#THE AUTISM BROTHERS 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[nosleep83]

WHEN DONNIE GRABS ONTO LEO’S SHOULDER/SHELL WHEN HES LIKE NERVOUS OR SCARED AGEBSHSGGWHE GOD DAMN BROTHERS‼️‼️‼️‼️😭😭😭😭🗣🗣🗣

[simcardiac-arrested]

fuuuuck im gonna faint my dad just got me dream songs the essential joe hisaishi cd FUUUUUCKKKK

[stardust-falls-blog]

Bill leave him alone bro!!😭 I can't help but think that Bill was a little sassy growing up, especially as he got older and hit his teenage years, y'know back talk and snarky comments when he's upset or annoyed. Steve was a lot more chill and clung to Bill, following him around silently and rarely spoke unless alone. He's not much of a talker and I'd go as far as to say that he's semi nonverbal.

The autism brothers 🔥🔥🔥 anger issues vs semi nonverbal🔥🔥🔥

[je-suis-applebread]

You know those "im npd im bpd 🔥personality disorder brothers🔥/ im adhd im autism 🔥neurodivergent brothers🔥" pics with Stan and Ford??

Okay so

One of those but with Fiddleford, Stanford and Bill going "im gaslight im gatekeep and im girlboss 🔥"we can't fix each other" polycule🔥" inspired by one interaction i had

[bb-drayster]

yeap. i was wonderin’ wgo else in this school had a politoed and would’ve known i was being used as a personal chew toy. but let ‘em known the drayster appreciates it, yeah?

Hiiiii Drayton!!!!! ^_^ Kieran is asleep right now, but he told me to tell you that you're "really stupid" and "need to get your shit together", bzzzzt! But also!!!!!!! He hopes you're feeling a bit better!!!!!! Wait, actually, don't think I was supposed to say that part, bzzzzzt...

( @not-gonna-lose this Rotom is such a silly little thing...)

awwwf, wven the champion is worried for me? how flattering.

doign better now, between the blood loss and tge liquid crack i drank i might’ve actually died and gone to heaven forfh a minute

[fallenclan]

A Full List of Fallenclan Cats That Give Me Thoughts

Maplestar - hm.. he is a guy. but hes also gone through so much.

Silverbelly - she is,,,, so silly,,,,, the silliest. perchance

Sorrelstem - dawg how did she react to shrewkit I dying dude how did she feel. like did she feel like a shitty parent was she extra protective over the rest of her kits??? hm

Crowflame - he is a guy but also he is super tragic and sad. UGH boyfailure

Blizzardfang - i thoughr she was a man for like 7 million years and now i think about her all the time. perchance.

Antbite - him and lionsong are so goldenflare and morningbloom coded. him being this silly little emotional wall 90% of the time is Canon because I Said So

Lionsong - HE WAS TOO LITTLE!!!! NOOOO!!!!

Moosefall - my MAN. my BOY. okay that is MY SON and I will EMOTIONALLY TARNISH HIM as much as i want. PERCHANCE🔥

Salmonskip - she is such a goofball 2 me okay. like she definitely feels less than adequate compared to mossfrog and that is something i Get

Mossfrog - she is literally me so everything i say about her is correct. brand new city by mitski as a CAT

Waspflight - adhd king/queen. she can be BOTH king and queen okay shes QUEEN he is KING he is all the genders at the same time

Owlscreech - yes shes a wet sopping beast but shes MY wet sopping beast. PERCHANCE.

Goldenstar - do u think he has ptsd from morningbloom. bcuz. vaguely gestures in applebranch's direction. do you think her first litter gave him REAL flashbacks. also robinblaze looks a lil like morningbloom dont u think. rubs my hands together EVILLY

Shrewkit II - how does she feel about being named after her dead relative thats shes never once met and looks strikingly similar to

Feathersight - how does he feel about being named after his mentor's murdered brother. how does he feel about constantly being in stormsights shadow? Perchance

Pinefrost - shes literally just there. love her for that. perchance.

