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Itâs never overstated to me when people are like âwork out bc it makes you feel betterâ bc it literally does. I think what I used to get hung up on is making the perfect schedule / wanting to know what I was doing right away. But itâs also okay to flounder at first and experiment w things and figure out what works for you and your body. The important thing is youâre starting out bc your body really will thank you for it later down the line. You cannot keep pushing it off it will add up
#âWork out not bc you hate your body but bc u love itâ is the truest statement ever#I also donât think a gym membership is needed bc I know straight up athletes who only ever do bodyweight workouts#It helps me so thatâs why I have one but itâs by no means necessary#I still do at home workouts at times bc I think theyâre rly fun and a nice switch up#And just playing around and finding out what works for me but what also challenges me#I donât think I perfected it yet but Iâm doing lots of research & experimenting w things & I also just love the endorphins it gives me#My friend and I are ab to start regularly biking through nature trails & I think that will be so therapeutic for me bc I usually just#Work out at the gym/at home. Itâll be a nice little addition#And buying cute workout two pieces actually motivates me to work out too they make me feel like a Pinterest girl fr
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Another fun airplaneshipping/runwayshipping commission for @es46! After my railsandribbonsshipping Beauty & the Beast art, he asked if I could continue the Disney trend and do a Frozen 2 inspired piece with Elesa and Skyla. Elesa is based after Elsa with ice/snow and lightning powers (like a strong snowstorm), and Skyla has an outfit based off the outfits of the Northuldra people and has wind/air powers. This was really fun to do and I'm really proud of this piece!
Again, thank you for commissioning me! đ
And if anyone else wants a commission, you can see my commission sheets here!
#my art#my commissions#commission#my commission#airplaneshipping#runwayshipping#pokemon#elesa#gym leader elesa#kamitsure#skyla#gym leader skyla#huuro#frozen 2#also fun fact but i have yet to see the entirety of frozen 2!#i saw parts of it when two of my friends put it on for their daughter when i was visiting once#and i only caught parts of it lol
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until i was 11 i didn't really care or know about anything on the internet except google images. like my biggest hobby was typing 'puppy' into the google image search bar and just scrolling through the pics of puppies. i did this with kittens also. i also did this with aragorn from lotr. i could scroll on google images forever. sometimes i'd find websites through google images, usually lotr fanclubs where people made graphics of pippin and merry being in love. unfortunately this all changed when i became best friends with a new kid in 6th grade. she showed me youtube. then i found myspace. then facebook. then tumblr. then twitter. fanfiction.net. I became the reason tumblr and f.net was banned in my school. youtube was the gateway drug, tho. wish i could still be searching 'puppies' and 'kittens' on google images . i grew up too fast </3
#on rainy days#we could choose to go to the computer lab for recess instead of the gym#and youtube was only a few years old so it wasn't banned by our school yet#and i remember hearing about yt for the first time#i was looking at baby chicks on google images and she said she was on youtube#and i was like 'you...two?'#and then she helped me get on yt and i was like a kid standing in front of the grand canyon#she's also still one of my best friends kjnrthkjrtn#text
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public nuisance shit is so ANNOYYINGGGG itâs not FUNNY stop DISTURBING PEOPLE FOR UR TIKTOKS
#listen iâm the biggest tiktok defender. i love that shit#AND. i also. used to be a big public nuisance. it Is funny when ur brain is less developed#and ppl in the comments are like âsocial anxiety is scared of herâ NO JTS NOT#MANNERS ARE SCARED OF HER#like i know i am the least socially anxious bitch ever but. i stopped being annoying in public not bc im socially anxious but#bc itâs fucking rude wth?? đ#thereâs this girl i forgot her handle but she only has two jokes. itâs either a. asking people to hold her phone for a tiktok#and then getting on all fours and charging at them#That one is funny i will admit . ur still bothering the person filming but itâs funny#or b. asking someone to hold her phone for a tiktok and then SCREAMMMINGGGG hound dog in a public place#thatâs. kind of annoying. just cringe cause youâre bothering large amounts of ppl on purpose#i saw a tiktok of a girl singing LOUDLY in the gym and filming herself#and in the comments someone asked if she knew the people behind her#and she was like ânot yet! but iâm hoping to make new friends!â girl youâre annoying.
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I had to do math for that last post guys. Math. My mortal enemy. Never do math guys, never.
#the only time i have ever failed a subject in my entire life has been a university math class#math is the bane of my existence#in highschool i got high 90's and high 80's in every single fucking subject. Art. Drama. Music. English. History. Biology. Law. Psych. Gym.#Kinesiology. Business. Computer Science. AP Bio. AP English. Literally every fucking course!!!! i worked SO FUCKING HARD#i poured my heart and my soul into my math classes. i gave it everything I had. I even did a summer course so i could be in advanced math!!#and yet#i barely passed math. every fucking year. i despise math.#actually wait no that other part isn't true lmao. i forgot about Chem and Physics. I always aced the theory parts and bombed the math parts#usually was low 80s in those two tbh#anyway im so glad math isn't in my life anymore#it can stay away thanks
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still feeling the effects of that monster drink i had 7 hours ago i am never going to sleep again
#i feel inhuman#i could probably jump up and keep going up and up and up and around the earth if i wanted#i could do the splits on two pieces of rope suspended in the air and spin around like a rotisserie chicken only very fast#i could punch through a bag at the gym and climb up the side of the building onto the roof#and keep running into thin air like a cartoon character who hasn't looked down yet
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#being sick sucks#just like why?? did this need to happen??#đ#it's not even so much being sick itself which sucks but all the things it ruins for you đđ#altough yesterday i felt quite rough really bad headache which makes you feel like run over and bad sore throat#but i can ignore these things quite well if i distract myself yeah so it's alright#i do feel a lot better today after i ate a whole lot because yesterday i didn't eat anything besides lunch bc my sore throat hurt sm#it still hurts but the headache is gone and the groggy feeling mostly#but i had a date today with this guy from uni or i'm fairly sure it would have been one bc i do think he likes me like he texts me everyday#well i couldn't go đđ i had to reject him we would have gone to the gym and then to watch a tv series he would have cooked for me...#gym even if i'm better now is not a good idea with a bad cold and i wouldn't like to pass it on to him whatever i have#but i feel so bad now đđ„ș and he saw my message but hasn't responded yet :( i'm so afraid he now thinks i'm not interested đ#because we tried so long to meet again by now but i had exams and had to study#i told him in two weeks if we can reaarrange but maybe that was not well worded because it's so long but my uni scedule đ„Č#and i was really looking forward to it#anyways i also had to skip a class yesterday with attendance and now i can only miss it one more time đ„Č#what if i get covid again and would be positive so long that i miss two classes should i just go to class with covid wtf#otherwise failing this class#i so hope nothing will happen again and i just went to class today and tomorrow i will too because i can't risk missing more classes#and i do feel better so it's alright i think it's hardly covid more like a bad cold#and everyone in my classes was sick my friend who sits next to me maybe i got it from her đ
#also i was so motivated for studying this week now all my plans fell apart đȘ#and i still can't do sports hopefully tomorrow or friday at the very least hopefully on the weekend because i have tennis practice then#i wanted to play tennis with a guy this week even twice but no#today would have been my workout day but ig if i do it by friday i can still finish the schedule until sunday#basically all my plans for this week were useless i feel so behind on so many things how am i ever gonna catch up again#i wanted to do 3-4.5 hours of studying every day but all i did is my homework :((#i might study a bit for the medicine entrance exam now i guess it's better than nothing#how being sick can mess up your whole schedule and progress it sucks sm :((#you see i'm feeling very sorry for myself đ
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aaand now I dont have enough space for HSR on my laptop (65+ gb) and now I'm retired from playing again.
I literally only went back to playing (after running out of space on my ipad months ago, which prioritizes Genshin) for Jiaoqiu since his JP VA is one of my favorites (I got him to E1L0 from what I saved up) and the only thing I was anticipating was the release of Sunday, next patch. Now, I'm prioritizing Sims 4 on my laptop and which I went from 16 to 70 gb of available space.
#desiree talks#desiree plays#i spent almost $100 on dlc for the sims since there's a sale#i got seasons/get together/city living/growing together/parenthood and dream home decorator#i spend a lot of time in live mode and have aging turned off#i am waiting on aging my daughter bc i want to build a bigger house (still in the starter home across from the BFF house)#when my sim got accidentally pregnant i had to keep all the baby stuff in the livingroom/hallway#and i want to add in a pair of fraternal twin boys next#i want to pick up one or two more things (at most $15) before the sale ends and#im debating between spa day(I literally just want to see sims do yoga at the gym)#crystal creations wedding stories and moschino for making new wedding rings and taking wedding photos for my sim (yeah yeah ikik)#or like paranormal and werewolves for the build/buy and CAS over the actual gameplay lol#or i can just buy some CAS kits and go ahead in making over each one of my townies#i swear to god they are so bad#like theyre either deathly pale or super dark there is rarely any inbetween skin tones#like i used a mod to generate more than one bartender at a karaoke bar#and they all had the same two skintones (only one was super pale) and three had the same afro back to back for their shifts??#wheres the variety#and then all the japanese named sims too#i'm going to find a mod that randomizes more cultural names bc this is weird#like before i got city living i wanted more asian sims#and now there's a bunch if japanese ones#can i have some chinese korean or like vietnamese and filipino?#i guess if you have for rent that would probably help but i dont plan on that yet#i mainly want to house all the single mothers so they can raise their kids and i have more teens available#my daughter is going to need friends her age eventually
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#tag talk#I've been getting back into working out and it's pretty great#home workout not gym workout cause no fucking way I do not belong at the gym#bicep curls are my favorite and squats are my least favorite but I want big thighs so I must continue#I don't split my exercising into different groups on different days. I just have a general set of exercises that I do#I prefer to work my whole body instead of having leg day arm day back day and what have you#it's way more satisfying to lie exhausted and unmoving on the floor as your whole body aches versus only isolated ache and exhaustion#I want to start running again as well but I haven't found a good way to incorporate that into my routine yet.#I'm gonna go on a sunrise hike later this week with a friend. I'm pretty hyped for it I've been wanting to for a while.#brain is overloaded trying to calculate scenarios with the new poly relationship I'm sort of in now#I say sort of because it's so new it's not really established yet. but we have a discord group chat and movie plans for tomorrow#I think our identity is shifting back to R now. I put on a skirt to wear around the house and it feels right and not weird anymore#so I think nature is healing and we're back to normal identity balance which I'm conflicted about#cause on one hand I'm way more cheerful but he's way more solid and reliable and grounded but I'm more social and lively#idk. like most things in life it's not about picking one or the other but rather balancing two opposing sides of a spectrum#my answer is not to pick one identity or the other but rather to learn how to integrate them both into a functional working system#but that's easier said than done.#idk. being two people who slide in and out of phase is kind of annoying actually. I lack consistency#consistency in relationships. consistency in appetite. consistency in physical activity. consistency in entertainment preferences#it makes it so hard to find a routine and stick with it because I oscillate between two people with separate preferences for routine#I worry I'll lose his routine now that I'm slipping back into R not L. I've started exercising again. my bottom dysphoria is manageable.#and I'm worried I'll lose that if I finish turning into R again. worried I'll lose this routine I've finally established.#I'm worried I'll lose who I am again and again and again and never be able to rely on my internal infrastructure#this sucks#I didn't ask for this
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â #KNOCK(HER)OUT ! â
᥎êȘ«â sum. you get more than what you bargained for by getting involved with two boxersâtwo boxers that canât keep their hands off the pretty new journalist. what happens in the ring stays in the ring thoughâŠ. right?
wc. 5.7k
warnings. fem! reader x t. fushiguro & s. ryĆmen, boxer!au, thrÄesome, manhandling, unprotected, semi public, size kink, Ćral (f & m receiving), head lock, spÄ«t, sqĆ«irting, they fight over you, brÄeding, fÄ«ngering, implied multiple Ćrgasms, nipple play.
an. based on this ask, havenât recovered since :,)
sukuna ryĆmen and toji fushiguro. . .
the talk of the town. top most infamous boxers of your city, they were supposedly rivals but ended up becoming super close friends. 'friends' was probably a stretch. acquaintances was probably a far better word to describe the two. there was hardly anyone that didnât tune into your detailed magazines about themâyour occupation? a journalist. youâd be the first to write about their fights, their strengths, weaknesses, their total wins & losses, and even a few unnecessary things like their love life. you were new, but you were good. always in the front row, youâd watch them spar against some of the most scariest opponents imaginable. something about guys taking it out in the ring right before your eyes got your panties in a twist. how unprofessional..
you only did it for the money, the publicityâ a lot of people adored your skill to make such stories so interesting. between toji and sukuna, they were almost always compared, and oh did they hate it. ex rivals continuously pinned against each other, itâd piss anyone off. although, you were in dire need for a new story topic to write and you just so happen to stumble into their private gym.
âyo,â a rough sly yet cunning voice mutters, and itâs so deepâyou recognize it from anywhere, toji fushiguro in the flesh. âare ya lost? no fuckinâ autographs.â
âdonât be rude, âtoj,â and your eyes avert towards sukunaâ heâs a few inches taller and your eyes roam at them both. they had droplets of sweat racing down their washboard abs, scars coating their skin with ruffled hair as if theyâd just finished a match. sukuna drags his feet towards you before his eyes light up. âohh, i know you,â he snickers, grabbing your notepad before nudging his friend. âsheâs our little journalist toji. and sheâs a damn fine one too..â
â. . . uh,â was all you could make out, feeling a sudden tightness in your stomach. your eyes continue to stare, your lewd thoughts only become more and more vulgar. seconds pass before you realize sukuna took your notebook, toji pauses his sets to get a good look at you. âi thought this was the ladies' room.â
âgirl bye,â toji grumbles with two hands buried into his shorts pocketsâ he reads right through you as if you were some sort of exposed novel. people said he was a lot sassier in person but you didnât think itâd actually be true. green dark eyes linger onto you for a long time before he stretches, leaning down to get a good glimpse at your figure. âdid you come here just to stare or what?â
you were taken aback at how blunt he was.
a coy grin appears on his lips as he watches you struggle to formulate a good enough response.
you were nosy, you were really really nosy. for once, perhaps you didnât wanna just jot down things about these twoâ just maybe, just maybe . . you wanted a hands-on experience.
âi⊠needed new material for my article before the next match starts,â you utter, squeezing your thighs together. sukuna tilts his head, eyeing you in a way that makes you feel hot. tojiâs stare was ten times more intimate, darkened irises practically staring right into your soulâyou knew this wasnât the bathroom, you were lying. âi was hoping maybe youâd give me some uh . . inspo.â
they were both towering over you with height, you felt smallâlike an ant that was preparing itself to be crushed by a villainous shoe.
