#THE AUTISM BROTHERS 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[nosleep83]

WHEN DONNIE GRABS ONTO LEO’S SHOULDER/SHELL WHEN HES LIKE NERVOUS OR SCARED AGEBSHSGGWHE GOD DAMN BROTHERS‼️‼️‼️‼️😭😭😭😭🗣🗣🗣

[simcardiac-arrested]

fuuuuck im gonna faint my dad just got me dream songs the essential joe hisaishi cd FUUUUUCKKKK

[musesofthesun]

he's known he's going to die again. it's still scary. it's scary and he doesn't want to but he has to be brave he already used his chance up and failed. he's not a kid anymore he already died he can't be scared. move on move on move on

"pretty puffed-up remark there," ORTHO snickers, flicking off some blot that's leaking into his vision. "but i'll humor you."

a set of phantoms rattle and wail nearby, screaming for freedom. ORTHO pauses in his conversation in order to turn and crush the ones in his claws, letting their blot flow freely across stone. he's busy. he doesn't like interruptions when he's busy. he growls at other groups of the creatures, making it clear he doesn't want to be disturbed. they flee.

ORTHO turns back in time to snag a paper on his finger. he collects the others in his other palm as they appear. he has to hold each piece really close to his head in order to see it, but he distantly recognizes the style. what ortho says cinches it.

"they made new pokemon?" he booms with the excitement of a ten-year-old on holly day week, causing some loose rocks to fall from the ceiling. "how many are there now? ooh... this purple and blue rapidash is pretty! is it a rapidash? is it something else?"

It's not nice, to hear about all that... It's in his nature, the reason for his very existence, to find permanence in the impermanent. But when all was said and done, there was no solution to this, or at least there wasn't one in the foreseeable future. The phantom seemed to accept his fate, now... And he has to be okay with that too. Ortho can't shake the desire to help, to do something, but he won't just outright say it. He should try to enjoy the time that he had left to know him...

Ortho can handle that knowing, even if there's no way to help. He can't imagine that Idia would be able to take it as well, so he keeps these meetings a secret too. And even if there's nothing to be done, Ortho can at least make his counterpart's last moments a bit more bearable.

"I wish I could do something but... I guess you're right-" he replies, trying not to betray any more of it. Instead, he had a few tricks up his own sleeves to continue on. He didn't have much to ask in terms of advice, but instead...

"All I need you to do for me now though, is keep your eye out for something coming in there real quick. And no need to thank me or anything-" he laughs, fiddling with something with his back to the gate. In his hands was an object he'd asked some others to help him create, a matter teleporter. It wasn't to try and move anything out, though, since the trip was only one way. To use it, he'd put the items in, and they'd disappear into the desired spot when one thought about it hard.

Specifically, the phantoms would be met with papers, all with different pictures on them of... Pokemon? Though the creatures may be unrecognizable to some, Ortho was adamant.

"Because, I thought about how since you've been down there for so long, you haven't gotten to see all the new Pokemon that have come out recently... So, I printed out some references, and you can ask me about any of the ones that stand out to you!" Maybe it was a silly gesture, but it was something the humanoid wanted to do for a while, so that the phantom could feel a little less out of the loop...

[stardust-falls-blog]

Bill leave him alone bro!!😭 I can't help but think that Bill was a little sassy growing up, especially as he got older and hit his teenage years, y'know back talk and snarky comments when he's upset or annoyed. Steve was a lot more chill and clung to Bill, following him around silently and rarely spoke unless alone. He's not much of a talker and I'd go as far as to say that he's semi nonverbal.

The autism brothers 🔥🔥🔥 anger issues vs semi nonverbal🔥🔥🔥

[je-suis-applebread]

You know those "im npd im bpd 🔥personality disorder brothers🔥/ im adhd im autism 🔥neurodivergent brothers🔥" pics with Stan and Ford??

Okay so

One of those but with Fiddleford, Stanford and Bill going "im gaslight im gatekeep and im girlboss 🔥"we can't fix each other" polycule🔥" inspired by one interaction i had

[fallenclan]

A Full List of Fallenclan Cats That Give Me Thoughts

Maplestar - hm.. he is a guy. but hes also gone through so much.

