#SoulBaring

[desvariosdelos30]

Rage

It infuriates me.

It infuriates me to open up to people I consider trustworthy, only to be hurt, judged, and given directives.

It infuriates me when people can't handle the boundaries I set when I decide not to be a puppet of their disguised cruelty and ill intentions masked as "life advice."

It infuriates me that, to protect their egos and maintain the facade of being good people, they throw back gaslighting and hurtful words at me.

It infuriates me (perhaps to continue trusting in the goodness of the world) to bear the guilt of "oversharing," when all I sought was comfort in what I believed was a safe circle. It infuriates me, that subsequent burden that eats away at me. 

It infuriates me how people are incapable of keeping secrets and respecting feelings.

It infuriates me to be pigeonholed: the foolish one, the vulnerable one, the ignorant one, the pitiful one.

It infuriates me how tightly people cling to unforgiveness.

It infuriates me to encounter people lacking empathy who strive to sound brilliant, articulate, and knowledgeable about their subject of study: me.

It infuriates me how narrow-minded people can be.

It infuriates me how hypocritical some can be, boasting about being confrontational in private but acting diplomatically in public, without even daring to take risks when circumstances demand it, or speaking honestly when truth is necessary.

It infuriates me when people can't put themselves in someone else's shoes.

The self-inflated image of perfection infuriates me.

Shielded egos infuriate me.

Malice infuriates me.

Tasteless, hurtful jokes infuriate me.

It infuriates me that if you're not compliant with all of this and don't smile like an idiot, you're automatically labeled as crazy.

It infuriates me.

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[krockat]

when you

when you're vulnerable infront of another person

[rogerrcoyle]

written or waiting

[metfell]

i think webweaves are really such a cool form of art because you have to pull from so many different sources in order to make something coherent and meaningful, and that means you have to expose yourself to a lot of different forms of media, and if someone is really good at making webweaves it means theyve probably seen a lot of different stuff in their life, and that fascinates me. its one thing to see it represented in writing styles or drawing techniques, and another thing to just see it all collaged together right in front of me. like all art forms, webweaves are soulbaring, but theyre soulbaring in a way where it just directly puts the quotes and movie screencaps and poems and artworks that moved you all in one place.

[omeletcat]

allright i added. a temp design for the ui! i already added a functional Soulbar that keeps track of the players energy, now i wanna restrict the attacks from happening if the player doesn't have enough energy.

[dykeyote]

PLEASE TALK ABOUT YVONNE !!!! ifeel like i barely know her character

@acollectionofcuriousreblogs HEAHEHEHE YES WIN okay so this will moooatly be abt specificlaly yvonne and her friendship with jedidiah . id love to analyze yvonne on her own but its a little difficult at the moment with the material given to us (mayfield please give yvonne stuff to do outside of interact w her male friends im begging) so i have to analyze them thru the lens of their dynamic w jedidiah . but it will go into a lot of what that Reveals abt yvonne as a person also (: and what i think they have in common!! so so basically i think an underrepresented aspect of yvonnes charavter is that theyr .... pretty much the Only person besides sydney to expressly convey that she Misses jedidiah . and that she wants to spend more time with him . yes him and joshua seemed to have been maybe-friends (although they both have a kinda noticable disdain for each other and joshua says jeddie hated him so idk) as well but theres a clear difference marked between their investment in this, exemplified by lines like

this interaction, which carries the weight that while joshua wants to help Sydney, yvonne Specifically is the one that wants to help jedidiah . theres a clear contrast in the phrasing used - joshua's desire to help sydney is emphasized, and yvonnes desire to help jedidiah is a separate one that is emphasized separately. another example of this would be the fact that yvonnes college story is a story about Jedidiah, and joshua's attempts to relate to jedidiah (referencing how he used to be sydneys roommate, as well as the hotdog story) are both stories about Sydney. yes, joshua is trying to reach out to jedidiah as well, but there is a clear implication created in multiple ways that yvonne is significantly closer to him. which means a Lot when the amount of people who are significantly close to jedidiah is Slim. and again, most of the emotional moments of connection that attempt to bring jedidiah out of his shell are from yvonne also:

as well as her being as far as im aware . the Only person besides sydney Ever to express a desire to be with jedidiah more and be friends with him in the present tense, and imply that she misses him:

again, this contrast between joshua and yvonnes level of closeness with jedidiah is drawn!! yvonne says we are worried about you, but i like chatting to you. i want to do it more. which is fascinating!! why do we not talk abt this more!! jedidiahs avoidance doesnt only hurt sydney, it hurts yvonne as well - we know that its been bothering them all summer, and theyve been talking to joshua about it:

WHICH IS SOMETHING THAT IS ABLE TO GET THROUGH TO JEDIDIAH!!!!!! i think jedidiah analyses need to analyze his relationship to yvonne more genuinely . yvonne talking to jedidiah and telling him that hes hurting them is Able to get through to him to some small degree, gets him to acknowledge his behavior - i think that speaks a lot to how much their relationship stands strong, because again, like yvonne says, jedidiah does not like confiding in anyone.

