#SOOOO One thing you need to know about me is that my main motivator to write fanfic is being disapointed bt he canon

[accioepiphany]

Chapters: 1/2 Fandom: The Bear (TV 2022) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sydney Adamu/Carmen "Carmy" Berzatto Characters: Sydney Adamu, Carmen "Carmy" Berzatto, Richard "Richie" Jerimovich, Tina Marrero, Ebraheim (The Bear TV 2022), Natalie "Sugar" Berzatto Additional Tags: Slow Burn, Partners to Lovers, partners and then something more, Post-Season/Series 03 Summary:

In the aftermath of a bad review and bad finances, Carmy is forced to make decisions that will keep the boat afloat. The only thing that's missing in this new journey is his compass, Sydney. Keeping away from her might prove to be harder than expected, as she seems to keep surrounding his every move. This is sort of my dream ending for The Bear, one that is centered around Syd and Carmy's relationship and one that I decided to write to keep it alive.

[philosophiums]

hi sam ok now i would love to know if you have any jji hot takes 👀

KJSDBVDKJFBV trying to get me #canceled i see i see /jkjk

i kind of only have one really Hot Take i guess (i have an uncountable amount of opinions but those have been said before by myself or others, or are just... yknow. vibes and feelings and preferences), and it's that:

gege is a character writer, specifically with an emphasis on character relationships (mirrors, foils, family, [perceived] romance, etc.), but he is not particularly skilled at plot (and specifically seems to struggle with balancing story within the plot), and i think a lot of the current animosity towards jjk would not exist if he had really buckled down on and maintained the level of character-centered storylines that we got at the beginning.

i will elaborate under the cut bc i don't think everyone needs or wants to read my thought processes KJSDBVJKDBV

jjk, in my opinion, has a very clean dividing line that is Everything In The Beginning and then Everything Post-Shibuya. up to the end of the shibuya incident, the story is character-driven (though a bit fast-paced, it still manages) and has a very clear and defined goal (not for the characters, though they also have their own motivations, but for the plot): get yuuji to eat all of the sukuna fingers, and then execute him. obviously a story has to story, so there are antagonists getting in the way, and there are underlying themes and actions that make that goal more heartbreaking, but it is laid in stone right away that there is no happy ending here (yuuji will die) and the best we should hope for is happy memories along the way, while the best we can hope for is the characters figuring out a way to get around this doomed reality. we had a great main cast and a through-line for the plot and, most importantly, circling themes of character/relationship mirrors, cycles in general, and the connecting thread between power and a severing or loss of humanity (which all created a story).

there's a reason so many readers are unhappy with the culling game arc and the sukuna fight, and i think that reason is the really hard pull away from characters being able to drive the story (it's a little bit about pacing too, i think, because the culling games were long and boring, and the sukuna fight has equally been long and predictable). i truly think the worst mechanical decision gege made for jjk was separating the main cast during the culling game arc. it created a "need" to introduce a million new (pointless) characters, and all it did was underline and emphasize that character (as a writing tool) doesn't actually matter to the story anymore.

like objectively it's not... bad. there is (probably) a plot that he's following, and he (probably) has an end-goal in mind and a conclusion that he is gunning towards. he is maintaining continuity and wrapping up loose threads that were mentioned in previous chapters. things are linked. but like.... it's just so, so hard to care about what's happening in the plot right now because A) so much tragedy based around characters we don't know has only made me exceptionally numb to everything gege decides to do now, and B) we the audience have been seated next to the narrator instead of next to yuuji or gojo or yuuta or whoever. it's soooo drawn back, it's so far away from character. and i think that was just.... a really bad decision.

anyway, i think, all else equal, jjk would be on better footing right now if gege had decided to maintain the writing from Pre-Shibuya and stick to a character-driven plot. at least all of the carnage would mean something, then 🤷

[terrifying-acceptance]

i just got an idea for a comic and like i get those a lot but i NEEDED to get this one on paper so let me know ow what y'all think!!

Here's the premise: God has decided that humanity is too sinful to be saved, so they send down their army of angels to irradiate all life and start over. This is very bad for our human protagonists for obvious reasons, soooo our main duo, Aster and Paris, become Angel Hunters and try to stop heaven from massacring Earth

^^ their designs so far (Aster [He/They] is the one one the left and Paris [She/They] is the one on the right in the first image)

Aster and Paris are roommates at their University. Paris is a paranoid introvert who is sick of everyone's (especially Aster's) bullshit and isn't afraid to let them know it. They majored in religious studies so they know a lot about the different angels they fight and how to beat them! Aster is a loud fighter who tries his best to keep everyone safe despite his... questionable methods. They may look annoying, but he really does care about everyone around them.

They go on adventures finding and exterminating holy figures from all different pantheons. Hijinx, heresy, and hell await these 2!!

I got this idea when i was rewatching some old mandela catalog theories about the alternates being angels and stuff. I was like, what if we hunted them back?? and BOOM!! new idea :D it's grown into it's own thing since then, but i can't help splicing in things from my fav shows into my brain ://

here's a design i whipped up for the first angel vvv



but yeah!! tell me what y'all think about the idea!!! questions, suggestions, criticism, anything!! i'm thinking about making it a comic but we'll see if the idea sticks with me long enough to get motivation

[vincentiswatching]

I loved "Speak No Evil (2024)"! (Spoilers)

I'm not a professional anything but I like things sometimes and I need places to talk about these things before I explode. Today this thing happens to be "Speak No Evil (2024)".

[Short disclaimer: I haven't seen the original. I'm sure it's great but I'm just not the person to watch movies without the explicit motivation to and I don't want to watch the original because I'd have an awful time if I forced myself to. Especially just to make a point on tumblr. The movie is a stand-alone thing for me so I'll treat it as such.]

I loved the characters. James McAvoy as Patrick is creepy but I feel like the scariest thing about him is that you fall for his trap while you see it being set up. Even early on, he's very harsh and downright unlikeable at times but he's also so very nice, funny and inviting. Then you know how awful he is and even when he was terrible just a moment ago, for a second you believe him when he says something heartfelt or supportive. It feels like it plays with the naiveté of the viewer and I like that - fits the 'playing with your pray' motiv.

