#Relapse tw

[uncanny-tranny]

We need to stop stigmatized relapses in recovery. We need to stop shaming those who have or are currently relapsed. It is a normal part of recovery to go back to the behaviour at times, and I'm sick of the idea that "relapse means you aren't recovering."

Relapsing can reinforce somebody's will to recovery. Relapsing can teach a person what they want from recovery. It can be a vital tool, and honestly, shaming somebody who is already down is fucking cruel and disgusting. The last thing they need is other people shaming them and being cruel - they might already be beating themself up over a relapse. Be kind to them. They are a person, they are worthy of kindness.

[hel7l7]

relapsing always seems easier

[cyan-6-ide]

simon saying he wants to be become ice king again is so in character it’s agonising. he wore the crown again and again to begin with so he could save a girl, even if it meant the horror of losing himself and driving away every last person he cared about. he spent over a thousand years in that state, practically lost and replaced. almost nobody knew who he used to be, not even him. the new world wasn’t jarring, because this was how it had always been for ice king, for a thousand years, for the forever that he could process. he had his place in the system and he wasn’t *happy*, but he slid into the chaos of ooo as his state of mind deteriorated.

then he’s cognisant again. but the love of his life is dead. and it truly sinks in that even though he is back, the ice king would never give back the time he took from him. the world he knew slipped away while he forgot it, and he’s left as an outsider who can’t even find solace in his own species, one that moved on without him. he has to sit with everything ice king did. everything that took from him. every way that hurt others. every moment of sickening confusion and loss and pain. and those who could never feel the gravity tell him again and again that he was so much cooler and fun back then! that he’s just some lame old guy now, such a downer! always on about some girl, or staring off sadly! who would want to mope with him at a bar rather than party with the ice king, right?

marcaline doesn’t even rely on him anymore. grown and independent now. grown when he wasn’t there to see it. it’s not like anybody else needs him either, and what does he have to give now, anyway? he tries and tries to bring his girlfriend back and every time he’s smacked in the face. he’s so tired. he’s so, so tired. he wouldn’t half mind being the ice king again, because even with the pain of that, at least he wouldn’t be capable of thinking about these things anymore. he would have powers that could help people again. he would be fun and charismatic and free from being cognisant. even better than dying, he could make people happy this way too. two birds with one stone, in his eyes. at least the ice king has a reason to be alive.

it becomes a third bird when fionna *needs* this. it’s not the only plausible solution, but it’s a damn clean one. her problems will be fixed, fixed with the crown the way that simon used to fix every problem all those years ago. the most reliable shortcut. he’ll be free from life, and the world will get their *beloved* ice king back. the events of 1000 years ago can repeat, but this time he’ll never seek a cure.

of course this is a flawed view, and i can’t remotely see this being the endgame for his arc, and it could *never* be portrayed as the right course of action. falling into that old pattern and life would be a monumental act of self harm in an attempt to escape himself, and it would leave marcaline in pieces to see him relapse and lose himself all over again in that last ditch effort. it’s genuinely a simultaneous act of relapse and suicide, and though it’s so clear why he’s reached this point, i do NOT believe this series will end with him re-becoming the ice king. and if it does, it will be a horrifying event, not a happy culmination of his character arc.

[coachbeards]

do you ever think about the possibility of beard relapsing while in ted's care, and beard's immediate response is wanting to leave, wanting to save ted from himself. waking up in the hospital, a terrifying place to him, and he expects to be alone and...god. ted is right there. asleep in the hard, plastic chair but...he's there. and when he wakes up, he doesn't give beard the "i want you to find someplace else to stay" speech that beard's been dreading, but instead tells him that the doctor recommended a good rehab program close by, he and michelle have been talking about it, it's a good place, they'd come visit- holding his hand as he makes it clear to beard that he's not gonna give up on him..........................hm

[just-being-a-bit-overdramatic]

If I am going to relapse, at least I can make it epic. Lines that won't fade until a few days later. Bonus points if there is blood. What is this pathetic scratching myself through my pijamas because I cringed while reading a book? A dissapointment. Makes me want to do it again and make it count this time.

[cecilnightvalepalmer]

Anyways my whole recoining radqueer post was made in the middle of a relapse that wad directly caused by radqueer drama and I wanted everyone to shut the fuck up so I made the post without really realizing thst recoining radqueer wouldn't do anything, but once I did I took a break and forgot to delete the post when mentally healthy! (<- Just deleted the post bc I remembered to)

Recoining radqueer wont do anything I just have mental illnesses guys keep that in mind when I start spouting off shit again <3

Love yall

[lonely-ghost-girl]

At least i have an excuse to relapse

[strawberista]

⚅ — @rubiesintherough asked: — ⚅

⚅ — "are you cold? why are you shaking?" ( mahia ) — ⚅

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Hanekoma's body trembled in waves as he came to the couch where Mahia sat and curled up on the end of it. Sweat beaded over his skin, and instead of looking at Mahia he stared out over the width of the sitting room with eyes covered in a film of unshed tears.

