#STOP STARING AT ME LIKE I WAS THE REASON FOR YOUR TRAUMA😭😭
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sillykiu · 10 months ago
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they do NOT know what typa backstory the devs are gonna hit them with 😭😭😭🙏🙏
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majoryeager104 · 3 months ago
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You + me = three
Summary: Headcannons of Touya with a pregnant partner đŸ„č👍
Touya/Dabi x fem!reader
Warnings: language, and general wholesome behavior (these hc’s are my therapy atp)
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Telling Touya you were pregnant was a worrisome task to say the least 
Because even though you both worked to be as emotionally available to each other as possible
This was a subject that you had no idea how he’d react to
Because pregnancy wasn’t something the two of you had talked about, even in your late night discussions of what you wanted your futures to look like, a child was never mentioned 
He knew that he was barely alive as it is
And I suppose he thought that the trauma his body had experienced would probably put the possibility of being a father out of his reach. 
he would be lying if he said that this saddened him, if only a little
Because even though he never mentioned having them
He thought about kids with you
A lot. 
Because currently he was in a relationship with the only person he’d want to start a family with
But as mentioned, he wasn’t really sure if that would be possible for him
So you’d bet that when you decided how you’d tell him
And you took him out for dinner at his favorite soba place
And those two momentous words left your mouth
He was beyond shocked. 
He’d stare at you for a long moment, his eyes drifting from yours to your belly, over and over again, while a wide smile spread across his face
“You serious?”
And when you’d confirm? It was like there was a light at the end of the long tunnel he’d been stuck in since the night he’d burned up
Something to look forward to, beyond the repercussions he’d wished upon his father
A family with you, something to go home to, hell, a home in general
Because he’d make it happen, now. No matter what. 
Because that light at the end of the tunnel, that glimpse of hope in the flames he’d been burning in for so long
Made him feel alive again. You, and the little one you currently carried, were his reason to exist. Beyond his revenge, beyond the dark clouds overhead
Because he now had the privilege to be a father
To do for you and your child what his father had never bothered to do with his own family 
To give to your child something he’d never received from Enji
Love. 
After he’d finally stopped grinning
And the two of you were walking back to your apartment 
He made sure that you wanted this, too
He wanted to be absolutely sure that you wanted this child
Especially if it would be with him
And dammit the smiling confirmation from you once again
Sent his heart soaring. 
He had to stop himself from smiling too much to make sure he didn’t pop his staples out. 
He was absolutely elated
He’d be such a great partner during the pregnancy 
He’d act annoyed when you woke him up for snacks
But secretly when he’d turn over to look at you when you nudged his shoulder and quietly requested it, he’d be on cloud nine just looking at you
Because just look at you 
His beautiful girl, and his future beautiful girl
Because he was secretly hoping for a daughter
The least he could do was go get you your chips from seven eleven
He’d constantly be rubbing your belly too
Like “holy shit there’s actually a baby in there? And it’s mine?”
Like I said, cloud nine. 
And the first kick? He was already cuddling you when it happened, so you best believe he felt it
If he could cry, he would have been 
Because that little kick cemented the entire thing for him
Like, this was it. This was gonna be the best thing in his life
And he’d be damned if he wasn’t gonna be there for every second of it with you. 
So he decided taking revenge could wait
Because he was a father now, and had better priorities
This is one of my favorite songs and it reminds me of Touya often, but I found it through my favorite Attack on Titan animatic (here but spoiler warning if you haven’t finished the show), and the LYRICSSS 😭🙏
Banner Creds to @ Buttonheart 🙌🙌🙌
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riskyraiker · 11 months ago
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Hi! Just saw that your request is open, could I request for a HC of TFP characters (and the humans if you're comfortable with it :D) with a cybertronian reader who's a popstar.. like she used to be a very famous popstar in Cybertron before the great war! platonic btw, it's just how they will interact with em (This is just a bonus but: the reader has the same vibes with shining glitter cookie 😭) sorry if this is a bit confusing, thanks!
AHHHH I LOVE THIS!! I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS FOR A WHILE. I did the autobots for this one, but let me know if you want decepticons aswell!
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Being a popstar was awesome! Until now, because of the war. Life was great before. Interviews, shows and interaction with fans filled your schedule everytime, but right now? You ran for your life to the closest escape pod what you could find. Shooting and screaming could be heard behind you, but you ignored it and ran faster. Jumping into the escape pod you activated it and left, but it put you into a stasis coma for safety travel reasons. After eons you wake up on a strange planet, but soon as your hearing recovered you heard shooting. Did you even escape Cybertron and fell asleep? You wondered. Hiding behind the huge pod, you let the fight continue until it stopped. You could hear an feminive voice speak so you peeked from behind the pod. You saw...AUTOBOTS! What a relief for you, but the autobots soon noticed you and held you at gunpoint.
Optimus
Optimus didn't realize it was the one and only popstar from Cybertron at first, until you tell who you were.
He grew comfortable really quick around you aswell :D
Didn't react at all at first, but surprisingly got really happy about seeing you. (His inner Orion pax woke up)
When he was Orion Pax he loved i mean LOVED your style in music and performing.
Would smile the whole time when you explaing happily about your music or about your past life to the team
He also loves your style of your plating and armor as they shine and glimmer in the sun.
Would have a secret soft spot for you and loves to go patrolling with you.
He would NEVER miss a performance from you when the team has any free time.
In short he would be a secret fanboy and who never shows it
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Ratchet
Ratchet was shocked to see you. You! The famous popstar alive after all these years since the war started. He didn't know much about you tho.
He did not like your loud personality at first, but grew to it since Miko is even worse.
Does like the way you perform, surprisingly since you're a popstar for frags sake! But accuses of it being a waste of time.
He would sass back sometimes, since he's so grumpy all the time (grumpy old man!)
Would spare you from his small tantrums!
He rarely sees it, but when he does he absolutely is hypnotized by your shiny plating!
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Bumblebee
Oh he would be overjoyed to see you!
He's such a fanboy he won't even think it through when he's already running to hug his biggest ex-idol (His present idol is Optimus 100%)
Would always listen about your stories from before the war. Or would help you make songs if you ever had time.
The moment you said that you want his beebs and boobs (heh nice) in one of your songs, he almost passed out at that moment.
Would spend as much time as possible with you, because who wouldn't?!
He absolutely would stare at your glimmery plating everytime you were outside
Every time you performed he would be dancing and beeping along with the music.
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Arcee
Didn't grow fond of you until like 2 weeks.
She has heard about you before and during the war.
Somehow she did like your music after you played it around the base.
When she gets to know you the gossiping will NEVER EVER end.
She would also trust you enough to tell you about her traumas and all the loss she has gone through.
You two start to act like sister after a month or few.
She does like to watch you perform sometime, but might think it's a waste of time.
The moment she sees your plating shimmer in the light she would mention it IMMEDIATELY!
Would sing with you if you asked
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Bulkhead and Wheeljack
OH THESE TWO WOULD LOVE YOU!!!
The way your armor/plating shines when it's in natural light, the way you sound and dance, the fact that you used to be popular! Would make them want to befriend you immediately. (Not in a bad way ofc!)
They would be the second biggest fanbots you would have on the team!
Dances for their lives when you sing or perform!
Would listen your music quietly when they're on patrol aswell.
Don't forget! If you need some ideas for songs these 2 would rush over even before you can finish your sentence. (They still make bad ideas xD)
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The humans
DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED!!!
Miko would love you the most from the kids ofc!
"A POPSTAR?! CYBERTRONIAN POPSTARS EXIST?!" Would be the first thing you hear when she gets to know what you used to do in cybertron.
Jack would find you cool (Not as cool as arcee. So he won't hurt her feelings)
Raf would love and examine your shimmering plating after a while he stared at it, but was too scared to ask so you mentioned it to him yourself
In short the kids would be inlove (platonically of course! They're kids!)
June would find you interesting, but never meets you that much so she doesn't get to know that well unlike the kids.
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wemalyri · 6 months ago
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enha hyung-line reaction when they find out you were r@ped
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pairing: enha hyung-line × gn!reader genre: slight angst, enha comforting reader warnings: mentions of sexual violence, reader has a mental trauma, sexual concept in heeseung and sunghoon (supposed to be the first time), description of abusive relationship in heeseung, slightly suggestive in jake's scene, physical contact, kisses, making out w/c: +-300 each member (but heeseung is 435 I'm sorry for that lol) a/n: I couldn't make up a lighter name for this 😭DO NOT READ if it's a sensitive topic for you, keep yourself safe pls. // also sorry for not posting for (quiet) long. I feel like I could write smth more for hee with this concept, let me know if you want it. !!!if you liked it, likes and reposts are welcomed!!!
Heeseung
Your back pressed against the wall when Heeseung’s tongue entered your mouth, deepening the kiss. His lips moved hungrily against yours as his hands slipped inder your shirt. You immediately flinched, pushing his chest to pull away. Heeseung noticed that something was wrong and leaned back to look at your face. “Is something wrong? You’re not ready yet?” His eyes were searching yours to find a reason of your reaction. 
“I
 can’t do it.” You looked away with guilt but Heeseung immediately lifted your chin up with his hand. 
“Hey
 that’s okay. I understand.” His fingers caressed the skin of your cheek, eyes gently looked into yours as the fire in them began to go out.
“No, you don’t.” You shook off his hand, flinching your head. Suddenly the feeling of disgust to his touch overwhelmed you. 
“Y/n
” Heeseung pulled his hand away but stayed at the same place next to you. “Then explain to me.”
You heavily sighed and started staring at the opposite corner of the room, escaping his gaze. “It’s my ex boyfriend.” Heeseung stared at you with confuse. “He never asked me. He would slid his hands under my shirt, pressing me again the wall
 and touch me. Even when I didn’t want to.” Heeseung’s eyes widened in shock at the same time as his jaw clenched from anger. He slowly placed his hand on your shoulder, making sure it wasn’t uncomfortable for you.
“I’m sorry for that
” His gentleness made you melt and you finally met his gaze. 
“It wasn’t you. You don’t need to be sorry.” Even when a slight smile spreaded on your face Heeseung still looked worried and confused. 
