#Sorry for the ramble! I’m just happy
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I can’t think of a funny caption for this . Sorry not sorry . Yoga
#looks to the moon#rain world#I was worried while making this that it’d be a case where i try a new style#And the first drawing goes SUPER well#But everything after that is shit#So I’m pleasantly surprised by how this turned out!#Originally she was going to be in a more crescent shape#with the moon outlining her entire body#Maybe I’ll do something like that in the future#But i wanted to do something more dynamic kinda#Sorry for the ramble! I’m just happy#also click for better quality
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AGH happy (definitely-not-late) bday to mr jamil viper 💖🐍 and thank u harveston jamil for coming home as well as two of his bday cards 💖💥
#i put WAY too much effort into this and;; i dont even like it 100% 😭#i gave up on the patterns </3#but anyways#thank u jamil for ruining my life ily#also happy holidays everyone (it’s literally still back-to-school season)#actually technically it's already christmas in the philippines#so uhhh#it fits???#thank u harveston sledathon for the perfect timing#[—✦-#-✧ my art#twst#twisted wonderland#twst art#jamil viper#harveston sledathon#-✦—]#also also i havent??? posted art in almost a week???#das crazyyy#i got sick the day after his bday when i was supposed to be finishing up his art >:[#then i just lost all energy for a bit i couldnt do anything 😭#anyways it’s like. 4am i cant sleep#so i decided to just finish up his bday art 😤#who knew drinking thai boba milk tea at 5pm wouldnt be such a good idea#i feel like i’m unnecessarily rambling more than usual lmao sorry 😭
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The Lady (plus HK he’s there too) from chapter 34 of RnS bc she’s very very cool and Silverskye’s descriptions make me want to draw :]
#this drawing made me go insane but like. in a fun way#the lighting was so fun to mess around with and rendering everything was very fun#idk I really like how this turned out#I promise I didn’t mean to draw Helsknight again (/lh) but I liked the composition better with them there#and the fact that meant that I got to draw Helsknight was just an added bonus hehe#anyway I’m very happy with this drawing#sorry for the tag ramble lol#redstone and skulk#helsknight#my art
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So I finally caught up on My Stand In after being 3 episodes behind due to irl reasons.
The last three episodes have been a lot and while I’m sad to have missed the weekly discussions, I’m also kind of glad I watched all three at once because it gave me the opportunity to get to watch Ming’s progress rapidly rather than waiting (which my ADHD brain is very happy about) and the one thing really stuck with me through all three episodes.
Of the three who knows Joe is Joe, Ming is the only one to figure it out completely on his own. He doesn’t overhear anything, he isn’t told by anyone. Even the priest (is that what he is? Citation needed) won’t give Ming the straight answer he seeks. Joe is neither dead nor alive but a secret third thing, his soul has transmigrated to another body entirely.
Before, when he didn’t know, we got the small kernels of change. Ming is much more straight forward than he used to be. While he was never one to mince words, he is more truthful and up front, even with Joe 2.0. He is honest with him from the start about exactly what he wants. He doesn’t tell Joe the real reason why he wants it, but that’s understandable given that no one else is willing to believe Ming when he says Joe is still alive. So why tell this new stand in why you want him to be so.
Then he figures it out. He puts together the context clues and believes the impossible because he’s the only one who never gave up hope that Joe would come home, would come back to him. Joe does come back to him and Ming immediately sets out to ensure that Joe exactly where he stands in terms of how Ming feels about him. Ming needs Joe to understand exactly what he wants. Ming is probably always going to be the type of person who will use underhanded tactics in certain situations, but it’s completely understandable why he uses the contract to keep Joe with him.
Ming offers up explanations where Joe didn’t ask for them, because he knows that Joe deserves them, whether or not he asks for them. He wants Joe to understand that he regrets a lot of his past actions, including what he did for Tong at the end. Ming had all but admitted that if he could go back and change it, he would.
Ming is willing to confront so many issues head on. He is learning to deal with his emotions in a way that is more productive for them all. He has started to feel more of his emotions out loud in a way he didn’t before. He promised himself he would change if Joe ever came back and so far he has kept his promise. He will better himself and he will grow. He will no longer be stagnant.
He is even willing to tell his father that he is dating Joe. The mere mention of it clearly terrifies him more than he has the words to express, something that Joe picks up on right away and tries to protect both of them from. Preemptively breaking up with Ming to try and save them both a worst heartbreak than simply breaking up.
