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0vergrowngraveyard · 12 days ago

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just finished ep 6…..

i’m gonna throw up

#graveyardtxt #IS THAT LEGAL? CAN THEY JUST DO THAT AND GET AWAY WITH IT?#ISHAAAAAAAAA #VANDERRRR #THEY WERE HAPPY THEY WERE A FAMILY AGAIN IM GONNA #sobbing into my hands #jinx is not gonna recover ever #aaaaAAAAAAAAA #arcane #arcane season 2 #arcane spoilers #tw puke mention

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shutup-andletme-go · 5 months ago

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I cannot rely on one person for me to be happy my happiness isn't allowed to be only triggered by one person I can be happy at every little thing it doesn't matter about this one person

#im in too far fucking deep again #and when he leaves again its gonna hurt just as much. but more.#finch posts #he makes me happy beyond belief and i goddamn love having a friend who knows me inside out and has done for so long #but. your love is my drug by kesha comes to mind. its fucking intoxicating talking to him #and last time he left (we were 12 and his parents moved their family) it made me kinda depressed and i was so fucking needy to talk to him #and now we're three and a half months into rekindling the friendship and i feel the same like i get really sad already >#>if i just dont talk to him for a couple of days without like a trip or friends or smthn else to entertain me #songs are starting to remind me of him #fuck fuck fuck #1am in the morning makes me too honrst #i think im still a bit (a lot) in love with them #ohmygod i dont even think it i know it #i should go to sleep earlier #it would stop me having so many thoughts #i havent seen him in multiple years but i can still imagine kissing him #oh fucking hell fuck my actual whole fucking life #and his closest friend where he lives now well they were starting to be a bit of a thing and surely its not fucking normal>#>to daydream about kissing a girl who ive literally never seen a photo of #holy fucking hell i am such a hopeless poly bisexual #WHY DONT WE REWRITE THE STARSSSS #oh this is circling round to my suspicions i might be kinda like demi romantic??#i should buy myself flowers . wait. no. i grow flowers 🫠#well i could still buy myself flowers . and i should #i need to go to the beach #cant wait to get a proper drivers license #if youve made it this far down my crisis hi youve gotten to the stage where u can tell what songs im listening to!

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melrosing · 1 year ago

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anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again?#and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’#to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’#and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’#WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’#and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win???#like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!!#I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

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orcelito · 1 month ago

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Did driving practice today. Actually did parallel parking practice this time, even tho I really didn't want to still. Finally got it into my head that I can maybe do this.

SO......

I have scheduled my driving test. For November 13th, 3 weeks from today.

#speculation nation #IM SO NERVOUSSSSS but i need to do it. i need to. worst case scenario i fail and have to try again another day.#i was actually gonna try to schedule for a week from today but they were full up for the next 2 weeks.#so. 3 weeks! my therapist is gonna be happy for me when i tell her haha #this is. something ive been avoiding for over 10 years now. but i decided at the start of this year that This would be my year.#Year Of Unfuck My Life. and im finally doing it. im going to finally get my license.#it's so. huge actually. a similar level of Holy Shit factor as me graduating.#which seems like an uneven comparison but honestly ive just been so so so scared of this driving test #an insurmountable obstacle bc i was stuck at school away from family to help me practice etc etc #very tied up with me being stuck at school for so long actually. the neverending purgatory of being Stuck In Place.#but my cousin lives closer to me now and hes been helping me out. and i am so very grateful.#augh augh augh augh. life is so busy and it feels like everything is happening at once AAAAAAAAAAAA #but im taking it all in stride. i am. oh god i might have to just practice and then take my audition video all on the same day.#bc i am too tired to deal with it rn and i have an exam tomorrow so idk if i can practice then. also i have to clean.#i will make it work. i will make something work. for the love of fucking god i will make it work.#no time to write barely any time to relax but thats okay i am Go Go Going and trying to keep enough time to sleep #(prior few nights being the..exception lol.)#i certainly wouldnt want to live this way for too long. but just a few more months. i can do it.#next semester hopefully wont be as busy. i'll have 3 hard classes but if im lucky they wont even have much homework.#i can do it. i can get through it. i will get my license in 3 weeks (manifesting) and i will get my own car.#i will find a new apartment to live in. i will Hopefully find a job.#within a year my life is going to be much much different.#my life is Already much much different than it was just a year ago. tho this year has been more... metamorphosis.#in a year's time. i will be 28 years old. and the pieces will Finally be falling into place (hopefully!!!!!)#for now. god i need to rest. will probably go to sleep early tonight. need to be rested for my exam tomorrow.#first tho i gotta shower and feed both me and the cats. yes.