After a moment of silence he asked. “How long had it been
 going?”
“For five months maybe.” Your words made his heart ache. “I couldn’t break up with him because he told me no one will ever love me. And I thought it was okay. At that moment.”
Heeseung made you look at him, making sure you’re listening. “It’s never okay. Look at me, I really love you. And I would never ever hurt you. Physically or mentally. Do you understand?” You nodded and he patted your head. Your hands wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer to you and he hugged you back, burying his nose in your hair. “If you ever feel like you want to go to the next level, tell me, okay?”
You nodded as your grip on him tightened. “I will never touch you without your permission. I promise.”
“Thank you.” Your whisper faded as you nuzzled in his chest more.
Jay
As you two got home and the door behind you were closed, Jay immediately reached for the buttons of your raincoat, hastily undoing them. You gripped one of his hands and looked at him with fear in your eyes. “Jay
”
He immediately stopped and lifted his gaze at you with worry. “What’s wrong, love?”
“What are you doing?..” your voice above a whisper. 
“I'm trying to help you take off your raincoat. It’s soaked after the rain. You should be warmed.” Your hands dropped weakly, eyes looked down. “Oh” you whispered under your breath.
“Is something wrong with that?” Jay asked, reaching his hand to cup your cheek. 
“I thought you wanted
 tried to
” You couldn’t end your sentence.
“Tried to undress you? I did. But not in the way you thought. I suppose.” Jay made you look at him, his voice lowered. “Have someone
 ever
 tried to undress you in that way? Without your permission?”
Your lips trembled at the memory and you sobbed. Despite the fact that it was a long time ago, the reminder of that still hurt you. Seeing you like this made Jay’s heart ache and his hands pulled you closer to him in a reassuring embrace. His palm caressed your hair as he pressed his lips to your head. “Do you know that I would never hurt you, right?”
You nodded weakly, sobbing into his chest. “I know. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t.” His voice lowered. “Don’t blame yourself. Ever. It’s not your fault.”
His words dissolved into the night silence of your apartment, reflecting off the walls.
Jake
While cooking, you felt Jake’s hands on your waist and his lips on your neck. The touch has awakened a memory in you, a situation you would like to erase from your head forever. You flinched away, heavily breathing, when Jake took his hands off you and looked in your eyes in worry. “What’s wrong?” he asked in concern, keeping his hands in the air. 
“Sorry
” you sighed, putting a spatula on the countertop. “Just a bad memory popped out.” Jake crossed his hands, glancing at you with frowned eyebrows. “What memory?”
You took a deep breath again. “My friend
 used me when we were at the party.” Jake’s eyes widened and he darkly mumbled “He’s not your friend. He doesn't deserve you to call him that.”
You awkwardly chuckled, trying to brush away a sudden memory of that night. “I know, I know.”
“Are you scared
 of my touch? Does it make you uncomfortable? You never said that when we were hugging.” Jake asked with concern, digesting information.
“No, everything was okay back then. It’s just your lips on my neck
”
His eyes widened in guilt. With puppy eyes he looked down. “Oh I’m sorry. I won’t do that again, if you don’t want me to
”
“I want you to do that.” His face lit up with hope. “Just don't do it so suddenly, okay?” Jake chuckled awkwardly and shook his head like a dog. “Yeah, yeah, of course.”
His eyes glued to you and he took a step closer. “Can I kiss you?” You smiled, looking at him. “Yes, you can.” He stepped to you even closer and his lips gently met yours, his hands held your face. As Jake pulled away, he wrapped his hands around you, caressing your hair with his hand and immersing you in the warmth of his body.
Sunghoon
“Wait
” you quietly said, slightly pushing his chest, signaling him to pull away. Sunghoon immediately stopped, looking into your eyes, asking if something’s wrong without words. As you slowly got up on your elbows, he pulled away more and sat down on the edge of the bed, staring at you with worry. 
“I had a bad experience in
 this.” you whispered after your heavy sigh. Sunghoon’s eyebrows frowned. “What do you mean?”
Taking a deep breath, you spoke “Once
 my body
was used without my permission.”
Sunghoon’s mouth slightly opened in shock and concern. To get from him any words you added with a strangled voice “I was raped, Hoon.”
His eyelashes trembled at the realization of your words. He sighed heavily and mumbled “I didn’t know
” He looked down, finding words to say. “I’m sorry, if I made you uncomfortable
 I didn’t mean to.”
You slightly smiled and placed your hand over his. “It’s okay. I know you didn’t.”
Awkward smile appeared on his face. “Do you want to
 watch something maybe?” he asked, trying to fill the silence. 
“Actually, Hoon, I want this. I want you.” you whispered, looking into his eyes. He immediately looked at you with widened eyes. “But you said-”
“I know what I said. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want this. I want you. Just
 can you be
 slower?..” you didn’t let him end his sentence, gripping his wrist. His expression softened and he held your hands in his. “Of course. Tell me if something’s wrong okay?” Sunghoon asked, laying you down on the mattress again. As you nodded with a smile, he gently kissed your lips, showing that you’re safe with him.
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residenthughes · 2 years ago
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square one
pairing: leon kennedy x gender neutral reader
word count: 1.6K
tags/warnings: fluff, domestic fluff, some angst, leon's dealing with some insecurities (acne) :(
summary: leon's always struggled with acne. a recent flareup brings up more than he bargained for.
notes: think i saw a post about the texture of leon's skin in the re4r, as well as a headcannon that he sometimes picks at his skin and idk, just felt compelled to write this. i struggled (still do) with hyperpigmentation from acne, so this was low-key self-indulgent (and me projecting, sorry leon 😭) so enjoy(?) the fruits of that! one more exam and i'll be active again (in between celebrating any chance that i get that exams are over) hope you enjoy! :)
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He feels like a teenager again.
Full of angst and riddled with insecurity. There’s so much curiosity in his eyes, fingers gingerly grazing against the scarlet surface of his cheek with inflamed pimples. Leon thought he outgrew this. Despite the occasional picking at his skin when submerged in the anxieties that live rent free in his mind, his skin remained relatively calm rain or shine. It’s worst was when he was in high school, so awkward and unsure of everything. Redness dotted against his face, he felt like puberty brought out the worst in him, forced him to grow in a body now foreign to him, navigate the unknown territory that were his new feelings. It’s a time that isn’t all that nostalgic for him and when he stands in your shared bathroom, long into his adulthood - 27 years old - staring into his reflection, his life flashes before his eyes. He’s right back where he was. Nerdy and hesitant. 
He feels so small.
“Hey,” your call for his attention is soft, doused in all gentleness you can muster as you quietly observe your partner from the door frame. “You ok? Tea’s getting cold.”
Leon huffs in annoyance, not meaning to but when his eyes catch sight of how inflamed his skin is, it takes him gnawing inside his cheek to stop himself from spiralling. It’s so silly, insignificant even. Leon never really cared much for his appearance as an adult. Reminded fairly neutral in regards to himself, stance never swayed despite those that fell to his feet bewitched by his devastatingly good looks. His stance shifted when you two met. Suddenly, he was a teenager again, but in a good way. Do I smell good? Is my hair ok? Am I overdressed? All these little curiosities combated by the love you embrace him in. He doesn’t become confident - your love is not a fix-all remedy for years of trauma and insecurity. But he becomes more sure of himself, reassured and loved wholly. He picks up his own pieces, slowly but surely. You simply steer him in the right direction. A beautiful thing, a lovely thing.
In spite of this beautiful thing, Leon can get in his own way sometimes. Stares at his reflection too long when he’s been spiralling and simply meets your gaze with a vulnerability reserved only for you. “Skin’s been acting up.”
“Honey,” you approach him cautiously, like he’s made of porcelain and Leon leans into the gentleness without a care in the world. Your hands never make contact with him, knowing any touch might open the floodgates of emotional turmoil that slowly seep into his bloodstream, poisonous and harrowing in nature. "Do you wanna talk about it?"
He grimaces, eyes avoiding yours as he shrinks into himself. “Been a stressful week is all.”
Leon flashes an unconvincing smile, puffing out a beat of laughter that is all but amused. “Guess this is the result of it, huh?”
Your heart sinks. You remember when this came up early in your relationship. You were often seeing each other, whether it was to go out on the town dressed to the nines or lounge around and snack on whatever junk food (of which there was very little in Leon’s apartment) you two could find. He refused to see you, citing long work days and the lack of energy they left him with as his reasons. You respected his wishes, giving him his space and all the time he needed before finding his way back to you. However, you couldn’t ignore the voice at the back of your head, nudging you towards him with pleas of assurance. Reassurance that he was ok and wasn’t deserting you for reasons you could help with.
You bumped into him on his way back from the grocery store.
Against his better judgement, Leon needed to restock his shelves with leafy greens to rid himself quickly of the acne against his cheeks. He knew you were at work, so he took his chance and sped ran through the isles, mask pulled up to his eyes as he simply went about his business. Packing his grocery bags quickly and making big steps towards his car, only to run into you in the parking lot.
He expects you to drop your belongings. Dramatises the whole scene in his head, imagines your face twisting in disgust and murmuring a half-hearted excuse to leave the conversation early to block his number because his insecurities have gotten the best of him and he can’t think any worse of himself than he is now. 
It’s all fiction, the tragic story he paints in his head. Sees you give a small smile, cautious and coy.
“Didn’t expect to see you here,” he muses, the awkwardness of his predicament leaving him with nothing but the desire for the ground to swallow him whole. “Would have dressed up a bit.”
You laugh a bit, easing the pain but Leon still wants to leave regardless, foot pointed away from you with his body slightly turning towards the direction of his car.
You take note of his body language and make the conversation flow as casually as possible. “Yeah, I got off work early and was actually gonna pick up some things to come see you.”
“See me?” 
“Yeah, think it’s to be expected to want to see your partner.” you joke lightheartedly, eying the tension that leaves Leon’s shoulders as they relax back from his ears. 
“That’s sweet of you,” Leon starts. “But, I’ve gotta head back to the office
printer’s jammed.”
“Again?”
It ‘jammed’ last week. Along with some other atrocities that left Leon MIA all last week and this week too. It’s not too long to question, but the distance between you is growing unlike times before. It unsettles you.