Tong had spent so much of the show attempting to prove again and again that Ming is under his thumb. He knew that Ming was in love with him in the past and still believes he is now, but he is wrong. Ming will no longer allow himself to be manipulated by Tong and by extension his mother. So he will shoot their ace out of the sky by doing the one thing that terrifies him the most. He will tell his father that he is gay. That he is gay and dating a man. A man named Joe.
He will accept what comes next because the only other options is to lose Joe and Ming absolutely will not do that for a second time. He is willing to lose everything, as long as it means he doesn’t lose Joe.
#my stand in#my stand in the series#mingjoe#joeming#my stand in meta#kind of#mostly i’m just rambling#finally caught up and i’m so happy i did#ming is such an amazing character#and no i will not be taking criticism at this time#i finally understand how people feel about vegas#because i feel that way about ming#he is my wet and pathetic little meow meow#and i love him so much#anyway this is unedited as per usual#sorry not sorry#cap watches my stand in#cap speaks
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As someone who is constantly in awe of you, whether it’s art or writing, how do you stay motivated? 😭💙💖 such talent shouldn’t be legal!
Hi😭🥹🫶 I don’t know what I did to deserve such high praise😭😭🥹🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂💓💓💓💓
I only started writing in January & these fanarts I started in April so maybe I’m not the best to answer but I’ll try!!🫶🫶🫶
Short answer: I’m motivated by brainrot & the characters that move into my brain and demand to be drawn/written😭
Longer answer: I’ve always loved and been obsessed with stories & even before I learned fanfic was a thing last year (I live under a rock), I was always creating these crazy stories in my brain. I used to play the sims a lot for example…I would literally delete every premade family & make my own super complex relationships/generational drama and just watch the chaos play out and I always had so much fun coming up with different storylines and thinking about their personalities and how they would probably interact with each other.
I also read like CRAZY !!! 😳 I am a book devourer & am especially drawn to very long books that have beautiful writing and amazing characterizations:
Lonesome Dove (my favorite book of all time with my favorite character of all time, Gus🥺)
The Brothers Karamazov
Anna Karenina
Ulysses
100 Years of Solitude (100 años de soledad)
Rayuela (Hopscotch) & basically every Cortázar short story
Ok basically every Latin American novel/short story from the 20th century let’s be honest😆
The Mists of Avalon
Jane Austen
Donna Tartt
Etc etc etc I JUST LOVE READING !!!!
And so, even though I don’t consider myself a very good writer, and I would never even hope to become as good as the authors I read, I think it’s fun to try and capture some feelings and emotions of what it’s like to be human💓 I always try to write the characters with love and care and maybe it’s my obsession to make them almost three-dimensional that keeps my brain rot strong😆 I might not achieve it but I’m having a lot of fun trying…
As for creating so consistently, the writing part isn’t so hard bc once I get an idea in my mind I just want to write it! I don’t get oneshot ideas often but when I do I’m like😳✍️✍️✍️✍️ until it’s over😆 I think coming up with plot/ideas/characterizations takes me a lot longer than actually writing - I barely edit what I post because what I write down is already pretty polished.
For my art, I just love the human body/anatomy/angles etc and I have a lot of fun trying to make the drawings have a lot of movement and that’s kind of what motivates me. Art is also my job & so I’m just used to doing it all the time & these fanarts are a fun way to cool down after I do my “normal” art. The more I draw the more ideas I get, and I like to draw scenes from either my fanfic, or scenes that I think are cute but will probably never happen. But THEN sometimes the “extra” drawings inspire things, like my latest oneshot🫶
If you’re reading this and you’re a writer or artist too & look at it differently I would LOVE to hear what you think!!! Since I’m just starting out with all of this maybe there are better methods😆🫶 for me it’s just a love for stories and wanting to create all the time!!!
#is this even interesting😆😆😆#sorry maybe I rambled too much#so i guess if you read all of this 😳💘#I never push myself to write though and this summer I just did fanart instead of writing#but I’m starting to write more again and I’m happy I took the break bc I think my newer writing has improved a bit🫶#also fun fact I barely even played the game#(I’m not a big videogamer to start out with and as soon as I got my canon divergence story for Eloise in my brain…#I stopped playing and started using my free time for this😆😆)#ask
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Fabian and Riz to me are like. They’re like the definition of “a secret third thing” to me but not like in a qpr way. Their thing is just Their Thing, like they’re inseparable they drive each other fucking bonkers they care so deeply and they’re stupid teenagers and I don’t think they would even really think about it at all. I don’t think either of them can imagine a world where they’re not at least around the other, and like whatever their thing is definitely isn’t allo but it’s definitely not regular besties shit. They just like being around each other, I don’t think either of them would really even think to put a name to whatever it is they’ve got going on, and I definitely don’t think either of them would ever put enough thought into it to even figure out what a qpr is, much less label themselves in one. They’re just Fabian and Riz. The Ball and Captain of the Owlbears. They’re just them I think. Idk man.
