#RAAA I FEEL BAD

[groovygladiatorsheep]

Do you have a toyhouse? I feel like it would be perfect for you since you have alot of ocs

I do actually ! I plan on installing my ocs on it eventually, but for now it’s just adopts I have :]

I can share it, I just mainly do it on Amino dhdhdhdgd

[duckiesdoodlesdelight]

while you were out studying magic i was out studying the blade. and fireball

[kkonito]

dude something about iwa just screams filo tingle… like does anyone else understand… does anyone else feel the pull… idk about you guys but thinking about kuya iwa lowkey has my toes curlin tbh

[chai-en-kaadhale]

learned time management but at what cost

[min-imum]

FLUFFY GYU SMUT !!!!

nsfw, mdni

content warnings: gn!reader, this is actually so fluffy because i love domesticity and i’m a sucker for domestic fluff but also mingyu is too hot so i ended up being a smut account but but but TIYA I MEANT AN ASK WITH CONTENT 😞😞😞😞 it’s okay this means i can write WHATEVER I WANT!!!!!!!! DOMESTIC MINGYU!!!!!!!, super soft sex, super sweet mingyu, AUGH its vanilla and it’s cute, also i literally added tags to this in advance because my dumbass completely forgot to add tags in my previous post and i was like hmm it’s a suspiciously low number of notes for the amount of time this has been up OHHHHHHH no tags., second time i’ve had to rewrite a fic because tumblr said nope sorry we cant save this AND THEN IT JUST DIDNT SAVE EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY SAVED THE DRAFT EARLIER AND I WAS JUST ADDING ON :( im being so fr the first draft was SO much better on god and it was longer too but i forgot what i wrote rAAA

mingyu — your sweet, darling boyfriend. you love him with all your heart and you know he loves you too.

he shows you just how much he loves you all the time. you know he loves you when he crawls up at dawn to make you breakfast. you know he loves you when he crouches to tie your shoelaces for you. you know he loves you when he sends you sweet texts throughout the day, and when he purchases souvenirs from all his travels for you, and when he wraps his big arms around you on a bad day to cushion you and comfort you.

you know he loves you when he makes love to you like this, slow and sweet and filled with emotion.

he kisses you slowly, languidly, and you moan into his mouth as his cock presses into you inch by inch. when he pulls back to look at you, his eyes are filled with adoration. it makes your heart squeeze in your chest.

when you finally take him to the hilt, he pauses, litters kisses over your face and neck, presses his lips to your jaw, bites gently at your earlobe, and waits ever so patiently for you to get used to his size inside you.

“you can move, gyu,” you whisper. he kisses you once more as his hips start to move, grunts falling from his lips with each thrust. he leans his forehead against yours tenderly and bumps your noses together affectionately.

his hands roam your body, squeezing gently and feeling you up. he revels in every moan and whine that escapes from your lips. he nuzzles against your cheek sweetly.

as much as you like the rougher, meaner sex you have with him, this sweet love-making is your favourite. he never fails to remind you how much he loves you and how special you are to him.

he presses his nose into your hair and breathes in your scent.

“did you use my shampoo, baby?”

“mhm,” you smile sheepishly. “sorry.”

“don’t apologise. i like it when you smell like me.” he giggles, expression absolutely lovesick. you blush, shy and contented.

“i like smelling like you too.”

he has the sweetest smile on his face, eyes glittery and lips curled, as he fucks you with all the love in the world. he loves making you feel good, he loves taking care of you. he loves you.

soon, you’re cumming over his cock with a long whine, and he fucks you through it. he always makes sure you cum first. and then he follows quickly, rolling his hips into you one last time and emptying himself into you.

finally, he rolls the two of you over so you’re lying on his chest, his cock still buried inside you.

“hi,” you giggle.

“you’re so cute,” mingyu coos. “my adorable baby. i love you so much.”

you smile, eyes bright with happiness and satisfaction. “i love you too.”

“let’s get up soon, okay? i have to clean you up and change the sheets,” he murmurs.

as always, your sweet boyfriend never fails to take care of you and show you how much he loves you.