Brambletuft - gestures vaguely at pinkshift and mitski. yeah thats her

Yewberry - he's so autism. perchance

-🍭

you cant just say perchance (<- reference)

your thoughts. all so good. mwah. antbite and lionsong ARE goldenmorning coded you're right. golden FOR SURE has ptsd abt morningbloom's death and he absolutely had flashbacks when applebranch had her kits. shrewkit II. i like to think she is proud to carry the memory of her aunt. same for feathersight--bro is connected to starclan in Ways (omen sense) i feel like hes happy to carry that.

i also have to ask. do you think pinefrost is a girl. or are you just using she/her for him. bc that rules too. i just want to know

[ynlcau]

obey me! headcanons (disgresion is advised)

lucifer

bro probably has a skin routine, and is very committed (mainly bc asmo harassed him to get one)

i feel like he would have a whole BAKERY for an ass. i mean, it would JIGGLE when walking

he sometimes can take opinions on himself to heart

i don't know why, but he smokes cigars. he looks like a cigar type of guy

but even tho he smokes them he would get PISSED if he saw his brother doing anything similar (cig, vapes, etc)

mammon

he would be the type to just stay on phone calls and do nothing. like when you're in the human realm, he like been on calls cuz it feels like your together

bro can walk in heels, don't ask why, he just can

i feel like if you had long hair he would love to braid it

he smells like a cat in a good way. some of my cats smell delicious so i feel like he would smell like them

TRANS MAMMON IS CANON, FUCK YOU 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

leviathan

one thing i think about constantly is that he smokes weed. and bro has the weirdest bongs

he's autistic bc i am, so i am correct 🥶🔥😈💯

he and asmo every now and then cosplay together. and they would like do each others makeup

this ones a little weird, but i think he's always hot. i could just be projecting, but i feel like when he is inside his room he wears less clothing and has a thousand fans on

satan (my pookie bear 😍😍)

BRO HAS FINGER TOES LMAOOO (don't ask why, he just does)

writes and edits fanfiction (with levi might i add)

once again, he also has autism bc i said so

i feel like once he lets his guard down, he stims infront of you

buys cigarettes from solomon (second pookie bear😍😍)

bonus: lowkey has a crush on solomon

asmodeus

he covers up any scars and such with magic bc it makes him feel imperfect 😭

i don't know why, but he had a goth faze

he vapes. frozen pineapple or strawberry watermelon. bro i don't know why this is a theme with my headcanons, but we going with it

when he finally realizes he's inlove with you, he deadass doesn't know what to do. bro gets flustered and panics

beelzebub

similar to mammon, he likes to braid your hair (if long) he finds it relaxing

has a 3ds and can BEAT you ass in mario car (also plays cooking mama 😍)

he loves to cook for you and clean. he is my malewife 😍😍

deadass just carries you around when he's bored

belphgor

nipple piercings 🥳🥳

bro love popsicles. especially blue raspberry and strawberry ones. he likes eating them with beel and you

COLD. ASS. FEET. little shit likes to put them on your leg when you about to fall asleep. has a smug ass grin too

smokes weed with levi and hangs out (mammon comes very now and then)

this is my first time posting on here so sorry if it's a little crap. i plan to write more headcanons for the bros and side characters. especially for asmo, but mine are kinda depressing for him. also sorry for all the smoking, my friend's birthday is coming up and ima get a little litty titty.

[obsessivefangirl]

