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#negativity cw#unsanitary cw#<- not really just in case#cannot wait for one of my housemates to hopefully move out in the spring#So goddamn messy#Sharing a kitchen with them is a nightmare#Literal puddles on the floor just from filling up their water bottle from the fridge#Spilled water all around the sink#So much food crumbs on the floor we have to wear socks#Hair strands on the counter (???)#stove left caked in oil and grease#Food stains on the place mats (at least I hope they’re food stains and not paint stains)#They’ve been here for 1.5 years and multiple interventions from the landlords and other housemates has done nothing#Their lease renewal is coming up and they’ve mentioned moving in with their SO#I hope they go#None of my other housemates are nearly this messy#They’re within a year of my age and work in a career where they have the responsibility of other people's wellbeing#They are goddamn capable of not trashing the kitchen#I’m just glad I don’t have to share a bathroom with them
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the last shadow puppets - everything you've come to expect: 2016 tour outfits — almost all clothes custom made by ray brown sources
#bands#tlsp#the last shadow puppets#alex turner#miles kane#eycte era#fashion#my content#honestly idk what to tag this im just so relieved it's done after 11 fucking months#a good portion of that time was spent not looking at the document to be fair but still#please click on the sources list btw i did mla citations ^-^for fun.#if anything's wrong or missing please let me knoww#i hope this. idk helps you identify what show a clip was from. which is my original intention with this#or appreciate how fucking many outfits they had during this goddamn tour#i know it's messy. i know. i could only gaf so much.#i felt so cringe adding my username in but just in case a slide gets posted somewhere else out of context (incredibly wildly unlikely)#i wanted people to know where to find the rest. in case they were interested. i dont know
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EVERYONE STOP WHAT YOURE DOING RIGHT FUCKING NOW
EVERYBODY SHUT UP IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#the teru & reigen virus can attack at any time.#over the most miniscule things at that.#IVE CONSIDERED THE POSSIBILITY OF THEM BOTH LIKING IT BEFORE. BECAUSE OF REIGEN’S. TASTE IN MOVIES#BUT. AHHHHH!!!!! HAHGHHHGHG!!!!!!!!!!!#its REAL#teru finding reigen’s fdp poster. barely restraining his overjoyed wonder that someone else enjoys something niche he enjoys#teru in his most normalest voice ever: oh wow you like this movie too? what a coincidence! [jittering so bad he might burst]#the teru&reigen movie lineup must he INSANE#be*#i need to make a fic right now (is about to go to sleep)#the possibilities. (<-is insane and crazy and insatiable)#flashback to the flying dead pig comic. tear streaks down cheek#I COULD SENSE THE ENERGY FROM A MILE AWAY. CANNOT HIDE FROM ME#i think reigen would enjoy having someone to talk crappy movies with. but teru would genuinely love them i think so reigen would have to#tread lightly while speaking about them#reigen: yeah the direction in this movie was totally messy#teru concealing biggest saddest frown ever: it is just creative. you dont know a goddamn thing#reigen would not hide his truths [emoji] but he would pity the boy#teru&reigen seventeen hour discussion about old obscure movies (NO SURVIVORS RITSU CAUGHT IN THE BLAST AND KILLED)#im sick#i also love how this trivia is worded. its very deliberate if you get what i mean#‘[muttering out of side of mouth] also..if you didnt know…..’#its a fun piece of factoid to share. and i. i really. im im teally. i jsut . i am telaly gals thhat they worded it aaid ltit like thaey did.#THIS IS SUXH NOTHINGBURGER. IM SORRY#dude this is why i have the teru reigen family album. im desperate for the smallest of morsels. just a CRUMBBB PLEAAASE#GHHAHAHEHEHAJA !!!!! HHHRHEGEGAHAHS S AAWWHHHH AHHHHBABHAHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH!!! RRRRAGHSHHAAAGAGEGGEHHRHRH#mob psycho 100#mp100#teruki hanazawa#reigen arataka
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Law and Usopp should be BEST FRIENDS and I have proof
#my art#god usopp#trafalgar law#i got tired so have a bunch of messy sketches#i have been so goddamn busy lately and i doodle silly bullshit whenever i have time to breathe LMFAO#this is lowkey a gift for an irl. put our blorbos on a playdate#when u see this haayyyyy j :)
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Me : well maybe it's not that bad?