Silverbelly - she is,,,, so silly,,,,, the silliest. perchance

Sorrelstem - dawg how did she react to shrewkit I dying dude how did she feel. like did she feel like a shitty parent was she extra protective over the rest of her kits??? hm

Crowflame - he is a guy but also he is super tragic and sad. UGH boyfailure

Blizzardfang - i thoughr she was a man for like 7 million years and now i think about her all the time. perchance.

Antbite - him and lionsong are so goldenflare and morningbloom coded. him being this silly little emotional wall 90% of the time is Canon because I Said So

Lionsong - HE WAS TOO LITTLE!!!! NOOOO!!!!

Moosefall - my MAN. my BOY. okay that is MY SON and I will EMOTIONALLY TARNISH HIM as much as i want. PERCHANCE🔥

Salmonskip - she is such a goofball 2 me okay. like she definitely feels less than adequate compared to mossfrog and that is something i Get

Mossfrog - she is literally me so everything i say about her is correct. brand new city by mitski as a CAT

Waspflight - adhd king/queen. she can be BOTH king and queen okay shes QUEEN he is KING he is all the genders at the same time

Owlscreech - yes shes a wet sopping beast but shes MY wet sopping beast. PERCHANCE.

Goldenstar - do u think he has ptsd from morningbloom. bcuz. vaguely gestures in applebranch's direction. do you think her first litter gave him REAL flashbacks. also robinblaze looks a lil like morningbloom dont u think. rubs my hands together EVILLY

Shrewkit II - how does she feel about being named after her dead relative thats shes never once met and looks strikingly similar to

Feathersight - how does he feel about being named after his mentor's murdered brother. how does he feel about constantly being in stormsights shadow? Perchance

Pinefrost - shes literally just there. love her for that. perchance.

Brambletuft - gestures vaguely at pinkshift and mitski. yeah thats her

Yewberry - he's so autism. perchance

-🍭

you cant just say perchance (<- reference)

your thoughts. all so good. mwah. antbite and lionsong ARE goldenmorning coded you're right. golden FOR SURE has ptsd abt morningbloom's death and he absolutely had flashbacks when applebranch had her kits. shrewkit II. i like to think she is proud to carry the memory of her aunt. same for feathersight--bro is connected to starclan in Ways (omen sense) i feel like hes happy to carry that.

i also have to ask. do you think pinefrost is a girl. or are you just using she/her for him. bc that rules too. i just want to know

[bb-drayster]

yeap. i was wonderin’ wgo else in this school had a politoed and would’ve known i was being used as a personal chew toy. but let ‘em known the drayster appreciates it, yeah?

Hiiiii Drayton!!!!! ^_^ Kieran is asleep right now, but he told me to tell you that you're "really stupid" and "need to get your shit together", bzzzzt! But also!!!!!!! He hopes you're feeling a bit better!!!!!! Wait, actually, don't think I was supposed to say that part, bzzzzzt...

( @not-gonna-lose this Rotom is such a silly little thing...)

awwwf, wven the champion is worried for me? how flattering.

doign better now, between the blood loss and tge liquid crack i drank i might’ve actually died and gone to heaven forfh a minute

[bizarrebazaar13]

5, 11 and 12 for the holmes asks!

5. Most niche Sherlock Holmes adaptation you've consumed?

ok so a couple years ago my parents got me this for my birthday

it’s a deck of cards, each one with a puzzle on it, and the booklet includes short little original stories about cases that each puzzle connects to. I can’t find my cards at the moment but I really liked the puzzles and the stories. Joel Jessup apparently has a great feel for Holmes and Watson’s dialogue. I don’t know how niche this actually is, but I had never heard of it before I got it as a gift, so I think it counts.