“okay,” you hum. “five more minutes?”

he strokes your back affectionately and presses a tender kiss to your head. “five more minutes.”

[sierrrraaawwwwwcgtcvh]

Heyy! Would it be possible for you to do a fluffy oneshot with a fallen angel female reader x Carmilla? They could be spending the day together and relaxing, maybe some cuddles 👀

You and Carmilla had spent the day together by treating yourselves to a spa day. Honestly, the two of you needed the relaxation. The stress of her killing an exorcist was getting to her and with you being a fallen angel.. 

The two of you just needed to relax. Not having to worry about anything or anyone. Well, Carmilla would be probably be worrying about her daughters and you’d be lying if you said you weren’t worried about her daughters either. The two were well-behaved but you both knew they could be mischievous when they wanted to be.

Anyway, the two of you just left the spa and you? You honestly needed a nap or anything of the sort. The two of you sat in a limo as they drove you to whatever destination Carmilla had planned next.

“What’s on your mind mi amor?” Carmilla asked as she sat beside you.

“Just tired.” You yawned as she smiled. “I need a nap.”

“I could go for a nap right now, as well.” Carmilla chuckled as you leaned your head against her shoulder.

“What are we gonna do next?” You asked as she simply hummed.

“We could go home if you wanted? I’m feeling rather tired myself.” 

“That’s okay with me.” You replied as she responded. 

“Alright..” 

She then told the driver to turn around and take the two of us home.

It didn’t necessarily take long for the two of you to get home after that. It only took about 15-20 minutes. So, not that bad.

Carmilla got out of the limo first as you groaned from the lack of body warmth. She was usually warm. Once, you jokingly called her your own personal heater and she simply laughed at your antics before saying that you were her own personal cooler.

Apparently to her, you were usually cold. Much to your surprise. You figured that you were among the many people who were warm almost all of the time.

You got out of the limo as you stretched before looking at Carmilla who was already looking at you.

“Let’s go inside, hmm?” She took your hand in hers as the two of you made your way inside of her house.

She took you to her room as you yawned which then caused her to let out a little yawn of her own. She let go of your hand as she walked towards her bed.

“Guess we both really are tired.” You chuckled as she climbed into bed.

“Are you just going to stand there mi amor?” 

“Oh- right.” You walked over to the other side of the bed and climbed in.

You scooted closer to Carmilla before your wings sprouted out from your back, startling you.

“Sorry! I don’t know why they came out.” You were about make your wings go away before Carmilla spoke.

“It’s alright. You look beautiful with them mi corzaón.” She pulled you closer to her as you smiled.

“Thank you.” You draped your wing around the two of you as she sighed in content.

“You’re welcome.”

—

As soon as I sat down to write this I went dead. Like, I knew what to write and what I was going to do but I just couldn’t write for some reason. It actually killed me inside because I knew what to do but the words just couldn’t come to my head.

OH YEAH I MADE THIS ROMANTIC (hope ya don’t mind) if you want me to make it platonic instead just lmk!

Ooh and I made the reader have wings since she’s a fallen angel if that’s okay!

RAAA I FEEL LIKE I MADE HER SOO OUT OF CHARACTER IM SO SORRY D: oh and sorry that it’s short 😭

Word count : 513

[d34dlysinner]

Hello hi bye bye it me ya girl Sagal

Im not sure if request are open but

“Clears throat”

So what about a hc of playing hide and seek with the kings.They are the seeker and MC is the hider.

If they managed to find them they get a kiss The more times they find MC ,the deeper the kiss gets

Throw in Sitri and Leraye too if you mind.Sitri I think can find MC easily just by their heartbeat

RAAA THANKS SAGAL

Just because it's my friend Sagal that's asking this I'll make Beel's part extra juicy for you. You're also getting a little Lucifer drabble.

MINORS DNI

Satan like any other demon has good senses. So hiding is somewhat useless when it comes to demons, but that didn't mean you couldn't try. In fact, Satan loves it when you do this, because everytime he finds you he'll either deliberately scare you or make out with you.

This time he found you pretty quickly. "You're getting sloppy at hiding...", he said as he bent down to look you in your eyes.

