#THAT'S why they're disturbed.
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"On May 14, 2022, Payton Gendron, an 18-year-old white man, traveled 200 miles to a supermarket in a black neighborhood, where he shot and killed ten people, yelling racial slurs the whole time.
Gendron was a lone wolf killer. He had no formal ties to any organization. Nor did he know his victims. All he had were his illusions, including the illusion of race. Many of his illusions came from abstract concepts he learned online, which Gendron later admitted.
Other lone wolf killers have also spent an inordinate amount of time online. They gain insight into the world not by learning about life and people first-hand, but through an online study of images and symbols—through language. In the U.S., over half of the deadliest mass shootings in the last 100 years have occurred since 2014, when social media took off.
Gendron sprinkled his pre-murder manifesto with abstract words such as “fascism,” “capitalism,” “nihilism,” “hedonism,” and “individualism,” in an effort to explain his thinking. As a teenager, he said he was committed to “communism,” then to “authoritarianism,” and later to “populism.” Connor Sturgeon, another lone wolf killer (and knowledge worker) who shot and killed five people in 2023, filled his manifesto with vague and ill-defined words from popular psychology, including “self-esteem,” “negative self-image,” and “self-improvement.”
All these words can exist without being connected to anything that does exist. They have no well-defined cognitive content. They lend themselves to illusion because a person can project his or her own desires, hate, and fears onto them. They can mean whatever the person says they mean.
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Urooj Rahman was a radicalized knowledge worker in her thirties. She threw a flaming gasoline-filled beer bottle into a New York City police car during the 2020 George Floyd riots. Tending toward the anarchic despite being a lawyer, she shouted, “I hope they burn everything down. Need to burn all police stations down and probably the courts too.”
Rahman spent much of her life amid abstract concepts. She spoke “the language of abolitionist Twitter,” one writer observed. She was “steeped in the language of social justice and racial politics.” Ill-defined terms such as “race,” “gender,” “LGBTQI,” and “environmentalism” seem to have shaped her crude perception of reality. Life for her became a theater in which her own little plot, built upon abstract words, was always being played.
The old American students who celebrated the purposeful killing of innocent Israeli civilians revealed a similar obsession with abstract words, constantly referring to phrases such as “colonialism,” “apartheid,” “humanitarian,” and “identity.” The words reflect the same creepy simplicity of mind that chills the blood."
The reason the establishment is so terrified of Aaron Bushnell's protest, is because they understand a point many of you seem to have missed
Aaron wasn't sending a message to the government (we know they don't care)
No, I think Aaron's message was meant for other service people like him. Because if the military refuses to participate in the genocide, it's over
And if you thought YOU were moved by Aaron's actions...
imagine how Aaron's unit is feeling right now
Mutinies have started for less
The exact moment every protest turns into a revolution, is when the army refuses to defend the establishment any longer.
And THAT was the message Aaron was sending out. How many units now are ready to reject orders? How low does their morale have to sink before they say 'enough!' How long until they stop pointing guns at the protestors outside, and run over and join them instead?
This is dangerous territory for a government that is hellbent on ignoring every crisis it creates
#see how ”you pushed me to do this“ ”You made me do this“#Who think#you guys are delusional#death cult behavior#death cult#lazy internet slacktivists#'The Establishment' isn't scared and doesn't care about that#They're just disturbed that delusional idiots like you are lionizing grand displays of self-harm and graphic violence#to feed your own delusions of grandeur#You are NO DIFFERENT from the lone wolf white supremacist mass shooters#who try to gain fame and infamy with public displays of graphic violence#who use grand violent public spectacles to “draw attention to” whatever imaginary online cause you attach yourself to#The young cishet white male white supremacists who drive over to black and latino neighborhoods to shoot colored people#In an effort to make “The Woke GovermentThe Establishment will see my violent display and finally realize that THEY are responsible--they FO#“They'll think 'oh no i must have crossed the line by MAKING a regular well-adjusted feel DRIVEN to such extremes--”#NO THEY DON'T#you're just sick in the head#you're a death cult who glorify public displays of mass violence#THAT'S why they're disturbed.#You're not shaking up the status quo#you're just airing your violent delusions out for all to see#You wanna help gaza?#Fucking GO THERE!!#Fucking GO THERE and pass out food and medical aid if it means that much to you#grand symbolic displays do fuck all#A guy burning himself on a sidewalk doesn't feed starving civilians who had their aid stolen by Hamas operatives#it just feeds your little romantic fantasy of being a scrappy rebel against a big org in an action movie
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I can't rewrite this season but if it was up to me, I'd still have the Umbrellas sacrificing themselves to save the timeline and at the end we see the Umbrellas still alive, but they're all living different lives and perhaps with varied ages to show that its not their existence that caused the timeline to get fucked up, but the marigold that started everything.