11. Headcanon about Holmes? (And do you have any favourites?)

ooh hm. a headcanon of mine that I always forget isn’t mentioned in the text is that he hates new stuff when it’s not related to a case. yes we need variety to escape the commonplaces of existence, but no we’re not replacing this jacket. “it has holes it” “it’s FINE come back to me when it’s more hole than jacket and then we’ll talk” <- approximation of several real conversations I have had.

my favorite? 🔥the autism brothers🔥 (the headcanon that Sherlock Holmes and Mycroft Holmes are both autistic) (I saw an edit with flaming text over a picture of Granada Sherlock and Mycroft and it hasn’t left my brain since)

12. Headcanon about Watson? (And do you have any favourites?)

I think he’s a cat person! I know he mentions a dog in a study in scarlet, but that literally never comes up again, and it’s actually Holmes who seems to get along best with the dogs they meet in canon. I don’t think Watson dislikes dogs, but I do think he prefers cats, and Holmes is the opposite. it’s just funny to me because it’s not what you would think at first glance.

my favorite? well, I don’t know how much of a headcanon this is, as it’s from a published book, but Rohase Piercey wrote about Watson trying to help his brother, an alcoholic as deduced by Holmes from his watch at the beginning of the sign of four, recover over the course of a few weeks before the sign of four begins. his brother dies and Watson immediately goes back to living with Holmes as his cocaine habit gets worse. all this to say: what the fuck Ms. Piercey.

(book is called My Dearest Holmes and this is not even the part that fucks me up the most about it. internet archive has a copy I think. that’s where I read it at least.)

[calugaritsa]

♱𓆩♡𓆪♱

Hey everyone, you can call me Ioana, Theo, or even just calugaritsa.

Now here's the thing - DNIs are fundamentally useless, so instead I thought I'd do a "please DO interact"!👇 Aside from that, under the cut you'll find some things you might want to know about me before following + also just some fun facts about me. Let's fucking goooo 🔥

♱𓆩♡𓆪♱

Please DO interact:

♡ Romanians, especially other queer and disabled romanians! Hai sa dam mana cu manaaa

♡ All manner of pretentious perverts

♡ Career haters who also delight in being lovers

♡ People with an interest in any of the following topics:

♱ literary theory & history/the universal literary canon

♱ monks, nuns and saints

♱ the linguistics of profanity/obscenity and argot

♱ vampires

♱ queer art (in all its many forms - especially works from before queerness became more acceptable in the publishing and film industry)

♡ People who can & want to give me music recs ESPECIALLY in these genres:

♱ metal (folk, symphonic, power, gothic etc)

♱ goth music (recs would be SO appreciated here as I've just barely started exploring this genre)

♱ Indian music (Hindi, Bengali, Urdu, even English, the language doesn't matter, I just love music from this part of the world.)

♡ Fans of any of the following media:

♱ Revolutionary Girl Utena

♱ The Brothers Karamazov

♱ Les Misérables

♱ Dungeon Meshi

♱ Fear and Hunger

♱ Shakespeare plays

♱ Guilty Gear

♱ The Silmarillion

♱ MSG 0079

♱ Bungou Stray Dogs

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Now here are a few things you might want to know about me before following:

♱ I am some variant of christian. I do believe there is a God, and I stand by the teachings of Jesus. However the way in which I understand and interpret my faith infuriates most christians, which is why I call myself a sort of heretic lmao. I want to make it clear that I am a feminist and firmly pro-trans. I aspire to meaningfully militate for and support all those who are oppressed and marginalized by the current status quo.

♱ Still, if for any reason you are uncomfortable around people with spiritual beliefs like mine, that's literally fine. I will never take offense to this. Just don't jump on my ass about it, you can block instead

♱ In fact, I myself block liberally. If you somehow find out I've blocked you or a friend or whatever, it's probably nothing personal - 9 times out of 10 i just got vaguely annoyed by something

♱ I reblog nsfw stuff and don't usually tag it. I tend to use tags as more of a place to yap. If you're a minor and don't want to see that shit, this blog may not be for you.

