#TOXICRELATIONSHIP

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

Ultimately, you didn't care about my feelings or how you hurt me. You just wanted to know if I was going to do the same back to you.

[rotten-innocence]

Wow I abandoned this blog.. oops.. life update I guess.

✨️I left my abusive relationship quite some time ago. Was in and out of psych facilities for months at a time. I'm now on the right meds and dosage and I'm doing incredibly well. I'm now engaged to a beautiful loving human and we are shopping around for our first home! I started a course to get my certificate in Mental Health so I can help others! Things are going well! Unfortunately I'm still haunted by the trauma of what happened to me and most nights I stare into the void and think back on all the horrible shit that happened to me.. but at least I'm safe now..✨️

[freemeagain]

F*ck dich! Jeder Schmerz, jedes Gefühl von Einsamkeit ist besser als deine Manipulationen, deine Lügen, dein zerstören meines Bauchgefühls, dein mich verhungern lassen, dein Liebesentzug, dein Hass mir gegenüber. Ich ertrage das oder sterbe daran, aber vermissen tu ich dich nie wieder.

[ca-8]

“But, as you said before, they’re strangers, and therefore have no real place in your life.”

“Yes, but it’s still about me. He told them what wasn’t true. He told them how I was to blame for a mess he created. And I’ll never know if he’ll undo those lies.”

“I know it’s frustrating to have no control over a situation such as the one you’re telling me, but you need to accept that reality in order to move on. We can’t have any control over other people’s thoughts and feelings about us, but we do have control over how we react. We need to keep that control in order to avoid getting ourselves into worse situations.”

“I know that. I don’t want to get involved with him ever again. I just can’t stop thinking about it. It’s just so unfair.”

“That’s what everyone faces as we proceed through life. And getting over the trauma you have experienced will take time. You need to give yourself the patience you have always deserved.”

“But what if I never get over it? What if those lies spread and more people know things that aren’t true about me? What if he never fixes himself?”

“Why should that be your concern?”

“What?”

“Why should you be worried over whether or not he improves his character?”

“Because if not, more and more people will be affected by his actions.”

“And why should you care about those other people?”

“I don’t like knowing that people have gotten hurt because of him or are at great risk to undergo his usual treatment.”

“But you are not his parent. You are not anyone’s parent. You are responsible for you, and you alone.”

“I just want to help make the world a better place.”

“Which is a fine goal, but it seems that the stress of constantly caring about others has caused you nothing but misfortune.”

“miaYsn, your sensitivity towards other people is admirable, but your lack of restraint has caused you to constantly bend over backwards. In this case, if you let it continue to hold your mindset, it may cause your downfall. Take more time to think for yourself - what is good for yourself.”

“But what about them?”

“What about them? It’s cruel what they did to you, it’s true. But you can’t do anything about it anymore. You can’t force a change to their minds and you can’t force a change to his heart, no matter how good your intentions are. Don’t forget about the situation, but use it to learn and better yourself.”

“You need to move on.”

I don’t remember having this conversation or who spoke to me, but I can’t get it out of my head.

[bloom-with-bliss]

Good intending

Oh, thy dear, mighty boy, 

One would think you’d be afraid, 

But I reckon the sun won’t set. 

You’re crushed and broken by my words,

I really know how much it hurts.

I get the rage that shows

By your fear of feeling lost.

You’re hit by the eternal glory

Of having me to hold you, 

Perhaps you think I don’t miss you,

But dear: that’s not true! 

That’s why I shall say: I’m so sorry!

I’m sorry for breaking you,

I care for you and you do, too,

I’ll miss you supporting me

And telling me the good I am to be.

If it made you feel that way

I just want you to stay

Strong for your generous life

That rewards the end of time. 

I regret those dead-end words

That caused you colossal hurt,

But dear, I’ll be so sincere: 

There’s no other way. 

I wish I could do it right

Make it work and stop the fight

And take away the fright. 