#kiri rambles#idk dude it’s a hard thought to verbalize I think#as someone who is more recently realizing that I’m PROBABLY at least some manner of arospec and probably also acespec but also in a very-#-happy romantic relationship of nearly two years with my best friend- who’s also thinking he’s at least acespec- I just kinda relate to-#-whatever thing they have going on is#like yeah technically we’re dating but we’re also just like. hanging out mostly. idk#IDK. idk I just relate to their crazy codependent bullshit I guess#fabriz#<- sort of?? idk#like I like some of the ship stuff a lot of it is very funny and I relate to it but I also really respect the more stark aroace Riz-#-believers like I think they’re both true. yeah he IS aroace or at least aroacespec to me but also FROM EXPERIENCE whatever he and Fabian-#-have going on has NO way to be like regularly platonic#I guess this makes me a qpr Fabriz truther?? idk I don’t think they’d ever outright say it#but it’s the same flavor as a qpr I think. it’s in the same vein but neither of them will ever acknowledge it#anyways sorry for my incoherent ramblings I just Feel That Shit man#riz gukgak#fabian aramais seacaster#fabian seacaster#d20#fantasy high#yeah that’s all the tags I’m giving it I’m tired
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A little redraw of one of my favorite scenes in this game ✨ (screenshot under cut!)
I just. Love this image so so much. Look at them!!
#remy rambles#remy doodles#my art#I’m gonna be so real with yall I just needed to get rid of the rest of my scrap paper from the Flight Risk piece#also I am realizing the mistakes I made in this piece but I’m posting it anyways because I am still happy with it#and I wanted to share because I love the game and the characters. I gotta get more practice in with the art part tho#fanart#in stars and time#isat#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#I’m. not tagging the individual characters sorry <3
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Rope MF is one of the best Kirby OCs I’ve seen in a while. I love how he simultaneously is silly but also not a joke.
I can’t tell if you actually mean it or if it’s a joke that’s flying over my head, but thank you!!!
Focusing on the topic:
He is no joke, my guy swings on rope 24 hours a few days a week. Like I said in my previous post, probably have a crazy sleeper build.
Like if Bandana Waddle Dee was able to crack the planet at the beginning of his career, just imagine what Rope MF could do
Going into Rope MF origins when being created:
It’s funny you say that their not a joke because originally that what they were!
Rope MF was a joke character in a game concept I had where Kirby, King Dedede, and Meta Knight were all captured and Bandana Dee had to save the day.
It would’ve been a turned-based rpg where you had different waddle dees to join your party and Rope MF was one of them. Because while I was looking at the different types of waddle dees I just found it funny that swinging waddle dee was a type of waddle dee. Rope MF would’ve been one of the weakest member of your party because all he had was a rope, and you can’t do much with that. But then I grew fond of the idea of if you had him in your party the whole time, and if you complete his side quests he’d be one of your most powerful asset (imagine Terry from Lisa the Painful).
This was the first ever drawing of them:
This was the second drawing when Bandana Dee completes his arc of not being ashamed of being a waddle dee. He then goes on an entire rant about how each Waddle Dee was special, and I included Rope MF because I thought it was funny:
I lowkey became attached to Rope MF and decided to make them their own character backstory and all, but they’re mainly here to explain their love of ropes
Here’s a little bonus comic of the aftermath of the Megaton Punch:
Rope MF never changes and I love him for it
#Sorry for the ramble a bit there I’m just shocked and very happy that someone actually like Rope MF that much#Like “best in awhile” is crazy /pos because I’ve seen many other significantly better designed and written Kirby OCs recently#Don’t get me wrong I love Rope MF as if they were my own son but there are Kirby OCs that actually show complex motives and emotions beside#rope glee (Rope MF has a rope)#rope stress (Mirror dimension version of him does not have a rope)#and British distraught (Mirror dimension version of him is f*cking British)#But I’m very thankful you’ve been interacting with these silly Rope MF posts#and if Rope MF were to hear that compliment he’d be very confused but thankful nonetheless (they’re not the best with compliments)#but fr tho don’t take Rope MF in a fight they could probably rock your sh*t#Kirby#kirby oc#king dedede#bandana dee#Waddle dee#waddle dee oc#Rope MF#& ask away
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took myself on a little shopping trip yesterday in the city where i used to study in hopes of lifting my spirits but by the end of the day i felt so disheartened. wandering the same streets 10 years later and not much has changed. i’m still the same lonely unlovable girl.
