#Spock feels like crying and throwing up

[ccxssi]

Jim fucking sucks at driving

[why-lamp]

quick book update #2

spock is really starting to feel the effects of pon farr

but guess who's also feeling it

i'm finally getting around to reading Killing Time by Della Van Hise.

you know, the Star Trek book that was so gay that it was recalled and reprinted with over 50 changes.

I got my hands on a first edition copy from Thriftbooks and decided to use a sticky tab every time something "spirk" happened

I'm only halfway through.

[horuslupercal]

got asked on the Guilliman post so

How Primarchs Cry (To Me)

Lion: represses and represses and represses and then hides away in a closet squished into the corner like a cat on its deathbed but otherwise cries pretty normally. do not point it out to him. gets defensive if you point it out

Fulgrim: gets headaches from crying so hard. keeps a handkerchief nearby because his face gets all gross. at some point in every hardcore crying session he verbally says, "enough." because it annoys him

Perturabo: trying everything in his power to give off the vibe that he never cries. takes every breath very carefully to make sure it's silent, confidently strides off away from this shit (hides away), etc

Khan: is fine, is fine, is fine, and then he's laying in bed and suddenly has to bolt upright to cry into his hands because holy shit that's sure a wave of emotion. it's okay, it'll pass, but hooooly shit at this exact moment it hurts. doesn't want to be seen but it's not the worst thing in the world if he is

Russ: crawls under Freki and Geri like when they were pups and cries for a good while. at some point he rolls over and runs his hand over his face and then grabs one of his brothers around the neck for a wrestle session and he's either fine or he's fine enough to keep on keeping on

Dorn: goes to a private room, does the "I am in control of my emotions" like Spock in that one TOS episode, and then spins around and puts his fist through the wall. opens the door with a hole in the wall and his hair no longer perfectly coiffed and his face blotchy and red and tells you he wasn't crying

Konrad: either silently weeping or wailing like a banshee. never in between. he doesn't choose which.

Sanguinius: the only primarch who can pretty cry but only up to a certain level. at some point he starts screaming and wailing like a fox caught in a bear trap and doubling over in pain and his hair gets all stuck to his face

Ferrus: throws tantrums. doesn't collapse to the floor like a toddler but does start breaking things. makes fun of the reason for his upset -- the mid-funeral roast session in some au where Fulgrim dies pre-heresy would get him cancelled on twitter because it's the only way he can deal with something that shattering. I'm pretty sure I got that headcanon from @luwupercal actually

Angron: cries for all sorts of reasons. sometimes the nails make him cry, not because they hurt or because he hates them but just because they're directly fucking with his brain chemistry. that's the kind of passive cry where he's crying but it's not an event, it's just his tear ducts doing their thing. used to seek out comfort from his siblings in the pit when he was crying from emotion, now he flips tables and screams

Guilliman: an asthmatic pug caught in a plastic ring. gasping for air, sounds like he's being strangled, the works. sounds like he's dying

Mortarion: also sounds asthmatic, on account of the asthma. his tear ducts don't work right so he doesn't really "cry" so much as hyperventilate and occasionally dry heave

Magnus: the crying is what it is, the psychic crying is the real event. his aura gets real sticky and slow and sad, like syrup, and has a tendency to kind of. contaminate other people with his grief unless he specifically stops it from doing that. I feel like he cries when he's mad, too

Horus: sits down and covers his mouth with his hand and puts his elbow on his knee and cries like that. for some reason I feel like it's especially weird for the luna wolves to see him cry -- it's always weird to see your parent cry, but it's extra weird for them and I'm not sure why. horus sitting on a couch crying with his head in his hands and two luna wolves sending panicked looks at each other 👍

Lorgar: compresses/hugs himself so hard he can't breathe, digs his nails into his skin, etc. we saw in the first heretic that he makes himself physically uncomfortable about grief and that's really stuck with me tbh. doesn't really.... know how to cry without also being in physical pain about it

Vulkan: bows his head and weeps, standing right where he is. weirdly bad at being okay with his own grief specifically -- he'll comfort a brother without issue, but his own makes him feel on edge and sedentary and he needs to move and do something and not stand here being sad, he needs to take action, he can't let it be sticky and slow

Corvus: repression king. he can't cry right now he's too BUSY. fuck this shit. and then there's a trigger and he shatters like a popsicle bridge with too much weight on it. the year of isolation before his departure definitely involved a blanket burrito

Alpharius Omegon: how do they need to cry for this scenario?

[fxoye2]

how do you think Jim and Spock comfort each other when they have bad away missions or nightmares or something?

OH BOY, how much time do you have? Because I could (and WILL) ramble about this for HOURS. Let me just stretch my hands here, shake off the existential dread for a second (haha), and GET INTO IT. Buckle up.

So, let’s start with the obvious: Kirk and Spock are two emotionally constipated, galaxy-saving, disaster men who (underneath all their badassery) just want to be LOVED and UNDERSTOOD. Jim is all bravado and charm on the surface, but like… the dude has so much emotional baggage, he could be the human embodiment of a black hole. Spock, meanwhile, is Vulcan, but not fully, and he’s spent his entire life grappling with the clash of human emotion vs Vulcan logic. Basically, these two NEED each other to survive bad missions, nightmares, and… well, life in general.

Picture this: after a particularly hellish away mission, maybe one where things got way too close for comfort (because what is Starfleet without a good brush with death every week?), they’ll stumble back into their quarters, all disheveled, bloodied, and too damn tired to pretend that everything’s fine. Maybe Kirk tries to crack a joke—his usual defense mechanism—but Spock, having none of it, just looks at him with those intense Vulcan eyes and silently slips into the room, waiting for Jim to follow.

Now, I like to imagine Jim is the kind of guy who’ll throw himself on the bed and, in a rare moment of vulnerability, he’ll just… stare at the ceiling. Probably doesn’t say much. Maybe something understated like, “We almost didn’t make it.” Spock, being Spock, doesn’t offer meaningless words like “We’ll always survive” because he knows that sometimes, the odds aren’t in their favor. Instead, he’s all about grounding actions. He sits by Jim’s side, their hands might touch accidentally (or so Jim thinks), and that’s when Spock starts to… feel.

ENTER: The Vulcan Mind Meld! This is where it gets INTENSE, my friend. Spock’s ability to share his thoughts and emotions with Kirk through a mind meld is EVERYTHING. He might initiate a very gentle one, barely touching Kirk’s mind, just to offer that silent comfort. Not forceful (because Spock respects boundaries, especially Jim’s), but enough to let Kirk feel his presence, his calm. It’s like saying “I’m here” without words. Mind Melds are their ultimate communication tool. When words fail, Spock can literally show Jim how much he cares by giving him a window into his mind. SO INTENSE.

