#Thanksgiving alone

[env0]

Happy Day of Thankfulness

[remembertheplunge]

Thanksgiving Alone

Party of One. p. 116

3/5/2015

“The mind awaiting inspiration must be primed ever awake, aware. For this, it is best off alone”

My margin note to above:

11/26/2018 Monday 7:14am

I just spent the majority of the Thanksgiving holiday alone. I in-joyed (enjoyed).

The masses drown in the crush of family and of Black Friday.

I was at peace on Life’s edges: Jails, Gyms and Coffee Houses.

(The mystery and I danced)

[marzeydoze]

Thanksgiving menu so far

Cheddar sour cream chips, with sour cream for dipping

Shrimp cocktail ring

Cookie dough ice cream

2 bottle of wine

Soup that will likely not be done until 8pm

[coatntails]

[76th-biannual-cock-festival]

To the person who held up the Palestine flag on the float during the Macy's parade and full-ass made the news broadcast cut away. Know that you are a hero and there is nothing but respect for the absolute balls it took to do that on live TV.

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOVE IS A FEAST BUT YOU'VE LEARNED TO ABSTAIN; ON LONELINESS THAT EATS YOU ALIVE

Bob Schofield WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE ABOUT LOVE WITH PLENTY OF CITATIONS (via @masoeuretmoi) // Phoebe Bridgers Moon Song // Olivia Laing The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone // Xooang Choi (via @larameeee) // Fyodor Dostoevsky The Brothers Karamazov // Ocean Vuong Thanksgiving 2006

[marksandrec]

Marks and Rec: Misc #2623

A traditional thanksgiving offering. (Dialogue from matthitarchive-blog on tumblr.)

https://www.tumblr.com/matthitarchive-blog/38427253812/my-mom-what-are-you-gonna-bring-to-christmas?source=share

[abramisms]

Nicky and Neil, moments before disaster on thanksgiving 2006

[20th-century-man]

(front row) Lisa Loring, Carolyn Jones, John Astin, Ken Weatherwax (back row) Jackie Coogan, Blossom Rock, Ted Cassidy / 1964 publicity photo for The Addams Family (ABC 1964-66)

[cvasquez]

My favorite horror movies of 2023: 1. Thanksgiving 2. Saw X 3. Evil Dead Rise 4. Insidious: The Red Door 5. Scream VI 6. V/H/S 85 7. M3gan 8. When Evil Lurks 9. The Jester 10. Hell House: Origins 11. Skinamarink 12. Never Hike Alone 2 13. It's a Wonderful Knife 14. Resident Evil: Death Island 15. Tape Head: The Return of Jacob Cobb 16. Five Nights At Freddy's 17. No One Will Save You 18. Chloe

[roboraindrop]

Christmas tree time 🥰

[1-7776]

the 1 coworker i like invited me to thanksgiving at his apartment oh i feel so happy

[imwritesometimes]

my family all of a sudden seems very concerned about the prospect of my brother moving in with his GF and me living alone.... as if I didn't live here by myself for a year+ when I first moved in and was much younger then and the house needed TONS of work and somehow I still survived.......

[marzeydoze]

Finished prepping the soup veggies right as the edible kicked in. I am a master planner

The dispensary was giving out free tins of gummies (100 mg/tin). Gonna have a good ass Thanksgiving

[onegiantmeep]

dan and phil terrible influence tour!!

[duhragonball]

November Plannin'

All right, I've been thinking it over, and I think I'm gonna have to pull the plug on my NaNoWriMo account. The AI thing irks me, because to me the organization seems to think that it doesn't matter if you use Chat GPT or some other damn thing to reach the goal. And I do think it matters, because to me the whole point of the exercise is that those 50,000 words come from me, and me alone. The only software I need is Notepad.exe. I only downloaded iA Writer because it was like a Notepad.exe for my phone, and I got FocusWriter because it's like Notepad.exe with a wordcounter.

I've heard about the Nano community, and the writing groups, and the public meet-ups, and I'm not knocking any of that stuff, but I never had any interest in that. I just used the website to keep score, and I guess that's what bugs me, because by refusing to condemn AI, they're basically insinuating that the score doesn't matter. "It doesn't matter what you wrote." Someone told me that once and it still gets me kinda hot.

