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TRYED TO MAKE @sopuu CHAMPION JESSE AU IN MINE IMATOR :3 CREDITS TO SOPUU!!! I DIDNT MAKE THE AU ALL CREDITS TO SOPUU šŖ
#mcsm jesse#mineimator#minecraft story mode#minecraft#mcsm#AU#NOT MY AU!!!!#NOT MY ART I ONLY MADE THE MINE IMATOR STUFF!!!!#REALLY SCARED TO POST THIS š
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āSo Darling Will You Saturateā
Been a while since my last postš
And I started this piece in- July ā ļø college has kept me Busy and I havenāt gotten much personal art done but when I do, I procrastinate and trouble myself even more
Anyways lads, may I present:
āØiii Sleep TokenāØ
Alts:
#sleep token#sleep token iii#iii#blu art#this ended up way more saturated once I transferred it to my phone#and my god it stunned me#(in conflicting ways)#also Iām scared to post this on IG cause of the recent incidents of accs being taken down#and I really wanted iii himself to see it since he has IG š#oh well š„²#hope yāall like it tho#also I really just slapped some colours on here and hoped for the best š„²
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page full o' hobies šø
top pose inspired by @spectra-bear
process pics under da cut ā
#mine#spiderverse#across the spiderverse#hobie brown#spider punk#well YEEHAW im finally finished with this#after 3 trips to the craft and dollar store to buy stuff i needed#this page is FINALLY done good lord#its been... 3 weeks? since i 1st started this?#needless to say im sick of looking at this thing#im simultaneously kinda scared to post this bc im not 100% happy with it#but at the same time im likeā¦ so ready to just post this thang and be DONE with it#never lookin at this again jfc im sick of it#i love hobie dont get me wrong and i love drawing his face#but geeze louise#me doodling this while crying: hobie hates consistency hobie hates consistency hobie hates consistency hobie hATES CONSISTENCY ššš#thats my excuse for not really uhhh getting his face down 100%#also god yeah i didnt get his skin nearly as dark as i wanted cuz uhhhh#ya boi was workin with shitty dollar store crayons#im ngl i kinda.... miss my alcohol markers :/ but whatever ig i did what i could lol
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can I talk about something real quick?
I hate how 99% of arcane fans completely Ignore their favorite character's flaws so much. I know this has been complained about multiple times but i genuinely get so tired of it and physically need to turn off my phone when that happens.
And Im not talking about Jinx, everyone knows she's not a great person, neither am I talking about silco or Sevika or quite literally any of the characters that are placed on the darker shade of grey.
Im talking about characters like Viktor or Mel or Jayce, Vi & Caitlyn aswell, but specifically the first three.
Look, we all know what their intentions are, they only wanted to help, they wanted the best for their cities/family and their goals, but the way they do it is Flawed. The sacrifices and nuance they go through and do just to achieve that specific ideal and goal affects how morally ambiguous or not they are.
What annoys me is that most of these people KNOW, but refuse to accept it and continue bringing down other characters because they refuse to accept there's different opinions over something in the show.
Especially with viktor, he is NAUNCED. He is selfish one way or another, he is willing to destroy himself for the sake of making something too far gone work, and not only did that destroy him, but completely result in the death of Sky. And eventually, that is going to destroy his relationship with Jayce too. He refuses to create weapons even if it means as a tool for self defence because he refuses to accept that zaun is not the most stable in terms of aggression, he got mad at Jayce for calling them dangerous when there was a literal riot on the bridge, a scene playing right infront of his eyes. Again, he is rightful to feel protective of his home, but he is ignorant towards certain things too.
I see so many people ignore viktors flaws and wrong doings, did we forget who he's going to become next season or what?? He literally committed a murder wether he wanted to do it or not. which is lowkey kinda hilarious because I don't see people defending Jayce for murdering that child despite the fact that its equally as wrong as Viktors mishap. He.is.not.flawless.
Mel, oh my god. i love Mel with all my heart, shes my everything, but she is a councilor. yes she's focusing on proving her family wrong, yes she wants to make piltover a better, safer place, and I don't think she's completely ignorant towards the undercity's state, but what has she done about it? Now, its not entirely her fault, I know, its all accumulated from Himerdingers ignorance, but that does not change the fact that she is apart of the same body that kept the undercity in its current state with all its problems for generations. She is a manipulator too, she wants things to go her way, wether it was with good intent or not. She pushed for weapons, YES, as a means of self defense, YES as protection from external threats coming from places other than P&Z, but her mother wasn't completely wrong about how weapons will always be used in every way possible, but she finds it difficult to accept such fact. Not to mention the fact that she literally told a zaunite to create a weapon that would be used against zaun.
