda particularly being a blushing mess. It leads viewers to believe that the two share feelings for each other, but never admit it, with a few fans even joking that Eda isnât that suave if sheâs so flustered around an old crush. Then in the VERY NEXT EPISODE, we learn that Eda and Raine arenât old crushes but are instead exes. It makes all the romantic tension in that episode feel more engaging now that you have that information in mind, as it tells you that these two still have feelings for each other, with Edaâs being the strongest seeing how she didnât want the relationship to end but willing to keep quiet because sheâs not willing to admit it. Itâs a great utilization of recontextualization that makes the text more engaging, with the crazy part being the writers do it AGAIN in the same season. In âFollies of the Coven Day Parade,â weâre led to believe that Raineâs brainwashed by some potion Terra gives them, with Edaâs attempts to break Raine out looking like theyâre WORKING but not hard enough. The biggest sign that Eda broke through was a tear from Raine, but even then it didnât look like much as Raine went right back to chugging Terraâs concoction. Only for âThemâs the Breaks, Kidâ to reveal that Raine was NEVER under any hypnosis or spell. They used bard magic to change the mixture with just a whistle, which we see Raine do when they first drink something Terra gave them. Not only is that a brilliant case of laying down the groundwork for a bigger reveal down the road, but it makes all of Raineâs actions in that episode have an extra sense of drama to them as we now know theyâre faking being brainwashed and are trying to push Eda away from the oncoming conflict. âFollies at the Coven Day Paradeâ is already an engaging episode, especially with the Eda and Raine subplot alone, but the prior knowledge of whatâs really going on with Raine just gives it an extra bit of edge that it didnât even need but Iâm appreciative of it anyway.
The same applies when fan theories turn out to be true. Now, there were a LOT of crackpot theories in this fandom, some of them going so far as believing that Luz would be possessed by The Collector (Remember that?). As for other theories, the show didnât have much that was as big as that. There was Hunter being a grimwalker, but the show basically spelled that out to us with how it practically shoved that spell book into our faces. There was King being a Titan, but that originally felt like a crack theory based on the SLIGHTEST things with no follow through only for the show to give us all the information we needed in one fell swoop. The only real theory that had any weight, large in part because the clues felt subtle enough to glance over and were frequent enough to remind fans of its possibility, is Belos being Philip/a human. I personally picked up on the possibility as early as âYoung Blood, Old Souls.â He didnât cast spells like other witches and his staff and parts of his robe looked more mechanical than magical. It made me think he had no natural magic of his own and, with humans being the only beings who lacked magic, the logical conclusion was that HE might be human too. Sure, his face revealed he had pointy ears, but they were noticeably smaller than most witches. Almost as if he sliced up his own ears to help make them look more like a witchâs. And I know you canât SHOW something like that in a kidâs show, but you can heavily imply itâŠwhich the series did through a portrait in Belosâ mind. Regardless, the show always left the validity of the theory as a possibility, with new information being thrown into the mix of whether Belos used to be Philip. They certainly sounded similar and, upon meeting Philip, a lot more of the pieces started to fall into place. His charm, inflections, and demeanor all pointed to the signs that these two were the same guy, with âHollow Mindâ only confirming it to the audience. With all this proper build up and explanations of who Belos is and why he acts in a certain way, not only does it make forming and reforming the theory more fun, but it makes rewatching Belosâ actions become more engaging as you get a better idea of what heâs going for. We know why heâs vague about his plans for the Day of Unity, why he treats Hunter so disrespectfully, and why he wants a portal to the Human Realm. It makes an already threatening villain more vile and intriguing all because we know exactly who he is, rewarding fans who already got close to predicting the truth by giving them more than what they bet on.
This is the fun of watching a show like The Owl House. With its tight continuity and story consistently building off of itself, it makes you appreciate all the finer details and see how it all mostly lines up. Not everything was planned out, but, for the stuff that was, it makes rewatching the series feel better and better as you know the writers spent so much time making sure everything they make lines up perfectly as they could. By knowing the truth, it can make fans appreciate even the TINIEST of moments in Season One that would HEIGHTEN the experience once you you got to Season ThreeâŠUnfortunately, though, there is ONE thing that the writers didnât fully work out, to the point where it kind of breaks the series when we get to that final season.
Problem: The timeline is all kinds of wonky
I donât mean all the stuff in the past. Caleb running away with Evelyn, Belosâ rise to power, Edaâs curse and all the consequences that came with it all line up well enough. What Iâm talking about is all the things that happened in the present. From âA Lying Witch and a Wardenâ to âThanks to Them,â a lot of the showâs attempts at making a timeline of events falls short.
At first, it seemed that they were doing a good job of it. They said that âI Was a Teenage Abominationâ and âCoventionâ were a week apart from each other, with the same being the case with the ladder episode and âLost in Language.â There, the writers were explicitly giving us an exact timeline of events, being relatively easy to follow. But either they realized that theyâre making the summer move along a little faster or they stopped caring about consistency, because they stopped mapping things out after âLost in Language.â From there on, the writers become noticeably vague about how far apart these events occurred. âKeeping Up A-Fear-Ancesâ has Luz assume that summer is over, so itâs definitely been months since the first episode, meaning weâre probably in FallâŠbut then it gets trickier. Because by the end of âReaching Out,â it shows us this calendar next to Camila that itâs currently the last week of August. Now, some summer camps donât last the WHOLE summer, Iâm sureâŠBut Camila, in the very first episode, specifically said, âThe next THREE MONTHS will fly by.â If itâs been three months, depending on the school Luz went to, we would be in August by âKeeping Up A-Fear-Ances.â However, itâs weird that weâre STILL in August in âReaching Out.â In order for that to make sense, every episode after âKeeping Up A-Fear-Ancesâ would be a day apart from each other. Is that plausible? Probably. But ONLY if camp ended at the exact time as âKeeping Up A-Fear-Ances.â What we saw in the ending could have been a few days, maybe a week at some random point of August.Â
And even IF events were a day apart, that still wouldnât work. Assuming itâs the middle of August, that either has not enough episodes or not enough days. And even then, to think that all of these episodes, EACH ONE, takes place a day after the other is INSANE. It definitely doesnât do Hunterâs redemption arc any favors if it took less than a month to change his perception of reality. Plus, something Raine said in âFollies at the Coven Day Paradeâ makes things MORE confusing. They said theyâve spent a MONTH in bed. Could be a part of the âbrainwashingâ thatâs making them say that, but still, a month WHEN? A month BEFORE or AFTER âEdaâs Requiem?â Because if it was a month BEFORE, why would the Emperorâs Coven make Raine think theyâve been taken care of BEFORE becoming an official Bard Head? And if itâs a month AFTER, then HOW?! IS IT?! STILL AUGUST?! Iâm telling you, it HURTS the brain to think about, and it hurts even MORE when thereâs a frickinâ scrap book in âThanks to Themâ that explicitly says the Hexsquad spent a SUMMER together, WHICH THE PHOTOS PROVE TO BE ACCURATE! Whenâs the last time youâve seen people go to the beach in the mid to late September? Or go tubing when weâre getting close to October? Or relaxing in the sun or enjoying your time in the garden when itâs the middle of FALL?! The math is NOT mathing in this scenario, and it really almost breaks the series.
Now, the question is this: HOW did this happen? Well, there are two theories, one generous and the other reasonable. The generous theory is that, given most of the timeline started getting broken in the second half of Season Two, itâs possible that this was a result of the story getting shortened (Yes, Iâm playing that card. Stick with me). The writers confirmed that the first half of Season Two was already written and put into production before Disney decided we canât have nice things and shortened the series. There were a LOT of things that were likely to happen in that longer version of The Owl House, with a âsummerâ in the human realm being something they thought up as a way to make the story more interesting despite the constrained time limit. However, like I said, thatâs being generous. Because the reality, in what I can assume, is that writers didnât do the math right and failed to properly communicate with the art department. Stuff like the calendar and scrapbook is something made by the background, prop, and storyboard artists, likely trying to clean things up and add more fun to the story, only for it to turn out that they didnât get the proper notes they needed. The resultsâŠdoesnât fundamentally destroy the series, but it does break things everytime you think about it. If youâre not paying attention, you wonât be bothered by any of it, but if the only solution is to tell people not to think about something in the series thatâs so brokenâŠis a bit of an unfair suggestion to make. You canât tell people to ignore something wrong with the story, no matter how good the rest of it is. Itâs still worth being brought up, even if itâs something small that turns into something BIGGER down the line. That way, it could help future writers, or people working on this show moving onto bigger things, to avoid facing a similar issue and make the NEXT story end up being a little less brokenâŠBut I can tell you what ISNâT broken in THIS series.
Praise: The Characters all feel solid.
âWhat does that even mean?â
Good question! Because I donât know.
Yeah, this oneâs more based on a FEELING I get when watching the show. Itâs something I notice when watching it alongside Amphibia, Gravity Falls, or most other 2D shows. Itâs even something I noticed with MoringMarkâs comics, which often nails a close approximation of the showâs art style, but SOMETHING always felt a little off. And itâs not when looking at the show do I realize the reason WHY is because The Owl House has a certainâŠvolume to it. Like, I can almost TOUCH these characters when theyâre on screen. As for how, again, I have no idea. It could be how the characters are colored, the weight in their lines, the way theyâre shaded, or even the ways theyâre meant to move. I donât know how or why The Owl House accomplishes this feeling I get from it, but I feel like itâs something worth mentioning, even if briefly.
See? Not every part of this final review will be long winded. Sometimes, I just gotta bring up small things that enough people talk about, to show how I appreciate The Owl House in most facets. Certainly helps when I bring up something that might get people angry.
Problem: The animationâs a bit too stiff at timesÂ
Not all the time, mind you. There are a lot of scenes where the series goes all out and adds so much fluidity in such a short scene. The problem comes when you realize how great THOSE scenes look causes the rest of the show toâŠNOT look like that.