Me : looking for radioapple art and immediately get hit with big buff Alastor and tiny shorter than in canon Lucifer, Lucifer in a dress getting fucked by Alastor, Lucifer in a dress getting fucked by big buff Alastor, Lucifer who look like 5 yo and 'suave sugar daddy' Alastor who holds him and each with thousands of likes and absolutely zero of anything else than that
Me : nope 🙃😔
Save me Vox/Al artists, save me
Man, I love Vox/Alastor art so much.
I just love the Vox/Alastor ship as a whole, be it one-sided, mutual, or anything in between, and a lot of it stems from Alastor still feeling like he's Alastor.
I mean, I think people make Alastor a little more cruel and heartless towards Vox sometimes, but overall he still feels like himself. He gets to be dangerous and manipulative and he gets to be silly and whimsical. It's perfect.
Adding a cut right here because this post got WAY longer than I anticipated ⬇️
I think with RadioApple, when it comes to Alastor, people lean too much into this:
And not enough into this:
It feels like his fun, sassy, and whimsical side gets stripped away and he's turned into a stereotypically tall, dark and menacing love interest.
Where's his flamboyancy? His razzamatazz! As Susan would say, "Where's the showmanship? Where's the pizzaz? Fucking mediocre."
If I'm reading a fic or looking at art and I can't imagine their Alastor doing one of his girly-pop wrist flicks -
- then I can't keep going. His girly-pop vibes are too important to me.
Of course, when it comes to tone in both fics and art, sometimes fun and whimsical aren't what the artist is going for. But even outside of NSFW art and stories, so often Alastor just feels...bland. He feels too stiff. Too much like a suave, old fashioned, smooth talking gentleman, and not enough like a fun, silly, and sassy little freak who loves trolling people.
And with Lucifer if feels like they lean too much into this:
And not enough of this:
I feel like any, if not all, of Lucifer's flaws are brushed aside so often and so easily.
He feels softened and watered down. Like he's either a sad & awkward UwU boi all the time, or he's the most flamboyant, seductive little minx there is. And to be fair, he is both a very sad boi and a seductive little minx.
But rarely does he ever come across as powerful to me. A lot of the time he feels too normal. Or too sad and naive. Literally, like he could be any other sinner if I didn't already know he was the kind of Hell. And that's so funny to me because we've seen him openly and extravagantly display his powers multiple times in the show--not to the extent that he did in the finale--but he was definitely flaunting all the things he could do, make, or summon for Charlie during his musical-battle with Alastor. He was 100% showing off how powerful he is.
Not only that, but, honestly, Lucifer feels too open and sincere because that man is judgmental as fuck.
Going back to the "Dad Beat Dad" episode, there are multiple examples of him being a self-righteous little shit: 1) he was incredibly critical of Charlie's hotel the moment he stepped inside, even if he tried, and failed, to cover it, 2) he didn't even try to hide his disgust for Alastor's bar, which he didn't even know was incorporated by Alastor (who he hadn't even met him yet) and could've been incorporated by Charlie or Vaggie, for all he knew, 3) he wasn't taking Charlie's hotel or her plan for redemption seriously from the start, he didn't even have his mind open to the possibility, he wasn't there to hear about her plans he was only there to see her, and 3) when the hotel was attacked by the loan sharks, instead of making them go away or preventing the hotel from being damaged - which he could have very easily done with no amount of effort - he hung back and smugly reiterated that he was right and sinners can't be redeemed and Charlie should just give up on her goals/dreams because it's just not possible so there's no point in trying.
Like, Charlie was very clearly in distress over her hotel being attacked and destroyed, but he was too busy boasting about how he'd been "proven" right to see that.
He's very easy to anger and his ego is so easily bruised. Alastor got under his skin immediately and effortlessly - though I also believe that's on part that Lucifer doesn't have a high opinions of sinners anyway - and Lucifer 100% escalated the conversation/argument he had with Alastor during their first meeting.