"But since we're both in your hiding place I'll take this opportunity to do this...", he finished his sentence as he leaned in to give you a soft kiss. It was weird for him to be soft, but he agreed that he'd do this to see if you want more or not. Only when you reciprocate will he be more harsh.

Mammon wasn't the best at finding you. Mostly because his frame is too big to search in the nooks and crannies of certain places. So whenever you're hiding it's not only Mammon that searches, but a few of his nobles that will help him look in smaller places.

When he does find you, with or without help, he'll just drag you with him. He'll sit somewhere with you on his lap as he starts kissing you.

He doesn't care of others are watching. In fact they're allowed to see how greedy he was with you.

Leviathan searching for you is like asking to be hunted. He does worry about you and will send out as many demons he can to find you. So don't be surprised when the entirety of Hades is rampaging through the country to search you.

When he does find you, he'll scold you for being childish. "I see what vile thoughts you had, but did you really think this was a good idea? Knowing that you are hunted by angels."

Try and shut him up with a kiss, you probably won't succeed. Maybe he'll feel bad at some point and give you a peck.

Beelzebub was definitely one who could find you easily. He has this superhuman sense of smell. He could even smell you from miles away.

He would sit near or even in the room you're hiding in just to taunt you. He'll either rest on a chair and play on his phone or he'll just wander around and everytime stop near your hiding spot.

When he becomes too bored he'll just move whatever door, curtain or any other object between you both.

"Instead of hiding let's have some actual fun.", he says as he looks down at you. You knew exactly what he meant when you felt him pull you in and kiss you roughly. His hands travelled all over your chest as he gave light squeezes.

He pulled away to allow you to breathe as his beautiful turquoise eyes, with the roman number '6' engraved in them, looked deeply into yours. You were panting from the kiss and still felt his hands on you.

"See? Isn't this way more fun."

Instead of the kisses being deeper... he'll be more lewd everytime he finds you.

Leraye had some trouble finding you. He liked loud places and you being silent didn't make him feel calm. He ran through places and asked some others if they've seen you. At a certain point you would snicker and somewhat give away your location.

He wants to hear you and you being silent didn't make it fun for him. Maybe next time you should play Marco Polo...

He did give you some kisses when he had you in his arms again.

Hiding from Sitri is like hiding on a small open and dry field. You were found in seconds.

"Solomon... I'll always be able to find you as long as your heart beats...", he said as he knelt down to look at you. The hiding part may end quickly, but that didn't mean that he wouldn't take advantage of the hiding spot.

"May I kiss you Solomon...", he says as he starts to lean in.

He joins you in your hiding spot and started a full blown make out that was hard to escape from.

Lucifer would often find you to scare you. He would use any tactic to make you cry after all... So if he could make you cry out of fear when you're hiding he's happy. He'll eventually kiss your tears away and kiss your lips to try and calm you down.

"Your tears are delicious..." he'd say as he wipes them away.

[peachy-wolfhard]

The Lair Games

a/n: raaa i love the lair games best mfing episode so whimsical and fun raaaaa also im obsessed with lair games cheerleader hc, italics are interviews (i didnt put everyones interview in only the readers)

Let me know if you would like to be on my tmnt taglist!

Warnings: donnie is a drama queen, The Incident, throwing up mentioned

Word count: 702

I love the lair games and Donnie sm

Sigh the lair games, the time when only Leo wins and then spends an entire year gloating

While it is very fun watching everyone compete a part of you feels bad for Donnie because he NEVER even gets close to winning

That is…until this year

Every year you take it upon yourself to be Donnie’s cheerleader because oh man he needs it. As long as you’re there cheering even as he's losing miserably, he's a little less bitter about it

This year was going to be different though you could feel it! History was about to be made

April had told you before that she was going to record the games, and everyone was even more excited

“Sigh, my legacy of losing will be cemented in film history”

It's now the most anticipated day of the year, the day that everyone looks forward to and trains for this year the prize would be…Leo’s room!

The first game of the day was Handstand Hill Bomb and like every year Leo won first place but this year Donnie won second!