To be clear, the animationâs not AWFUL. Iâd say more times than not, the show looks good. Itâs just that you can see where most of the budget went into for certain scenes. Itâs a tactic that action oriented shows use all the time, to have the dialogue heavy and character focused scenes be slow and stiff so that they can save the best work on the weekly fight scenes. HoweverâŠThe Owl House isnât an action oriented series. Itâs a fully character driven one, as Iâve thoroughly established for five frickinâ parts now. There are only a handful of big fight scenes, with only a quarter of them having that smooth as butter animation. Yeah, while hype up the big battles like Edaâs duel with Lilith, thereâs actually SOME fights where itâs the usual standard for the rest of the series, looking a bit stiff and slow. Sometimes, the same episode can have different animation for fights, with âFollies at the Coven Day Paradeâ having a stiff fight between Eda and Raine and a smooth one with Luz and Amity teaming up against Kikimora. The difference is noticeable and, the crazy thing is, I donât dislike either battle, regardless of its quality. I think both are still good in their own right, but the noticeable difference sticks out and makes you realizeâŠhow the rest of the series looks. Again, itâs still good, especially in Season Two where it feels like most of the stiffness got cleaned up a bit. Itâs just a thing where, despite how good some things look, it makes one almost feel that theyâre watching a different show when it suddenly turns up the quality. It feels weird that the show looking amazing is a problem, but it only is when it sticks out like a sore thumbâŠThat being said, though, the show DOES look frickinâ awesome when it wants to.
Praise: It has AWESOME fight scenes and cool uses of magic.
Is this contradictory? Only a little. And, to be fair, while there are times when the FLUID fight scenes DO stick out, they deserve all the praise in the world. Because unlike a certain book series that has magical fights in it, thereâs more of an attempt to go NUTS with the action outside of âIâm pointing my wand as hard as I can!â Shout out to How It Should Have Ended for nailing that, by the way, becauseâŠYeah, itâs accurate. If the best magical action you can come up with is characters pointing their wands at each other, itâs not really that visually compelling. Now, for The Owl House, you get a LOT more than pointing wands. You have characters dashing themselves away from big, magical blasts. Abomination goop being used as a shield, fists, or swords. Our plucky protagonist flying at the seat of her pants to try and defend herself from an evil emperor throwing everything he has at her. When the series wants to go hard, it does, regardless of how noticeable the quality difference is. And I appreciate the fact that The Owl House crew try so hard to make all magic that characters can do look awesome, regardless of it being an action scene or not. Outside of Oracle Magic, which never really got that much of a spotlight, all the other eight magical tracks are often shown to beâTo put it bluntlyâsuper cool. âEdaâs Requiemâ has a ton of moments like that with bard magic, giving us an actual idea of what itâs capable of and, albeit briefly with a guard putting on earmuffs, imply that itâs limited by people being able to HEAR the tunes bards play. Plus, the final act shows the capabilities of Abomination and Beast Keeping Magic with Darius being able to teleport people with goop and morph his body into goo while Eberwolf has better tracking skills and being able to summon beasts. Sure, it adds intensity to the scene and proves just how powerful these two are, but it also shows usâWithout telling usâwhat their magic types can do and how powerful one can get with a type of skill. Even something as simple as Viney casting a shield through healing magic or Bria making stone columns through construction is enough to tell the audience what we need to know about these types of magic and infer what ELSE witches like them can do in their respective tracks. It creates fun speculation on top of making the magic more interesting to watch as compared to the film adaptations of the unspoken book series. You should know which one by now.
However, as cool as the magic CAN be, how itâs casted could use some more punching up.
Problem: The magic system is kind of boring.
KIND OF. There being eight magic tracks is interesting and, as established, how those different magical spells are used can look visually intriguing. They definitely avoided the problem of characters just pointing wands for a fight, but they ran into this new issue of how the magic is casted. For every spell in every single trackâŠitâs just the characters drawing circles. Sometimes big circles, sometimes small circles, and sometimes multiple circles at once. The only time a circle isnât drawn is when a character uses a staffâŠmost of the time. Even then, there are instances when a circle needs to be drawn, even if theyâre not as frequent as a character casting magic without a staff. And Iâm not gonna lie, this is an issue Iâve had since the first few episodes of Season One. Itâs just such an uninteresting way for characters to cast magic, especially since itâs done by everybody, regardless of what spell it is. And you wanna know the worst part is? The show offers a more INTERESTING magic system than what most witches have.
Luzâs glyphs, much more than the spells, sucked in a lot of fansâ attention. There were people drawing their own ideas for glyphs that matched what COULD be in the show, or coming up with possible combinations when Season Two established that glyph combos are a possibility. And the reason WHY is because the glyphs are a more fascinating concept. They offer more variety of what they can do for Luz, and look more visually interesting than a circle in the air. What also benefits the glyphs are the limitations they have. They can do anything Luz wants, but she has to draw them EXACTLY as theyâre meant to. No line can be out of place, and the circle has to be perfect every single time. Amity proved what happens if you draw the glyph wrong in âReaching Out,â and that was just with ONE glyph. When it comes to drawing glyph combos, not only do you need to combine the right kinds of glyphs with a specific amount, but you need to draw them in a specific way. Itâs more than just drawing two glyphs on the same page, itâs drawing one on one part of a circle that connects it to another. Itâs complicated, and gets more so, depending on the spell. Belosâ teleportation glyph proves that you need more than paper to draw the whole thing out. And thatâs not getting into the other limitations Luz has with glyphs, like how the invisibility glyph can only work for as long as the user holds their breath. Thatâs a cool concept and makes one wonder how other glyphs can be limited despite the power they present. Which is more than I can say about spell circles.
Spell circles are just missing that little extra OOMPH. Itâs interesting that performing magic is more like a skill that a person needs to train themselves how to do. Like learning how to whistle or learning how to balance on one leg. Nothing strenuous, but nothing easy, either. Plus, the fact that thereâs occasional strain from doing a spell too big or characters collapsing after doing one for too long does at least SHOW that magicâs not easy to do. It just doesnât always LOOK hard, not from a viewerâs perspective. Maybe if something like Beast Keepers needed to make claw marks in the air or Plant Witches needed to draw squiggly lines to mimic vines. Or even if a spell requires a different colored circle, and being able to mix spells means you have to draw a variety of circles. JustâŠANYTHING to make it seem like thereâs more of an effort outside of drawing circles, all while impressing audiences with how cool the magic system could be. It doesnât kill the show in any way, but it does feel like there could have been more creativity. Itâd be difficult, but the show isnât afraid to present something engaging through visuals. And not just through the fight scenesâŠ
Praise: The show does great at showing development through outward appearances.
It might not be on the same level as an epic action scene, but this IS a nice attention to detail. You know why you often see characters wearing the same clothes in every episode, often with little variety? Itâs because doing so makes it easier for the animators, giving them a sense of consistency to know how to draw a character each time throughout the series, only changing it up for one episode, specific scenes, or even a quick gag. So to either make a permanent or even gradual change to the characterâs design as we reach a certain point in the story, itâs got to take a great attention to detail and continuity to make the change stay. Not only that, but there has to be a GOOD reason to do it. Sometimes, there isnât. Like, for Eda, I feel as though some higher ups started to discover the lewd art fans were making and told the animators to show less skin on her (Didnât work, they just made her look hotter). And for Gus, itâs just because the voice of his VA started getting deeper so they gave the character an older design to reflect thatâŠeven though, to this day, it makes me question what the hell âwitch pubertyâ is. But while those are small cases that are either done âjust becauseâ or âfor convenience,â there are some design changes that are often used to help tell the story and show how characters have grown and developed through the course of the series.
In a more permanent case, you have King and Amity. In âEchos of the Past,â King regains a piece of his old horn that Luz then glues back onto himâŠItâs weird that the horn fits perfectly and that it continues to grow as he ages, but, eh. Heâs a baby god. Thereâs probably some god magic theyâre that weâre not aware of.
Regardless of how the hornâs apparently magic, thereâs significance to why this horn is now reattached to King. In that episode, he learns that thereâs this new part of himself and his history that he wasnât aware of before. Because of that, he wants to TRY to connect to his roots, even though he doesnât know who or WHAT he is. Having his horn back is the first step in that journey, making him look more like what he EXPECTS his species to look like. Itâs a small thing, but it still does so much to represent Kingâs character and the journey heâs about to take.
As for Amity, her big change is a bit more significant. After finally wanting to be her own person, she decided to change her hair to help reflect that. Instead of a colder shade of green that makes Amity look like her mother, Amity had it dyed into a warmer shade of lavender. Even how Amity has her hair made up offers this more welcoming appearance as opposed to looking like a smaller Odalia. Whether Anity wears her hair long or short, it frames her face in a much friendlier manner, showing off how much she grew into a kinder person. When I often think of Amity, I think of the nicer young lady with adorable cotton candy hair, as opposed to the snarkier, more intense teen with a colder appearance. It actually breaks my brain a little when I rewatch earlier Season One episodes, because I donât associate that look with Amity anymore, let alone her behavior. It proves how much sheâs changed, inside and out, all while trying to be her own person instead of a carbon copy of someone worse. Sure, the change was a bit jarring and, admittedly, I missed the green hair upon the big reveal, but itâs a necessary change to make the fandomâs favorite white girl happy. Itâs not like everyone can have a more gradual change like the fandomâs favorite white boy.
Hunterâs interesting because heâs the only character in the show who has a different appearance in almost every episode. Whether itâs something subtle like a new emblem being added to his cape or something drastic likeâŠwhatever you could call his outfit in âLabyrinth Runners.â Either way, he never really sticks to the same style, and thatâs fine. His whole character is about discovering himself and who he wants to be instead of becoming the soldier and symbol Belos wanted. Itâs why, during the final season, he starts wearing messier, looser clothing that is an outcry to the more professional outfits he went for. And while he ends the series the most scarred heâs ever been, itâs a nice detail that it looks like Hunter is the happiest heâs ever lived through his smile, lack of eye bags, and more loose body movement. Itâs a mix of subtle and obvious details that showed how Hunter became a changed person despite all the hardships he went through. Itâs beautiful and heâs not the only character that goes through this kind of change.
