#THE CATHOLIC GUILT STOPS ME

[noweakergirl]

I keep these longings locked (the shoe) in lowercase inside a vault (his book)

part 1 in my Hilda Furacão series of edits

credits for some of the screenshots: x x x

[pomlimeaide]

“he wanted purpose, Lord, he wanted purpose.”

- angels before man, rafael nicolás

thank u for him rafa i want to give him a smooch❤️

@nicosraf

[dukesoakedoats]

uncle Paddy 🤭

Credit @oconnellfilm on Twitter

[im-just-an-angel]

one of the most sick things i have realized in the ppl around me who are still catholic, is how much they are plagued with catholic guilt. a girl who won't get surgery bc she believes its punishment for her sins. ppl who are nearly suicidal in their desire for heaven, and since heaven is coming, they do nothing to change their situation. they dont try to improve their lives or others or the planet bc at the end of the day this is a "fallen world" and "heaven is waiting." it is so sick to drill into a persons head since theyre a child that they were born evil, that they need god to fix them, they need god to sustain them, as if it wont affect their mental state at all as adults. my little cousins who have already shown signs of having anxiety about god, like asking if he'll be mad at them/their parents for doing normal, human things. like really being afraid of what that would mean. my opinion and love for this world and its people shifted sp drastically when i realized i could just stop. i could stop being afraid of god. i could stop thinking we all deserved to burn in a lake of eternal fire. who even makes a lake of eternal fire anyway? that very much does not sound like a me problem. when i left the church, i very much still believed in hell, and i very much believed it was a place i would go, and would deserve to go. but i chose it anyway. i chose the eternal torture, because who does a thing like eternal torture? if god would torture me forever, than that wasn't someone i wanted to associate with, consequences be damned. and slowly, i started to see the world differently. i know the world is on fire, and theres a few too many genocides occuring at the moment, and i do truly have it in me to detest forever the people who hurt innocent people. but still, desite it all, despite everything, i think we're good. yes, we do bad things, but at the end of the day, most of us just want to go home, and cuddle our pets/loved ones, and eat a good meal, and look at the stars and dream. we're not so different, and we're not so bad. idk where i was going with all this exactly, but i think the cure to catholic guilt is choosing to believe in the good. catholism says goodness can only come from god, and thats why were damned. but i think we *are* good. even despite all the reasons ppl give me on the contrary. bc i see ppl wish happy holidays to strangers, holidays they dont celebrate themselves, just to see them happy. i see strangers go out of there way to help people every single day. bc most of us understand that we all just want the same things, and are willing to help each other get them. we arent evil, and bad things arent some divine punishment, sometimes things just suck. the cure to catholic guilt, i think, is a love that can outcompete the divine.

[itsdefinitely]

do you think boy jerry contemplates clawing his eyes out sometimes

[oneofthedrunksattheoverpass]

been reading a lot of catholic guilt eddie fics and i don’t know if i’ll survive it if they go in the direction of him knowing deep down that he wasn’t straight since he was a kid but repressed the hell out of it the entire time

[sergeantsporks]

Lilith really is just like me fr, though. She'd play one of those "10 hours of mystical forest ambiance and music" videos, definitely.

[snowangeldotmp3]

one of these day i will write nancy with such specific religious trauma and none of you will be able to stop me.

[sammygender]

i hate it when people put angel low on their character ranking what are you DOING that’s ANGEL thats angel :( hes the og spike except he’s like a different type of loser. i know he’s kind of creepy in btvs sometimes and he’s a shit boyfriend but we all have our regrets. this is hilariously ironic because i really did not like angel when i first watched btvs and now, a year later, i am a die hard bangel divorce fan

[bugorabee]

Me when I'm very normal about stained glass, and my amazing friend (@iridiumphoenix) helped me finance stained glass window wings and now I do not get anything done because of it

artists recreation. Wings under cut, look at them, look at how pretty

are they not the prettiest thing!!! and when you engage them they make like, metal noises which is cool and funky, and they interact with the lighting in the game!! that's so cool!! I just simply think they are the best thing ever.

They are so cool and also I keep genuinely getting so distracted from my tasks because I am looking at my wings

[glitteronadumpsterfire]

When will people that barely know me stop assuming things about me.

[buckleyy]

Noah Kahan, unreleased song

9-1-1 2x07

[fungi-maestro]

Also ummm on the topic of that part where the reverend is literally on his knees begging Vic to tell him something. The thing he asked was whether Satan or God sent Vic (because he's under the impression that Vic is an angel sent to stop him from killing Jackie, like what happened in Genesis 22). That's what Vic refuses to answer. Which I know is like. Whatever. But I'm a sucker for people doing good while totally convinced that they are the scum of the earth. I like watching people grapple with identity and suffer for it while endlessly punishing themselves to right a wrong that never happened👍 also I like when religion is twisted up and used as a force of evil in a story 👍

[melviships]

(sees all the shit everyone is going through) (sees I have to support the batshit decisions they make in order for them to be romanced / favored) mm, ah, okay, sure

[ruby-red-inky-blue]

Full adult Murph, leaning out the window, putting a milano on the window sill and going “you stay away from my wife!”

[theeminentlyimpractical]

I have never clicked anything as fast as I did this.

MY MOST ITALIAN OF UQUIZZES BE UPON YE