♱ You may always send me asks or DM me to ask about anything in this pinned post, or to chat about any of the subjects I mentioned above! That would make me very happy actually :3

♱ In fact I would love more active mutuals to actually interact with. So if you vibe with me based on this post (or others) LET'S DO IT BABE

♱ I am diagnosed with various physical disabilities as well as glorious glorious autism🔥🔥

♱ I am happily taken. However, I don't mind joking flirty comments/telling me I'm hot or sexy/that sort of thing

♱𓆩♡𓆪♱

Finally here are some silly fun facts about me :3

♡ I speak three languages (English, Romanian and French) and I'm trying to learn Russian next

♡ I had pica - that's that "my strange addiction" ED, the one that makes you eat inedible things (in my case it was drywall and clay mostly). but I beat it all on my own!!yay

♡ My favorite bands are E-An-Na, Eluveitie, Bloodywood and Ignea

♡ I live in the same neighborhood as a convicted murderer who has a history of targeting my family and he has followed me home before!

♡ I once wrote an entire fantasy novel just to cheer up my sad friend.

♡ My username means "nun" in my mother tongue, but it's deliberately misspelled - there should be a ț instead of ts, but tumblr doesn't allow diacritics in usernames, so I thought this looked fun

♡ The painting in my header is Takato Yamamoto's Saint Sebastian. My pfp is a detail from the Maastricht book of hours

♱𓆩♡𓆪♱

That's about all! Long ahh post I know, but I'm not apologizing lmao. this is my blog and I do what I want with it RAHHHHH 😈😈😈 in fact I will definitely add to this if I think of more relevant shit

♱𓆩♡𓆪♱

[sw33t-oubliette]

the autism brothers [MATT AND L UP NEXT 💯🔥😼]

[obsessivefangirl]

I am autism 🧩. I'm visible 👁 in your children 👨‍👦, but if I can help 🆘️ it, I am invisible to you until it's too late 🕖. I know where you live 🏠. And guess what? I live 🏠 there too. I hover around all of you. I know no color ⚫️ barrier 🚧 , no religion ✡️❌️ ☪️❌️ ✝️❌️ 🕉❌️, no 🚫 morality⚖️, no 🚫 currency 💸💸💸. I speak 🗣🗣 your language fluently. And with every voice I take away 😶😶, I acquire yet another language . I work very quickly 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️. I work faster than pediatric aids, cancer ♋️, and diabetes 💉 combined And if you're happily married 💒👰🤵, I will make sure that your marriage fails 📃🍺🍺🍺. Your money 💰 🤑 will fall into my hands 🫴🫴, and I will bankrupt 📉 you for my own self-gain 💪💪. I don't sleep 💤🙅‍♀️, so I make sure you don't either 😴. I will make it virtually impossible for your family to easily attend a temple 🕍, birthday party🥳🎉🎂 , or public park without a struggle, without embarrassment 😳, without pain 🤕. You have no cure 💊🧪⛔️ for me. Your scientists 🧑‍⚕️ don't have the resources, and I relish their desperation😩 . Your neighbors 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♂️ are happier to pretend that I don't exist🙈 -of course, until it's their child 🧟. I am autism 😈. I have no interest in right ✅️ or wrong ❌️. I derive great pleasure 😄😄 out of your loneliness 😞😞. I will fight to take away your hope. I will plot to rob 🥷 you of your children 👶👶 and your dreams 💭. I will make sure that every day you wake up you will cry 😭😭😭, wondering who will take care of my child after I die ☠️🪦? And the truth is, I am still winning 🏆, and you are scared 😱😱. And you should be. I am autism 🧩. You ignored me. That was a mistake.