The Umbrellas were always meant to exist and live, but it was the marigold that caused the timeline getting muddled and disrupted their existence. Without it, the Umbrellas (and every other kids that were created by the marigold) were able to be born and live their lifes normally like they were always meant to.
Would it still have a lot of plotholes? Yes. Would it make sense? Perhaps not but at least its better than what they implied with the ending which is very upsetting and dangerous the longer you think about it.
#the umbrella academy#it was so weird because they had two scenes with abigail blatantly stating how it was her creating marigold that started all this problem#so why did the show say#with no argument#that it was the umbrellas fault???#it made no sense. what is it about them specifically that keeps causing things to be fucked up#they're dysfunctional? okay yeah so would anyone if they're raised by reginald hargreeves#that would imply its reginald thats the source of the problem#their powers? still not right cuz the marigold was the thing that gave them the powers#so it should be the marigold#logic aside its also just such a horribly toxic message#the more I think about it the more genuinely disturbed I am about it
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#idk why he's transparent#it saved like that and. you know what? it's very blade.#let him be transparent if he wants#i imagine oli strolling in the market#or digging around the old church basement#and finding some disturbing relics . or things meant for children that were clearly not designed with children in mind#and oli (used to the freaky church imagery) will get that thoughtful urge to gift it to blade#because he just knows blade will enjoy this. and it's worth it to see him smile#especially if the object were to otherwise rot in storage forgotten!!!#so oli will hand over the goods. not thinking they're particularly peculiar. just thinking that they're blade-flavoured#and eiden is the only civilian around to see the mildly disturbing potential of the Goods#that's ok. blade finds them cute.#as long as he doesn't line them up around his bedframe like a grand council overseeing his activities#eiden will be generally mentally undisturbed#sleepless fun fair#nu carnival blade#nu carnival olivine#nu carnival eiden
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#arboliva#they're eepin. don't disturb them. they're so tiiiired so they're eepin… that's why their eyes are closed‚ i think…#i'm just makin' shit up. check out this irrelevant pokémon#NOT IRRELEVANT someone out there loves it i'm just. mean#honestly a LOT of folks out there probably love this thing. it's a NICE DESIGN and it's an EARLY ROUTE POKÉMON it's gotta be loved#i mean. hell. folks liked enamorus. which. i didn't think that was possible
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when i first started getting into queer fiction, the most common complaint i saw was that most queer media were heavily sexualized, fetishized or straight up romanticizing abuse and SA.
and now that we have more healthy relationships in queer media, people suddenly want the sexualized and toxic mess. sigh.
#abuse mention tw#tw sa mention#this isn't to say that i dont like toxic ships#i'm fine with them as long as they're not romanticized#i just don't get the sudden hate on healthy relationships#acting like queer people should never be in a nice healthy relationship is disturbing to say the least#“ew queer media is so SANITIZED nowadays” and?? why is that a problem?#fandom rant#rant
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Hiii, I came to check on you today, how have you been? Have you eaten well? I would like to know how you are. ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
Hi!! Omg thank you, that's sweet and kind of you /gen, Im doing okay today (i just woke up, it's 3 pm jajsjs) i been playing the sims 4 all day yesterday just building the pd1 house xD and doing other stuff :/
I haven't eaten that well tbh, i been eating lots of recipes with potatos and ordering stuff with potatos because my mom doesn't have any good money so we've been struggling a bit with money and stuff for a long time so im used to it i guess jskdk and potatos are all that we had at home.
