#SO NERVOUS can u tell

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

[cozymochi]

I lived, bitch. I did it,,, I made an animatic again after 2 years…! And it’s not an old thing just dumped out! 😭 I’mma be honest, it’s not reaaaally spoilers exactly… but it sorta falls into it in a zig-zagged way. The timing’s off slightly for my liking, but at this point I shouldn’t complain about little things like that when making one at all was the huge hurdle. Rip my subscribers. THANKS AND BYE.

Original audio: Maleficent (2014)

Ko-fi

[wickjump]

im gonna start posting fanfic recs btw whenever i find good ones. both here and my (awfully barren) 18+ account. because there are so many good fics out there with so few hits and fewer kudos and sometimes no comments period and it SUCKS because i REALLY LIKE THEM A LOT.. and i hope that by linking them here and yelling at everyone to COMMENT DAMMIT they might actually do it

seriously though any comment means a lot. most people who read a fic don’t even give a kudos. even if the fic wasn’t top tier, if you didn’t dislike it, hand over some kudos!! and if you liked it, comment!!!! even if the comment is one singular heart emoji it will be appreciated. if the comment just says “great fic!” the author will be happy. your comment doesn’t have to be this long winded gushing or analysis.

so many authors quit writing or lose motivation because the comments are few and far in between or just sometimes nonexistent. trust me when i say authors don’t care about how long or cool or smart sounding your comment is i promise!!!

i hope that mmmaybe recommending fics and telling people to comment might help fics i really like get more support maybe. and i, points at you reading this, hope that you will listen!!!at least a little….at least sum kudos….

[stunie]

it’s so easy to forget that you can literally write whatever you want

[lukazade]

More pen scribbling,,, getting comfortable with it now but the pen is gonna run out soon 💔

[lynxfrost13]

Hey do you guys ever think about HOPR’s gestalt and how she was probably a very lonely person for most of her life before volunteering to be a neural template donor

[puppppppppy]

gregnant

anton belongs to @poicyss

[daphnalia]

these drawings should never (and i mean NEVER) have left my drafts but desperate times call for desperate measures

anyways who missed tjis weirdo

[fairyhaos]

hii everyone! after an agonising amount of deliberation, i've decided that i'll start tracking #useryenas for joshua visual content!

anyone can use this tag (i.e. we don't have to be mutuals) but please follow the guidelines below:

visual content only - gifs, gfx, edits, fanart, moodboards etc.

please use the tag in the first 20 tags

general svt content is allowed but i'd prefer just for joshua!

i'll check the tag once a week and if your post has been liked, it's in my queue!

i won't rb any content that looks stolen, colour-washed or have things used without the owner's approval (fancams, etc.)

mutuals are allowed to use the tag for anything you want me to see! doesn't have to be visual or for seventeen, and ofc you're always, always welcome to spam the tag!!!

tagging a few moots and non moots to kindly ask to spread this if you can <3 :

@jeonwonwoo @irlvernon @seokmins @blue-jisungs @etherealyoungk @slytherinshua @wheeboo @ftdino @shuaberriez @gentlejoshua @y-ves @h-ao @itsyoonzino @woozi @ajusnice @kyeomyun @eternalgyu @soonhoonsol @weird-bookworm @rubywonu @wnjunhui @dalkyeom

[clowningcrows]

how do i know if my chosen name is the right name :(

[mars-ipan]

don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode) don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode) don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode)

[esta-elavaris]

Had a moment today that exemplifies how my family thinks but like, in a way that’s just very sad and makes me glad I don’t think that way.

Showed a relative the amazing painting that friend did for me, and her first response was “you’d be able to sell that for some good money!!!”

Like. No????

For months I’ve discussed this creative trade with this friend, we’ve talked about what the other wants, we’ve gotten excited about it and traded progress pics as we work on it for each other, gotten stoked over making plans to get to the post office and seeing the other finally get it, and it’s just been a very wholesome and very fun project. It took six weeks for us to complete these projects, and now I have something on display in my room that makes me very happy, that’s objectively beautiful, and that I know a friend put a lot of effort into making for me and was THRILLED when I adored it.

And my family’s immediate line of thinking is “make a few quid from it lol”.

I can’t imagine the headspace it must take to go through life like that.

[ghoooooostsposts]

ughhhmm hi :)

v new to tumblr and tk community so any mutuals/friends/ppl who reach out r so so so appreciated :))

i’m sure i’ll be more active n stuff but im also kinda rlly nervous lol

here’s a lil thingy to gtkm

[sunmisbf]

to my dad the worst thing u can be is unemployed. he can handle a gay son or thot daughter as long as they hold down a job

[izzy-b-hands]

You ever have a day where you feel like you're doing everything wrong, even when you're like. just doing things you normally do. And are alone, so like the only person i could in theory upset/piss off/etc right now is me myself, and Yet the feeling persists

Yeaaaaah. That's today's vibe for me apparently lmao

[pebbles-scatter]

10? :> maybe 20 too?

10. tell me about an insecurity you overcame.

uhhh i think in General im less insecure over my intelligence. i used to be so scared of being seen as dumb or that i was actually stupid. ive come to the conclusion that im fairly smart, so are most people, and that if someone judges my intelligence thats on them and not on me. not to say its cured or anything, but. yknow.

also in general less insecure over my identity largely bc 1. im sure in it 2. tmrw i could change everything abt my identity and most of if not all my friends would be chill about it.

20. tell me what you think others think about you.

LMAO this is funny bc i constantly oscillate btwn "ppl generally like me" & "OH MY GOD THEY ALL THINK IM STRANGE AND BIZARRE" luckily once again my friends know i can be a strange & bizarre and not only are they used to it, they are too. also if someone judges me for that and never communicates these feelings thats on them lol

i think the answer to both of these essentially sums up as ive started caring less about what other people think and have surrounded myself with people who love and accept me. and i wish that for everyone 🫡