Nightmares? Oh, NIGHTMARES. Jim has them constantly (thanks, unresolved trauma). Spock’s Vulcan discipline allows him to sense those disturbances even from across the ship, and you can bet he shows up at Kirk’s quarters at the exact right time. Sometimes Kirk tries to play it off, but Spock’s not fooled. He’ll sit next to Jim and just stay there, a solid presence, ready to slip into a Mind Link if needed—a low-level connection that just helps soothe Kirk, easing him back into sleep. Or sometimes Spock will just watch over him until morning (let me CRY real quick), offering the silent assurance that Jim isn’t alone.

But—and this is my favorite headcanon—sometimes Spock has nightmares. Yes, the stoic Vulcan. Maybe they’re about losing control, letting his human side take over (Pon Farr PTSD, anyone? I mean, seriously, the guy’s been through a LOT). When Spock’s walls start to crack, Kirk is the one who stays. He’s probably not as good with quiet comfort as Spock is, but he’ll throw his arms around Spock, holding him through the storm, whispering dumb things like “It’s okay, Spock. I’m here. Not going anywhere.” And that’s when you realize… Jim Kirk is Spock’s safe space too.

I also like to think they’ve developed a sort of psychic shorthand over time. Like, they don’t even need to fully meld anymore—sometimes all it takes is a hand on Spock’s shoulder, or Kirk’s fingers brushing Spock’s. A brief, fleeting touch that says, “I get it. You don’t have to go through this alone.”

AND THEN, OF COURSE, we have the T’hy’la Bond (insert cosmic sigh). This is their deepest connection—where their souls, emotions, and memories intertwine. If they’ve reached this point (and let’s be honest, THEY HAVE), then there are no more walls between them. If Spock has a nightmare or a bad mission, Kirk doesn’t even need to be in the same room—he’ll feel it, and vice versa. They’re basically like walking, talking lifelines for each other. The ultimate comfort in knowing that someone else truly understands you, down to your bones. That’s the beauty of their bond.

God, I’m tearing up just writing this.

Okay, I should stop before I start wailing about how their souls literally help heal each other. But honestly, that’s what I think: they comfort each other with silent presence, psychic connection, and the knowledge that—no matter how bad things get—there’s always someone who understands and loves them completely. Their bond is UNBREAKABLE, and it’s what keeps them sane through the nightmares, the away missions, and the endless galactic battles. GAHHHHH, I love them SO much.

Are you still with me?! How’s YOUR heart, because mine’s a MESS!

[t0ast-ghost]

S2 Episode 9 (Metamorphosis) Wait wait wait. I'm watching this episode on April 5th, this is so special (I know this won't be posted till days later but holy crap):

- I like hows there's just a mission that somehow requires the captain, first officer, and head medical officer to be on the same shuttle escorting one person

- I will not blame McCoy for anything (sorry. not sorry actually)

- They always take the Galileo

- Oooh pretty lighting

- "I'm not imagining you am I?" "We're real enough." Kirk what kind of fucking answer is that?

- "Food to a starving man. All of you." Saying this after he just shook Spock's hand is crazy…

- They’re conferring

- So the companion wants.. companions?

- SPOCK ITS BEHIND YOU

- The companion snap crackle popped the shuttle and Spock

- “It attacked you?!” Bones is shocked. “I’m not a scientist or a physicist, Mr Spock.” He says this with a smile and it’s such a moment between them

- This episode is like “if you love me let me go” and it’s such a deep love between them and holy shit

- hey siri what’s a “Judas Goat”?

- THEY FUCKING SHOT HIM

- McCoy watching his boyfriends die and begging the companion to stop

- “It isn’t your fault.” “I’m in command, Bones. It makes it my fault.” “How do you fight a thing like that?” “Maybe you’re a soldier so often that you forget you were also trained to be a diplomat.” Bones advice!

- Okay it just violently goes back to Scotty’s log. YESS UHURA AND SULU CONTENT!

- “It’s a big galaxy, Mr. Scott.” “Aye…”

- McCoy’s just standing there looking pretty next to Spock and Kirk in this episode, isn’t he?

- “The idea of male and female are universal constants, Cochrane.” Bull fucking shit, mate

- “You’re not a pet. You’re not a specimen kept in a cage. You’re a lover.” “I’m a whut!?”

“For all these years, I’ve let something as alien as that crawl around inside me, into my mind, my feelings…” So he wasn’t upset when he thought he was being treated as a caged animal/pet by a male or non gendered entity, but as soon as it’s a woman who’s in love with him... (its fair that he’s freaking out but like…what?)

- The boyfriend’s explaining why this guy should continue to date the cloud of sparkles. McCoy and Spock can agree on smt at least

- “No. I- I don’t want to die. I’ve been good at my job. But… I’ve never been in love. Never. What kind of life is that? Not to be loved. Never to have shown love. And he runs away from love.” This is such a heartbreaking and beautiful scene from the Ambassador

- “Companion, do you love the man?” “I do not understand.” “Is he important to you? More important than anything? Is he… as though he were apart of you?” SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP WHAT IS THIS

- “But you can’t really love him. You haven’t the slightest knowledge of love— the total union of two people. You are the companion, he is the man. You are two different things. You can’t join. You can’t love. You may keep him here forever. But you will always be separate. Apart from him.”

- Jim just poured his fucking heart out and we know it was about them I’m dying and crying about this

- “What did you hope to gain by that, Jim?” “Try to convince her of the hopelessness of it. Love sometimes expresses itself in sacrifice. I thought maybe if she loved him… She’d let him go.” Oh my the parallels of it. This is about Spock and McCoy. He wants to be with them, but he knows he can’t let them go and so he sacrifices himself for them. Leave me alone in this hole of misery and self deceit.

- Loneliness, oh god the loneliness. Her eyes show so much in this scene

- I love when bones stands there like a NPC or lego character (oh my god I want a Bones Lego figurine)

- I’m just going to say it. I think this guy is bisexual. And it’s not just because of the colour of the sky.

- “As long as you grow old together.” You know who grows old together…. I’m fucking going I’m going off. Spock, McCoy, and Kirk grow old together (is what I’m getting at)

What.. what happened to me. This episode.. bye…

(Edit: I know canonically they’re not dating but I like to take all the evidence I can to support it. So if some of this stuff is a bit nonsensical… I’m sleep deprived as shit and it’s finals)

Masterpost

Episode written by Gene L. Coon

[boldlyexplorational]

Episode 29 "Kirk's worst day ever" "operation: annihilate!"

Here we go, last episode! Peculiar choice for a finale, maybe COTEOF would have been a better choice, if maybe more depressing. But I guess there was a different concept of season finale back then, episodes needed to be stand alone first and foremost.

As a SNW watcher I was really sad about Sam. Poor guy, I didn't deserve that. It's always so sad when you know how a character is going to end up.

The opening was flawless, with McCoy revealing how Kirk's family is on the infected planet. I also love how it's implied that Kirk just did not answer that question and ignored Bones until later to tell him "yeah you were right". That was kinda funny, except for the tragedy of course.

It looked like the episode was filmed in a real place with modern architecture for the time, which I love and it looked cool. The alien parasites also were cool and gross and had clever effects. I'm a sucker for practical effects so I'm biased.

