#RESISTING THE URGE TO BE SCARED

[lockandkeyhyena]

eighteen in four days,,,, ouhg

[hit-tab]

[lavaflowe]

WOE, BACK PAIN UPON YE

[lostinthewoodsomewhere]

Me: Ahhhh, I'll just quickly go speedrun this mission, no big deal :)

*One long photoshoot later...*

[miscgallery]

relationship web of the 7 sillies that are occupying my brain's storage space

[briar--rising]

Something about the weather today is activating my delusions. I’m trying to fight it off but it’s like I can hear Them calling me

[idkhowtoname]

Commission details

but idk how to price things and render (help)

very long list C:

Traditional comms:

bust - $2

waist up - $4

full body - $5

(+$2 for color)

Digital comms:

Sketch

Bust - $5

Waist up - $7

Full body - $9

Line art:

Bust - $10

Waist up - $12

Full body - $15

Colored:

Bust - $14

Waist up - $16

Full body - $19

(+$2 for some shadows and highlights)

Extra stuff:

+$5 for every extra person

Flat color - free :D

Pattern/glow around character - $2

Gradient - $3

not too detailed background (like a simple sunset or smthn) - $7

(can't do too detailed backgrounds sorry :C)

Small / simple props (cups, mics, etc.) - $1

Big / complex props (swords, scythes, etc.) - $5

Will do:

blood

ship art (non-controversial or problematic)

people!! (I'll try my best to draw chubbier fellas :D)

Won't do:

mecha :[

NSFW

anything to harrass or discriminate people

no proshipping. if you're a proshipper get the hell off my blog.

Unsure (ask):

suggestive

gore

animals (depends)

PAYMENT!!! MONEIII!!!!

not very familiar with paypal but I'll try my best :]

and *maybe* tf2 keys but you'd have to help me with trading a bit since I don't really do dat,,,,,,

Communication:

You can dm me on tumblr or discord but discord is prefered since I will be able to respond sooner because of notifs! My discord is the.eeper

DISCLAIMER!!

I CAN refuse service to anyone I wish. The reason may be: it is too difficult for me, out of my skill set, out of my comfort zone, goes against one of my personal commission rules, etc. I will make sure to tell you if that is the case.

If you would like updates on the drawing/s I will send them to you as soon as possible! And I will try to respond whenever I can whether it is dming me for a drawing or asking for updates!!

And remember to not be shy! I also get scared of strangers but I will be more comfortable the more we talk or know eachother! (I may be nervous if you're popular/I find you cool and stuff like that)

Let me know if I should fix anything on the sheet! I will always try my best to improve and make sure you like your drawing! Thank you! Have a great day/night silly goober!! :D

[whyamiwater]

the urge to show my Dandy's World/DW OCs 💥

can I... I have been hoarding so many doodles of them dhsjb/silly/nf

[ask-steven-stevenson]

\\Machine by Regina Spektor is steven coded (sorta. but still.)

[arielluva]

if 15 year old me could survive going back to school in person after quarantine SURELY i can handle it now right. surely.

[calenhads]

thinking about my bg/3 romances. oh yeah.

[sanasanakun]

The Dark Urge: Who Are They Really?

After discussing this (for way too long) with a friend, I’m gonna voice my thoughts out to the void like the nerd I am.

I’ve never been a huge fan of amensia narratives because I think they’re cheesy and lazy. But The Dark Urge is so Drakengard-coded that I locked onto them immediately. The Durge and I are a match made in Heaven. And this is where my friend comes in. He doesn’t want to play Durge because “you’re playing a monster.” I argued back that, technically, they have no memory of who they are and can change. Basically Durge-in-game =\= Durge pre-game (depending on how you play obviously). But my friend, let’s call him Zach, argued it doesn’t matter if Durge works towards being a “good” (good can be subjective) person because they’re guilty of unforgivable crimes including ones we probably don’t hear about. Zach argues Durge’s origin as Bhaalspawn does complicate things, but that it doesn’t excuse it. Durge is shown as able to resist the urge (even at great physical pain). He doesn’t count “remote” killings as in when Bhaal overrides Durge (ex. Alfira).

