#Spirituality and Distortion

[metal-stills]

Igorrr - Downgrade Desert

Metal Blade Records

2020

Art Direction, Prop Master : Lisa Bruggmann Costume & Make-Up Artist : Amanda Samantha Brooke Costume Laure Le Prunenec : Alexandra Groover Colorist : Aleksander Verholak CGI : Claudio Antonelli

Official Video

[bizarrobrain]

"Downgrade Desert" by Igorrr - From "Spirituality and Distortion" (2020)

[starseedsrise]

[frobby]

madoka magica is a narrative haunted by a lesbian but deciding which lesbian is your own special little treat <3

[theauthorpaula]

Pastel Shades

Poem from the archives

[angelscarousel]

hello lgbtq community

[worldbuildingwanderlust]

Temporal distortions

And

Shifting paradigms

Are always so much

Simpler

When I can paint them

In rhymes

[lovelydwyn]

Even from a great distance, with no physical interactions required in the 3D, the sacral energy from the feminine is extremely healing and comforting to the masculine. He is not aware of this consciously, but when he chooses to continually abuse and dishonor the feminine that sacral healing energy is eventually revoked. He won’t consciously know why he feels so rotten, but choosing the distorted path over the divine such as this is just one area where karmic consequences are felt.

[katyspersonal]

When you started drawing? And how? Your works are so detailed and you feel the perspective so Q_Q Your drawing of old hunter from DLC is incredibly cool, I am looking respectfully

Oh- You mean this ( x ) one? Haha, yeah, it was an art commission, so I tried to give it the best I could... Though maybe using something I was paid for as a chance to practice perspective was a little irresponcible :') But the customer was happy, and this is what matters!

To be honest, I've been drawing for as long as I can remember...? I have quite the regrets about having basically none of my drawings from childhood survive, because it's been a LOT. But I've been going over the top with details, colors and settings since the age of like, 4-5 I think? I recall the caretakers at kindergarden REALLY loving my drawing of underwater, because I killed it with variety of fish and seaweed, despite having no references or knowledge! Also, fun fact - the very first art criticism of my life from me was towards a girl that colored every woman in her coloring book as blonde with blue eyes! I criticized her saying that there were other colors for people and that it was boring to be so samey dsfjjdshfsd Had to apologize, but.. yeah, it was the ultimate "I've always been this way" moment if I've seen one. :')

I used to visit classes to practice my drawing in elementary school, though! But it was mostly environment and animals, when I was more interested in drawing people at that time! The period from 8 to 12 years was the one where I kept creating OCs obsessively, and stories for them, and I've had like 6 comics I've been drawing and coloring at the same time (mostly comedy + fantasy)! I think what really inspired me to start creating the comics and characters that were mostly young girls with elemental powers was the Russian comic, Rainbow Knights x) (Журнал "Юла", припоминаешь? хд) I was obsessed with it, and I was obsessed with excuse to use more colors, effects and nature/elemental aesthetic. And yes, it was all trdaitional! I love using crayons, markers, pens and pencils for coloring. My clumsy hands were never good for paintbrushes... I moved more onto digital around the age of 14. It was when I've found a summer job, and earned enough money to buy a tablet! So.. I started prioritize digital art since then! But it had the form of me first drawing something on the paper, and then scanning and fixing/lining/coloring it on the computer for a LONG time! Well, it was taking some time to get used to, as well, so I also had some drawings I did with my mouse and vector tool in PS or SAI, like this:

It is one of the only few remaining "ancient" ones, since most of them got lost forever on the old hard drive! ...I still HAVE this hard drive, I just have no idea how to extract anything from it.. It is kinda broken :U But if I get my hands on very old doodles trapped there, I will share!

^ I believe this was the first doodle that I did 100% on the computer AND with the tablet! Without mouse, without first drawing traditonally and then digitally, but just on the computer, from start to finish! But it was still hard to do, so I kept with the use of paper and pencil for some more while. Like- I hoped I'd find some old drawings for this ask, but all I found were traditional versions of some of my drawings!

You could tell that using traditional paper + pencil were beneficial for anatomy and proportions. And that I used to be better at that, VERY much better. And that it was sorta... easier to 'get lost' in the process? It was a simpler life when not only I was far less depressed and broken, not only I had more spare time in schoo/uni years, but also just... I did not feel burnt out. Or guilty over the fact of not finishing new drawing "fast enough" (and thus, looking like a loser). I also had less things online to drain my spare time, less distractions... I kinda miss that time, really...