“Let’s go Donnie Let’s go!” you cheer as it’s almost time for the next game, Pipe Goop Chicken

“My personal least favorite game if Donnie wins this one he's not kissing me for a month I swear”

“Let’s go Donnie Let’s go!” you cheer once again

“Do you have any more creative cheers?”

“No, get what you get, and don't throw a fit”

And he won! (Kind of a win-lose scenario, beat Leo and rub it in his face and lose smooches)

Win after shocking win Donnie acquired with Leo hot on his tail and you as his loyal cheerleader yelling catchy cheers while shaking purple and black pompoms

That was until…the incident

“y/n can i get a comment about…the incident?”

“Sleep with one eye open Leo. That’s all I will say on the matter”

While Donnie was recovering Leo began his winning streak

“Cough cough…y/n is that you?”

“Donnie you’re not dying stop acting like a sick Victorian child”

“Take me to the surface…one last time…” he says pulling the blanket up to be under his arms

“Shut up,” you say scratching under his chin then sadly going back to the games

“My moment!” he shouts as you walk back to Splinter announcing Leo’s next victory

Just as Splinter announces Leo’s perfect 10 Donnie appears!

“Not so fast, my friend!” Donnie announces masked in smoke (drama queen I love him)

“I’m here brother, lets bowl”

“When Donnie showed up I was stunned! Just a minute before he was pretending he was a sick Victorian child,” you explained to the camera

After all of Donnie’s dramatics, it was time to bowl. He launches himself off and attempts to get his ankle into his shell

Just as he was able to he’s launched into the mannequins knocking all down…

…But one making it a tie and after consulting the rules the next event was left up to a…

Splinter’s choice

“I knew that rat man would come up with something sinister but I didn't think it would be THAT sinister!”

The final event would be the Slippery Whippery Woo?

“If I vom please hold my hair April”

“We can hold each other's hair”

“Hold my nonexistent hair please”

“We will Mikey”

Your cheerleading was quickly forgotten about not knowing if you should root for your boyfriend to catch his slipper rat father or just leave

The match was quickly over with the words “Do you know what rhymes with second place? Leo’s face!”

“I-i- need a shower…I will claim my prize when i'm clean”

As Leo moves out of his room, April closes in for a final interview, and Donnie gloats

“I’m very proud of you Donnie,” you say kissing your hand and touching his forehead

“You’re very lucky i’m touching you right now,” you say, a lovesick smile plastered to both of your faces

Later that night the two of you are unable to sleep

The one thing Leo didn’t mention is that Splinter’s snores are amplified by the vent directly in his room

Needless to say, Leo got his room back very quickly

[raindropren]

You know what Minecraft Update I want. I want an update that focuses at least alittle on the Mushroom islands, I love the concept of them but they are so boring and kinda useless other then the cute mooshroom cows or Mycelium.

I like that most mobs don't spawn there, it's unique, but the island itself is lacking anything of interest. anytime I find one it's like "oh cool,, anyways" while it feels like every other Biome is something I'd want to explore(other then like, Plains or Forests but that makes sense, y'know?) or completely destroy of its resources! Mushroom islands are just,, boring.

Gimmie more Interesting Mushrooms, give us some interesting Fungi, Give us a kind of structure you can only find there, Another mushroom related mob, literally anything. Tho I mostly want more types of mushrooms(WE HAVE TWO! MUSHROOMS/FUNGI ARE SO INTERESTING AND UNIQUE AND YOU TELL ME WE ONLY HAVE TWO OVERWORLD VARITENTS!?!?!?!? I'm sad.) I like that the Big Mushroom tree things Spawn there instead of any tree tree, but like,,, other biomes,,, also have them(Dark Oak biomes i think). Gimmie something cool,,,, let them be interesting! it's a fantasy based biome(at least i think it is)!! like, raaa. :(

They add these new fantasy critters that are scary and tough but I miss being able to have a fun and whimsical time exploring instead of a stressful one. We can have both without it being bad.

tldr, gimmie cool mushrooms plleassee 🥺 lol

[starsambrosia]

Tangent about the gods and new age spiritualism (we are /neg about new age spiritualism here)

The gods dont always want the best for you they arent always on your side because they are their own people too and they have their own goals thoughts and ideas and maybe theyr on your side a lot and theyr good to you and they want to help you and thats great! But new age spiritualism has dropped this idea that the gods of the hellenic pantheon are all love and light and you can just toss them away and move on when you feel ready because theyr entire existance revovles around you.

