#Suicide cw

[swan2swan]

Is this a good time to remember that the thirty pieces of silver were used by the people who paid them in the first place to buy a field to bury their client after he hanged himself?

The fact that the McDonalds employee responsible for Luigi Mangione's arrest isn't even going to get 60k because the feds are keeping her trapped in committee is so fucking... It's just fucking nasty.

Pigs really just love to weaponize the working class against itself and then do a little jig as they pull the rug out from under people.

60k is real "change my life forever" money, and I get why someone would be tempted by it, but when the copycats start and more people die, remember this:

You don't actually get that money.

It's a scam from the pigs to get you to turn on your fellows-in-arms.

[rabbitcrimes]

When people are like Wei Wuxian was NOT suicidal it’s like. Ok sure. He just believed that his debt to the Jiangs should be paid with everything up to and including his life. And also that the moral and obvious thing to do in any situation is to put himself between anyone and harm's way. This is because he thinks he’s unkillable but he makes himself unkillable for the same reason he’ll die for a good enough reason: because it’s a way to have worth!

And then famously once everything goes to shit he does beg Lan Wangji to let him die as part of the moment where he is either destroyed by his own evil magic or lets his own evil magic tear him apart, a distinction I don't personally think matters very much at that point. Less explicitly textually, his mentally ill ass behavior after he gives up his core says to me that he wishes that he'd died honorably for Jiang Cheng when he had the chance and doesn't know what to do with himself since he hasn't.

Again I’m aware that he’s operating under a pretty specific set of culturally informed norms as a cultivator and member of a sect but like. TO ME. Everything about how Wei Wuxian conducts himself indicates that he has a box in his mind at all times that says 'in case of emergency break glass' and what’s inside the box is his own death. All the sound of mind actions of a man who has a normal and not suicidal relationship to death.

[meeks-just-wants-to-scroll]

art dump

Last two is a custom design commission for kierandoofy.bsky.social on Bluesky

[annabelle--cane]

iirc the first audio bootleg that went around of andrew barth feldman's performance as evan hansen was from his first or second show, and despite the hype opening nights get they're never anybody's best work and abf was an Actual sixteen-year-old so it wasn't as airtight as some other performances, and in particular I remember getting to "words fail" on the bus to school and thinking he wasn't really giving it enough punch, it didn't even sound like he was particularly crying. and then it got to the next scene, and the line where he actually broke was "I lied, about so many things. not just connor. last summer, I just, I felt so alone..." and I had. like. a quasi-religious experience but for abject despair.

inspired fucking choice to leave some extra emotional escalation for that line. like, of course, that's the secret that always meant more to evan, it was buried so much deeper than any of the connor stuff, it's the original sin from which the entire rest of the plot stems. his whole thing with the murphys was just to offset and distract himself from his real bedrock problems with his mother, the letter confession is the climax of the plot but this confession is the resolution to the conflict set up in the first scene. evan's entire life for the last year has been molded by this untouchable white hot shame about attempting suicide that he resolved to simply never tell his mother about, so of course this is the moment that really breaks him, to him it feels like the dissolution of his entire world. from his point of view he could be just about to finally destroy the last vestiges of anything positive in his life, and stressing that makes it hit so much harder when heidi accepts him with open arms.

and then I had to go to homeroom ap spanish.

[beemovieerotica]

I just saw your post (one of? ) where you discuss your OCD symptoms, and they sounded... Familiar, for lack of a better word. I went into a therapist recently for anxiety and intrusive thoughts, and she wanted to evaluate me for OCD. My dad has diagnosed OCD, and I don't think that my internal experiences match his at all. I really feel like I just have stress-correlated anxiety. Do you mind talking about what your OCD experience is like, for comparison?

oh 100% my ocd ramps up a lot with stress. I have a lot going on but basically ocd can attach itself to anything in your environment and create reasons for why it is an existential threat. anything can be a trigger.

there's also a distinction where people may do none of the habitual compulsions (like physically checking things) and it's all just things revolving in their head - this is a lot of what I have. but yeah here are some more common symptoms / subtypes im familiar with that do get screened for by specialists:

intrusive thoughts like horror movie imagery throughout the day

spiraling what-if catastrophe scenarios that go on for minutes at a time where I just kind of blank out and get wrapped up in an extremely vivid and distressing daydream that feels like it's actually happening. like I will straight up start grieving for someone who is not dead.

superstitions/very specific fear-based beliefs that go beyond what would be typical for the person's religion. centered on blasphemy, moral goodness, purifying one's thoughts, punishing one's self, believing you deserve retribution/death, etc

believing that you're going to hurt/kill yourself and having obsessive suicidal thoughts. suicidal ocd is different from actual suicidality but a lot of providers don't know this or that it needs to be treated differently - it can lead to highly avoidant behavior like not wanting to use kitchen knives or being near ledges out of fear that you will do something.

questioning your memories of the past. being convinced that something horrifying and traumatic happened to you but you just can't remember it, obsessively analyzing memories to try and fill in the gaps. you can develop false memories in this process.

persistent fear of forgetting things, needing to feel like you have to remember everything all the time to avoid catastrophe

re-playing conversations word for word in your head hours or days after something happened over and over assessing everything that happened to try and figure out the precise way in which you fucked up

no amount of re-checking can reliably convince you that you haven't fucked up, or maybe you do get a moment of peace before something else takes its place

also, I heard somewhere that having 1 parent with ocd gives you a 50% chance of developing it...ough.