“Can’t work that thing to save my life. So, it’s my obligation to fix it.”
“Leon,” you’re seeing through his act, calling for the denouement to the charade Leon orchestrates. He feels sickly doing this - this isn’t what you deserve, he knows that. But, during one of scarce times in his life that he’s self-conscious, is it so horrible to want to be left alone? “You’ve been a bit MIA recently. You sure you’re holding up alright?”
He questions for a moment telling you. Disclosing his recent flare up because he knows it isn’t a bad deal, especially with you who nurtures a safe space for him to call home. And he does, he goes to tell you, but in a desperate attempt for closeness, you step forwards and he’s stepping back and suddenly there’s a deafening silence between the two of you.
“I didn’t mean-”
“It’s ok,” you reassure, time and time again. His heart hurts from the constant push and pull that plagues your relationship. It wasn’t something you had to deal with. “Just talk to me. Please?”
It’s different seeing you like this. Over text, it’s easier (but not impossible) to tap away at the screen and desert his phone, submerging himself in work to fend off any thoughts that attempt to crawl into his brain. But you’re here, right in front of him. Eyes soft and so unbearably honest with your state of being. It tears him up inside. Makes him acknowledge every attempt to distance himself from you and never do it again if the same circumstances arose.
Leon makes the situation right. Approaches you despite the screams at the back of his head and heads back to his apartment with you sitting in the passenger seat, describing the acne flare ups that in spite of the demons he faces on his missions, makes him react like no other. You comfort him as best as possible, listening to every word he says and not bothering with unsolicited advice or shallow comments that won’t help the situation. You simply craft an evening filled with distractions, all his favourite in-home activities whilst showering him with all the affection he’s missed. And when it comes time to wash up and settle into bed, you make light of the situation, giving him one of the Sanrio headbands you had left in his apartment as you two clean up for the night, the space and comfort you give him enough for him to crawl into your arms under the covers and never let go. It’s an act of service, a day, that he’ll never forget. One that allows him to bare himself to you, years later, and let you take the reins because this, on top of the travesties he’s encountered far too often lately, have made him feel like a shell of himself. 
ïżœïżœIt’s hard to keep up with everything when you’re so busy, isn’t it?” He nods. “You’ve been working hard, always have. Saving the world isn’t an easy feat, you know?”
He laughs, this time around humoured. “I wouldn’t exactly say that.”
“Well, whatever you do,” he laughs again and you can see him slowly coming back to you. You flash him a smile, a smile that holds timeless tales of your love story and his heart begins to warm. “It’s perfectly normal to get some R&R afterwards. It’s well deserved, especially in your case.”
He simpers, now having worked up the nerve to look into your eyes and in them, sees that dazzle. The same dazzle from your first glance, from your first confession. Even at his lowest, the dazzle remains. Your love, unwavering. There isn’t anything he wouldn’t do for you, all of which he does when he feels like himself again. Showers you in abundance and more because that’s what you deserve and more.
“How about I run us a hot bath? You can tell me all about the printer jamming whilst I wash your hair, yeah?” 
He feels like a teenager again. This time, abundant in all the love he has for you.
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jordanstrophe · 2 years ago
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Omg what I nice trope! For some reason I couldn’t find anything fresh abt with

Would you mind writing a smaaall drabble/whatever you want for this trope? đŸ„ș😭
[the trope in question] I was going to try and go smaaaall but then my hand slipped
CW: Medical whump, trauma, wound cleaning, hurt/comfort, recovery from torture
There was a look caretaker had never seen from whumpee before.
Mistrust
Fear
Agony...
"It's going to sting a bit, just take deep breaths" Caretaker said, shakily holding a antiseptic-drenched cloth.
Whumpee's eyes darted between caretaker and the cloth before letting out a breath. From that breath alone, you could tell just how much they were shaking.
"Try to lean your head back, please." Caretaker put their hand on whumpee's forehead and forced them to relax. It did rather little for how tense they were, and caretaker could feel it.
Blood from their leg started trickling down the bed. Time was growing short, and caretaker's hesitance was doing no one any good. They put a firm hand on whumpee's knee and pressed the cloth against the wound on their leg.
Somehow, it felt like -every muscle- in whumpee's body burned simultaneously.
"STOP!" Whumpee gasped, snapping up and clinging to caretaker's shoulders. "Caretaker stop- please stop," Whumpee heaved through gritted teeth.
"It's okay, It's okay... Hold on to me, everything is going to be alright... Ssshhh-" Caretaker soothed almost like a plea.
Whumpee acted as if they were being electrocuted. They could barely hold themselves still and were trying to curl their legs to their chest- specifically their wounded leg that felt like it was being slowly stabbed through all over again.
They could hear them- whumper's voice screaming at them, cursing them, laughing at them. The arm around them didn't feel like caretaker's, but whumper's.
"MAKE THEM STOP! Caretaker please, make them stop!" Whumpee suddenly cried, no longer able to hold anything behind a clenched jaw. Caretaker guided them back down onto the bed, finishing up what was left of the cleaning before dressing their injury.
Caretaker's chest was wracked with guilt, they pretended the tears on their face weren't there.
"It's almost o-over... You're okay, it's al-almost over, you're doing great," Caretaker repeated, feeling a ting of relief as the worst of it seemed to fade.
Whumpee let their leg relax with their knee over caretaker's elbow. Caretaker felt it and laid whumpee's leg down and brushed their hand over their hair.
''Are you back with me?" Caretaker asked, their other hand tracing over their face like they were scared to touch. Whumpee's eyes darted between unfocused, and fixated on caretaker. They stared blankly, before letting them close.
"Good... Rest is good." Caretaker huffed out of breath, adrenaline from their own body began to calm down and their hands started trembling.
Only then did they acknowledge their tears and dragged a hand down their face to wipe them away. They sank into a chair next to whumpee's bed and grasped their hand, the seemingly only safe thing to hold.
"You're going to be alright."
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zyafics · 2 months ago
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im gonna rant and speak my mind away because you have me running in circles đŸ˜­đŸ˜«
you have to be tired of me repeating the same thing but omg im SO CONFUSED, if she got the grad housing she HAD to have a baby 😭 like grant as far as i remember already graduated (or did i make that up?) like yeah they could've moved in together cause they are family BUT it doesn't make sense since grad housing if for MARRIED couples and people with KIDS and john b said in his text it took college too long
 she said WE and yes she can have a cat since she wanted one but that is not a reason for her to get a grad housing because that's not how it works!!!
again the sonogram/ultrasound being empty still i don't know
 some doctors are shit so that could be one the doctor did a malpractice (see how crazy im going?) but its clear mentioned she was having a GIRL and when Rafe walked in he was literally SHOCKED a cat doesn't show you like that a cat doesn't make you go SILENT and then she says "this is emmy" LITERALLY THE NAME they chose for a girl. I don't know how all this is gonna turn out but i feel insane saying the miscarriage was not really a miscarriage but for a time it looked like that, because the emotional turmoil she was going through it was not for nothing.
i think and believe for a period of time since it happened she was actually sure she had a miscarriage but weeks went by and then she never got her period back and was confused bc again she was feeling like she was sick or something and went to cleo to rant her mind about it that it was a sick joke from the universe to be feeling just like when she found out she was pregnant and that on top of it her period was not coming so she felt bloated and annoyed (blaming it all on her period never coming) cleo being the reasonable human she is told her to go to the doctor, so they go and she tells the doctor what's happening and the doctor is like that's not normal so sends her to do some blood tests just to make sure everything is working and then when the Dr. get the results back he's as shocked as anyone if not more bc how the hell do you tell your patient who you received bc she was having a miscarriage that oh never mind she actually never had it?
all this happening while she had asked college to let her have online classes so one she didn't have to see rafe and two to let her heal from the trauma the "miscarriage" caused and ofc college agreed bc well people are not shit. when she finds out she never lost the baby she kinda loses it and moves back with her parents so they can help out, during summer and all she has the baby and all that stuff, emailing the school to explain the whole thing that had happened which had them confused and that's why they took to long to give her a grad housing so in the meantime she had been living with grant and that's why he was mainly helping them move in bc all their stuff was in his house đŸ™‚â€â†•ïž and after finding out she never stopped being pregnant she decided to go to therapy to finally speak to someone (emmy being her motivation) bc she wants to be in a better state of mind and in general for when she's born. ofc rafe never knew any of this so circling back (just like you have me) when he gets into her apartment he's stuttering trying to process what he's seeing to add onto my craziness he has either his eye color and she's just staring at him and giggles (bc babies do that) and he breaks down and reader's regrets in that moment not telling him but it was necessary all that time a part they had to make things better and then they have a serious talk about all it and what they will do moving forward and the second chance part of the story begins
i don't want to get into what happens after but im sure ward will make another appearance but this time he's gonna be SHUT DOWN bc he deserves that, insert me in the story like "and Adriana beat his ass" im just joking or am i? 😏
anyways yeah that's all as if i just didn't write a full essay also im holding your words "trust the process" so yes im tweaking but im TRYING my best to be patient and chill but you can see i can't
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spiced-ciderr · 1 year ago
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HI. @crees-a
HELLO. It’s me your dca secret skeleton. I am. Super duper late but we just had a death in the family so things have been WILD.
ANYWAYS. I saw you liked romantic stuff but I kept scrapping those ideas because it was just not writing right and I honestly didn’t have a very good plot idea to begin with buuuuut —
In spirit of Halloween (yes it’s still Halloween what do you mean it’s November 19th) i gift youuuuu A SPOOKY / MILDLY ANGSTY DCA ONE SHOT THING. it’s the best I could do at the moment so I do hope you like it. thank you for your patience!!!!!
(i also dropped a dca fic MASTERLIST for you because i wasn’t able to write a good romantic one shot đŸ˜­đŸ«¶))
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It had been so, so long since the daycare was open. After the incident almost a year ago
(Cameron Bryce, Age 8, sustained severe trauma to the base of the cranium, resulting in 4 emergency surgeries, a concussion so severe he wouldn’t wake up and parents filing a lawsuit against Fazbear Ent.)
it had been quiet. Too quiet. He missed the noise, as crazy as it seemed. He missed the footsteps, the echoes of his name being called out from the lips of the little ones he grew to care for so deeply. He missed the stares he’d get from parents during pickups or dropoffs, and he missed the subtle glares from passer-bys or employees that hated him for no other reason than to hate.