All in all, I've never learned to draw PROPERLY. I was self-taught but not studying too hard, mostly I was just analysing art of artists I loved to improve my own, and asking advice from good artists to fix this or that! Hence, my skill used to be better! Year 2015-16 was my most productive year artistically! I've been drawing a bunch of (then) popular cartoon stuff, as well as TONS of fanart for Rick and Morty RP community, and all the things were sooooo bright, colorful and full of energy...

And now meet the man that sorta ended my art career :^) I've picked interest in Mark (Endlish localisation called him Marx and I hate it lol), and that pulled me into the rest of K1rby. Except I could not actually play anything (besides 64 Crystal Shards that I emulated), so I compensated with letsplays and anime. And Super Paper Mario was a side obsession. xD But.... yeah, since MARK, dark ages for my art started. No, no, my art was good! Awesome, even! I kept people begging me to "please draw K1rby again" for years since fandom shifting! Words like, 'no one ever cared about this universe and characters the same way you do'... But! Drawing 'creatures' for 2-3 years completely destroyed my prior (already loose) knowledge of human anatomy and proportions, and I am still struggling to recover that former skill! :')

Finally, year later, around February/March 2021, I've gotten pulled into Bloodb0rne! Badly. And thanks to Mic0lash. Huh, it is always some madman, isn't it? xD But I felt very self-consious about my art... I felt like serious, detailed, dark and beautiful atmosphere of BB deserved better than my "overly cutesy" and "tone-deaf" art.... annnnd if this sounds like something I'd never say, but rather as an unfair criticism from some antsy reddit-ish asshole? It is because it is EXACTLY what it was! :')

But in either case, the Doll was the first time I've used paper and pencil again in many years. I felt so... alive? I recall the feeling I could only describe as 'blood returned in my veins' but spiritual, you know? It felt like so much fun! To remember how to draw traditonally, to break out of my 'round cutesy' comfort zone- heck, I even downloaded brushes for my SAI for the first time in my life, just to color the characters better! Learned new coloring style, too: usually my coloring was very rigid and relying on very concrete colors for shadow and base.. but from this point on, I prioritized more 'chaotic' approach, as I felt it was more appropriate!

....and so, now we are here. x)

You could tell that some of the things I am just used to persisted, and that colorful, "childish" energy is still slipping through the cracks. Soulsb0rne games are ideal for how my mind works... but perhaps not for how my soul works. There is just something in me that craves that sillyness, overly colorful designs and settings, and maybe ER is closer to that aesthetic? Yeah, had I not been criticized on my art harshly upon joining BB, maybe my art would've been way more cute and 'free'! I always loved drawing many details, but something about the route I've taken about drawing made it very heavy. My brain short-circuits at the AMOUNT of the details I keep in mind, yet I can't rest unless I got it "at least 90% correct", even when it is a darn shitpost ;-; I will figure out what went wrong compared with the way I used to draw humans..... someday.

Thank you for asking, though! Ha! Honorable mention: tons of shitposty comics and doodles I kept drawing in classes, both school and uni! x)

[ozymoron]

listening to some music ^_^

[beeapocalypse]

carding thru some igorrr ive not listened to before. listen to this song NOW

[yourealpurpose]

The search for truth in a distorted world is called "polemic". When the media speak of polemics, the distorted call it "truth".

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[irvingcoded]

#i think i get it#this precious thing of mine which shows me what is otherwise far away and not obvious#i will let you use it. i will show you how it feels to see#because i see you#and i want you to see the way i see#feel the way i feel#I THINK (prev tags)

yes yes ok EXACTLY and the whole aspect of, i am giving you (or showing you) this important, fragile piece of myself, i am trusting you to take care of it and not break it, hoping that in turn this will help you see and understand me better too, because i want you to; i want to be of service in offering you something that can help you, maybe change your life for the better

i don't completely know where i'm going with this or at least how to put it into words but i know i'm onto something here...