See the whole scene of him referring to Alastor as a "has-been" and insulting the name he'd given the hotel, especially when you take into consideration that until Alastor said that he named the hotel, Lucifer thought it was Charlie who came up with it.
And I'm not going to say that Alastor was an innocent, picked on little baby in that scene, he was 100% riling up Lucifer from the start, but also, like...Alastor's lines weren't outright antagonist like Lucifer's were. They were more subtle, slightly needling and passive aggressive, but nothing that could really be taken as a insult.
This is literally the dialogue, word for word, of their very first interaction:
Lucifer: What in the unholy Hell is that?!
Alastor: Just some of the renovations we had done. Adds a bit if color, don't you think?
Lucifer: And you are?
Alastor: Alastor, pleasure to be meeting you, Sir, quite a pleasure. It's nice to finally put a face to the name. You are much shorter in real life.
Lucifer: Who is this? Who is this now - are you the bellhop?
Alastor: Ah-ha, no! I am the host of the hotel. You might've heard of me from my radio broadcast.
Lucifer: Hmm, nope! I guess that's why Charlie called it the "has-been" hotel, hahaha!"
Alastor: Ha ha ha, it was actually my idea.
Lucifer: Ha ha, well it's not very clever.
Alastor: Ha ha, fuck you.
Like. That's their first interaction. And if you go back and actually pay attention to facial expressions and body languages, this was the first time he's seen Alastor, and Lucifer was immediately disdainful.
I went back and screenshotted Lucifer's face, right after Alastor's first line (which was a relatively innocent in and of itself and didn't even sound that antagonist), and:
That's a lot of disesteem for someone he literally just met. At most, you could argue that it was Alastor's smirk or tone that set him off ⬇️:
But even that is such a small thing to get upset over.
I'd say the only time Alastor really started getting openly hostile towards Lucifer was when he wiped his hand after shaking Lucifer's cane (which Lucifer didn't even see as he was too busy fixing his hat) and commenting on Lucifer's height (as a shortie myself, can confirm, that'll get on the nerves very fast).
My point is, Lucifer was immediately unfriendly towards Alastor and escalated the situation just as quickly, if not quicker, than Alastor did. Alastor implied that Lucifer might know of his radio broadcast, and Lucifer jumped right to calling him a "has-been." He doesn't even know him. This is their very first meeting. He was judgy and dismissive of Alastor at first sight, and, let's be honest, he kind of threw the first punch with that "has-been" line. Alastor said Lucifer was shorter than expected, but it's not like he laughed, pointed at him and called him a undercooked little chicken nugget. I'm sure a lot of demons/sinners who've never seen Lucifer would also assume he would be taller and more menacing at first glance, and I doubt this is the first time someone was surprised with his height (still not cool, Alastor. We vertically challenged folk have feelings too).
But Lucifer was prejudice from the start and antagonized Alastor just as quickly, and way more openly, than Alastor did to him. And don't get me wrong, this isn't me saying that's a bad thing on Lucifer's part! This isn't me criticizing or scorning him for it. I think it speaks so much of him as a character!
Cause we've seen the soft and tender moments he has with Charlie. We know how much he loves and cares for her. But he's also egotistical, antagonistic, and judgmental as hell, and that's what makes him such a fun character to write about. He's awkward yet showy, smug yet caring, depressed yet prideful. And by god, this man will show off his power without hesitation. He knows he's hot shit. He knows he's the strongest person in all of Hell. He knows he's the top dog and he can do whatever he wants - even if he has no love or interest in interacting within the Pride Ring (as far as we've been shown).
He's got a lot of multi-facets to him and I adore it, and that's why I get so annoyed when all of that is stripped away and he's turned into this soft little sunshine UwU boi who's just a sad, sweet lil lamb who's done no wrong.
No! He has done many wrongs! There's a reason he and Charlie were estranged and I don't think it was Lilith's fault - or, at least, I don't think it was all her fault (I have many thoughts about Lucifer and Lilith's divorce, okay)
I didn't mean for this to turn into a full-blown character analysist post LOL but alas I tend to get carried away. This was all to say, I really enjoy RadioStatic because Alastor typically gets to keep his sadistic and whimsical side, and I appreciate that. His silliness means a lot a to me, and if he comes off as too stiff or formal, it takes me out of a story.