In general, I liked the whole hunting theme. It was kind of unhinged and set a nice consistent overarching tone. A wonderful mix of thrilling, uncomfortable (in a good way) and weirdly funny.

Louise and Ben, the couple that came to visit the "bad family" as my seat neighbour put so eloquently, are amazing. I legitimately think that them working with and through their communication and marital problems was a main hook for me, which I didn't expect. Just cleverly written and interesting to watch. Many little moments and nuances were what made them great. I also love Louise defending her family with all means necessary. Using the app in the wardrobe, calling the shots when everyone else is panicking and straight up pouring acid over a guy? That's cool.

You never loose the impression that they are absolutely scared out of their minds but they're not dumb either. At the same time it made sense that they stayed. I love how those three factors didn't contradict one another.

Ciara was amazing. Convincing in every role: As a victim, as a person that was forced to do harm and as a person that's actively harming. Again, very nuanced and so interesting to dissect.

And the really gut wrenching scenes, for me, were the ones with the Children, Ant and Agnes. You're constantly scared for them and on edge but the movie uses them in the right moments and it hits. The reveal and the brick scene come to mind.

Now, I don't usually watch things that I probably won't like (except for that one time when I watched the "Cats" movie) and I usually don't like movies with horror elements ('cause I'm weak) but I had a really good time with this! The premise is interesting and the execution (lol) was great. It's a very entertaining movie. I could probably talk about certain scenes for hours but I won't bore you with that.

Can't wait to see it with the original audio when the blue ray comes out! I watched it in German.

Rating things is neither my forte nor do I think that it's very practical when it comes to the movies I watch soooo this one gets a 10/10 for forever changing my associations with the song "Eternal Flame" in the weirdest way possible.

[I feel like I haven't talked about James McAvoy's performance enough: He's so good. Somebody described his acting in this as a force of nature and I agree. It's a good movie in general but I feel like his performance made it special. I might be biased because he is my favourite actor but I give him that title for a reason.]

Anyway, have a nice day! Stay hopeful, healthy and try to avoid nice looking serial killers if at all possible.

[voxofthevoid]

Re: JJK 267.

Hard agree with you. I also liked the 1v1 with support element and I LOVED being proven right after constantly getting told I was huffing copium because I've always maintained that Nobara was still alive but outside of that (and my general happiness to have her back) I wasn't a huge fan of this chapter.

There were quite a few reasons I was certain Nobara was alive (a big one being that her death was never confirmed anywhere and one of the first rules of anime is if you don't see the body they aint dead) but as the story progressed from Shibuya it became clear to me that this was where the story was heading in regards to Nobara: her showing up last minute to help deliver the final blow…and that kind of annoyed me.

One of the things JJK got praised a lot for in the beginning was having a diverse group of female characters that actually had their own backstories and motivations and having the main female character NOT be a love interest. Except after Shibuya the women in the cast pretty much dwindled down to nothing and it became obvious to me, particularly after it was made clear Kenjaku was not going to be the Big Bad, that Nobara's "death" and her continued absence were all for the sake of plot convenience. Her technique can attack and damage the soul. That makes her technique a perfect counter to Sukuna especially since they want to save Megumi. And that all means she needed to be kept out of the way to drag the story out more. She basically got put up on the shelf to wait because Gege couldn't find a way to write around her in a manner that would allow for her technique to still be an ace in the hole and dangerous against Sukuna while still continually ramping him up as a threat.

Because of that I was HOPING I was soooo hoping that we would end up covering the merger and my girl would get some screen time and more development but nope. Instead the female lead of JJK has been gone for over half the story because Gege didn't know what to do with her (which after Gojo that's nothing new) and she was only brought back into the story at the last minute to serve as a plot device to help Yuji pull off the win.

I'm happy she's back but I wanted so much more for her as a character and so much more for her fans and we're not gonna get that.

United we stand in painland 🤝

So fair re the vindication and also the disappointment/disillusionment regardless of it. The reason I went from Nobara copium to the "nah she's dead" camp was that the space for her return came and went, especially after the timeskip. I still could've swallowed it if the merger was going to be a thing, but this? Bringing her back for a last-moment assist in the fifth-last chapter and having her wake up half an hour earlier—are you fucking kidding me?

I agree about the female character thing too. JJK got put on a pedestal for that early on, I think, and it ended up being unwarranted. I still like its female characters more than those in most shonen I've seen, but it's still... y'know, shonen and it shows. I got into JJK well after the CG arc, so my expectations in this regard weren't as high as those of people who got into it earlier. I came across this discourse afterward, mostly.

It's Nobara's treatment in particular that pisses me off. Her "death" was well crafted and executed. And walking it back could have been done well while retaining its impact and importance, but that's not what we got. You've put it best: it feels like Gege didn't know how to incorporate her into the story while keeping her as an ace up the sleeve against Sukuna's growing threat. And honestly, even that's not a particularly novel role? How many "secret weapons" have they already pulled out against Sukuna? The timing of her attack makes it special, but the role itself is a fucking revolving chair.

[fel117]

I NEED HELP WITH MANIFESTATION!!!

˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ HIII this is like my first post ever on here!! i wanted to just yap and rant a little here about my stories and stuff here because i think it would be fun and everything and maybe there will be someone who can somehow relate to anything i say! no pressure well i basically kind of need help?? with manifestation SO THE THING IS im seeing my friend in june and im so nervous because i feel not ready at all, and yes, its just a month and i know and i believe i can do a lot of things to improve myself in that time, literally hop on higher stages of myself and become better yknow?? and achieve my goals and everything. one of my goals was also to manifest some physical appearance stuff because not gonna lie i never succeeded to manifest something big about appearance stuff even though i was regularly trying, affirming and all that stuff for it which made me so unmotivated because i couldnt manifest simple things like that as others do. after some time i kind of gave up with manifestation, now im getting back to it!! and im more than ever motivated to accomplish my goals (at least try to and be consistent with it) i noticed how i was comparing my manifestation to others manifestation and all that stuff and i believe there is a lot to fix about my mindset and all that kinda things i cant lie that im not nervous about the meeting i have in june (btw keep in mind that im not seeing regularly the friend im meeting there and i just wanted to yknow look awesome feel awesome and everything!!!) BUT MAN......i got horrible haircut. and maybe more like, not like its actually horrible but it just doesnt suit my face you know?? and im not quite used to having haircut like this, it just doesnt suit my face AND TRUST ME IM REGRETTING DECISION ABOUT CUTTING MY HAIR SOOOO BAD LOLLLL i wish i could reverse time or something FR the thing i want to manifest is obviously hair growth, like really rapid hair growth, and hair volume and all that stuff since lately my hair is just falling out like crazy and nothing seem to help?? LIKE HELP IDK and i definitely want to change my face features and all, i always struggled with baby kinda face and i know some people might say like ahahha baby faces are cute YEAH MAYBE THEY ARE TO YOU but i personally feel really bad with having one and i feel like puberty is not hitting me at all and my face just doesnt change how it look so i definitely want to try manifesting to change my face and make it more attractive!!! thats the main two things i want to focus on right now!!! though im not sure what to do to fr manifest it?? i mean i know that im the one who makes the rules about my manifestation and that its easy but seriously im seeing all those success manifestation stories and im like whaat how do they do this?? and btw if someone has any methods and tips please spill some because its really useful I SWEARRRR i want to get a total glow up or whatever you call it and manifest my desired appearance changes because i just really want to know how it feels but also because its part of my goals!!! im just quite unsure how to do all of that stuff because so many things didnt work for me in the past that i feel like its impossible for me to get results or something okay thats it for my little rant, also i feel just by letting this out i realized i might have some potential limiting beliefs and blockages that might be stopping me from getting results AND YK ALL OF THOSE THINGS!!! if someone read this THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!!! and have a nice day or nighttt!!!! BYEBYEBYE <3

[cheesybadgers]

okay soooo tell me your favorite thing about writing the epic beast that is OHDH. i want the directors cut lol

Ahhh Alex, bless you and thank you for sending this question ❤️😘

And oh boy, where do I start?!! It’s hard to pick just one, so here are three main things:

1) I think one of the trickiest yet most satisfying parts of the process was figuring out a) how any canon divergence made sense for the characters and their motivations and b) what the impact of those changes were on future canon events. It was such a fine balancing act and I had a lot of lightbulb moments in the shower (I swear my shower is some sort of creativity portal lol) solving plot problems. I had someone comment on AO3 saying how much they liked the ‘butterfly effect’ of the canon divergence and that sums it up so well, because one change at the start of the fic has a domino effect on everything else.

Sort of linking on from this, I also had so much fun making characters interact who never met in canon, or only had very minimal screen time together. Horacio and Chucho obviously never meet in the show, but their paths crossing in OHDH led to a whole new subplot and ultimately helped shape the ending of the fic. I wanted this to be a transformative work rather than a re-hash of canon, so if I achieved anything, I think it’s safe to say I achieved that!

2) I was also surprised how much I immersed myself in fic research, more so than I ever did for my degree back at university 😂 I knew I was going to have to do some research when the story got to a certain point, but I just kept falling down different rabbit holes and it expanded my reading list in all sorts of directions I wasn��t expecting. It got me back into the habit of reading books too, which I’m embarrassed to say I hadn’t done much of in recent years. But knowing I needed to read X or Y in order to progress with a certain scene or chapter was great motivation.

I must confess, my knowledge of Colombian history wasn’t great before (it’s not something the British education system covers), but my reading actually made me question and challenge the source material in ways I hadn’t before. So, shipping might be considered just shoving two characters together like dolls, but hey, at least I learnt some history along the way lol.

3) Getting to make up a tonne of backstory (especially for Horacio, who is a bit of a blank slate in canon) and create OCs. I’d never created proper OCs before this fic, so it was fun building them around the main pairing, giving them their own personalities and histories but also letting them affect the story. I think the different locations throughout the fic were like OCs of their own too (I’ve been contemplating a holiday to Madrid since I wrote the chapters set there lol), so the world building aspect of it was a fun learning experience too, and not something that came naturally to me at the start.

I’m sure there are so many more things! I will also say it’s been the steepest of learning curves re: my writing skills as well. I’m probably not even consciously aware of everything I’ve learnt, but going back to earlier chapters has been difficult, because I was obviously much more inexperienced back then lol. The urge to do re-edits has been real, but I don’t think I have the energy for that right now (and it was posted as a WIP, so by its nature it’s going to show the progress of my writing from start to finish).

Back in 2020/2021, I wanted to push myself out of my comfort zone (I think it was around a time during the pandemic when I realised how uninspiring my day job is and how little motivation I have for it anymore, so pursuing creative hobbies away from it seemed like a better use of my time), and it's safe to say I managed that with this behemoth 😂 It's been a huge journey of self-discovery and realising what I'm capable of. Fic used to be something I thought only other people wrote, so there were times I'd pull a metaphor or certain phrasing out of thin air and laugh at my laptop in shock, because I didn't think I had it in me to be poetic lol.

So, my advice to anyone reluctant to start a creative project because they don't feel skilled enough, please, please, please do it anyway. Seriously. Because you will muddle through, learn so much along the way and surprise yourself ❤️

Ok that was a bit of a ramble, but you did say director’s cut, so here we are 😂 Thank you once again for sending this, I've been in such a reflective and bittersweet mood since finishing, so it's nice to focus purely on the positive aspects of the experience 😘

[cakejerry]

asks pt.2 more recent ones

ft fanfiction anon, minho is ugly, thank you minjoon people for the links and fic recs!!! and the anon with the random jikook takes

ive been debating answering this one, like... yeah, obviously. but no jimin hate is allowed on this blog so youre getting blocked

idk, ive also been thinking about posting this but... i don't have any thoughts. except that this just proves how close they are, in any sense. and yes that was literally a joke we don't actually think their parents were involved, cmon. 'meds exist' cmon. 'suicide everyday' yeah you're a troll never message me again, goodbye.