So no, her being manipulative is not hot (this literally pisses me off the most) , especially not after that scene with hoskel because she BASICALLY called him stupid and belittled him indirectly. Is it true hes not the smartest? Yeah, did she do it to get him under her palm and ended up using him to do something "Good" in the end? Yeah, Is she good at doing it? Yeah, does she look good while doing it? Yeah, but she looks good ALL THE TIME. Manipulation is not what makes her attractive, its a FLAW, an ugly one. So calling Mel attractive ONLY because she's manipulative is mischaracterization at its finest. And I will bring this point again, separate intention from action.
I don't want to get into more details about mel, I will lose myself, but she is FLAWED, shes morally grey, she isn't perfect, just as the other characters in the whole show.
Jayce, he goes through multiple extreme points during his arc, he's quick to decide on things. At some points it could be a good thing, like how he apologized to viktor for saying harsh words to him. But what his major flaw with this trait is the fact that he goes between violent and peaceful multiple times, figuratively AND literally. He was settled with the fact that he doesn't want to harm zaun, infact, he wanted to help them in the first place, but he got influenced, and ended up resorting to violence, he lost himself, and it ended with the loss of a child's life. He didn't want to make weapons before, got influenced, look where it got him now? He is selfish too, and the list goes on.
Though, Its rare to find people who defend Mel and Jayce in this entire fandom, most of the people I've seen who claim to be fans of them tend to do this all the time smh.
And I just know I will start a war as soon as I open my mouth to talk about Vi & Cait. Which is why I won't because this post is long enough and I want to cover other things.
Please keep in mind that I wrote everything as flatly as possible, so the way you understand the things I say may be different from what I initially thought of, I swear on my life I do not hate these characters, Jayce Mel & Viktor are literally my upmost favorite characters of all time.
This is mostly talking about how sometimes you need to separate the intentions from the actions these characters do, because most of the time, actions speak louder than words.
ALL your favorite characters in Arcane and flawed, they have problems, they aren't perfect. And that's what makes each so special, because it makes you wonder how they will clean their footsteps and deal with those said flaws later if they decide to partake the lighter path, or how they will step deeper into the darker one. And even so, they will still be on the grey scale.
By far, Ekko is the only character closest to white if im being honest, and he still isn't perfect.
Arcane fans need to understand their favorite characters in different points of view, not just from their eyes, even if you agree with their doings and find it right.
One big example that i will bring up again, that scene with Mel, Viktor and Jayce discussing the potential misuse of hextech as Viktor dismantles the bomb. You can understand Viktors point of view, but why not Mels too? (& Vice Versa)
Another is the scene when Vi finally gets to see her sister in episode 5, Caitlyn tagging along with her. You finally get to see powder and Vi reunited, you feel content, and then Jinx comes back and gets angry on why Vi is with an enforcer, which is well within her rights considering how they literally killed countless of zaunites and people, but why not understand from Caitlyns side too? Jinx is a wanted criminal, she'd put a building on fire, killed people in the process, stole volatile items with possibly horrible intentions considering what her crimes are.
ANOTHER is the bridge scene with Jayce and Viktor with the riots, Why the fuck is Jayce calling them dangerous infront of viktor??? Hes well within his rights to be mad! But he isn't WRONG, And jayce is under a lot of stress, and viktor is literally going against him by taking shimmer, and God that list never ends.
Literally almost any other scene.
caitlyn Ekko & Vi , Vi and the Council , Vi and Jayce , Jinx and Vi on episode 9 , Silco and Jayce , Mel and Ambessa , Mel and Viktor, Mel and Jayce in some scenes (like when she put him on the council) , singed and Viktor , etc etc etc
Need i say more??