âinspiration, she says?â sukuna hums, his voice is lowâraspy, an almost purr hiding underneath it before he moves closer towards you. âjust tell us what you really want, princess.â
ânah donât get all shy now,â toji chimes in once he sees you grow more sheepish. they both close in on youâyou felt like you were trapped in a fever dream, you werenât exactly complaining either. they smelled so good, a mixture of sultry sweat and a loud scent of heavy cologne that wafts throughout the entire training room. âyou got our attention so spit it out, girl.â
âiâ i want you both.â you finally mutter after seven long consecutive seconds. with the way tojiâs staring right through you, you felt like your stomach sank between your legs - your legs that were throbbing with nothing but mere arousal, again perhaps this was unprofessional. no, it was very unprofessionalâbut anyone would kill to be in your position, being sandwiched between the top two boxers of your city.
sukuna snickers. âboth? what makes you think iâd wanna share with this bum?â
âshut up,â toji snarls, and the way his facial expressions tense a bitâso attractive. the headlines + press was right about toji, he was a lot more handsome in person. he was a fairly new boxer yet a pure lady's man. heâs had a plethora of fangirls while in the ring and maybe you were one of them. as he inches towards you with a hand softly gripping underneath your chin, he inhales. his entire facial structure, so chiseledâbrief dark stubble coats the entirety lower half of his jaw and he rubs his left boxing glove against his left knee. âthat really want you want? both of us?â and his voice softens. itâs a bit more pitchy and low, and he sneers. âon me, look at me when you reply too, girl.â
your lip gradually pulls down from his thumb playing against it. you felt so hot, the air suddenly felt thick.
a sudden lump gets caught in your throat before you mumble. âi want you both,â and your eyes meet the dark-haired boxer, simultaneously glancing at his attireâ shirtless, boxing shorts on with his custom-made âfushiguroâ briefs wilting near the topâonly showing the hem part. just a teensy detail like that was so enticing that you even spot a few parts of his exposing snatched waist. only after awhile you then abruptly snap out of your vulgar fantasm. ââŠplease.â
âthe real question is, pretty little journalist,â sukuna steps in, a hand stroking against your chin. you didnât know where to even look. both boxers had their hands on you and the tightened squeezing between your plush thighs grew even more. âcan you handle both?â
âyes.â youâd speak in a soft voice, most likely as of now you were probably speaking from between your legsâyou didnât care though, everyoneâs a little delusional at some point. emphasis on a little in your case, because you had no idea what you were getting in to with these two.
toji snickers. âhm,â he mutters, eyes focusing on you for a long time before he raises his chin. âfine. letâs test your strength then,â and he briefly gazes at sukuna. âsukuna. we can take her ân the ring.â
and they mean it quite literallyâ taking you, the both of them versus you, except you werenât relatively fighting.
not in that sense, but it was versus an opponent that was throbbing between your thighs.
the arena was empty, about a good hundred or more vacant blood-shot red seats scatter everywhere.
inside the ring, it was a mere raised platform, guided and shaped by strong stringy ropes that were yanking between poles at each side and corner. you lay on the spongy canvas of the ringâs floor before biting back a moan.
âscared yet?â sukuna hums, and he props himself right between your legs. this was riskyâentirely risky, anyone could just walk in. besides, you were pretty sure they had a match in about a good forty-five minutes. with sprawled-out legs, he moved closer before dragging a thumb down your panties. his voice was a bit deeper than tojiâs, they both shared the same amount of rasp.
sukuna had the charm, toji had the suaveness.
you shake your head, feeling yourself grow even hotter the more he stalls time. it feels warm, the entire air around you is humidly thick and you whine as he teasingly bites your panties. not enough to pierce his teeth into your folds, but he bites near the fabricâyou watch, the string of your underwear slowly dragging with him. yet, you canât help but glance at toji whoâs just standing thereâarms crossed and that same scowl that stuck against his face. âmhm,â he jibes, eyes flickering towards toji. âtoji. sheâs looking at you.â
âi know she fuckinâ is,â he grumbles, and your head tilts upward. youâre face first with his bulge that was right against your face. talk about space, it was right there. such a big bulge, who were you even kidding thoughâyou found yourself gawking at his bulge at every match he had. with the skin-tight shorts heâd worn, you just knew he was nothing more than a packer. ânosy girl. yâer mouth bored or somethinâ?â and he watches your hands paw at the hem of his tucked-out briefs. âneed a bit of throat training, huh?â
sukunaâs playing with your panties still. by now, heâs peeling them towards the crevices of your thighs and you whine whilst you feel a thumb of his drag down your honeyed slit. sopping wet, just a three-second stare and he was suddenly esurient.
âlook at me, not him,â toji lightly turns your head to face back up to him again. his bulge, his damn bulge that was right up against you. you nod, feeling your mouth dryâyou wanted your throat to be filled, it wasnât even a question. toji gruffs lowly, moving your chin side to side. âhuuuh? girl, i donât speak silence. thought i told ya how to use those words when you speak.â
âi- i wanna suck you off, âtoj,â and you get cut off once he pulls his boxing shorts down halfway, bringing your face close to his briefs. youâre taken by surprise once he makes you rub your face against his hardened bulgeâyou moan, as if on instinct, your tongue lolls out just to taste him. even if itâs just the clothed fabric protecting his actual cock, it was something.
he scoffs. âyâer a nasty girl, huh,â he mumbles, peering down to see sukuna starting to lick against your cunt. your legs quaver upon impact and you slump back against the corner of the ring. âcanât wait, yeah. want me to train this empty throat? maybe itâll make ya a better journalist, nosy ass.â
youâd almost laugh at his little side remark if it wasnât for sukunaâs tongue lapping against your slick entrance. your lips part as you lean back, a hand going through his hair. âmphm,â he grunts, one hand squeezing the right part of your thigh. âsweetest taste iâve had in a . . . looong while.â and heâs so sloppy, not even a few seconds pass before heâs already slurping. your panties were lazily shoved to the side and thatâs when toji hauls down his briefs.
you gulp, damn.
he wasnât just big, he was hugeâŠ
your mouth starts to salivate the more you stared at the swollen shaft. toji was a big guy . . hence meaning, toji he was a thick guy.
staggering height and a fat base to back it up, he had about two veins running down the side. his tip was a reddish pink, you could already taste him throbbing in your mouth. toji was quite well shaved a bitâ though, it was a few specks of black hairs scattered everywhere. however, his happy trail was so pleasing to look. it roams all down his sculpted body, he sighs once you slowly wrap a hand around his cock.
âspit the fuck on it.â
five words and you didnât hesitate to roll out your pink tongue once more.
you gather a good amount before watching it coat against his pink sweet tip. he groans, watching your hand stroke him a bit. he was so big, so fucking big that you could barely wrap your entire hand around his dick. toji groans, watching you make a total mess out of yourself. pretty glossy lips, pretty glossy lips that would soon be wrapped around his hefty length.
once you get it wet enough, you gently move your mouth onto him. he hisses, the warmth of your throat has his abs clenching.
âm-mhm,â youâd moan out, though your words were purely muffled. sukunaâs sucking on your clit, occasionally nipping and nibbling on it just to make you squirm even more. it was cuteâ the way your legs could barely hold still, so this was your weak spot. itâs what he thought to himself, lapping his tongue against your slick entrance. brief kisses coat near your folds before he maneuvers such circles against your pussy. feeling his canines nip against your folds every few seconds had you feral in the best way possible.
âyâer makinâ her squirm all over, âkuna,â toji lowly chuckles, such baritone in his voice that it makes you soak even more. you didnât even know how it was possible with the way you were just profusely dripping like a faucet. not evenâyou put faucets to shame with how slick you were, quickly coating the lower part of sukunaâs chin with your syrupy taste. âopen that mouth a âlil more, yeah . . . yeah,â and he tilts your head back a bit, prying your mouth open some more. he starts to slowly sink his cock in, so slow. the pace was incredibly tantalizing, your tongue runs against his slit before he pushed more inches inside. âfuckkk, girl,â he continues to grunt out, knees already starting to buckle. the way you took him in, hollow cheeks all puffed, you were already starting to drool a bit. small amounts of your saliva trickle past the corners of your lips as he goes deeper and deeper. deeper until his tip ends up mashing against your uvula and you gag.
â. . ooooh,â he hums, and just a simple noise as that was so seductive. âgoodâŠ. good,â he swallows, a hand digging through your hair before maintaining a good grip against it. ânow . . letâs test this pretty throatâs durability, hm.â
your little nod makes his sly smile widen, your jaw hangs and he starts to gradually piston his hips. such a mess, he was just so big that you were surprised all of it even fit.
âalllll the way down, shit,â your head starts to move, bobbling as your tongue swiftly running against his pulsating head. he gnashes his teeth together, dim eyes flickering towards your hands. you were feeling hot yourself so you made a cute attempt at reaching between your legs. doing so only greets you to a soft concise smack.
âhands to yourself, silly girl,â sukuna grumbles, and this time he grabs your wrist. he simpers, watching you try to even still rub one out but with his grip, you werenât getting anywhere. as your mouth was occupied with such inches, you whimper once you feel sukuna spank your cunt a few times. âdonât touch my pussy.â
one turns into two, then three, then four. . .
your pretty cunt starts to become his new obsessionâthe way youâd squelch for him so easily, he gets hard in his boxers. so wet, he knows the layout as if heâs so used to doing this. you wouldnât be surprised, especially with a tongue like he had. lapping left and right, he parts your legs just a bit farther before the tip of his tongue swirls all around it. he lays it flat, getting a good enough taste before giving it yet another mean spank.
you whimper, feeling your tummy cave in before toji makes you face him once more. âeyes up here, eyes on me,â and he sounds almost jealous the more you focus your attention strictly on his boxer acquaintance. youâre still stroking him, a thumb sliding down a vein that prods alongside his shaft and he groans. your throat, so warm that he starts to feel his right thigh bounce. âshould be . . usinâ this throat for shit like this instead of running that mouth.â his voice pitches lower, boxer shorts pulled down and his hair was slightly ruffled. you stare up at toji and he gives you that same cunning smirk. oh, you were soaked. again, this simply felt like a fever dream. even if at the slightest chance that you were dreaming, you never wanted to wake up.
tojiâs quite talkative throughout the entire thing, sukunaâs dragging you further and further onto your incoming release and your legs start to rapidly shake even more. you whine and mewl out such sweetened moans, occasionally coming back up for air as you kept his cock warm in your mouth. each time it hits the roof of your mouth, you let off a straddled noise and he finds it so cute, so filthy.
ârelax yâer throat, girl,â he mutters, a firm grip on your scalp. with glossy eyes, you follow his words and you stop gagging a bit. he grunts, getting hard every time your pretty eyes make direct contact with him. âsuch a pretty girl when you listen.â and his tone gets a bit more sensual, more tender.
you whine, feeling sukuna insert a single finger inside of youâyou swallow his digit almost immediately and you cringe at hearing your own salaciously lewd squelches.
soaking, sopping wet,
three perfect words to describe between your legs, you choke out a moan once you feel that sensation brew right up inside your stomach. steadily, it was coming closer and closer. youâre breathing through your noseâfeeling a few of his pubic hairs tickle against you. youâre moaning, eyes becoming half-lidded and droopy. toji had a mere pout stretching against his face and he felt himself coming close too.
the icing on the cake was your tongue, the way you swirl and slide it against his frenulumâhe groans out a low grunt that rings throughout the arena. it reverberates, it's raspy and it only makes you even more aroused. âs-shit, you close too?â
you nod, and toji jeers, finding it amusing to taunt with you as youâre about to reach your inevitable peak. âyeah? gonna make a mess on âkunaâs face?â
âtold ya donât call me that,â sukuna grouses, resuming to pump not one but two fingers into you nowâyouâre almost there. itâs a hot feeling stirring up near your lower abdomen, a pool of it. your eyes start to roll, still slobbering down tojiâs cock before he starts to thrust and thrust into your mouth.
âmake me.â toji stared at himâand the both of them grew quiet before laughing with each other.
idiots.
your maw opens just a bit wider, and heâs shoving himself in and out of your tight throatâthe noises that follow are so lewd, he finds you so pretty like this. mascara all smeared and runny, your hand continues to wrap around his lengthâhis sagged base, so full. you start to salivate again, imagining what his taste was like. you craved it like you crave sweets, sukunaâs tongue running against your clit only made things far more intense before you start to convulse.
âf-fuckkk, âm gonna cum,â toji rasps, tilting your head back a bit more. you stare at him, tongue still grazing against the pulsing slit before after a few more pumpsâhe shoots a nice velvety load into your mouth. he grunts lowly, nostrils flaring up, jaw tightening and all. â. . damn,â he swallows, allowing himself to slow down. you end up finishing around the same time, costing sukunaâs mouth with a honeyed amount of your slick and he hums. you whimper, legs barely able to hold themselves up before you feel tojiâs dick pour the remnants of his cum flat on your tongue. ânah, donât fuckinâ swallow yet. stick it out, lemme see that shit.â
your legs felt like they were about to fall off, sukunaâs kissing near your now swollen entrance and you slowly loll out your tongue. obeying, you didnât exactly swallow yet and he hums. âbest savor that shit,â he groans, giving his veiny cock a few subtle strokes before he smacks his angry tip against your tongue. âand whereâs my thank you for the meal, baby?â
âtâthwak yâyou toji,â you speak, barely coherent with his seed splattered all on your tongue. you didnât wanna spill any, and if you didâyou didnât wanna stick around to find out his reaction.
âyeah,â he huffs. âyou can swallow now. get every drop in.â
sukuna moves towards you, youâre still laid on the ringâs mat before he softly wraps a hand around your throat. âhey. donât let this bastard have all the fun, i want a taste too,â and you're taken by surprise once he pulls you into a deep steamy kiss. you moan, feeling him quite literally take your breath away. your tongue drags against sukunaâs chin, the bitterness. a concoction mixture of your saliva and his mixes, and you whine once he snakes a hand up your blazer. you taste yourself on his tongue and itâs so dirty, hot breaths mash against each other, teeth gnashing, and only then do you feel his cunning smirk.
âno one told you to hog her,â toji grumbles, pulling you back towards him. you briefly gasp for air and they both stare at each other, then you. âtell me, baby. whoâd you think win in a fight? me or this . . . thing.â
sukuna glares.
âi donât ⊠know,â you pant out, heaving from your current orgasmâso cute, yet you only wanted more. from kissing sukuna to having your throat entirely filled, you didnât know which was better. âcan we finish?â
âaw, is someone impatient?â sukuna titters, and you stare at his glistening bodyâbeads of sweat race down his precious v-line, the ideal body for a boxer. you just couldnât stop staring at his pecs, so chiseled. you even thought his pictures were edited, but seeing them up close . . you wanted him, you wanted both of them. âhm. how âbout this? we teach you a few ah, moves. full nelson to start, âs pretty easy.â
easy, sure.
with it all being easy, youâd least expect to be put into a full nelson position. a mere popular wrestling position, although youâd be performing it with no one other than sukuna.
heâd have you slump back against him, hooking both arms underneath your thighs as youâre taking such mean thrusts from him. time and time again, youâre spasming out. mouth all open, saliva running down the very corners of your lips before you moan. âsâsukuna, oh my godddd,â and you glance up at toji whoâs got a cute pout, stroking himself. you lost count of the time, itâs probably been about a good thirty-three minutes by now, thirty plus minutes of various teeth shattering orgasms. your head hits back against him and each time his tip smacks against your cervix, you short circuit. âfuck, fuck, right there, hit it thereee.â
âyou coachinâ me how to fuck, dumb girl?â he chortles with a groan shortly followingâhe was so deep, the heftiness of his base taps against you each time you bounce back against his cock. he sucks his teeth, the way you easily took him had him groaning all up against your ear. âgotta get a little more stretchy, we gotta . . hah, work on your flexibility too, huh.â
âsukuna hurry the fuck up. watching you fuck my girl âs boring as shit,â toji grouses, pumping his cock into his fist every few secondsâyou stare and heâs so needy, you could tell. his scowl he had earlier forms into a cute pout, dark eyebrows furrowing together and heâs growing impatient.
you caught that though. âmyâ girl.
who would have thought toji . . the womanizing boxer whoâs never had time for any woman throughout his career would start batting for you?