Lucifer's flaws and sheer power also mean a lot to me, and I wish there were more fics and fan-art that showed that. If Lucifer reads too much like a normal, every-day person, I lose interest. I like the idea of people getting used to him, and getting comfortable around his presence, only to get a sudden and overwhelming reminder that he is, in fact, an ancient and immortal being with immense power that their brains wouldn't even be able to comprehend.
I have so many headcanons about Lucifer as a fallen angel and how his habits and lifestyle developed over the thousands upon thousands of years he's been in Hell. Habits he's adopted that unconsciously help him duplicate the mannerisms and behavior of sinners and demons, but also those small, indistinct tells that are quick and subtle reminder that he could destroy everyone in Pentagram City with ease if he decided to; and also, those times if you were to look closely and really pay attention, you get the faint, unsettling feeling that there is something very un-human about him. A subtle, unnerving shiver down your spine as your instincts yell at you that this person is not a person at all, he's just passing off as one.
That shit gets me. Give me ancient, eldritch Lucifer and I'll love you forever.
I am sorry Anon, I did not mean for this response to get so big 😅 You gave me a paragraph and I gave you a novel. But yeah, save me RadioStatic artists, save me 🙏 I rarely have to worry about Alastor turning into a big, buff alpha man or a soft little UwU when he's with Vox, and I appreciate that.
Edit: Adding a screenshot of my tags here because apparently I wrote down too many and it cut off the character tags.
#PHEW#this got way longer than it was supposed to be#also I found out you can only have 30 images max on a post#I had so many more gifs and screenshots to share#but I had to curate them#but yeah#Lucifer's watered down to UwU baby lamb or seductive flamboyant minx#and Alastor is just a big buff alpha male daddy love interest or he's too much of a formal prim and proper cannibal gentleman#you give him back his goddamn wrist flicks OR SO HELP ME#if I read a fic and I can't imagine Alastor doing a sassy little hand gesture then I hightail it out of there#i can't force myself to keep reading#it bothers me too much#it gets messy#and awkward#and weird#its not like your playing with their feelings#anyway#hazbin hotel#alastor#asks#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor the radio demon#vox x alastor#lucifer morningstar#hazbin lucifer#appleradio#radioapple#radiostatic#staticradio
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hi here’s some five sketches
can you tell which one is my favorite
#it’s the one on the right#the one on the right is my favorite#still figuring out my art style so ignore how inconsistent his face is in literally every single drawing#anyways thanks to everyone who likes and reblogs my art man#i know it’s super unfinished and messy but you guys have no idea how much i appreciate it#i truly light up every time i get a notification on posts of my art#anywho#god i love five so much#he’s so fun to draw for absolutely NO reason#he’s pretty much always in the same goddamn outfit and hair and i will never tire of drawing his old ass#my art#laur draws stuff#laur says stuff#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#five hargreeves#hargreeves siblings#tua s4#number five#tua season 4#tua five#tua s4 hater !!!!!!!#five x lila hater !!!!!!!#tua number five#number five hargreeves#number five hargreaves#five#old man five#five umbrella academy
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how alan spends the aftermath of… everything… speaks volumes about his relationship with jeff.
after losing a loved one and going through all that he did, it would be so easy for alan to throw himself into work at the garage. it’s always been his baby, his joy, and he’d be surrounded by reminders of way and the memories they shared. it would also be natural for him to surround himself with pack family, but he doesn’t do either of these things.
he stays at jeff’s house. they don’t stay at alan’s, which has always been the safe house for them all. no, they stay at jeff’s tiny condo. and he stays there for days, curled up in jeff’s bed, not seeking anything or anyone else.
not only is this a pretty apt portrayal of the emptiness and despair that often comes with grief, but also the desire to spend as much time with the people closest to you, while you can.
understandably, he wants to be close to the man he loves after going through something so awful. he wants to stay wrapped in a bubble where the two of them are safe and secure and untouchable. he loves jeff so much he can’t bear to be apart from him.
but what really gets me, is that alan and jeff have clearly reached a new level of intimacy in their relationship.
jeff is such a private person who has been so closed off for so long. he’s been hesitant to touch alan, to get too close, but now it’s different.
despite knowing all of jeff’s reservations, alan is unflinchingly comfortable in his lover’s space. he never once apologises for taking up jeff’s time or room or energy. not only does he love this man, but he believes in the love jeff has for him too. he doesn’t see himself as a burden to jeff, because he knows that the younger man wants to take care of him. he knows that jeff wants him to feel safe and warm and loved. and he does.