All of these characters are full of layer upon layer of writing, they're all so well written, their intentions, ideals, morals, are all bricks and pipes of what builds them as characters, but their flaws and nuance is the 'glue' of what keeps them standing too. They may have no choice but to do or say those things that they do or say, because if they don't, they will possibly crumble. But that does not mean it gives them a pass, in the end of the day,, murder is still murder, ignorance is still ignorance, manipulation is still manipulation, and etc. They're not all equally as horrible as the other, but that does not make them better qualities, comparing all these issues/problems and completely siding with one thing because you find A to be less horrible than B is not a good start to understanding Arcane or any show with a similar level of writing to it.
as usual, im sorry for any mistakes or if this is uncollected and full of reptitivness, I don't usually correct my rants or anything because they're like... rants... And im very sorry for nagging about certain things, some points may actually be wrong so please don't feel afraid to give advice or correct me over them NICELY. Other than that its really just my opinion, i just wanted to get the "understand characters from different views" & "sEpEraTe InTentIons FroM ActIons" points across.
#arcane#mel medarda#mel arcane#jayce talis#jayce arcane#ambessa medarda#jinx arcane#viktor league of legends#vi arcane#viktor#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn arcane#ekko arcane#arcane silco#silco#I wonder how many times I said āflawedā#This was literally in my drafts for two weeks because I was scared to post it#āReal quickā it was infact#*fixes glasses* not really quick.#Literally who's gonna read this š
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I think itās interesting how as time goes on Zoro kind of becomes more and more like mihawk in some ways whether thatās just because if you spend time with someone for 2 years youāre bound to pick up their habits or a deliberate attempt to emulate him is a conversation for another time. And Mihawk and Zoro where already pretty similar at the start so itās a little hard to notice now.
But yeah whether unconsciously or consciously Zoro is becoming a bit more like Mihawk and itās interesting to think that while this means maturing in some ways (heās swordsmanship for one but heās also just quieter much more assured of himself) it also means deaging in some others.
Despite their significant age gap and general dispositions, when it comes down to it Zoro is just a lot more emotionally mature and developed than Mihawk is. And a big part of why is because he found something larger than himself to devote his life too, hell Mihawk himself even kind of acknowledges this when he agrees to take Zoro on as a student when Zoro begs for the sake of his captain and crew. He acknowledges that putting aside his own ego and dreams for the sake of someone else isnāt something he can do and sees it as a fault in himself and a strength in Zoro.
Mihawk may be outwardly mature and his skills defiently did not stagnant but Iād wager that Mentally Mihawk is still stuck at the same age he was when he took over the title of worldās strongest swordsman. Honestly maybe even younger. And it isnāt until training Zoro, letting Perona stay with him, for probably the first time in his life taking charge of lives outside his own did he finally unarrest his development.
If Zoro is purposely trying to emulate Hawkeyes, which it wouldnāt be a surprise if he was thatās who heās trying to be Afterall, then it would honestly set him back emotionally because fundamentally as he is now Mihawkās attitude doesnāt work in a crew. Itās too singular, too abrasive. And while that abrasiveness can be useful in Zoroās role as Luffyās first mate sometimes it makes him a little too callous a little too apathetic, like with his disregard for Luffyās sadness over vegapunk.
But Zoro has his crew to temper that, they are honestly just too ridiculous to ever stay serious around. And try as he might to hide it Zoro is also just a silly dude who likes to be horrifically petty with his opponents. And zoro still has so much fire in him, so much he has too prove and so much he wants to protect to ever really fall into Mihawkās apathy. Zoro has Luffy who even after they reach their dreams will probably still continue to turn the world upside down forever keeping Zoro in some kind of trouble and his life interesting.
Zoro canāt be Mihawk because even Mihawk canāt be Mihawk anymore. Being with crossguild and crossing with the Red hair pirates and the strawhats is going to change him, it has too. if Mihawk is going to live after losing his title heās probably gonna have to become a little bit more like Zoro.