“Don’t hate, Sunny.” She’d said. Miss Ruby was nice. He liked her. Even if she didn’t like Moonie.
"No matter what you see, how angry you become, don't hate. Even if justified, hate only destroys. Doesn't bring justice. Won't fix what's wrong.” she’d told him.
“Hate'll destroy you. Eats away. Becomes part of you. Changes you. Eventually you become what you hate."
Sunny tried his hardest not to hate. He tried not to hate the coworkers that sent him to Part’s and Services. He tried not to hate when they’d strap him and Moon to that awful table. When they’d poke and prod at them, ignoring their pleas. When they’d administer those icky shocks that hurt and stung and burnburnburnburnBURNS- IT BURNS- until he couldn’t think anymore. Until he couldn’t move. Until Moonie came out. Sunny tried not to think of those times. He didn’t like hurting people, honest! He wasn’t a- a rulebreaker! No no no no no. Sunny followed the rules. Sunny was good.
But Sundrop missed it. He missed it all. Well, maybe not the torture-’We could definitely go without the shocks,’- but he missed it. He missed he daycare, he missed the children, he missed his job. He was CREATED for this, for heavens’ sake!
But he held out hope. ‘Soon.’ he thought. “Soonsoonsoon!! The kids’ll be back in NO TIME! I just know it!’
(Charlie Jo, Age 6, broken ribcage, punctured lung and severe hemorrhaging to the neck and surrounding areas)
“C-Clean up! Clean up, clean up, CLEAN UP!!” Sunny frantically ran back and forth throughout the daycare. Everything, EVERYTHING had to be perfect for when the kids came back!! And he’d make sure it would be.
‘Sun. Sunny. Stop. It’s already been a year. The daycare isn’t reopening.’ He pointedly ignored the deep voice echoing in the recesses of his mind. He hadn’t heard from his brother in sosososo long. But that’s okay! All that matters was the kids. The kids. ALL that matters is getting the daycare open again, all that matters is making sure the children are SAFE and SOUND! Naptime would be suspended, yesyes.
‘Methinks you talk too much.’
“Did I say that outloud?” Sunny asked the empty room. “Oopsie.”
‘You’re being ridiculous, Sun.’
“Am not!”
‘Are too.’
“Am not!!”
‘Are too!’
“UGH! You are such a MEANIE, Moon!!” Sunny spoke, exasperated. “You KNOW the daycare has to be in TIPPY-TOP SHAPE for the kiddos! Everything has to be super-duper clean and ready!” Sundrop justified, sanitizing the ballpit the fourth time that day.
It was always the same. Charge, clean, clean, charge, clean again, charge maybe, and clean all night.
The lights ALWAYS had to stay on. Never was there an exception. Even with nobody inhabiting the daycare except for the twins.
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‘..unny! ‘
‘..drop..!’
‘SUNNY!’
Sundrop’s voice box spurted, almost like a gasp. He flinched hard, landing backwards and onto the floor of their room. His fans whirred, rays spinning at unreasonable speeds. “Go away, goawaygoawaygoaway-” His voice box whined, not unlike a sob. The kids weren’t coming back. He knew that. But it hurt. It hurt too much. Sundrop pressed his knees to his chest, curling in on himself. ‘Sun. You’re okay, okay? Remember what Hedwig said?’ Moon spoke softly.
Sunny sniffed.
“N-Not to call her that?” Moon snickered. ‘No, the other thing.’
“Right. I-It’s okay to not feel okay sometimes.”
‘Exactly. Things will work out on their own, you dummy.’
“Hey! Name-calling isn’t allowed~!”
‘Dummy. Idiot. Nada intelligente.’
“I’m rubber, you’re glue! Everything you say bounces off me and sticks to you!” Sundrop rehearsed in a sing-song voice.
It was then he heard it; the ballpit! Someone was in the ballpit! Crawling to the balcony, Sun glanced over the edge to see- a kid! A Child!! A real life, super duper uber squishy new best friend! Finally, Sunny had a purpose again.
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“Rule breaker, rulebreaker! You are BANNED from the daycare!!” Sunny’s words rang in his mind. “Do..didja think I was too hard on him?” Sun murmured, sitting at one of the kiddie tables, crayon in hand as he doodled. Him, Moon, and GÌ¶ÌÌ‡ÌšÌƒÌˆÌżÍ„ÌƒÌ†Í‡Í”ÌžÍ“Ì˜ÌłÌ™Ì±Í‡ÌŸÌ§ÍŽÌžÌŠr̻̫̔̊̑̐̒̄̍͝͝͠͝eÌ¶ÌÍŒÌ“Í„Ì…Ì„Ì‹ÌŽÌšÍ˜Í‹ÌÍ‘Ì’ÌłÍˆÌ­Í”ÌŒg̞̑͑̏͌͊̒͠ÌčÌŸÌ»Ì«Ì™Ì ÌŻoÌ¶Í†Í—Ì›Í€Í˜ÍƒÌŠÍ€Í„ÌÍœÌ™ÍœÌĄr̛̛̞̙̔͋̈́̈́̏̎͂ÌșÌ„ÌČïżœïżœÌČÌ–ÌŁÌșÌŠyÌ”ÌÍÍœÌĄÍ…Ì—ÌŠÌźÌ°Í–ÌŁÌŹÌ„Í‰,
‘I think that little RÌŽÍ’ÍŒÌŸÌ…Í›ÍÌżÌŁÍ…ÌŸÍ”ÌčÌŁÍšÌ™ÍˆÌąÌ»ÌȘÌłÍ–UÌ¶Í›ÌƒÌŸÍ‘Ì€Í”ÌŻÌĄL̛̞̓̎͐̚E̷̫͉͚͂̑̌͐̈͌̚͝B̛̜̔́̓́͛̀̊Ìč͕͔Ìč͜ÌșÍ‰ÌĄÌŸÍ‡ÌÍŽRÌŽÌŠÌ‚ÌŸÌ›Ì‹ÌÍŽÌĄÍ•ÌŸÌ­ÌŒÍ™ÌŁÍœÌźÍÍ–EÌ¶ÌšÌšÌ’Í’ÌŽÌŽÌÍ‹ÌżÍ‰ÌŒAÌ·Ì‰Í—Ì›Í’ÍƒÌœÌ“Í‘ÌŁÌȘ͙͙̖̱͙̟̩̟͕̊̚͜ͅKÌ¶ÍÍÍÌœÌÍ„ÍƒÍÌ‹ÌœÍ„Ì…Ì„Ì©ÌźÌŁEÌŽÍŠÌźÌŠÌžÍšÍ‰Ì€Ì±ÌąÍšÌ€Í…ÌšR̛̞̫͕͕̆̀͂̀̐̏͝ got what he deserved.’
Sunny hummed in response, dropping the crayon. He was tired.
‘..I’m sorry Sun.’
“I know.”
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Moon sat on the edge of the balcony, kicking his feet gently. The power had gone out, Vanessa was dead--as was most of the other staff:--and for the first time in almost two years, he was virus free. His eyes shifted to the large wooden door across the daycare, which was currently ablaze. Flames licked the sides of the walls, climbing further and further up towards the ceiling as smoke billowed around them.
“Do- Do you think we’ll see them again? The children?”
“..glitter glue.” Moon responded.
“Wha
what?”
“Glitter glue. This-” he rasped, clawing at his faceplate as he laughed almost manically. “This- This situation is stickier than g̷̜̜͉͖̩̔̓́́̓̈́͗̓̂̎ͅÌșÌ§Í•ÌÌ°ÌŠÌźÌșÌŒ-Ì·Ì‹Ì’ÌŠÌÌ’ÍÌœÌłÌ°Ì—Ì»ÌȘgÌ¶ÍŒÍ‚Í˜Ì‚Í‘ÍŠÍŠÍ„ÌšÌœÍÌÌ€ÌąÌČÌ©Ìš-̶̒̂́͋́̏Ìč̜͕͖ÌȘ͖̜̰͖̞̀̊gÌ¶ÍÌŠÌ’ÍŠÍ„ÌŁÌȘÍ…ÍšÍ”Ì»Ì Ì§ÌąÌ€ÌĄÌșÌ©lÌŽÌ‘ÌƒÍ€ÍŒÌ”ÍÍÌ»ÌąÌŠÌžiÌžÌœÌ‘Í—Ì‰Í„Í„ÌŒÍÌźÌ»Ì§Ì Ì­ÌșÍ•ÌžÍšÌąÍ“Í…ÌŻtÌ”Í—ÌœÌƒÍ‹ÌÌ…ÌłÌ˜ÌšÌłt͈͍̔̉̈́͊͐̓̐̓̉̎̑̚ÌȘÌČÍšÌźÌ«ÌŹÌ Í•Í”ÌŠÍšeÌ·Í—Ì€ÌżÍ Í˜Ì†Í„ÍÌˆÌ‹ÌÌ…ÌÍ•Í‰Ì­Í“Í…ÌŠÌ„Ì™ÌŹÍŽÌ ÌąÌŸrÌ”ÌżÌ‘Ì‡Í„ÌšÍ ÍŠÌżÍˆÌ«Í”ÌÌČ͍̌ ̶̛́͌͂̑̓̂ÌșÌŻÍˆÌŠÌ©Í…ÍˆÌšÌ ÍˆÌ§Í…ÌŁÍ•ÌĄgÌ¶Ì‡Ì…ÌÍ˜Í‘ÌŸÍ‹Í Ì“Í‘Ì­Ì„Ì™ÌłÌ„Ì±Ì–lÌŽÍÌżÌ’Ì”Í‹Ì•ÌˆÌżÍ€Í‡ÌčÌŠÌœÌčÌŁÌąÌ™Ì€ÌșÌŁÌșÌ–ÌÌłű̶͍̜͔̓́̆̀̏̎̐̀́̈́̂́͘eÌ”Ì‰ÌŽÌŻÌ°ÌȘÌłÌ Ì€Í•ÍšÌ„Í‰ÌșÌČ ÌŽÌŽÍÌ‡ÍŒÍÌˆÍÍŒÍƒÌ›Ì«Í•/ “
“Are we going to die?”