âyour girl?â sukuna snickers, resuming to hold your legs up a bit further. he reaches so deep, that your stomach starts to seize and your maw drops. hooded eyes, your lashes flutter and you felt continuous strained breaths get yanked from your lungs. âyour girl yet sheâs gettinâ fucked by me? the better boxer?â
toji snarls, and he kneels to kiss you. you moan, barely able to return the gesture since you were in the midst of taking sukuna. with being gifted with such sharp thrusts, you dig your nails into his thighs before running tangling your tongue alongside tojiâs. his breath was warm, you whine once you feel one of his hands stroke your cheek.
âaha, look at him. already whipped before me,â sukuna snickers, feeling you sink and gape around himâhe stretched you out so good already, it was so relentless. each time you bounce back against his lap, the ringing in your ears grows louder and louder. he feels his dick twitch inside you. seeing you make out with toji irks him a bit before he spanks your assâthe recoil making him even more aroused than before. sukuna hums, seeing the current pout on tojiâs face before nodding, âaw. toji wants a turn too, yeah? donât ya . . big guy?â and he intakes a breath, your pussy constricting around his length as sukuna pulls you further to slam back and forth against him. youâre moving against him now as his dick jackhammers right into your gummy was. your mouth idly dangles with your tongue stil shamelessly lolled out. a raw moan rips from the back of your throat at the pure feeling of utter bliss.
so thick, so girthyâyou gasp once you feel his fingers tend towards your neglected tits. toji shortly follows, a hand going between your thighs. your cunt was all stuffed of sukuna, feeding your swollen pussy was so many inches. âhngh, f-fuck, fuckkk,â youâd whine between wet, saturated kisses. toji purposely feels against your folds, all stuffed and sopping wet. he rubs a thumb against your slick entrance as your legs were just about to give out. âtoji, m-more. need you to touch me more.â
âyou donât need shit, little girl,â he corrects you, squeezing your lips together before presses a kiss against it. you moan, your ass stinging every few seconds from the stings of sukunaâs palm making direct contact against your ass cheek. spank after spank, oh how he adores the jiggle. he could watch it all day, even in slow motion if he could. âsuch a cute thing though, had the nerve to say you thought our training room was the fuckinâ ladies' room.â
you cringe once he repeats that. the same ringing going through your ears once more. your ears perk, hearing sukunaâs raspy grunts against the shells of your lobes before you start to stammer, âtoji, touch me.â
âiâll touch this messy body when i wanna,â he gruffs, leaning to nip kisses near your neck. sukunaâs still holding you upâyouâre like a rag doll, eyes goggling from the stretch before you start to feel it. not your orgasm, but something entirely different. it was a new type of pressure, sweet whiny moans emit out of you before you feel sukunaâs rude tip thrash against your g-spot again, and again, and again..
tojiâs thumb softly strokes underneath your neck as he pulls you into a short kiss. you whimper, pulling away before spreading your legs a bit further.
âiâ somethingâs coming, i f-feel tingly.â
sukuna roughly laughs against your ear, seemingly getting what you were implying. âyeah, gonna make another mess on us, princess? oh. i mean on me, heh?â
you shudder, your pussy feeling entirely stuffed and your eyes merely roll way back. he fit nice and snug, you bare around him before a whine drags out your throat. so deep, so so deep, youâre spasmingâeach relentless piston of his hips makes you whine louder. a feeling that was purely euphoric welts right against you, and youâre laid all back against sukunaâs bare chest, riding him in reverse. âc-choke me, âkuna, choke me, please.â
âwant me to put you in a headlock, yeah,â he whispers to you in a rough low voice. you moan, feeling him lick against your earlobe before toji strokes your cheek. you could tell he wanted a turn too, the pout on his lips stretching even further. youâre nodding against him before your cunt gapes more. âsure. iâll let you in on what my opponents feel, pretty girl.â
you moan, his voice was so low up against your ear, youâre about to cum. or were you, you swallow thickly despite having a sudden dry throatâ voice all raspy and strained from moaning for such a duration that your headâs woozy. it feels too good, your thighs ache and quaver before you feel a beefy arm wrap around your neck. âupsie daisy, thereee we go,â and he scoots you on his lap just a bit farther. heâs buried to the hilt. you moan, toji pulling you into the nth kiss of the night, lips moving in pure tandem. just when youâre about to finish, you feel him rub against your stuffed cunt once more. yet thatâs only when you decide to move your hands towards the boxers . . . nipples.
ât-the fuck,â he grunts in a hoarse tone, his voice was suddenly a bit shaky. it was cuteâyou couldnât lie to yourself, you found yourself staring at tojiâs chest way more often than you should. practically always shirtless, his pecs were huge. such pink swollen nipples, you slide a thumb against it and he shivers from your touch. âfuckinâ weirdo. âm sensitive there, s-shit.â
he doesnât tell you to stopâinstead, he grips your hair not so tightly but firmly. you look up at him, speaking in a tiny yet sheepish tone. âcanâ can i?â
âcan ya what?â he grits, watching as sukuna continues to feed your cunt of his cock â you were just about to burst, you felt it and your toes clench and curl all up. so cute.
with a thumb still sliding against his pecs tenderly, you murmur. dilated pupils flicker towards his chest, then back up at him. â. . can,â you huff out in short breaths, tummy seizing, breathing hot and heavy. âcan i suck on them?â
âno you canât fuckinâ suck on them. what kinda question is thaââ
âtoji, donât be fuckinâ mean. you claim sheâs your girl so let her suck your tits, big guy.â sukuna chimes in, releasing his soft grip against your neck. you gasp, leaning way back against him now. he was so warm pent up against youâyou whimper out, sukuna leans against your ear and he starts to talk you through your incoming orgasm. âright? wanna make toji a little whiny bitch?â
âshut the fuck up,â he rasps, and his pecs literally stare at youâso beefy, you could have sworn they twitched. he groans, watching you give him such eyes before he inches closer towards you, bending down. ââŠâŠ.fine. whatever.â
still grinding against sukunaâs lap, you hold tojiâs pecs before latching your tongue against it. his face scrunches up and itâs so cute, for whatever reason, the way your tongue curls against his perky nipples feels ⊠good. awkwardly, he pulls your head closer towards his chest, eyeing closely as you briefly start to suck. as usual, you were so sloppy tooâmoaning up against his sensitive skin, rolling your tongue all against his nipple.
ânasty little gâgirl,â he chokes out.
you glance up at him, parting your lips away before he makes you go back to tending to his tense nipples. âi didnât tell you to stop. use yâer fuckinâ tongue some more. and stare at me while you do that . . . weird shit.â
tojiâs voice significantly pitches and youâre so into it that you donât even realize that before you know it, you end up squirting. everything comes at once, youâre pulsing with sukunaâs cock still twitching vigorously inside you and you whimper, mouth still sucking onto tojiâs tits nipples. low laughter could be heard from behind you, and itâs all so much. your pussy was equivalent to a waterpark, gushing out all into sukunaâs lap. âfuckkk, princess,â he chortles, slowing down your hips and he ends up finishing a few seconds after you.
when he came inside, it came out quite a lot too. a hefty amount, it came out in ropes to where he paints the entirety of your womb. so warm from the inside, your tummy briefly caves in and your legs felt like mush.
âheh, did you just squirt?â sukuna points out, cock still twitching inside but he just lies still. youâre stretched out literally on the mat, seeing pure starsâ the lights of the arena merely blinding you before you lie back against him. âa squirter and youâre tapping out already? aw boo. ân here i thought you could handle a few more rounds in the ring, princess.â
âiâ i can,â you protest, parting your lips away from tojiâs sheeny pecs. your lips were spit-glossed, he stared at you before squatting down to stare at the mess right between your legs. so messy, sukuna lifts you off of him and it just pours right down between your thighs. âi can go for more.â
toji hums, taking a quick three-second glance at his watch. âfive fuckinâ minutes, âs all youâll get with . . me,â and itâs cute because a mere pink forms on his face.
heâs still embarrassed from you sucking on his nipples that he tries to act all toughâbut that only makes his tone quaver even more. âmatchâs gonna start soon. sukuna, letâs take her both.â
he snickers, pulling your shirt that was tucked underneath your blazer all the way up.
âboth?â and sukuna lifts you to sit on top of toji, straddling him. you were being preparing to be overly stuffed with not one but two cocks. you fall face forward into tojiâs broad chest, the coldness of his chain that wraps around his neck brushes against your skin before he helps you align yourself.
you moan, feeling sukuna get behind tooâyou gulp, tojiâs fondling your breasts that almost poke out through your unbuttoned shirt whilst sukuna was behind. youâd be taking them bothâ one in each hole. âcan you handle us both at the same time, pretty girl? tojiâs known for his record of lasting a good ah . . . two solid rounds.â
toji glares, feeling himself start to open you up again. with his plump crownhead of his cock, he splits you open, and he is a tad thicker than sukunaâyou moan, wrapping flimsy arms around him before sukuna enters from behind with toji focusing on the front. âshut up. you say that ân act like i wonât k.o. you right now.â
âoh yeah?â sukuna cavils, and you gasp, landing on the cold canvas with an 'oof' once the boxer lightly places you down. you poutâglancing up at the two of them who were having a face off at a time like this. sukuna already pulled out and they stared each other down before toji slyly smiles. âis that a fact?â and for a brief moment, he leers down at tojiâs sheeny lipsâ the dark-haired boxer slides his tongue against his scar before humming.
âdonât play, you know it is,â he replies, giving you one ogle before turning back towards his rival. âyâknow, âkuna. you sure talk a lot of shit but you couldnât even pin me down if you tried.â
sukuna rasps lowly, inching closer before they were inches apartâyou thought they were gonna kiss at this rate. oh, something like this would be such a good inspiration for the headlines.
âif you wanted my attention, should have said so,â sukuna sneers, rubbing his hand that was carefully wrapped up in a white bandage against his slim torso. âbesides, i think we all know who can last more rounds.â
âdid you two just forget about meâ?â you furrow your eyebrows, literally still soaked and laid against the corner of the ring. they shoot you a glance before turning back towards each other.
toji scoffs back at sukuna, ignoring you. âprove it then. pin me the fuck down, hot shot.â
âbend the fuck over then, big guy. weâll show the pretty journalist whoâs gonna win this nightâs match. round fuckinâ one.â
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Part One Pairings: PornStar!Bucky Barnes x f!Reader Themes: Sexual Innuendo/humour,Guy next door, situational comedy? Sexual Themes 18+ ONLY: fingering, cunnilingus, Bucky loves tiddies, dirty talk. Summary: Though you've become oddly close to SergeantBarnes, it's still difficult to act normal around him. A/N: I didn't think many would ask for a part two but here you go. divider by @cafekitsune
It was a peaceful evening in the apartment gymâor, at least, it was supposed to be. You had your plan: thirty minutes on the stair climber, some stretches, and youâd be out of there before any awkwardness could find you.
But then you heard itâthe unmistakable sound of weights clanging, followed by a deep, low grunt that made your entire body freeze.
You glanced up, hoping against hope that it wasnât who you thought it was. But, of course, there he was: Bucky, over at the hip thrust machine, setting up his weights directly in front of you. Perfect, you thought. Of all the machines in here, he has to pick the most⊠suggestive one.
Your eyes flicked back to the tiny screen on your machine. Stay focused, you told yourself. Donât look. Just ignore him.
But the moment he started his set, you heard itâa low, powerful grunt that practically reverberated through the gym. You immediately bit down on your lip, forcing yourself to stare straight ahead, pretending you werenât having flashbacks to his other kind of workouts.
Another deep grunt.
Your hands clenched the stair climberâs handles like a lifeline. Do NOT look, you told yourself, the mantra echoing in your mind. But your treacherous eyes slid sideways, just for a second, and you caught a glimpse of him, face focused, breaths heavy as he powered through each hip thrust. The guy was practically a one-man gym commercial.
You looked away, focusing on your stepsâyour very uneven, slightly panicked steps. Itâs just a hip thrust, for crying out loud! Nothing unusual here, you told yourself, trying to stomp out the heat creeping up your cheeks. But every time he exhaled, your mind filled with images of⊠well, his other performances.
Then, in the middle of one of his reps, Bucky let out a particularly deep, guttural grunt that nearly threw you off balance. Your foot slipped, your rhythm stuttered, and in a moment of pure panic, you clutched the handles and stumbled forward, practically throwing yourself onto the machine.
âShit!â you yelped, fumbling to regain your balance as your legs moved faster than your brain, desperately trying not to faceplant.
You heard Bucky chuckle, that low, infuriatingly amused laugh, and felt your cheeks practically ignite. You looked up, heart pounding, only to find him smirking in your direction, eyes dancing with mischief.
âCareful there, Y/N,â he said, raising an eyebrow. âStair climbers are brutal.â
âOh, yeah, totally!â you squeaked, straightening up, trying to look like you meant to almost eat it. âJust⊠keeping things interesting. Got to keep the cardio exciting, you know?â
âLooks like itâs working,â he replied, wiping his forehead with a towel, his grin widening as he noticed your death grip on the machine. âYou sure youâre good over there?â
âOh, Iâm⊠Iâm great,â you lied, your face flaming as you tried to regain your composure. But he wasnât done with you yet.
âGlad to hear it,â he said, voice way too smooth. He paused, then tilted his head, a playful smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âGotta admit, though⊠this machine setup does feel a bit familiar.â
Your brain nearly exploded. Did he justâ? He couldnât mean⊠But his eyes sparkled with that infuriating, knowing look, and you knew exactly what he was hinting at. Your face went beet red as your foot slipped again, but this time you managed to catch yourself, narrowly avoiding another disaster.
âUh-huh,â you said, laughing nervously, desperately trying to hold it together. âWell, enjoy your⊠uh, workout!â
âOh, I am,â he said, chuckling softly. âEspecially with the view.â He winked, setting up for another set while you tried not to spontaneously combust.
With one final, mortified glance, you turned your attention back to the stair climber, mentally swearing youâd never step foot in this gym again after this.
Since you survived the stair climber ordeal without faceplanting (barely), you decided it was time to move on. Somewhereâanywhereâthat didnât involve Buckyâs hip thrusts or his incessant, maddening smirk.
You zeroed in on the bench press. Safe, you thought, relieved. Just a standard exercise. Nothing suggestive, no chance of stumbling, tripping, or looking like a klutz. You grabbed the bar, took a deep breath, and mentally prepped yourself. Easy-peasy.
And thenâbecause the universe simply refused to give you a breakâyou heard that all-too-familiar voice right beside you.
âNeed a spot?â
You looked up and almost swallowed your tongue. There was Bucky, looming over you with that same damn smirk, wiping his hands on a towel like he was gearing up for some personal training session from your worst/best nightmares.
âOh, uh⊠Iââ you stammered, already feeling the heat creep up your neck. Youâve got this, you told yourself. Just let him help you. No big deal. Youâre a mature, fully-functioning adult.
âYeah, sure!â you squeaked, trying to sound normal as he stepped closer, positioning himself behind the bench. You laid back, gripping the bar, and immediately realized what a horrible, terrible mistake this was. You were now lying flat on your back, Bucky leaning over you, his face far too close as he focused on making sure you could lift the weight.
âYou ready?â he asked, his face all business, but his lips still had that mischievous curve.