#i just wanted to have a good time and not rot in bed for once on my work free weekend but of course my brain can’t let that happen#it was such a lovely day actually the weather was sunny and windy it wasn’t too hot or cold ideal weather to stroll through the city#i had delicious food and found some comfortable clothes but at the end of the day i just felt so empty and worn out#seeing all these couples and friend groups and families and i’m still all by myself after so many years#tbh i’m even lonelier now than i was 10 years ago back then i at least had a few friends#idk what i’m doing with my life tbh.. i just want to be happy but even when i take myself on a cute little date i end up feeling miserable#bc it just hits me how truly lonely i am#i fear i’m incapable of forming any genuine relationships anymore bc i had so many bad experiences that i just stopped trying to connect..#with anyone.. even though i crave community friendship companionship and love i completely shut myself off from the world#i’m not even sure what i’m trying to say with all this.. i wish i knew how to be a person in this world#i wish i could be happy#tbh ever since i got back from my italy vacation i’ve been feeling depressed bc life could be so beautiful if i didn’t have to sacrifice..#almost all of my time for work#the post vacation depression is too real…#realizing you can only spend a very limited time traveling and enjoying yourself bc you have to work most of the time just to afford living#let me stop.. i keep rambling and my thoughts are falling like a waterfall#idk what’s wrong with me… i should have breakfast and put my phone away#sorry to anyone who actually reads all this word vomit#☁️
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was trying to figure out why my fic a letter to your old address was getting hella kudos out of nowhere and well uh
I see
#momma im famous#I’m sorry this is the funniest way for a fic of mine to blow up for the first time#like everyone going to read letters is going to get fucking whiplash the entire fic is not like this I prommy#taking this as a compliment btw I’ve been laughing for that last 10 minutes#happy so many people love this stupid little line#fun fact- I wrote it after actually forgetting Fit was bald and not just his cubito#it was a lil reminder lmao#mad ramblings#qsmp#qsmp fic#qsmp slimecicle#Slimecicle#qsmp fitmc#links
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I don’t know how to describe it but I have this feeling, and I want to express that feeling..
I have this specific color palette that I just wanted to use, the colors are filled with really pretty oranges… I think it’s beautiful, and it wouldn’t leave my head so I had to draw something for it. It’s simple (the background took me a a bit to get-) but I think it looks nice.
I don’t know how to describe HOW I feel, but how I feel is this. You can interpret anything, and I think I’ll agree that I feel that way.
I didn’t have a bad day or anything, I just feel strange. I see orange- like a comforting orange.
#Pizza Tower#Sorry about my little ramble#I just feeling.#I love using orange color palettes#They always just give me so much comfort#I feel like I’m getting a warm hug#I feel happy#I feel comfy#and I feel warm.#Peppino#Rambles
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I’ve read Les Mis a couple times now and I’m always blown away by just how kind Valjean is. Like every time I reread it I’m a little more impressed by the fact that he manages to be a good caring dude even while carrying around his metric ass-ton of troubles.
Yeah, it’s so good! And so complicated too? Idk the more I reread Les Mis, the more I enjoy the way it dives into “the politics of politeness,” the difference between being kind and being polite…and the way people like Jean Valjean are violently forced to behave in excessively ‘polite’ meek conciliatory ways in order to escape abuse.
And again, that’s something that really strikes me about Valjean’s story, and his complicated brand of kindness, in particular?
He’s genuinely a kind compassionate person; but, because of his status as a convict, he’s also forced to be excessively conciliatory to people like police officers who have authority over him, out of fear of punishment and torture. Especially before he earned his money, he had a social obligation to cringe and fawn before authority figures, to prevent them from hurting him. He’s gentle to people out of genuine love and sympathy, but he’s also often forced to be polite out of fear. And while he is a genuinely a sweet gentle compassionate person, you’re often forced to wonder: would Valjean behave with such excessive meekness if he wasn’t living in a state of paranoia and terror where a single ‘wrong move’ could make him suspicious, and lead to his imprisonment, torture, and death?
The lines between Valjean’s genuine kindness and the forced mask of politeness that’s been violently imposed on him can get really blurred.
And it’s telling that some of Valjean’s actually kindest moments are the times when he risks arrest and has himself branded a criminal, in order to save people- the moments where he sacrifices the approval of ‘polite society’ to do something genuinely compassionate.