It's a real bad day for Kirk, isn't it? When the wife also died I was like "that's too much", but then when Spock got infected... My headcanon is that he did take a crying break in his quarters. He has the emotional intelligence to know he needed it. But of course you can't show the captain crying.

There's this one moment when Kirk is super impressed with how Spock is resisting the pain of the infection. Kirk decides to compliment Spock in the most effectively flirty way possible: saying that his logic is impeccable. And Spock makes a face like "that was hot, but not now captain, I'm busy fighting to stay alive".

Kirk was SO MAD at bones when he blinded Spock! So mad! He sort of cooled off after, but in the moment I thought he was going to slap bones. Or rather to the signature full body yeet at him.

Shout out to Chapel who shined in this episode, I love that she's such a tough woman!

One last thing I will say, the only thing I didn't really like in the episode: they kept amping the stakes, on and on. They made it personal for Kirk, though there was no need for it (Kirk would have helped anyway). They made the wife die to... Fine , ok I'm concerned now. They made a big deal about the kid... And now SPOCK IS INFECTED! Ok that's A LOT. He's cured, but he's BLIND NOW! I can't take it anymore. Then the episode ends, all is well, everyone's ok, NO MENTION OF WHAT HAPPENS TO KIRK'S ORPHANED NEPHEW. I'm sure they had no money for an extra scene with a child actor, but at least throw a line in there or something. I don't know, I don't mind surreal high stakes but I do hate feeling like I was led on and made feel tense and worried ... For nothing. Like a trap. I know ST writing can be better than this, so I was disappointed.

And it's not the first time they do this too, and I know it also may be because viewers tuning in mid episode needed new stakes to be engaged in the story ... But that doesn't mean you have to escalate at that rate and then diffuse with no consequence.

[sparklepocalypse]

And now for something I haven't done in an age (mostly because of that, you know, dozen-year hiatus from being active in fandom, which ended abruptly this fall)...

It's Fic Rec Friday!! I'm going to try to do this every other Friday (if not every Friday; TBH it really depends on my brain at the end of a given work week...), and share the links to 5-ish of my favorite fics. These will likely be multifandom rec posts pretty frequently, so just a heads up there, but I'll clearly mark each fandom included and chunk the recs out that way in the posts.

Will I rec new fics? Seems likely! Will I rec old fics? Signs point to yes! Will I rec WIPs? Probably just completed fics for now, but we'll see! Will I be effusive in my praise of the fics I rec? Absolutely!

Recs after the jump to save you a scroll...

Red, White & Royal Blue

With so much of my heart (that none is left to protest) by @kiwiana-writes [Alex/Henry acting AU | rated E | 65.5k words] Former child star Alex meets theatre graduate Henry in a queer stage reimagining of Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing.

This is the first fic that I ever yelled at MJ about, and there's been plenty of yelling since then. It checks all the boxes: it's an AU (my beloved!); there's a heap of drama on and offstage; there's big huge romance; there's really delightful humor. Also, you will feel the need to give their Henry a hug. The way MJ writes Alex and Henry always reaches into my brain and scratches it in the right place, and they'll absolutely be a frequent flyer in these rec lists.

Please Don't Let Me Be So Understood by @cha-melodius [Alex/Henry corporate AU | E | 20k words] Alex and Henry are colleagues who can't stand one another. They're assigned to mandatory reconciliation by their boss, but their therapist assumes it's actually couples' therapy, and well... things escalate from there.

How do I love this fic? Let me count the ways... after I crash-landed into the RWRB fandom this fall, this is one of the fics that really stood out to me when I was sort of frantically trying to digest all the M and E-rated (I know, super shocking) fic that the fandom had to offer. Sara always handles her characters with such care, regardless of the situation she throws them into, and couples' therapy that's not supposed to be couples' therapy is no different.

What Do I Know? by @three-drink-amy [Alex/Henry amnesia AU | E | 83.6k words] Alex has a serious car accident and wakes up a week later in the hospital with no memory of the past five years. He's shocked to learn that he and Henry are married, because they hate each other... right?

Put on your favorite angst pants for this one, because it's going to hurt. I absolutely had to pause and cry during this fic, but it's so, so well written that I can forgive the face leakage. And the promised happy ending absolutely delivers! Just, you know. Brace yourself because ouch.

Star Trek

How High the Moon by kyliselle [Kirk/Spock AOS AU | E | 37.7k words] After the destruction of Vulcan, Spock shielded his mind to protect it from his broken bond with T'Pring. Little did he know another bond had already formed in its place.

This is the first Star Trek (2009 Abramsverse) fic that made me absolutely feral, and I share it now with you because it's just that good. I'm a little bummed that the author hasn't claimed it on AO3 following the original archive being shut down, because I would love to yell at them on AO3 about it and know that they see the comments. But it's so good. I am a huge sucker for soulbonds, and Vulcan bonds in particular where they've got the telepathic component, and accidental Vulcan bonds in particular in particular, and this fic absolutely delivers. Angst galore, though, so just like with the previous rec, you'll need your angst pants.

Smallville

When a Strawberry is Pushed into a Mountain by Thamiris [Clark Kent/Lex Luthor | E | 33.1k words] While studying at Metropolis University, Clark takes a literature class and, with Lex's help, finds a new appreciation for poetry.

If you have an appreciation for Beat poetry, beautiful phrasing, and the DCU/Smallville, you'll love this fic. Thamiris was an incredibly talented writer who unfortunately passed away in 2007, but a group of her friends ensured that we'd have access to her writing in perpetuity by archiving it for her on AO3. This fic was one of the influences of the body calligraphy and intercrural sex fics I wrote for Kinktober 2023; just gorgeous, gorgeous prose altogether.

[tarkalean-trekkie]

It’s All Coming Back to Me Now (Spock x Female Reader)

Version 1

Word count: 1,067

A/N: this takes place after Spock returns to the Enterprise after coming back to life. Reader is his wife, and is exhausted from trying to help him remember their life together, and contemplates divorce. I have 2 versions, one where Spock is more calm to the news, and one where he is slightly more confrontational(no violence don’t worry).

T/W: slight smut at the end, 18+

Y/n: My heart was conflicted at the thought of divorcing my husband. On the one hand, I wouldn’t have to deal with the stress of him not remembering our life together. However, on the other hand, I was devastated to lose my T’hy’la. I knew that I was being illogical and letting my human emotions get the best of me, but I was tired of crying. I cried when Spock died, I cried when he came back, and I cried when I showed him our family photo album.

Suddenly, the doorbell to our quarters chimes. “Come in,” I say.

Spock walks in. “Hello, wife,” he says, voice monotone, almost sad.

I reply simply, “hello, Spock.”

He sits down on a chair across from me. “I have overheard that you have been thinking of a koon’ut’kal’if’fee. May I ask why?” He asks.

I swallow hard. How can I tell him my reasoning without upsetting him? Even though he was still half Vulcan and half human, his human side was more dominant since he was resurrected. “Honestly, Spock, I’ve just been struggling with this. I know you can’t help that you can’t remember anything, but I’m having a really hard time telling you all of our memories. I know I should be grateful that you are alive, which I am, but I’m just having a hard time accepting things how they are. I-I’m sorry.” Tears well up in my eyes.