I am autism 🧩. I'm visible 👁 in your children 👨‍👦, but if I can help 🆘️ it, I am invisible to you until it's too late 🕖. I know where you live 🏠. And guess what? I live 🏠 there too. I hover around all of you. I know no color ⚫️ barrier 🚧 , no religion ✡️❌️ ☪️❌️ ✝️❌️ 🕉❌️, no 🚫 morality⚖️, no 🚫 currency 💸💸💸. I speak 🗣🗣 your language fluently. And with every voice I take away 😶😶, I acquire yet another language . I work very quickly 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️. I work faster than pediatric aids, cancer ♋️, and diabetes 💉 combined And if you're happily married 💒👰🤵, I will make sure that your marriage fails 📃🍺🍺🍺. Your money 💰 🤑 will fall into my hands 🫴🫴, and I will bankrupt 📉 you for my own self-gain 💪💪. I don't sleep 💤🙅‍♀️, so I make sure you don't either 😴. I will make it virtually impossible for your family to easily attend a temple 🕍, birthday party🥳🎉🎂 , or public park without a struggle, without embarrassment 😳, without pain 🤕. You have no cure 💊🧪⛔️ for me. Your scientists 🧑‍⚕️ don't have the resources, and I relish their desperation😩 . Your neighbors 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♂️ are happier to pretend that I don't exist🙈 -of course, until it's their child 🧟. I am autism 😈. I have no interest in right ✅️ or wrong ❌️. I derive great pleasure 😄😄 out of your loneliness 😞😞. I will fight to take away your hope. I will plot to rob 🥷 you of your children 👶👶 and your dreams 💭. I will make sure that every day you wake up you will cry 😭😭😭, wondering who will take care of my child after I die ☠️🪦? And the truth is, I am still winning 🏆, and you are scared 😱😱. And you should be. I am autism 🧩. You ignored me. That was a mistake.

Family: And to autism 🧩 I say: I am a father 👨‍🍼, a mother 👩‍🍼, a grandparent 👵, a brother 🙎‍♂️ , a sister 👧. We will spend every waking hour trying to weaken 🔪🔪 you. We don't need sleep 😴❌️ because we will not rest until you do. Family 👨‍👩‍👧‍👧 can be much stronger than autism 🧩 ever anticipated, and we will not be intimidated by you, nor will the love ❤️ and strength 💪 of my community. I am a parent 🤱 riding 🏇 toward you, and you can push 🫸🫸 me off this horse 🐎🤕 time and time again, but I will get up, climb back on, and ride on with the message 🏇🏇. Autism 🧩, you forget who we are. You forget who you are dealing with. You forget the spirit of mothers 🤱, and daughters 👧, and fathers 👨‍🍼 and sons 🧒. We are Qatar 🇶🇦. We are the United Kingdom 🇬🇧. We are the United States 🇺🇲. We are China 🇨🇳. We are Argentina 🇦🇷. We are Russia 🇷🇺. We are the Eurpoean Union 🇪🇺. We are the United Nations 🇺🇳. We are coming together in all climates 🥶🧊🥵🔥. We call on all faiths ✝️🕌🔮. We search 🔎 with technology 👨‍💻 and voodoo 🧙‍♀️ and prayer 🙏📿 and herbs 🌿 and genetic studies 🧬🔬 and a growing awareness 👀you never anticipated. We have had challenges, but we are the best when overcoming them. We speak the only language that matters: love ❤️❤️ for our children 👪. Our capacity to love 💘 is greater than your capacity to overwhelm. Autism 🧩 is naïve. You are alone 🧍‍♂️. We are a community of warriors 🤺🤺🤺. We have a voice 🗨. You think because some of our children cannot speak 😶, we cannot hear 🔇 them? That is autism's 🧩 weakness. You think that because my child lives behind a wall 🧱, I am afraid to knock it down with my bare hands 🧱🤛🤛? You have not properly been introduced to this community of parents 👪 and grandparents 👵👴, of siblings 👬 and friends 👫 and schoolteachers 👩‍🏫 and therapists👩‍⚕️ and pediatricians 👨‍⚕️ and scientists 👩‍🔬. Autism 🧩, if you are not scared 😱😱, you should be. When you came for my child 🧩🤜👼, you forgot: you came for me. Autism 🧩🤜🤛👩, are you listening 👂?

[bah-circus]

hii! could we get a level 3 ticci Toby headmate?/nf !

Of course dear audience! We have heard your request and have found a suitable performer for you! We hope this performance suits your needs, but you are free to make any adjustments you wish.

❣︎For Our Next Act, Please Welcome,,,❣︎

Ticci Toby!!