#i’m so sorry that’s so messy#it’s 1am#and i haven’t stopped thinking about pit babe all goddamn day#but really the fact alan was in jeff’s room all that time had me feeling all sorts of ways#and i don’t think i explained myself very well#but bon apetite#pit babe the series#alanjeff#alan x jeff#pitbabe
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a key element and constant theme of tsumugis character is neglect and the various ways it manifests and how he was neglected by his family severely as a child in multiple cases such as parents forgetting to feed him being abandoned by his father and brother and then how this series of neglect continues throughout tsumugis life by feeling abandoned when ex-fine disbanded but because tsumugi is so caught up in making sure those he cares about (sora and natsume) get what they want and deserve in their idol careers he fails to realize he is repeating that cycle of neglect. many times we see natsume worry that tsumugi is going to leave him and switch behind, that he is going to abandon the promise they made together as kids like this is a CONSTANT fear of natsumes and i feel like tsumugi is repeating the exact same mistakes his mother made in this regard. constantly overworking herself despite being a good-for-nothing, getting into scams due to her religious and superstitious nature being taken advantage of, being an emotional wreck that crumbles under pressure yet is immensely loved and admired by tsumugi to the point where he considered following in her footsteps by being a teacher (which, again, made natsume think tsumugi was abandoning their promise to each other) even if he also pities her. and i think that, during his childhood in baby tsumugis little brain, he took his mothers displays of emotions as a negative. those feelings were hurting his mom, making her upset, so his solution was to just not feel at all, all the while he makes the exact same mistakes she made, now just while completely disconnected. everything we know about tsumugis mom apart from her being overly emotional is a direct parallel to tsumugi from making and maintaining connections and being naturally loved by others to her appearing "hopeless" with work and being incredibly misfortunate. tsumugis mom neglected him alot as a child due to being overworked, overly emotional, and going through her own kind of hell, yet tsumugi recognizes that she did her best and still expresses love for her when talking about her, even though hes aware of her many bad habits. And, again, tsumugi inadvertently mirrors the exact same mistakes his mom did in trying to make tsumugi live a happy life (constantly trying new businesses and failing, falling for scams out of desperation) when trying to make sora and natsume happy (aka being too busy with work that would benefit the unit to spend time with them). Making the mistake of thinking if he just works hard enough they can be happy, when what will make them happy is his company. a lesson his mother, who not only got abandoned by her husband but also her own SON, never got to learn. But sure yea tsumugis mom was a physically abusive alcoholic who would deliberately harm tsumugi as a child and thats why hes ok with natsume hitting him and lets not even bother tackling the role the men in tsumugis life mightve played in him being numb to physical harm because clearly its the emotionally unstable woman tsumugi has expressed love for whose solely to blame who gives a shit anymore
#one day im going to snap i swear to god.#nat rambles#nats enst posting#tsumugi aoba#THIS IS NOT A POST DIRECTED AT ANYONE BTW#I JUST SEE LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE TSUMUGIP VILLIFY HIS MOM WHEN LIKE#YEA SHE FUCKED UP. LIKE SO SEVERELY IN SO MANY CASES#BUT FUCK DUDE SHE IS A CLEARLY MENTALLY ILL WOMAN TRYING HER GODDAMN BEST WHILE THE MEN WHO WERE MEANT TO LOVE HER LEAVE HER BEHIND#WHEN SHES CLEARLY NOT ABLE TO RAISE TWO FUCKING CHILDREN BY HERSELF#BUT NO YEA LETS BLAME THE WOMAN. THE MEN CLEARLY LEFT HER BC SHES SOOOOO CRAZY#anyway this is very messy i hope its coherent enough#dont take what i say as gospel just. Take this as a nudge to think abt the text a little more
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god is on my side and his name is gege akutami
#yuuji and sukuna's ending is so GODDAMN satisfying#and after all the hate sukuna received him getting one the most beautiful and touching ending made me so stupidly happy#like...#Im going to be that person but IVE BEEN SAYING HES MESSY IVE BEEN SAYING HES TRAGIC and then gege serving me on a silver platter#that yes... he did all that because he wanted revenge.... because he was hurting just..... it's so validating you have no idea#and then yuuji panel of looking fondly at his hand and then forward while remembering sukuna's other finger... he knows suku found peace :#I just know it you can't tell me otherwise#sukuna was my favourite character from the very beginning so I don't think I can even explain how much his conclusion means to me#I love yuuji's conclusion I love sukuna's conclusion I JUST LOVE ITASUKU CONCLUSION SO MUCH ALRIGHT#everyone is mad but I'm here smiling :"))#thank you gege akutami THANK YOU!!! <3#jjk#jjk 171
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two birds on a wire / one tries to fly away and the other / watches him close from that wire / he says he wants to as well, but he is a liar (insp.)