and speaking of confiding!! jedidiah does the Most emotional soulbaring in this episode to yvonne (and joshua yeah but again ive shown earlier that the emphasis is a lot less on joshuas friendship) than he does to Anyone besides sydney or his mother. jedidiah talks about Deep rooted feelings that he feels horrible about having with them. Jedidiah Talks About Things He Feels Guilty About. that goes against so much of what weve seen of his character!!!! so much of jedidiahs time is spent avoiding confronting his guilt, avoiding confiding in anyone, locking himself and his emotions away - i think jeddie opening up in this scene speaks Volumes to how much his friendship with yvonne means to him, i really do think that. the fact that jeddie and yvonne arent listed on each others relationship sections in the wiki is a Crime but i digress - they clearly care about each other

but Why . this is a lot of shit about their friendship Now, but why do they feel so close to each other? what brings them together? yvonnes dedication to hanging out with jedidiah and bringing him out of his shell abd worrying about him is a pattern of behavior:

which we know from this scene here - yvonne has wanted to be close and have fun and hang out with jedidiah since college, this isnt a situation where shes just worried about a guy she knew in college being weird - they have Always liked jedidiah and wanted to hang out with him. they genuinely like yhe guy!!!!! i keep reemphasizing this but i feel like their friendship is really underanalyzed.

but again . that doesnt explain Why theyr friends . this is a lot less evidence based and a lot more me interpreting yvonnes character in my silly little brain, but i think it largely comes from the fact that theyre Similar and yvonne reaches out to that . obviously they both have a common interest in video games lol but im more talking about the fact that they both seem to be generally kind of bad at confiding their emotions in others? i get the feeling that yvonne doesnt like being vulnerable, particularly from this back and forth:

my interpretation of this is that yvonne doesnt Like sharing their emotions with people other than joshua - it doesnt come naturally for them, just like it doesnt for jedidiah. expressing that you miss a friend of yours whos been isolating himself isnt an extremely embarrassing thing to say, and joshua isnt even saying That - just that yvonnes been Bothered by it. but thats enough to get them frazzled and on the defensive, trying to get joshua to shut up. i think yvonne and jedidiah both have difficulties with expressing their emotions to others and i think thats why yvonne is drawn to jeddie - they both have this same shared difficulty, and its comforting to be with people with similar struggles to you. i think we can even sort of see this in how, like i mentioned earlier, yvonne has been waiting to tell jedidiah this All Summer - but didnt tell him in this moment. why didnt they? why are they practicing this whole monologue at all? i think its because emotional vulnerability is something they struggle with, and jedidiah is the same way. they can connect over that.

also i just think yvonne thinks jedidiahs fun and they like being around people they find fun!! i can do all this analysis but i just genuinely think they like each other!! and jedidiah seems to joke about with yvonne in a similar way to sydney on occasion, so i think theres a reason to think its reciprocal. i also think that the combination of their similarities and differences clicks in a way rhat makes them enjoy each other a lot - on the one hand, jedidiah is nervous and skittish and extremelt christian, and yvonne is a quote "fun-loving troublemaker" (can you tell i read the wiki a lot for this post) and a party goth. being w people who are different from you is fun, but at their core, theyre pretty similar - they have a common interest in video games which is really important in a friendship, they both have difficulty being vulnerable with their emotions (although yvonne seems to have a healthy outlet in joshua and seems to make much more of an attempt to overcome this flaw than jedidiah does, so i actually think yvonne would be a reallt healthy friendship for jedidiah going forwards as i think theyr someone who could be helpful and a good example to follow), and they honestly both seem to have a similar sense of humor. idk that might just be the sense of humor of the show but they seem to have good rapport with each other with dry jokes when jedidiah loosens up a little.

also i couldnt really fit this into the flow but:

i think this scene is fun i like that they had Adventures together and i like that jedidiah says he "didnt know how to talk to people" past tense as if this isnt ABSOLUTELY still the case. but also the fact that yvonne was the best thing about college for him?? SO sweet but also makes me SO sad that their friendship isnt so close anymore. jedidiah really cares about her!!!! i couldnt fit this into the flow properly but i think its important to notice that jedidiah absolutely cares for yvonne too!!!!!

thank u for ur time . they r one of my favorite relationships in the entire show and by far my favorite friendship

[the-exhausted-xexandaler]

I stare at the infantile mortal carefully. This is a first for me. I, Gregorionus, third in line for the throne of the 3rd ring and third son of the Triagorial family… acting as… I believe the mortal called me a ‘sitter’? Sitting on what? The child? Wouldn’t that harm the youth?

The child stares back at me… like they’re trying to figure me out.

I cough as I speak to the small one. ‘Sooooo… do you like soulfood? Good for a growing demon, but I don’t know how it would be for humans.’ I say as I take out a Soulbar from my backpack.