[vaguely-concerned]

I understand and agree with a lot of the frustrations about the shortcomings of Inquisition as a story. but sometimes when I hear people complain about the chosen one narrative in it I do want to just be like... you know it's a deconstruction of the concept more than anything, right. the inquisitor isn't actually chosen by anything except stumbling into the wrong (right?) room at the right (wrong?) time because they like, heard a noise or whatever. or if you think they are chosen, as many do in-universe, that's something you have to take on faith, the maker-or-whoever moves in mysterious ways indeed-style. the Inquisitor isn't actually a Destined Chosen One, they're a Just Some Guy in a fancy hat, self-delusions of grandeur to taste as you'd prefer.

a running thread that goes through all of the personal quests of the companions is the concept of a comforting lie vs. an uncomfortable truth, upholding old corrupt structures vs. disrupting them, and the role of faith in navigating that. (blackwall the warden vs. thom rainier the liar and murderer. hissrad vs. the iron bull, or is that the other way around? cassandra and the seekers -- do we tell the truth about what we find, even if it means dismantling the old order of the world? and so on.) and your inquisitor IS at the same time a comforting lie (a necessary one, in dark times? the game seems to ask) and an uncomfortable truth (we are the result of random fickle chance, no protective hand is held over the universe, it's on us to make a better world because the maker sure as hell won't lift a divine finger to help anyone, should he against all odds exist). faith wielded for political power... where's the point that it crosses the line into ugliness? is it before it even begins? what's the alternative? will anyone listen to the truth, if you tell it?

interesting how you also get a mix of companion agency in this -- you have characters like dorian who ALWAYS choose one side of the comforting lie vs. uncomfortable truth dichotomy. he will always make up his own mind to go back to tevinter and try to dismantle the corruption of the old system no matter what you say, or how you try to influence him. meanwhile iron bull is on the complete opposite side of the spectrum -- so psychologically trapped and mangled, caught in an impossible spiritual catch-22, that his sense of identity is left entirely to you and your mercy. you cannot change dorian in any way that matters; you can be his friend or not, support him or not, but he is whole no matter what. you are given incredible and potentially destructive-to-him power over bull's soul. it's really cool (and heartbreaking) to think about.

this is a game about how history will eat you even while you're still alive, and shape you into whatever image it pleases to serve it, and for all your incredible power right now you are powerless in the face of the gravitational force of time -- of more than time, of History. you won't recognize yourself in what History will make of you, because you belong to it now. you don't belong to yourself anymore and you never will again. the further you were from what it needs from you to begin with, the more you will find yourself distorted in its funhouse mirror. (why hello there inquisitor ameridan, same hat!)

and to me this is so much the core of what Dragon Age is about right from the Origins days -- how and by whom history gets written, the inherent unreliable narration of it all. I hope you like stories, Inquisitor. You are one now.

I do think it's probably still the weakest of the games narratively, and it's hampered by its structure and bloated systems. but I also find it disingenous to say that there's nothing deeper or actually interesting going on with it, thematically. if you're willing to engage with it there is Some Real Shit going on under the high fantasy-tinted surface.

[fairsweetlonging]

pixie!shen yuan au where he transmigrates into a cute little forest pixie, with pretty gossamer wings that sparkle like stars, a voice that tinkles like tiny silver bells, and long dark hair that he braids while wearing flowers as sunhats!!

he lives in a hollow tree on cang qiong, enjoying the rivers and groves and rocky cliff faces. his little house is filled with all kinds of trinkets, a lot of which he's stolen found from the sect, like buttons and beads and scraps of silk, needles as swords and fancy tea leaves from pots left out by kitchen windows. he quite likes his little life, the only downside is that he can't really read books this way, because even though he sneaks into the libraries at night and his wings are a source of light, most books are way too heavy and he's worried his (faint but present) spiritual energy will be detected.

he watches the disciples train on different peaks, soaking in all the new lore and details that airplane put way too little time and energy into. he's there before the plot, so binghe hasn't arrived yet and he can take his sweet time making a plan to ensure binghe won't destroy the mountain.

one day, though, the rare time he ventures out into qing jing peak, he gets distracted by an open window to the bamboo house. he knows it's stupid, but this might be the only chance he has to take a look inside the villain's lair, it's something he needs to know if he wants to help binghe in the future, and so he goes inside and takes a look around—

and promply gets trapped inside a mason jar.

oops.

shen qingqiu's face looks at him from the other side of the glass, still menacingly beautiful even with the slight distortion. worst-case scenarios flash through his head; crushed into pixie jam, experimentation, harvested for parts, stalled out like a fancy ornament on the shelf... but it's none of that.