#can you tell how much I like the phrase arrested development#mihawk is essentially mentally still a teenager and honestly that tracks#in psychology terms he never developed his super ego#everytime I write a long post Iām so scared that I didnāt make any point at all and itās just a bunch of jumbled nonsense and half points#so I hope this made sense š#zoro and Mihawk are great they are so alike yet the little differences matter so much#donāt you just hate when people say Zoro has no character arc?#they arenāt even two sides of the same coin they are literally just Son learning from the mistakes of his father#I canāt lie before I really got into timeskip I also thought the changes in zoro was just Oda choosing to rewrite him diffenrtky more badas#I also missed the loud smiling and laughing zoro but the truth is that heās still there#and maybe it is just Oda deciding to make Zoro cooler but itās honestly so in line with who he already was and makes so much sense given#who he was training with that it still works as character development#zoro can still be loud and silly and maybe his digs are not said instead of screamed and maybe his smiles are a little meaner instead of#genuine and maybe he doesnāt laugh out loud anymore but honestly sometimes thats part of growing up#Zoro is the way he is so Luffy can be who he is thatās why they work. somebodyās got to take it seriously#somebodyās got to feel the weight of being an emperorās crew. might as well be Zoro#one piece#throwing thoughts to the void#zoro appreciation post#dracule mihawk#hawkeye mihawk#roronoa zoro#zoro#character analysis#one piece meta#goth fam#goth family#one piece goth family#the strawhats#strawhat pirates
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Kotoko and her connection to Danteās Infernoās Satan
Disclaimer: This is just about symbolism and I know how it sounds but I promise Iām not trying to imply anything or demonize her! I love Kotoko! Ive just been repeatedly noticing details about the parallel for several months now and I just really want to bring it up! This is just an analysis of the details MILGRAM has provided for it. Iām incredibly sorry if I make a mistake!
Kotoko has a lot of parallels to Danteās Inferno Satan, especially in relation to Es.
To make sure weāre all on the same page, Danteās Inferno is a Christian poem that outlines the 9 circles of hell. MILGRAM directly references Danteās Inferno by quoting it in all the t2 door arts.
āAbandon all hope, ye who enter.ā A quote derived from a sign at the gate of hell in the poem.
Each ring of Hell contains sinners with different levels of sins, and each ringās sin was meant to be worse the further inside you go. Ive seen a couple theories that each prisoner correlates with a specific ring of hell. (Ex: Haruka is ring 1, Limbo; Yuno is ring 2, lust; etc)
But Danteās Inferno only outlines 9 rings, what about our 10th prisoner, Kotoko?
While it could be that sheās again the āoutsiderā to the other prisoners, the last section of the 9th ring of Hell is significant because it is the center of Hell, containing Satan. So it could be reasonably argued that Kotoko correlates with it.
MILGRAM already has a TON of religious references. One that Iāve seen pointed out is how it seems the cover art of each novel is a reference to a famous Christian art piece.
The Es in each novel seems to be where Jesus relatively is. Remember that Jesus is both the son of God AND God. God gives sinners their judgements which sounds very similar to Es and how they're giving the prisoners (the human sinners) their verdicts.
Plus, the quote Milgram quotes is on the doors the prisoners are entering, and in Danteās inferno, itās on the gate of hell so you can compare or theorize that MILGRAM is a parallel to (or straight up is) purgatory. And Es, being the one who decides the verdict, parallels God.
Also, her t2 VD is named āYONAH,ā which is the masculine version of the name Jonah. Not only does this relate to her themes of masculinity again, Jonah is a name that originates from Hebrew origins which means ādove.ā
It is also a reference to the book of Jonah. A main theme of this book is āJonah wants God to operate on his timeline [...] He wanted God to dole out punishment on his clock instead of according to God's plan. Yet God showed Jonah that in his infinite wisdom, he can't and will not be rushed.ā Which is pretty much exactly what happens in YONAH, and also once again compares Es to God.
Danteās Infernoās Satan was an angel, a splendid being, apparently the most perfect of God's creaturesā¦ an āAngel of light.ā We/Es deemed Kotoko innocent in t1. She had the highest innocent percentage in t1 too because a lot of people thought her murder was justified. You know, the most perfect of Godās creatures. The most perfect out of the prisoners.
āWe really can work together.ā
But then Satan tried to usurp God.
āIf you donāt have the strength on your own, let me take care of it. Es! I can do it in MILGRAM!ā
Kotoko wants to be the prison guard because Es isnāt capable in her eyes.
Satan was ultimately sent to Hell and punished as "the ultimate sinner" for his betrayal of trying to usurp God.
We are now punishing Kotoko for her attempts to judge the prisoners herself and āusurpā Es. It works even better now that she has the highest guilty percentage in all of MILGRAM so far as the āultimate sinner.ā
As a lot know, Fuuta also has tons of religious references too. (Ex. His VD is titled Baptism by Fire) By him also passing judgements onto people, you could say that he was trying to play God.
What is that saying about us, the audience, then? And our parallel/foil to Fuuta/Kotoko?
Danteās Inferno as a whole is very much based around the idea of āevil will be punished,ā which not only encapsulates Kotokoās ideals but MILGRAMās as well. It makes sense that MILGRAM says that Kotoko is a perfect parallel to the facility.