#goodomensedit#goedit#good omens#ineffable husbands#good omens spoilers#crowley#aziraphale#userbecca#ughmerlin#jameszmaguire#tusermyra#rs: hereditary enemies#edits#as soon as i saw that reel i was like. brainworms activated#this song is SO them it physically pains me#NO AZIRAPHALE SLANDER ALLOWED CAUSE HE'S ACTUALLY MY FAVE MESSY SELF SABOTAGING ANGEL#he wants and wants but doesn't know how to escape his own cage yet#they reach for each other through the bars#yet every time crowley manages to crack the door open aziraphale locks it again effectively trapping himself#it's a goddamn tragedy
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Me: “you wouldn’t care if i like…played around with how i dress or engage in some gender fuckery? It doesn’t change how you see me?”
Her: “Baby. I like waking up to you in the morning. That’s all.”
#‘hair all messy#no makeup#in your sleep hat#however’#she said#goddamn. goddamn shes good#(dont percieve me havinng my occasional femme crisis about how gnc im ‘allowed’ to be every so often and still be seen as femme#this last year fucked me up on that#femmeposting#love notes
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i simply must know: what are your thoughts on jaydick?
!!! JayDick my beloved, man do i have thoughts. disclaimer that all of these thoughts will be pre-Flashpoint in basis unless stated otherwise just because that's the canon i like best.
to me. JayDick is one of the more incestual ships of Batcest. there's this desperate, driving want from Jason, to have Dick as an older brother. he and Dick never really got to be brothers, they were definitely friendly with each other when Jason was alive, but because of Dick's distance with Bruce, he never got the chance to bond with Jason. he always made sure Jason knew he could go to Dick for help, but beyond that Dick wasn't particularly emotionally available with Jason as Robin. but Jason held Dick in a high regard and wanted to be his brother, even saw himself as Dick's brother. when he came back from the dead, i think the illusion shattered for him, but he still clung to that want for something familial with Dick Grayson.
i've vaguely rambled about Nightwing: Brothers In Blood before, because i think that arc really shows a lot of Jason's true feelings about Dick. of everyone in the Batfamily, Jason cares for Dick the most and wants an honest relationship with Dick more than anyone. Dick is the big brother he never got to have.
meanwhile on Dick's side there's... well, apathy would be the kindest way to put it. i think Jason's death pulled a lot of violent anger out of Dick, but that anger was toward Bruce at moreso the concept of Jason's death than Jason as a person. because Dick never knew Jason that well. so there is this guilt on Dick's side, guilt that he couldn't have in some way prevented Jason's death, guilt he wasn't at the funeral, guilt he didn't do more to accept Jason and possible guide Jason to be a better Robin. this is Dick's mantle after all, so when the first person to wear it after him so violently dies in it, that's a mark on his record too. even if Dick didn't give Jason Robin, he still okayed it and gave it his blessing, so he carries that on his own back.