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nomairuins · 1 month ago

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its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF

#not anything serious i was just thinking how like. idk. this is gonna sound rly stupid #but for me personally like. sometimes. How do i phrase this without sounding rly evil #i think obv ppl can spend their money however they want but like. its kind of hard 4 me to grasp sometimes like. there r things that ppl #spend a lot of money on bc it makes them happy like umm. vacations or pets or hobbies or whathaveyou. and obviously thats fine but #i iust feel like its all so. temporary and like. idk. idt im ohrasing this right at all i just likee. the thought of working all year to #afford to take a vacation and then working again to afford another vacation just makes me feel like i want to die. like. idk... i like #vacations we dont need to go on them a lot but ig its just like. everything we do just feels like a waste of time. not in like a Ohh you #should be doing more work Obviously its just like. idk. maybe it is just me. but i feel like im just waiting until i die and can be done #with it i guess. and everything i do is just to fill time until that happens. yk ? which is silly bc of my whole. Thing i cant talk abt #but ppl talk abt like. going out and partying or going on vacation or whatever and i like. I like those things its nice when they happen #but they dont rly make me longterm any happier i guess. everything just feels like another thing im doing. idk. this rly isnt coming out the #way it is in my head. and Again i know this is just depression shit or whatever im just like. its all exhausting. it just makes me feel so #tired. to think abt working and working and working so i can pay to be alive and i can save to do one fun thing every so often to keep me #sane enough to keep working and working and working and i probably wont ever be able to retire itll just be. work. and then ill die. yk.#but i feel like the vacations and stuff dont like. refresh me very much. maybe its just bc ive only been on one 'vacation' as an adult and #it was just like. coming home to see my family. and realizing id have to move back home yk..#+ like. my mom nd my gran taking me out for a weekend when i lived up there #nd those things were nice and all but once its over its like. it doesnt fuel me to keep going it doesnt make me feel any better abt having #to work for the rest of my life #ik im being ridiculous bc im literally unemployed and i cant even get up off my ass to get my stupid fucking ged so i can get a job and be #Useful to my family its just like. idk.... i try so hard to be like Oh nothing mayters and thats why everything matters type thing like. Yes #all things end and the point is to just try to be happy until it does #but i feel like it just doesnt happen for me. i feel like any happiness i feel is so insanely like. it happens and then its gone. and its #back to just. the knowledge that im still fucking stuck here. and i will be until it happens. yk. i play video games tomoass the time until #i go back to sleep then i wake up and i make a spreadsheet to pass the time until i go back to sleep #and everyday just feels like passing the time until i go back to sleep and itll just keep going until it happens. and its nice to have nice #days but whats like. the point. yk. everything just ends #IDK. this is all very whiny im sry. ive just been feeling it a lot lately . i hope this doesnt feel like me being like Ohhh you ppl r so #dumb participating in hobbies and going out and having fun dont you know yr gonna DIE? thats not what im trying to be like #its just like. i feel like it doesnt make me as happy as it does other ppl like. none of it refreshes me or makes me want to keep going

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redr0sewrites · 4 months ago

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guys pls pls pls pls send some fluffy/sweet things into my inbox- it could be requests, u just yapping ab ur day, hcs on a character, idrc im just feeling a bit sad tbh (also side note pls send in some fluffy dc asks i have sooo many nsfw asks and not enough fluff)

#rose rambling #i keep telling myself that im gonna get into batman beyond but every. fucking. time. i read tims lore in the beyond verse i ruin myself #(thats only part of the reason why im sad but. yk. i dont wanna overshare. sigh.)#same w the dc vampire au the fact that dick killed all of the robins makes me ILL #i dont know why i care so much about the batfam being happy but i just. wish they were happy in the dc timeline #(maybe its cuz i see my own family dynamic in theirs- they all care for eachother deeply but theyre all so traumatized individually that-#-they end up hurting eachother)#once again getting sad over fictional things...#and then also irl things that i don't really wanna talk ab rn #but yk #ANYWAYS! pls send in fluffy asks!#they dont even have to be requests #just some positive things idk #i desperately need some tim drake requests like i really want to hug him