°·⊱ Name: Toby / Tobi, Tobias, Woods, Forrest, Erin 

°·⊱ Nicknames/Titles: The Proxy Killer, The Hatchet Weilder, (prn) That Is Unfeeling

°·⊱ Age: 22

°·⊱ Race/Species: Human..? 

°·⊱ Source: Creepypasta Kastoway

────── · · · · ──────

°·⊱ Sex: Male

°·⊱ Gender: GoreFreak, DeadThing, Horroriune

°·⊱ Pronouns: He/Him; Fuck/Fucks; It/Its; She/Her; That Thing; H3/H1m

°·⊱ Sexuality: Biromantic Demisexual

────── · · · · ──────

°·⊱ Personality: Freak /silly 

°·⊱ Likes: Naps, Reality TV, Wooded Areas, Late Night Walks, Sweet Tea 😔

°·⊱ Dislikes: Vehicles, Beaches / Sand, English Classes, Being Called “Ticci” 

°·⊱ Role: Symptom / Tic-Holder, Physical Protector, Medicine Taker

°·⊱ Emoji Sign-Off: 🪓❌🩸🌲

°·⊱ Typing Quirk: e=3, z=s 

────── · · · · ──────

°·⊱ TransIDs: TransCannibal, TransPica, TransRabid, TransFeral, TransRedEyes, TransSlitPupils, PermaHigh, NullCIPA, TransHappyChildhood, TransStaticVoice, PermaMasked

°·⊱ CisIDs: Brown Hair, Brown Eyes, Scars, CIPA, BPD, Schizophrenia, Delusions, ADHD, Tourettes, Autism, Anxiety, Younger Brother, Stoner, Hypersexual, Dyslexia, Dyscalculia 

°·⊱ MUDS: Slender Sickness (If it��s not coined it should be)

°·⊱ Paras: 🔥, 🐾, 🐙, 🥚, 🌼, 👄, 🫀, 🩸, 🩹, 👀, 🔪, ⛓, 💧, 🪢, 🫁, 👿

°·⊱ Extra: I can’t figure out how to really word it but wishes to be immune to the Slender Sickness, NullSlenderSickness?°·⊱ Faceclaim: 1, 2, 3

[ginger-snap-talkin-nonsense]

🔥 Ducktales 2017 (if you're still doing these)

These are always open unless stated otherwise

It’s a really fun show but it suffers a lot in its third season from not knowing what to do with itself. It’s a season that simultaneously screams “we have too much time” and “we don’t have enough time”. Like, it’s the only season where the sibling were supposed to be focused on feels like he’s barely in it. Season 1 is all Dewey all the time and season 2 while juggling a lot still comes out heavily and easily Louie-centric. But man between the darkwing duck shit and the Webby and Beakley shit and the fowl shit that they had to entirely end by the end of the season Huey gets practically nothing for his troubles.

I think it’s a result of Huey having too many ideas but nothing central.

Dewey is a wannabe adventurer who’s desperate for attention but those are expressed via the vector of the spear of Selene mystery

Louie is insecure and gives into his vices more than his brothers but that’s mostly dealt with through the vector of Louie Inc.

For Huey, you’d think the guide would be the Junior Woodchuck Guidebook and indeed that’s what the attempt but there’s too many facets of Huey that only get one episode. In his first it’s his sudden competitive spirit, in the next it’s finding comfort in another child with autism, then his ability to release his rage healthily, then his sense of adventure needing to become stronger which was Louie’s thing in the previous season so it feels redundant here.

Too much was going on in that show for its own good and while it never entirely failed it certainly began to crumple under its own weight in the last hurrah.

[69constellationsinatrenchcoat]

I am so so sorry, I tried reading your dni and about the system page but it's a bit much for me.

However I did read your studying for psychology, how many years of studying do you have? Does did effect your studies ?

So, I typed up a super long answer to this, and it's gone, and I haven't had the spoons to write it up again… but here we go.