#Les mis#thank you for the ask!!!#but yeah sorry I see the words Jean Valjean and words spill out#he’s just a little guy!!!!!#an unbearably sad beast#I do want to write a whole post on the whole ‘enforced conciliatory politeness’ in Les mis thing#because it’s also a huge thing with thenardier and javert#thenardier tries to play at being meek conciliatory and polite to authorities#but he is Bad at it#he’s awful at it#he’s terrible at lying and pretending to respect them#but he’s also right that it’s dehumanizing to even have to?#to cringe and fawn and lick boots in order to survive#Javert of course is very happy to lick boots#it’s genuinely his favorite thing to do#but now I’m rambling#XD
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i watched I Saw The TV Glow and now i’m debating my gender very terribly hard rn
#venting in the tags sorry public#i actually did sort of ‘transition’ in 7th grade#i went by a different name i cut my hair and it actually made me really happy#the only reason i was (TW) doing so bad mentally was because i hated my body#i also was on drugs and obviously that isn’t good#but i felt so judged by my peers that i was embarassed to be ftm so i got more feminine#and not only that but coming out was too tiring#way more tiring than coming out to everyone as a lesbian#and i got comfortable in my femininity and it was never an issue but i have always felt like something was missing#i love being masculine and i like he/him pronouns a lot#but 9 times out of 10 when i’m feminine i just don’t feel like me#i feel like someone else#but i’m scared to admit or even consider the possibility that i’m not a girl at all#i’m comfortable identifying as genderfluid but…idk#the label has never felt like me.#none of them do. and i know i don’t have to label myself but unlabled/queer isn’t me either#the only one that i felt comfortable being was trans masc/trans ftm. so#i’m going through it#gender identity is confusing#reia rambles idk
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Trying to learn gg combos having never played a fighting game before is so funny this is rlly a second language
#I’m slowly learning… i can understand more now than I did a week ago#its progress and its slow BUT GOD. I need one of those uhhh. table top game control things (?)#IDK. or a better keyboard or smtn LOL I tried my pro controller but the stick sensitivity is wayyyyy too high#IDK IM ALSO SO EXCITED TO FINALLY PLAY GAMES on desktop#<- guy who never was allowed to play video games until he could buy them himself#literally like my first game I ACTUALLY played was splatoon#and now it’s GG#omfg it’s so exciting for me sorry I���m just so happy… I’m glad I can finally experience this and play with buddies#even if I. really really don’t understand it yet#fiyr rambles
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I’m just hoping people won’t ruin Buddie for me by slapping on BuckTommy. Cause we still have so many great Buddie moments besides other beautiful storylines. Yes i’m a buddie shipper and a great fan of BuckTommy and i’m just enjoying both. The Buddie and the BuckTommy moments, but making all the BuckTommy moments be about Buddie is starting to annoy me.
#sorry#i just try to enjoy the amazing episodes we have#we came a lot closer to buddie thanks to tommy#and i enjoying that ride right now#cause Tommy is amazing as well#and i’m kinda okay with buddie just being friends right now#so just let bucktommy happen for a little while more#and let buddie enter the stage when it’s their time#but please stop hating on bucktommy#and just be happy what abc has given us so far#we could have had the show ended with s6#so i don’t know what you prefer here#sorry for my rambling#buddie#bucktommy#911 on abc#911 abc#evan buckley#eddie diaz#tommy kinard#txt post#my thoughts
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˙𖦹 Forever boy : small in a big world.
tw : vent post.
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Feeling so small, but unable to.
( not supposed to. Alone. Feeling disgusted. Feeling unwanted. Feeling isolated. Am just a lost boy here, with nowhere to go. Am just a kid, but shouldn’t be. Am just a child, stuck in a mind I cannot cope. Turning my back. )
not small enough. Not like them..
( not afraid. Having things to soothe. Things to hold and touch and play. Having nice sheets and fun toys. Having cute pacifiers and patterned sippy cups. Having things. Dressing up in onesies and cute toddler clothes. Having diaps and baby plates. Maybe they have a carer to love them, maybe their sibby, maybe their friends they share their tiny time to/with. Maybe they are all better than I ever could hope to be. Maybe they deserve more than I. )
#⠀꒰͡⠀ bubba vents ⋆⸜ 🩹 ︵⠀#sorry for vent post again *sad face*#but also#oh sorry *😐* *does not care*#eeergh#those who hate my vent posts can feel free to filter my tag out auwjenffn#vent post#sfw interaction only#big thoughts big feelings tiny brain#:( idk why I’m feeling like this. been avoiding regression now like the plague#help >_>#boyre#wish had someone here to be like >:C “you WILL regress nEOWWW#but that’s like 🤷♂️ not gna happen bc I’m stubborn so would js be pointless#just rambling atp#vent#I feel so happy for everyone else#that can have these nice things#but at the same time I guess that’s why I’m feeling sad#because I have nothing#except plushies I guess
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