âReady,â you mumbled, eyes darting anywhere but up at him, trying to ignore how absolutely awkwardly intimate this felt. You started your set, breathing steadily as you lifted the bar, determined to act as if this were a completely normal workout.
But then, midway through the reps, he leaned down a little closer. âBy the way, did you check out my new video?â
Your hands nearly slipped. You fumbled the bar, barely catching it as your brain short-circuited.Â
âW-What?â you managed, voice strangled, heart racing.
âMy new video,â he repeated, casually reaching out to help guide the bar back into place as you struggled not to lose it. âThought you mightâve seen it by now.â
Your cheeks flamed, but you somehow managed to choke out, âN-No! I⊠I havenât seen it!â
Bucky chuckled softly, raising an eyebrow as he straightened up, his voice taking on a teasing, almost disappointed tone.Â
âOh. Thatâs a shame,â he said, smirk lingering. âDidnât have a costar this timeâjust me, actually. First time Iâve ever done that.â
Your mouth dropped open. Just him? Your brain skidded to a halt. Suddenly, you were far too interested in a video youâd just denied seeing.Â
âOh, um⊠interesting?â you squeaked, trying to keep your face neutral but definitely failing.
âYeah,â he replied with a shrug, looking at you with twinkling eyes. âGuess youâll have to let me know what you think⊠whenever you get around to it.â
âActually, I⊠uh⊠I kind of stopped watching⊠since we, you know⊠know each other. Just⊠feels awkward.â
Buckyâs grin widened, his eyes lighting up with amusement.Â
âOh, so youâre telling me weâre too close for you to watch my work now?â He raised an eyebrow, looking mockingly offended. âI thought we were supporting local artists.â
Your cheeks practically combusted as he said it, and you fumbled with the bar, desperately trying to pretend you hadnât heard him. Supporting local artists? Was he serious right now?
âOh my god,â you mumbled, absolutely mortified. âThis is notâ Youâre notâ I meanâŠ!â
But he just looked down at you, that smug grin firmly in place as he leaned in, clearly enjoying every second of your flustered state.Â
âWhat?â he asked, feigning innocence. âDonât you believe in supporting the arts?â
Your mouth opened and closed like a fish, words completely failing you. âThis⊠this is not the same!â you finally blurted, clutching the bar like it was your only lifeline.
âOh really?â he replied, chuckling. âBecause it sounds like youâre saying weâre too close for me to keep doing what I do. You know, my passion.â
You practically choked, waving your hands around in frantic denial. âNo! No! Thatâs notâ Iâm not stopping you! Iâm justâ I donât know, maybe supporting from a⊠distant, supportive spiritual place?â
He laughed outright, shaking his head. âSo, whatâyouâre like cheering me on⊠but from across the street?â
You nodded vigorously, still trying to save face. âExactly! Just⊠supportive⊠but in a non-participatory kind of way.â
âGot it,â he said, smirking. âSo, Iâm officially your guilty pleasure now.â
You groaned, covering your face with your hands as he chuckled, clearly far too pleased with himself.Â
Note to self: Avoid all future conversations with Bucky Barnes for the rest of eternity.
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That evening, you were finally settled at your dining table, a bowl of pasta in front of you, determined to put the entire gym disaster behind you. Youâd survived another encounter with Buckyâbarelyâand now all you wanted was some quiet, non-embarrassing time with carbs.
But as you twirled your fork in the noodles, your brain betrayed you, replaying his words from earlier.
âDid you check out my new video?â
You paused mid-bite, the fork hovering near your mouth as you stared blankly at the wall, feeling a strange mix of curiosity and dread bubbling up. What could he have meant by âjust meâ? You tried to shake it off, forcing another forkful of pasta into your mouth. Nope, not going there.
But the thought lingered, nudging you, until you found yourself setting down the fork, fingers hovering over your phone. Just one quick search, you reasoned, glancing around your empty apartment as if someone might catch you.
You typed in the familiar site, thumbs hesitating above the search bar, nearly typing âSergeantBarnes new videoâ before you snapped back to reality, dropping the phone like it burned.
âOh, no,â you muttered to yourself, horrified at how close youâd come. âAbsolutely not. What am I, insane?â
You shoved another forkful of pasta into your mouth, shaking your head furiously. âI am not doing this.â
But as you continued eating, your eyes kept darting back to the phone, the curiosity gnawing at you, leaving you torn between common sense and the very persuasive power of nosiness.
You took a deep breath, clenching your fists. âGet a grip, Y/N. You are absolutely not watching that video.â
...But maybe just a preview?
You groaned, stuffing your face with more pasta, determined to win this internal battle.
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The next morning, just as you were heading out the door for work, you spotted something bright and obnoxiously neon-colored taped to the wall near the mailboxes. Curiosity got the better of you, and you stepped closer, squinting at the bold, glittery letters.
POOL PARTY THIS WEEKEND! it proclaimed. Food, drinks, music, fun! Donât miss it!
You raised an eyebrow, debating if youâd actually brave a building-wide party when suddenly, the quiet hallway was shattered by a loud, unmistakably ecstatic moan. The kind that could only mean one thing.
From none other than Buckyâs apartment.
You froze, eyes widening in disbelief. Is thatâ? Is heâ?
A second moan, even louder than the first, confirmed it. This wasnât just any moan; this was the sound of someoneâsome womanâhaving the time of her life. At what had to be eight oâclock in the morning.
âOh, seriously?!â you hissed under your breath, glancing down the hallway as if there might be witnesses to this auditory ambush. Just then, the womanâs voice hit a pitch so high it practically reverberated off the walls.
You winced, clutching your bag like it could somehow shield you from this. Who even has that much energy in the morning? You took a step back, hoping to escape the sonic nightmare, but the moans only got louder, each sound more animated than the last.
You threw your hands over your ears, eyes squeezed shut as you muttered furiously to yourself.Â
âNope, nope, absolutely not. Not today, not right now.â You spun on your heel, practically power-walking down the hall, doing your best to drown out the soundtrack blaring from his apartment.
âYES, SERGEANT! OH MY GOD!â
You practically stumbled, muttering an alarmed, âOh my god, stop!â as you picked up the pace, pressing your hands even harder against your ears. It was like some kind of cruel gameâthe closer you got to the elevator, the louder it seemed to get, echoing in your ears like a siren you couldnât escape.
You winced, feeling your face burn as you all but sprinted down the hall, chanting, âNope, nope, NOPE!â under your breath like a mantra. It was as if your feet couldnât carry you fast enough, each step a desperate attempt to put some distance between you and⊠whatever was happening in that apartment.
Finally, you made it to the elevator, slamming your finger against the button with more force than necessary, glancing nervously over your shoulder as if the sounds might follow you. The doors mercifully slid open, and you dove inside, leaning back against the wall and pressing your hands over your ears one last time, breathing a sigh of relief.
But just as the doors began to close, one last triumphant shout echoed down the hallway, loud and clear, like the universe had decided you hadnât suffered enough.
You groaned, staring up at the ceiling as the doors shut, wondering if this building had any quiet hours, or if you were doomed to start every morning with a full-blown soundscape of⊠Buckyâs extracurricular activities.
Note to self: Invest in earplugs. Maybe some noise-canceling headphones. Or a new apartment altogether.
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You arrived at work looking like youâd barely survived a natural disaster. Traumatized, sleep-deprived, and still hearing the morningâs very loud soundtrack echoing in your mind, you slumped into your chair, hoping to quietly blend into the office scenery and get through the day in peace.
Naturally, that was too much to ask.
âWhoa,â Trish said, swiveling in her chair to eye you like you were a science experiment gone wrong. âYou look like you just spent a night in a haunted house.â
âOr⊠like you had a wild morning,â Amy added, raising her eyebrows. âYou okay there, Y/N?â
âFine,â you muttered, barely making eye contact as you set your bag down, trying to erase the vivid flashbacks of Buckyâs⊠extremely enthusiastic co-worker.
Before you could even recover, Trish leaned in, her grin spreading like wildfire. âSooo⊠did you finally get around to watching Sergeant Barnesâ new video?â
Your head snapped up, heart stopping in your chest. âWhaâno! Why would I⊠I mean⊠Iââ
âOh, come on,â Amy said, nudging you like sheâd just caught you in a guilty pleasure. âYou donât know what youâre missing. Heâs alone in this one.â She leaned closer, adding in a stage whisper, âThe man has talent.â
âUh-huh,â Trish agreed, nodding like a sage. âNo costars this time. Just him, going all in. Itâs⊠impressive.â
You clutched the edge of your desk, mentally scrambling for any kind of response that would shut them down without revealing the secret you swore youâd take to the grave: that Sergeant Barnes was actually your neighbor.
You swallowed, managing to squeak out, âYou know weâre in an office, right? As in, the place we do work?â
âOh please, donât act like youâre all professional now!â Trish smirked, crossing her arms as she gave you a knowing look. âYou were all too eager to do some âresearchâ when we told you about him the first time.â
âYeah!â Amy joined in, her grin absolutely diabolical. âYou should be thanking us! The way youâre looking right now, Iâd bet you already took a look this morning.â
You spluttered, mortified. âNo! I mean, of course not! Itâs justâthis is⊠inappropriate.â
Amy snorted, clearly unconvinced. âUh-huh, sure. And here I thought you had a little curiosity.â
You glared, fully prepared to tell them off, but Amy cut in first, smirking as she leaned over your desk.Â
âCâmon, Y/N, itâs just us girls. Tell me you donât have some curiosity about what the man can do when itâs just him and the camera.â
You felt the heat rise in your cheeks, struggling to keep your cool. âNo, Iâm not curious! Not at all. And maybe you two shouldnât be either, because, oh, I donât know⊠WE ARE AT WORK!â
They both cracked up, sharing a delighted high-five as you buried your face in your hands, praying for the ground to open up and swallow you.
âOh, weâre just messing with you,â Trish said, barely holding back laughter. âBut seriously, girl⊠you look like you need to unwind. Maybe with a drink or⊠you know⊠a little quality screen time?â
âOr maybe someone live and in-person?â Amy chimed in, waggling her eyebrows.
You groaned, face down on your desk, cursing the fact that they would never, ever know the full story.
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You stepped into the lobby, utterly drained from the day, just as the elevator doors began to slide shut. Without a second thought, you bolted, slipping in right before they closed. Only then did you realize the universe was playing tricks on you.
Because standing right there, with a half-smirk on his face and way too much knowing mischief in his eyes, was Bucky. Alone.
You froze, instantly regretting every choice that had led to this moment. But it was too late now, so you plastered on a polite smile and tried not to look like a deer caught in headlights.
Buckyâs eyes twinkled as he took you in, leaning casually against the side of the elevator as he said, âTired?â
You laughed, and before you could stop it, the laugh turned into a borderline deranged chuckle.Â
âOh, yes, thank you very much,â you replied, sarcasm slipping out before you could rein it in. Then, muttering under your breath but clearly audible, you added, âMaybe keep it down too⊠in the morning.â
He chuckled, looking way too amused. âSorry about that. Work, you know? She, uh⊠went home right after, donât worry.â
Your face went flaming hot, and you whipped your head to look straight ahead, pressing your lips together like that would somehow save you from this horror.Â
âOh, you donât⊠you donât have to explain it to me,â you stammered, feeling like your cheeks were practically on fire. âIâm not worried.â
The smirk only widened. âGood to know.â He leaned in just a little, adding, âI wouldnât want to keep you up⊠unintentionally.â
You choked, your hand flying up to cover your mouth as you let out a mortified laugh that you could barely stop from turning into a squeak. Just get to your floor, just get to your floor⊠you chanted internally, keeping your gaze laser-focused on the elevator doors.
But you could feel him watching you, could practically feel the amusement radiating off him as you tried to pretend that your life hadnât just devolved into a rom-com nightmare.
Finallyâfinallyâthe elevator dinged at your floor. You stepped out, sighing with relief, only for Bucky to step out right behind you.
âHey,â he called, making you pause and turn reluctantly. He was smiling, hands casually shoved into his pockets as he looked you over. âAre you coming to the rooftop pool party this weekend?â
âNo,â you replied flatly, the answer escaping before you could even pretend to think about it.
He laughed, clearly not deterred. âAw, come on. You sure? Itâll be fun.â
You shook your head vigorously, waving him off. âNo, no, Iâm good. Iâm⊠not much of a party person.â
âReally?â he replied, stepping a little closer, his smile turning into something dangerously persuasive. âItâs just neighbors hanging out, not some crazy nightclub thing. Good music, food⊠probably no loud⊠work, either.â
You glared, suppressing an eye roll as he gave you a wink. âIâll pass, thanks.â
âOh, come on,â he said, still grinning. âIf you donât show up, who am I going to talk to about all the âworkâ complaints?â
You stifled a laugh, trying to maintain your resolve. âPretty sure there are other people you can bother with that.â
âBut none of them have your⊠constructive feedback,â he replied, his gaze dropping to the floor as he pretended to look shy. âAnd honestly, I need someone to keep me in check. Iâm a handful at parties. Who else is going to stop me from climbing onto tables?â
You snorted, crossing your arms as you tried not to crack a smile. âI highly doubt youâre a handful at a pool party.â
He raised an eyebrow, challenging you. âCome and find out.â
You looked away, shaking your head but feeling the corners of your mouth tug upward. âBucky, Iâm not going.â
âSo, youâre saying youâll leave me up there with all these people who⊠donât know me as well as you do?â He tilted his head, giving you a mock-pout.
Your face turned red, and you sputtered, âI donât know you! I barely know you!â
âOh, so all those research sessions werenât exactly getting to know me?â he replied, grinning as he watched you turn an even deeper shade of crimson.
âYouâugh, youâre impossible,â you muttered, finally laughing despite yourself.
âThatâs what everyone says,â he said, his voice softening just a little as he held your gaze. âCome on, Y/N. I promise, no loud work. Iâll even save you a spot.â
You sighed, feeling the last bit of resistance crumble. âFine. But only for an hour.â
He beamed, triumphant. âDeal. And who knows? Maybe weâll find something to actually talk about⊠outside of work.â
You rolled your eyes, trying to ignore the way your heart did a little flip. This is going to be a disaster, you thought. But somehow, you didnât mind as much as you thought you would.
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The weekend took forever to arrive, but somehow, you survived itâmostly by avoiding Bucky and doing your best not to think about that ridiculously intriguing video heâd hinted at. Nope, not even a peek. It was your own personal victory, though it took every ounce of willpower you had.
And now, here you were, standing at the rooftop entrance, mentally psyching yourself up. Youâd put on a two-piece swimsuit under a white sheer cover-up, feeling only slightly self-conscious as you stepped out. Only because you hated drawing attention to your body.Â
The party was already in full swing, a mix of upbeat music and laughter filling the air. You scanned the crowd for a certain troublemaking neighbor, but no sign of him. Great, you thought, rolling your eyes. Bucky drags me up here, then vanishes like an ass. Typical.
You made a beeline for an empty lounge chair, setting down your bag and towel, hoping youâd have a chance to relax before anyone else noticed you. But just as you were about to sit, a deep voice called out.
âHey there!â
You turned to see an equally impressive figureâa tall, muscular guy with a sun-kissed smile, striding over with a confident swagger.Â
âIâm Johnny,â he said, flashing a grin as he handed you a cold glass of beer. âWelcome to the party.â
âOh! Thanks,â you said, taking the glass, feeling only slightly overwhelmed by all the testosterone on this rooftop. âNice to meet you, Johnny.â
âLikewise,â he said, eyes flicking over you with the appreciation of someone who knew exactly what he was looking at. âDidnât expect to see a new face up here. I know most of the regulars.â
âYeah, I⊠usually keep to myself,â you admitted, suddenly feeling awkward under his gaze.