That's totally good honey, it's there partly for our reference and for anyone curious. Literally no pressure to read it! We haven't got to university yet; on the condition we get accepted into the bachelors of psychology program, we'll be starting our psych degree in Feb 2025. Our system has had a burning interest in psychology, well, since we were a kid. We've always been fascinated by the human brain and why people act the way they do. Plus, when our mental health started (heavily) declining when the body was 11-13, we started reading and finding things that we're fascinated by. It'll be three years for our bachelor's of psych plus 3-5 years post graduate (masters, phD or post grad certi.) to become a clinical psychologist.

And yes. DID impacts our education.

[The above message was written by Amber (🔥), I'll take over from here - Kyle 💜]

As Amber said, it impacts our education, and heavily. Since discovering we are a system, we have realised there was a lot of knowledge that went unheard, and passed through the system without any recollection. It finally explained how I (we) would get wonderful marks in subjects I (we) don't remember participating in, particularly statistics/maths. Kaden, my brother, would front, complete the class and get amazing scores, while the rest of us were left scrambling in the dark wondering what happened. I was aware of our system far before our host was for about six years before I had the terminology to explain what I was experiencing. I remember how our host would get confused when they received high marks in statistics while remembering absolutely nothing.

We're at a Christian school, which, I have a love/hate relationship with. As some of you may have seen by my past posts, I'm Christian and proudly queer, however our school doesn't see that that's possible (it seems in their eyes you're either queer, or Christian and never both bc 'queerness is unbiblical'). And it's worsened by our system having an array of religions.

From a straight learning perspective, our notes vary drastically and often information goes missed or unnoticed if we switch out.

We're hoping that once we're healthier and achieving functional multiplicity, that we can use our system as a superpower, especially working with clients. Where our littles can help younger clients feel heard and safe, and where we can match our clients with an alter that matches and/or compliments their communication style, and way of relating to the world. And if we ever end up working with a system (or for that matter, PTSD, depression, anxiety, OCD, autism or ADHD) in therapy, we'll have first-hand experience with it.

[deeps-repus]

🔥 ace attoutney :)

You're sick you know. You don't even understand any of this so you're doing it just to set me off.

Anyway

SPOILERS INCOMING

- sholmes is so overrated, he's honestly just okay. He's just a theater kid and i don't care that much about him. Homumiko is not an interesting ship.

- van zieks is good as a shitty character. I don't think him having a redemption arc fits. "Sorry i was racist towards you, it's cause i have trauma but i think you're cool now" still a racist. Just let him be a racist and move on from him. He's not even hot.

- spirit of justice is kind of a colonialism sim but turnabout storyteller is the best filler case of all time and has one of the most respectful portrayals of DID in any media ever

- third case syndrome isn't real because recipe for turnabout is really good its like a fever dream

- overdesigned characters are good actually. Athena lived in a space station and thought she killed her own mother let her have 30 accessories

- nahyuta sadhmadhi is not compelling as a character (not a hot take) but for fuckability and nonbinary swag alone he is pulled out of the bottom.

- i don't care if we never get gavin brothers backstory because everything i make up in my head could possibly be true then. I play with them like dolls.

- godot is a misogynist but so is edgeworth sorry. I get it i love an autism coded gay man as much as the next guy but nobody wants to remember the time he said "lol kys" to a grieving woman. Well i remember and i like him anyway, so you all can enjoy godot too.

- clay terran is better dead it's so funny that they not only killed him offscreen but also that he doesn't even exist in the game. You never meet this man and then he dies. Iconic. Best writing decision ever.

- i don't think apollo justice can cook stop writing fics where he woos klavier with his fine cuisine they are useless himbos and they order takeout multiple times a week and 1 hello fresh just to feel something. Tell me when apollo would have had time to learn to cook. When his terrorist dad was running with him from the feds? When he was taking an extra heavy courseload so he could get through law school as fast as possible? Fuck off.

- on that note apollo can have as many backstories as he wants because i love him and he deserves it. Give him 30 more games.