Family: And to autism 🧩 I say: I am a father 👨‍🍼, a mother 👩‍🍼, a grandparent 👵, a brother 🙎‍♂️ , a sister 👧. We will spend every waking hour trying to weaken 🔪🔪 you. We don't need sleep 😴❌️ because we will not rest until you do. Family 👨‍👩‍👧‍👧 can be much stronger than autism 🧩 ever anticipated, and we will not be intimidated by you, nor will the love ❤️ and strength 💪 of my community. I am a parent 🤱 riding 🏇 toward you, and you can push 🫸🫸 me off this horse 🐎🤕 time and time again, but I will get up, climb back on, and ride on with the message 🏇🏇. Autism 🧩, you forget who we are. You forget who you are dealing with. You forget the spirit of mothers 🤱, and daughters 👧, and fathers 👨‍🍼 and sons 🧒. We are Qatar 🇶🇦. We are the United Kingdom 🇬🇧. We are the United States 🇺🇲. We are China 🇨🇳. We are Argentina 🇦🇷. We are Russia 🇷🇺. We are the Eurpoean Union 🇪🇺. We are the United Nations 🇺🇳. We are coming together in all climates 🥶🧊🥵🔥. We call on all faiths ✝️🕌🔮. We search 🔎 with technology 👨‍💻 and voodoo 🧙‍♀️ and prayer 🙏📿 and herbs 🌿 and genetic studies 🧬🔬 and a growing awareness 👀you never anticipated. We have had challenges, but we are the best when overcoming them. We speak the only language that matters: love ❤️❤️ for our children 👪. Our capacity to love 💘 is greater than your capacity to overwhelm. Autism 🧩 is naïve. You are alone 🧍‍♂️. We are a community of warriors 🤺🤺🤺. We have a voice 🗨. You think because some of our children cannot speak 😶, we cannot hear 🔇 them? That is autism's 🧩 weakness. You think that because my child lives behind a wall 🧱, I am afraid to knock it down with my bare hands 🧱🤛🤛? You have not properly been introduced to this community of parents 👪 and grandparents 👵👴, of siblings 👬 and friends 👫 and schoolteachers 👩‍🏫 and therapists👩‍⚕️ and pediatricians 👨‍⚕️ and scientists 👩‍🔬. Autism 🧩, if you are not scared 😱😱, you should be. When you came for my child 🧩🤜👼, you forgot: you came for me. Autism 🧩🤜🤛👩, are you listening 👂?

[bah-circus]

hii! could we get a level 3 ticci Toby headmate?/nf !

Of course dear audience! We have heard your request and have found a suitable performer for you! We hope this performance suits your needs, but you are free to make any adjustments you wish.

❣︎For Our Next Act, Please Welcome,,,❣︎

Ticci Toby!!

°·⊱ Name: Toby / Tobi, Tobias, Woods, Forrest, Erin 

°·⊱ Nicknames/Titles: The Proxy Killer, The Hatchet Weilder, (prn) That Is Unfeeling

°·⊱ Age: 22

°·⊱ Race/Species: Human..? 

°·⊱ Source: Creepypasta Kastoway

────── · · · · ──────

°·⊱ Sex: Male

°·⊱ Gender: GoreFreak, DeadThing, Horroriune

°·⊱ Pronouns: He/Him; Fuck/Fucks; It/Its; She/Her; That Thing; H3/H1m

°·⊱ Sexuality: Biromantic Demisexual

────── · · · · ──────

°·⊱ Personality: Freak /silly 

°·⊱ Likes: Naps, Reality TV, Wooded Areas, Late Night Walks, Sweet Tea 😔

°·⊱ Dislikes: Vehicles, Beaches / Sand, English Classes, Being Called “Ticci” 

°·⊱ Role: Symptom / Tic-Holder, Physical Protector, Medicine Taker

°·⊱ Emoji Sign-Off: 🪓❌🩸🌲

°·⊱ Typing Quirk: e=3, z=s 

────── · · · · ──────

°·⊱ TransIDs: TransCannibal, TransPica, TransRabid, TransFeral, TransRedEyes, TransSlitPupils, PermaHigh, NullCIPA, TransHappyChildhood, TransStaticVoice, PermaMasked

°·⊱ CisIDs: Brown Hair, Brown Eyes, Scars, CIPA, BPD, Schizophrenia, Delusions, ADHD, Tourettes, Autism, Anxiety, Younger Brother, Stoner, Hypersexual, Dyslexia, Dyscalculia 

°·⊱ MUDS: Slender Sickness (If it’s not coined it should be)

°·⊱ Paras: 🔥, 🐾, 🐙, 🥚, 🌼, 👄, 🫀, 🩸, 🩹, 👀, 🔪, ⛓, 💧, 🪢, 🫁, 👿

°·⊱ Extra: I can’t figure out how to really word it but wishes to be immune to the Slender Sickness, NullSlenderSickness?°·⊱ Faceclaim: 1, 2, 3