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halloweendeity · 3 months ago

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#horrible awful no good very bad day #apparently last night the apartment below ours caught fire and we were out of town #and we didnt find out til several hours later from our neighbor who had to track me down on facebook- we didnt hear a thing #from the apartment in any official capacity until like? 10 hours after the fire?#anyway we rushed home supremely early from a friend trip that was like #meant to be very good and fun #anyway so we rush home because no one can tell us if our cats are okay #and they were but our whole apartment is supremely smoky and all of our possessions are extremely smoky #and we cant stay there or let the cats stay there because of the smoke and soot and particles it just doesnt feel safe #so now im in my partners familys house which is like #fine but its full of people and i dont feel fully comfortable and i cant fully relax and and and and and etc etc etc etc #and tomorrow i have to wake up early and go over there and find out what if anything the complex plans to do about it and how long its gonna #be until we can come back safely. or more likely get more noncommittal answers and be unsure #and i dont know how long i can stay here and be normal #AND to top it all off i paid like 60$ to go to an aquarium i didnt even get to go to . but yknow. all of my friends got to !#and like im happy for them but no one was excited as i was and now i get to ruminate on how everyone got to do the fun thing i love #while i was stuck doing 17 loads of laundry and bathing the soot out of my cats fur in someone elses house #certainly it could be worse and im glad my cats are fine and im glad its just smoke damage and not yknow. Burn damage #but im having a sad little pity party anyway because i was supposed to have an amazing beautiful day ending in a relaxing evening #in my own home #and now i have to cope with all of this instead. all i want to do is cry #and also like. im scared we will have to move #but im also scared we wont... because like #i think it was a gas issue. and knowing that that happened in my building? and also knowing how much landlords love to halfass #repairs and everything else #i just dont know how safe i will feel there #even if they tell me its fine #anyway sorry for the tag vent post again my old ways will never die #ghost posts

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months ago

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my enjoyment for doomed siblings began with gamma and beta from sonic adventure me thinks

#snap chats #kiryu and nishiki …. ichi and masato ….. what if i threw up ….#sega thanks for. this incredibly niche thing im a fan of apparently #no cause i was out with my brother today and i saw a black mini cooper and i was like ‘omg beta’#and then i was just thinkin bout gamma and how much i loved his campaign and oouuugh …. gamma youre forever number one to me #ignore the fact im wearing my shadow shirt today ok theyre both number one to me but thats besides the point #i love it when one sibling is doomed. ignore gamma blowing up two seconds later #naw see they get a happy ending. of sorts. wait …. i have to do math #do yall think the flickies in them bots were partners or just friends #cause i was talking to my brother and he was like ‘i dont think they were together i think the three of them were just friends’#i will simply subscribe to that notion for now because my heads gonna hurt otherwise #POINT IS i love doomed family dynamics. again beta and gamma get bittersweet endings but it counts to me

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nerdie-faerie · 11 months ago

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Shout out to little brothers that always know exactly how to rile you up without even trying

#Demon Spawn #and a happy holidays to all!#ive been home two days 😭 fml #one of my oldest brothers ate the present he was giving another brother so he was gonna go to the shops to replace it after our family meal #i had to get presents afterwards too because i tried doing it yesterday and my mum argued with me about where i wanted to go dragged me to #other places until it was too late to get what i needed so i was like #oh me too just come with me he was like nah ill get dad to drop me home then cycle back down to town again and i was like ??? okaaay #anyway i finish my shopping and he calls me and asks me if actually i can get it for him im in heeled boots and the shop i wanted #was right next to the bus stop so i really did not want to go through the high street to the shop he wanted #as that would then mean id need to walk the half an hour uphill back home but i was like okay fine get to the shop and theyve sold out of it #since yesterday so i call him to tell him his options he doesnt answer so after i couple times i text him then carry on calling #i musta called him like 10 times and am about to leave when he finally calls me back only to tell me that actually he wont get him anything #and im like well what are you gonna do tomorrow then you were stressing about not having anything and hes like its fine so im like whatever #and head to the bus stop he then calls me back! asks me to get something anyway so im kinda pssed off with at this point but im not letting #another one of my brothers go without a christmas present if the rest of us have something thats just not fair so ill do it so i grab it get #home my feet are already blistered and i see ive got two texts from him telling me to tell him when im home so i text him ill be up in a sec #i take it up to him he looks at it - its exactly what he asked me to get!! - and hes like i dont need it ive got something else #and im like what!? all of that for nothing?? he did at least pay me back for it but fml

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starzwithapen · 1 year ago

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To make the timeline of events + ages line up for our trollsonas IM THE OLDER SIBLING TO MY ALTER THIS TIME . I WIN !!!