When I saw what Lilith looked like in the past, and how the bright vibrancy clashed with Lilithâs cold presence in the present, I was hopeful that her road to redemption would be her trying to look more like her old self. And while her redemption was rushed in more ways than one, it is great that the art team did lean into the idea of Lilith slowly shedding her old design for a warmer, kinder one. She ditches a proper set of robes for some spare rags Eda had laying around, eventually gained a uniform when she found stability in her life, allowing her hair to curl once more while adding a pair of specs, and ends the series with her red hair fully returning. At the start, she looked like the most blatantly evil antagonist with how much darkness encompassed her design. By the time skip, she still wears those cold colors, but the short orange hair, the specs, and even how loose that outfit looks gives this sort of eccentric professor appearance. Sort of like sheâs Miss Frizzleâs cousin, but one that goes against dressing brightly and colorfully. It definitely fits the vibe Lilithâs current personality goes for, and it works. Itâs another case of a characterâs improved behavior reflecting in their appearance. However, sometimes the show can do well in the opposite direction by showing how WORSE a character has gotten.
Luz and Belos are the main instances of this. Luz was more brief, as she looked disheveled during âThanks to Them.â Her clothes were baggier, her smile is basically gone, and it looks like sheâs stopped caring about herself or her appearance. It perfectly shows us the mental and emotional state that Luz is in throughout the special, caused by her stress and guilt formed by Belosâ manipulation. Speaking of, through the final season, Belos gradually looks more monstrous and decayed as he continues his quest to kill all witches. It appropriately reveals how much of his true self started taking physical form and overshadowing the charismatic manipulator, all while his body melts and breaks apart to show that time is catching up with him every second. Itâs the best kind of visual representation of what Belos has become and this final season will be his final moments. Both him and Luz have perfect visual representation for how worse they got this season, even if Luzâs change was more temporary than Belosâ. But, even then, she spends the rest of the season dressed as her hero Azura, making her look like everything she wanted to be in the Boiling Isles as she gains determination to save it. So even though this season started with Luz at her worst, she still managed to evolve into becoming her best self while Belos continued to devolve into his worst self. Thereâs some hero/villain symbolism for ya.
The art and animation team work their hardest in making the show look as good as they possibly could, often aiding the equally great writing. Changing up the characters outfits and designs can say so much without needing the characters to say anything at all. Itâs the perfect cooperation of writing and animation that makes some of the best animated shows function so well. In this case, it offered a great attention to the story at play and made for great visuals at the same timeâŠThough, those same visuals arenât exactly PERFECTâŠ
Problem: The color scheme is a little off.
âThat seems subjective.â
Oh, itâs VERY subjective. Iâm not one who knows color theory or what some colors represent (Honestly, I find the whole thing nonsensical). Iâm a guy who goes off of gut feeling and thinking to myself âDo these assortment of colors look good?â And the colors in The Owl House donât look AWFUL, as thereâs never a point where I feel like the show is unwatchable. Iâve seen uglier looking works of fiction, all because the creator or director thought it might âimproveâ the film. Whether itâs to hide the obvious CGI or because the director wanted to match the âgrittinessâ of the real world, there have been clearer cases where artistic expression or intent tends to harm how a show looks. Even things I like, such as Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss, run into the problem where the red and black characters tend to blend too much in the red and black backgrounds. I get that weâre in Hell and the shows often look gorgeous otherwises, but holy hell this must be torture for people who are colorblind. But again, The Owl House never gets THAT bad, even though it matches a similar intent.
Dana Terrace wanted to make a magical world that isnât as pretty as your usual fare. Doing that means you have to avoid using bright and inviting colors, allowing viewers to appreciate the beauty in what others considered ugly. A nice sentiment, sure, and they donât completely use unappealing colors. For the most part, the orange, red, and browns of this world create this sort of Fall atmosphere, while the blues, greens, and also browns of certain creatures and characters look devilish and/or ghoulish. The intent is clear and itâs not a bad look at all, but thereâs something a little off going on.
I THINK itâs how the colors mix with the characters? Itâs hard to explain, but when I look at a character like Gus, who frequently wears his Hexside uniform, something is off. LikeâŠthe cold blues and blacks of his uniform clash with the warm hues around him. Or how something like Willowâs original casual outfit had colors that blended in the rest of the world. Or how Luzâs bright white and purple hoodie contrasts her dark jeans and leggings. I guess what Iâm getting at is that the colors of the characterâs outfits are the problem? They either clash or blend in, to my eyes, at least. Again, NOT a color theorist, Iâm probably just talking out of my ass here and going too much into detail about something thatâs basically a nitpick. The colors of The Owl House donât ruin the show for me, I still like the majority of how it looks. This is just a little thing that stops me, personally, from saying it looks perfect. Donât take it too seriously, this is, again, totally subjective. Itâd be the same as me complaining about the showâs comedy or musicâŠSpeaking of the music, though, I have NO complaints regarding that.
Praise: The Music is amazing.
Told ya.
And again, this is totally subjective. A showâs soundtrack is either going to strike a chord in you (ha) or not. And while The Owl House doesnât have an AMAZING score, itâs still one that often fills me with delight no matter what episode Iâm watching. Composers TJ Hill and Brad Breeck do a great job in giving The Owl House its own sound. Thereâs themes that can fit a certain character, like with how The Collector has this very bouncy yet very off-putting base whenever theyâre doing wacky nonsense. There are also motifs that suit a relationship, like how Luz and Amity had this little tune that got warmer and gentler as the two got closer to becoming an pair. And, there are cases where there are songs that play just for a certain episode or theme, like that beat that played during âEchoes of the Pastâ when Jean-Luc was on screen. Thereâs a lot of effort put into the music of the series like there is in a lot of the show, and itâs often pleasant to the ears like how the visuals are pleasant to the eyes. Thereâs a total of ONE case where the score got a little lazy and thatâs when they played the same track for when Lumity became canon during the scene where Gus introduces Cosmic Frontier to Hunter. Thatâs a very specific score that never got used again, and works well for the FIRST scene itâs used in. To reuse it for such a minimal moment is baffling, but itâs at least the ONLY time the composers did it. In a lot of other cases, they go hard with the instrumentals, with TJ Hillâs theme for the show being a pretty good listen. Wouldnât rank it among some of the best theme songs for cartoons, but definitely better than most.
The closest I can find to a problem with the showâs music, outside of the one weird reuse of a specific track, is that it almost sounds TOO similar to Gravity Falls. Like, if you were to play a few notes from the background, half the time, itâs gonna take me a minute to figure out if itâs from The Owl House or Gravity Falls. I can let it go, of course, because both shows share a composer and The Owl House has a bit more of aâŠmagical feeling to its sound, I guess. You know it when you listen closely, and it helps give The Owl House more of that unique feelingâŠBut since I brought up similarities, thereâs more to notice than just the music.
Problem: The show feelsâŠsimilar to other modern cartoons.
Though, to be fair, almost every huge show since Adventure Time and Gravity Falls feels similar. Thereâs definitely been a trend where modern animation tends to start as comedic and mostly episodic, becomes gradually serious over time, starts telling a more cohesive story arc, and shocking twists that even surprise a few adults a lot of the time. Itâs a trend tiring for some while exciting to most, with The Owl House being one of the better examples of this pattern done RIGHT. I have no problems with what the show wants to be, but I canât help but notice instances where it does something similar to other shows that came out. Dana Terrace and her writers have put their own spin on ideas, but donât stop these feelings like how The Collectorâs playtime is a chiller Weirdmageddon, or how the final season is a repackaged version of Amphibiaâs. I already went over that ladder two parts ago, so Iâm not going to repeat myself here. As for the former, Iâm not going to dwell on it because more than enough people did when âFor the Futureâ started. The Collector is NOTHING like Bill Cipher, so they both go about causing chaos in different ways, with The Collectorâs actions being unintentionally messed up while Bill fully knows what heâs doing and loves it anyway. The differences lead to two apocalyptic scenarios that are unique in their own right. Still, the similarities ARE there and are fairly noticeable.
I donât like giving problems like that attention, though. Itâs a nitpick at best and itâs always people using surface level similarities just to make a nonsensical argument about how nothing is original anymore. As someone who believes that originality is a myth and that itâs near impossible for people to make something wholly original, I find it pointless to point out how similarities are a problem, especially if whatâs being made is still good.
âThen why bring it up at all?â
WellâŠbecause it does stop The Owl House from standing out, just a little bit. If you offer a story thatâs too similar to others, you need to offer some differences that make it more appealing. To make it STAND OUT more from the crowd of great cartoons that tell their own great stories. Otherwise, why bother watching a show when thereâs another version of it thatâs just the same, if not better? And sure, whether something is better or not is purely subjective. I personally enjoy something like The Owl House more than Amphibia, and Iâm sure Iâm not the only one who thinks that. But thereâs also people who disagree with that and treat Amphibia as untouchable where itâs The Owl House thatâs flawed. Trying to be better isnât a big enough difference because not everyone is going to believe your story stands higher than others. But keep in mind, that doesnât stop the show from being GOOD. Even if there are some familiarities with other things, youâll still have a good time with what you watch. But think of it like this: There are dozens of sitcoms out there, each of them following a certain formula or character dynamics. Yet the ones people remember the most arenât just the funniest but the things they did differently. Boy Meets World sort of grew up with its audience by having its main character grow up, going from simple plots of Corey painting his neighborâs fence for a super soaker to him defending the right to punch a guy who sexually assaulted his girlfriend. Malcolm in the Middle forgoes having a simple, caring family household for a messy family of a-holes that are often at odds with each other but still look out for one another, even if it causes chaos for themselves and others. And The Office, instead of having people go through extreme and almost cartoonish situations, has real types of people living out realistic scenarios and laughing at how stupid and secondhand embarrassing they can beâŠAt least at first. Things get a little bit off the rails later on in the series. Regardless, shows tend to stand out in pop culture due to the differences they presented, not just the quality. The same applies for cartoons like The Owl House, which has a similar vibe to other shows, not just ones produced by Disney. Now, it has differences that make it stand out ENOUGH, but I canât really blame people for thinking that the series is a little similar to others. I only draw the line when people treat it as an actual detriment when, again, itâs nothing more than a minor nitpick. YOU might not think it stands out, but thereâs an entire fandom that says otherwise. And to keep things fair, letâs go over a few differences to prove how well the show stands out.
