#Reluctant

[artthatgivesmefeelings]

Romain Malfliet (Belgian, 1910-2006) Female Nude, n.d.

[dk-thrive]

She was silent when she should have spoken; she spoke when she should have been silent. Either way, guilt is her most loyal companion. And regret, too—not so much for her acts as for her failure to act.

— Elif Shafak, "There Are Rivers in the Sky: A Novel" (Knopf, August 20, 2024)

[hathaway-hayes]

139 - if only She could breathe more hate

And again she reports in rasps Wrought a cigarette in hand.

Though, she’s only five years The younger, though, the miasma has taken Her hand And prior her sickly kiss upon My brow.

She called it her covenant - “Revenge,” For all she’d ever known was at Death’s doorstep, Save me, And the air we shared.

Air and regurgitated by the: Buses, the bludgeons, the birds, And the bias, People of only, and people, That hurt.

The ash then falls from her fingers, And soon I know I’d say

“Goodbye.”

- H.H.

[evilhorse]

But, this is not my country and not my place to fight for causes I know nothing about.

(Captain America #207)

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

The saddest goodbye is when you still want to hold on, but you need to let go.

[postcard-from-the-past]

"The Reluctant", painting by Bellynck

French vintage postcard

[basicallyanotherwitchesthing]

L.P. Davies - The Reluctant Medium -  Doubleday - 1967 (jacket by Emanuel Schongut)

[howifeltabouthim]

I didn't want to ask you what you didn't want to say.

Iris Murdoch, from The Philosopher’s Pupil

[shironezuninja]

🎉If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not! Let's get to know the person behind the blog.

Tbh, I’m not ready yet to disclose information about myself so randomly online. In March 2022, my Instagram account got hacked when the hacker used an account which he stole from one of my friends. 2 years before that, I’m surprised I kept an intentional hacker at bay when he was impersonating Alexander Armstrong.

[tenth-sentence]

Those involved had to travel to Hong Kong because Adli Halabi, aware that he was under suspicion for being instrumental in circulating the Westpac letters, was reluctant to enter Australia.

"Westpac: The Bank That Broke the Bank" - Edna Carew

[lingerieloversworld]

[hathaway-hayes]

The Reluctant

Still doesn’t feel right this time My birth seemed to me like a crime. Sleep feels wrong and wake feels decayed My only dream, a death for which I've prayed. Hands outstretched, I reach for the sun Burning fingers never felt so fun. Minutes tick, life's ran and it's gone Now I'm dead, but I don’t feel wrong.

And this is Genesis.

Warm enclosure, too warm Dark tunnel, try to forewarn Light ahead, do I dare? Open air, do I care? Don't make me live this life, It's all more than I can bear.

And this is Exodus.

Smoking cigarette, sting my soaked eyes The earth shudders, with each part that dies I can't believe, I can still feel bad Another life, I keep growing mad But now I’m dying and now I'm dead This cynicism, my only friend In an endless sea, I’m just a star I took a trip, this soul's gone far

And this is Thanatos.

Cold enclosure, too cold Light tunnel, watch life unfold Dark tunnel, what's there? Two eyes, and a piercing stare Blinded in heart, now life's anew I can't know myself So I'll settle for you.

And this is Terminus.

- Hathaway Hayes (1998)

[untilthestarsturncold]

Finally bit the bullet and joined Tumblr. And I only procrastinated by about a decade!

I’m a Gen Z INTP female with ADHD.

In other words…

My Attention-Span + Digital Ineptitude = Means Don’t Expect Regular Posts

I never got into social media as a teenager so my mental health is a lot less frakked than it would be. Yet I’m bored, curious, and feeling the FOMO so hi Tumblr! I’ll forget you exist in a few months but I’ll enjoy the ride!

[deva-draws]

I wonder if it was snowing….

[thestuffedalligator]

When I was a very tiny child my mom was in a local production of The Reluctant Resurrection of Sherlock Holmes, a play where Arthur Conan Doyle is hired to investigate a murder at a haunted house with Sherlock Holmes, a figment of Doyle’s imagination that only he can see and hear. Doyle very sincerely believes that the house is haunted, and Holmes thinks that Doyle is a moron

I was too young to appreciate this concept when I was a child, now that I’m older it’s the best concept for a play I’ve ever heard in my life.

[whats-in-a-sentence]

When dynastic empires proved unable to cope with total war, almost vanishing from the earth between 1917 and 1922, the United States had shown itself a very reluctant leviathan, but when communism proved equally inadequate between 1989 and 1991, Americans were ready to fill the void.

"Why the West Rules – For Now: The patterns of history and what they reveal about the future" - Ian Morris