#starztalks #SUCK ON THAT SILVER #silver's trollsona is actually hilarious 2 me I need to draw him #IM GONNA TALK ABOUT MY TROLLS OC/SELF INSERT A BIT DOWN HERE BCEAUSE UHH . i love talking to myslef in tumblr tags #ok so !! her name is solar !! she/he pronouns #when solar was young he was chosen to be eaten on trollstice #but [miraculously] slipped out of the chef's grip and escaped where she was found by a little girl #the little girl was fascinated and took solar home with her. they were kinda sorta friends and the bergen had to hide solar whenever anyone #passed by . they grew closer day by day #but then !! wooaahh the trolls escaped bergen town!! the little girl's parents work for the royals and she can hear them lament #the little girl is scared . how will her parents be happy now? she wants them to be happy . she wants to smile and laugh with them #she wants to be a happy family again #her eyes drop to solar #CAN YOU SEE WHERE IM GOING W THIS #ok i feel embarassed typing this out uhhh theres more but Ill think about it later

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night-dragon937 · 2 years ago

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gods listening to music of artists that i've gone and seen in concert/at raves and just like. reliving the euphoria of the moment when i was there at the live performance like. obviously sitting at my desk with my headphones is not the same as being at a rave or concert but i can kind of capture some of the memory and those good feels are just smth else

#blog post #tw ahead im gonna go on about some dark shit #kind of? idk #like so when i was younger and struggling #by which i mean when i was suicidal from ages 9-18 #one thing i tried when i was 15-18 was making a bucket list and essentially it was stuff i wanted to do before i died because saying #'im at least gonna live to do these things' was SO much easier than saying 'im gonna live the rest of my life' back then #and on that list was going to several concerts (all of which i've done now!!) and like tbh i had my doubts like is a concert good enough #to keep living for (yes) and like what happens after i see these bands in concert (i wait for them to tour again and see them again duh)#(and also see other bands)#and i wish i could go back in time to past us and be like. u were so right. seeing these groups/artists in concert (and the ones i like now #and hadn't heard of back then) is SOO worth it #im so glad i have been alive to go to all the concerts and the rave that i went to in the past year and a half it was so so good #and im so fuckin excited to go to more #there's at least two concerts im planning on going to this spring plus a rave im considering going to (its a three hour drive one way so #idk yet) plus our top favorite band for years is hinting at releasing new music which means a tour!!#im just gettin the feels because im remembering good memories and so fuckin excited to make more good memories #im so glad im alive and honestly that brings tears to my eyes that i can say that totally honestly now #like. i have a cat! i am reconnecting with family i didnt use to be close with! im working on cutting off toxic family! im working on #health issues which is very good. im out as queer and im so happy and proud of that. i have several hyperfixations i love consuming and #cosplaying. cosplaying!! i have so much fun making tiktoks and going to cons and putting everything together its so great!! im starting to #work on my big huge writing project with my coauthors for the first time in years and im soooo excited to revive that old hyperfixation and #share it!! i have an awesome partner who i care very much about and while i recently cut off some toxic friends i have plenty actual #friends that im so glad to have!!#im currently at a job that pays well and that i enjoy which is a win for me and i might possibly be in a position to go back to college #soon which means going into my preferred field which im SO stoked for!! and im actually really excited to go back to college. when we were #in person i had such a great experience and i cant wait to go back #ough

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stinkrascal · 2 years ago

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my best friend from colorado came down and spent the night at our apartment last night and it was nice :) he gave us this soft fuzzy blanket for our living room and we watched one piece all night! and he brought legal weed so we got so stoned and i slept like a fucking rock, no nightmares!! it was a great time