Praise: The look of the world is great
I said it in the colors section, but Dana Terrace didnât want a PRETTY magical world. She wanted something a little spooky and demonic, taking art inspiration from paintings by Heironymous Bosch. And while things never get to that level of intensity, let it be known that The Owl House tries to match the same level of weirdness. Or, at least, try as much as Disney would allow. Because if youâve seen Danaâs non Owl House art on her socials, you can see for yourself how much she was restrained by making something family friendly. Hell, by the time Iâm posting this, the teaser for her next big show came out and it definitely looks like Dana Terrace unfiltered. But no matter the limitations, the final result makes for a pretty unique world. By the second episode alone, the show reveals that everything takes place upon the corpse of a Titan. Thatâs already an awesome idea that Iâve never heard of before and things just get crazier as we see the many demons, witches, and creatures that exist in this world. You have obvious reimaginings of classic beasts and monsters in mythology, with the series putting their own spin on both the designs and what they can do, making these creatures fit with the mythology that the writers are trying to make for this series. As for the NEW creatures that exist solely in this series, thereâs not a LOT of ideas that the show puts a lot of emphasis on aside from slitherbeasts and thoseâŠweird butterflies, but thereâs still a good amount of random one-off monsters, both friendly and menacing, that have a good amount of creativity that puts into how they look. Even that tentacle monster Luz said good morning to in âWitches Before Wizardsâ has a lot more effort put into its design despite showing up once for the entire series. In fact, that brings up another positive in the look of this world: Thereâs a lot of effort in making EVERYONE look unique. Every single character and demon that Luz interacts with has a different design to them, with it being rare for the show to reuse character models to fill out a crowd. Now, most of them donât have a consistent VOICE, but at least the animators and artists did good in making the people of the Boiling Isles look as weird as possible. None of them really look horrifying, but that might help the series more than you think.
The whole point of The Owl House is finding beauty in the bizarre. To accomplish that, you need to create a world thatâs weird but not horrific. Make the people odd but not creepy. Have the creatures look dangerous but not horrendous. Basically, itâs all about finding that balance of looking off-putting to any normal person but never to the extent that it isn't something you canât get used to. The show applies this to characters and the backgrounds, creating a world thatâs odd everywhere you look but in a way thatâs almost inviting. The Boiling Isles isnât a place that the main character would want to escape from, but wishes to stay in because of how âat-homeâ she feels. Itâs handled well in every episode, giving the series a look that allows it to stand out on its own just well enoughâŠI just wish we could have seen MORE of this world.
Problem: The world feels small.
I said this before when talking about the arcs, but The Owl House doesnât really have that expansive of a magical world. Granted, itâs a character driven series, it doesnât NEED to have a GRAND landscape filled with adventure, it needs a place that the characters can interact and hang out in. Itâs totally fine to tell small-scale stories in a small, contained area. Thereâs just two problems with that: For one, Dana Terrace clearly wanted a larger narrative near the end of Season Two, and doing so led to realizing how little weâve seen of the Isles. More than that, it makes a fan like me realize I simply donât care about the rest of the Isles. I care about the primary characters and I donât want anyone to die, but I also realized that I donât have the same strong connection to the Isles that Luz does because I havenât much of it.
As for problem number two, it feels like a waste to limit such an interesting realm. Everything is either near or in Bonesborough, while occasionally moving through forests during SOME adventures. Thereâs an entire ISLAND to explore and we mostly stay in one area. Whatâs crazy is that, after Season One wrapped up, Dana Terrace did a Q&A where she promised that Season Two would have more island exploration. And all we really did was see a new city and a FEW islands that were only made for one-off adventures. Granted, I think she promised this BEFORE being told that the show would get cut down, and itâs possible that plans had to change at the last minute, but it doesnât change how the Isles feel smaller than they are. And with how interesting this world looks, itâs a shame we only get to see it in a microscope view instead of seeing it expanded. The story isnât RUINED by this, itâs just a missed opportunity caused by spending most of Season One in the same five places and having no time to explore more. Fortunately, the showâs good at a lot of other things regardless of limitations.
Praise: They made something OUTSTANDING despite restrictions
And there are more than just THE BIG ONE. Iâll admit that The Owl House is one of the few shows that adjusted well to a forced cancellation, knowing exactly what to keep in the original plan, how to combine one plotline with another, and come up with an epic, satisfying ending even though it wasnât the ending the writers originally planned. In all regards, The Owl House managed to soar past expectations and still make some really great episodes and specials when, for other shows, getting a shortened series may as well have been a death sentence (Just look at what happened to Danny Phantom). But as much as the show deserves this kind of praise, itâs also worth mentioning that a shortened series is NOT the only restriction the writers had to deal with. They also managed to surpass expectations when you remember EXACTLY what The Owl House is.
The Owl House, first and foremost, is a childrenâs cartoon on the Disney Channel. Because of that, there are ideas and elements that the writers and artists canât go all the way with because Disney still wants to appeal to that family-friendly crowd. So when the show gets away with something that you wouldnât expect, it makes you appreciate it all the more. Sometimes itâs getting incredibly dark, both in the story and itâs humor, and other times itâs as simple as showing two girls in love. This is a REALLY LGBTQIA+ friendly series produced by DISNEY, and thatâs somehow more surprising than ninety percent of what happens in âHollow Mind.â And thatâs an episode filled with death, torture, and destruction, so that says a lot, really.
The Owl House, much like Gravity Falls and Amphibia, really tries to push the envelope of whatâs okay for kids or not. To me, though, it feels like it managed to push things further, mainly because cartoons of the past really helped in pushing boundaries too but also because of how deeply it managed to strike a chord in me. Like, I was an ADULT by the time the first episode premiered. I was NOT in this showâs age range and yet I managed to be both impressed and invested with every episode and what it managed to do. And keep in mind, thatâs not an easy task to accomplish. As I get older and older, the more I realize that cartoons meant for children arenât meant for ME (Shocking, I know). Themes are fairly simple, stories are becoming predictable, and the humorâs definitely more for younger audiences and not just ME. So if a series made for children still manages to get strong reactions out of a schmuck my age, itâs clearly doing something right. That effect isnât going to be the same for everyone, but I personally see it as the show doing something incredible. Dana Terrace wanted to tell a GREAT story with wonderful characters, all with themes and imagery that certainly challenge younger minds, and created JUST thatâŠThough, the story itself isnât exactly PERFECT.
Problem: There are noticeable retcons caused by the writers wanting to go in a different direction.
This isnât new for ANY show, let alone serialized cartoons. Adventure Time basically improvised its lore and backstories on the spot, and every reveal and change is almost perfect with only the SLIGHTEST retcons to make it coherent. And donât even get me STARTED on the things comics have done. Did you know that Alfred wasnât Bruce Wayneâs family butler? He was just some wannabe detective that actively chose to work for Batman and Robin.
The point is that I get WHY retcons happen. Large or small, subtle or blunt, itâs all because the writers decide they want to tell the story differently and try to change things around so it can fit with everything else theyâve already written. At its best, you barely care that it happens. At its worst, itâs blatantly obvious and you can tell that the writers decided at the last minute that they didnât like the direction they were going in. And The Owl HouseâŠis right between that.
Keep in mind, the changes the show made is almost never towards the story. The narrative is often kept intact regardless of forced shortenings and censorship. The only times the writers decided to make any changes was towards antagonistic characters that the writers wanted to be redeemable. Amity, Ed and Em, Alador, and The Collector are VERY MUCH different characters from how they were introduced and how the writers decided they SHOULD be written soon after. Amity is definitely the best written out of this lineup, as the writers already knew that she had to be redeemed sooner than later and laid out a plan to make it work. However, the plan kind of falls apart when they reveal Amity feels regret for being mean to Willow only to show no form of regret at all in âI Was A Teenage Abomination.â I went over that scene enough, but it still shows how flawed The Owl House is in changing course when it comes to these characters.
Even with changes that I like, it comes across as something more sudden instead of an idea they had from the start. If Edric and Emira were meant to be Amityâs support system, then why would they do something so heinous as leak her diary onto the internet? Thatâs not tough love, thatâs reprehensible. And if The Collector was just a child who didnât understand how dangerous they were, then why make him act so malicious in their introduction. Yes, it was in a memory and you could argue this is how Belos remembered the scene, but everything else was exact so why would JUST The Collector act differently? These are very clear cases of the show wanting to do something different but only AFTER they were too far into production with certain episodes and soon decided to change course when we see them next. I at least LIKE these changes, I prefer them, but there is ONE case where this type of decision making did NOT work out in everyoneâs favor.
Yeah, letâs go ahead and beat the dead horse that is Aladorâs redemption again. I originally said that Iâm not TOO bothered by this. I get the intent and, to Danaâs credit, she DID state beforehand that Alador is more complicated than fans might think. So I get that redeeming Alador was always part of the plan, but given the strong negative reactions this decision had, especially from fans who have had BAD experiences with parents like him, itâs clear that the writers didnât plan far ahead enough. You can defend this decision all you want. IâVE definitely tried. But thereâs no escaping the fact that showing us Alador acting just as bad as Odalia only to LATER say heâs not is a bold and flawed choice that feels worse the more you think about it.Â
Who knows why these particular changes were made to these characters after introducing us to them. Maybe itâs a decision of the writers that they didnât think through or maybe itâs Disney influencing how some characters are written. One thingâs for sure, I donât want to use the âThere wasnât enough timeâ excuse for this one. These were sudden retcons that werenât properly done when it came to changing these characters. At the end of the day, I still PREFER these changes but I would have loved it if they were better eased into the series. Especially since the show IS good at taking its time for other things.
Praise: The writers waste no time giving fans exactly what they want in a timely manner.
Do you want answers to your fan theories? Do you want to see if a ship you love becomes canon? Do you want one narrative to be continued instead of pushed to the side to the point where itâs basically forgotten? Well, good news! The Owl House gives you pretty much what you want to see and you donât have to wait that long to get it!