I have been okay but at the same time very bad because I don't know if i wanna come back here, some of y'all postal art is very triggering for me and im a little disgusted at times, i just wish i could have a little bit more fun you know? Not feel intimidated. I think that or I'll either leave and just post occasionally or just keep posting and blacklist the postal tag :/
(i like this type of asks a lot btw thanks, makes me feel good and happy)
Here's a doodle that one of my friends requested xD it's postal dude 3 eating a massive burger...tf
#diary post#i see why people leave the postal fandom. y'all so edgy and ableist and stupid that makes me sick.#and i hate the “well. haven't you play the game??” i did bitch. wtf do you mean by that#silent hill and mouthwashing are games with disturbing stories as well but they're not around their fandom doing this bullshit#have some fun!! geez!! y'all taking it way too seriously in the wrong way.#i am sentive and i have my boundaries but i can't have a safe space here so that fucking sucks :)#I can't even have a space for myself in the pd12 side since all of you don't even make something that isn't a joke like--#“haha this ship is so stupid so cringe hhaha lol” so why are you drawing it...? idk i hate this#have some passion for once goddamn it.#cringe culture is dead anyways#i just can't understand how a game franchise like postal have this fandom bruh xd anyways... WHERE'S MY YAOI???
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#lol i love seeing just straight up bullying on tiktok(/s)#someone(im guessing) went into a discord server for proshipping#and then posted their face reveals on tiktok!?!??!?!#basically saying: look how ugly and weird they look#like what the fuck#just bcs you dont agree with someones opinion ON SHIPPING#doesnt mean you should blast them on socmed?#they posted those pics in a trusted space :(#why are people so cruel and vindictive nowadays#people who make it their whole personalities to shit on pros OR antis are so embarrassing#just keep to yourself and keep your personal moral highground you know?#like they go low we go higher etc#cause on tiktok people will post very bait proshipper tiktoks#to the point where i honestly think they're 100% antis who just wanna sow discourse and disgust#like when i see those people im like just ignore them???#just dont engage man. you end up encouraging people to do worse and worse just to cause drama#but yeah antis in return will make all their posts 'correcting' these obv bait posts#like both of you get a life and just do things that make you happy. not things that obv upset you#idk it kinda sickens me how much time people devote to activities that clearly doesn't make them happy#even if youre pleased about dunking on people you morally disagree w +#wouldnt you feel happier engaging with content that yknow. fills you with genuine enjoyment?#not enjoyment fueled by disgust or morally superiority#idk some people feel like children so i shouldnt care too deeply. but the amnt of toxic behavior is so disturbing to me#the posting of faces got on my nerves badly. no matter if you disagree with someone#you shouldnt just straight up expose their face on your big acct BECAUSE OF DIFFERENCES IN SHIPPING OPINION#and the fact that the point is to imply they're all ugly. so fucking childish and disgusting#i reported but idk if that'd do anything. i wish i could have an honest dialog w people like that tbh#catie.rambling.txt
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#the phrasing of he's not a monster is making me insane right now#he's not a monster he only cut once#he's not a monster he didn't brutally dismember her#(we did that though)#(we're monsters)#also lemon's reaction to tangerine telling him about the arm thing. they're both still disturbed by it#and tangerine takes this guilt and turns it into 'well we succeeded. we're professionals. we can't fuck up again. but we're professionals'#its an interesting coping mechanism#and it also kind of explains why he's so fragile. and why his understanding of himself as a pro is so important to him#while its such a precarious identity for him#tangerine and lemon#bullet train#tangerine#lemon#meta#maybe
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Why are radfems like 10x more misogynistic and lesbophobic than the so called "TRAs" that they're up against