OKAY I'M STOPPING NOW BEFORE I WRITE ANOTHER 10,000 WORD ESSAY

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

🔥 for any topic we both like or anything you want to write about! 💙💋

Everyone else look away from this post I want to be alone with topshelf2112-blog. Now then. [kisses your hand] My opinion is that you are so right. about everything in the world. Lightning round of some thoughts for you:

I know canon mentioned Charles has/had a dog and I do totally believe he's grown up with multiple hunting/guard dogs as well as horses and probably other creatures too on the big family estates, and I’m sure he’s always enjoyed hanging out with said creatures and avoiding all human interaction, because as we all know, he IS autistic. However when it comes down to it he is absolutely a cat person. Because what is the ultimate autism animal, after all? That’s right!

Not to say that he’d ever get a cat, or any pet I think, of his own volition. He’d be one of those infamous grumpy old men (Charles became a grumpy old man, spiritually, at about age 17) where his spouse/sister gets a cat and he’s like “ableghbleghblegh I don’t want a cat it’s gonna make a mess and you won’t take care of it because you are Irresponsible bleghebglhdghdhl” and then he is ALWAYS cuddling that cat. fucking ride or die BFFs with the cat. But of course it’s always strictly “my spouse/sister’s cat”. Of COURSE.

When you said Charles’ little brother’s name was David I was like ok. scream. and you were so right. In any other circumstance I’d be like ok no way that’s too much but this is MASH where the cast and writers LOVE doing shit like that because they’re all little FREAKS. Like they literally did this exact thing in canon with Sad Piano David from Morale Victory. (Also this HC makes Morale Victory even more fucked up, so obviously a huge win.) So this is canon to me now, sorry to all other Dead Little Brother Name Candidates but you can’t beat this one.

Also every other Dead Little Brother Name Candidate (TM) I’ve seen is a nickname of some sort and I totally get what people are going for but in my humble opinion. This is simply NOT a nickname household.

On a related note I don’t seriously subscribe to the notion but if someone told me Charles’ mother’s name was also Honoria I’d just be like of course it fucking is. I hate this fucking family.

I LOVE your idea that Maxwell’s birth father was the physically abusive one he mentions and that his current one is a step-father, and I think that’s supported by how in The Interview he mentions that he and his sister(s?) call the man by a nickname, “Butch”, as opposed to just “dad”. (And I love how you write that said step-father and some other family members are not as accepting of his dresses as other relatives like his mom and uncles, because I feel like that’s so often how it is, you know? Some of your family are great about it but some are not and then you become this Object Of Tension and it’s just exhausting. Soooo many Thoughts about Maxwell's family......)

Every time you have Charles and Kellye interact in a fic or mention that they’re friends an angel gets its wings. Maybe if enough of us do this we will be able to physically manifest more scenes of them together somehow. Also I’m just gonna say it. Society if Hawkeye finally went to ask Kellye on a date in Hey Look Me Over and the guy she’s already with were CHARLES of all people. He would take 10d10 psychic damage. absolute crit. destroyed.

Charles and Honoria are [REDACTED] survivors. I know it’s all played over the top for laughs but the stuff he says in Bottle Fatigue and Heal Thyself is [REDACTED] [REDACTED] [REDACTED]

[guggghhhhhh]

we r an adult mixed origin system. they it prns only. objectophilic weirdo and computer fucker. we luv korn, soad, icp, dethklok, etc. any/everything we make will strictly be based off of our autism or wtv our brothers request.

req are CLOSED 🔥 we dont do them it stresses us out (not sorry). this blogs theme is lazy and dumb 4 a reason. were tired of being aesthetic all the time....we like making shit tho...so why nawt combine the two

[demolvers]

hi this is jst a little post telling you a bit about me!! :33

im kasper or astrid!! i use any prns but mainly he/she, im intersex n a boygirl so u can use any terms on me as well!! i talk like im a lot younger than i actually am so pls dont b fooled by my speech i am 19 :3 i have a few disorders actually, the most severe r schizophrenia, did, bpd, autism, adhd, and dpdr(or wtv the abbreviation is) im an older brother figure to a lot of my younger friends 🫶🫶 i have a lot of interests but the main ones rn r gnr, motley crue, acdc, cinderella, hanoi rocks, stardew valley, metallica, and korn!! :3 im pretty energetic and i will b friends w literally anyone 🔥 OKAY I THINK THAT SUMS ME UP FOR NOW! :3

[cityofmeliora]

🔥🔥 THE AUTISM BROTHERS 🔥🔥

the Terzo autism post ♾️

this is kind of an analysis post and kind of a headcanon post.