“Death is a concept, Sunny.”
“I don’t want to die, Moonie.”
“...I know, Sun.” Moon’s gaze lifted to the ceiling as the play structures burned. ‘More like melting.’ he thought. Moon could almost feel the frown from his counterpart. It only added to the hilarity of this situation.
‘I don’t want to die.’ Sundrop repeated. Moon hugged himself tightly. “I don’t think we’re getting out of this one, Brother.” Moon murmured.
“I-I want to see them again. I want to see Jamie. And Cameron. And Kyle. And Charlie. And Morgan.” Sun whined. “I don’t want them to think we didn’t care about them. Oh no. NononononNONO-”
Moon winced. “Sundrop. Calm down.” He weakly protested. “They loved us. They knew we loved them. They- They didn’t..They didn’t wake up while sÌ¶ÌƒÍ’Í›Í†ÍÍ ÍÍ€Ì‹Ì›Ì”ÍÍÌÌ«Í‰Ì§ÌŹÌ§hÌžÌ•ÌĄÌ§ÌźÍšÌ ÌŠÍ•Ì©Í™e̔͒̋̕͠ÌșÌŹÍˆ had her way.”
“Do you think they hurt?”
“Sunny, please. I don’t- I dont wanna talk about this.”
‘...’
‘I miss you.’
The tip of his hat caught the flames, carefully making their way up the fur. The brightness triggered them to shift, Sun now taking the place where Moon once was. His hand shakily reached up to their softening faceplate. “Heh. G-Guess they should have made us out of metal instead.” He spoke.
“I miss you too.”
“I-It used to be different. Do you remember, Moonie? Do ya, do ya?”
“Vaguely. I know things used to be..different. Before.”
Sunny’s rays dripped, melting plastic dripdripDRIPing down his face. He couldn’t see anymore, but he knew it was bright. And hot.
“They-They told us, they promised us they’d come back! It- IT’LL BE OKAY! It’s gonna be so so so super duper AWESOME! Moonie! We’re- We’re gonna- We’re gonna see the kids again- I-” his voice box broke off, as his arms wrapped around himself. His once brilliant crimson outfit was engulfed in flames, slowly dispersing from his form. “I..I don’t want to go.” Sunny’s voice broke, falling into a strangled sob.
“I love you, Sunny. I’m so so sorry. For everything.”
“D-Don’t b-b-be s-s-silly! S-s-s-silly s-silly Mooo̧̜̭͈͕̔͛̔̔̎̀̃̄͑̂͂͒͑ÌčÍˆÌźoÌ”ÌˆÌšÌ†Í˜ÌˆÍ‚Í„Í Í Í€ÌÌšÍÍÌ™ÌŹn̜̘̎̈́̓̈́̎̂̓̓̓͋̀́̄̕̚͝dÌ·Í Í€Ì”Ì€ÌŒÍƒÌ‡ÌÌÌżÍ›Ì„Ì•ÍÌŒÌ Ì»ÌŸÌ«Ì€Ì ÌłÌłÌžrÌ·ÌÍƒÌœÍ‹ÍÍ Í—ÌÌ“Í„ÌŠÌ’Í„Í‘Í•ÌŠÍ•ÌŠÌŹÌ°ÌȘ̞̀̚oÌžÌ€Ì„Í Í†Í„Í‚ÌŽÍ€Í ÌÌ†Ì„Í…Ì™Ì€Ì—Í‰Ì­ÌŹpÌŽÍ’ÌšÌÌÍ—Í’Ì›Ì‰ÍÍƒÌÍ„Ì™Ì ÌœÌŹÌŹÌ ÍÌȘÌ°ÌŻÌČ.Ì¶ÌšÌąÌ™ ÌžÍ†ÍÍ‚Ì…Í˜Ì…Í†Ì•Í„Í—Í˜Í„ÌÍÌÌłÌźÍ•Y̰͇̰͔̭̔͆͋̎̄̒̊̆͑̅̉̊̚͘͜oÌ¶Í Ì“Í›Ì†Ì€ÍÌÌ°ÌÌŻÌ»Ì–uÌ¶Ì†ÌœÌ»Í‡ÌŹÌłÍˆÌ©Í‰ÌčÌ§ÌźÍ•Í ̛̖̔̂̀͌̑̌̔̐͐̊ÌșÌșÌ™Ì±ÌŹÌ»kÌ”Ì‚Ì”Ì›Í‚Ì“Ì”ÌąÍŽÌ™ÌœÍŽÌ«ÌĄÌ»ÌŹÍ‡ÌœÌšÌ§ÌąÌ–nÌ”ÌŸÍ‚ÌŸÍƒÌÌŸÌ–ÌŁÍŽÌŹÌ±Ì ÌčÍ‡ÌŻÌ©ÌžÌĄÌœÍ”oÌ·Í‚ÌŠÌŸÌżÍÌŽÍ‚Í‹ÌšÍƒÍ€ÌÌŠÍ„Ì•ÌŸÍŽÌ»Ì°ÌšÍ…Ì±wÌ¶ÍÌÌŸÌÍ˜ÌÌÌŽÍÌ‹ÌłÌŠÌç̝͇̗̌̌̚ ͕̙̔͝ÌčIÌ”Ì›ÌŸÍ†ÌšÌ†Í†Í ÌŠÍ“Ì§Ì»Í…ÌłÌ—ÌšÍˆÍ‰Í…Í”Ìź ÌžÌ‹ÌšÍŠÌ‡Ì€Ì•Ì­ÌĄÍ–ÌžÌ©Ì§Ì©ÌĄÌŠÍ…ÌšÍ™n̔̓̇̀̍̄̊ÌȘeÌžÌżÍ Ì…Í„Ì‘ÍÍ‹ÌÍ’Ì“Í’Ì„Í‚Ì™vÌŽÍ‚Ì“ÍŠÌ†Ì”ÌˆÍ„ÍƒÌżÍÌźÌœÌ ÍŽÌąÌŁÌ±ÌŠÌČÌ±Ì Ì­ÌŁeÌ”Ì‚Í€ÌÍ‹Ì”Ì‡Ì“ÍÍ˜Í€Ì‡ÌÌ’Í’Ì–Ì»ÍŽÌ©Ì©ÌłÌ„Ì­ÍŽÍŽÍœÌ–rÌ¶ÌŽÌ‹ÌŒÌŸÌžÌ˜Ì„ÍœÌąÌŁÌ˜Í‰ÍÌŁ Ì·ÍÍÍŠÍ Í„ÌœÍ‰Ì™Ì Ì„ÌźÍ“ÌźÌ«Ì­ÍˆÌžÌœÌŸÍ‰bÌ·Ì’Ì•Ì€ÍÌœÍÌżÍ‘Í†Ì„ÌÌŽÍŒÍ€ÍÌ±Í“Í‡ÌŻÍ•Ì­ÍˆÍ–ÌČ̜lÌ·ÌˆÍ†ÌŒÍ„ÍŒïżœïżœÍ„ÍÌ€ÌŽÍ€Ì„Ì»Í‡ÌȘÌ Ìč̱̙̀aÌ·Ì“Í„ÌÌŒÌ‚Ì…ÍŠÍ›ÍÌŠÌ‡ÌŒÌ“Í‚ÌŻÌÍŽÌ»ÌŸÌŠÌŻÍŽÍ‰mÌ¶ÌżÍ›Ì‡Ì”Í‚Ì“Í˜Ì°Ì Ìč̘͓e̟̖̟̎́̈̉̍̈̀̚ÌčdÌžÌ†ÌˆÍ„Ì“ÌÌƒÌ‘Í†ÍÍÍ‚Í˜Ì•Ì•ÍƒÌąÍœÌ»ÌąÌ Í–Ì–ÍŽÌąÌ–Ì­Ì« ̶̛͛̓͆̎̀͗͌̋̚̚y̎̄̀̐̀̓͊̎ÌČÌč̟ͅÌČ͜oÌŽÍ‹Í”ÌŸÌłÌČÌÌąÌ©Í‰Ì»Ì˜Ìș͕͚uÌžÍ†Ì‘ÌŁÍ“Íœ.Ì·Ì†ÌŸÌ‘ÌÌŸÍ€ÌŒÍÌšÍ Í„Ì•Ì§ÌĄÌÌšÍ‰Í…Ì­Ì»Ì ÍˆÌąÌ—Ì—â€
“I’m sorry.”
“D-D-Don’t Apologiiiiiiiiiii-”
Sundrop and Moondrop never liked the quiet. But now, it was deafening.
It was silent.
The pizzaplex blazed, billowing smoke and all those within were taken by the insatiable hunger of the flames.
The Daycare burned.
The Children Burned.
The Daycare Attendant burned, and alongside him the Naptime Attendant burned.
‘I don’t wanna go.’
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tiddiesoutwhenthetisout · 28 days ago
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tons of TW on here bc i'm just yapping casually, so let me tell u that making a therapist cry was not on my bucket list for 2025 but,
being sent to therapy as a child is way different from being sent-ish as an adult when ur more confident you're not imagining things/basically more aware.
dr. basically asked me: how are you still alive?
đŸ€Ł iunno doc, the power of love? /hj
starting from the top:
it was pretty funny. she made me write basic info n the classic symptoms tickboxes, history, etc. sat down. she was just Looking Respectfully at the beginning and then opening the talk upon completion of the forms with "You're so pretty" with a transfixed smile and gyattdamn, (learned this from my roomie) i appreciate that coming from an older woman.
i mean she's prolly in her 30s or 40s but yes. it doesn't feel gross đŸ•ș she paused and stared sometimes just to say that again, alongside making comments about my speaking voice n shit. it felt like an aunt i never had or something 😭
bc all my aunts i was in contact with were fucked up đŸ€˜
or iunno it just felt so freeing because wow, a compliment on my appearance from someone who isn't my gf, without weird/volatile feelings/intentions? whoaaa. perceived (reasonably) or otherwise. ig it just felt safe in that office. i care about this because a lot of my encounters with others is them being impressed by a skill, a talent, or looks, esp looks bc you can just stand there and that's what people see-- and wanting to use that or exploit that or define me by that and put me on a pedestal instead of acknowledging the person it's attached to, yk? i can't explain very well.
but it's like you are a concept built on the things you can do, and when it comes to the human you are, no one listens.