It always amazes me with how little time is wasted in The Owl House. Almost every episode has SOMETHING going on with it, whether itâs a story thread being continued, a relationship being developed, or a character you love making another appearance. The series is often good at delivering what the majority of fans want and doing so without really having that much input to work with. The first season and a half of The Owl House was being developed before any of the cast or crew were aware of how big of a fanbase theyâd get and were already on their way in making fans satisfied. I mean, there were already Lumity fans hyper fixating on the ship LONG before âEnchanted Grom Frightâ confirmed that they WILL become canon at some point. And even then, the writers still planned to feed the fans well by making it canon halfway through Season Two, potentially hoping to have more episodes in the series dedicated to these two nerds being in love. They planned something this special, not knowing how popular a ship Lumity would be. Just like how they planned to give Hunter a lot of attention without knowing heâd be a fan favorite character or make Steve the most lovable coven guard without expecting fans to love a SINGLE interaction he had with Lilith. Iâm sure Dana Terrace and her writers went in hoping to make every character, relationship, and story excellent, but when youâre making something, you can never be too sure what fans are going to gravitate more to. So the fact that they managed to hit a bullseye over what the majority wanted is VERY impressive. Now, not EVERY fan is satisfied. There are some underrated concepts, characters, and relationships that some fans wished would have gotten more attention, both in the show and the fandom. I can certainly understand that, but I can also argue that it's more of you wanting more from The Owl House instead of appreciating what it already gave you. And yes, I know I just complained about not seeing more of the world not that long ago, but thereâs a difference between wishing to see the creator of this insane world create more insane thingsâŠand wanting an episode dedicated to Emira Blight. Yeah, Iâd like that too, but sometimes you need to judge what the creator and their writers gave you and not so much what YOU wanted.
When I say that The Owl House gave fans what they wanted, Iâm almost always talking about the vast majority, and they certainly seem pleased enough. Especially with how they didnât have to wait long to get what they wanted. Thereâs a total of TWO episodes that Iâd consider filler because of how little they offered, both for the series and fans (You probably know which ones). The rest of the time, the show is perfect at delivering what it needs to, and itâs almost always at the right time in the series. Things are constantly moving forward, and it sometimes leads to a small complaint about how the show is badly paced. For me, though, I always describe the series as differently paced. Weâre so used to shows that take their time building up to a ship becoming canon, carefully integrating characters into the main cast, or slowly writing out this big arc that when something like The Owl House practically speedruns the whole process, it causes this idea that its pacing must be off. Except that I never really think that it is, as almost every interaction these characters have often feels like a natural progression as youâre watching these people improve themselves and the relationships they have around them. Or the way theyâre running out of time to solve these BIG problems leads to feeling the intensity of the situation as thereâs not much room for error left for them. It creates a new experience compared to other shows and it makes sense why The Owl House in particular wastes no time. Some say that the writing was on the wall that the show wasnât going to get that third season, I sayâŠthat Dana Terrace knows how things work with televised animation at Disney. The average lifespan of a Disney cartoon is three seasons. Very rarely does anything get four and itâs even RARER to get up to five. Not everything can be like Big City Greens where itâs basically The Simpsons but for kids. And keep in mind, this is a problem BEFORE streaming made things ten times worse for televised animation. Disney does NOT play the long game when it comes to their shows, with it often being inconsistent with what lasts long and what doesnât. Dana likely expected her show wouldnât get much time so she planned accordingly, getting to those big moments for the characters and story as quickly as possible without it feeling TOO quick. For the most part, I still say that the final result is handled well, giving fans exactly what they want with little to no fluff or fillerâŠHowever, there are SOME cases where I canât help but admitâ
Problem: The series clearly needed another season.Â
Stop me if you heard this before: This aspect of The Owl House would have worked betterâ
â--if the show had enough time.â
Yeah, you get it by now. EVERYONE gets it by now. Itâs the main criticism thrown around a lot, being applicable to a good amount of the showâs problems. Not EVERY issue, mind you, as Lilithâs redemption in particular is still all kinds of rushed BEFORE the writers were told they only have a season and three specials to wrap up the series. Regardless, The Owl House is a series that is BURSTING with potential with dozens of characters, story concepts, and themes, only to be restricted with how much they can cover. And oftentimes, the end result is still GOOD. I almost never feel like thereâs an aspect of the show that was handled poorly with the time that the writers were given. Yet, as good as everything is, I canât help but often feel like it could have been handled better. Luzâs conflict about choosing the Isles or the Human Realm, Willow and Amityâs friendship, and Raineâs rebellion are just SOME of the things that would benefit with a longer series. And the thing is that Iâm not blaming the WRITERS for most of this. They were given a bad hand and tried to deal with it in the best way they could. I still stand by that what they made is AMAZING regardless of how little time they had, even if itâs clear that some ideas had to be cut out entirely or get rushed to an adequate conclusion. It isnât perfect, but our favorite media rarely is.
Still, I wonât say this fixes EVERY problem in the show. An extra season would have benefited in giving more characters and narratives focus, allowing the writers to further explore these ideas they had better, but not necessarily helping the OTHER problems in the series, especially ones Iâve mentioned before in this part alone. Having more time just allows the writers more of a chance to let the series BREATHE and fully expand on what was necessary. As is, The Owl House will forever be one of the most popular cases, to me, where a show reaching perfection got held back by a network limiting how much they could have done. Itâs not the first, it likely wonât be the last, unfortunately, but itâs still one that comes to my mind frequently. And a part of me canât help but wonder what could have been if the series was allowed to go on longer. As well as make assumptions as to why it wasnât, because so far the best bet is that it has to do with the NEXT praise I have with the series.
Praise: It has GREAT diversity.
Before you say the shortening ISNâT because of diversity, Disney is currently trying to scrub out any sense of transgender storyline out of its popular programming and seems a bit too keen to end shows early that continues to diversify casts and normalize certain aspects in society. So donât F**KING tell me that thereâs not any other reason The Owl House suddenly didnât fit the brand, when the higher ups are making it clear that they want the brownie points for being inclusive but donât want to go too far to scare off their conservative audiences! Well, guess what! THEYâRE not getting the brownie points, Dana Terrace and the writers areâŠAnd they really do deserve it.
The Owl House has a pretty colorful cast, to say the least, with the majority of the primary characters being people of color with only a handful of white people thrown in. And pretty much all of them are on the LGBTQIA+ spectrum, highlighting and normalizing different sexualities, genders, and gender norms with the show explicitly stating it, implying it, or having the cast and crew come in to confirm or deny certain headcanons. I know we should take Hunter and Willow being bi and pan with a grain of salt because DANA confirmed it instead of putting it in the showâŠbut is it really going to stop anyone? I think when your show has two thirds of your main trio be confirmed bisexuals, I say itâs perfectly fine to believe that anyone in the show can at least be a LITTLE gay, confirmation be damned. The show is very LGBTQIA+ friendly, like I said earlier, with several characters that many people can see themselves in. Though, some viewers to have notes about howâŠperfectly accepted races and sexualities are, as thatâs not exactly realistic or it ignores the experience that many people tend to go through. To that I sayâŠvalid, but I get why itâs not exactly handled here.
Dana Terrace has gone on record that she wanted to create a world without any REAL discrimination for the sake of escapism. Kids likely get too much of that crap enough, and this is a way to appreciate watching characters who look like them, act like them, and seeing it without being reminded of what the real worldâs like. The Owl House is a series to help children feel seen without reminding them of the stress they have to go through. Would it be a BOLD choice to talk about the homophobia and racism in the Human Realm and the culture shock Luz faces when she realizes that doesnât exist in The Boiling Isles? Absolutely. But I do feel like, because The Owl House is a kidsâ show, you gotta keep the kids happy. Doing that means showing them that who they are is NORMAL and they shouldnât feel shame for it. I donât hold it against the series to do things like make Camila accept Luzâs sexuality, I just think it's beautiful that this series is telling kids they can and WILL be accepted by the right people. Unfortunately, thatâs not going to be the case for everyone, but I still say itâs good to tell kids that thereâs nothing wrong with who they are.
Another benefit is that because The Owl House is a kids show, it teaches kids, specifically white and/or straight kids, that thereâs nothing wrong with ANYTHING The Owl House presents. The color of a personâs skin does not stop you from seeing yourself in them. That personâs sexuality also doesnât stop them from being nice or welcoming. Gender? It doesnât matter because this show goes out of its way to prove genderâs a social construct, if anything else. A girl can dress up as a boy, a man can dress up more flamboyantly, and some characters can just say âscrew two gendersâ altogether and be non-binary. Heck, one of the short-term antagonists has He/They pronouns, that the characters inexplicably respect despite not knowing The Collector has he/they pronouns, proving that no matter what a person is like, you should still acknowledge what labels they go by. And thatâs GREAT! Normalization educates kids who ARENâT part of these races or sexualities that they should be ACCEPTING of it. Itâs okay if two girls want to kiss, itâs okay for two men of different races to raise a daughter, and itâs okay for a Black kid to be one of the highest performing kids in his grade. Even if SOME parents get so mad at these ideas that they break their childâs TV and Funko pop collection (That happened, by the way. Itâs a core memory I have when seeing this show trend on Twitter once).
The Owl House doesnât NAIL the full experience of all these groups, but thatâs not entirely a HUGE detriment to the series. A kid is going to see Lumity become canon for the first time and feel happy to know that theyâre not alone in this world. Theyâre going to see great characters like Raine and see that itâs good to look and be a certain way. Itâs less about educating kids about the culture of lives these types of people might have, but itâs perfect in teaching children that thereâs nothing wrong with being a certain way. I feel like the writers deserve SOME type of credit for what they wanted to do, because that in of itself is ADMIRABLEâŠBut admittedly, there is ONE note that canât be denied.
Problem: It puts a LOT more importance on the WHITE characters.
You remember that handful of white characters I mentioned earlier? Well, they seem to be the writersâ favorites with how often they get more attention than the POCs.
âBut the main protagonist is an Afro-Latina!â
That she isâŠbut how much do we know about Luzâs history and family compared to Edaâs? Or compared to Amityâs? Hell, you could argue that we know more about BELOS than Luz. We learn it through portraits in the background of his mind, but we still learn.