âWell, glad youâre here,â he said smoothly, gesturing to a chair beside yours. âMind if I join you?â
Before you could answer, another familiar voice cut through the air, low and unmistakably amused. âJohnny.â
You turned slowly, bracing yourself for whatever cocky look Bucky had in store, but when you finally laid eyes on him, your brain just⊠stopped. No thoughts, head empty, because the second he strolled into view, you swore you heard the sultry opening saxophone of Careless Whisper start playing, echoing dramatically in your head like some corny, slow-motion rom-com entrance.
He moved in perfect sync to the imaginary music in your head, each step more absurdly cinematic than the last. This canât be happening, you thought, but somehow, there he wasâtan skin, swim trunks slung just right, and that damn casual shirt hanging open over his shoulders. The man looked like a vacation ad, except he was bringing you dangerously close to a heatstroke.
As he got closer, the sax solo in your mind reached ridiculous, life-altering levels of intensity. Why do you have to look like this? you thought, nearly choking on the vision before you. Buckyâs smirk turned into something almost smug, like he knew exactly what effect he was having, as if he, too, could hear the George Michael anthem of seduction playing in your head. You half-expected him to whip out an actual saxophone and start serenading you right there.
You swallowed, barely keeping yourself from drooling, and willed yourself to stay composed. Get a grip, you told yourself, though you were about 98% certain your jaw was on the verge of dropping.
âSorry, Johnny,â he said smoothly, not even glancing at the other guy. âI think she already has company.â
You quickly tried to compose yourself, forcing a neutral expression as you willed your face not to betray the sheer catastrophe your brain was going through.Â
âOh, hey, Bucky,â you said, hoping your voice didnât sound as strangled as you felt. Inside, you were practically screaming. Why do you have to look like a freaking Greek god, Barnes? Itâs rude, honestly.
Johnny raised an eyebrow, his eyes flicking between the two of you, clearly picking up on the tension. âYou two know each other?â
Bucky leaned casually against the lounge chair next to yours, flashing a grin that practically oozed mischief.Â
âYou could say that. Sheâs my neighbor,â he said, his tone implying⊠well, all sorts of things. You immediately knew that everyone within earshot was definitely getting the wrong idea. âAnd Iâve been trying to get her to come out of her shell for a while now.â
Come out of her shell? You wanted to throttle him. But before you could retort, Johnny, ever the gentleman, just gave you a knowing wink and clapped Bucky on the shoulder.Â
âWell, guess Iâll let you take over, then,â he said, sauntering off with an amused smile.
You sighed, turning to face Bucky, who looked all too pleased with himself as he settled in beside you, stretching out like he owned the place.Â
âSo, you made it,â he said, taking a leisurely sip of his drink as his eyes did a once-over that was a little too thorough.
âYep,â you replied, your voice barely concealing your exasperation. âI showed up, just like I said I would. Where were you?â
He shrugged, that stupid smirk still plastered on his face. âWas just giving you a chance to make some new friends,â he said, his tone way too casual.
You rolled your eyes, taking a sip of the beer Johnny had given you. âPlease. You just love making an entrance.â
He chuckled, clinking his glass with yours. âCanât say youâre wrong about that.â
As he leaned back, his gaze lingered a little too long, making your cheeks heat up.Â
âNice cover-up, by the way,â he commented, smirk widening. âItâs⊠modest.â
You shot him a look, feeling suddenly self-conscious about the sheer fabric draped over your swimsuit. âWhy, thank you. That was kind of the point.â
âYeah?â he replied, his voice dropping just a notch. âShame, though. Bet that swimsuitâs got a whole lot of personality under there.â
You practically choked on your drink, coughing as you glared at him. âYouâre such a flirt, Barnes.â
He chuckled, clearly unbothered by your reaction. âHey, just saying what everyoneâs thinking.â
You settled back in your chair, determined not to let him get the upper hand. But as you sat there, pretending to ignore him, you couldnât shake the feeling that, despite everything, you were enjoying this game just as much as he was.
You took a deep breath, narrowing your eyes at Bucky, who was looking far too pleased with himself.Â
âLike I said, just one hour,â you told him firmly, crossing your arms as if that would somehow fortify your resolve against whatever mischievous plans he undoubtedly had.
He raised an eyebrow, his smirk turning even more devilish. âOh, Iâm sure an hour will be more than enough.â
You scoffed, rolling your eyes. âFor what? So you can drive me insane and then sit back and enjoy the show?â
He chuckled, leaning a little closer, and you felt your heart rate spike. âMaybe. But I was thinking more along the lines of just⊠keeping you entertained.â
âOh, Iâm plenty entertained, thanks,â you shot back, trying to sound unimpressed despite the heat creeping up your neck.
He shrugged, unfazed, and settled back into his lounge chair.Â
âGood. Then letâs make it the best hour of your week,â he said, flashing you a wink that sent a new wave of exasperationâand, annoyingly, a bit of excitementâthrough you.
You huffed, shaking your head as you took a sip of your drink, determined not to let him see just how much that smirk was affecting you. Just one hour, you reminded yourself. What could possibly happen in one hour?
As you and Bucky settled into a strange, almost comfortable silence, you heard a booming voice from across the pool.
âCHICKEN FIGHT!â Johnnyâs voice rang out, loud and enthusiastic, immediately grabbing everyoneâs attention.
You whipped your head around, eyes widening. Johnny was wading into the pool, rallying everyone like some kind of pool party commander. âCome on! Everyone in! We need two teams!â
âOh, no,â you muttered under your breath, instinctively shrinking into your lounge chair, hoping youâd be overlooked in the shuffle. Absolutely not happening, you thought, clutching your drink like a lifeline.
But Bucky, of course, was already grinning ear to ear. He turned to you, his eyes gleaming with excitement and mischief.Â
âYou heard him,â he said, patting your shoulder like this was some team-building exercise. âWeâre going in.â
âWhat? No!â you hissed, clutching your drink tighter as if that would save you. âI didnât sign up for a chicken fight. Iâm just here for moral support.â
Bucky laughed, standing up and stretching in that way that only he could pull off without looking ridiculous.Â
âOh, come on,â he said, flashing you that smug, challenging grin. âAfraid of a little friendly competition?â
You shook your head, digging your heels in. âNope. Not happening. And itâs not friendlyâitâs dangerous!â
âOh, donât be such a chicken.â His smirk widened, and then, with a theatrical sigh, he added, âGuess Iâll just have to find someone braver.â
Your jaw dropped. âOh, youâre really going to play that card?â
He shrugged, glancing around with feigned disappointment. âGuess so. Shame though. I thought you could handle it.â
It was the final straw. With an exasperated groan, you threw down your drink and stood up.Â
âFine! Iâll do it.â The second the words left your mouth, you instantly regretted them, especially as you saw Buckyâs smirk morph into full-blown satisfaction.
âPerfect,â he said, clearly thrilled with himself.
You sighed, slipping off your sheer cover-up, feeling a sudden self-consciousness as you stood there in just your swimsuit. Buckyâs gaze flicked over you with open admiration, his grin widening just a bit. You forced yourself to ignore the butterflies in your stomach, rolling your eyes at his blatant staring.
âEnjoying the view?â you deadpanned.
âOh, absolutely,â he replied without missing a beat, his eyes twinkling. âBut weâve got a fight to win.â
Before you could second-guess your decision, he grabbed your hand and pulled you toward the pool. Johnny spotted the two of you and cheered, pumping his fist in the air. âYes! We got a team! Bucky and⊠Y/N, right?â
You forced a smile, giving him a thumbs-up while silently planning your escape route. But before you knew it, you were waist-deep in the water, Bucky hoisting you up with surprising ease, positioning you on his shoulders.
âOh my god, this is insane,â you muttered, gripping onto his head for balance as he adjusted to your weight. âI feel like a five-year-old at a theme park.â
âJust hold on,â he chuckled, steadying himself under you. âIâve got you.â
Your heart skipped a beat as his hands firmly held your thighs, and suddenly, this was a whole new level of intense. Focus on the fight, not the incredibly attractive man holding you in the pool, you told yourself, cheeks flaming.
Johnny waded over with his partnerâa muscular, tattooed guy named Jake who was definitely taking this way too seriously.Â
âReady to lose, Barnes?â Jake taunted, grinning up at you.
Bucky chuckled, his hands tightening on your legs just slightly. âNot a chance.â
âAlright, youâre up top!â Johnny yelled, clapping his hands. âLetâs see what youâve got!â
You barely had time to brace yourself before Jake and his partner charged at you, water splashing everywhere as they made their move. Instinctively, you shrieked, grabbing onto Buckyâs hair for dear life as the force of the impact sent you both wobbling.
âEasy on the hair!â Bucky grunted, though he was laughing, his shoulders steadying beneath you as he held his ground.
âOh, sorry!â you gasped, adjusting your grip. But before you could even catch your breath, Jakeâs partner was lunging at you again, arms flailing as he tried to knock you off balance.
âOh, no you donât!â you muttered, your competitive spirit kicking in. You threw your hands out, grabbing his wrists and pushing back with everything you had, determined to hold your ground.
âYeah, thatâs it!â Bucky cheered from below, his laughter bubbling up as he shifted to help keep you steady. âShow âem what youâve got!â
Fueled by his encouragementâand a surprising amount of adrenalineâyou leaned forward, pushing against Jakeâs partner with all your strength. The guyâs face twisted in concentration, but with one final shove, you managed to throw him off balance. He teetered, arms flailing, before finally toppling backward into the water with a massive splash.
âYes!â you shouted, punching the air triumphantly as Johnny and Jake went down in a flurry of water and defeat. âSuck on that!â
The words had barely left your mouth when reality crashed back in. You blinked, suddenly realizing that maybeâjust maybeâyouâd gotten a little too carried away. Oh god, did I really just shout that? you thought, the heat rushing to your cheeks as your triumphant grin quickly turned into a sheepish smile.
âWell, look at you,â Bucky chuckled from below, clearly amused by your victory-induced outburst. âDidnât know you had it in you.â
âYeah, well⊠neither did I,â you muttered, feeling the embarrassment settling in as you tried to slide off his shoulders, desperate to save whatever shred of dignity you had left. But as you started to wriggle down, you realized Buckyâs hands were still firmly gripping your thighs, holding you in place.
You froze, looking down at him. âUh, Bucky⊠you can, you know⊠let go now.â
He glanced up, smirking. âOh, but youâre comfortable up there. Why rush it?â
You huffed, your face going a deeper shade of red. âBecause Iâm very much done being the human flagpole, thank you very much.â
Buckyâs grin only widened as he kept his hold, clearly enjoying the situation far more than he should. âNah, I think I like you right where you are. Adds a bit of⊠height to my reputation.â
âOh my god,â you groaned, feeling your mortification level spike. âIf you donât let me down, I swear Iâllââ
âFine, fine,â he laughed, finally loosening his grip, letting you slide back into the water. But just as your feet touched down, he didnât back awayâinstead, he shifted closer, his hands still lingering on your waist, his gaze locking onto yours with a look that sent your pulse racing.
You took a half-step back, but there was no real room to escape, not with the edge of the pool just behind you and Buckyâs broad frame in front, all mischief and steady, unbreakable eye contact.Â
âYou know,â he murmured, his voice low, âyou could stay longer.â
Your breath hitched as Bucky leaned just the slightest bit closer, his hands still warm and steady on your waist, his smirk turning softer yet somehow more intense. Every nerve in your body seemed to jolt to life as he held your gaze.
You cleared your throat, attempting to find your voice amid the chaos of your thoughts.Â
âUh⊠stay longer? For what?â you managed, trying to sound casual, though your pulse was anything but.
His smirk grew, the corners of his mouth lifting in that way that was dangerously charming.Â
âFor the victory lap, of course,â he murmured, his voice just above a whisper. âAfter all, we did just crush the competition. Wouldnât want you running off too fast.â
âOh, right, a victory lap,â you muttered, trying to regain your composure but finding it difficult with his hands still lingering on your waist. âBut I think the whole pool just watched that âlapââŠâ
âThen they got a good show,â he chuckled, his voice warm with that teasing tone you were starting to know all too well. âBut the best part of winning is savoring it⊠right here.â
Your face went hot as his fingers brushed slightly against your sides, sending a little spark of energy straight up your spine.Â
âBucky,â you said, the word barely a whisper. âYouâre⊠awfully close.â
âOh, am I?â He didnât back away; instead, he raised a brow, clearly enjoying your flustered reaction. âDidnât hear you complaining when you were up there, champ.â
Your cheeks went impossibly warmer. âThat was different. That was, you know⊠competitive. Strategic.â
âCompetitive and strategic?â he echoed, his grin turning almost wicked. âWell, in that caseâŠâ He shifted his hands slightly, bringing you even closer as he leaned in. âLetâs see if youâre still competitive outside the game.â
He hovered just a breath away, his gaze flickering to your lips for a moment that felt like an eternity. You felt yourself leaning in almost on instinct, your pulse racing, and for one wild, heart-stopping second, it seemed like he might actually kiss you.
But then, as if on cue, someone nearby let out a loud, obnoxious cheer, snapping both of you out of the moment. The sound jolted you, and you quickly took a step back, breaking the tension as reality crashed in.
Bucky chuckled softly, looking slightly too smug as he let his hands fall from your waist.Â
âGuess that victory lap will have to wait,â he murmured, giving you one last look that promised he wasnât quite finished with his teasing yet.
You swallowed, desperately trying to get your heart rate back to normal. âYeah, guess so.â
As the night went on, youâd lost count of how many concoction drinks had been handed to you, and at this point, your usual sense of caution was practically nonexistent. The rooftop was a haze of laughter, lights, and music, and the whole place felt like it was buzzing with energy. Any embarrassment from earlier had dissolved into pure, uninhibited confidence, each drink making you feel bolder than the last.
One minute, you were in a drinking game, cheering Bucky on as he took down a round of shots like it was nothing. The next, you found yourself in a game of truth or dare that had somehow escalated into body shots. Youâd laughed, nearly choking on your drink, when you saw Bucky sprawled out on a table, daring you with that infuriating grin to take your turn.
âOh, come on, that's not fair,â you slurred, trying to wave off the dare as he raised an eyebrow, that smug look firmly in place.
âBack out now if you canât handle it,â he teased, lying back and folding his arms behind his head, acting like he hadnât a care in the world.
The crowd cheered you on, and fueled by liquid courage, you rolled your eyes and leaned down, pressing your lips to his abs, feeling his warm skin under your touch as you took the shot in a quick, heated moment. His laughter mingled with the cheers around you, and you couldnât help but feel a rush from the attention, from his gaze, from the heat spreading across your face.
Before you knew it, you were in a round of flip cup with Bucky as your teammate, and he downed his drink, slamming his cup down with a victorious shout. He grabbed you by the waist, lifting you up and spinning you around, both of you laughing so hard you could barely stand straight when he finally set you down.
Somehow, you ended up on the makeshift dance floor, music thumping as the party around you roared on, the lights around the rooftop pool casting a glow over everyone. Youâd danced with other people throughout the night, but Bucky seemed to have a way of drawing you back, his energy magnetic, his laughter contagious. It was like he was everywhere you turned, keeping pace with you, matching every laugh and smirk with one of his own.