"imagine what you would be without all the trauma."
yes, doc. it hurts to imagine so i don't do it, generally đŸ€Ł
and anyway the header-- yes, on this initial overall assessment, a little back and forth, ms. dr.'s eyes were just turning red a lot, dabbing at em, nose clogging up, help--
"you're doing your best but ur fucked up" yes. and i also have a long line of fucked uppedness in my family. did you know a new study said something about your genetics retaining trauma info from ur ancestors? good 
as well as "i didn't even get u formally assessed but you're kinda fucked up bro" (not verbatim obviously)
well. she made me tear up by going "we become different people when we feel that we are understood and loved" when she brought up my gf (who we initially sent there after a relative's suicide last month), who referred me, who apparently told the doc we were together. i didn't expect that because she's very private especially about us, so *hair tuck behind ear* (lol). so it's only fair--
because sometimes people say the love me but only the version of me they hope for, constructed in their heads, the name, refusing accountability...
anyway
funny that when we were talking about my gf in passing, she showed up outside the clinic. doc went: well there she is!
me: WHAT
doc: u didn't know she's coming?
me: NO
doc: : ))))
oh yeah she's not homophobic too which is WONDERFUL and like it felt like she supports it too instead of just tolerating it.
doc also went on about how much potential she could see from the first impression n shit. it's like... yk how i hear this a lot from other people but it never feels genuine? and how this is somewhat special because that professional also told me "you're already impressive, and i can see you're doing your best, BUT things are hindering you."
in contrast to others', "you're awesome but you're not trying hard enough."
it didn't feel as shallow as all these positive words from other people. because i somehow want to tell them "i can be better; this is not it" but they won't believe me. just going "you're just being humble; look at ME."
ykwim?
like, stop comparing yourself to me to make me feel better. that's not it. that's not going to make me feel better; i just want you to believe i can be greater without everything that's keeping me tied down.
instead of saying, "why can't you aim for that Thing You're Totally Capable Of?" that all these years i've just learned to disregard with "i'm lazy." for a lack of better words.
she kept looking at my symptoms and saying: WOW the way you're still here is literally impressive.
puts down her pen, looks again, goes: SEE? look at all of that. without question, we'll put you on academic leave and get you these things *starts scribbling*
iunno it's such a RELIEF that i feel like sharing it. not that i don't just Yap incessantly, but yes đŸ€Ł it's like... i've known that. i'm not just a piece of shit, a failure "despite my privileges", a "person who's not trying their best", a "spoiled brat" that everyone among my relatives think i am. because my parents still keep this... front about our family being in harmony and that Nothing Is Wrong when they practically could've just killed each other. and me LOL.
like jesus fuck; you break generational trauma by actually doing it. not presenting it as broken.
doc soon gonna hear about how they both wanted a son. heh. 😭
guess what i spent 4 yrs of my life crossdressing and i also like girls. you get half a son. i mean tbh i still sometimes act like one accdng to their standards. but i never really, before i was aware of these, and before i got sick of the SH, 🍇ey situations, etc... and even as a "guy" it happened đŸ•șđŸ•șđŸ•ș it was a fun phase and a thing i still do from time to time though so heh it's not a "what was it all for" situation. just a "wow that felt like a past life."
boutta go to the bathroom so yes well, this went well despite me knowing what i got. it was like... "see. the professional says so. and she INSISTS on getting all the treatment." might come back to the comments to randomly slip in shit.
my gf came to pick me up actl, and going out my therapist went "(name)'s right there, she's waiting for you. yk her. she loves you a lot." not sure how to translate that. in the used language, she meant something like "loves you in all forms, to the root of your soul". nuance hard hard
we used to joke about "picking u up from therapy", didn't expect that too happen at this age lmaooo, for both of us rlly. also yeah um i've avoided going because medical trust issues n shit as well as thinking "I'm self-aware, I can do this" but yk what things just Work Differently. heck wait gtg meet a friend
conclusion funny ahh therapy session. doc even used up her lunch break for me :''')
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Heyyy, I completely forgot to tell you but the night after my ‘failed’ shifting attempt I woke up like half awake at like 4:30 pm or smth and, on a whim, tried to open my third eye?? and it was working, my third eyes was opening and I got freaked out bc I was seeing even though my eyes were closed and I heard whispering(it wasn’t really whispering cause the voices were loud but also quiet??) and I chickened out and stopped myself cause I was scared that I was gonna summon a demon or smthđŸ€ŠđŸœâ€â™€ïž doesn’t help that there’s a mirror right by my bed facing my face so I was literally opening my third eye staring at myself and it freaked me tf out for no reason. I thought when you opened your third eye you would be seeing demons or ghosts and that you would be going insane and that would wouldn’t be able to stop hearing the voices of spirits(Idk where tf that came from but my nana is Christian so I’m not surprised, I prob picked it up from one of those Christian videos she watches) but upon further research(ie a brief google search) it’s actually not like that in the way I was thinking.. Embarrassing..
That’s so cool???? Opening your third eye out of no where is so crazy tho like how do you even think of that 😭😭😭 I understand abt the fear tho my family is Christian (I am not anymore) so working through the religious trauma and fear is always a struggle for me but CONGRATS 🎊🎉🎈
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"Yeah, well. Forever's a long time bud. Trust me." <- remember Pilots S1 where his contemplations of being immortal is delivered within a joke, remember also :) this when you watch the S4 special. MK: "Monkey King what are we supposed to do? Monkey King???" Wukong: *staring in horror at ink Macky.* "Haha. You know, you make a couple of mistakes in your life and no one ~ ever ~ lets you live it down." "Looks like the ghosts of my past have finally caught up with me." "You're nothing!" says Ink Macky. *eyes S3 ep 4 where he tells MK he's nothing.* So back when I said this could be a hypothetical hint of what he might've said to Wukong- your freedom's gone, you're not the Monkey King anymore ;) In the Chinese version, he says "You abandoned me." Which is totally different but 👀 delicious. Also note how he's tied up in this scroll memory! A lot like how he seemed to be tied up in shadows and in chains in that same ep's flashback 😉 aren't those screams making you so curious about what on earth was happening 😭 also don't you just love the way Wukong instinctively yells "no!" when you hear "Monkey! No violence!" definitely no trauma involved there. Oh, if Tripitaka used the circlet after Wukong accidentally(?) killed Mackaroo đŸ„ș "You see, this is why we don't resort to violence!" So uh, Wukong tries to hold back in fights as we saw with Nezha. And "Show me the real Sun Wukong! The old you would have leveled this whole mountain range to stop me!" He tries copying humans a lot, divorcing himself from the image of a "monster" that most people see him as. It doesn't seem he succeeds much 😔 welcome to the fun fic trope season of walking through memories yahooooo. For that reason above, I'm trying to compare Wukong and Macky's fang sizes to see whose more monkey and feral among them. A lil reversed, but Wukong holding back the ink spear is similar to him holding back Macky's smoke monster. It's okay, a more direct parallel to that scene will come later ;)
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21. What is your most marked characteristic? (hint: A marked characteristic is a term used to describe something that is very obvious and easily noticed)
1754. In what way are you too hard on yourself?
433. Have you ever cried at a movie?
DITTO. SAME QUESTIONS.
21. What is your most marked characteristic? (hint: A marked characteristic is a term used to describe something that is very obvious and easily noticed)
My most marked characteristic? I mean, that would depend on who I'm around I'm being honest. My therapist points out my intelligence, resilience, and kindness a lot. My younger brother loves to point out my yellow teeth and the fact that I'm fat A LOT (even though he has no room to talk considering he still looks like Jack Skellington with a skin suit on at 19 years old and teeth that are WORSE than mine). My dad always points out my hyper-empathy, an aspect of myself that I have never had any control over, in the most condescending ways possible ("You whiner!" "You need to learn to let what I did to you shit go!" "You let things get to you too easily!" You know, shit like that.) My mother always feels the urge and need to point out my body hair whenever she sees that I haven't shaved in a while, you know, because goodness forbid a woman doesn't shave for a long period of time 🙄. Honestly, it's interesting to me that a lot of the characteristics that have been pointed out to me over the years are direct results of me being a formerly undiagnosed autistic girl who was never taught basic self-care and hygiene and with deep rooted trauma that I will probably never fully heal from.
1754. In what way are you too hard on yourself?
Would you like the summarized version or my entire scroll that circles the earth 5 times over? Right now, the main things I am really hard on myself for is the fact that I couldn't even finish college, yet my younger sister with ADHD could get her bachelor's degree in psychology, nor can I find a job to at least contribute monetarily to my living situation. It also doesn't help that my hypocrite deadbeat father who refuses to apply his own "advice" to his own life keeps fostering this feeling within me by reminding me and my younger brother (who college also didn't work for and is also ADHD) that we "better figure out what we want to do," and "should look at trade school if we don't want to go back to college," you know, because trades aren't an oversaturated field BECAUSE of people like him giving advice like that. My dad doesn't even have, nor does he even want to get, his G.E.D and he's preaching "facts" at me and my brother like he FUCKING KNOWS WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT! AHHHHHHHHHHH! I'm also hard on myself for struggling with something as simple as starting a task, or struggling to do tasks that I KNOW I can do normally, but for some reason my brain and body disconnect from each other, like Bluetooth headphones that are too far away from the phone their connected to, and then I feel fucking stupid because I either forget how I was taught to do it OR I'll stop mid-task and stare into the ether wondering what the fuck I'm doing. I'm also exhausted constantly even though most days I barely do anything, unless you count having anxious and existential dread thoughts, as well as most definitely having autistic burnout, as extraneous activities. I've been really hard on myself for that lately too.