His expression softens. “Please, do not be sorry for how you feel. If this is really what you want, I can get in touch with the Vulcan council tomorrow. I just want you to be happy.”

Happy… that broke me. Would this really make me happy? At the current moment, I can neither live with or without Spock. “C-can I have some time to think before we make any decisions?” I ask.

“Of course. I would not want to make a decision unless you are certain,” Spock simply replies.

“Good.” I throw on my jacket. “I’ll probably be out late, so don’t wait up for me.” Maybe I can clear my mind on the observation deck.

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Spock: Y/n was right in saying she would be out late. At around 22:00, I decide to head to bed. Yes, I was saddened by the possibility of divorce, for I had gotten used to having her around. Wether or not I had any previous memory of her, I still found her very pretty and kind.

Sleep comes easy at first, but then becomes littered with vivid dreams. The first dream, y/n and I are stuck on a foreign planet, and are forced to share a sleeping bag to keep warm. Her small body fitting like a puzzle piece against my chest.

In the next dream, I’m experiencing Pon Farr. Y/n mates- makes love- with me, giving me her virginity. I am filled with an excitement and love I have never felt. Y/n looking like a beautiful goddess, I wish this dream would continue.

Finally, a bitter dream fills me. Y/n is pounding on a glass wall, crying and repeating my name. I soon realize this is my death, risking my life so that everyone aboard the Enterprise would be safe.

“I remember!” I wake up in a gasp. I had not just experienced dreams, but in fact, memories. Y/n, she is not only my wife, but my Ashayem. It’s all coming back to me now.

I jump out of bed, and run to y/n’s room. I knock on her door and wait. After a moment of no response I knock again. The door opens, revealing a sleepy y/n.

Y/n: “Spock, it’s four in the morning. What do you want?” I ask, rubbing sleep from my eye.

“Ashayem, sit with me,” he says, leading me to the bed.

I obey, and sit on the bed, asking, “ what’s this about?”

“I remember,” Spock says.

“Remember what?” I ask.

“Ashayem, I remember everything,” he states. His voice sounding more like his old self.

Could it be true? Could I really have my husband, my logical, Vulcan dominant husband back?

“Okay, what names did we have picked out when we decided to have children?” I test him.

“We decided on T’Ral, if we had a son,” he begins. For a daughter we agreed on Sh’vha.”

“Alright,” I breathe. “Where were we the first time we made love?”

I could see the slightest smirk on his face, the first smirk I’ve seen since before he died. “We we’re on Vulcan, of course. I was experiencing Pon Farr. I risked death or you risked losing me to my betrothed if we did not mate. You were willing to give me your virginity and be my bride just so that I wouldn’t die. For that I am forever grateful… no matter how illogical it is for me to feel such way.”

“Oh Spock!” I hug his neck. “You really are back!” A tear falls from my cheek. “Oh, T’hy’la!”

Spock: I gaze deep into her eyes, and I allow myself some vulnerability. “Oh, Ashayem,” I take her hand in mine, with a passionate Vulcan kiss. I have longed for her touch for too long. Y/n leans in to share a human kiss, that is just as passionate. The combination of both kisses fills me with a deep longing. It had been a long time since y/n and I had been intimate, and I could tell she was longing for me just the same.

Y/n undresses for me, and I do the same for her.

“Are you ready for me, Ashayem?” I ask, climbing on top of her.

She nods, “ just as ready as the first time we made love.” She smiles and kisses me.

I slide inside her, knowing that she will always be my beautiful bride, my Ashayem.

We share the most passionate night of love making we have ever experienced, when we are interrupted by our alarms going off.

Y/n gasps, “I forgot I had duty today!”

“Do not worry, Ashayem. You get cleaned up, and I’ll tell the captain you cannot make it today, and I shall spend the morning cuddling with you, just like we used to,” I reply.

She kisses me once more. “You’re the best Vulcan husband a woman could have.”

“And I suppose I must be the happiest Vulcan alive,” I reply, hooking my fingers with hers.

[thegeminisage]

STAR TREK UPDATE TIME I'M SO FUCKING BEHINDDD ok ok monday we did ds9's "trials and tribble-ations" and "let he who is without sin..." then tuesday we did voy's "future's end parts i & ii," and finally wednesday we did voy's "warlord" and ds9's "things past."

trials and tribble-ations (ds9):

ohhh i wish i'd had time to write about this when it was fresher on my mind. what a wonderful experience and episode. i feel like i got spoiled for the concept of it but it was still so amazing because i just genuinely COULD NOT BELIEVE they could do that. like, the entire thing felt like magic to me. it's not as if they could ask william shatner to reshoot - they could only used what they had from back then. and they made it work and they made it look SO GOD, like, not just for the 90s, but for today. the lighting, the resolution, the colors...everything was flawless. o'brien and bashir in that lineup??? like i wouldn't have known if i didn't know. jesus christ

did i spend a lot of time crying because i was so overwhelmed with my deep adoration for spock? yes. maybe i screamed aloud when he came on my screen. who can say. dax being a spock girlie is so fucking correct by the way i bet william shatner wanted to kermit when that aired. also good on her for bagging mccoy although i think it would have been funnier if she hadn't said which body she was in so we could have fun speculating about bones having sex with men <3

THEM THROWING THE TRIBBLES THAT WOUND UP IN KIRK'S CLEAVAGE...............iconique

odo baby talking the tribbles. incredible. also, worf and the klingon head ridge lore which shall never be explained

and of course let's NOT forget kirk making the sex eyes at sisko. they took that footage from the mirrorverse ep when he was ogling our universe's version of marlena. KIRK CANONICALLY DTF SISKO. CANONICALLY INTO MEN. DIE MAD ABOUT IT. it was so cool and heartwarming but also INCREDIBLY fucking funny

also. ABSOLUTELY gratified they brought some back to ds9 and got away with it. sisko is so fucking cool i love when he rule breaks

just an absolutely magical experience. like, it really blew my mind because i didn't think it was something that could be done. one of the greatest examples of trek pushing the limits of possibility

let he who is without sin... (ds9):

man i wanna like worf in ds9 so bad but like...does he feel off to anyone else? from how he was in tng? don't get me wrong i love ds9 and hated tng and worf in ds9 is Fine the way he was also Fine in tng but i just cant see tng worf cooperating with extremists who are also doing a bit of light terrorism. he'd call them dishonorable and send them packing even if he did agree

also, like, he killed a kid in soccer? by headbutting him? that's tragic backstory but like also kind of ridiculous and funny? i can't believe they played that totally straight. he soccered a kid to death.

anyway, everybody's outfits were very good. i loved dax's mermaid look

also SOOO glad leeta and julian are breaking up so she can get with ROM!!!!!!!! my best friend rom...he deserves so much happiness and i hope they stay together forever and ever amen

anyway like it was Fine im glad dax and worf are back on track but also what the hell...it was very baffling to me as well

future's end parts i & ii (voy):

this one was also Fine. like, the plot didn't make a bit of sense - i thought the 90s in trek were supposed to be some kind of hell hole but after watching space seed they may have just barely gotten by - the eugenics wars ended in 96. still, LA did not look like an area recently decimated by eugenics wars. i'm really interested in that era of trek history, where it veers off from our own history, but so much of it seems muddy and in conflict with itself, which is a bummer

that said, i did have fun watching janeway and chakotay have like a little earth date together. also good for the doc for getting to run around freely now, and sarah silverman was v fun even if she could totally do better than tom paris. everybody's outfits were extremely fun even though tuvok's was uh. well.