this is why i can never take any of those charts seriously, they all say something different and everybody's #1 somewhere. its literally all imaginary and extremely unimportant. and instead of frauding jimin, which would have gotten him nothing but hate, i wish instead they'd left jungkook alone so we could see who ACTUALLY has what it takes

i have literally never understood the hype around jungkook. but maybe thats because he only started glowing up around 2019, which is when most of these taekookers came to the fandom, lol. but your last sentence was funny, 10/10

jimin should have always been the center of that triangle. vmin vs jikook i would like to see it. the classic main drama lead thats semi toxic and interesting and the second lead who's the best friend and the better option but jimin chooses jungkook anyways lol

minjoon under the stars ahhh jimin is such a sweet little glazed donut that needs to be handled with utmost care

blocked. also that's because namjoon has the charisma of a tree. but jimin could have chemistry with a brick wall so suck it. minjoon forever

cute little fanfiction moment but i dont think it holds any water in real life terms, or means anything, honestly. but thank you for the links

here come the fanfiction writers. also that's the finger heart emoji for the curious minds my laptop is prehistoric. anyways. im not gonna grace this with any further comment.

sure

this is making me ctfu because its just a clip of jungkook dancing to 3d but anon is sooo disgusted ahahhahaha. bts were different??? different from what :joy emoji:. also, if you see this, elaborate on your last sentence please.

i literally dgaf he is so ugly and his bug eyes weird me out and im convinced kpop fans have a mass gaslight thing going on trying to convince me he's attractive. 2. jonghyun wouldnt work with jimin for several reasons i just brought him up because whenever im thinking about 'men in the industry who aren't shit' he's the only one who comes up. 3. love that you just fully spiraled into waxing poetic about jimins ass there. understandble.

sure

well yeah but specifically the tweets i was posting are so... racially motivated. whitewashed jimin=white=good=pure=innocence=bottom and top jungkook=rough=tough=raw=dirty=dark skin. like it was just so weird to me.

umm sure, whatever you say anon. im gonna forget all of what you told me now because i genuinely do not want to know.

yup this is the general consensus in cakejerryland

thank you for this rec actually!!!!!!!!! it looks scrumptious and WILL be posting my thoughts upon finishing!!!

thank you random citizen!!! omg idk if you knew i have a hyung kink or not but this is sooo not that. laugh emoji laugh emoji jimin is soooo cute he's a kiddo playing around!!! babyy

i respect the grind. i do not, however, respect him.

okayy anndddd... what do you want me to do about this?

yes he wants to be perceived as such. we agreed upon this when seven dropped. and idc and it doesnt matter to me because i dont expect any of bts to come out so they will all forever be ambiguously straight and theres no point to discussing it further

fanservice is in the job description. but you said it yourself. 'natural' dynamic. they're simply the closest and we can't deny this

umm sure. i didn't see anything special in those clips at all lol i was not gagged. they were just looking at each other and they do that every single time they're in public or on camera or on stage together

lol hawaii was ... a time. they were also "doing laundry," don't forget.

[lord-of-geeks-and-subs]

Same anon from before, so sorry to hear things are so rough. To answer your question for me I would love to hear more water sports stuff personally especially about being used as a urinal. Pissing myself is not so much my thing because my kinks are soooo centered around service. I love the idea of being of service to YOU (as a chair, as a urinal, as a maid, as someone to prep other girls for you etc). Again though, I’m so sorry to hear things have been tough and that you’re doubting your content. I know so many of us appreciate all you do! ♥️♥️

Ohh I love how service oriented you are! In the past years I’ve gotten more and more experience with service oriented submissives and I’ve realized that the whole service aspects vibes realllly well with me. Like it just hits all the right spots for me and makes me feel so relaxed, Dommy and feral at times.

I liked your examples as well! Especially the chair one.

Thank you! Things have been rough for a while when it came to health and general work situation. That has finally calmed down and become more positive, but almost instantly some other things became quite troubling and difficult on a more personal level. So the struggling continues and it has just been quite rough for me and other people in my life. But it’s part of the journey. I’m trying to survive, take care of myself and of the other people involved as nicely as possible while continuing to communicate as much as I can.

As for the stories. The lack of interactions and submissions/confessions on both my blogs. Combined with the fact that I got burned out from writing a bit, and kinda lost the motivation to write bigger stories all accumulated to my struggle and doubts when it comes to the writing. To the point of not really knowing which stories people I enjoy or don’t enjoy. Which is also why I put the more degrading and filthy stories here; and the less degrading ones on my main blog. Honestly, what I need is some more follower interaction and feedback. And hopefully these polls will help me get in the groove again because I know that’s what people chose.

If this works out nicely, then I might do polls more often. And give people more opportunities to pick kink/writing topics that I will then focus on for a while.

Thank you for saying that🥹❤️

[dykedragonrider]

(voice of someone who puts off reviewing things for days at a time) finished Inscryption and while I'm not into ARG stuff much so despite having looked into it I won't comment on that, I will comment on the fact that the substance of the game is. Really fucking good actually. I played MTG as a child with my friends and this game hits good because of that, to a degree.

First off. Love the metagame elements with interacting with the exterior world in acts 1/3. That's fucking great. Picking up little items to use along the way as you progress the story, or directly progressing it with them (I popped the fuck off about the eye thing tbh, that was sick). The presentation with the tabletops is also just like. There'll be a recurring thing here that I bring up, that it's exactly what you wish you had when you were playing tabletops sometimes, a whole space devoted to it, and it's all just beautiful.

The roguelike deck building is fun, I'm a slay the spire enjoyer (even if I'm not a Pro gamer:tm: at it), so it was pretty straightforward to make broken and fun decks, and the game knows this, I think the volatility of the cards plus the fact that bosses have bullshit stuff they can do makes this feel like, really earned? You get ideas based on that to break the game further and it's encouraging innovation in such a smart way? Act 2 and 3 do this better (shoutouts to the instakill turrets that respond to something being in front of them, i made one and it was soooo nice), and I really liked act 2 because Grimora's deck had some really cool like, pseudo-infinites it could enter with how it interacted with sacrificing, so experimenting with that felt rewarding as shit. I do wish we got to spend more time with her though, bc I liked her style.