433. Have you ever cried at a movie?
Not going to lie, I don't remember ever crying while watching a movie in the theater, but I KNOW that I've cried while watching movies at home. My most recent movie cry was while watching the last Guardians of the Galaxy movie when Rocket's having his own moment of "dying character meeting his dead friend/relative/love interest again after a long time in a white void and the dead person tells the dying character that it's not their time to go yet." Like, I KNEW it was going to happen, but it still had me crying like a baby FOR REAL. 😭😭😭
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star-girl69 · 2 years ago
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My Heart Never Knows
Jake Sully x Neytiri x Reader
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a/n: only a few more chapters left 😭 i hope you all enjoy!!
again, thank you so much to @eywas-heir for beta reading this đŸ«¶đŸ«¶đŸ«¶
warnings: violence, death, mentions of blood, mentions of head trauma, injury, not very graphic though, swearing, tell me if i missed anything!!
Chapter Twenty- To Fly
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“Jake
” the man says, Lo’ak’s piece in his ear and the speaker around his neck. His voice is a taunt, like he’s itching for him to come forward.
Jake and Neytiri told you about Quaritch. They told you about the battle- when Neytiri killed his human form, where they were going to destroy the tree of souls.
But you never imagined he would be as cruel as this.
The four of you are a lot calmer now, with the Metkayina in your sights, with Jake there.
You can see him now- just barely, hair pulled back, you think, a human machine in his hands. A gun, he had explained when you found it once, softly moving around you and hiding it somewhere else.
You preferred not to think about it, but now you have never been more grateful for it.
You have never been more grateful to see him.
He and Neytiri protected you from Ayeoe- helped you when you and Ronal were fighting, let you into their lives and their children’s lives.
“You want your kids back? You come out alone.”
You watch, rapt, as he bends slightly, taking a gun out from his waistband and holding it high in the air.
“You know better than to test my resolve.”
Then, he places the gun to the back of Lo’ak’s head, like it is not a person in front of him, like it is not a young boy who lives and breathes and loves.
“No!” you scream, tearing it out from your throat, looking between the gun and the rail, hair flying ledt and right.
Tuk and Tsireya scream as well- but it all fades when Quaritch turns to you with a sick smile, before it drops so fast.
“The fuck?” he whispers, putting the gun in his other hand, taking one step toward you.
“Stop!” Lo’ak screams, even though he was silent when the cold metal was upon his head.
But he doesn’t press the gun to your head. Instead, he grabs you by your braid, tugging and pulling back, exposing your neck.
“Oh,” he says, staring at your necklace, at Neytiri’s feather. “Oh.” His face breaks into a wide smile, but it looks almost unnatural on his face. He presses the intercom again. “Such a lovely girl. She’s pretty, huh? Yeah
 I like that necklace too. That feather.”
The line is silent on the other end, and Quaritch simply stares into your eyes- biting his lip and tugging, pressing the earpiece to your lips when you let out a squeal.
“I know who’s feather that is, Jake. I know
 who this pretty girl belongs too.”
Quaritch’s lip curls inward, pure disgust on his face, but he looks out towards the horizon, towards Jake, with a vengeance.
“I took you under my wing,” he hisses. “And you betrayed your own kind. You killed your own kind- good men, good women. I will not hesitate to execute your kids and your girl.”
Silence for a moment-
“Just wait one,” he pleads, and even his voice makes you so calm that you can’t help but let your shoulders sag.
And then you realize he will come. He will cross the sea, cross the mountains, cross the stars to get back to his family- what is a few yards?
But he is just a man, and he is outnumbered.
Words are about to spill from your lips, but you realize you have no idea what you would say. What could you even say? This man in front of you is beyond reason- beyond sanity. He sees nothing but death and the satisfaction he thinks he will get.
“Check your fire. I’m coming out,” the voice says, his voice, resigned and broken, but you hear that something in it.
You can just faintly see him out his gun down out of the corner of your eye, make the slow crossing, make the journey to what must be death.
You know death, you know suffering and pain- but you have never felt it like this before, you have watched it happen in front of you and not been able to do anything, but it has never made you want to rip out your heart- anything to stop feeling like this.
Lo’ak let’s out a growl, bringing you back into focus, and you try to crane your neck to look at Tuk and Tsireya, to try and comfort them, even though when all you want is to be comforted yourself. But Quaritch keeps a tight grip on your braid, taunting Jake, taunting everyone in your clan.
He is playing with water, water that contains darkness- water that will drown him.
Quaritch keeps his other hand on his gun, finger on the trigger, trained on Lo’ak. He holds the power. He holds everything in his hands- and he is crushing it, inch by inch, so slowly you could barely even feel it.
“Easy shot,” one of the Avatars muses. You can barely bite your tongue. Quaritch looks over to him, a silent order, and the man lowers his gun.
“If you hit him now,” he advises, “they attack. Wait until he’s on board.”
Lo’ak hisses again, like his anger is spilling out of him, like he can barely control it.
“It’s alright,” you manage to whisper, eyes pointed to the sky, the only direction you really can look. His eyes keep drifting to your neck, to the feather.
Why is he so entranced?
Quaritch let’s out another laugh, tugging again-
“Don’t hurt her!” Lo’ak hisses, furiously trying to rip his restraints, but Quaritch only rolls his eyes and presses the gun closer to his head.
So he can feel the ring of metal, the coolness, know it is the last thing he would ever feel if Quaritch pulled the trigger.
“Lo’ak
” but you have nothing to say.
You have nothing to say when the sea splits apart, something shooting up and out, seawater slamming into your face, a hand leaving your braid- when you blink the water away- it is a tulkun.
Emerging from the water like something from Eywa herself, arcing in the air like the curve of a bow.
“Payakan!” Tuk shouts, and you almost thought it was Ay’a for a moment. For a split second, until you remembered what they did to her, what they will do to him.
Payakan slams onto the deck of the boat, crushing shoulders beneath him, screams dying as quickly as they were born.
That is what it is, what the humans do. They live so quick- futile, taking and taking, never giving, always struggling- they live painfully, and then it is over in just a flash.
The four of you sway from side to side as the ship recovers from the force of Payakan’s fall.
It is simply chaos for a few moments- the humans opening fire on him, and the bullets simply bouncing off. With a quick move of Payakan’s fin, another man is dead. Then another.
“Brother!” Lo’ak shouts, kicking a human covered in grey metal so the human is crushed with a grunt.
You cannot find it in yourself to feel bad. All humans have done is take from you- why should they not suffer like you have?
Payakan’s tail slams around, knocking over spires of winding grey metal, killing and killing, taking and taking. He is not a tulkun in this moment. No- he is something else.
The sound of bullets is deafening, but soon Payakan is slipping into the sea after another explosion rocks the ship, and you hear the war cries. Closer, closer.
“Are you alright?” you ask each of them, “are you alright?!”
They all nod slowly- but they aren’t paying attention to you. They are paying attention to the Metkayina warriors approaching the ship and you cannot blame them.
You spot Ronal and Tonowari, Jake at the front.
The bullets come for them- but they simply dive into the water, their tsurak’s gliding in easily.
“Sully’s inbound! I want eyes on him!” Quaritch shouts, loading his gun while the other Avatars climb onto their ikran. They take off with a screech, and soon the sound of more bullets rent the air.
This time, they come from the sky, not quite a helicopter, but still flying. But before it can cause anymore destruction- Neytiri emerges from the clouds on her ikran, arrow pulled taut, smashing right through the glass.
Then, the Metkayina are shouting out of the water with their spears and sharp tsurak teeth, killing and taking and it is a beautiful sight, you say.
There is so much happening, too much too look at, it is almost like the day you mated them. Overwhelmed, the entire world happening in front of you- and yet your eyes are drawn to Jake until he disappears behind the ship.
“The
 the ship
” Tsireya suddenly says, looking to the grey floor. Then you feel it too. See it. “The ship is moving!”
Panic runs in your veins like vines of a plant- how will you be rescued if Jake and Neytiri don’t know where you are?
“It’s alright!” you shout- the ship is moving too fast, there is something wrong-
“Spider
” Lo’ak whispers. “It’s Spider!”
Then the four of you are flying.
It is nothing like when Jake and Neytiri took you flying, because Jake’s arms aren’t around you, his voice isn’t in your ear.
Neytiri isn’t there to shout reassurances, to fly upside down above you while laughing, making you smile just because she is. Jake tells you the stories of the stars in the sky, the shapes they make. There must be one of them, you’re sure.
You fly, and you land, the only sound you can hear being screams and shouts.
“My head
” you mumble, trying to get to your knees through the haziness.
“Are you alright? Are you okay?” Lo’ak asks, tugging at his restraints, Tuk and Tsireya following, movements fast and frantic.
“Mama?” Tuk asks, although it is more of a screech, a plea for you to answer.
“I’m fine,” you whisper, even as you feel the blood drip down your temple.
—-
“You won’t let me fall, right?”
You know he won’t. But before Bob takes off, before you are flying and free, you want to hear him say it.
He squeezes the arm wrapped around your waist.
“Nah, baby. I won’t let you. Besides, we would catch you.”
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tiistirtipii · 2 years ago
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Vice versa episode 12 thoughts
Some people might have seen my episode 11 rant post in which I was unhappy with a lot of the episode and I was really worried about how they were going to tie it all together in episode 12. I am surprised to say that I absolutely loved the episode and I think everything was wrapped up nicely and cemented Vice Versa as a show I will continue to love. Without further ado here are my thoughts about the episode. Please note this is a ridiculously long post of every thought I had
-Talay is not the only one who knew you were acting Puen, Gmmtv really baited us with everything they had at the end of the last episode. I was so worried about them switching again and I’m really glad they didn’t
- Sure you two are being cute as hell and such put can you please put your nips away they are staring at me its scary
- Puen has art of finger guns in his room, Bi confirmed
- Talay trying to recreate the bread horns is adorable
- They’re actually too sweet I’m gonna be sick
- The ‘Thank you for taking away my fear of tomorrow’/’Thank you for being born so that I could love you’ scene is the best kiss in the series, I said it. Also ridiculously sweet
- As soon as the director guy said ‘I believe every word you said’ I was like oh shit he’s travelled too
- I’m so glad there is an Association in this universe as well, it being in the equivalent of the Friend Credits tent is a nice touch.