The music thumped, lights flashed, and the DJâs voice blared over the speakers, âAlright, party people! Hereâs the dealâfind someone you want to⊠get close to tonight and give them a kiss, a hug, heck, even a lick if youâre feeling bold!â
Everyone around you burst into cheers and laughter, the partyâs energy wild and reckless. By now, you were buzzing on so much liquid courage that everything felt like the best idea ever, including the fact that you were swaying against Bucky, whoâd somehow stayed by your side all night.
He leaned in, his smirk way too mischievous, and the alcohol made it feel impossibly close.Â
âDid you hear that?â he slurred, barely keeping the laughter out of his voice. âI think itâd be a shame if we ignore the DJâs request donât you?â
You rolled your eyes, trying to brush it off, but he just grinned wider, leaning in until his cheek was practically pressed against yours.Â
âHold still,â he whispered, a laugh lurking in his voice.
Then, in a move so outrageous you could barely comprehend it, he dragged his tongue slowly from your chin up to your forehead.
âBucky!â you shrieked, stumbling back and half falling over yourself, laughter bubbling out of you as you clutched your face in shock. âOh my god, you did not justââ
He stepped back, looking beyond pleased with himself, the grin on his face pure, unfiltered pride.Â
âWhat? Iâm just being⊠obedient,â he slurred, raising his hands in mock innocence.
âYou are the worst!â you squealed, laughing so hard you could barely keep it together, grabbing his arm as you steadied yourself, still half in disbelief. He just chuckled, clearly reveling in your reaction as he pulled you right back into the rhythm, your laughter mixing with the cheers around you as the dance floor pulsed with music.
They cranked up the music, and suddenly, the beat was all around you, pulsing through the crowd, as if daring everyone to let loose. The energy was infectious, and you found yourself moving in sync with him, laughing as you danced together, every touch and sway between you crackling with a chemistry that had been simmering all night.
Without thinking, you stepped closer, your hands drifting to his chest, letting your fingers splay against the warm, solid muscle. Your movements grew slower, more deliberate, and his hands instinctively found your waist, pulling you against him until there was barely any space left between you. His gaze dropped, glued on your lips, and you felt a shiver run through you, your breath hitching as he leaned in, his face just inches from yours. His nose brushed yours, and you looked up to meet his gaze, seeing the same surprised intensity reflected in his eyes.
Bucky held your gaze, his breath mingling with yours, and you could feel the tension building, electric and undeniable. He was waitingâleaving the next move up to you. If you wanted him, you knew heâd let you take him.
đ¶Just let me know, can you be the one to hold and not let me go?đ¶
Heart pounding, you somehow managed to press yourself even closer, feeling the swell of your chest against him, igniting a flush across his cheeks. But it wasnât embarrassment you saw in his eyesâit was heat, a look that sent a thrill down your spine. His hand shifted, his fingers tracing along the curve of your hip, and you could feel the strength of his grip as he held you.
đ¶I need to know, could you be the one to call when I lose control?đ¶
The tension was unbearable, and as you tilted your face up, your lips brushed his in the softest, most hesitant caressâa question, an invitation. His resolve crumbled instantly. His hand slid to your waist, gripping the flesh there as his other hand threaded into your hair, guiding your head back so he could kiss you deeper, tasting you with an intensity that left you breathless. You let out a startled, breathless sound, and he responded by pulling you closer, cradling your face as if you were something precious, something he couldnât bear to let go of.
Your lips parted for him, and he kissed you with a hunger that had been building for some time. His tongue traced yours, swallowing your quiet moans, anchoring you to him as his hand kept you steady. It wasnât forceful, just⊠tender, like he was holding something priceless.
Your breaths came heavy, your cheeks flushed, but you barely noticed; all you could feel was him, his touch, his heartbeat pounding against yours, and the fire in his veins matching your own. In that moment, propriety, the crowd around you, everything else faded into oblivion. If he wanted you to take him right there, you couldnât even think of saying no.
Every nerve in your body was alive, tingling with an incredible sense of lust and need as his arms held you close. His lips pressed harder, deepening the kiss, his passion and intensity only spurring you to match it. You melted against him, completely consumed by the heat and need between you, and for those moments, it was as if nothing else existed. Oxygen became secondary; the only thing that mattered was the connection between you, growing more fervent with each second.
Finally, when the need for air became overwhelming, you both broke apart, gasping, your faces inches from each other, breaths mingling as you took each other in. His lips tingled, mirroring your own, and every beat of your heart seemed to urge you back into his embrace.
âLetâs get out of here⊠yours or mine?â Bucky stammered between breaths, his voice husky, his eyes still filled with fire. His body radiated heat, and he looked like heâd dive into the pool at any second just to cool down.
âMine,â you whispered, your voice breathless, cheeks flushed, a shy smile tugging at your lips as you held his gaze.
Ă Ă Ă ĂÂ
You both barely made it down the hallway before the urgency hit, the tension that had been building all night finally snapping. Buckyâs hands were everywhereâgripping your waist, pulling you against him as you fumbled for your keys, the both of you practically tripping over each other in your haste. As soon as you managed to unlock the door, you pushed it open, stumbling inside, his mouth crashing into yours before it even closed behind you.
Wetness pooled inside you, the need for him overwhelming as you pressed back against the door, his body meeting yours in a frenzy of heat and desperation. His stubble scraped against your skin, rough and deliciously manly, a reminder that he was all raw power and intensity. You loved it, the way it scratched against your cheek, adding to the thrill and making your skin tingle wherever he touched.
His lips found the side of your neck, warm and insistent as he kissed his way down, nipping softly, each touch leaving you breathless. You tilted your head back, giving him more access, exposing the full length of your neck to his hungry mouth. His hands slid up your sides, his fingers pressing in firmly, possessively, as his teeth grazed your skin, sending a jolt of electricity through you.
âGod,â he murmured against your skin, his voice rough with desire. âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted this.â
You could only gasp, clutching onto him as his mouth moved up to your jaw, his hands never stilling, gripping you as if he couldnât bear to let go. Bucky reached a hand up and placed it on your left breast, over the bikini top, and then brought his hand up to the back of your neck to pull you in closer to him. You undid the straps of your top, and down fell the top, exposing your naked breasts to him.
Holy shitâthis canât be real. Am I hallucinating? Is this actually happening? Waitâoh god, is he about to put my boobs in his mouth?!
Like a hungry child desperate for milk Bucky suckled on your nipple, squeezing the bottom of your breast passionately with one hand, and holding the other breast in his other hand. You looked down at him, licking, sucking, rubbing, and he looked as though he was transported to paradise.
He worked himself into a frenzy playing with your breast, until he wanted more. He lifted you up under your thighs, off the floor, and pressed your back against the wall.
Oh shit!
He kissed you again, his hand sliding down to press against you over your bikini bottom. With a quick, desperate motion, he tugged the fabric to the side, his fingers brushing bare skin, making your breath hitch.
As his hand cupped you, he began to move slowly, his fingers exploring, teasing. âDamn,â he murmured, his voice thick with surprise and satisfaction. âYouâre so wet. Is this what happens every time you watch my videos?â
âM-maybeâŠâ you stammered, cheeks heating, barely able to meet his eyes as a grin spread across his face.
His fingers slid inside you, moving with a slow, deliberate rhythm, each motion sending sparks through your entire body. He leaned in, his breath hot against your ear as he asked, âHow many times have you touched yourself thinking about me?â
You bit your lip, trying to hold back a moan as he continued, each movement intensifying the heat pooling inside you.Â
âMmmhâwhy would I tell you that?â you managed, trying to sound teasing but barely able to keep your voice steady.
His grin widened, a mischievous glint in his eyes as his fingers pressed deeper, his thumb brushing against you just right. âBecause I want to hear every filthy detail.â
He kissed your other nipple, the one he missed when before. Bucky always gave equal time to the breasts. Suckling on one nipple, fingering you harder and harder, you were getting more and more excited for the moment he would penetrate you.
âOh my godââ You swallowed, feeling your face heat up and you could feel yourself slightly sobering up. With a nervous laugh, you finally gave in, your voice soft but steady.
âFine⊠sometimes, late at nightâahâIâd imagine you between my legs, devouring me like your life depended on it,â you whispered, feeling your cheeks burn. âIâdâfuckâIâd think about your hands, the way theyâd feel inside me, moving exactly like thisâŠmmmh,â you gasped as his fingers pressed deeper, your own words sparking the desire between you.Â
His fingers never stopped their steady, torturous rhythm, each movement deliberate, coaxing you toward the edge with a patience that was as maddening as it was intoxicating.
âAnd? Thatâs it?â he asked, his tone thick with amusement, daring you to reveal more. His thumb brushed against you in just the right way, as if encouraging you to keep talking, to give him every last detail he was craving.
âAndâhahâIâd picture you⊠spitting in my mouth while youâre turning me on, youâd put your hand on my neck while I beg you to i dunno? reorganize my gutsâbecause youâre so big Bucky. . . I donât think youâll fit inside me.â
âOh the innocent looking ones are always the dirtiest.â Buckyâs smirk turned darker, his fingers pressing into you with a newfound intensity, his digits hooking and pressing into your most sensitive spot, causing your hips to jerk against his palm.Â
âAnd was I just as good in your imagination as I am now?â he murmured, voice low and rough, sending shivers straight down your spine.
âYes⊠yesâŠâ The words left your lips almost involuntarily, your hands gripping his shoulders as your nails dug in, grounding yourself against the overwhelming sensation. Your face twisted with pleasure, each stroke of his digits making it harder to catch your breath.Â
Buckyâs eyes darkened with a fierce satisfaction as he watched you, his smirk deepening. âBetter than you imagined?â
"Mhhm," you tried to respond, but it came out more like a needy moan, your voice barely a whisper under the intensity of his touch.
Bucky's smirk grew at the sound, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction as he took in every reaction, every tremble. "Thatâs what I thought," he murmured, his voice dark and teasing.
Bucky carried you through the open door of your bedroom, his movements purposeful, every touch sending sparks across your skin. When he reached the edge of the bed, he lowered you onto the mattress, but before letting you go, he bent down to capture your lips in a kissâa kiss that felt as intimate as it did electrifying.
You couldnât help but notice the difference; this was something he never did in his videos. Bucky never kissed anyone on the lips on screen. But here, he kissed you slowly, deeply.
His hands moved to your shoulders, firm but gentle as he guided you back into the soft downy mattress. âThere you go, baby,â he murmured, his voice warm and low. âLean back.â
He knelt down at the side of the bed. He pulled off your panties, the final barrier to your sex. He pushed your legs apart and back, and gazed at your pussy, already wet for him.
He stared at your exposed pussy for ten seconds, admiring it like it was the greatest work of art he had ever seen.
"Your pussy," he said, his lips nearly brushing your sex. "It's beautiful.â
You lifted your head up and looked at him. Your jaw was dropped and you were already starting to feel tingles up your body, even though he hadn't licked you yet. You heard his breathing get heavier and heavier, he was so excited to put his lips on your pussy.
Two large fingers of his left hand spread your lips. Two large fingers of his right hand rubbed your clit in strong circles. Each circle sends a shock wave through your body.
"You smell fantastic," he declared, and he dove his mouth right on top of your wet and stimulated clit. Up and down he licked. Up and down, his mouth clasped tight against your pussy.
"Oh," you moaned, as your eyes rolled up to the back of your head. Your armsâwith a mind of their ownâgrabbed the back of your thighs and lifted them back, presenting yourself to this man who used to be on the screen and was now bringing you to ecstasy. He'd only just started to lick you, but even so you felt ready for him to enter you and never leave.Â
As Bucky continued to eat you like youâre his last meal, each suction sending thrills through you, a sudden wave of doubt crashed over you, freezing you in place. Images flooded your mindâwomen heâd been with, all effortlessly beautiful, the kind who exuded confidence and allure. How could you compare? This had to be nothing more than another fleeting thing for him, a âfriendshipâ that would end the moment the night was over.
You tensed, your hands moving to gently push him back. âBucky⊠wait,â you managed, your voice barely above a whisper.
He looked up from between your legs, his expression softening instantly as he met your gaze.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, his voice gentle, concerned.
âI⊠I justâŠâ You stammered, the words getting caught in your throat before you finally managed, âI donât want to be⊠one of your girls.â
Bucky blinked, taken aback, his expression shifting as if the words had struck something unexpected, almost offended.Â
âOne of my girls?â
You nodded, biting your lip as you searched for the right way to explain. âI⊠I donât do one-night stands,â you admitted, feeling vulnerable.Â
Bucky nodded slowly, his tongue pressing into his cheek as he rose to his feet. "Mhmâno, I get it... it's because of my job," he said, his tone carrying a hint of defensiveness.
You sat up, noticing the shift in his demeanor. "Are you mad?" you asked softly, uncertainty creeping into your voice.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "I'm not mad," he replied, though his clenched jaw suggested otherwise. "I just didn't think you'd see me that way."
"See you what way?" you pressed gently.
He met your gaze, his eyes reflecting a mix of frustration and vulnerability. "Like I'm some guy who just goes around collecting flings," he explained. "I thought you knew me better than that."
You swallowed, choosing your words carefully. âIt's not that I think poorly of you,â you said. âIt's just... your work makes things complicated for me. I don't want to be another notch on anyone's belt.â
He took a deep breath, his expression softening. âI understand where you're coming from,â he admitted. âBut believe me when I say that thisââ he gestured between the two of you ââis different for me.â
âHow do I know that?â you asked quietly.
He stepped closer, his eyes sincere. âBecause I don't share moments like this with just anyone,â he said. âYou think I go around kissing people like that? Off-camera, in my real life?â
Buckyâs expression shifted, his brows knitting together as he crossed his arms, clearly growing more frustrated. âI thought you knew the difference between who I am on-camera and who I am off it,â he replied, his tone clipped.
You sighed, trying to hold your ground. âBucky, youâre the one who kept teasing me to watch your videos, practically encouraging me to make it my new hobbyâhow am I supposed to ignore what you do?â
He scoffed, running a hand through his hair in irritation. âBecause those videos arenât me,â he said, voice rising. âYouâre acting like everything I do there is just some extension of my personal life, but itâs a job, Y/N. I donât go around living like that off-set.â
You crossed your arms, not caring that the blanket had slipped off, leaving you bare before him.Â
âAnd Iâm supposed to just... pretend that all of it doesnât mean anything?â you shot back, feeling a twinge of vulnerability but refusing to let it show. âYou kept making those jokes, those commentsâyou have to see how confusing it is for me.â
He took a step closer, his eyes narrowing. âAnd you think I just do that with everyone? That every person who walks into my life gets these... moments with me?â His gaze softened slightly as he gestured between the two of you. âIf that were the case, do you think Iâd be here, right now, trying to convince you?â
You opened your mouth to reply, but the words caught in your throat. His intensity was throwing you off balance, forcing you to question your assumptions. Youâd expected him to brush this off or laugh, not take it to heart.
He shook his head, a frustrated laugh escaping him. âYou donât get it, do you?â He looked at you, his eyes full of something you couldnât quite name. âI donât have to be here, fighting for this. I could have walked away and yet here I am.â
You swallowed hard, feeling a lump form in your throat as the weight of his words settled heavily between you. The intensity of his gaze, the raw honesty in his voiceâit was all too much, too fast, and yet it tugged at something deep inside you, making it impossible to brush off. But your heart was pounding, confusion and vulnerability swirling together, and you werenât ready to face everything his words were unearthing.
âI⊠I think we should call it a night,â you said quietly, barely able to meet his gaze, the words coming out softer than you intended.