And that's kind of like, exactly what I adored about this game? There's some cool metafictiony stuff and I like the found footage presentation, but the main core of Inscryption I think is done so well through Leshy, the sheer love of the game and playing a character and *making an experience out of it*. It's broken. And that's OK. I like that that even gets lampshaded with Kaycee's mod, tbh. But the ending is what elevates this from like, a solid cult classic to something that has stuck with me in terms of pure sentimentality? When the deletion starts, Leshy takes you for one more spin, purely for the joy of the game. I handily defeated him instantly (trifurcated strike card with 4 power) but he just. "we don't need score" and you play a few rounds, and when you can't go farther, you shake his hand.

Grimora comes next. It's something wholly new! I adored her segment, the presentation the style, I wish I coulda had a shot with this! I'd probably really like this! I did like what was there! But it's over. She's going. And you shake her hand.

Magnificus finishes, and his is this whole spectacle (with its own tongue in cheek reference that, despite not playing that card game, i got). It corrupts itself as data is lost, and he tries to go and shake your hand, but doesn't get the chance. I found myself rather struck by that? It was poignant, I wasn't too fond of the guy with what I had seen, but that doesn't mean that it didn't like. There's a great tragedy here.

And that's what stuck out to me about this, going into personal experience here (not that discussing art isn't invariably talking about yourself imo, but the pretense is being dropped here fully) was as a kid I was a bit of a joyless ass when playing MtG, I liked winning, hated losing, and tried to build decks that could cheese wins from my friends (but was limited by my lack of spending money on them) for easy wins. And as an adult I look back on that with both shame and adoration, I had something I cared about a lot that made me think laterally, it was nice, but it was also... I was going about it the wrong way. It's fine to be motivated by stuff like that, but the love of the game I had early that drove me got lost along the way, and this game captures that *feeling* of the love of the game so well.

[gogotti]

Whoever made Starfield’s quests at Bethesda, PLEASE look at me in the eyes when I tell you that it’s okay if you don’t follow the same exact script for every single quest.

I mean, from where I am in the story now (which is 55 hours in) I feel like I’ve been playing the same quests in different fonts and sizes. Like they all go like this:

Sign up for/ agree to work for someone and do one or two “rookie missions”. Then, uh oh, there’s something happening here but it’s probably not that important go check it out rookie. Omg wait it’s actually super super important, definitely more important than someone of your pay grade should be dealing with but I’m gonna send you to do it anyway. Then you go and do like 6 missions where all you do is fight and then the 4 where you fly so fucking far across the galaxy you get nauseous from the loading screens.

Please I beg of you to put your creative cap on, it would literally benefit all of us. And I know I’m not one to talk all I write is porn but still, give me enough time and motivation and I can promise you I could give you something half as decent. I’ve seen better quests written by YOUTUBE COMMENTERS for fucks sake (For reference I’m talking about Joov’s viewer quests series.)

Now, don’t get me wrong I am a whore for repetitiveness. It makes everything so much easier to handle if I’m dealing with the same fucking thing over and over. It scratches my brain the right way and I don’t know why.

But, despite me liking it, it would be soooo nice if I got something different. Like give me quests that don’t make me the savior or center of attention and the fate of it all lies on my shoulders. Give me a quest where I help some space grandma live out her bucket list or something. Give me a quest where I help out some kids play pretend by delivering them cool things I find in space. (If these are actual quests and I’m just yapping, shoot me please)

Don’t get me wrong there are some neat little side quests like this that I absolutely fucking adore. Like the supply line one, and Juno’s Gambit. You have it in you to make these interesting quest lines but please do it more, make the quests longer/bigger.

The faction quest lines have so far been the same thing, but slightly different. This one’s stealth, this one’s the same as the stealth one but no stealth this time, this one is 99% fighting and getting your ass handed to you for half the fucking quest. Like PLEASE, give me a faction that doesn’t need you to fight all the fucking time, give me a regular ass people faction, not factions that literally have enough power/money to change the course of the entire world. Let me do some simple shit like join a faction of farmers or something, just because I can, let a faction be those little kids playing pretend and I’m some random person fueling their imagination. I know these all seem so like, unimportant, but that’s the point. I KNOW I’m the main character, please let me be normal for 5 fucking seconds.

Anyway!! I’m ranting because I decided to start the UC quest line and I have a strong feeling like it’s going to be the same exact thing as the other major factions.

[banghwa]

hey, can i ask how you were able to get such a good grasp on the hyyh storyline?? i'm asking because i've been a fan of their work for over a year but i was never able to fully comprehend the actual events of hyyh.

i have watched videos and learned some other stuff from comments here and there but the problem is that, although there seems to be a general consensus on some of the themes of hyyh, some people have different interpretations of what actually happened. not as in they have different interpretations of the meaning of the events, but rather the actual events themselves. i know this is inevitable considering the way the storyline was presented (through music videos that weren't in chronological order, mobile games (?), the notes, social media easter eggs, performances, etc.) but it's kind of discouraging to think that there will almost always be stuff you miss, you know? all the appreciation i have for hyyh comes from the few things i've been able to understand but i sometimes wonder if my analysis is completely off simply because i don't understand the storyline itself.

it seems like there's a lot of resources out there helping people understand references and metaphors but the problem is that i never actually know where their source is from (as in, for example they make a connection to another even that i didn't even know had happened).

what i'm trying to say is that i would love for you to maybe talk about your experience understand and analyzing hyyh and how you consumed it in the first place. did you just watch the music videos and hope for the best? do you think reading the works that were referenced in the story (demian, the ones who walk away from omelas, etc.) would help ones understanding of the events or is it of more help in terms of themes? did you use secondary sources? if so, do you have any recommendations for people that want to understand the storyline but are starting essentially from zero?

im so sorry this ask is so long lol. of course you don't have to answer it, i'm just really really interested in this and what you have to say, and i trust your judgement so.

hiiii omg of course! i think video essays and stuff are really great for understanding how the mvs depict the storyline and to get a good idea of the main themes and symbols, but when it comes to understanding the timeline your best bet is the notes! i got into the hyyh game veryyyyy late but i had read the webtoon when it was coming out, i watched the video analyses etc etc but it really wasnt until i read the notes that i felt like i really understood the key dates and the characters too. i think reading the books that inspired hyyh are totally secondary and not really necessary, especially that the direct references as so sparse in the grand scheme of whats concrete canon vs what is symbolism. watching the mvs first and watching a few analysis videos/posts first really helped me get interested but if you're looking to get invested in the characters, understand their motivations, and be able to link dates to the mvs i rly recommend the notes!