HOWEVER. the limited amount of fun i was having was kind of uhhh canceled out by the. random white supremacists??? especially wild choice considering the eugenics wars didn't involve white supremacy because their number one guy was KHAN like what the hell???

i wish i had more to say about it but it was just a genuinely baffling experience. mostly fun, but baffling. the plot was like swiss cheese

warlord (voy):

OKAY THIS ONE WAS FUN. we got off to an extremely rough start (neelix foot massage complete with sex noises) and there was that neelix and kes fight post possession that i hated because it sort of shouted out to my least favorite arc in all of voyager, but AFTER we got into man

man are you ever so tiny and helpless and nice and then you get to go ape shit. good for HER

like yeah fine she was possessed but she got to menace him herself in the end too

her body language was so incredible. she's like so tiny and yet she owned the entire room when she was strutting around like that. i loved her guy voice. i loved watching her murder people in cold blood. i loved whatever lgbt thing they almost did and then pussied out of doing

AND I LOVED. THE SCENE WITH TUVOK. man that dude can ACT. it was so tense and so good and technically he's kissed a man on screen now. i did go back and rewatch that several times because tuvok is my best friend and it was so evil and horrid >:)

anyway absolutely banger of an ep. could ahve stood less neelix but this is true of most voyager episodes

things past (ds9):

OOOOOOH MY BEST FRIEND ODO HAS DONE SOME CRIMES

i really went into this thinking garak was gonna like Learn A Lesson about the occupation because he was gonna be in it without his status as a cardassian to protect him but instead we outed odo as a fuck-up. and you know? good for him

like i felt a little defensive about it at first because it almost seemed like we were just trying to knock odo down a peg when he's already Suffering but the more i think about it the more sense it makes. like, his desire for order is intrinsic to his species, but that desire for order led to something terrible happening, and then by the time he's met kira he has enough self doubt and worry about the consequences of false accusations that he LETS HER GO despite having actually found the correct murderer. it's so delicious

and then the scene at the end where she's like horrified. the way he was horrified when he found out she lied. AUGHGHGHG parallels i can't wait until 1000 years from now when they get together

also, hi, dukat??? like i knew he was a bad person but i thought he was a bad person in like a fun way. sisko's gay little friend who sent him fireworks for his road trip and sat on one of those little spines for kira. but he's like a bAD bad person. was that leeta dax was supposed to have been, in his office? leeta deserves to kill him actually. and like, WHTY is he so into bajoran women. i think we know. like sure siyal's mom was "in love with him" like ok dude. of course he tried to kill ziyal. of COURSE kira was like no she can stay on the station far away from you :)

idk it's like a great reminder that even people who are funny and seem nice and harmless are capable of absolutely unforgiveable acts and all people are layered. everyone is human and everyone has the capacity for being inhumane. etcetc. very good. every time dukat is on screen he gets more interesting

i do kind of wish we had gotten more from garak though...? it feels like he's just There some episodes. i miss when he had more content with bashir go back to queerbaiting us!!!

TONIGHT: voy's "q and the grey" (GROSS) and ds9's "the ascent," or possibly "first contact," or possibly star wars, who knows

[startrekfandomh8speopleofcolor]

Some people think sth happened between Chapel and Spock because of a TOS episode when he throw a soup and snapped at Chapel and later. I never seen that episode so no idea. But the fact he cried was never explained and it's possible that the writers try to fixe plot hole from TOS. So Spock is gonna to cheat on T'Pring with Chapel. In TOS that why it will end up in a divorce and he's distant with Chapel. But what that mean for Nyota Uhura? They'll never date. And two WoC are being throw away.

so confession time.

I've never actually finished TOS. I've watched all the star trek movies but not the original run of the show. like don't get me wrong I love Spock and Kirk but I'm really only in it for Uhura and Sulu. but we don't get storylines for them in TOS. and like believe me I know there's problems with the reboot movies but I'm watching them for Uhura and her relationship with Spock.

Like with strange new worlds I love Celia and I'm really disappointed that they chose to bring back both T'Pring and Chapel's history with Spock.

BUT!!! I'm playing the long game with strange new worlds honestly. I love slow burns and I honestly love the rapport they have with Uhura and Spock in this show. (I kinda had a problem with student Uhura/professor spock like the dynamics could have been better you know?)

Like your feelings are valid that they are throwing away 2 woc but its a great show and there's been some great stuff being done with Uhura's backstory. And I like honestly I hopped on this show late (I'm still on the first season lol episode 7) but I really think there's a chance that Spock is crying about something else and the Chapel is the one carrying a torch for Spock.

anyways feel free to fight me on this but I will forever ship Spuhura!!!!

mod ali

[strawwritesfic]

Thank you for your patience

Hey all.

I know I haven't posted anything in the way new of fics in months, and this won't change that. But I wanted to give you a very quick update and heartful thanks for sticking with me during this lull.

About two years ago, I graduated from my third round of post-graduate schooling, passed a difficult test, and was finally able to find myself a career. One year ago, I quit the work I was doing with a local freelancing firm and went entirely self-employed--which, as I'm sure you can imagine, required a lot of hustle, a lot of on-the-job learning, and a lot crying when I messed something up and was informed that the screw up entitled an entity in town to throw me in prison.

(They didn't, and they thought it was weird that I thought they would; apparently they have the power to but aren't going to enact over something as minor as my screw up.)

Needless to say, it's been difficult. There's been burnout. When I haven't been working, I needed to clean and exercise. So when I had the rare chance to do something with my free time, I rarely had the spoons to do anything more than watch some YouTube videos. I injured myself a couple years ago, and am dealing with chronic pain resulting from that injury to this day, and it tends to manifest itself when I sit at a desk for long periods of time. Last weekend, my mental health hit a pretty bad low--but a long-time friend said I could vent to her, and I did, and I am feeling much more optimistic.

I have been offered a full-time position doing what I do. The good news is that means a a salary! No more scrambling to get a paycheck when someone cancels on me! Actual medical insurance (if you couldn't tell, I'm based in the USA)! The bad news is that it's an hour long commute, at least until such a time as I can prove to a bank that I make consistent enough money that they'll give me a mortgage.

(Last October, I made about $200 total even though I was scheduled to work almost every day. That's the kind of thing I've been dealing with.)

