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i'm super interested in hearing your thoughts as you play through estival. if its not an exceptional burden. i've been enjoying it a lot so.

as promised, the duplicate ask!

I’m really enjoying estival so far, despite being behind on it. I will say that there’s a lot going on at the moment and it’s kind of overwhelming, so I’ve decided to give my ocs each a problem to focus on one at a time.

Vela: get to tuesday and talk to the ambassador

Aria: fix cause and effect

Alexandria: investigate the weather

Dexter: hunt laws

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estival anon. that was also me 😔

adfghkds I can’t believe I recommended your own ask to you. whoops. well as I said I always have opinions and I love sharing them, so fresh new estival thoughts coming your way soon!

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(responding to getting flirted with) heh well, youre pretty sexy yaself baby, (lowers sunglasses to reveal my wicked eyes) im not feeling well, i might die soon

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i'm super interested in hearing your thoughts as you play through estival. if its not an exceptional burden. i've been enjoying it a lot so.

this ask sent twice for some reason so I’m answering this one to say yes I love sharing my thoughts on fl and you will be hearing from me about estival whether you like it or not! and I’ll answer the second one hopefully tomorrow with some actual stuff to say about it.

also if you’re curious about my initial thoughts I answered an ask about how my pcs are coping with estival here :)

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very behind on estival but I have no plans for tomorrow and if someone tries to spring plans on me I’ll eat them. so I should have plenty of free time to lay in bed and catch up on finding hell and such.

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whateverrrrrr

adding “silver stars” from water for elephants to my SeaHeart playlist but shaking my head the whole time so everyone knows I disagree with circuses as a concept

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adding “silver stars” from water for elephants to my SeaHeart playlist but shaking my head the whole time so everyone knows I disagree with circuses as a concept

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silly Dexter moodboard assembled from various memes and tweets from his tag

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Some tags I got today on one of my posts about Mr Wines. I went 🤨and felt the need to comment. To be clear I'm not putting the commenters on blast but just have some thoughts about a broader societal issue.

The following statement may not be precisely what the commenters meant to imply, but it is a summary in my words of my takeaway from these types of posts: "Being a monster lover is soooooo weird isn't it soooooo weird to like a character that isn't human🤪op is insane for making this post"

Look at me. It's okay to like a character. It's okay to like a villain. It's okay to like a nonhuman character. I'm completely comfortable in my interests and I hesitate to use the terms "weird" and "normal" because of how subjective they are and how often an idea of "normal" reinforces narrow and harmful societal standards but... I've never felt "weird" or like I was out of my mind for liking monsters. I'm just sitting here playing with my toys. I'm proud of what I create and enjoy everything with sincerity.

I want to share that I'm involved in professional horror and romance spaces... and if you tell someone you like monsters, everyone will be like "hell yeah." It's nowhere near the most unusual thing. Sure, creative spaces don't reflect mainstream views but what a beautiful world we get a glimpse into where someone's fictional interests aren't a big deal and shouldn't be!

Don't reinforce rigid cultural standards for "normal" sexual interests even in jest (the original post wasn't sexual but the point is implicit). Kill the part of you that cringes. Do not diminish yourself and your interests because hiding behind a joke is easier than being "real." Embrace what you love and don't worry about anyone else's opinions or expectations. Feel something genuine. Be free. I free you. If you like monsters then hell yeah, me too, go have fun.

And also... jokes about forced institutionalization are never going to be funny. Not in 2014 tumblr jargon and not now. It's a serious medical and societal issue with deep roots in intersectional oppression, not something to joke about especially for something as simple and harmless as a post about enjoying a character. Like historically people have been (and sometimes still are) institutionalized for "weird" and "abnormal" and "deviant sexual" behaviors such as being gay or trans or disabled or being a woman who doesn't smile. Replace "isn't it weird to like monsters" with "isn't it weird to like the same sex" and think about how this language has been used in our society and you've landed exactly on my point.

"But R it's not that serious, you're making a mountain out of a silly ironic comment about a video game character" we should all be taking everything seriously! Censorship is bad right now and jokes are a slippery slope. Look at what they just did with banning "adult content" because of payment processors bowing to pressure from conservatives. I could not sell any monster enjoying content on some sites under their new rules and I've also heard of people having things as "normal" as vanilla YA queer books be censored. Anything that doesn't fit a narrow worldview straight out of the 1950s isn't "normal." It can and will get worse. The furries and monster lovers and kinksters are the canaries in the fricking coal mine.

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you know a joke that never EVER gets old is when a character says smth like “I will NOT go to [place] and that is FINAL” and then it cuts to them in that place I eat that shit up every single time

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FTM PASSING ADVICE

- start wearing typically masculine clothing, like suits with wide shoulders

- people will tell you to not wear pinstripes because it'll make your chest and curves more obvious but think of it as a disguise to throw off their scent, like a zebra. it's urban camouflage

- start callin other men "boss" as a sign of respect

- always make sure to stay safe, keep a switchblade on you or a handgun or something

- consider your diet, work some carbs and fat in there for when T starts workin it's magic. im talkin pasta, pizza, lasagna

- tuck your hair up into a fedora if ya can't cut it

- remember to voice train, if you layer on an accent maybe it'll be less obvious, like a Brooklyn one if you're not already from there

- start snappin your rhythmically and intimidatingly when you find the poor bastard that owes the big man up top that several hundred grand who hasn't paid his dues yet. that'll show em who's the dominant man in the situation

- put a playlist of noir jazz music together and have it playing on your phone in your pocket so it follows you at all times, this is crucial to exuding masculine energy

- don't bind for more than 6-7 hours straight

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I like the card of him hanging out at parties debating the pc while everyone else dances, that could be fun

I need. to make a new drawing of august/the jovial contrarian this month. I've improved so much since last drew him

...open to suggestions/prompts...

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Wanted to play around with more saturated shading/highlight colours... not sure of my conclusion but it was fun

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🙏🕳️

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also. calling someone a crayon eater is not the epic own you think it is.

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the war of 68' stuff frustrates me immensely because I'm like "but why did you do any of that?! that was entierly purposefulness and people got hurt for no reason and I think attacking hell is completely stupid and a daft idea to begin with" but then I realize that's probably the point