but when Jason comes back it's... well, messy. Dick openly says he kind of wishes Jason had died when he faced Bruce and the Joker, and he hesitates a bit when he needs to save Jason's life. during an arc of the Outsiders where Jason helps out with genuinely no ulterior motives, nothing nefarious, he just knows Black Lightning is innocent and wants to prove it, Dick still doesn't trust Jason and has no reason to be trusting him. i saw a post on here say that pre-Flashpoint!Dick would've agreed with what Bruce did to Jason during Gotham War (reprogramming him to have a fear response to adrenaline) and like... ngl i agree with it. Dick does *not* care for Jason and regards Jason with a lot of apprehension. and that's the fun.
because usually, in Batcest shipping that centers Jason, it's always the other person in the ship seeking out Jason, trying to bring him home, trying to domesticate/fix him, etc. but for JayDick, i think it's the opposite. Jason would try to be good for Dick, if he asked. Jason wants to be close to Dick, he's reaching out when he knows he shouldn't and doing it in the most fucked up ways sure, but he cares about Dick. we bring up "Jason asked Tim to be his Robin" a lot, but never "Jason also asked Dick to be his Robin". it's always going to be misguided and fucked up because Jason doesn't know how to handle this love he has for Dick, that's an echo of the person he used to be. a person Dick doesn't even *see* in him anyway. that shit is fun and fucked up.
i think the one interesting thing Rebirth did was that one Nightwing Annual where Dick calls Jason 'Robin' to snap him out of killing someone. because in the moment it was to remind Jason of who he was. which is the fun of it. when Dick pictures a kind, loving Jason, he pictures Robin, not Red Hood. that will always be the version of Jason that Dick loves the most. i don't think Dick believes Jason could ever be good enough to be redeemed, but if Dick Grayson loves anything, it's a passion project of trying to fix someone. if Jason came to Dick and tried to be good (without putting on the Nightwing suit-) i do think in the end, Dick would try to help him. Dick wouldn't believe in Jason, but he'd put an honest attempt into helping Jason try to be good. and that's where the relationship for them works the best for me, imo. Jason wants Dick to be his older brother. Dick is apprehensive but looking for pieces of the "old Jason" in this person he doesn't recognize. it's weird and fucked up and they make it work so well. it's really one of my favorite Batcest ships for exploring the incestual nature of brotherly love. it's the Cain Instinct if i've ever fucking seen it.
honestly you could sum this entire ship up as "Cain Instinct but they want to fuck each other after the fist fight" and i do think you would be correct. they say i love you with bloody fists. it's so fucking good man, i love these two.
#necrotic answerings#jaydick#dickjay#dick grayson x jason todd#batcest#UGH i love these two.#don't get me wrong i think the moment of dick beating the damn shit out of bruce for what he did in gotham war was fun#and in character for like. rebirth dick#but i like it when dick dislikes and distrusts jason#and then. ugh i won't acknowledge the new-52#(except the betrayal arc of dick's spyral arc and how badly jason took that is good food. I'll admit it.)#but generally yeah i much prefer how it's jason reaching out not dick#granted he's not reaching out WELL. he's doing a bad job.#“i want to reconcile with dick. lemme put on his suit and kill ppl.” great idea jason. stellar thinking.#these two are so goddamn messy#and i'd dare say dick is the only hero jason sort of worships#every version of jason holds dick in a high regard whether dick likes him back or not#jason asks dick if he was a good little brother during sex.#dick is frightened by how much that turns him on.#i wanna write that man#tragic i only have one jaydick fic.
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Bryce's performance this episode was top tier, I really wanna see his behind-the-scenes for it
#helluva boss#helluva boss thoughts#helluva boss stolas#bryce pinkham#literally before this episode I was like “I'm so excited for Bryce's performance but I also know its gonna wreck me”#the range of stolas this episode was really awesome#his broken ugly sobs at Via leaving broke me#also the chaotic messy break down#such a goddamn mood#but seriously break downs are messy
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some more reani wips/doodles. i really need to learn how to finish pieces without starting more in the process 😭
#horror#reanimator#re-animator#herbert west#dan cain#daniel cain#my art#delete later maybe#my rendering process is so goddamn messy but like#trust the process i guess
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Chapter length: 7.8k Summary: Callum and Rayla make their way north. Terry and Ezran ask questions. Karim receives some news. a/n: the Lore comes in, and is self indulgent. thank you xo
CHAPTER 8: Flowers of Elarion
Callum didn’t have the heart to remove Rayla from his bed when she fell asleep, curled up and all cried out. He simply laid there and looked at her, tucking white strands of hair out of her face till he drifted off, too.