âSo, what? You think that the writers are RACISTS?!â
I did not say that. I never said that. NO ONE who brings up this criticism has ever said that. The writers arenât racists for putting a lot more attention on their whiter characters as opposed to the NON white ones. The non-white characters are still well-written and highly regarded in the fandom, with some having more popularity than most of the white characters. In fact, I think I see more fan art of Skara than I do of Viney, despite both having very little presence in the series. The writers did good at making us love the characters who are POC and wrote them to be endearing to anyone regardless of race. Thereâs just this imbalance between them and the white characters, and it gets more noticeable in Season Two when the fandomâs favorite white boy gets a prominent role in SIX episodes while his half-Korean girlfriend is forced to share one with him. And share HALF a role with her white best friend. And keep in mind, IâŠwouldnât willingly trade away Hunterâs screen time. I love Hunter, and so does the majority of the fandom. INCLUDING the POC fans, who donât like it when white critics talk FOR them in saying that only racists can like Hunter. Iâve seen it. But as much as I love Hunter and his story, I would ALSO love it if Willow got just as much attention in the show as he did.
âWell, maybe if the show had more timeââ
Donât do it. Donât even try it. Alright? Because I told you, the extra season would have fixed a lot of problems but not ALL of them. This imbalance started becoming more of an issue as early as the FIRST half of Season Two, a portion of the series already written before the writers were told that the show would get cut down. In that first half, fans were already pointing out how little screen time characters like Willow and Gus were getting despite being in a close, chaotic friendship with Luz. The first season started with them being major characters, and now it felt like they were being written out of the plot. In an episode where Luz, Gus, and Willow are ALL expelled, itâs mostly about the family drama Amity has with her parents while Willow and Gus do nothing to save Luz so AMITY can look the most badass and Luz gets a crush on her. In an episode where Luz is too sick to go on an adventure, AMITY gets to go and help reform HUNTER, while Willow and Gus have to stay behind and look after Luz. And even then, they donât do anything. They just sit there listening to whale songs with Hooty as they remain ignorant to a crisis. Plus, while Gus may have HALF an episode to himself, heâs playing second fiddle to Lumity getting closer to canonicity. Meanwhile, Willow got squat, despite being the third person Luz met in the Isles that became an important part of her life and having a ton more prevalence in the previous season. I first dismissed it as maybe itâs because Willowâs arc of finding confidence came to a complete end in Season One, so maybe they didnât know what else to do with herâŠbut looking back, thatâs a pretty flimsy excuse. A completed arc doesnât mean a show should just STOP using that same character. You just need to find more uses for them other than being someone defined by their relationships.
âWell, what if people thought Willow was boring?â
I meanâŠFair? Kind of? Not everyoneâs going to like the same characters and if one isnât your cup of tea then youâre not really going to miss seeing them, regardless of what race they are. I remember seeing Schaffrillasâ review of the first half of Season Two, and he definitely didnât shed a tear to there being not much Willow content because he found Willow so boring. However, just because itâs not YOUR favorite character, that doesnât mean itâs NO ONEâS favorite. And after just going over how important it was that this series makes kids of any race feel seen in this dumpster fire we call a planet, it still feels unfair that those same characters are often pushed to the side so that the whiter ones can take more attention. The cast, crew, and FANS pride themselves on how good the representation is, but as good as things are, the imbalance is what makes it imperfect.
WOOFâŠThat was heavy. Maybe we should move onto a lighter topic?
Praise: Its drama is SUPER compelling.
I said LIGHTâAw, screw it, this is good to talk about.
As I mentioned earlier, I am a grown-ass adult man. So the fact that this show made for literal children managed to get me so invested in its drama is a TESTAMENT to how good it is. When a character cries, IâM almost moved to tears. When someoneâs in danger, I feel nervous for them. When the main character is dying before my eyes, Iâm screaming like The Punisher as heâs strapped to the chair while begging for these masked men to not kill his family! That is NOT an exaggeration, I still remember the trauma and itâs the main reason I donât willingly rewatch âWatching and Dreamingâ most of the time. And no, thatâs not a joke either, itâsâŠitâs a heavy scene from a heavy episodeâŠ
But thatâs my point. This show often leaves me an emotional wreck in a way thatâs on the level with a few shows that are meant for adults. Again, THE SHOW FOR CHILDREN is making me feel the strong emotions that I would for any adult series. Not all of them, mind you, and itâs entirely possible that not everyone would feel this wayâŠBut you want to know WHY it works so well for ME? The same reason why everything else works in The Owl House: The characters.
Thatâs more than just a fourteen year old biting the dust, thatâs my FAVORITE CHARACTER. Hell, sheâs probably one of my favorite characters in all of fiction, one I was endeared with through forty plus episodes of her wacky hijinks and lovable antics. So when she goes through something heavy like the cold embrace of DEATH, Iâm naturally going to feel worried and sad over her going through it. And thatâs just the SERIES FINALE! All the way back in Season One, my heart cracked in half at the end of âAgony of a Witchâ when Luz collapsed and started crying her eyes out over Eda being gone. I love this character, I love the relationships she has, and I love the characters IN those relationships. And itâs a good thing I do, because otherwise the drama would not have hit as well if these characters werenât likable.
Even the personalities of the cast often helps aid the drama. If a happy and optimistic character like Luz is starting to feel doom and gloom, you KNOW things are starting to get dark. And if the usually confident Eda is bursting into tears because sheâs feeling the pressure of being unable to protect her kids, then that just proves how bad things really got. Itâs not only proof of how good the characters are, but how genuinely good the writing is. These writers arenât messing around, making something adults can appreciate but never really going TOO intense for kidsâŠmost of the time. âHollow Mindâ is STILL very messed up.
And itâs good that the drama is so well-done because the comedyâŠsure isnât.
Problem: Its comedy is often hit or miss
Iâve said it once, Iâve said it again, and I might say it once more in the future. But The Owl HouseâŠjust isnât that funny to me. Not always.
When the jokes hit, theyâre hilarious. My mind always goes to âThe choosey hatâ bit or HootyâsâŠgeneral Hootyness when I think of what makes me crack up with this series. When itâs good, itâs great. When itâs notâŠitâs like a C-Grade MCU movie.
*Dodges gunshot*
More specifically, itâs sometimes what the internet THINKS a C-Grade MCU movie is like.
*Dodges several gunshots*
Yeah, hate me all you want, it really does feel like that at times. Not ALWAYS, but often. Thereâs just a lot of moments that a joke feels forced in because we gotta make the kiddos laugh between all this magic and adventure, and itâs awkward every time. Gus noting how Luz must run fast because humans have dorsal fins is on level with that glob thing in Ant-Man and the Wasp: Quantummania wishing he had holes. Or how Luz, after making this big hero speech being met with nothing, says, âNot the response I was expectingâŠâ Thatâs on the same level of someone going, âWell, that just happened.â Itâs pretty much the showâs humor at its worst, and it often makes me roll my eyes instead of smile.
âWell, maybe your first mistake was expecting a kids show to make you laugh.â
Okay, fair point. I DID just say that these are basically jokes to make kids in the audience laugh, so maybe itâs just a thing where Iâm too mature for these jokesâŠCounterpoint: Hilarity knows no age. Because Gravity Falls, a show meant for the same age range as The Owl House, still makes me laugh as an adult, just as much as it would when I was a kid. And if you wanna go further than that, an episode of Bluey, a show for MUCH younger audiences, manages to crack me up far more easily than The Owl House ever has. Being a kids show isnât what holds back The Owl Houseâs humor. Itâs justâŠnot that funny. Not to me. If it is for you, more power to ya. But for me, I feel like the reason why it didnât work so well is because Dana Terrace didnât put too much of a priority on humor. There was more attention put on the characters, themes, and eventually telling darker narratives that the show being FUNNY became something they didnât worry too much about. Everything else seemed to have come first, with jokes being on the bottom of the list. There were some great laughs to have, and a few cute chuckles sprinkled in, but most of the time, itâs just not that uproarious.
And thatâs itâŠThatâs the last thing I have to say about The Owl HouseâŠAnd itâs a nitpick thatâs more subjective, if anything elseâŠThatâs not fair. After spending six parts and about three years talking about why I love this series, itâs unfair to end it with âThe showâs not funny.â
So, instead, letâs end it by finally answering this big olâ question thatâs at the beginning of every post: Why do I love The Owl House? Really, why is it THIS SHOW thatâs stuck with me for so long and one that Iâve obsessed over for about five years now? Itâs not really the best animated series ever made. Itâs not even the best made within the last five years (Have you SEEN Arcane?!). So why is it that itâs The Owl House the show I obsess over? The show that Iâve written fan-fics, analysis posts, and entire reviews to show my appreciation for it? The show that Iâve dedicated FIVE YEARS of my life hyping up as one of the biggest things of the decade? Well, to put it bluntlyâŠIt just is.
Thatâs not a BIG answer, I know, but itâs the truth. The Owl House is something that I love because it did all the right things in all the right ways at the exact right time. And it did it for me and MANY other fans who came together and voiced their LOVE for this wacky series produced by the company everyone hates. Itâs not perfect, NO show is, but the imperfections never really mattered. They exist and I canât blame people for feeling the need to point them out, but that doesnât stop me from enjoying the series. NOTHING can stop me from enjoying the series. Dana Terrace would have to come out as a transmisogynistic Nazi who loves the tears of puppies for me to turn away from this series, and even thenâŠit wonât be an easy thing to do.
The Owl House is exactly why Iâm here right now. Iâve gained friendships, followers, and had expressed my creativity because of this show. A show I NEVER expected to like and who KNOWS what would have happened if I decided to NOT watch that first episode late one night during college. For all Iâm concerned, I might have become theâŠLily Orchard to the Amphibia fandom or somethingâŠ*Shudders*
Will The Owl House stand the test of time and be fondly remembered in the animation hall of fame? To be honestâŠnot sure. Not a future seer. But will it stand the test of time in my heart? Most definitely. Because I may forget some shows and I might forget some aspects of this series like who was the voice of Luz or certain fan-made projects that got drowned out over the years (Remember the âLittle Miss Perfectâ Animatic?). However, I sincerely doubt, in the deepest part of my soul, that Iâll forget moments like THESE:
The Owl House is FAR from a perfect show. I know thatâs true. But to me, no matter what people say, no matter how much better shows will come outâŠitâll always FEEL perfect to me.