But you see, life is changing, 

Every step could be the last

I don’t wish to see you stranded

Caught up in the hurtful past.

Lifelong bonds hardly last, 

Some are made to be great pals,

But hold on, it’s no tragedy,

I’ll be your friend, as true as can be. 

And I hope you’ll remember me

With a smile, just as you breathe.

I know it looks harsh, but it’s okay,

I’ll be there for you, in another way. 

It hurts a lot for me to say:

I’m sorry it had to end that way.

So now, in the dead of night,

Let’s just glance at the light, 

I just wish to hold your hand,

And, though you’re sad, to be your friend. 

Our bond knows no limits, my dear,

Our devotion is just so sincere. 

And when all’s clear

We’ll be lifelong friends, my dear. 

Don’t be fooled, it’s no one’s fault,

It’s not always a bond that will work out. 

That’s why, though you’ve been shot,

You can still stand up.

 

You’re awesome, never forget, 

It’s loving you I’ll never regret,

But losing myself, trying to forget

We won’t make it until the very end.

Oh thy dear, all so sincere,

Loving you was wild, 

Until the end of time.

Passionate as wind, blowing in one ear,

Ever so devoted, so sincere.

Friendship gives us unity, harmony and fraternity,

Always a tumultuous tale

Burning with a turquoise flare

Left for me with you to share.

My care for you is still present,

Though you might reckon, I’m not perfect!

We’re both humans, we’ve made mistakes, 

Let’s be friends, it really would help. 

Revenge is never the solution, 

But only the aggravation of the situation. 

It would do no good to anyone,

No matter the outcome,

Trying to make you pay.

Instead, I will say it in a gentle, but honest, way.

So, my dear, never doubt yourself,

You’re just wonderful, not at all a mess,

And, although you’re hurt, you can still rise from the stress

And you’re strong enough to beat your opponent’s chess

In the match of suffering and despair.

All these things that happen around you,

Will help you recognize your strengths,

And you’ll back away from what’s not meant for yourself. 

Friendship was meant for us two,

Believe me, you’ll know it, too,

Until later on.

Do not think of this as a hurtful experience, 

You’ve still got a loyal friend,

And that, in my opinion, is a gracious perk. 

I wish this wasn’t this hard for us both,

I swear it’s killing me like it’s killing you,

But I have to stop it,

Before we would be victims of hurtful words. 

You will shine the light on someone

Who would get you as: ,,the one”

Which will put you on the throne

Of your neverending soul.

And you’ll know happiness eternally,

Like a flame, lit magically.

It hurts for me to say –,, Let’s split up!”

I tend to get stuck

In the burned-out past,

These wounds of mine – they last and they last! 

Because I loved you for a thousand miles, 

I want to give you the chance of your lifetime,

To be happy and to gloriously shine,

Even if you’re not mine.

I’m sorry I won’t be your happy ending, 

I am not a princess in disguise,

I’m not the one for you, let’s stop pretending, 

With that sad look in your eyes,

That it’ll work out perfectly fine. 

It hurts me to break up, but I’ve got to go,

For better things your way to come and to show.

Don’t get me wrong: I love you with all my heart. 

Because we’re different, I guess it’s time for a brand new start. 

,,Easy for you to say!”, you’d think,

But dear, I was on the brink,

Of losing myself by forcing you to think

We’d succeed.

What I’ve told you is not false,

My love for you is firmly strong,

You’ve been my soul, my artist, believe me,

My all, it’s time for you to see

You can still be complete without me. 

Your life does not depend on me, or my word,

You can still make yourself heard.

You see, some relationships

Won’t make it through the hardships

No matter how much the commitment. 

You’ve not lost me, as you may think,

Failure is not the end of the road,

It makes you wiser, haven’t you heard?

In our situation, it’s not heartbreak,

That’s not how I would describe it,

More of a social roles change,

In order to predict a strong bond,

Like a perspective exchange,

From willful lover to fair friend,

Steady and unfailing as can be,

By one’s side, thus, you have received, 

Over time, which will not be tamed.