[ginger-snap-talkin-nonsense]

🔥 Ducktales 2017 (if you're still doing these)

These are always open unless stated otherwise

It’s a really fun show but it suffers a lot in its third season from not knowing what to do with itself. It’s a season that simultaneously screams “we have too much time” and “we don’t have enough time”. Like, it’s the only season where the sibling were supposed to be focused on feels like he’s barely in it. Season 1 is all Dewey all the time and season 2 while juggling a lot still comes out heavily and easily Louie-centric. But man between the darkwing duck shit and the Webby and Beakley shit and the fowl shit that they had to entirely end by the end of the season Huey gets practically nothing for his troubles.

I think it’s a result of Huey having too many ideas but nothing central.

Dewey is a wannabe adventurer who’s desperate for attention but those are expressed via the vector of the spear of Selene mystery

Louie is insecure and gives into his vices more than his brothers but that’s mostly dealt with through the vector of Louie Inc.

For Huey, you’d think the guide would be the Junior Woodchuck Guidebook and indeed that’s what the attempt but there’s too many facets of Huey that only get one episode. In his first it’s his sudden competitive spirit, in the next it’s finding comfort in another child with autism, then his ability to release his rage healthily, then his sense of adventure needing to become stronger which was Louie’s thing in the previous season so it feels redundant here.

Too much was going on in that show for its own good and while it never entirely failed it certainly began to crumple under its own weight in the last hurrah.

[deeps-repus]

🔥 ace attoutney :)

You're sick you know. You don't even understand any of this so you're doing it just to set me off.

Anyway

SPOILERS INCOMING

- sholmes is so overrated, he's honestly just okay. He's just a theater kid and i don't care that much about him. Homumiko is not an interesting ship.

- van zieks is good as a shitty character. I don't think him having a redemption arc fits. "Sorry i was racist towards you, it's cause i have trauma but i think you're cool now" still a racist. Just let him be a racist and move on from him. He's not even hot.

- spirit of justice is kind of a colonialism sim but turnabout storyteller is the best filler case of all time and has one of the most respectful portrayals of DID in any media ever

- third case syndrome isn't real because recipe for turnabout is really good its like a fever dream

- overdesigned characters are good actually. Athena lived in a space station and thought she killed her own mother let her have 30 accessories

- nahyuta sadhmadhi is not compelling as a character (not a hot take) but for fuckability and nonbinary swag alone he is pulled out of the bottom.

- i don't care if we never get gavin brothers backstory because everything i make up in my head could possibly be true then. I play with them like dolls.

- godot is a misogynist but so is edgeworth sorry. I get it i love an autism coded gay man as much as the next guy but nobody wants to remember the time he said "lol kys" to a grieving woman. Well i remember and i like him anyway, so you all can enjoy godot too.

- clay terran is better dead it's so funny that they not only killed him offscreen but also that he doesn't even exist in the game. You never meet this man and then he dies. Iconic. Best writing decision ever.

- i don't think apollo justice can cook stop writing fics where he woos klavier with his fine cuisine they are useless himbos and they order takeout multiple times a week and 1 hello fresh just to feel something. Tell me when apollo would have had time to learn to cook. When his terrorist dad was running with him from the feds? When he was taking an extra heavy courseload so he could get through law school as fast as possible? Fuck off.

- on that note apollo can have as many backstories as he wants because i love him and he deserves it. Give him 30 more games.

OKAY I'M STOPPING NOW BEFORE I WRITE ANOTHER 10,000 WORD ESSAY

[demolvers]

hi this is jst a little post telling you a bit about me!! :33

im kasper or astrid!! i use any prns but mainly he/she, im intersex n a boygirl so u can use any terms on me as well!! i talk like im a lot younger than i actually am so pls dont b fooled by my speech i am 19 :3 i have a few disorders actually, the most severe r schizophrenia, did, bpd, autism, adhd, and dpdr(or wtv the abbreviation is) im an older brother figure to a lot of my younger friends 🫶🫶 i have a lot of interests but the main ones rn r gnr, motley crue, acdc, cinderella, hanoi rocks, stardew valley, metallica, and korn!! :3 im pretty energetic and i will b friends w literally anyone 🔥 OKAY I THINK THAT SUMS ME UP FOR NOW! :3

[cityofmeliora]

🔥🔥 THE AUTISM BROTHERS 🔥🔥

the Terzo autism post ♾️

this is kind of an analysis post and kind of a headcanon post.