however, like you said, hyyh is incredible and annoyingly confusing and convoluted :') even the notes can be difficult to read bcs 1) they're translations so some details are lost or skewed and 2) there are a lot of double notes + notes that are from different timelines without any distinction of what happens when and where and 3) theyre just for the most part poorly written. like its just straight up poor sloppy writing lmao. and there's just soooo much BU content but the problem is none of it is really that consistent and its hard to gauge whats canon vs whats another attempt vs whats a hyyh/ARG nostalgia cash grab. and so its very difficult to remember absolutely everything. so honestly my advice is to keep it simple! no need to remember dates or anything, just key events is fine. the notes for the most part cover everything and there have been lots of fan translations in addition to the official book so theres always backup for more nuance!

tldr: i would highly highly highly recommend reading the notes for anyone interested in getting into hyyh, i think theyre rly the best bet for balance between canon and clarity. definitely feeds the other sources rly well and fills in a lot of the blanks!

[andsalttheearthbehindyou]

hiiiiiiiiii

ok im gonna rant for a little bit below if anyones interested about what ive been doing and where ive been these past months

soooo ive never been the type of person to see my future very clearly. ive never had long term motivations, goals, or desires. i had never thought of myself as such a listless person because i had such strong aspirations in reference to school and academia but that was it. i graduated highschool in 2020 and went straight to college, still not knowing what i wanted to do, just knowing that i wanted to be the best at whatever i did. i defined myself by my accomplishments and the speed at which i achieved them. i graduated a few months ago with my bachelors (in 2 years!!!!) and this was something i was so proud of myself for, but i felt so much inner turmoil because of it. and thats because i felt like id done all these things and i thought i wouldve figured out what id want to do by that point, but i still hadnt figured it out. 

im 21 now (celebrated my bday in january :) u all better leave me belated wishes below) and i know that im still young, but i felt so frustrated with the life i had led until now, the wasted efforts and useless skills. i felt like i had so much to offer but nowhere to apply and nothing to show for it. id also struggled with things like doing what i love but not being financially successful versus doing something that i know will make me financially successful and being a happy person because of that. 

i wont lament too much on my passion for publishing, because ultimately it came down to the fact that i dont think its smart to invest in a profession that likely wont result in me being successful in the way that i want to be. what i will harp on here is how happy and proud i am of myself for being brave enough to embark on my law school journey!! im going to law school!!! im so happy!!!!!! i promise (literal nervous anxiety tears streaming down my cheeks rn)!! i know that it is so much money and so much work, but i know that this is what i need to do to feel accomplished in life, to see the fruits of my labor and know that everything ive done hasnt been for naught. i studied for my lsat for months and months (main reason i was m.i.a.) and finally took it a few days ago. im gonna have to start applying to schools soon sighhh but im actually really excited to start despite all the stress i know its gonna cause me lol. im also going to have a summer break (something i havent had since high school) !!!!!!! im going to be alone and let myself rest and be happy. im going to cook and clean and read and write and do things i love before hunkering down and being a little recluse nerd again in school (something i also love!!!! such a huge part of my personal identity and something i love about myself is my ties to school/academia and being a student) 

if youve read this far, thank you for your interest in my life!?! im not always right in the head and when i last abandoned this blog (and the other one) i know that i was definitely off my rocker but ive been taking steps to recovering my mental health in that regard too. i wont talk much about that but im doing better. being offline, setting boundaries and giving myself goals helped  a lot. im also properly medicated lol.

anyway much love & thx for tolerating me

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Ok first things first your Kaiser comment is really hilarious what the hell was ness thinking with that cut?????

LMAOO you’ve got this!! But honestly reading work that’s written with motivation and care is soooo much better than reading something forced so don’t sweat it too much! I sure everyone understands that writing actually takes quite a bit of effort and time and thinking and that reading your quality work will be so worth it (insert the head nod emoji here because I can’t find it fast enough) nagi vibes are so real though but trust your five shot revolver volley (or something like that name) moment coming soon

Yeahhhh idk the only conflict that really comes to mind is “aw shit I’m gonna be fired”/“im not paid enough for this shit” LMAOOO I guess that’s also the reason why a lot of fics I’ve seen are also set outside of the main events of bllk! Like usually when they’re already pro etc or for some characters who have enough backstory details about their stories before bllk then it’s set pre-bllk!

Hair down zantetsu>>>> I was actually shocked when I saw that scene of him in the movie like zantetsu pls let down your hair and take off your goggles we know you don’t need them….

The way you just so accurately described the entire Ubers dynamic LMAOO I also could not care less about sendou soooooo but it’s giving me the same vibes as the colored scene of them all helping Barou dye his hair I love the Ubers dynamic…I bet it working out gives aiku such an ego boost and he’s probably all like “see I’m right you all just don’t get bitches” completely forgetting that Niko is 15 and these are also soccer losers

Nooo because the few times I have to trek into Reddit territory to find a chapter link or something I see the dudebros collectively hating on him or using the fact that his parents trained him since he was young to try and minimize/discredit his “feats” (as they say in dudebro land)

White butterfly is just tear inducing LMAO that scene has me in my feels like bro…..the first thing he does after he goes pro and makes money is builds his childhood friend/love’s dream house SHSGSHS goodbye.

PLS you’re always on the grind omg that’s actually crazy LOL but no I think the whole fandom needs to be wiped and then shown seabird so they can ingrain this version of saw into their brains…maybe that’s the strat…right as s2 comes out we blast fwtkac bfb and lowk just your masterlist so people go “OHHHH that’s how they are” and the fanon version establishes itself as a much more accurate (imo) version that it otherwise would’ve…

AIKU WINGMEN SERIES GUYS WE WON based on what we’ve talked about this already sounds like sm fun to read I will most definitely be at the launch party…also SAE that’s crazy I lowk forgot they were on the same team for u20 for a sec but now that I realize it that makes sense LMAO

LMAOOO you’d have your own fwtkac moment where you get shown on the jumbotron and then have edits made of you and I’ll be scrolling through tiktok like guys that’s Mira…I know her lore..!!!