And thats just genuinely a volitile and ignorant way of thinking about the gods that rips them out of cultural context entirely. Even Lady Aphrodite the embodyment of all forms of love, is not gonna be on your side 10/10 times and thats amazing for her she does what she wants when she wants because shes a fucking goddess.

When did we forget they do what they want and when did we forget that greece has a culture that we are erasing by applying bullshit laws like love and light to gods who can show you a very not love and light side of them.

People say dont fearmonger, i wouldnt call aknowlading a gods ability to destroy as well as heal nations to be fearmongering its more like you realize their power and respect them for what they can do good and bad. Who forgot balance. Who forgot that Dionysus has sent plauges that Apollo has caused wars that the gods have that power for destructive force too and i have fucking seen it for sure. They are not all love and light. Thats what makes them beutifull too. you know. Their ferocity and power their awe inspiring ability and knowledge.

Can we stop trying to reduce the gods the full fledged actual gods who belong to cultures that have spanned for thousands of years of wich we are ignoring oral tradition and ancient history almost entirely now aside from mythology and some times even that is reduced into just "love and light"

Did anyone ever think maybe the gods have their own fucking moral law that has zero to do with amercian specific laws. And it is majority amercians doing this, big surprise.

Did they honestly not think "maybe they have their own laws since they have a king and all"

Like yes the gods are super fluid and thats awesom but they do literally have a king and rules of their own to abide by that we have literally no idea on unless we look to the history of it.

TLDR RAAA RAAA RAA DO MORE REASEARCH RAA RAA HISTORY HISTORY FUCK LOVE AND LIGHT BULLSHIT.

[bonefall]

What are the words for sneezing and a the wonderful other things that come from allergies? I am curious as lately I have been thinking more about my oc Skysniffle, also the the clans have a version of tissues?

We've got a good few words in the Lexicon already for various terms related to sneezing and allergies!

Sneezing is an irregular-stem verb: Raashoo = Sneezed Shoo = Sneezing Raa = Will Sneeze

This is because when you are about to sneeze, you make the RAAA noise, and then when you ARE sneezing, it's SHOO. Mr. Sneezecloud's name is Raawifha; Will-Sneeze-Thin-Cloud. His Clanmates like to call him Raf for short.

The word for boogers is the same for wet, sticky mud; Sslop. Runningnose's name is a mean play on words in Clanmew as well, Sslopchoop could be translated as booger-nose. WELCOME TO SHADOWCLAN BABEYYY

Clanmew also has a word for the feeling you get when you need to sneeze, but can't. Metaphorically it's also used for when you're holding back and uncomfortable about it, or being denied something, like when you shudder with antici............................................ pation.

The state of needing to sneeze: Pfefheala/Pfefheal/Pfefhea

Here's a few more words around allergies;

Rash (General) = Skforrl

Hives (Itchy bumps) = Pkerrn

Rheumy (Eyes that are watery and irritated, can also describe weeping or "sour" wounds) = Nyynssa

Affects in a bad way/Allergic/Don't mix (Verb) = Kssoqoq/Kssoqo/Kssoq Used for a lot of things, not just for allergies. A cat who has sensitivity to certain noise is kssoqoq by that noise. Moss, for Sneezecloud, it-kssoqo. If you aren't able to get along with one particular person, it ALWAYS ends in a fight... you kssoq to each other.

And, lastly... nope there are no tissues. The cats don't have paper. They might be able to spare a square of linen (which can be washed over and over), but usually you'll have to make do with a leaf, if anything.

[echodoesstuff62333]

💔I'm so boredddd I love looking at RP stuff and being like "I wanna start that!" And then realizing I cant invite ppl because social anxiety + I feel bad + anxiety + anxiety

IDC IF IM ALREADY IN A RP GROUP RAAA I WANNA BE IN LIKE 20 MORE!!!