Terzo reads as autistic to me, especially during his first two concerts when he was speaking without a script and trying to figure things out.

Terzo has that "trying new things is scary and i need to feel like i'm getting a good grade at social interactions and everything has to be done correctly or i'm going to explode" flavor of autism.

[AFTER PERFORMING PRIME MOVER] PAPA EMERITUS III: How am I doing so far? I've been studying these moves so you would feel comfortable. Are you comfortable? Linköping, Sweden (June 3, 2015)

Terzo says he studied the choreography for 'Prime Mover' so the audience would feel comfortable. he's trying to do what people expect, and he keeps checking if he's doing alright and asking the audience if they like what he's doing.

[BEFORE PERFORMING ABSOLUTION] PAPA EMERITUS III: So, we're gonna finish this off with something as weird as a new song. What that delighting, or did you not like that? Yes. Good, good. Linköping, Sweden (June 3, 2015)

PAPA EMERITUS III: So, I know it might seem a little confusing –it's even a little confusing to me, sometimes– y'know, playing new songs for people who've never heard these songs. But I tell you what– we have a really good ending song that you will understand why it is an ending song when you hear it. But now it might seem a bit strange, huh? Sweden Rock Festival - Solvesborg, Sweden (June 4, 2015)

Terzo feels weird about performing new music because it's new and the audience doesn't know what to expect and neither does he. he keeps trying to assure the audience that it'll be okay. but i'm pretty sure he was the only person worried about it. he was about to release a new album, so it completely made sense that he would be performing new songs. he just hates not knowing what to expect, and it doesn't occur to him that not everyone thinks like him.

and then this clip... i think it speaks for itself, but let's talk about it anyway. (i included the audio because i really want people to hear him speaking here.)

PAPA EMERITUS III: Okay! We are now officially wrapping– with a song. It's not a rap song, though. [STUTTERS FOR SEVERAL SECONDS] I've heard from my brother that you are somewhat of a singing crowd. So you like singing, eh? That is fantastic because that is exactly what we're gonna do right now, and if you had said no, that would have been… weird. So thank you for not being weird and weirding me out. I'm weird enough as it is. Sweden Rock Festival - Solvesborg, Sweden (June 4, 2015)

like where do i even start with this. him thinking he needs to clarify he's not going to be rapping. the stuttering. the fact that he listens to what Secondo tells him so he knows what to expect. him saying "[...] if you had said no, that would have been... weird. So thank you for not being weird and weirding me out. I'm weird enough as it is."

he feels like a weirdo and he just wants things to be normal so bad. 😭

he also gets really irritated when people are incorrect / do things incorrectly. he has the literal / rigid thinking patterns characteristic of autistic people

PAPA EMERITUS III: Well, it's getting late. AUDIENCE: NOOO! PAPA EMERITUS III: Yes! It's not a matter of opinion. It is getting late. Sweden Rock Festival - Solvesborg, Sweden (June 4, 2015)

he tells the audience it is objectively true that it is getting late.

then there's the whole bit where he wants people to clap along to the music but he hates it if people clap wrong or don't clap with the correct rhythm.

and the bit where he asks the audience to say "Meliora" and emphasizes the correct pronunciation versus the incorrect pronunciation.

Terzo strikes me as someone who is constantly trying to perform a very intentionally constructed social personality, not only as an entertainer but as a person. and while he's naturally charismatic and charming, it's actually quite difficult for him to perform this public personality because he's constantly concerned with getting a good grade in social interactions and things being done correctly.

and there are all the quotes about Terzo being a recluse who only interacts with others as much as is strictly necessary. this is definitely clinical depression, but i think his autism is also a factor.

he got comfortable once he settled into a routine and created a script that he could repeat, though. after that, he was really on autopilot during his concerts. which is also so so autistic of him <3