The next time he woke up, he wasn’t in the dimly lit, wooden inn room at all—he was in a brown stone tower, drenched in sunlight pouring in from one of the many windows, but less ultimately spacious than his office in Katolis. A few curved, thin oaken tables were along the walls, with boilers emitting faint, multi-coloured smoke and books with fancy, loopy script along the spine. Clearly a mage’s study, but nothing like anything Callum had ever seen. A bright glowing orb, a primal stone of some kind, rested carefully on the nearest table.
How had he gotten here again? It was so very hard to remember where he’d been before here, the way it happened in a dream. This had to be a dream, but of what? He’d never had dreams be so blurry like this before, everything faintly fuzzy, like the bleeding edges of a watercolour painting. What was he doing here?
The answers came unbidden, like a revelation from the heart. He was busy with a project. The boilers. Humming a tune as he bustled around the room, taller than he thought he should be by a good few inches at least.
Raising a hand, Callum reached toward the tiny row of phials intending to pour one in, and reeled back. His skin was a deep, purplish blue, beset with perpetually twinkling stars. That wasn’t—
“Laurelion?”
He turned instinctively at the sound of his name—was that his name—as a woman walked through the office door. Human, with a heart shaped face, light brown skin and curlier, darker hair. Her orange dress and gold adornments were almost reminiscent of Katolian fashion, just—older. Ancient, even if she was fair younger, in her mid-twenties maybe at most.
“Elara,” he greeted with a smile, fresh warmth welling up from an endless spring in his chest.
#rayllum#tdp#the dragon prince#only one real messy ezran scene this chapter but quality > quantity i think#my fic#fic#fic: teach me how to name the bigger light#getting to type 'a fair exchange of beloved for beloved'#WAS SO GODDAMN SATSIFYING LEMME TELL U
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i only want love triangles if it's whatever fucked up polygon junmo kicheol and euijeong have going on
#the worst of evil#ranting#idk how to articulate how juicy it is#junmo's fierce protectiveness of his wife - he trusts her but can't help his jealousy fear or frustration while trapped in the situation#euijeong hurting but putting her own life on the line worried for her husband while unpacking the memories of her first love#she can't help but sympathize with kicheol and what he's endured; haven't seen much of how she feels rn but it must be c o n f l i c t e d#(not necessarily even in a romantic way but wanting to root for a person chasing their goals who was once so important to you)#(all while grieving her mother without the support of her literal goddamn spouse by her side)#and kicheol. also grieving and trying to establish a place for himself and his crew yet drawn to junmo despite the red flags#his panic and desperation when jungmo bled out on him which must have triggered his own memories of losing taeho#junmo who has every reason to despise kicheol barely concealing his general rage but protects him like it's second nature at every turn#all while conflicted as a bystander to atrocities (and now willfully leaving another cop to die to protect himself his wife and the mission#getting mentally and physically pummeled left and right just bc his superiors demand it from him#all to please euijeong's family by using the promotions to prove himself and get rid of the stigma weighing him down#like !!!#and haven't even touched on kicheol wooing euijeong against his buddy's wishes and in such a pure heart fluttering way#accepting the risk for a second chance to bathe in the bright light she used to shine on his life#OMG AND BIBI'S ENTRANCE!! junmo realizing her interest gives him leverage and agency but struggling to use it to his advantage#it's soooo messy and i'm obsessed#that funeral arc is gonna haunt me for years#as is the tension during the pat down which def was supposed to be like a gang pride/dignity/lack of power against the jp folks thing#also testing their relationship and responsibilites as leader subordinate#but felt charged around whether kicheol would protest or junmo would accept the manhandling in totally different 👀 ways#goddamn i wrote an essay and this doesn't even scratch the surface of the meat of the show#tldr; i have many many feelings and for once the 'love triangle' isn't making me gauge out my own eyeballs#it's about power it's about raising the stakes and revealing things about the characters w/o dominating the plot
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