(I also wanna mention that there's something that could be said about the holy trinity in relation to Es + the audience + jackalope. For example, how Jesus is God in the flesh and Es is the audience "in the flesh," by acting as a personified version of us to interact with the "human sinnners" but I feel like I might be going into tinfoil hat territory.)
#edit: GIRL WTF THIS POST WAS A DRAFT I THOUGHT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED SO I REWROTE THE WHOLE THING. BUT I JUST ACCIDENTALLY QUEUED IT??š#thisā¦. couldāve been worded much betterā¦ but too many people have seen this post now I canāt repost itš oopsā¦.#original tags:#this has been in my drafts for so many months nowš#itās been in my mind for even longer#but ive been really scared of posting this because I donāt want people to get the wrong idea#milgram#kotoko yuzuhira#milgram es#fuuta kajiyama#Milkly ramble
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vacation bible school activity: where did you find god in your life today? // february 18 2024
#hi! i'm normal!#this is where that little passage from earlier is from btw. will reblog that post with just that passage again cause it drives me insane#anyway. i'm rlly glad that all the tumblr girlies are putting their concept of god into the beauty of the everyday.#makes me really fucking uncomfortable though š#i am fr trying not to see that guy... would like to get away from him actually... trying very hard...#poems about religion#poems about god#poetry#poem#poems#poets on tumblr#poems and poetry#poetsandwriters#original poem#could never be a quaker that stuff scares the shit out of me
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Do you ship any of the turtles with anyone? or do you ship anything in rise at all?
(This ended up being a lot longer an answer than I intended hoo boy sorry about that)
Hmmm, Iām not too big a shipper tbh! Especially since I really enjoy canon interactions backing my ships, so itās hard for me to actively like any that donāt really have that going for them. Thereās plenty that I see around that I think are cute, but thatās usually the extent of my thought process for them.
For ships I more actively have, I guess I like AprilxSunita! Theyāre very very cute and I think they have some huge meet cute energy in their first episode together, and their chemistry is genuinely adorable (plus them being featured means more April screentime which is ALWAYS a good thing.)
I also think AprilxCasey (and when I say Casey I mean our OG girl) is really good, as Iām a sucker for enemies to lovers, and I think they have a lot in common and just bounce off each other very well (not to mention this ship in other iterations of TMNT has a loooooot going for it.)
Keeping the chain going, I think RaphxCasey (again, OG Casey) is also one with a tonnnnn of potential. They have a lot of common characteristics, and considering Raphās whole thing with Franken-Foot, I really think thereās a lot of room there for a relationship to develop. Plus, like AprilxCasey, Raph and Casey tend to have a close relationship throughout the iterations of TMNT and it would be great to see that more with these two, even if not romantically.
Actually going back to enemies to lovers, I unironically think thereās a ton going for DonniexKendra. I know a lot of people hate this ship, but I donāt and I actually think it could very easily work whether in a love-hate way or a slow burn way. Thereās a lot to like here and honestly theyāre good together! Kendra is legit Donnieās type too haha (cute, but mean.)
Lastly, SplinterxDraxum is goodā¦when done right. I really like when people take it and donāt undermine the very real trauma that Splinter has gone through. As Iāve stated a lot, I love me some enemies to lovers, so I can see the potential here. Plus lbr Draxum was down BAD for Lou Jitsu when he first saw him haha.
I think thatās the extent to what I actively like? Everything else usually falls into āaw cuteā or āehhh not for me thanksā. And before you ask YES leosagi is cute and Iāll read fics with it if the premise is appealing, but Iām afraid I need some canon interactions to establish base character dynamics before I actively ship it alas.š Super cute though, no hate to it or any of the other CanonxCharacter-theyāve-never-met ships, I genuinely think people should just have fun! And for what itās worth I really do wish we got a Usagi and Leo interaction in Rise like we have in other iterations.:(
So yeah. Overall, I have a few ships I enjoy, but I fall much more in the āprefer to keep everyone to themselves and make the focus family and friendshipā category.