NOO YOU DESERVE IT honestly your writing output is some of the best I’ve seen in a while so idk what you’re talking about LOL Curious to see what even you decide on though!! I’ve seen some cute ones with like themed codes and whatnot from other writers before too so I bet your take will be fire!

- Karasu anon

no because ACTUALLY like bro was clearly not destined to be a barber 😭 honestly kaiser’s hair pre-cut when it was all shaggy and gold was rlly gorgeous i would like him more if he kept it like that or if he just tied it back or smth ☝🏻 but instead we got…wtvr the fuck he has going on 😰

HEHE no because i even have in my rules that i’ll probably take a while to respond and might ignore requests so people know what they’re getting into to but that doesn’t stop me from feeling bad yk?? sadly i am a chronic people pleaser 😓 but anyways YESS super goal coming up soon 🤭 jkjk i think the next ones are going to be short and simple because of the nature of the request so don’t expect any long ones for a bit!! but then again yk me so we’ll see (although tbf most of my requests have stayed generally within projected wc ranges the only ones to escape containment were seabird and the third part of fwtkac)

literally like it would def be a lot more comedic than anything but i save my comedy for the one shots longfics are angst ONLY /j also wait idk if you saw the most recent jjk leaks but i think i canonically killed off more characters in pomegranate ink than gege did in jjk which is CRAZYYY like i thought i was being fairly lenient 😭

hair down zantetsu is literally every shoujo male lead i need a fic where reo gives him a makeover or smth so he can truly shine LMAOAO i just know reo would have sm fun w that too

aiku’s like “all in a day’s work 🙂‍↕️😌” once barou gets a gf and then he thinks being a wingman is so fun that he tries to set up his other teammates w girls but lorenzo scares all of them away, aryu is uhh aryu and sendou is doing fine on his own so his only option is niko but niko is so introverted that he HATES “big bro aiku” helping out LMAOAOA like aiku becomes one of these rlly pushy uncles who goes up to every girl and is like “look at my nephew isn’t he so handsome” meanwhile niko is DYING of embarrassment…eventually mommy barou has to step in and tell aiku to leave niko alone 😭

on the one hand i get it because hiori is sometimes very overhyped in the sense that compared to charles and sae (and honestly even reo) he’s not the BEST midfielder oat in bllk but charles is considered a prodigy by even loki, sae is a ng11, and reo is canonically perfect so that’s not even saying much + he’s only really been active/awakened since the ubers game so with time he’ll probably improve!! he’s another one of those characters where there’s very few people who see the medium and don’t glaze him but don’t hate him either ykwim

THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYINGGG IT’S DISGUSTING like wdym you finally became rich and famous and instead of reaping the benefits you move back to a random town in the middle of nowhere and build a house for a girl who doesn’t even live there anymore just because you loved her so much?? in a way i think that even if reader had moved on or never came back just having that house was how hiori affirmed to the world that he loved her if that makes sense…like it was as much a confession to her as it was him making it clear to everyone that he wouldn’t ever be taken from her again if she still wanted him 😭 bitches when reader wanted to be a bird so she could fly everywhere but instead of being a bird with her and staying by her side like he wanted to hiori realized she needed a field (a home) to come back to so he just settled down and waited for her until she did because he loved her enough not to find her when he didn’t know if she wanted to be found 😭😓😫 i’m bitches fr

LMAAOAOO the grind is too real but omg i will be so happy if bfb freaky friday fwtkac loserboys karasu and otoya become fanon even though they’re already being written mostly as fboys in other works 😩 like okay ykw i even get otoya but wdym karasu is a player 😕 my man would NEVER have a one night stand he’s way too sensitive and gentle for that

AIKU WINGMAN SERIES INDEED OMG i’m so hype the for the barou and otoya versions especially because i already have ideas for them…i think the sae one is just going to be aiku being like “bro you’re in love with her” and sae’s like “no 😒” and it just goes on and on until sae is like “oh shit i AM in love with her” LMAOAO still pondering what i’ll do for karasu yukimiya and nagi but trust it will happen and it’ll be funny

LMAOOO MIRA EDITS i’ll be in my fwtkac era but without the crow 🙁 no soccer player irl could compare to karasu 💔 it’ll just be five ways to kill a soccer player which is nowhere near as fun and exciting…oh well we sacrifice what we must

AHAHA THANK YOU SMMM i meant more that i only post fics 5% of the time the rest is me dropping random thoughts answering asks chatting w people and reblogging fanart so people who follow me off of my fics are probably like WTF KSJSKKS okay wait hear me out a bird theme could lowkey go crazy…considering i am a #birdstan…anyways we’ll see there’s still a bit until I reach that point!! although ngl it might be faster if i actually post requests 😭

[void-talking-to-the-void]

Jambalaya

A point of extreme frustration: I've been a teacher for more than ten years now and I have always said that we aren't really necessary. We're the conscience, someone to feel obligated to, someone who's there to provide the motivation to the student or, in other words, kick and jab them into studying. There aren't really good and bad teachers - though, of course, there're awful - it isn't rocket science.

Not sure I can hold this view any longer, because right now, in my search of teachers, I fucking wish for a time travelling machine to exist, you see, I need it, I'll visit that distant future where I have already conquered the language and pay myself from the future to teach myself from the present, it fucking seems there isn't anybody else to do it the way that actually works for me. Or anybody, really, anybody.

I wonder, really wonder, how fucking hard is it to speak at the lesson? It's exceptionally easy to offer speaking as advantage you have as a teacher, it's easy to promise the poor student they will speak, both at the lessons and in real life, but then the lesson comes, one hour passes - and I've barely said a word.

I WANNA SEE IF YOU CAN READ AND WRITE.

OH, YOU CAN READ AND WRITE SO WELL, UHHH... LET'S READ AND WRITE SOME MORE!

Jesus Christ.

Also, the book. It too provides some frustration.

This I have also proposed many, many times: quit writing about rape in passing, without deep concern, to drive the plot or to establish character, just fucking quit. Please, write about rape only when rape is the main topic, when you, the author, want to invite us, the readers, to contemplate the complexity of this subject, to feel and think and condemn all those endless types of pain.