"N-no, sorry..." He breathed the words between labored panting, "I jus'-- uuuhh... I-I-I-I-- fuck... Mm... Jus' did something I shouldn'a done. 'M okay just-- I just need a second."

He wasn't sure how it had happened, really. Pachinko parlors was the closest he ever got to gambling these days, or playing the arcade games around town, but today something had gone very wrong. A group of thugs (and he knew they were thugs, he knew it!) had approached him inside the pachinko parlor and offered to make more private, and more lucrative, bets. Despite knowing what a scam this was, he'd allowed his darker urges to get the better of him and followed them out into the street.

For the first time in years he had gotten a chance to play proper street craps, had allowed his soul soar with the excitement of each roll of the dice. He'd felt himself falling into a frenzy, slowly losing every ounce of hard cash he had on him. When he'd run out and was being threatened by those thugs, it wasn't a problem. He had no issue running them off and really hadn't been hurt at all, but standing in the aftermath of all that had hit him in a way he just couldn't handle.

Feverishly he'd sprinted back to his home, and though he was panting hard it wasn't from running. He was deeply shaken by his own actions, and his own lack of control when given the chance to break his own creeds. Now having reached his home, he was shaking and frightened of himself, and he was so severely disappointed in himself.

"I'm sorry..."

[i-am-confused-always]

why do I feel like people are sooo nice when they first find out about your mental problems or sh but like a month later the novelty and their ability to care dwindles away and they stop caring at all? They stop checking if your ok. They stop asking about bl00d or new cuts. They stop responding to cry’s for help. They stop caring. And then once again your left to deal with everything alone. Why does it keep happening? Why does it hurt so bad every time? I’m sad again and tired. Might relapse. Idk.

edit: I did lol.

[wcshedup]

@fizziifrxg ;;

{ don't be an IDIOT. } negative self-talk wasn't the most positive of tools -- definitely not the sort of coping strategy that near-sighted therapists pitch in the home stretch of rehab. but if she was being honest with herself, it was the only way she knew how to keep the YEARNING at bay. { don't be a FUCK UP, it's been 6 MONTHS. }

FUCKING BLITZ.

if he hasn't come along on some VALIENT mission to -- what ?? rekindle their relationship from the long-tepid mount of proverbial ashes ?? AS IF. now she was hard-up for work, and without some semblance of routine there was no WAY barbie could hope to keep her place in the halfway accommodations -- and then where would she be ?? { it was one thing to be sober inside, but out on the streets ? an ENTIRELY different moral struggle. }

the uncertainty is threatening to drive the imp right back to the BEST source of stress management she knows -- it would be so easy to wander out into the alleys, the next fix was always closer than the average denizen might realize.

in a last-ditch attempt to corral herself, barbie ACTUALLY takes some of that advice from her counselor. { CALL SOMEONE YOU TRUST. } and there's only one option in that department, only one who wouldn't encourage that destructive method of self-soothing.

the number is already on speed dial. { it rings longer than she expects, actually. }

" HEY fizz -- what're ya up to ? "

[princeofyorkshire]

i hate that healing is not linear cause i’d be feeling all positive and shit for a while then boom sad sad sad again and why does it feel good to be here why is it so comforting why does it feel like this is who i am and who i was always meant to be just a dumb girl who does not know how to deal w sadness in a healthy way and always end up relapsing and doesn’t even feel guilty about it. is it the familiarity of it all. is it the fact that i’m so used to this sadness that the second i get a taste of it i want more and more and stay here forever because it’s so familiar and painfully welcoming. why why why

[uncanny-tranny]

The greatest thing about recovery from relapse is your brain doing this after every day you've gone without doing The Thing:

[Video Description: The announcer in Smash Bros. Ultimate saying, "New record!" /End of video description]

[hel7l7]

Your art is awesome this is the second time I'm relapsing to it

Hi anon,

Things must be hard for you right now and I'm sorry to hear that it ended in a relapse. I'm honestly a little confused about this message, it brought up many questions that I won't bother you with, since you have a lot going on rn - or at least that's what it sounds like. I do wonder why you felt the need to tell me this. Because you know there's nothing I can do about it. I never meant to do you any harm...

I know how much it sucks to be hurt, by life or by other people. And I know that this pain can come with a lot of anger and that sometimes it helps a little to blow off steam somewhere. I hope that you got some relief by sending me this message. If not, I hope you were able to find another healthy way to cope.

My art can be triggering to some, I'm aware of that. I actually answered another ask about this a while back and I wanted to give you the chance to read my answer to that in case you're interested.

Here is the other ask.

I hope you're well anon. Don't be afraid to reach out for help. Take care You matter!

[traumaticenby]

Reminder for myself when I will do something very silly and stupid (like cutting myself, drinking alcohol etc.):

(''you have a bouquet of forget-me-nots, so you don't forget that you're a fucking moron'')

[coachbeards]

i forgot i made this

[milkeyedmaiden]

Why is it whenever a minor inconvenience happens, I feel like I need to restrict and relapse or off myself?