Thanks again to Dana Terrace and her crew for doing more than changing my life. You changed it for the better, and Iâll always be grateful for thatâŠ
#the owl house#luz noceda#eda clawthorne#king clawthorne#amity blight#toh hunter#willow park#gus porter#what i thought about#the owl house reviews#long post#seriously#this was meant to be the short one and it's almost thirty pages LONG!#what's wrong with me!
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Made a Triffany Lotablog Grayscale Color Pallette drawing!
I spin a wheel of my current hyperfixations, turn my device's display to grayscale, pick a random color pallette (this one I made sure had some green in it by adding "green" into my search), and draw! Using the color pallette for the entire drawing including lineart! The only thing I didn't use it for was the eye shine but that was due to lack of colors. I plan to make more of these cuz they are really fun!
#Bugsnax#triffany lottablog#bugsnax triffany#color palete challenge#color palette#I made sure to get a green pallette cuz this game's designs heavily rely on color sometimes#and I was going to foam at the mouth if Triffany wasn't green#The next few of these I will be a lot more random!
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Pages from trying to keep a little sketchbook-scrapbook type thing going for two weeks lol. I gave myself specific rules in hopes they might all end up more cohesive/consistent seeming, but alas, scribbly chaos reigns, it seems
#sketchbook#scrapbook#Actually I feel like these are kind of incomprehensible in photo form like.. In person holding the book its easy to look at#but as images on this scale I feel like there's so much tiny little text and small scribles and stuff you'd have to 'right click > open#image in new browser tab > zoom in' just to actually really see the thing. which for 7 images is excessive lol.. so. probably not the best#medium for sharing really but. I suppose I thought they might look cooler lined up next to each other. The whole part of using a#limited color palette is so that maybe they kind of seem to have more consistent color schemes or something throughout. but I dont#know if they look all that 'related' or not. I think these types of challenges I have always sucked at because I am a being of clutter and#excess. I can't just do like one little simple nice looking design and have that Crisp Neat calligraphy with evenhanded perfect lines#and perfect symmetical composition and etc. etc. Like some poeple post very aesthetically clean and cohesive looking sketch#pages or something but I simply cannot hold back the brain impulse to add more. more. more. Fill every single blank space with color#or a little drawing or a sticker or something. I take away 500 things and there are still a million there. Even when I thik I'm being#'simplistic' I'm still usually being 2x more complicated and cluttered than the standard or whatever lol. I guess thats clear from my#outfits/costumes though too. Like whatever that saying is from that person about something like 'before you leave the house take off one#more accessory. you dont need it' for me is like.. 'before you leave the house. add 10 more accessories. and 6 more layers. and another'#AAANyway. I wonder if also maybe some people would try to plan theirs in a way to look good or something or like.. plot things on the page#before placing them. I did sometimes have a theme for a day kind of (like day 10 I ended up finding a few gold and green things and then#was like.. hey... what if I looked for a few other things and only used these colors today') but aside from that I was just slapping down#stickers randomly and working around them to fill the page. Maybe a lot of neat minimalistic asthetic design is about planning and#having a Vision set ahead of time. instead of just complete random whatever. doodling whilst watching youtube videos or eating lunch. It's#a miracle actually I've managed to not spill any food on the book the whole time. anyway.. I do wish the highlighter really showed up. the#scanner kind of makes the colors look VERY different to irl. But also it got much clearer images than just camera pictures of pages. alas..#..Still oddly enjoy the phrase 'Salisbury Steak gently kissed with industrial pollutants'#probably my favorite section of 'gluing random papers and things onto the page' lol#Also I wonder if it's super obvious that I literally never ever use references when I draw (save for the few freakish looking youtube#face sketches) since everyone is always in the same positions and looking very similar ghhb. This could have been a good opportunity to#work on not solely drawing from my mind and try to do more Dynamic Experimental scribbles. NO. Same exact eye for the 90th time#be upon ye. But I guess it was meant to be casual 'daily doodles'. True 'practice' would make it seem too effortful like a full project. hm#(lol the one decimated pencil in the set... never hand me a writing utensil. i will passively destroy it somehow. shaving the sides of a#pencil off with a knife or snapping a pen in half as a nervous fidget without even realizing i've done it. sorry to the drawing implements)
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something something blood-soaked hands cradling your face something something
anyway here's the post btw
#what if post dp3 logan struggles to emotionally accept that wade Will Actually For Real Survive Anything#and one time they are fighting some random baddies#and they somehow get in a few shots straight to wade's cranium and he drops like a bag of slutty slutty potatoes#and logan goes full berserker trying to get to him#like he just massacres everyone in his way and wade still isnt getting up ohnoohnoohnonotagainohno#(healing factor or no a few direct shots to the brain stem/t box take a bit to recover from)#(no more than five minutes but it's an eternity to logan)#and his heart sinks to the very core of the earth as he kneels down next to wade's body#and his hands are shaking and soaked in blood and he can't seem to sheathe his claws in his dazed adrenalined state#he tries to peel back wade's mask and fear is just *pounding* through his system because in that moment#all he can see are the xmen dead in massive pools of blood#and that feeling of unreality is rushing over him like thiscantbehappeningthiscantbehappeningnotagainohgodnotagain#wade's still and unresponsive and there is so Much BLOOD (hard to tell how much is Wade's and how much is just on his hands)#and logan doesn't even realize he's crying until suddenly wade's eyes light up like a computer restarting#and he's smiling and gasping and joking immediately#âwell howdy there hot stuff what did I miss?â#and then he clocks that logan is Not Okay#â... well gee willikers golly goddamn peanut 'twas only a flesh wound! no need to go all waterworks over lil ol meâ#âyou know it would take a helluva lot more than that to make me shuffle off this here mortal coil!â#âsee all better I'm hunky dory peachy keen right as fucking rainâ#âI mean cmon I can't have been out for more than five minutes so let's just go back to you being exasperated with my bullshit antics okay??#â...okay sugarboobs? snookums? babycakes?.... Logan?â#and they just sit there on the floor holding each other for a while#wade babbling and logan crying about everything he's lost and wondering distantly how he has come to care so much#about this blithering jokester in like barely a week#that the thought of losing him brought him crashing back to the worst memory of his extremely rough life#anyway that's enough tag mini fic lolol I'm having feelings about my own drawing I guess đ”#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine art
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as someone who isnt super excited for sotm for certain reasons I am really glad that like. it's clear that since ruin theyve been setting up for carnival and sotm IS carnival. so now that carnival is finally coming out, afterwards theyll be moving on to other plotlines since the main villain stuff is sorted out
I'm just rlly happy to finally see a clear direction for how the story is gonna be playing out with like "okay these games were leading up to this so after this will be open possibilites" instead of like. absolutely no info about each upcoming game and being left guessing before it releases and just having to wait and see what's in it and if anything you're looking forward to will be in it
it feels like they have a plan and a solid direction for what they're trying to do and after carnival releases thatll be all that buildup coming to fruition. & we already know from the Scott interview that theres another release 'beyond sotm' that's 'super exciting' so maybe thatll be focusing on another big currently untouched (which is basically all of them) plotline, or even the big campaign game that dawko has been calling security breach 2
#even if i dislike how theyve been handling this whole mimic cassies dad factory mapbot bonnie bully stuff#the past like 2 releases 3 after sotm#after watching johns theory video it really does feel like stuff was more purposeful with thought put into it when u plug in cassies dad#even if the plot of him being behind mxes and trapping mimic is pushing other more important characters aside#its probably what happened and accepting that makes the story at least seem more thought out#it did make me feel better about it bc like. it at least feels like theyre cooking#like what theyre working on DOES have a direction and a plan and it isnt just random stuff like how it felt when hw2 came out#i might still think that the stuff theyve been doing the past few releases is boring af and uninteresting#compared to earlier concepts like focusing on vanny and the possession aspects and sentient glamrocks#(we could see more of it with freddy if theyd let him come back ever)#but like. at least it has thought put into it and feels like theyre actually trying to set shit up for something#like sotm is an ORIGIN#the tagline was 'sometimes you have to understand the past to see the future'#at the end of the day sotm is a setup for a campaign thatll take place in present day anf#even if its taking ten thousand years to get there im excited for it#aka its taken a long time to tell this story setup of cassies dad and mimic and shit and it might be boring for some people#(me)#but at the end of the day its meant to be setup explaining the past of why mimic exists (even if that's already in tbe books)#so after we 'understand' it we can get back to present day#and focus on its current victims vanessa gregory cassie etc#cassies dad is 100% dead if hw2s protag is him so he woukdnt be relevant anymore. just another character thing to serve cassie#im just saying like after sotm its wide open for getting back to the plot#and i think its actually right to say that bc like all of this has been setup. if hw2 protag is cassies dad its a prequel to ruin#so rn ruin is the most recent game in the timeline. meaning the next game that takes place in current tjme will focus on the current mains#Gregory cassie vanessa#sorry for fnaf plot posting again ive been thinking about it a lot the past few days#thought id balance some negative ive posted with a positive since im feeling better about it myself :)#one day we're gonna be so back and its gonna be great#its just gonna be a long annoying wait lmao#thoughts