"sneaking around my peak, entering my home, naughty little thing," shen qingqiu huffs, "were you not taught manners?"

he leaves the jar on the desk for a bit, chiding shen yuan but then—opens the jar? and lets him out? he tells shen yuan not to sneak into his house anymore and then just... continues with his paperwork. shen qingqiu's cruelty is limited to humans, it seems, and not animals or tiny fairies.

so of course shen yuan comes back.

he doesn't want to push it and risk shen qingqiu crushing him like a fly, but he enjoys hanging around the house and watching the qing jing disciples train and play music. ning yingying is already there, so it can't be much longer before binghe arrives. shen qingqiu is surprisingly kind to her compared to the other disciples, who he regularly drives to tears. the man notices him and tries to shoo him off, but ofc it doesn't work. after some time shen qingqiu keeps casually looking around to find him and shen yuan is proud to be getting on the man's nerves.

at some point liu qingge comes by, stomping hard enough to make the leaves shen yuan uses as a hammock shake. since it's the bai zhan war god shen yuan is excited to see him (liu qingge is often on missions, and shen yuan avoids bai zhan out of a healthy precaution of aggressive teens with swords), so he comes closer. the two peak lords hold the stupidest argument known to man that shen yuan only half listens to, fascinated by the sword liu qingge carries. but then liu qingge suddenly jerks his arm and shen yuan spooks, shooting up.

liu qingge sees something flying at his face and reacts like anyone would—he swats at it. hard.

when shen yuan hits the ground he can feel his wings get crushed under him; for a few seconds he's terrified liu qingge will stomp on him and scrambles to get away, only to get grabbed and scooped up into the air. he wildly kicks his legs and hits his tiny little fists on the hands that hold him, little voice jingling like crazy, but then shen qingqiu raises his voice and snarls at liu qingge.

"you idiot! watch where you wave those big paws of yours, brute! look what you did, you could have killed him!!"

then shen qingqiu turns around and goes into his bamboo house, kicking the door shut. he takes shen yuan to his bedroom, putting him on a soft handkerchief as he looks over his little wings and mutters vicious things to himself about "slaughter-happy idiots". shen yuan is too stunned to respond and just sits there as the scum villain fusses over him. his wings aren't really hurt, just a little squished, it's fine! shen qingqiu then lectures him for being reckless and coming so close to a brute like liu qingge.

after that they sort of become... friendly? shen yuan sets out to be the most mischievous little pixie he can be, but somehow it only works in his favor; he steals little things from shen qingqiu's home (not that he can carry much more than a button or brush), flutters in circles around the man's head, dips his little boots in ink and then walks on paperwork, etc. but shen qingqiu doesn't seem bothered by any of it. if anything, he leaves trinkets for shen yuan to take, offers his hand as a perch to sit on, and makes a tiny brush for shen yuan to use instead.

shen qingqiu gains a little friend and life gets a little calmer on qing jing peak. when binghe comes, shen yuan manages to distract shen qingqiu enough that the tea dumping never happens, and binghe is shooed off after the ceremony. binghe still isn't treated right and still has to sleep in the woodshed, but shen yuan secretly helps him and acts like a little night light in the dark, so binghe gets quite attached.

meanwhile liu qingge is regretful of having slammed a pixie out of midair and must prove his honor, thus begins the habit of dropping off gifts at shen qingqiu's doorstep (also because his sister freaked out a little, apparently hurting fairies is bad luck and he might have cursed himself for eternity? anyway).

this display causes yue qingyuan to show up too with the biggest wettest puppy eyes because he heard xiao jiu has a new friend who now lives in his house? shen qingqiu kicks them all out.

this has already gone on so long so the last thing i want to add is shen yuan eventually manages to cultivate a human form, and with a little effort he can even keep his wings! and of course this makes it worse, because that sweet little pixie is now a beautiful man who wife beams everyone in a three mile radius and doesn't even notice it.

shen qingqiu and luo binghe unexpectedly bond over beating suitors away.

[marsprincess889]

Astrology observations

Vedic

Part 9

I like this one

Uttara Bhadrapada men (irl) have only ever been major green flags to me. They're really unproblematic as a whole, honest and respectful. They might seem obnoxious to sometimes to people who don't know them but they have much more substance in them than they show. In reality, they don't like to brag or one-up others. U.Bhadras in general (all genders) consider that behavior cheap and lowly.

Punarvasu women can be so chatty and to me, they're the perfect example of "social butterflies". Considering that a larger part of this lunar mansion is in Gemini and Jupiter (their planetary ruler) is known for generosity, their inclusive, enthusiastic and witty nature is not a surprise. They almost always have a hidden sense of humor that might be unexpected for others, in a good way.