It’s still you and me, my dear,

You would still have me near,

Just not as a girlfriend,

More as a pal, or friend,

There to help you, always.

You’ve won my friendship with your heart, 

As life tore my soul apart.

If we were to keep this going,

Real heartbreak will occur, I know it.

I would stay through all your pain,

Not as lover, but as friend,

That’s the same thing, believe me,

I just want to make you see,

How much you mean to me.

Don’t cry, my dear, because it’s not over,

Smile because it was there.

And take care of yourself,

Believe me, it would really help.

Take your time, and when you’re ready,

Feel free to contact me.

Just a text or call away,

I’ll just say a friendly ,,hey!”

Whenever you reach out.

I’m willing to be your friend,

Will you want that, until the end?

You’ll always be special to me,

First love, lifelong pal, that’s what you’ll be!

The first who saw me as I am,

And loved me in a fierce, but loyal, way.

And for that, I must thank you,

For I am so grateful!

Your care helped me, and mine did, too.

I trust you’ll find who’s meant for you.

And, until then, 

I’ll be by your side,

To take  your hand,

In good will’s line. 

That’s why, I am sorry to tell,

I must part you with a good-intending farewell. 

[groundedingoodness]

[bismexualitea83]

my heart is heavy with disappointment.

i shouldn't have to drag answers out of you.

it wasn't about who was right (usually me) or wrong (usually you).

it was all about the context of it all...

the context of how it happened, why it happened, what lead up to it, the thoughts leading up to it, the "whys" the "hows" the "what the fuck"s, the repeated offenses, the repeated offenses, the repeated reminders, the reminding of the repeated reminders, the repeating of the reminders repeating, the vitriol we both spat at each other to hurt or to understand (we couldn't tell the difference).

i hate everything about you. but i don't hate you.

as much as i want to, and as much as you yearn for it,

i can't hate you, and neither can you.

so we suffer together in this tangle of misplaced love.

[amylynnorg]

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[relationshipg2uide]

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[wyzechyld]

No I could never let go

I never let go

Like a balloon flies

Merging with the sky

I could never let go

I won’t let go of hope

Though

You made me out to be

Your enemy

Clothed in shining armor

Worth only as much

As the silver lining

from the hinges in my wings

To the halo fallen

Beneath

These layers of rejection

My reflection

It sighs with relief

Every time that I’m with you

Each time that I miss you

I’m permanently changed

Altered indefinitely

Inevitably

Im yours

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

It's hard to curse you, I better forget you, But I won't forgive you.

[sarahoctavie]

LUCIE'S CRINGE DREAM EPISODE 1

[pebbfingers]

So many why

yesterday I talked to a counselor. There are so many questions that I can't answer. I feel so fragile and broken. I can not take it anymore. there were so many questions why in my head that made me feel tight and my eyes couldn't control the tears. I'm not going to lie, it feels really disgusting. I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm disappointed. There are so many questions why that I can't answer. why am I so naive. why do I have to accept all this. why do I feel it is wrong to expect tender affection from others. why do I have to repeatedly think about forgiving even though I know everything ends the same. why am I not lovable enough to love. why does it seem like everything happened because I was at fault. why does everything feel so tight and even I myself don't understand why I can be this fragile.

I just want to be loved as I deserve. I just want to be hugged without having to feel guilty because I cried. I want to be someone who can make other people feel valuable when they have me.. what's wrong with that?

[justmyhumanexperience]

[cijmadien]

I used to think the story of jesus was so unique. How could he have been betrayed? But as I’ve grown, I’ve learned to live through how easy it is to go against those around you. One second to the next, all those things I once thought were important dissolve.

Even in such a harsh world, it is important that I not turn cold and closed off. While easier that way at first, it prevents the possibility of future happiness. Success. Robs me of all the goods this life is worth really.. so as I learn to handle small heart breaks and betrayals.. I hope I give myself grace.

[livelifeintentionally]

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