Terzo reads as autistic to me, especially during his first two concerts when he was speaking without a script and trying to figure things out.

Terzo has that "trying new things is scary and i need to feel like i'm getting a good grade at social interactions and everything has to be done correctly or i'm going to explode" flavor of autism.

[AFTER PERFORMING PRIME MOVER] PAPA EMERITUS III: How am I doing so far? I've been studying these moves so you would feel comfortable. Are you comfortable? Linköping, Sweden (June 3, 2015)

Terzo says he studied the choreography for 'Prime Mover' so the audience would feel comfortable. he's trying to do what people expect, and he keeps checking if he's doing alright and asking the audience if they like what he's doing.

[BEFORE PERFORMING ABSOLUTION] PAPA EMERITUS III: So, we're gonna finish this off with something as weird as a new song. What that delighting, or did you not like that? Yes. Good, good. Linköping, Sweden (June 3, 2015)

PAPA EMERITUS III: So, I know it might seem a little confusing –it's even a little confusing to me, sometimes– y'know, playing new songs for people who've never heard these songs. But I tell you what– we have a really good ending song that you will understand why it is an ending song when you hear it. But now it might seem a bit strange, huh? Sweden Rock Festival - Solvesborg, Sweden (June 4, 2015)

Terzo feels weird about performing new music because it's new and the audience doesn't know what to expect and neither does he. he keeps trying to assure the audience that it'll be okay. but i'm pretty sure he was the only person worried about it. he was about to release a new album, so it completely made sense that he would be performing new songs. he just hates not knowing what to expect, and it doesn't occur to him that not everyone thinks like him.

and then this clip... i think it speaks for itself, but let's talk about it anyway. (i included the audio because i really want people to hear him speaking here.)

PAPA EMERITUS III: Okay! We are now officially wrapping– with a song. It's not a rap song, though. [STUTTERS FOR SEVERAL SECONDS] I've heard from my brother that you are somewhat of a singing crowd. So you like singing, eh? That is fantastic because that is exactly what we're gonna do right now, and if you had said no, that would have been… weird. So thank you for not being weird and weirding me out. I'm weird enough as it is. Sweden Rock Festival - Solvesborg, Sweden (June 4, 2015)

like where do i even start with this. him thinking he needs to clarify he's not going to be rapping. the stuttering. the fact that he listens to what Secondo tells him so he knows what to expect. him saying "[...] if you had said no, that would have been... weird. So thank you for not being weird and weirding me out. I'm weird enough as it is."

he feels like a weirdo and he just wants things to be normal so bad. 😭

he also gets really irritated when people are incorrect / do things incorrectly. he has the literal / rigid thinking patterns characteristic of autistic people

PAPA EMERITUS III: Well, it's getting late. AUDIENCE: NOOO! PAPA EMERITUS III: Yes! It's not a matter of opinion. It is getting late. Sweden Rock Festival - Solvesborg, Sweden (June 4, 2015)

he tells the audience it is objectively true that it is getting late.

then there's the whole bit where he wants people to clap along to the music but he hates it if people clap wrong or don't clap with the correct rhythm.

and the bit where he asks the audience to say "Meliora" and emphasizes the correct pronunciation versus the incorrect pronunciation.

Terzo strikes me as someone who is constantly trying to perform a very intentionally constructed social personality, not only as an entertainer but as a person. and while he's naturally charismatic and charming, it's actually quite difficult for him to perform this public personality because he's constantly concerned with getting a good grade in social interactions and things being done correctly.

and there are all the quotes about Terzo being a recluse who only interacts with others as much as is strictly necessary. this is definitely clinical depression, but i think his autism is also a factor.

he got comfortable once he settled into a routine and created a script that he could repeat, though. after that, he was really on autopilot during his concerts. which is also so so autistic of him <3