[reallydumbdannyphantomaus]

im going to [remembers suicide jokes are harmful for me and my mental health] explore my parents very strange machine (designed to view a world unseen)

[t4tails]

sometimes a man hurts every woman in his life because his true soulmate is a man. but thats no excuse. he should still kill himself

[quwyou]

ep. 13

dude really took the time to get a paper to tape on there

bro imagine if he had like loaned out 2 books and the students had to go on knowing that one or two of them in particular got him killed by the principal. that would be fucked up like god

AUGH THE TRAGIC BACKSTORY AHHHH

bro really had the last remnant of his already shattered worldview absolutely fucking disintegrated and the first thing he did was commit suicide bro my god

bro really said "dw its fine im a filthy fucking rich stock broker"

ok younger pricipal asano is actually really cute. maybe even kinda twinky

bro can DUNK

who the fuck loudly says "he should have just stood up for himself" at a kid's funeral like that

god the transition to his evil cold calculating voice goddddddddd

HE LITERALLY MADE A GUY HOMELESS. HIT HIM WITH THE "GAMBLING ADDICTION" BEAM

i forgot that koro sensei's mug shot is him being smug i fucking love that so iconic

HE SAVED HIS GET-OUT-OF-JAIL-FREE ASS PULL FOR HIM. BRO U KNOW U CAN ONLY NARRATIVELY DO LIKE 2 MORE OF THOSE. THAT WAS SO NICE OMG

AWW PAST ASANO BEING SO NICE

bro really just is like "im already over u hitting me but im still gonna try to use this to sue u maybe lol"

bro really like "yeah i know this is ridiculous but yall protagonists. youll be fine stop complaining"

NO STATE SECRETS IN THE PLAY

aww ritsu can participate as the narrator thats so cute actually

FUCKING DIVORCE LAWYERS OMG

damn they really committed to their roles holy fuck

fuckitwhynotASSASSINATIN CLASSROOM LIVEBLOG GO!!!!

everyone please skip this if u havent seen bc there spoilers!!!!!!!! its a good show fuck you go watch it!!!!!!!!

ep. 0 but ive seen it before so i spoil some later (like final episode later) stuff right off the bat

godd it been like a year since ive last seen this but i used to rewatch it every few months lol. started thinking about how the fact that koro-sensei has a beam attack feels like an ass pull bc it is but its still well-written despite that (similar to other thing his tentacles can do, he's had no reason to use it before, established reason for hiding abilities) and now i just wanna re-watch the show again bc its been too long tbh

[agendercryptidlev]

We need to talk more about the transmasculine suicide rate.

There's a common saying that every transgender suicide is a murder, because it is the lack of acceptance in society that leads transgender individuals to commit suicide at such a high rate, this is true of trans men who have the highest suicide rate across all gender identities:

[image ID: a stylized graph depicting the percentages of considering & attempted suicide for different gender experiences.

Cisgender boy/man: 28% considered suicide, 8% attempted suicide

Cisgender girl/woman: 37% considered suicide, 10% attempted suicide

Transgender boy/man: 59% considered suicide, 22% attempted suicide

Transgender girl/woman: 48% considered suicide, 12% attempted suicide

Nonbinary/genderqueer: 53% considered suicide, 19% attempted suicide

Questioning: 48% considered suicide, 14% attempted suicide

end ID] ID by @tstomboy

Trans men are not receiving the support they need, and many of them are not surviving because of this. We need to make sure that mental health support and suicide for transgender individuals is as inclusive as possible for these transgender men who are at the highest risk.

We need to ensure trans men feel safe and welcome within the queer community as isolation is one of the more exacerbating factors on one's mental health. We need to make sure resources for victims of sexual violence are inclusive of transmasculine individuals, who face the highest rate of sexual abuse and yet often have to recloset themselves to find support. We have to love trans men because society shows them nothing but hate.

Check in with the trans men in your community, you may just save a life.

[toolusingmammalgirl]

Encountered today: a math professor wearing a shirt his grad students made for him, depicting him as a Moomin saying “I will literally kill myself if I don’t mention the orthogonal group”

[chongoblog]

[incognitopolls]

Content warning for brief discussion of suicide.

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[phoenix-art-official]

hes like jesus to me

[notedchampagne]

perhaps hect would have been more proactive

[incendavery]

disclaimer: i have not harmed myself in any way, and i dont plan to.

these comics are a safe place for me to explore and externalize the intense feelings ive been dealing with. i am also taking practical steps, such as talking to my therapist and getting my medications adjusted.

if you are having urges to harm yourself or take your own life, please reach out to someone you trust to seek help.

[rad-roche]

LONG TIME COMING - Part I

Killing Eddie Winter has to be justice. If it isn't, it's something else entirely.