I've seen Rohini people have a thinly veiled sense of superiority 😐. Of course not all of them are like this. I think that it comes from the ease and the effortlessly received love and affection. It's also less in a condescending sense of the word and more the pride of a person who has not been thoroughly checked and sort of had been given a "pass", an easy way to something.

Anuradha nakshatra is a placement that makes a person exclusive. Anuradha is traditionally connected to friendships, bonds and all types of intimacy. With that you'd think they'd be inclusive but they're only inclusive selectively. Anuardha is fully in Scorpio, natural sign of the 8th house and secrecy is embedded in it. Secret societies and clubs are pretty much under Anuradha's domain.

Bharanis do love medieval stuff lol, I'm repeating this from one of my previous observations but that time I needed confirmation. Bharanis love history in general and they understand that true beauty is timeless. Middle Ages was a time when a lot of the world was stripped down to basics and reverted to a more natural way of living, which can be placed under Ketu and Venus energies. A lot of the symbolism and ideologies popular in medieval Europe resonate to Bharani natives and to the themes of the nakshatra on its own. I might make a separate post on this

I've noticed that people are often drawn to the themes of nakshatras that are yoni consorts of their own nakshatras, especially if they don't have them. Besides being drawn to Revati(yoni consort of my moon) natives, I am fascinated by its themes (completion, abundance, freedom, guidance, flow, deep creativity and spirituality, free will and initiation). Same with Uttara Bhadrapada (yoni consort of my ascendant), but admittedly, to a lesser degree than Revati. I'd appreciate if anyone confirmed this in comments or reblogs 🙃🤍

Uttara Phalguni relates to families and family business. Bringing people together is a result of Dhanishta nakshatra but it's on a more collective and mass level in Dhanishta's case. In case of Uttara Phalguni, they love doting on their family and strengthening it as a unit. Family is a big theme for Uttara Phalguni and it can mean blood or soul family. I go into this subject deeper in a future post that is almost ready.

My respect to Chitra natives who truly go deep into the subject of "the vessel" reflecting the essence. I think only Chitras have what it takes to really dive into and sort out the specifics of what goes with what and what should this or that look like, based on the spiritual truth. The challenge with Chitra is to align the outside to the inside, to not manipulate the surface to the point where it becomes a distortion or something "ugly". Chitra natives (big three and even Ketu) can always appreciate something avant-garde or innovative when it comes to design, appearance or culture but they also, to my initial surprise, have strong opinions about what should not be manipulated. One thing is true tho: they have very postive things to day about plastic surgery and actively encourage it, at least Chitras in my life do. If any of you have this nakshatra and are against it I would not be surprised btw, but text me, or write it below. I think Chitras are mathematical in a way and love accuracy a lot, so they also might be good researchers if they have worked on their neurotic-leaning/compulsive/Virgo-Rahu nature that often distorts the truth. I'd honestly trust Chitras more with research than Jupiter nakshatras or Ketu nakshatras, but ironically, Chitras get less respect with serious matters because they look "too superficial" to people. Jupiter and Ketu people (especially people with both of those naks in big three), on the other hand, get treated as an authority and they barely have to lift a finger, when it truth they tend to gloss over a lot of things and sometimes even twist details to fit a bigger picture that may or may not be true. Jupiter and Ketu nakshatras have positive attributes too but in this instance, when comparing to Chitra, this is the scenario that I recognize

Good thing about Tiger yonis(Vishakha and Chitra) is that with all the confrontational and active nature (that has its downsides and can lead to pettiness) is that you can never blame them for not caring. They are really focused on building and improvement, regarding anything. Vishakhas, I think, tend to be the most honest ones out of Jupiter nakshatras. I think if they lie or do something that they consider wrong they'll eventually do the the opposite, they're going to swing back and forth, because that's their nature, but they can never be just one thing. It's a nakshatra of opposites and contradictions. I've also talked about Chitra a few times already on my blog. So, they're not the kind of people who are fine with faults or mistakes, they usually go for improvement and building, that's what they intend, even if their actions lead to something else (that's the lesson/theme with them, I think).

Bharani and Ashlesha girls should have a free treat each week from the goverment to compensate for past or ongoing trauma caused by mother issues. Unserious but true

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Upcoming things: Uttara Phalguni women post, more nakshatra playlists and maybe a new small game.

If you have any nakshatras or placements you really want me to make a post on just comment or tell me otherwise and it's going to be noted.

Have a great month ahead 🤍