#non au ask#can you tell Iām an enemies to lovers person yet š#I had a dream once that the Fox yokai working for big mama was a teenage employee and he and Leo had a cute thing going on does that count#(the bellhop guy we see often with Big Mama)#that dream had like all of big mamaās employees basically be her adopted children#including frida#(Big Mamaās assistant)#AND Gus#(the guard dog)#so like she was literally big MAMA lol#pretty interesting story tbh too bad it ended when I woke up and I forgot a good 70% of it#lol this is also enemies to lovers I just realized-#but yeah overall Iām mostly a friendship or family platonic dynamics person#pfft of the ones I listed only AprilxSunita was not enemies to lovers wait š#nah but like Iām not really a big shipper tbh#I tend to fast forward through romance plots in shows that donāt focus on romance#and I tend to avoid romance genres in general most of the time#no hate at allll itās just not typically for me yāknow?#I was reallyyyyy scared to post this because people can get MEAN about ships š
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so. platoās cave, hm?
extras under the cut ofc! vv
draft sketch + some eddie art style thingies!
#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#welcome home horror project#eddie dear#welcomehome#my art#indigoās art#art#welcome home update#eddie dear welcome home#BRUH SOBS#MANNNN SOBSBSB#this update blew me out of the water.#i drew this literally the day after while at work#very glad i got to finish it <3#i just didnt post it yet out of fearš a lot of the time my art that i think i did really good on tanks horribly and idk if this one will too#and im just scared of it happening againš#sob snf#but! enjoy! im posting it now!!!!#posting it both on insta and tumblr at the same time as always </333 sob snf#okok im rambling#byebye!
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SANTA MONICA STUDIOS GIVE ME MORE ANGRBODA CONTENT AND MY LIFE IS YOURS
PLEASE WE ARE BEGGING WE ARE GETTING FRUSTRATED š”š”š”š” šššššššššššššš
#THAT PARTTT#My monster girl i love and miss her bad š¢š¢š¢šššš slight rant below#I can tell they are kinda scared to put her in the forefront but like who really cares plus shes getting more fansš#Im sure sheāll join atreus fully or partially on his journey i hope they put more emphasis on her esp in promos. I think it just makes sens#considering her role and all. It would make me disappointed if they tried to hide her because of trolls bc hiding her imo#would make things worse and make them look shady šššš#Thankfully they are primarily focused on kratos post-valhalla so im not too disappointed because they havent#posted about anybody else too much or at all either. I need to stop and go on twitter šš the more angie fans on there the better#Angrboda appreciation#asks#gowr#god of war#angrboda#god of war ragnarok#gow#Gow ragnarok
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āØTADA āØ
heās not happy
well thatās what you get. you know what you did. this is your fault
@tuxibirdie i have you and your stream to thank for this
#guys error really didnāt like that i was drawing this#he killed my ipad and my pen several times as well and crashing my apps š#error sans#undertale#sans undertale#undertale au#au undertale#undertale multiverse#mitsusart#undertale au fanart#undertale aus#undertaleau#ut au art#undertale fanart#i donāt know why iām putting tags im scared of even posting this#but at the same time i kinda wanna draw others with bazongas#error!sans#iāve never anatomy-ed before and this is the results#id make it bigger for error but uh i am Chicken
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Dion was so mean in pn2 because he'd been SO scared Raz was gone forever, then to find out he's okay! But ... he didn't come home with Dad? HE WENT TO PSYCHIC CENTRAL??? Completely ignoring the fact (for now) that Augustus is psychic too, they get to the Motherlobe and Raz seems embarrassed they're there. Which upsets Dion even more so that fear that doesn't need to be fear anymore, but still needs to be let out somehow, turns into anger. Anger Dion doesn't know how to deal with because he's only 16, was raised in a family with sooo many maladaptive coping strategies to function, and probably doesn't have great age appropriate socialization skills because they moved too often to really make friends. He loves Raz. But he was scared. And he needs help with *that* before he can have an honest one on one with Raz that doesn't dissolve into fighting
YES!!!! YOU GET IT!!!! YOU UNDERSTAND HIS CHARACTER ANON!!! I AM GOING TO EXPLODE /POS
#anon I am kneeling before you and kissing your hand; tytyty for understanding Dion; that angsty teen means the world to me and when I got-#an anonymous anon I was SO SCARED I was gonna get someone arguing with me on my post; so ty so much; I really mean it ššš#tw all caps#psychonauts 2#dion aquato#psychonauts dion aquato#psychonauts#prince rambles in this chilies tonight
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I miss old tumblr in the sense that i could complain about board exams and worrying about not getting enough to be eligible for my medical entrance test and i'd have summoned half the indian side of tumblr to sympathize
#im in sm stress#if i dont score above 75% im not eligible for my neet exam#which im planning to take a drop year for#and its gonne be both expensive and emotionally taxing#and i have to give THIS years neet exam too#for reasons#im not in the clear until may 20#adulthood is a scam#And that is well BEFORE i even start preparing for neet#well before i even have to consider the possibility that i might not get in#im pretty much using this post to vent in tags#its like 4 am#and im stressed. scared. everything#its really difficult just existing w adhd and mental illness#much less studying#and neet is like highly competetive#the cutoff goes so high#i want to get out of this city#and be safe and actually be alive for once#a big part of me will shrivel up and die if i stay#and this is the first time i've actually wanted smth for real#tentatively and doubtfully#but wanting still#and idk if i'll make a good doctor or if i'll fuck up and have it all blow up in my fsce#overthinking basically#im worried im not. capable of doing this#anyways desi tumblrinas where are youšššš
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i think if you told aki you liked journaling/scrapbooking and kept tickets, receipts, wrappers etc. for it he'd start collecting some himself to offer you.