Not that anybody's ever listened, yeah.

So I'd be reading a novel about an anarchistic physicist and there'd be a scene, which, in the beginning, promised me so much. He hasn't consumed alcohol before, people on his planet don't. But he consumes it now, and he doesn't know he's drunk, so the alcohol, the people who're used to it around him, his own mind, all of these things take a forceful hold on him, while cheering, laughing, seeing nothing wrong, and I am all in. I want this conversation about rape coming in so, so many different forms. About the attitudes that almost always coincide with it, this weird kind of happy flippancy, about the vulnerability of the person who is raped and the prevalence of rape just about everywhere, I want this shit.

But do I get it?

Nah. No way.

There is this dark bit - maybe, only in my mind - and then the woman, who has brought him into her own room, without explaining anything about being drunk, but with her own agenda, then it is her who's raped - for no fucking reason whatsoever. The anarchistic physicist, on whose planet, I was told, rape is soooo uncommon because there is sexual freedom - as if it's abstinence that begets rape - this physicist attempts to assault the woman, because he_thought_she_wanted_to (because he wanted to) and hey, by the way, her saying no, fighing against it, excites him even more!

Hurray.

As for the sexual freedom, I don't quite get how in a sexually free society these two passages could occupy adjacent pages:

"Hell," he said aloud. Pravic was not a good swearing language. It is hard to swear when sex is not dirty and blasphemy does not exist.

Meanwhile the double room was pretty well justified by the succession of men that passed through Bunub's door, a different man every night, as if Bunub were a roaring girl of seventeen.

Hard, is it? See how easy it was for you.

Good literature, good use of sarcasm, but shitty, fucking shitty morals.

[deviliciousdev]

✨appreciation post for the types✨

- from your local intp🖤

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✨The Intuitives ✨

entj (the commander)

Where to even start, as an intp i have a special place in my heart for entjs and that place is my whole heart. Your ambitious nature makes you charming and intriguing, but the fact that you're secretly a nerd and love learning new things no matter what the topic (and are a whole baby✨ aka the little spoon) is the reason you're simultaneously the intp's best friend and soul mate. 💖

p.s you're not mean, you're hilarious, and i love that you're the best out of all the types at roasting people.

entp (the debater)

ah yes the other half to the "nerds of chaos" dynamic duo. your determination and open mind, provide for some of the best times. if two types were ever the most similar to the point of twins, it would be the entp x intp best friend dynamic. truly there is no one i trust more to tell literally anything to. you're someone who will never belittle or judge in high horse way. but still be honest and leave nothing out. if you feel a way you say it, with no guessing or game playing. and your humor and pet peeves are the exact same as the intp's and as i'm sure you'll agree. being able to hate the same things and laugh at little kids eating shit (even though we're not suppose to 💀) is the pinochle of best friend twinning. (at least for xntps lol)

intj (the architect)

ohhhh, you, you little minx. and i know you hate being called that, which is why it would be your contact in my phone. your lowest points are probably the thing intp's (unlike everyone else), like the most. you know what i mean... don't pretend you don't... *whispers* your lil melt downs, when ya get real serial killery... *snorts with laughter* oh don't worry you're still the superior being. 😏 in all honesty what would the intp be without you... that was rhetorical! stop listing things! anyway, your organized methodical approach is so satisfying. and your smooth intellectual burns that go over most people's heads, brings true peace to all NTs souls. thank you for your service. 🙏

enfj (the protagonist)

you're the main character. and i mean really. when you're at your best, at a large scale, you can lead generations, save those in need, do some seriously rob stark from game of thrones type shit (the most beloved stark by the people and the best leader tbh) on a small scale, you motivate those around you to charge into battle even when we literally just live in the city and are trying to get through college and the corporate world. 💀 even the rogue, pride themselves on being individuals intps, would follow you into the fire. and it's not just because of your charisma either, you actually think in big terms and care about things and people. keep being the king/queen in north (what they called rob stark when he fought for the North's independence)

enfp (the campaigner)

ok not gonna lie, i was so excited to get to yours... you are so incredibly enthusiastic and confident and some how self deprecating at the same time. you are genuinely fun. like the definition of fun. if you were a dog you'd be a golden retriever. no matter how bad things get, you are the one that can make someone smile. your laugh is infectious and no one and i mean no one, can make an intp laugh soooo hard like you can. you can make anything interesting. your idealistic humor has had me crying laughing in the canned foods isle of a grocery store, while you held onto the cart holding a can of bean sprouts, even though we were there getting ingredients for waffles and french toast... like how did we even get on that isle?? why were you holding a can of bean sprouts?? who's to know when you're both intuitive perceivers. ilysm, never ever change. 🖤

infj (the advocate)

you're the best person to go to for advice. genuinely. no matter what you think about yourself (that day lol). you see things in people that they don't even see in themselves. you care about those around you so much to the point you don't like talk about your own troubles. it takes time for you to open up, but when you do, you can be just as weird and hilarious as intps and sometimes more so. we always have fun doing seemingly mundane things like watching crappy horror movies or making frozen pizza. you plan THEE most incredible parties and activities. like seriously some of the best holiday/travel memories i have came from your mind and your company. you bring a gentle order to the chaos of life. my thanks for your being and your infj services transcends words. so i'll just say fannnkksss 😁.

infp (the mediator)

the most opposite and simultaneously most similar to the intp. you are thhheeeee bessttt. you make everyone around you feel comfortable. i can always come to you when i feel like i'm losing my fucking mind and you always know how to explain emotions and human interactions to me. not to mention giving some real slap in the face advice that is much needed! so helpful, one of the best wingmen/match makers, and probably the funniest type when drunk (next to entj). you can chill and watch movies all day or go out to a winery and have a great time. i swear no one is more quotable. we still say hilarious words or sayings you've said years ago and has now been developed into our everyday vernacular. people seriously underestimate you and you do the most and never look for praise or self-aggrandizing ass kissing. you are the LAST person to be a teacher's pet and are one of the most selfless people i know. keep doin you boo 👻

*stay tuned for a letter to the sensors✨*