[pamsimmerstories]

Aurora's club and an unexpected death!

previous || next

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[aurora’s meeting with her retired engineers’ club]

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[aurora]: you’re not doing that right, molly. you should try do it differently otherwise you’re going to get hurt

[molly]: oh please! you’re just saying that because you think you are better than us

[aurora]: i’m not better than anyone, but the you’re doing it... it’s questionable if you really got a physics degree

[aurora]: i’ll show you how it’s done

[molly]: you don’t need to

[aurora]: but i will

[aurora]: where are you going? you should watch me!

[molly]: no, thanks

[aurora]: you only made a mess here

[molly]: you’re so annoying!

[aurora]: no, i’m just fixing the mess you create. and then you can go back here

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[aurora]: it’s done. you can work on it now

[molly]: you think you’re smarter than us just because you built a servo!!

[aurora]: oh, molly! just stop talking about it. i was trying to help you!! i think you’re becoming senile and forgetting how things work around here

[molly]: aaau-rooo-raaa

[aurora]: *gasps* molly?!

[aurora]: omg!!

[aurora]: i can’t believe she died!! i told her to be careful!!

[aurora]: why she wouldn’t listen to me?!

[dylan]: it’s not your fault!

[aurora]: i shouldn’t have let her keep doing it. i saw she was doing it wrong! now i feel bad

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[mochiwrites]

I don't think I quite have all the words I want to say- But my goodness if this is gonna be long.

Your writing is gorgeous. And you can take all the time you need on it if it means you can be proud of it and enjoy it as much as I do. When I read Songbird, the characterization was genuinely on point and made complete sense for all of them. I love their unique ways of going about things and how anything they do can be led back to the concept of cause and effect. Idk, I like how despite all the traumas they experience, all the fear, all the blackmail, and wondering if tomorrow will even exist, the one constant they can look forward to is each other. They're hurt, lonely, confused. But they can hold each other's hands and tell the other it'll be okay. (ALBEIT THE RECENT CHAPTER HAS GOT ME IN SHAMBLES THANKS A LOT???) I genuinely love the way you write them all. Grian has got his iconic sass and is always on the go, moving around. He's curious. So curious that it leads him to find people he wants to protect. He wants to do something. He wants validation and to know he's doing things right. He's only human, but since when did that stop him from playing a game way beyond his understanding? Mumbo is lonely and filled with his past mistakes. He pushes away until he realizes he can't anymore. And he lets the light in. The only light he can look at. He grows attached. He's easily flustered, gets snarky, and gets surprised, he's painfully human despite how much he says he's a monster. And I think that's what has gotta hurt about the most recent update. The only humanity he could look forward to, not his own, but another- Possibly gone.

Scar's development is so interesting. He's perfect in every way. He knows what he's doing and doesn't hesitate to do it. Until he does. And just like Mumbo he's grasping for that light to hold onto, but in turn, he crushes it in his palm, only feeling the warm memory of what it was like to be looked at as himself and not a monster. I find your play on words so incredibly fascinating. Fae have such a connection to identity. Scar identifies with a word Grian refuses to call him. Something he was consistently called by so many people until he got a gentle look of determination and care that shattered down his walls. That made him feel with his non-existent "soft human heart". Being taught that identity is what you make of it, and it's up to you and nobody else to decide what you are. But he can't go through with it. Because it's not his choice.

RAAA!!!! I'm so sorry for the long message but I'm such a sucker for your writing and I will probably write more in your dms soon if you're okay with it. But seriously, your writing has got my brain ticking around the clock. Every second of waiting is worth it if you can hold your story in your hands and tell yourself, "I'm proud of this." Because you should be. (Plus, it gives me more time to plan art pieces BNFJBN)

WAILS AND SOBS AT YOU???? REALLY LOUD????

uwahhhhh thank you sm 🥺💕💕 everyone's characterization is something I keep in mind all the time, with every action or thought they may have and ueueueue I'm glad they feel true to their characters. there's just something about like... experiencing so much bad and evil together, but knowing with certainty that the people around you will be there at the end of the day.