#bear noises#the other day i was going through a disturbing radtwit rabbithole#and jesus christ most of the women there were deranged#like VERY deranged#i saw someone say that straight and bi women should die just because they're attracted to men and im just like ☠️#what ever happened to supporting other women#and also there were an influx of gold star lesbians#why do you care if lesbians used to id as bi or straight in the past??#what are you?? the lesbian power rangers ☠️☠️#anyways#radfems fucking suck
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Ok but like am I the only one who actually finds the idea of getting drunk terrifying??? Like I ain't ever gonna do that if I can help it, really. Like, just, I, I dunno that just sounds so so so scary why would anyone ever do that. And the not remembering what you say sometimes thing?????????? Oh my god no no no that's not good not good at all
#rambles#listen I don't even like wearing ear plugs because the idea of not being able to hear things is deeply disturbing to me so#maybe I'm just not good at these things in general#funny#alcohol#I guess??#how do I tag this???????#just#just ignore me#idk I saw a video about middle schoolers being excited to get drunk when they're older and I'm like#why would you want that#that's horrifying#saying things you don't mean but still having to be held responsible for them
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#Fifteen episode 2. Mmmmmmhhhhhh#The animation quality DOES get worse. This episode shows it lol#So many static frames stretching for so long... I feel so sorry for the animators.#I still stand by the fact that if studios can't provide enough budget or time to their animators seasons simply shouldn't be released.#But after all who am I to talk...#The scene of Dazai shooting at the soldier makes my blood freeze. Rimbaud throwing books in the fire is equally upsetting#Like I /know/ it's an anime about literature with constant metafiction references–#and that this too has a symbolic meaning and is *supposed* to be upsetting but that said.#Seeing whole books being thrown in the fire is such a disturbing sight that calls for such a visceral response in me 😭😭😭#The amv opening is nice! Makes me even more bitter about season 5 one lmao. Of the kind#“not only we had to get a amv opening (((while we deserved a wholly ss/kk focused opening)))‚ we even got a bad amv ending at that”#Mmmmhhhh I hateeeeeee how they handled the Sheep 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Seriously this is just another bug instance of#“me and the author have WHOLLY different views of what human nature is like”#I just... Don't think... Children joining together in an hostile environment would act like that. I'm so much more of a t/pn kind of guy.#Children who come together to survive would protect each other and especially would trust each other. Why is there such a big lack of trust#Why doesn't Shirase trust Chuuya? Why doesn't Chuuya trust Shirase (with handling more information)? It's just dumb#It's dumb. It sounds stupid from the very plot aspect that Chuuya would act so shady and suspicious with the Sheep instead of being open–#about what his course of action is. It's like he was trying to have them turn on him. It's stupid of Shirase to mistrust Chuuya–#when in eight years he never gave them any reason to doubt of him.#And I know right as I'm writing this that someone is going to read it and think “you're completely missing on the unbalance of power that–#creates these dynamics of lack of trust” but the thing is exactly that I don't see why that unbalance of power would ever come to be!#They're all just kids. They're aware of that. If Chuuya never had malicious intentions towards Shirase‚ I don't see why he would ever fear–#his betrayal. Likewise‚ I don't see why Shirase and the other Sheep members would ever be so manipulative and disrespectful towards–#Chuuya if he's been nothing but kind to them (and we have no reason to think otherwise)?#It all comes down to: I think people are inherently good and willing to help each other. The author thinks not lmao. It is what it is#But I wish you could see t/pn. Where kids are constantly trying to outwit each other in order to OUT-SACRIFICE THEMSELVES for the others lo#I love t/pn it's my life... I miss it#random rambles#And if anyone would like to argue that Dazai specifically set them off to betray each other... Yes I DO understand that's what the story–#is suggesting. I just don't think Dazai - for how good. and infallible he is - is enough to scrape long-term relationships of trust.
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tummy ache soldier
#aristotle.txt#why is this occuring i eat the same three meals everyday and they're extremely well balanced what goes on . what disturbed the peace .