What? Demons need to go to school as well. I’ll have you know reader that I am in 662nd grade. I’ll be graduating in another four years.

As I break the fourth wall, I can help but notice that my hands feel… empty. I look towards where my Soulbar was and only see crumbs on the face of the child.

‘Well, I suppose that solves that dilemma. I don’t have training yet for how to make human food, so you can have some of these though out my service here.’

The child tilts their head. Seriously what kind of parent leaves without informing their contracted demon about what they need to do. That damned lady didn’t even inform me about what this childs name is.

‘I can hardly just call you ‘Child’, so speak thy name!’ I demand as I hold the… youth up before my face.

They smile happily. ‘Becky. I dis Beccy.’

I smirk. ‘Becky eh? Not a difficult name to remember.’ I say setting Becky down before I take in the room carefully. It’s quite small, at least compared to my room back home and even at the school. ‘So Becky, what do you play around here?’

I’m just going to assume given the name that this is a girl. Screw you humans in the fourth plane for being so anal about genders and identity.

Back on the subject matter, little Becky smiles before quickly running off to a shelf. She reaches for a book with a crusted weathered spine just a little to far away for her to reach. Is that her favorite story? Maybe she wants me to read it to her.

I grab the book she is reaching for. ‘Shall we do a little light reading before we have a meal together Becky?’

Her face lights up. ‘Ray! Stawy teim!’ She shouts. What charm this young one has.

I take a seat in the maluable seat that I believe humans call a ‘bean bag chair’ and set her in my lap. ‘Now then, what is this book anyways?’ I say before I read the front. ‘Demonic Summoning, Magic, Contracting and You? I didn’t know they had this tome on this plane. This should be a good read for you little Becky. Shall I begin?’

Becky nods vigorously. ‘Yee! I get te be wik mama!’

‘Hohoho! I’m sure you will be little one. Now sit back and listen to the greatest voice in all of the third circle brings information to your mind.’

What nobody knew was that this would be the start of the greatest Demonic Mage of the 24th century. But we’ll get to that story after mama gets home from work.

You’re a demon. One day, you’re summoned into a living room, and an exhausted woman quickly rambles about needing to get to work and being unable to find a sitter before flying out the door. Now, you stand in your summoning circle, a toddler staring wide eyed at you.

[icharchivist]

Honestly, I completely feel you in that regard

There's something very intimate about sharing a show or a game or a book that you hold dear to your heart with someone. You are opening yourself and sharing a piece of your soul, in a way

Which reminds me, I need to force my boyfriend to play Ōkami

Right? this is exactly this type of feeling. It's a bit frightening at time also but it's also very powerful in its own way, right?

so yeah, pretty much

and yeah!!!! your boyfriend should know what your soulbaring media is!!! godspeed!!! give Amateratsu all of the good pats as you do so.

[malewifesband]

writing something so deeply selfindulgent in every sense that i cannot share it with my name attached like what am i going to do here can i ethically keep this art from the weird perverts who share a bit of my soul. can i just drop it off somewhere on a brand new account i will never check again. i guess unless i write some other soulbaring erotica too humiliating for anyone to know i wrote

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[queencocoakimmie]

Call Her Name

“Call Her Name” She is the pretty thing, With fallen stars in her Eyes. The flame that Hypnotizes him And leads him to the brink. She captivates him with her Words And he dances to every Poetic heartbeat. She is the fantasy That became a dream That he never Wants to wake from. And all he has to do is call her name. ©️KVP

She is the pretty thing,With fallen stars in herEyes. The flame thatHypnotizes himAnd leads him to the brink. She captivates him with herWordsAnd he dances to everyPoetic heartbeat. He is an innocent hostage,Captivated and held prisonerBy her voice,Her scentHer love. She shows him thingsHe’s never known.Opened his mind to a futureNot come to pass. And he has laid his soulBare at her…

[despoticsalad]

I feel really isolated at the moment. I don't know if that's because it's late, because I'm [under 25] years old or what but it can be really lonely being me. I have friends at [place of learning], like a not insignificant number of them, but I feel so different to them and apart from everyone that it's kinda heartbreaking. It doesn't help that I only really get to see them in [place of learning] because we have pretty different ideas of having fun with friends. I don't go to a lot of parties, I don't drink, I don't take any drugs that aren't prescribed to me.

I really want to have fun with them and be able to talk and be a friend outside of the weird normative claustrophobia of [place of learning] but every time I try to organise something it all falls apart, so it feels like why should I even bother? My parents were really big on Internet safety when I was younger, so I don't actually know a single person I haven't met in person. So I feel pretty isolated right now.

Probably only two people will ever see this, so I'm not really sure why I'm writing it down. I guess it's comforting, in a way, even if it feels a tad humiliating to say this without an audience, to just speak into the void knowing it won't answer. I'm probably going to spend the next three days obsessing over if anyone actually reads this. Hey ho, que sera sera and all that.