for the first few it's more of a passing thought: "i think they'd like this," or "maybe they could use this." he'll give them to you the same day when he gets home. but then he starts actively looking for things you could use... keeps them in the drawer by his side of the bed to give them all to you when he has a 'respectable amount' as a surprise... it takes a while because he'd be picky about itāthey have to be up to his standard, the same way all his gifts for you are.
and maybe it's just smoothed receipts from the convenience store you visit during late night snack runs, or one from the library with the 3 books he took out a few weeks ago, or a wrapper from the new flavour of a candy you like. but your face lights up as you thank him and talk about spreads you could do, and aki thinks he'd empty his drawer of his own belongings to fill it to the brim with more bus tickets and newspaper scraps if it meant you'd be happy
#6okuto.txt#aki....... š#sorry for double posting... really thinking tonight.#screaming crying wailing should i ***#sorry i don't talk/post about him can you guys always remember aki is Up There with bokuaka and cove. please. Please. aki#honestly i don't talk about him because i'm scared 2 mischaracterize him... moreso than most charas...#i cant fumble bro like thats aki??? š his look up figure is in front of me right NOW id never forgive myself 4 speaking wrong of him...#aki... fawk my stupid baka life.....
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another one +uncolored ver (can u tell i skipped school today
#i feel like it kind of looks better uncolored idk i think it's the eyes#laurmau#aphmau#mcd#minecraft diaries#i b on that danny gonzalez grind im CONSTANTLY rewatching his stuff im so serioud#i had this phase back in like december january i forgot where i literally binge watched like at least 12 of his vids a day Idk what i was d#ing like girl STUDY FOR YOUR SATS#hashtag Laurmau forever Idgaf (i've been avoiding continuing my mcd rewatchbc the next episode has aaron in the thumbnail(im really scaredš#I WILL FINISH YOU#Garroth soon contrary to popular belief i am a big Garroth fan too hes just kind of been irrelevant in mcd lately like come back......#I LIKE HIM KN THE SIDE STORIES THOUGH idk how i feel about my street but i Just started so we will see#o dont likr what jess is doing to him and laurance why are they crazy creepsļæ½ļæ½ļømy daughters....#ummm what else omg i want to animate the nicole audio video thing that post is SO FUNNY literally live changing imma do that tmrw maybe umm#big emphasis on the Maybeš
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i am a junior in high school#Hopefully ugghhhhh GET ME OUT!!!!#laurance zvahl#aphmau mcd#laurance mcd#awesome#also omg#thank u all for being nice tome on that laurance design it made me so happy like samn people rlly still care abt mcdšš(Positive
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Wlw pls help a clueless girl out š„²
There's a really cute butch that works the front desk at the hotel I've been staying at, we ended up talking about the museum I'm working at and how I have an art exhibition coming up.
When I told her she should go to the museum she said she'd only go if I was there to give her a private tour. She also asked for the details on my art exhibition (when / where).
We ended up exchanging phone numbers with the promise I'd take her to the museum soon.
I can't tell if she was just being nice or if she was flirting and I haven't txted her since
#pls help#wlw#wlw post#lgbtq#pansexual#femme4butch#femme4masc#actually autistic#sophie's txt post#i really wanna txt her but i'm too scared š
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