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Sick threads where’d you get ‘em (Patreon)
#Doodles#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#RespectAWoman#Mousey#Don't ask where Mousey got 'em the answer is probably sad :')#Cured AU ladies coming across a busted Vyer estate and Mousey is Max's size??? Or well - baggy-long but they're both slight haha#Always living in my own little timeline of everything going fine and no one being hurt or taken over hahaha ;;#But then how did Mousey get her scars....#The timeline matters not it's all about making sure they have the same outfit lol#And I mean - there Has been an instance now where ''they'' have met! Which is very fun :D I love a good crossover ♪#Though Max was ZEX at the time and thus in his uniform and also mostly dead but pfsh details#They Could contemporize is what I'm saying lol - I wonder where in time she was pulled from... Love that lad#Anyway lol ♪#Helix! The Helix lads!! BeFore everything else! Wow what a coincidence to meet you out here hahaha#Though this outfit for Max feels more like house clothes? Like his t-shirts and sweatpants surely he has some Going Out clothes#Fancy lad ♥#I always wonder about Max's ability to make friends ♪ He seems sociable and fairly outgoing but also a shut-in once he's home??#Maybe we just never see his outings - where even is he if Dex isn't glued to his hip lol#Independence testing went out to the library or something haha#Makes him do text check-ins with pictures every half an hour to make sure he's not dead lol that's definitely why haha#Also managed to sneak in a 1/13 reference hehehe - and Mousey's scar's and Max's hair part are mirrored on purpose!#Do phones still do that? Well Helix is set in like 2008/9 anyway it's fine#Would definitely have smartphones then lol - Max probably would have the newest sparkliest toys to choose from#Especially if they kept him on his leash - it's a safety precaution you see very necessary#Texts Dex in the middle of the night instead of going to his room to wake him up and Dex puts him on Do Not Disturb#Sets it back every morning in case he Actually needs something but then oh no the one morning he forgets....#Tragedy tragedy
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Okay so like. In general I think it's good to have multiple interpretations of how a certain plot point went if it's not explicit-- As I think that fandom hive mind is bad and can get really boring. However, I think that in general there's a difference between "multiple interesting implications of a specific ending" and "failure to read between the lines" (though this is generally pretty subjective considering stories in general all have to do with personal perception). On the second note this isn't necessarily about interpreting a story 'wrong' this is more about failure to grasp an author's intention about a scene just because it's not spoon-fed. I'm talking in circles and being overly neutral here but generally speaking, for the sake of argument, I like to treat fiction as having two parts to it that I separate (similar to how I separate what is my favorite thing from what I think is the best): How I perceive what the "real" story is/what is actually occurring entirely based on canon events and deducted subtext (I think a lot of samgirl Tumblr does this in the supernatural fandom, as an example), vs personal expansions/wider guesses based on what I think SHOULD be happening-- which might just get a bit more prevalent in my mind if I just. Think an author is making a really stupid writing decision (I do this constantly when talking about shows like disventure camp) This post is more about open discussion and I don't want to make it seem like I'm judging people
#I can actually come up with two examples of what I view as 'failure to read between the lines' both of which will make people mad.#the first one is the reason why I made this post and it has to do with seeing someone interpret Anya and Jimmy in mouthwashing#less as a situation of Jimmy sexually assaulting Anya and more that they had sex once and heavily regretting it#And. On one hand. I respect having an alternative take on non plainly stated canon events. However#I think it downplays the horror of what was going on and it makes Jimmy's actions make a lot less sense#And it also seems like it directly contradicts canon based on what Anya actually said to Curly and how she has been talking about it#ngl the more I think about it the less I like it. It feels more like headcanon than personal interpretation. which is fine but also.#that is not what happened ahahahah#The other example I know of this is Rody and Victor in dead plate since a lot of people interpret Victor's feelings for Rody as romantic#and I'm not sure if people generally think that Rody reciprocated.#I *really like them as a pairing* and I think it'd be wildly interesting if Rody reciprocated#bonus points if it awakened some underlying disturbing urges in him as well#But the thing is. The writer dev has also made it clear that she didn't actually write Victor's obsession as romantic#'they're queer but this isn't a queer romance' is the most important quote. Victor had more of an artistic fascination with Rody#Which admittedly I don't totally get. But I do acknowledge that whatever feelings Victor had for Rody#they were one sided.#I do however love exploring theoretical dynamics of what if it wasn't but alllllllsooooooo...#It does bother me that people genuinely accuse the writer of queerbaiting#Just because of what *Actually happens in the game*#punk speaks