AND ALL THREE OF THEM,,, WAILS. grian and his stubborn curiosity but determination to protect and help. yet he's still so pesky and sassy and the impact he has on mumbo and scar is so important. so so so incredibly important. I genuinely don't think the songbird story would hit the same way if he wasn't human.

and mumbo ;-; he has such a kind heart but he's filled with guilt and regret that he pushes people away. and the thing that gets me with him is like,,, he tries so hard to squash that innate kindness, yet he can't help but give that kindness out anyways. and that's so painfully human??? I love sb!mumbo a lot, sad little vampire man.

theN THERE'S SCAR. SCAR WHO I WANT TO SHAKE AROUND SOOOOO AFFECTIONATELY I PROMMY. he's a character that is SO incredibly interesting to me both to study and write and I love how he's developing in the story. we're finally approaching the point in the story where we really see the goodtimeswithscar that we all know and love, and I'm so jittery about revealing his backstory. scar's connection to his identity is so... AUGH. AUGH. I love him ( even while he's making terrible mistakes rn <3 )

but,,, sobbing so incredibly loud at you 🥹💕💕 songbird is very precious to me and I am so proud of it. so incredibly proud of it. long message is 100% welcome, and please!!! feel free to wiggle on into dms :D (and sobs??? plan art??? soBS????)

[haunted-headset]

omfg i need to RANT about this song gives me the fucking FEELS

tw: mentions of SH & depressive episodes

when i was going through a really bad depressive episode, I couldn't find a *single* song or artist that actually wrote songs about what it actually feels like to have depression. It was all "i'M sO eMo BlAaH i HaTe PeOpLe RaAa 💀😖🖤" & it was so obvious that they thought being depressed was a quirky little personality trait. It never felt *real*. & then I saw this song & I cried from the joy who hearing a song that was quite literally somebody recording what goes on in my mind during a depressive episode & turning it into a song.

"I look so much better, so I guess I'm alright" = Before I first heard this song, I was flooded with people telling me how much happier I seemed compared to last year, & how I looked more upbeat & less tired & dead. & I was a bit better, but I wasn't completely happy. & I was convinced that I had to be happy because everybody thought I was happy. This all applies to "I don't know if I can get better for you" because I was also plagued by this idea that I *had* to get better, I *needed* to get better because I needed to be the comic relief & the happy one in the friend groups, or everybody would leave me.

"My head is burning like a machine, tryna cool it down I figured I'd have gotten used to this by now" = One of the many factors that led me to a depressive episode was being really overworked & overwhelmed. I was working as a junior counselor at a BGC for zero pay, & the staff treated us like we weren't there, & the kids were either too touchy, or they were awful. Kids in the group that I worked in were either clinging onto me at all times & not letting me get a second of personal space, or they were screaming & being rude to me. & when I would discipline them, I turned into the "mean counselor" that none of the kids liked. I would've gotten a cash reward for "Best Jr. Counselor" if it wasn't for a few kids who thought I was a monster for telling them to act. & I thought, at the time, that this was really weird because back in 5th grade, I was also a Jr. Counselor, & I loved it! I was never stressed when doing it & I could handle it. & I had dealt with similar situations. &, call me cringe or cliche, but that's when I realized I was a burnt-out "gifted kid," the one who went from all the parents thinking I was responsible & a great counselor to being told off by my boss for being "rude" to the kids.

"I've gotten nearly everything I ever hoped I'd have So why am I still sad?" = At the time before the depressive episode, I was convinced my life was perfect. I had decent grades, a friend group, good art skills, teachers who loved me, & creative ideas 24/7. & when these started to slip away, I was in severe denial & I had convinced myself that I still was the perfect gifted child, so there was no reason for me to be sad over all of this.

"I tear myself in half" = I really *was* tearing myself up during this time. I was screaming at myself in the mirror & hurting myself whenever I messed up or didn't do something correctly.

"I didn't think that it would ever get this bad" = When I was younger & I first learned about self-harm & depression, I thought that would *never* happen to me. After all, why would you voluntarily hurt yourself? I would *never* be that sad. & then when it finally happened, I was shocked because I didn't think it would ever get that bad.