I'm not really sure what the future is going to hold, but I'd like to get writing again. After my crash and burn on Saturday, I made myself sit down and squeeze out a couple of pages of a Spock one shot (I know it's not what's on my request list, but this Loki thing is being birthed through difficult labor, and I needed to be excited). God willing, I'll be able to get back into a little more. There are things I really want to share with you all, and things I'd love to actually get out for the people that were kind enough to ask them of me.

So from the bottom of my heart: Thank you. Thank you for following even when I haven't produced anything in a long time. Thank for showing enough passion for my work to request things. Thank you for the reblogs. Thank you for the replies asking for parts twos. Thank you for the recommendation shoutouts in posts on your blog. Although I rarely respond (because I don't want to be seen as bragging), I look at each and every one of them. When things are difficult, sometimes I'll pull out my little collection of especially kind comments, and they help me feel a little better.

Sincerely,

Straw

[rronanllynch]

I feel like I’m transcending watching the first fuck or die plot play out on my iPad right now. Spock looking forlorn as he says “take a wife”….totally heterosexual things…

“I can’t let Spock die, can I, Bones? I owe him my life a million times over. Isn’t that worth a career?”

“Your face is wet.” Please 😭😭😭😭😭😭 he’s such a little freak 😭😭😭😭

“In my tradition the male is accompanied by his closest friends…I would also request McCoy to come with me.” SCREAMING OT3

T’PRING!!!!!! She ate with this look! Vulcans cunty confirmed.

Wait that fanfiction about Vulcans killing to get their mates in the past was part of canon???? This show is crazy.

Kirk fangirling over T’Pau is also very funny politics nerd

THEY ARE NOT OUTWORLDERS. THEY ARE MY FRIENDS.

McCoy like why would she reject him????

The smile when he sees Kirk I’m screaming crying throwing up

WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD KILLED THE CAPTAIN I LOST ALL INTEREST IN TPRING THE MADNESS IS OVER

THEEEE MOST EPISODE OF TELEVISION

[creampuffqueen]

Funny Quotes From School

finished high school and having some Feelings about it, so please take the last five years worth of dumb quotes i've heard/spoken in my school

uhhhhh trigger warning for... violence? uncomfy statements? sexual innuendos? idk most of these are extremely unhinged. also long post tw like seriously that's why i made a cut

Eighth Grade

go suck all eleven of my toes

don't you hate it when you try to go upstairs two steps at a time but end up skipping seven steps?

go suck a lime

i'm going to shove my cowboy boot so far up your ass you dillhole

'or maybe just don't eat mashed potatoes with your gravy' 'that's satanism'

sexual question of the day. go

oh, how the fidgets have spun

you ever just randomly twerk?

'they look like noodles' 'no, YOU look like noodles'

or they can throw a back of licorice at you

is the earth round, flat, or thicc?

i just spilled apple juice on myself and now i'm going to cry

*someone holding a grape* who is this?

don't throw things in my trash can

i'll consume your kneecaps

i'll peel your toenails

that's okay, i didn't want to live anyway

you're going to make me have five more mental breakdowns than usual

i bet i could beat up every sixth grader

you think i have MORALS and STANDS?!

we're not living in an alternative universe, we're making a new country

don't put applesauce on my cheetoes

i'm sorry. i cheated on you with the mailman

don't make fun of me, i know what memes are!

or as i like to call it, carbonated barbecue sauce

penetrate me with nails

i'm not a lady, i'm a WOMAN

i will deep fry your scalp

i will replace your tampons with sticks of butter

i will exfoliate with your esophagus

it jumped at me and attempted to arson my finger

i am the physical manifestation of the cowardly lion

i will pull your uterus out through your nose

you're like a conditioned pig

'what are your emotions?' 'pumpkin spice latte'

i don't want your cocaine

am i the only one who puts lipgloss on their tongue?

'how many bones are in a human hand?' 'enough to eat'

i have too many eggs to function

it sounds like cough syrup

feed the squirrels the vaccines

george washington dumped me!

that's not how you eat oranges, you satanist

spock is right there with marilyn monroe

i used to be a boy. now i'm an orangutan

you sound like a mother fucking cuckoo clock

do you think i could be a foot model?

this weekend i ate a whole capri sun

i made my siri call me daddy

are you saying boys don't have legs?

you'll hear those jingles when you're DEAD

nerds are my drug of choice

'seduce me with your words' 'BUBBLEGUM'

delete my kneecaps daddy

shut your teletubby looking ass the fuck up

those phalanges have me quaking

bill nye is my queen

'my hands are warm because i'm hot' 'no, your hands are hot because you were born in HELL'

i just stubbed three of my toes because i whipped

ow my nonexistant knee. it hurts

dude i'm like 82 fricking years olds

if you make fun of people because of their weight, your kneecaps are forfeit

hey just be prepared for lunch, i'm going to accuse her of drawing furries in her free time

the cowboy hat emoji is my dad

i'm the only one who can threaten violence here

if hell was just a tequila bar i'd still go

how do you politely tell your friend she looks like a soccer mom?

fuck you in the liver

can i snap all of my bones and extend into the multiverse?

there's ranch in my pants

hang yourself from the eiffel tower

your whole life is a voice crack

i swear to god i will rip out your vocal cords

horse girls will ride literally anything

my dick is bigger than that of a sea cucumber's

it's not salt, it's cocaine

i'd go to hell for a capri sun

my dog had sex with an owl

i'm a slut for ted cruz

liquify me daddy

last night i fortnite danced to my favorite song so today i'm going to kill myself

that's because i'm a fucking lesbian, dickhead

i'm still eating bricks today

take your saliva back

i would like to wear a sweatshirt made of his skin

i hope you become a burn victim

i will jump rope with your large intestine

some of us had things going on this weekend, like the breakdown of society

i'm gonna break my toe until it's completely calcium and can't break anymore

it's an interpretive dance, called where the fuck is the trashcan

you are the human equivalent of green vaginal discharge

FUCK THE BEES

nobody cares if your boyfriend made out with another guy-

is that a fucking eggshell?

i'm like a bloodhound for fursuits

Ninth Grade/Freshman Year

someone revoke my live priveleges

ants ants ants ants ants ants ants

'your pain brings me joy' 'your pain brings ME joy' 'I FEEL NO PAIN'

make sure to water your track every day so it'll grow big and strong

you ever just commit mitosis?

you're talking to the person who thought lightning was fake

why don't you just donate your body to science, and that's one less paper for me to grade

is a soul required or something?

i want my feet to be gone

i'm going to stab my eyes out with plastic knives

put germ-x on your dick

screw the water cycle

eating spaghetti is now cannibalism

i look strongly like a toe

close your coochie

what even is obama's last name?

i want death in every available form

you lost your shoelace privileges. hand 'em over

did you just call it photosynthesis water?

if you don't stop imma drop spin your ass

Tenth Grade/Sophomore Year

how dense is this dog?

i'll tic tac toe your toes

he looks like the word pulp

my one and only complaint about texas is that the ground is far too moist

this ain't the krusty krab

perry the platypus says trans rights

is phone sex free?