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today i'm going home so i can get my flu shot and vote with my family... hopefully both go well
#melonposting#the last time i went home was for my covid booster and to spend rosh hashanah with my family#...neither really went well honestly haha#i won't go into detail on the family stuff#but i half-fainted half-dissociated after getting the covid booster#i had gone to the cvs with my dad and i was already feeling bad cuz of the family stuff#and then we got there and i got the shot. eeeugh terrible#i sat down in one of the chairs nearby to rest a moment#like i am after any vaccination i was nonverbal and mentally disturbed#my dad tried to give me water but i didn't move to take it#after a bit he said we should head home sooner rather than later so i could rest#then i suddenly got up and walked in a random direction without him for some reason#i bumped into a shelf and fell over#weirdly i had no emotional reaction to it at the time#i just felt pain in my face where i hit the shelf and could hear voices asking if i was okay#then i got up and my dad took my hand and led me out of the cvs#he asked me why i'd gone off by myself. of course i wasn't in a position to answer verbally anyway but i genuinely didn't know#my memory of the event was fuzzy immediately after it happened...#so we went home and i went upstairs to my parents' room so i could have time alone to rest#needless to say i cried :') i was uncomfortable and in pain and confused and distressed#i recovered over the next few days at home for rosh hashanah but i felt weird the entire time#physically... feeling feverish and woozy...#and also mentally... staying cooped up on the couch in the living room for hours#playing with blocks... in a strange childish and detached sort of mood...#like i was a terminally ill child in a hospital bed#it was very strange#i'd been well aware at that point that i react badly to covid boosters but this whole experience was just bizarre#i'm able to cope with flu shots better. they're still disturbing but my physical/mental reaction is less severe
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Sigh I need to rant about certain people and how there is a background noise of discomfort with every interaction after particular incidents that made me go "bitch you live like this???" but all my typical vent spaces are ones where they might see it and the only ones that they wouldn't see it in are like discord channels that are not for this topic of vent or friends who would be uncomfortable with the topic etc like,,, what do I even do? Stew in it?
#catch me very carefully not saying any details about them or the incidents because i dont want them to knowww#i suddenly understand so much better why my dad stays friends with people who are racist/islamophobic to his face#like yeah theyre fun to talk to and they enjoy the same silly shows as me#qnd when were not talking about The Things its easy to forget about The Incidents#but every conversation feels like im hiding part of myself. it feels like if i stop hiding I'll be crucified#theyre fucking scary bro wtf. i didnt know people like that were real that was always abstract fandom drama stuff#and its not THAT scary but also im terrified after only brief glimpses it could be so much worse but if we dont talk about it I'll never#need to know#im like. king of letting go of the incident anf never talking about it but endlessly rotating it and stewing in it and holding a grudge#ummm. ya. fun times 👍#shout out to my brother for letting me talk about it though they're cool as fuck for that#i need more non-white friends who arent online#or at least arent online in the same circles as these people#tbf i need more non-white friends full stop 😭#i need more friends who are freaks also#if i dont go 'theres something wrong with you' at least once a week then theres something wrong#wait that sounds funny lmao#but yeah i need people who are weird and gross and disturbing. not people who are normal with rancid vibes#uhh whatever. I'll get over it <- lying#vent post#if you're wondering if this post is about you it's probably not. probably#sobbing i hate vagueposting it's so mean but what else do i do here#gotta start making people fill out a questionnaire before i allow them so deep into my life istg
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