@zuuriell @somebody-v @vibestillaxxx @crows-death @r0ckstardr3amgal @ogelizasoot @lexx-the-gay-rubber-ducky @mochamuff1n im now torturing you all with my insanity :)

anyway sorry bout that lil rant :)

[kamiversee]

oooOOH okay - the way i forgot abt the songs BUT i'm gonna have to straight up make a playlist for these men (as if i don't do the same thing when i'm writing anywaysss)

incoming YAP SESH

so when you mentioned it in the last chapters, i immediately went back listened to 'sober' [childish gambino] BUT i forgot abt 'die for you' [the weeknd] sooooo he's a mini gojo analysis for that song for all my fellow gojo girlies (RAAA):

'i just can't say i don't love you / cause i love you'

this one is obvi lmao the way bro is like "hey btw i LOVE you" every chance he gets

'you hate that you want me'

bro literally says this almost verbatim when he's like "you shouldn't care abt me" but also "it's not a crime [to miss me] love" (ch45)

'i would die for you / i would lie for you ... i would kill for you'

REALLY seein the references to this one in chapter 45 lmao when he's like "i've done worse, for you" and he's said SOOO many times that he'd do anything for you and is explicitly like "the person i am around you now is not the person who fell in love with you"

so here's where i might be wayyy off base again but - what if the list started bc of something gojo tried to do for you, to show how much he cared about you? so like order of events:

years ago, gojo does something bad (ex: hurting someone, manipulating people in your life he views as "bad") in the name of helping you -> sukuna either catches him or he needs sukunas help -> sukuna uses this info to blackmail satoru

the deal for the blackmail is that you either have to complete this list that's made to hurt gojo so badly by punishing the woman he loves AND turns her against him (which is why gojo is so set on the fact that the reader can't have feelings for him, bc he's the one who's supposed to be punished by this whole thing) OR sukuna will kill gojo

which i know is like BIG but ! think about how gojo is always saying he'd do anything for the reader: he was ready to die for her; he had no intention of doing the list. when he walks in on her in ch1 he's like genuinely surprised that an opportunity like that "presented" itself to him, so he really wasn't planning to blackmail you ever

and when you finish the list, gojo is genuinely surprised and relieved that you finish it (ch45) !!!! he's also said that there was no time limit on it but that there actually was one, that it needed to be done by the end of the year i think??? somethin like that i don't remember but that always felt weird to me, so that's probs what sukuna's deadline for gojo was

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anywhooo i also think sukuna put choso on the list bc he felt bad for hurting him (bc i'm refusing rn to think that choso lied abt the abuse which is the basis of my other theory but it bums me out so i'm just ignoring it lmao) and sukuna saw how obsessed w you gojo was and he was maybe like "hmm ok so this girl must be somethin special" and that's why he was making you hook up w choso !

yap sesh OVER (apologies this got so long and the way i was pulling out citations lmao) i will send more theories when i'm actually awake but i just read your response to my ask and HAD to do a song analysis! love you kami xoxoxoxo

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Okay this is yap session 1/2 that I’ve received & it’s not as long as the other so I’ll reply normally!!

To start, ty for this theory & semi-breakdown!! I rlly do love reading these ><

1. I LOVE how you broke down the song reference because every lyric from that damn song applies to Mr. Gojo in this fic🙏 Die For You applies more than you guys realize but it’ll make even more sense when we finally receive his backstory <3

2. You & ☃️anon have similar theories with how this whole thing started & it’s fun to see you guys on the right track & nearly hitting the nail on the head ^.^

The first theory about Gojo & Sukuna’s situation is… it’s a wonderful theory, I’ll say that. I will not say if it’s right or wrong but, since TFL is over, I think it’s safe to say you’re definitely on the right track :)

3. The Sukuna & Choso theory at the end is OH MY FUCKING GOD. I’m going to just burn my fic plans atp because I’m pretty sure you guys somehow have access to it 😄 /hj

Anyway, don’t consider that response as me confirming what you just said but DAMN you cooked & the kitchen might be on fire! :3

TO CONCLUDE, ty for the yap sesh, I love u & these sosoosooo much !!