bold words for someone within pegging distance

this guinea pig has hips to rival kim k

'i'm not dying a virgin' 'not with that attitude you aren't'

all dragons are lesbians

you don't get the priviledge of sight

they sexualized winnie the pooh

i will run down ANY corridor i want, thank you very much

i can't think while i'm breathing!

why would you be lactose intolerant. it's my birthday

my ego is big and my balls are bigger

if you're trying to get me to admit i watch cave porn-

that is a joke; i am a whore

shut up or i'll slut shame you

can i get a rabbit convicted for sexual assault?

normalize lobotomies

my brain feels like deep fried butter at the county fair

get the christmas cocaine out

your flavor buds are made of granite

the crack house has become the crack home

i don't want to sleep with the seven disciples

i have such a fake god complex

i'm going to get you euthanized

well it's a good thing i like sausage. it's a coping mechanism

horses don't have shoulders, don't you know?

it's free to shut up, you know

my fetish is eco pollution

no, i'm not shoving a caterpillar up my ass

fuck you. i'll unvirgin your islands

speaking of cold sweat and being in a room-

he falls for lesbian coded women all the time and he still got somewhere in life

aborted fetuses in my cereal? it's more likely than you think

sorry, i forgot to put on my toes this morning

i'm very materialistic when it comes to my own organs

i'd love to be a malleable shape in real life

the entire digestive system is stored in the balls

wipe my memories daddy

i have been molested by a rabbit before, it is a possibility

is it wrong to say i kin satan?

it's a double sided titty

someone remove this man's vocal cords

she got real up close and personal with a morphine addiction

ignore the rabbit cum stain, keep testing me!

i'll clip your wings, bitch!

this is the side effect of joining the cult

reject tradition, embrace the alpaca

their asses are SO slappable

leave room for jesus when you jack yourself off

no preggers? POGGERS!

government mandated lactation

Eleventh Grade/Junior Year

look at his tits! this man was made for lactation

i'm going to water board you in brine

oh no, i fell for the cum gambit!!

i'll refer to you exclusively as dipshit from now on

knuckles from sonic has a cloaca?

who let you have sentience

daddy the collective

hey kid, you wanna domesticate a cow?

his eyes are against OSHA regulations

let me take my place in the nitrogen cycle please

are you talking about an epipen? no, heroin

so we're talking about the physics of projectile vomiting, am i hearing you right?

if you break your leg enough eventually you learn not to break your leg

friends? in my digestive system?

i scared him away with my juicy needles

he's sodomizing his french fries

are you a little quirky? a little wild? do you do crack?

i have the most succulent ass in this entire lunch period

if i weighed less than the average chromebook i would definitely take my bigwheel on the freeway

i'm going to breed that until it weighs less than the average chromebook

that chromebook is submissive and breedable

every day i get a colonoscopy on the side of the road

'where is the assignment?' 'up your ass'

the navy is just a giant sailor moon convention

imagine milking someone in the starbucks line

did you just call the son of god a hot cheeto girl?

fish fear me. the sugar baby bot wants me

my counselor has given up and is just going to let me kill myself

a self inflicted joker arc

the college board invented war

the quintessential american experience: fireworks, ferris wheels, and serial killers

i'm a thief, not a hoe

do you know how many drugs i'd have to be on to go on a road trip with you?

put tangent on birth control

eco friendly bird spies

his natural habitat is scrubs and khakis

i am a hyperbola enjoyer

sometimes you're deranged. you have weird habits and you're left handed; i wouldn't put anything past you

complete my citations daddy

if you put bananas in my cheesecake i will get gayer

spooning the homies on the slaughterhouse conveyor belt

if i were a cow i'd have as many complicated pregnancies as possible

in 1.7 miles exit this mortal realm

veterinarians be like 'i can fix him' and pull out a burdizzo <- my senior quote btw

Twelvth Grade/Senior Year

facebook logo of a man

what kind of drugs are you on? because it needs to be adderall

when aroused the vagina can fit 1-2 raccoons

the most civilized cats in our world lick their ass for anyone to watch

you sound like a goldfish who got his in the head with a ping pong ball at a carnival five too many times

a blueberry is smarter than you

i hope this email finds me dead

i'd chew on a trachea

let me sparknotes shrek 4

i'm deaf in all four ears

it's imperitaive that i take a shit in the front yard right now

can you stop trying to deal people drugs for like ten minutes?

a minecraft stack's worth of war crimes

i was in my father's balls planning for this event

dicks not provided for this event

his foreskin is his sock??

[doctornota]

"OF COURSE YOU HAVE." He shouldn't be surprised - those two have probably got everybody else on the ship beat when it comes to vacation planning. It's a far cry from Leonard and Jim's usual routine of Jim planning everything and then dragging him along, something McCoy tends to attribute at least in part to the fact that Chekov and Sulu are a two-headed man at the helm. Flight and navigation are the type of work that can't be done if both officers aren't at least occasionally living in each other's brains.

That and the whole crew has been itching to get their feet on solid ground again. He's only had to hear about it for two weeks now.

It's Pavel's ( surprising ) compliance with the vaccine that earns him the chance to yap without being ushered out of sickbay immediately at all, coupled with the fact that McCoy is preoccupied with getting things prepared for the next crewman on his list. The navigator is spared only the occasional brief glance out of the corner of his eye as he does so, pulling up charts, wiping down the space, discarding one cartridge and preparing the next. That, too, sounds like Jim ( though he's gotten better as of late - responsibility has changed him ) - throwing things together last second, over-preparing just in case.

( Leonard's guilty of the latter, but only the stuff that matters. First aid kits and the like. Not eighty different pairs of swim trunks. )

"I think I'm the final authority on what is and isn't a part of me, thank you," and it might not be half as infuriating if he wasn't so damn factual about it. McCoy's always thought that Pavel is too much like Spock for his own good sometimes. Makes it feel like you can't argue with whatever point it is they're trying to prove - not that it stops him. He mouths "purposefully trying to get a reaction?" under his breath, a little affronted at the accusation, but then thinks back on Spock again and realizes he has no counterargument.

Well, damn.

"Listen, Chekov," boy, he's like a walking travel brochure, isn't he? "I don't even plan this sort of trip. I just go wherever Jim drags me." It's a habit formed in their Academy days and one he should probably break, but on the other hand he can't imagine spending time with anyone else and it makes him feel better seeing Jim happy and relaxed for once in his life. He pinches the bridge of his nose as he turns back around. "And that all sounds - that's great. It's fine. It's not exactly about shore leave, alright? Is it not enough for a man to just be preemptively stressed? I mean, I've got to think about the stupid crap that everybody's gonna get up to while I'm not around to fix them." He gestures broadly.

To his credit, the moment the doctor approaches, hypo in hand, Pavel complies without retort, unwilling to subject himself to the more potentially uncomfortable outcomes of this otherwise routine visit to sickbay he'd only tried to put off twice.

It's a record for him.

"Hikaru and I have already planned out our shore leave," he says as if it is the most obvious thing in the world. As if they haven't been delighting over this since the moment the first whispers of leave left the captain's lips, excitement making its rounds at warp ten.

