#Self-destruct

[anoceanofblackglass]

An infinity of agony, help me, help me

I'm screaming, I'm screaming

Just fucking end me, I don't wanna live amidst all this misery

Just when you think you found peace

Just when you think things might be okay

[necessary-quotation-marks]

And I realize and feel something. I would’ve self-destructed without him. He’s been the prince in knight’s armor. Protecting me.

Krista and Becca Ritchie (Lovers Like Us)

[zweedsanimatiepoppetje1]

“If [the engine compartment] starts pointing toward space, you are having a bad problem and you will not go to space today.“

- XKCD, Up Goer Five

Image credit to Jack Beyer and NASASpaceflight.com

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[stump-not-found]

A Lifetime Served in a Little Cup

pt.1 / pt.2 / pt.3 / pt.4

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enough math let's go screw around for 8 more pages

[simplyjustagirlsblog]

[rainywhispersblog]

[a-hospital--for-souls]

"It's all in your head." - Thank you Janette, that's why it's called mental illness. It cannot be in my ass.

[3ddp0ny]

Is somebody gonna match my freak? (Double suicide)

[foxlungz]

They should invent a way to kill yourself that doesn’t disappoint anyone

[graceatthemargins]

War on Ourselves

(A Ship of Fools on the Rocks) terrible images move on the screen, behind my eyes and in my brain, grafting in me the fear that death and hell are let loose in every terrain, gradually the shape of human kindness like milk looses its savour, and pools ungraciously in the stink of the piles of rotting human flesh. ——– humanity has crashed on the rocks, a burning ship of fools, looking down…

[zweedsanimatiepoppetje1]

rocket goes boom

Source: How Not To Land an Orbital Rocket Booster

[injuredsoullessfrog]

[iwillnotseeheaven]

[lilysofthevalleys]

[nabbibutterfly]

I wanna cry, scream, hurt myself, and die so bad, but I just don't have energy for anything anymore...

I feel so damn exhausted