For a moment, he looked at you, his expression unreadable, and you could see him processing your response. Then, with a quiet sigh, he nodded, stepping back to give you space.
âAlright,â he replied, his voice subdued. âIf thatâs what you want.â
The room felt suddenly colder, the tension between you now tinged with a quiet ache. You could tell he was holding back more that he wanted to say, but he respected your decision, his expression guarded as he looked away.
You bit your lip, your mind racing with things you couldnât bring yourself to say, with emotions you werenât quite ready to admit.Â
âThank you⊠for understanding,â you managed, feeling the weight of your choice settle over you.
He gave a small nod, his jaw tight, before he turned toward the door.Â
âGoodnight, Y/N,â he said softly, pausing for a moment as if hoping you might change your mind, before finally leaving your apartment, the main door shutting made you flinch even though Bucky closed it softly.
The silence that followed felt heavier than you expected. The tension that had filled the room moments ago lingered, and a wave of frustration washed over you, mixing with regret and uncertainty. You took a shaky breath, running a hand through your hair before letting out a long, exhausted sigh.
Without thinking, you grabbed the nearest pillow, buried your face into it, and let out a muffled scream, releasing all the emotions you couldnât quite put into words. The pillow absorbed the sound, but it did nothing to ease the twist of emotions churning inside you. Finally, you pulled the pillow away, feeling just as conflicted as before, wondering if youâd made the right choice⊠or a terrible mistake.
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(part of the Wife at First Sight series)
In Ghostâs eyes, the first time you smiled up at him was the moment you became his and his alone.
So what if everyone apart from you knew it?
Didnât make it any less of a fact, as far as he was concerned.
Still though, he wanted to learn more about just who his pretty little wife was, including anything that might make letting you know about your marriage a little easier. And so like the good soldier he is, he goes about it as though it were a reconnaissance mission.
He asks you how you take your coffees and teas, holding his breath as he watches you take the first sip of whichever drink heâs made you that day, pride swelling in his chest when you tell him itâs perfect, even better than when you make it.
The first time heâd done so, your eyes widened in surprise when he put his large, gloved hands over yours where they were wrapped around the mug, leaning forward and bringing the rim to his lips where he took a sip for himself, eyes locked with yours. You were unsure of what to think or say, but he apparently decided for you that this was okay, returning the warm drink to your mouth where he encouraged you to take another sip.
You figured that it was alright, he did make the tea for you after all, right?
You even laughed when he started only serving you in a mug with âMrs.â printed across the side, certain that it hadnât been in any of the common roomâs cupboards before.
He eyes the book peeking out of your bag one morning as you tuck it away, purchasing his own copy the very same day, curious to know what you like reading. Youâre pleasantly surprised, if not a tad confused, when you find the next two books in the trilogy sat atop your desk soon after, a small note written in chicken scratch lain on top reads âTo : Wifeâ. Heâll make a point of commenting on the novel if he sees you holding it, slipping in tid bits of information to impress you show heâs read it as well, likes the same things you like.
Heâll joke about how the food on the dining hall is always subpar, trying to casually find out what you like eating, subtly pulling out his phone and typing anything new into his notes app where heâs been keeping track of all your likes and dislikes. He just wants to get things right with you, be good for you, prove he can be the husband you need. Youâre already perfect in his eyes, his sweet little soulmate who just doesnât know it yet.
Though this was the first military base youâd ever worked on, you couldnât recall anyone having ever warned you about the way Lieutenants apparently like to haze the new hires, never mind the fact that everyone else was apparently in on it.
No one bats an eye when you go to take the empty seat next to him in a briefing, and he wraps his strong arms around you to instead plop you down onto his muscular thighs, carrying on with the task at hand as though this is perfectly normal and professional. Even the Captain hardly glances at the interaction, so you figure itâs okay, some strange form of team bonding?
Not a soul comments on the way the Lieutenant insists on being the one to cut up your food and feed you bites during meals in the dining hall, pretending as though they donât hear him telling you about how âmy wife works hard enough, donât need to be liftinâ a finger witâ me around, love.â
They know to move out of the way if youâre approaching a closed door, knowing if the Lieutenant is anywhere near, heâll be rushing to open the door for you before you can even attempt to do it yourself.
Even Soap has stopped complaining aloud and only rolls his eyes when Ghost drops anything and everything heâs doing- whether itâs spotting the Sergeant in the gym, being out on a morning run, hell even being in the middle of a shower- to send you a good morning text at six o clock on the dot. Every. Single. Morning.
No, you never exactly anticipated this sort of a running gag from a hardened military base, but youâre not exactly complaining either.
Not when you find your heart fluttering every time your fake work husband dotes on you like he really would marry you at the drop of a hat.
Besides, itâs all just playful, innocent fun, right?
Especially when everyone begins to apparently forget your name and instead refers to you only as Mrs Riley.
And when the Captain tells you that your requested time off for a honeymoon has been approved, something which you definitely donât remember requesting, well thatâs all just fun too, right?
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â unconcealable
- gojo satoru x reader
your boyfriend may not show it, but the six eyes are his burden to bear. you know it firsthand when he falls into your arms for the first time
genre: teen!gojo, fluff, hurt/comfort, flashback and fast-forward to dad!gojo later
note: hello hello iâm alive~ i have this little thing of fluff/comfort pampering in my head throughout my vacation and itâs been a long time since i last wrote about teen!gojo so here it is :D will proofread later when i get the chance!
a part of gojo's love entries
general masterlist
Back in 2006â
âSatoru, move awayââ
âNuh, uh! Iâm staying! Youâre too soft~â
âSatoru, If Yaga-sensei walks in⊠heâll think weâre doing something indecent!â
âMmm, don't care~â
This is the gym. Anyone could walk in. And yet your boyfriend of three weeks, Gojo Satoru, claimed his place by resting his head on your lap and squeezing his eyes shut so comfortably⊠like a cat.
You sighed, vexed and almost giving upâ and then you noticed just how good-looking he was. Not that you just realized it now, but his long eyelashes, his smooth skin, white hair...
You have snagged a heartthrob. Or at least he could be if it wasn't for his questionable tendencies.
âSatoru, Iâm being serious,â you griped, blinking back your pounding heart and starting to get anxious if anyone would see the two of you on the floor, with him over you. âGet up. Now.â
He knitted his brows together. âSo stingy... Canât your dashing boyfriend get five more minutes?â
âNo. Up. Now.â You learnt by experience that the more you indulged Satoru, the more you would be inclined to comply as well. So before he dragged you into that hole...
âHmph! No!â
âIâll really flip you if you donât moveâ!â
And thatâs finally when he cracked his eyes open, totally pouting. âSo mean! My head is hurting, you know! I just want to rest a bit!â
You were somewhat taken aback by his little outburst but he really got up this time, and then he stalked away, mumbling complaints.
"Some girlfriend you are... so not considerate..." he pursed his lips together, seemingly hurt as he made his way out.
That almost annoyed you greatly, and you were about to retort back when to your shock, he suddenly clutched his head and staggered. "Ahhâ"
"Satoru!"
You sprinted to him and caught him as he wobbled, supporting his weight.
"Are you okay? What happened?!" you were so spooked that you went down with him to the floor again. And you immediately pulled him to you when he heaved a shuddering breath.
"I'm okayâ" he said in a pant, pressing his eyes together so tightly. "I'm okay, I'm okay! Don'tâ"
"You're not, you idiot!"
Something with his eyes. It just dawned to you that he didn't wear his sunglasses today, and by instinct, you wrapped your arms around him, pressing him close to your chest.
"Is it hurting badly now?" you worriedly asked, keeping him tight in your embrace. "Do you want me to get you something?"
Contrary to your worries, what Satoru was more focused on was the exponential warmth that enveloped him. He had a migraine for a while there, but you so easily anchored him, making it somehow hurt less.
"You said Yaga-sensei will catch us and think we're having sex," he sullenly accused to hide the sudden blush spreading quickly on his face. "You didn't care about me just a minute ago."
"That's... a minute ago!" you hissed. "Now I'm worried!"
Your response made him smile despite himself. Satoru found comfort in the darkness of being squished against your boobs... perhaps way more than he thought he would.
"Then let me stay like this for a while. I'll be okay in a jiffy, 'kay?"
"Hmm," you hummed, absent-mindedly stroking his soft hair. You started to feel bad for chasing him away earlier, and squeezed him. "Does your head hurt often?"
"Whoa, it's only when I'm like this that you'll touch me so openly," he responded with a mock sigh, and you fought the urge not to roll your eyes. "Poor me."
"Poor you indeed. So answer me, does it, or does it not?"
"Nah, it's just how it is sometimes. Just some side effects of my eyes, you see."
"Why don't you wear your glasses today?"
"...Nanami broke them after I ate his last doughnut."
"You..." you almost giggled, and yet so exasperated at the same time. But the way Satoru squeezed your waist to hug you in return made you spare him.
You two stayed like that for a while, and when the bell rang to indicate the start of the next period, you asked him again. "Are you okay now?"
"Mm-hm, yeah, much better."
"Then let's go back to your class. I'll help you go there."
"Ehh..." But Satoru, ever the stubborn one, just buried his face into you, holding on tight and not letting go at all. "No."
You frowned. "Whyâ"
"Don't wanna move~ your boobs are just too good..."
"â? Whatâ"
"They're soooo soft. Seems jiggly too? Ah, my pain is healed! Oh! When we get married, will I get to bite them tooâ"
"Satoru, you!"
Long story short, you two missed the next period just because Satoru nagged you to stay with him... and at the end of it all, the ones who opened the doors to the gym were Nanami and Haibara, who immediately went to report to Yaga and red-faced respectively.
Back to presentâ
"Time for your teardrops!"
Satoru squeezed the bottle of eyedrops, lining it up with the striking blue eyes of his six-year-old son, an cute little pumpkin who was a carbon copy of him in every way, as he laid his head on his lap.
"Mmngh," his son squirmed as the water made contact with his sensitive eyes, and squeezed both eyes shut as soon as his papa was done.
Having inherited his eyes, the boy had started to feel pain whenever he accidentally overused them. Satoru knew the feeling well, and as much as he tried to humor him, something inside him prickled whenever he saw him getting teary-eyed due to the pain.
"Still stings?" he asked with a frown. "Want to use blindfold cover your eyes, hmm?"
Your son mumbled, "...no."
"What do you want then?"
"...I want mama."
Satoru snorted, pinching his boy's plump cheek fondly. "Same, kiddo. I want mama too."
The little boy cracked his eyes open out of spite. "You always bother her everyday."
"It's not as if you do not but whatever." Satoru pursed his lips as he stared at his boy. "If only I can put those rotting grandpas in elderly home, your mama can be freed from missions."
The kid snuggled close to his lap, seeking comfort, and suddenly, he felt flash of warmth burst inside him, realizing that his little munchkin wanted him to make him feel better.
"Look, I'm not mama, but I can do this tooâ" he hoisted his son, and hugged him close, hiding his little face into his sturdy chest. "Here you go. Better?"
The little baby that forever connects him to you. Satoru loved his son as much as he loved you.
He had no one to really comfort him in the early days of misusing his eyesâ they only told him that it was the price for the greatness he would possess. Until you did. You didnât speak of power or strength. Each time he suffered from those migraines back then, you would hold him close.
And so, he'd be damned if the same thing happened to his precious son. He wouldn't let him be told thatâhe would do his best to soothe him, to make him feel safe.
"Tomorrow we're getting kikufuku, yeah?" he said with a smile, patting his sonâs back gently. "And ice cream too."
"Mmm... 'kay..." the boy replied. "Papa... sleepy..."
"Then sleep, kid. I'll wake you when mama comes back, yeah?"
You. The baby. The two of you were always the center of his world. As he too drifted off to sleep beside his son, he thought that chasing after you was most definitely the greatest decision he made from that blue spring that would never return in his life.
Epilogue
"I'm home!"
Your mission ended with a bang as you completely obliterated the cursed spirit. You went home with a spring in your steps, thinking that your silly husband and cute son would be waiting for you in this afternoon.
But no one greeted you back, and you found yourself walking to your master bedroom, only to be floored by the sight.
Satoru had dozed off so unguardedly, but he had one protective arm over your son, who was also sleeping. They looked like a pair of twins, and the way your son curled up to your husband melted your heart so much that it brought a wide smile on your face.
Click! Click! You took several photos so you would be able to look at their sleepy state whenever you wanted. But as you marveled at the photographs, suddenly a sneaky hand yanked youâ
"Whoaâ!"
"Shh, you'll wake him up, mama," Satoru sleepily grinned as he smooched your face. "You took so long, I missed you."
"I finished one day early," you huffed, but then your expression softened as you gazed at your sleeping son. "Seems like both of you are getting along well while I was gone~"
"I fed him mochi and cookies, of course he'll be obedient."
"â! I told you he'll get cavities soon if you don't limit the sweets intake!"
"Oh? Then we just have to have another baby who won't get cavities just as you wish then~"
"That's not how it works! Satoru, youâ!"
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đ„ust a betïčhyung line
đnhypen x fem!reader ïžïžâčïž cw: angst, no fluff (yet), reader is mostly viewed as a loser and nerd, lowercase intended, kinda went overboard with hoon's, reader gets called a bitch once, not proofread!
sypnosisïčafter a few months of dating, you find out you were just a bet.
part two !
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LEE HEESEUNG (wc 0.3k)
you and lee heeseung has been dating for a total of five months, and throughout those months you can confidently say that you were the happiest. he was the perfect boyfriend, his family loved you and so did yours.
today, heeseung promised he would take you on a date after his basketball practice despite your protests on how he should be resting instead. you wouldn't have agreed if it weren't for the fact that he had shot you with his pleading big doe eyes that never fails to make you agree on whatever he asks for.Â
so here you were, making your way towards the gymnasium with your bag hanging on your left shoulder. the lack of dribbling and smacking basketball noise from behind the closed doors told you that their practice was done.
entering quietly out of habit, you were about to approach your boyfriend when you overheard his teammates talking to him.
"don't tell me you're still with her?" asked one of boys, an amused smile on his face. heeseung only raised a brow.
"what? you won the bet, you can dump her now. you're ruining our image you know? plus she's a total nerd and loser, you're much better with someone like yunhee." and with only just a few words, you felt your world crashing down.
right, who would date someone like you? you always found it weird, that heeseung just approached you one day in your biology class with the cheekiest smile on his face. the fact that he wouldn't leave you alone until you've agreed to go on a date with him. it all made sense now, why the popular basketball captain suddenly gained interest on the school's "biggest nerd."
"speaking of.." another guy spoke, nodding towards you with a cheeky smile. heeseung turned around only to be met with your glassy eyes.
you didn't move, wanting to hear him defend you. wanting to tell his teammates that you weren't a bet and he actually liked you throughout the months you two have been dating.
his silence said everything and with that you turned away and ran out of the gym.
"shit." he muttered, running after you.
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PARK JONGSEONG (wc 0.3k)
"i'll pick you up later, okay?" your boyfriend of almost a year said softly through the phone. you've been dating jay since the first week of your first year in uni, others found your relationship weird. maybe because back in high school, jay never and refused to even spare you a glance. he was an asshole who looked at you as if you were the epitome of disgusting.
but the past is in the past now, right?
"okay baby, see you." you reply and put your phone down on your table, knowing that he's usually the one who ends the call.
you go back to the papers scattered on your table. the silence in your room was disturbed by sudden noises in your phone, turning to look, you see that jay hasn't ended the call.
picking your phone up with a smile, you were about to call out for him but a voice stopped you.