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#okay random story time i don't know why im narrating this or how i even stumbled upon this memory rn#but i generally do sad vents in the tags and for a change this is a funny one#so back in highschool (i say highschool but i mean junior college) i used to visit this park near my house a lot#i was an sg kid back then and the thing about parks there is that they're kinda beach-parks and they have the best cycling/running tracks#they're also really massive parks so i used to go often. sometimes bicycling. other times walking. yeah. the park was like my sanctuary#anyway. there are quite a few bike rental areas in the park and there was a cute lil shop next to this one particular rental place#and they sold like biscuits and water and icecreams and stuff and i went there a lot#and on one particular day i went there and there was this guy around my age part timing at that shop#now again this might be culture specific bc i dont see it in india but part timing in uni/pre-uni is pretty common is sg#a lot of shops and restaurants employ teenagers to twenty something ppl for part time jobs... anyway im just adding context#point is that i had walked to the park with my mum that day and she told me to go buy a couple icecreams so i went to the shop#and i saw this guy around my age and like. not to be a simp but this dude was so pretty?#like he saw someone had come to the counter so he looked up and shot a smile and i thought i got slapped by sunlight#i could spend the next several lines going on about his pretty tan skin and his glowing raven eyes but this is pathetic enough so ill stop#anyway he saw me and smiled really wide (customer service smile- i thought to myself) and i smiled back and asked for icecreams or whatever#and then this guy started getting chatty right. so he was all 'you come here (to the park) often right? ive seen you with your bike a lot'#see now. the problem with me is that i always think im bothering people. this poor dude was attempting to make conversation#and i was replying with one word answers#and i wasn't even realizing that he didnt want that. bc he kept asking more questions and i. kept. shutting them down.#then when he gave me the icecream he was all 'are you here alone? icecream alone is no fun... i could keep you company if you want..?'#which. he was being really cute about right. but because im so fucking dense i was all 'oh no i came with my mom actually'#and he went 'aw man' in this really cute but faux sad way which i didnt understand at the time and i left and then#after three full fucking days. i realized this man was tryna hit on me?#and then i went to the park like a week later and he was gone. poof. i even thought of asking the uncle in charge of that place#then i got too embarrassed and chickened out#yeah so turns out my neurodivergence neutralizes any sort of rizz that comes my way#i could've been chilling with a cute boyf rn but nođ© this is my destiny#megumi in the tags
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making disneyâs twisted wonderland bracelets!! (the sebek one has a heart charm on it because itâs for my little sister who really likes him)
closeup on liliaâs star charm under the cut because i like it BUT IT WONT STAY DOWN
#i didnt have a bat charm so i decided to go more for liliaâs club outfit#iâm âmaking epel next and i have ideas for a few others (i am going down a rabbit hole)#also idiaâs just says gg because with all the random blue letters i had thats the only thing i could come up with đ#(omg is that) disneyâs twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland#twst lilia#twst idia#twst sebek#ps i dont make bracelets a lot so dont crucify međ
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Getting up to trouble is his speciality (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#ZEX#The Captain#Mixed set! :D Lots of singular doodles - one-offs or ones that apply to a few different scenes#The kiss is random tho <3 I still haven't gotten to ZEX showing off his uniform to Zelnick! I want them to!!#Him seeing his Captain in his uniform was so lovely tho <3 I love Big Love and that was so <3 Hehe#Smooch â„#ZEX does not eat enough ;; He eats like a bird and it's highly distressing#I actually wrote in my notes that I was surprised he wasn't hurting In The Same entry as when he was experiencing hunger pangs haha#It doesn't help that he tends to talk through meals rather than eat - he's so much more interested in making connections with humans!#As far as metaphors go - killing himself for the sake of trying to bridge that gap - I mean it's apt but ZEX please#I think it was while he was talking to Wally at one point that he framed the War in a very flippant light-hearted way which was funny to me#I don't think that's the descriptor most people would use haha#Swearing <3 <3 VUX terminology <3 <3#I want a VUX glossary of terms so badly hehe I've been slowly compiling a few here and there :3 Direct translation! The dream â«#Him getting stressed enough to swear is very endearing haha âȘ What do you mean I'm endeared by everything he does don't be silly#The next one of me deeply enjoying when he's creepy is not proof of anything! Just because I Happen to also like that!!#I do really love when he's creepy tho agh <3 <3 The mental image of him as The Hunter - casually cornering and capturing his prey <3#In that instance he was interrupted pretty quickly but the setup was there!! And it was extremely good!!!#I love how huffy he gets as well haha ''All these humans interrupting my seduction attempts >O( ...Wait O|'' lol#And finally an exchange on the board between him and Scarecrow haha so many fun faces around!!#I love him being completely baffled by a non-mechanical construct it just short-circuits his brain haha â„#He's so intelligent but there exists things unknowable!#The image of him tapping his pen is so Incredibly cute ah <3 Where did he learn such a thing! Does it translate from his VUX form to this âȘ#Anything everything â„ Learned or known! It's wonderful
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I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.
idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!
#literally like. everything is kinda fucked up and everything hurts a lot of the time and everything just feels wrong in my stupid body#but not being able to sleep and also being tired all of the time and sleeping so much is so so so shitty#like I can't fall asleep when I want to and I can't stay awake when I need to#it fucking sucks#also my so called sleep schedule ALWAYS goes back to sleeping at like 5 or 6 am no matter how much I try to go to bed earlier#it never ever lasts#also it's really funny (haha sooooo hilarious) when people talk about sleep hygiene. as if it actually does/changes anything?? apparently it#does for normal people??#literally nothing ever helps (at least not more than a few random unpredictable times)#also. the toddler upstairs has been crying every morning starting around 5am. for an hour.#which is juuust perfect for helping me sleep. đđđ but anyway I've got Thursday Murder Club to listen to. and also my husband snoring in#his room next to mine lol. this feels like some kind of really mean joke đ#ALSO also. I have to get up in 3 hours for the appointment........ every damn time I'm like oof this is bad I need to get a later#appointment next time! and then I immediately forget.#personal
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Hey guys. gay rights
#i already made the sonic one a while bc yknow. kinnie stuff youve all seen my blog theme#but then i was wearing my Fearless Year of Shadow(tm) shirt along with it and my irl bff was like.#'why are you wearing a sonic bracelet with that shirt if you love shadow so much đ€š' *#(he doesnt know much about sth stuff but ive infodumped abt shadow and his backstory to him many times)#and i was like đđ BECAUSE I DONT HAVW A SHADOW KANDI BUT I WANNA MAKE ONE. I WILL SOON#so. now i do!! taking my ad/derall on the weekends always make me want to make more kandi. its great!#and yknow what else it makes me want to do...... talk more on here >:3333#me and my dad are gonna go to a local jazz festival this afternoon bc our jazz combo is playing at it!!#itll be fun. my dad said hes gonna get some food from this really good breakfast place on the way thwre#which is not the best part. the best part is outside the shop there is a wonderful kitty cat who hangs around the parking lot#bc hes owned by the ppl who own the bar right next door#its so great. everybody knows him (the cat) and loves him. the v/ape shop next door has a tip door set up for him even though the#bar owner ppl take care of him and take him to the vet nd stuff. my dad found a faceb/ook page somebody made for him#and apparently it just has pictures of ppl at the bar holding him. its so great and hilarious. this cat is so loved#by the v/ape shop people. by random people at this beachtown bar. by the breakfast shop people.#anyways uh. this post was abkut kandi wasnt it đđđ lol#cherry chortles#anyways the add/er/all also usually makes me want to look at and sort through my pkmn card collection. so imma do that#because my dads friend (and my friend too i guess! me and him exchange cat photos bc he has this adorable chunky cat named gremlin) that we#play bar trivia with on tuesdays (dw its not really even a bar. its mostly a restaurant) asked me abt my pokemon card collection#bc the final question was to put a few franchises (it was like. dora the ecplora and spide/rman etc. and pokemon) in order of revenue#and obvs pokemon was the top. bc of factors like the trading cards so thats how that came up#we didnt bet any of our points btw but we almost! got it right! the order was pk/mn dora spidamen friends (the tv seies) but we had spidman#as second. but we still won!! our team is on a two game winning streak!!! we always split the money so next week ill get another 8 dolla >:3#wow i havent hit tag limit yert#lol. yall'll open the 'see all tags' thing and boom. do you love the color of the sky type shit đđđ#sorry that sounds too much like aave. i (white baby) cant be sayin that#cherrys kandi#okay well i had a tag with a verse from the ultimarw showdown bc i didnt know what else to say#but with my kandi tag and these two tags i have hit tag limit. thank you folks ill be here all night
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the whole time iâve been converting the da2 conversations iâve been worrying about follower_banter.cnv because itâs the largest file BY FAR and i was able to do it successfully but google sheets really wasnât a fan of working with a 94,000 row file
#the next biggest is 55k so. it was a lot#but the biggest of everything i have left is 12k so weâre doing fine#iâm probably about halfway through all the files? maybe slightly more?#da#da2#personal#yes iâm doing it in google sheets rather than excel. excel probably could have handled it a lot easier#but it would be more annoying to have to upload everything later. i like everything being accessible on my devices from the start#luckily itâs not 94k lines after making it a nice spreadsheet. just 9k#on average each final spreadsheet is about 10% of the length of the original#5 biggest files if iâm remembering correctly: 1. follower banter (94k); 2. aveline dialogue (55k); 3. anders dialogue (50k);#4. mota banter (45k); 5. legacy banter (canât remember k)#legacy banter might not be 5th itâs been a few days since doing that so i donât remember#the banter files are so long because a) it has all the random banter between all companions. thereâs a lot of it#and b) there are a lot of lines of logic; checking whoâs in the party and which banters have already been done etc
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#death //#really tho just. losing two family members within a week from one another is. really rough#even if it is from natural causes and old age it still feels very sudden#and even if we werent that close it still hurts#little things remind me of the grandparents i dont have anymore. like making dinner and realizing im not eating their cooking again#or my grandmas favorite songs. its just. rough#im just thinking a lot. and not looking forward to two funerals within the next few weeks#just.. yeah. i feel kinda fucked up on the inside. more so than usually but for once not cause of myself#its. odd to me. grief hasnt really been constant in my life in years. apart from losing my brothers cat few years ago#before that i lost my other grandma like eleven years ago. since then immediate family has been okay#its just weird. i dont really know how to grief. it comes in waves and odd memories and it feels really.. idk. off to me#ive had few crying fits over some random things but i just feel. numb. maybe its cause of the sudden frequency of these#or cause i dont know how to deal. its strange to me. feels out of place to mourn something other than what i made myself lost#maybe its cause while there was a connection there was a larger disconnection. i havent seen either of them since covid started#idk. regrets and shit and whatnot. i just feel all but nothing at the same time#just. just saying. idk. just wanna clean my brain a little. its been a difficult day. sorry#night is an absolute mess on main
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