This got us discussing the philosophy behind such a scenario. Is the original’s persona dead? Does this mean the Durge we play is a new person, and Durge from before is dead? Or is this the same person? What changed within Durge (if they’re repenting) to cause them to reject their old life and ways? It brings to mind John Locke’s argument about “Day” and “Night-man” in which Locke insists that a body may share a soul but not be the same person. Locke states:

“For granting that the thinking Substance in Man must be necessarily suppos’d immaterial, ‘tis evident, that immaterial thinking thing may sometimes part with its past consciousness, and be restored to it again, as appears in the forgetfulness Men often have of their past Actions, and the Mind many times recovers the memory of a past consciousness, which it had lost for twenty Years together. Make these intervals of Memory and Forgetfulness to take their turns regularly by Day and Night, and you have two Persons with the same immaterial Spirit, as much as in the former instance two Persons with the same Body. So that self is not determined by Identity or Diversity of Substance…but only by identity of consciousness” (Locke, An Essay Concerning Human Understanding).

Essentially, he believed the conscious could change while the body and soul remains the same. A new person is born out of a change in consciousness. A Jekyll and Hyde situation (at its worse in Durge’s case). This sentiment sits at the foot of Zach and I’s “fight” (not a fight lol). I believe Durge-during-the-game to be a completely different person, while Zach sees them as a bad person with no memory of being terrible. For Zach, they are the same person, terrible traits and all, and so they deserve no sympathy (aside from the obvious like their lack of body autonomy at the hands of Bhaal and Orin). But from a purely philosophical question, I don’t know the answer. I know my opinion and Zach’s opinion, but we couldn’t come to an agreement.

Idk I just really love The Dark Urge and their complicated psyche lol thanks for making them enough of a freak, Larian, that my friend and I could discuss this for like two hours in the break room at school.

[delladuck]

might dye my hair a dark red instead of my usual black for shits and giggles tomorrow

[irenespring]

I have started an autistic!Wilson fic but after that is finished I may answer the call to write an extremely angsty Kerry Weaver character study fic (probably with a Susan/Kerry ship affiliation because I have never been fully able to get past Sandy outing Kerry). I have been rewatching ER and my girl deserves better. She is the very best, I adore her with my entire being, and like 80% of "protagonists" of the show participate in a campaign to hurt her for no clear reason except that she doesn't seem neurotypical. It would probably be some heavy angst because when I watch certain scenes in seasons 7/8 I get the distinct sense of "this character is severely depressed to the point of being suicidal, and no one knows or cares." It would probably follow the trajectory of Susan realizing at some point just how bad things have gotten for Kerry since she left, and feeling Remorse.

Rewatching ER sometimes feels like watching someone's villain origin story. Because Kerry starts out intense, but clearly trying very hard to make friends. She just wants to make things better for everyone. And she has Ideas of how to do that and wants to share them. But by season 8 she starts to close off and retreat behind walls of hostility, because all the nt characters were attacking her anyway. She starts looking out for herself more, because she is aware that everyone else hates her for things she can't fully control, and would stab her in the back eagerly and happily if they got the chance. She becomes less "let me help you all with my Charts!!!" and more "I need to stay on top to survive please don't take the only thing I have in my life away from me let me just have this job." So if Kerry stayed at County General until a hypothetical season 23, and a new character is like "why is she so closed off/cold/compulsively pushing everyone away?", the flashback sequences would be to seasons 2-8.

I may also answer the call to write a surprising friendship fic between House and Kerry because of character parallels I've discussed in a previous post and because I think it would really work. They would NOT get along working together, but at a conference, especially post ER season 7, they might become quasi-kindred spirits. Because they both NEED to be right to justify their existence, and I think House would recognize how Kerry is slowly becoming afraid of showing any kind of soft edge to people, even if he would never acknowledge that recognition. I think they would settle into a kind of "I would rather crawl over glass than work with you, but outside of work we can sit and drink and ruminate about how other people are wrong and ignore how we are one of each other's only friends" dynamic. They are similarly intense, but in conflicting ways (Kerry hyperfixates on administration and House hyperfixates on cases in a way that makes him rebel against administrators). Also Kerry just deserves a friend.

[chapinii]

The absolute pain of starting a new series and resisting the urge to Google something as simple as the character's ages for fear of seeing the dreaded 'was/were' pop up in their wiki.

[milimeters-morales]

Peter: i notice you dont have audible footsteps when youre camouflaged. what’s up with that??

Miles: *smashes vase on the ground next to him, it is silent*

Peter: okay 👍🏻 okay okay okay 😁 alright! yeah okay! cool. coolcoolcool