NaNoWriMo doesn't care if I write the words or not. All the org seems to care about is having participants who'll buy the merch and click on their sponsors, or whatever. They're gonna do this shady crap and they take the participants for granted. "What are you gonna do? Leave? You need us to reach your writing goals!"

That's the message I get from them. That's what made me reluctant to decide, because it is handy, and there's a certain anxiety that if I give up the structure the site offers, I might not reach my goal.

And that's the "creative monster" I need to slay this year. When I was in college, I took a semester of creative writing, and there was an assignment called "Killing the Creative Monster", and I interpreted it as a sense of not having enough time to write. Things kept happening, and the stuff I wanted to do seemed like it would take too long with no certainty that it would be worthwhile. That was in 1998. In 2024, the Creative Monster is the idea that I'm dependent on NanoWriMo to get me where I'm want to be.

So I'm gonna close down my account on the site. But I'm not doing it right away, because first I'm gonna save all the stats and stuff that belong to me. We'll start with the banner image I put up on my profile.

This is Zack Sabre Junior. This year, he won the G1 Climax tournament. He made a big deal about how his career wouldn't be complete until he won the G1. Not just any G1, but this year's tournament. I just put this picture in my profile because I was digging his tag team stuff with Taichi a few years ago, but suddenly I'm reminded of him winning the G1 this year. It was a big deal. He's the first guy to win that I actually wanted to win.

I've won NanoWriMo seven times from 2017 to 2023. But that doesn't matter. Unless I win Unaffiliated Autumnal Writing Challenge (UAWC) in 2024, I'll always feel a bit unsatisfied. That's what this one is about. No pep talks from some author I never heard of because I'm too busy watching anime to read. No funky word-count widget that always malfunctions around midnight. Just me and this computer, and a bunch of tekkers. That's how we're gonna do this one.

Good. I finally feel fired up about this one. I was beginning to get nervous. Let's figure out what I need to work on.

Luffa Annual 6. Ironically, this one actually takes priority over the main fic, becuase it's the Christmas Special, so it has a hard deadline. I was gonna work on it last week, but I kind of blew it off.

I don't know that the annuals are all that popular, but I enjoy making them, even if they are a huge pain in the butt to figure out. I'm glad this is the last one in the set, but I won't just slap it together and call it good.

Tellurium. This is a weird side-bet I'm making here. On my main blog, I used to do a series on the discovery of the chemical elements, and this was the next one on my list back in, uh... 2016. The tricky thing here is that the writing is just part of the job. There's research that goes into this stuff, and I don't want to get lose a days' worth of wordcount trying to wrap my head around molecular orbitals. Call me a glutton for punishment. It'd be relatively easy to just do 10-12 Luffa chapters and call it a month, because I've done that before. I feel like this year needs to be trickier. Also, I really, really want to get Te in the books. I don't think I like the chemical elements more than Luffa, but it is telling that I'm even having that conversation with myself right now.

Luffa 225-234. Of course I still plan to stick with what brung me to the dance. Kakarot is behind me but this fic isn't finished. The problem is that I only have a nebulous plan on where to go from here, and it's coming together a lot more gradually than I thought it would. I plotted a cool scene on my commute this afternoon, so that's a good sign, but I need to be realistic here. Last year went really well because I was writing the Luffa vs. Goku fight that I had been dreaming of for years. Motivation-wise, I've got nowhere to go but down. But I had similar problems in 2018-2020, and I prevailed then.

That Bulma project I was horsing around with. Last year, there was some crank on Twitter getting pissy at anyone who shipped Bulma with any non-canon partners, like there's a rule or something. That kind of inspired me to try to do some shorter works featuring Bulma hooking up with different characters. I didn't get very far last year, but I liked having a side-thing that I could jump into whenever I got stuck with the main work.

You know, thinking about it, I really need to use 2025 to work on some non-Luffa fanfic. In the early years, I worried that working on a longfic would eat up time that I could use for one-shots, and I slowly acclimated to just focusing one thing. But now that the Goku fight is done, the pressure is off to finish Luffa before I die. I mean, it's still not finished, but the Goku fight was a major milestone, and I didn't like the idea of never getting that done.

I mean, I still get kudos on that Caulikale fic I wrote in 2018, and the Gochi thing I did. People like that stuff, and I'm pretty good at making it. Maybe I should run a poll.

I dunno, that's probably enough for now. I should go back to bed. But I feel a lot better about November than I did a few days ago, that's for sure.