"i can't believe you've gone this far dude." you recognized the slightly muffled voice, it was a friend of jongseong's.
"what do you mean?" your boyfriend grumbled. the audio was muffled, you figured he was moving and the phone was in his pocket.
"you're still dating her!" the voice exclaimed, as if amused. "seriously, i didn't think you'd take that bet seriously. fine you win, i'll clean your car for a month. but you've gotta cut it out, you're starting to disgust me." the boy laughed.
before you could hear what your boyfriend would say, you ended the call. your hand was trembling and tears were falling from your eyes unconsciously.
were all those months just a joke to him? were your feelings really worth a free car wash for just a month? were you that unworthy?
jay was an asshole back in high school, you thought he changed. turns out he didn't, you felt like a fool for falling for his antics.
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SIM JAEYUN (wc 0.3k)
if someone would be asked who you were, they'd all say the same thing. a loner, pathetic loser, and a nobody with a pretty face.
because what was a pretty face if you had no friends and a social life?
you almost believed you would die alone, you were too socially awkward to make friends. so when sim jaeyun, the transferee, approached you with a warm smile and a hand outstretched for a shake, you were beyond shocked.
your relationship went from being block mates, friends, then next thing you knew you two were dating. at first you were reluctant to enter a relationship, scared that it would ruin your friendship, but he insisted you both tried. that was three months ago.
you didn't have any friends, but atleast you had jake.
jake who smiles at you as if you had carved the stars in your hands. jake who would never forget to bring your coffee every morning. he was everything you ever needed. he was it for you, you only hoped he felt the same towards you.
walking through the hallway of the school, you stopped infront of your locker only to be met with a sticky note on it.
HOW LONG CAN JAKE LAST WITH LOSER L/N?
A WEEK : ć - ć - ć - ć - III
FIVE MONTHS : ć - I
A YEAR : II
Furrowing your brows, you stare at the note as your breathing grew heavy. It was obvious that the paper was old, it had folds and it was only stuck on your locker with a washi tape.
"what are you doing l/n? go on, cast your vote." a mocking voice said from beside you followed by a bunch of laughter. "personally, i thought he'd last a day. i guess i'll vote for five months then." then the hand went and tallied on the five months category.
"what's going on here?" upon hearing your boyfriend's voice, you fled away immediately, not wanting to face him. everytime something good happens in your life, it's always ripped away from you. jake was just like them, you were just a toy for their own entertainment.
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PARK SUNGHOON (wc 0.5k)
"i'm sorry baby, i really am busy with practice tomorrow." your boyfriend, sunghoon, says in genuine sorry. it was the fifth time you have asked him to meet your parents, who also by the way was so desperate to meet the boy you've been dating for seven months now.
every time you ask him, he's always busy. either with practice, a project, a family matter, or whatever excuse he can come up with. but you always brush it off, knowing he means well and he really is busy as he's an athlete student.
"i'll meet them next week, okay? i promise." that's also the same thing he says everytime too, and once again, you only nod in response.
you and sunghoon met in a physics class. he was clutching his head with a frown on his face as he desperately tried to understand what the professor was going on about.
you remember clearly the way he approached you in the library, a physics book on his left hand as his right scratched his nape. "can.. i noticed- uh, can you help me with this topic?"
that was where your relationship started. you tutored him and helped him improve his grade. when he got an A on the finals, he kissed you on the lips in glee. he was taken aback by his own actions but nevertheless asked you out after.
"i love you," he whispers, pressing a kiss on your temple. "let me get something from my room." you hum in response as he takes his arm that was previously wrapped around you before going up to his room.
you can't help but notice the way his phone was blowing up from beside you.
you weren't the type to snoop around other people's phones, especially your boyfriend. it just felt wrong, you trusted him fully. but the way it kept ringing with text notifications, you just couldn't help it.
looking back to the stairs, you note he isn't back and there was still rummaging noises from his room.
taking his phone, you enter his passcode and read the messages from one of his group chats.
JONGSU
lol don't tell me she asked again.. em ba rrah sing
DAEHYUN
hahah when is she gonna take a hint?? đ
JOON
you gonna blame her? hoon's been at it for months lmao
DAEHYUN
i actually can't believe he went that far, wasn't it only supposed to be for a month? đż
JONGSU
a week actually, but ig that bitch y/n was so easy. yk hoon likes to get his ego fed đđ
putting the phone down, you exhaled in disbelief. you took your bag from the floor and threw it over your shoulder and went to the door of his apartment to put your shoes back on.
"baby?" sunghoon emerged from the stairs, looking at you curiously. "you're going already?" he asked, extending an arm towards you but you slapped it away. the tears on your eyes shocking him.
"hey, hey what's wrong?" he tried again but his hand was yet again slapped away.
"i don't want to see you ever again." was the last words you uttered to him (shakily) before leaving his apartment.
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HE'S SUCH A (HOT) LOSER! â CHOSO KAMO
SYNOPSIS...nsfw and sfw headcanons about loser!choso bc I canât get him out of my head after righting that drabble about him
INFO...loser!choso x fem!reader, socially awkward, virgin!choso, jerking off, virginity loss, sexual acts, creampie,
OTHER...likes and reblogs are appreciated
loser!choso who literally has no friends, is the epitome of socially awkward and always ends making the conversation weird when he opens his mouth
loser!choso who has never seen a woman naked in real life, he just goes on porn sites and jerks his dick until it feels like itâs about to fall off, cum painted on his toned stomach
loser!choso who has sex toys in his closet, fleshlights, pocket pussies, whatever you call themâhe has at least two, one of them even vibrates
loser!choso who is (you guessed it) a total virgin, heâs never even gotten close enough to lose it, yet alone have his first kiss
loser!choso who is forced by yuji to go on a dating app and try to find a girlfriend, and he ends up matching with you
loser!choso who stays in his room, playing video games, or goes to the gym, otherwise the poor boy has no social life (like I said, he has no friends)
loser!choso who finally goes on his first date with you and heâs sweating, stumbling over his words because youâre smiling at him, grabbing his hand and making jokes all while looking like some sort of goddess. He was starting to wonder if heâs dreaming
loser!choso who is absolutely stunned when you express how cute you think he is, how nice his hair looks, and he doesnât know how to react so he just stands there and smiles at you like a complete idiot
loser!choso who drives home after the date and he genuinely canât wait to get home to jerk off to the thought of you, so he pulls into an empty parking and pulls his pants down right there, tip already leaking precum when he remembers the way your tits were popping out of you dress
loser!choso who thinks the date went horribly wrong until youâre texting him the next day, already planning the next time you meet up, weirdly inviting him over to your place
loser!choso who is obsessed with titties (clearly) no matter what size. He imagines himself getting a hold of pair and just grabbing them, sucking them, it turns him on so bad
loser!choso who thinks nothing of going over your house until he gets his one wish, getting a hold of your tits in his hands, and heâs star struck, just groping, squeezing and without thinking heâs sucking on them
loser!choso who ends up losing his virginity a few minutes later with you bouncing up and down on his cock, pussy gushing around him. Heâs in literal heaven and can barely think, brain turned to mush
loser!choso who realizes real sex is better than porn fairly quickly, and lets just say he becomes more obsessed with you than ever cause itâs so much more intimate when youâre holding him, praising him, calling him a good boy
loser!choso who cums in your pussy so many times that night, and the aftermath leaves him stuck in the same spot on your bed while you cuddle up to him and tell him how much you like him even if youâve only known him for two days
loser!choso who now has his first ever girlfriend, his first everything with you and he canât wait to brag to yuji about it because youâre absolutely gorgeous
loser!choso who shows you off on his social media despite the twenty followers that he has, he just want to show off his girlfriend to whoever he can
loser!choso who gets weird stares in public from other men when heâs out with you because he knows youâre way out of his league, but just to make them jealous he grabs you and kisses you in front of them
loser!choso who doesnât develop a sense of fashion until he meets you, going to countless stores as you pick out outfits thatâll look good on him, and he wonât lie, youâve done a very good job because heâs gained much more confidence in himself
loser!choso who goes on and on about his special interests and you sit there smiling at him, listening intently. Heâs lowkey a nerd but you love it
loser!choso who hangs with no one but you, missing you constantly and randomly showing up at your house when he feels like youâve spent too much time apart
loser!choso who wants to learn how to pleasure you more so he looks up videos on how to eat pussy and watches all the porn he can to study their movements, but when he tells you, you just laugh and say how silly he is, showing him a hands on tutorial, instructing him on what to do and what you like
loser!choso who constantly asks if he made you cum, poor baby doesnât want you to go around unsatisfied so he doesnât everything in his power to make you feel good no matter what
loser!choso who is (obviously) the quiet type, so he studies what you like and what you do by watching you and when he grabs your exact fast food order without you saying anything, youâre standing there confused and heâs looking down at you like âwhat?â
loser!choso who has a glow up because of you, and girls that have rejected him come crawling back into his life not knowing about you, so he just hits them with the âmy beautiful girl who I love very much does not like you talking to me byeâ and blocks them
loser!choso who is actually very sweet despite his awkwardness, he might look stand offish in person and act weird around others, but when heâs comfortable with you hes a different person
loser!choso who gets you anything you ask for, spending countless amounts of money on you even if you donât ask for it, he just loves you so much he wants to show his appreciation in every way whether thatâs spoiling you or making you cum
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know someone who enjoys horror stories? share this one! it's true!
hahahahahahahahahaha aarrggghhhhhhhhhh 3,000,000 deaths due to COVID-19 last year. Globally. Three million. Case rates higher than 90% of the rest of the pandemic. The reason people are still worried about COVID is because it has a way of quietly fucking up your body. And the risk is cumulative.
I'm going to say that again: the risk is cumulative.
It's not just that a lot of people get bad long-term effects from it. One in seven or so? Enough that it's kind of the Russian Roulette of diseases. It's also that the more times you get it, the higher that risk becomes. Like if each time you survived Russian Roulette, the empty chamber was removed from the gun entirely. The worst part is that, psychologically, we have the absolute opposite reaction. If we survive something with no ill effects, we assume it's pretty safe. It is really, really hard to override that sense of, "Ok, well, I got it and now I probably have a lot of immunity and also it wasn't that bad." It is not a respiratory disease. Airborne, yes. Respiratory disease, no: not a cold, not a flu, not RSV.
Like measles (or maybe chickenpox?), it starts with respiratory symptoms. And then it moves to other parts of your body. It seems to target the lungs, the digestive system, the heart, and the brain the most.
It also hits the immune system really hard - a lot of people are suddenly more susceptible to completely unrelated viruses. People get brain fog, migraines, forget things they used to know.
(I really, really hate that it can cross the blood-brain barrier. NOTHING SHOULD EVER CROSS THE BLOOD-BRAIN BARRIER IT IS THERE FOR A REASON.) Anecdotal examples of this shit are horrifying. I've seen people talk about coworkers who've had COVID five or more times, and now their work... just often doesn't make sense? They send emails that say things like, "Sorry, I didn't mean Los Angeles, I meant Los Angeles."
Or they insist they've never heard of some project that they were actually in charge of a year or two before.
Or their work is just kind of falling apart, and they don't seem to be aware of it.
People talk about how they don't want to get the person in trouble, so their team just works around it. Or they describe neighbors and relatives who had COVID repeatedly, were nearly hospitalized, talked about how incredibly sick they felt at the time... and now swear they've only had it once and it wasn't bad, they barely even noticed it.
(As someone who lived with severe dissociation for most of my life, this is a genuinely terrifying idea to me. I've already spent my whole life being like, "but what if I told them that already? but what if I did do that? what if that did happen to me and I just don't remember?") One of its known effects in the brain is to increase impulsivity and risk-taking, which is real fucking convenient honestly. What a fantastic fucking mutation. So happy for it on that one. Yes, please make it seem less important to wear a mask and get vaccinated. I'm not screaming internally at all now.
I saw a tweet from someone last year whose family hadn't had COVID yet, who were still masking in public, including school.
She said that her son was no kind of an athlete. Solidly bottom middle of the pack in gym.
And suddenly, this year, he was absolutely blowing past all the other kids who had to run the mile. He wasn't running any faster. His times weren't fantastic or anything. It's just that the rest of the kids were worse than him now. For some reason. I think about that a lot. (Like my incredibly active six-year-old getting a cold, and suddenly developing post-viral asthma that looked like pneumonia.
He went back to school the day before yesterday, after being home for a month and using preventative inhalers for almost week.
He told me that it was GREAT - except that he couldn't run as much at recess, because he immediately got really tired. Like how I went outside with him to do some yard work and felt like my body couldn't figure out how to increase breathing and heart rate.
I wasn't physically out of breath, but I felt like I was out of breath. That COVID feeling people describe, of "I'm not getting enough air." Except that I didn't have that problem when I had COVID.) Some people don't observe any long (or medium) term side effects after they have it.
But researchers have found viral reservoirs of COVID-19 in everyone they've studied who had it.
It just seems to hang out, dormant, for... well, longer than we've had an opportunity to observe it, so far.
(I definitely watched that literal horror movie. I think that's an entire genre. The alien dormant under ice in the Arctic.)
(oh hey I don't like that either!!!!!!!!!) All of which is to explain why we should still care about avoiding it, and how it manages to still cause excess deaths. Measuring excess deaths has been a standard tool in public health for a long time.
We know how many people usually die from all different causes, every year. So we can tell if, for example, deaths from heart disease have gone way up in the past three years, and look for reasons. Those are excess deaths: deaths that, four years ago, would not have happened. During the pandemic, excess death rates have been a really important tool. For all sorts of reasons. Like, sometimes people die from COVID without ever getting tested, and the official cause is listed as something else because nobody knows they had COVID. But also, people are dying from cardiovascular illness much younger now.
People are having strokes and heart attacks younger, and more often, than they did before the pandemic started. COVID causes a lot of problems. And some of those problems kill people. And some of them make it easier for other things to kill us. Lung damage from COVID leading to lungs collapsing, or to pneumonia, or to a pulmonary embolism, for example. The Economist built a machine-learning model with a 95% confidence interval that gauges excess death statistics around the world, to tell them what the true toll of the ongoing COVID pandemic has been so far.
Total excess deaths globally in 2023: Three million.
3,000,000.
Official COVID-19 deaths globally so far: Seven million. 7,000,000. Total excess deaths during COVID so far: Thirty-five point two million. 35,200,000.
Five times as many.
That's bad. I don't like that at all. I'm glad last year was less than a tenth of that. I'm not particularly confident about that continuing, though, because last year we started a period of really high COVID transmission. Case rates higher than 90% of the rest of the pandemic. Here's their data, and charts you can play with, and links to detailed information on how they did all of this:
Here's a non-paywalled link to it:
https://archive.vn/2024.01.26-012536/https://www.economist.com/graphic-detail/coronavirus-excess-deaths-estimates
Oh: here's a link to where you can buy comfy, effective N95 masks in all sizes:
Those ones are about a buck each after shipping - about $30 for a box of 30. They also have sample packs for a dollar, so you can try a couple of different sizes and styles.
You can wear an N95 mask for about 40 total hours before the effectiveness really drops, so that's like a dollar for a week of wear.
They're also family-owned and have cat-shaped masks and I really love them. These ones are cuter and in a much wider range of colors, prints, and styles, but they're also more expensive; they range from $1.80 to $3 for a mask. ($18-$30 for a box of ten.)
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