With nearly seven-and-a-half-months between their last proper shore leave and their upcoming, well-earned holiday scheduled to commence in thirty-two hours' time, they have not wasted a minute drawing up their itinerary. And with no guarantee of another shore leave, much less when it would be, they could not afford to waste even a single moment.

"And I am packed. Hikaru will still be throwing things into his bag while everyone is racing to the transporters; I would bet credits on that." He can't help the fondness that creeps into his tone when he imagines the sight, a half-dishevelled Hikaru promising he'll be done in five minutes—just five minutes, Pav, I swear—while he hovers in the doorway, trying and failing to look annoyed when Hikaru's hair sticks up every which way, making him l—

If Pavel feels heat colouring his cheeks, he never speaks of it.

Instead, Pavel offers the doctor that very same grin that is the reason that both Hikaru and Nyota have affectionately branded him a little shit. The one that says he can and will weaponise all the knowledge he has gathered about the crew through proximity and observation and thoroughly enjoy doing so when the time comes.

Hyper-vigilant and ever-aware, cataloguing, processing, and storing even the smallest, most seemingly inconsequential things, there is very little that he misses.

"You do," he says in that matter-of-fact tone, the same way he has read off data to the captain countless times. "Not that there is anything wrong with that, Doctor. It is just part of you." The doctor can no more help that than he can turn off his own mind or forget the things that still torture him in the dark, as much as he wishes he could.

"And you can tell what kind of annoyed you are by listening. There is your usual, there is you when you are purposefully trying to get a reaction out of somebody, and there's when something is really bothering you. But, this"—Pavel makes a sweeping gesture with his hand to indicate the job—"aside, are you not also looking forward to leave? They have this huge museum dedicated to their technology—it is supposed to be incredible! And then the waterfront—some people say that the water there, if you go at sunset, it looks like it glows, but I will believe this when I see it. That is what they modelled their signature drink off of, supposedly, and I want to try that, too."

[fxoye2]

the idea of Sarek and Winona being parents in law to jim and Spock in aos makes me crack up so much. I desperately want to know what they think of each other and each other’s kid

OH MY GOD, the potential for absolute chaos here is delicious. Sarek and Winona as in-laws to Jim and Spock in AOS? It’s like the ultimate cosmic sitcom waiting to happen. Imagine the sheer awkwardness of those family dinners, the quiet judgment from Sarek, and Winona’s no-nonsense attitude. I live for it.

Okay, so first off—Sarek and Winona’s dynamic. These two couldn’t be more different if they tried. Sarek, who’s all about logic, diplomacy, and keeping emotions tightly locked down, vs. Winona, who’s a badass Starfleet officer, used to dealing with high-stakes situations and probably way more chill and pragmatic. I imagine Winona looking at Sarek and being like, “I’ve raised two kids by myself, buddy. Logic isn’t getting you out of family obligations.” And Sarek, in turn, probably finds her a bit… brash, but at the same time, he respects her resilience and what she’s been through, especially losing George. They’d have this weird mutual respect, but every conversation would feel like a standoff between human pragmatism and Vulcan logic.

Now, as for Sarek and Jim… Oh man. Sarek’s probably equal parts impressed and bewildered by Jim. Here’s this human who embodies everything Sarek thinks is chaotic—brash, reckless, constantly throwing himself into danger—and yet, he’s undeniably brilliant and has managed to pull off things no one else could, including winning Spock’s heart. I imagine Sarek being low-key scandalized at first. He’s like, “Spock, out of all the logical, disciplined, and reserved individuals in the galaxy, you chose this?” But over time, Sarek would grudgingly admit (because Vulcans don’t like to admit anything) that Jim complements Spock in ways no one else could. Jim challenges Spock, pushes him to embrace his emotions, and at the same time, keeps up with Spock intellectually. Sarek might never fully get Jim, but he can’t deny the impact Jim has on his son’s life.

Winona and Spock, on the other hand? I think she’d find Spock fascinating. Winona’s a scientist, so she’d appreciate his intellect and curiosity, but at the same time, she probably finds his Vulcan demeanor hilarious. You just know Winona’s the type to crack a joke or make some offhand comment about Spock’s serious nature, and Spock’s standing there with one eyebrow raised like, “This is illogical.” And Winona’s like, “Yeah, well, you’re stuck with me now, so get used to it.” She’d tease him gently but also show her appreciation for how deeply Spock cares for Jim, even if Spock’s Vulcan half doesn’t let him express it in the usual human ways.

But let’s not forget that Winona is fiercely protective of Jim. She’s been through a lot, and her relationship with Jim is probably a bit distant due to her career and the loss of George, but she loves her son. So, if Spock ever hurt Jim or made him feel less than (whether intentional or not), you just know Winona would pull Spock aside and be like, “I don’t care if you’re half Vulcan, you make him cry and you’ll have to answer to me.” And Spock, who is all about protecting Jim, would take that seriously. There’s a weird tension there, but it’s rooted in mutual respect.

As for Jim and Spock’s views on their respective in-laws? Oh, it’s gold. Jim is probably terrified of Sarek at first because he knows that Spock’s father is this imposing, logical, almost untouchable figure, but over time, I think he’d relax and probably even start to tease Spock about it. He’d be like, “C’mon, Spock, your dad’s secretly impressed by me, I just know it,” and Spock would respond with some dry comment about Jim’s human delusions. Meanwhile, Spock respects Winona because she’s accomplished and driven, much like his own mother, but the human emotions and human parenting styles probably make him a bit uneasy. He’s like, “This woman brought Captain Kirk into the world… but her methods seem… unusual.”

And then, of course, you have Amanda Grayson in the mix somewhere, being the actual glue that holds this weird in-law situation together. Amanda, who probably loves Jim instantly because she sees how happy he makes Spock, and she knows what it’s like to be in a relationship with a Vulcan. She’s out here giving Jim tips on how to handle Vulcan emotional repression, all while being the bridge between Sarek’s stoicism and Winona’s more relaxed, human approach to family. Amanda would probably be the one making sure no one actually kills each other at the dinner table.

In conclusion: the comedy of errors, the drama, the tension. I’m imagining Jim and Spock rolling their eyes at each other after every family gathering, Jim going, “Your dad is terrifying,” and Spock replying with, “Your mother is… persistent.” It’s the kind of dynamic where, after a few years, they’ve all settled into this odd, begrudging acceptance of each other’s quirks, but those first few encounters? Absolutely priceless.

[drarreckyninja]

star trek: when sick *at home/confined*

spock: "i am not sick" throws up

bones: tries to work but just makes himself feel worse

kirk: "i hate everything" tries to break something but doesn't have the energy

scotty: eats the entire kitchen; throws up

carol: sits in a pile of tissues, thinks she is so disgusting

chekov: lies in a pile of blankets and pillows, crying

christine: lies in bed, surrounded by stuffed animals, staring at the ceiling

uhura: lies in bed, feels like death

sulu: the most miserable thing, just lies in bed curled in a ball all day