- 👉 ‘Nong’
- Talay being so excited about the job and Puen being so supportive, I’m so happy for him I was so worried Tess was going to irreversibly screw everything up
- Talay loves pink now đŸ„șđŸ„șđŸ„șđŸ„ș
- Puen giggling in the Friend Credits t-shirt he’s such a cutie
- The interviewer guy was being so pushy with the questions about the picture but I guess that’s his job
- Gyo is so based, yes it is his personal business, some people
 should try being more like her. Supportive bestie queen
- I know manager Prikyuak is trying to do his job but they kinda have some trauma about not seeing each other dude
- I do like how Talay didn’t just immediately assume the worst or assume Puen didn’t want to see him, he was just worried
- Tup and Tou đŸ„°đŸ„°đŸ„°, them being so supportive đŸ„°đŸ„°đŸ„°
- Neo really out here playing three characters at a time and all of them are brilliant. GMMTV please give him a main role please.
- Talay even suggesting going seperate ways after all they’ve been through is absurd
- Supportive bestie is at it again with the video. Using the alpaca to get the message to him awww
- Drunk Talay is such a sweetheart
- Tell me how in the week leading up to episode 12 I literally thought nonstop about a scene where Puen is asked between work and love and I thought about how easy the answer would be for him. My actual ideal scene was for him to state to the paparazzi and people that were harassing him and Talay that if he had to pick between his work and his love he would chose the love with no question and if people were really his fans they would stop harassing them about it because the solution would be for him to stop acting. AND THEN THAT SCENE WAS REAL. I actually couldn’t believe it.
-✹✹Without work, I can survive, Without him, I can’t✹✹
- For some reason I thought when Talay and Gyo were in the car they were going to crash and get sent back through universes. I think the end of episode 11 made me super paranoid they would switch at any moment.
- I asked for a scene between Puen and Talay’s mum and they did not disappoint. He’s such a cutie who’s mum wouldn’t love him?
- ‘How old are you, eight?’ She’s such a queen I love her
- ‘Your son is stubborn’ get his ass Puen
- Talay with his glasses up, I repeat, Talay with his glasses up!! Sea looks so good
- Here for the Jimmy in glasses agenda
- An hourglass with sand that doesn’t fall 😭
- Can’t believe 2gether of all shows nearly got the last word
- Sorry it has to be said, they could have really worked on the kissing scenes.
- I love a good montage and a montage of the other universe was a great idea to fit what’s going on into the last episode without leaving too many questions unanswered
- Neo in a suit, 10/10
- Fuse and Aou 💕💕
- Aou’s face after the cheek kiss. Pity we didn’t see more of them
- Friend Credits making a Vice Versa film đŸ„č
- ALSO!! Tess!! If there’s one thing I want to know its how he reacted to the life he has now, I really hope he went through some quick character development and learnt to appreciate what Talay did for him
- Tun and Tess working on a movie together and falling in love? Sound familiar?
- DOL!!! Please someone write a fic where Talay and Puen get to speak to Dol again, or at least to this universe’s version of them and update them on what’s happening in their original life.
- Friend credits version 2.0 featuring Tup and Tou
- And the pink trumpet tree has been growing there the whole time đŸ„ș
- How cute would it be if Puen’s wish said something along the lines of ‘Ever since I saw you in that airport bathroom, I have fallen head over heels in love with you’ to parallel his earlier wish and Talays wish? Lets go head over heels for each other is cute as well I guess
- Guys please don’t fuck in the Friend Credits caravan, is no place sacred?
- Thank you Lays for supporting gay rights
- Imagine if he put a ring in the Lays bag, I would’ve lost it
- Playing the Not Me trailer right afterwards was a shock to the system
If you have actually managed to read this, congratulations for making it to the end of every thought I had watching this episode. I clearly need someone to talk to about these shows. Vice Versa has been an amazing show to watch, with great acting and a lot of care and detail put into the sets, props and story. Thank you to the Vice Versa team.
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thesevenwondersofawitch · 3 years ago
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Star Trek Next Generation, season 7 episode 7, Dark Page
(TW: child loss, guilt over child death)
Will's face when Mrs. Troi insulated Worf😂
Deanna's mom is out finding her daughter a husband and Deanna does not appreciate it😂
I didn't realize that Mrs. Troi running after Deanna was something I needed to see, but now I know it was
The poor dude in the elevator with them is so confused 😂
Oh no, what's wrong with Mrs. Troi?
The way she urges Deanna to go is kinda heartbreaking
Oh dear, that dude Maques was waiting for Deanna 😂
A part of Mrs. Troi that cannot be seen? Oh no
I don't think it's just private, I wonder if it's blocked?
Will, I'm with Deanna on this, something's wrong with her mom
Oh shit, Lwaxana is going full mama bear on Will o_O
Lwaxana, baby, you aren't supposed to be using telepathy!
Deanna's right, you don't look well
Lwaxana?! What happened?!!
I think I remember something about Deanna having a sister who drowned? Did seeing that girl cause her to have a bad memory?
Manuels stop! You're hurting Deanna!
Are you fine? Are you really?
Oh no, what was the trauma? I'm already crying cause this is gonna hurt, I just know it
Losing her daughter would definitely be a trauma, especially if Deanna doesn't remember s sister dying, it must mean it happened before Deanna was born or when she was very little
I don't like that Marques came into sickbay, he looks really creepy
The reason might be a good one, but it doesn't make it less creepy
I know Deanna doesn't die, but I'm still worried she'll die trying to reach her mama
Lwaxana is frightened? Ow😭
Maques is making me very uncomfortable with his stare
Why is there a dog
On no, it's causing Deanna!
"DADDY?" DEANNA'S DAD? HOLY SHIT!
"Did I live here?" "For a while when you were a baby." Oh shit did they live there until her sister died?
I'm crying too, Deanna, it's so heartbreaking you seeing your dead dad
Lwaxana yelling "Get away from here!" Gives me chills
Lwaxana summoning all her defenses to keep Deanna away and one of the defenses being Picard is slightly funny to me, even though I'm sad
WHAT IF THE HAIR SNIP ISN'T DEANNA'S?! Could it be The sister's?
The line "I didn't understand he wouldn't be coming back." Guts me. 😭
A seven year gap in diary entries? She deleted them 30yrs ago?
I have chills. Literal chills.
Deanna's back where her mom fell unconscious? Oh dear
"Go. Go away." It sounds so broken
"I'd never let anything happen to you." "Did you let something happen to someone?"
Oh no, Lwaxana was distracted by baby Deanna
"The dog got away, she ran after it. We didn't notice." Oh no, this is gonna hurt
"It was a terrible tragedy. The worst thing that can happen to any parent." Oh fuck, the foreshadowing hurts so bad, knowing what happens to Deanna's kid😭
Deanna just found out about a sister she never knew, and fuck, I have a sister myself and I can not imagine never knowing her
Aw, Kestra was her precious one, and Deanna her little one😭
Yeah, this shit hurted
Aw, they woke up holding hands đŸ˜­đŸ„°
Good job, Mr. Homn, saving a picture of the girls and their father.
"I wish you could have known her Deanna. I wish you two could've grown up together." *Clutches chest and winces like a Minecraft character dying* my heart 😭
"Tell me about her. I want to know everything." So do I, Deanna, so do I.😭
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anthrofreshtodeath · 3 years ago
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#25 - Café on a snowy day, 15 Blade
@justagirlfangirling asked for this one, too. It doesn't take place in a cafĂ© per se, but close enough. Thank you for requesting! It was fun to return to the 15 Blade universe - I miss these surgeons. 😭
“Mikey!” Dr. Jane Rizzoli, chief of trauma surgery at Boston Medical Center, burst into Maruccio’s with snow sticking in her black curly hair. She hurried into the warmth of the shop because she had foregone gloves and her fingers felt like they would snap off if she didn’t get indoors, quick. “Gimme a- turkey on wheat
” She had started to demand her usual, but she stopped, blinked rapidly when she realized that Maura sat at one of the three tables with two sandwiches already in front of her. The other two were empty, and Mikey was nowhere to be found. At 3 PM. “Hey
”
“Hi,” Maura responded sweetly. “Come sit, please.”
Jane obeyed with a deliberate and slow walk forward. “I thought you had a procedure. And where’s uh
 where’s Mikey? It’s practically lunch time.”
“Well, I had to reschedule, and Mikey let me borrow the shop for a little while,” Maura said when she handed Jane a footlong sub, knowing she’d need the other half for dinner later. “I got you the Italian with a side of pesto. How you like it.”
Jane blushed. If she could eat without consequences for her genetic shortcomings, namely blood pressure and cholesterol problems, it was the sandwich she would have ordered every time she came. Mikey’s masterpiece. “We celebratin’ somethin’?” she asked.
Maura took a paper, folded in half and stapled at the top, and placed it in front of Jane. Jane stared quizzically at Maura before running her finger through the closure so she could unfold it. As she did, something dropped out and clattered to the worn vinyl tabletop.
Jane recognized it immediately as a pregnancy test. Her face morphed from confusion to disbelief, to stoic. Rather than ask for confirmation, she studied the paper, the bloodwork, in her hand to give her the answer.
hCG - Present.
“You’re pregnant,” Jane croaked, looking back up with tears streaking down her cheeks.
Maura was not crying, but her eyes shone with moisture. “I rescheduled my patient’s surgery because I wasn’t feeling well this morning. I took a test, and it was inconclusive. So, I went down to Obstetrics. Dr. Somasundaran was quite happy, as you can imagine.” She beamed when Jane chuckled through a sob.
“Not-not as happy as me, Dr. Isles,” Jane teased. “This is the best reason I’ve ever had for eating a classic Italian.”
Maura threw her head back in genuine, pretty laughter. “Selfishly, I’m glad I was the cause.”
“We’re gonna be parents,” Jane breathed out, “Christ. We’re gonna be parents.”
“We are,” said Maura. “So you better eat up, because that’s the last bit of cold cuts I’m going to let you have for
 nine months? At least.”
“Solidarity, huh?” Jane asked, reaching out her hand.
Maura took it, and squeezed. “Exactly. If I can’t; you can’t. Now, let’s brainstorm how to tell your mother.”
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