#OUGHHH.... this one hits

[tacticalhimbo]

—OCS and CORE THEMES

tagged by the gorgeous @perpetuagf , who also made the banner in this post and has me STILL cryin over them 🩷 anyway, putting the oc(s) through this uquiz [ link ] ! i'm gonna steal the tag list from my last few posts so sorry for the spam! these are always no pressure tags, so dw if you wanna skip over any 🩷 @vendettavalor (always love tagging ur rp blog for these hehe) , @ollierachnid , @alexxmason , @kourumi , @carlosoliveiraa , @scarfacemarston , @bbrocklesnar , and anybody else who wants to hop on!

this is the last post i had drafted so yippee! also last one i'll do tonight because i'm too lazy to format anything else—

THE FRIEND

you love to feel the warmth of a friend's hand in yours. food tastes better when it is made by a friend. you are kind and forgiving, and you treat your friends with ultimate compassion. you love your friends. you are grateful for every friend that comes and goes in your life. you miss many friends. you wish more friends kept in contact with you. you wish that you were not so forgiving sometimes but everyone has their vices. your friends take precedence over everyone. you would not be anywhere without them. you want to, one day, hold them up, too. you want to be someone depended on - someone needed. you want to be needed by somebody. you want to be wanted in the same way you want.

your painting is "the three friends" by sebastian straub.

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

hey ofmd fandom are y’all “this woman’s work” gays or “run from me” gays?? because while i know we all love the end of episode three and that song choice really was perfect, i am obsessed with run from me and the end of episode two. that song is living in my brain.

[scaredspoons]

conveyer belt sushi

[eteledhasanaxe]

the fact that I read that and saw red/white color scheme and immediately thought of DeKiller despite not even finishing that case and it being not at all Ace Attorney related in the slightest absolutely kills me

its not even been like four months since I've started playing/liking Ace Attorney but this fandom has already absolutely wrecked my brain and I love it

[milo-is-rambling]

Too emotional to jump back into the fic where I was earlier I’m gonna just bail on this one for now and read if eve ain’t in your garden

[coelakanths]

bad memory + pretty alright at poetry = crying when i reread stuff ive written

[grimmwulf-a]

music blast . @silenthcwl asked: boss battle for Helios GO

FOR THE EMPEROR'S AMUSEMENT [TARGET ISOLATED] - you should've run when you had the chance.

[volivolition]

guy who loves the skills: i am going. to cry.

Have you seen the new chapter of the fury of a shatter mirror 👀

[opens Ao3]

...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fuck-you-upmusicbracket]

21 Guns (American Idiot the Musical)

Do you know what's worth fighting for/When it's not worth dying for/Does it take your breath away/And you feel yourself suffocating

"OUGH KEY CHANGE AT THE END OUGH VIBEYS OUGH FELLAS BE JOININ IN OUGHHH HARMONIES OUGH THE END OUGHHHHHHHHHH REBECCA NAOMI JONES OUGH IM DYING"

Has Thou Considered the Tetrapod (The Mountain Goats)

Held under these smothering waves/By your strong and thick-veined hand/But one of these days/I'm gonna wriggle up on dry land

"Songs about abusive parents dont normally get to me but john darnielle just has such a way with words that this one made me cry the first time i heard it. hes really good at taking just a snapshot of a situation and coloring it with so much depth that you feel like you know exactly how the singer (in this case his childhood self) is feeling in this very specific moment, and it hits so much harder when your experiences overlap. the metaphor of surviving abuse as evolution against all odds is incredibly powerful to me. maybe this tournament is supposed to be more for songs to think about fictional characters to so apologies if this is too personal for what youre going for lol"

[forgettable-au]

How did you envision 'slipping through my fingers' to work with Forgettable?? I LOVE LOVE LOVE that song and when i make the animatic thing of it I REALLY wanna do it justice

I might start rambling about this so I'll add a keep reading lol

OKAY SO I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THAT SONG FOR THIS AU FOR SOOOOOO LONG

Gonna use this as my chance to talk about it lol

Okay so, it's definitely from Sans POV!

The very first part could be about leaving for work, Wingdings is probably working from very early in the morning! Sans takes it more easy

and like "The feeling that I'm losing her forever. And without really entering her world" OH MY GOD THAT PART

IT WORKS SO WELL

He actually is losing him forever soon

Sans still doesn't fully understand what Wingdings thinks, which must be frustrating

"Slipping through my finger all the time" OUGHHH HE IS SLIPPING THROUGH HIS FINGERS

AND THEN "each time I think I'm close to knowing. She keeps on growing" Sans might think he's close to comprehending things, but Wingdings keeps changing and surprising him and it's at a faster pace everytime (until he's changed so much he's like a different person...and also at some point he becomes Papyrus, that also happens)

YOU GUYS HAVE TO UNDERSTAND,,, THEY'RE THE SAME AGE BUT SANS REALLY DOES SEE WINGDINGS AS HIS YOUNGER BROTHER,,,

I mean, he's always been taking care of him, helping him communicate, sticking with him through school, college, the lab

The fact that Dings is so far away from his grasp/understanding is AUGH

Why did I make this AU so self-indulgent, it is SO angsty in just the way that hits me hard LMAO Idk as someone with a little sibling, brother!Gaster hurts me more than father!Gaster

You've heard about monsters getting a sense of deja vu when seeing the human

Now ...what about Sans getting a sense of premonition about what's gonna happen?

This part would definitely be about their wish to be on the surface someday and all the other dreams they had

Some of them they did (getting that job at the lab), but most they didn't (seeing the real stars)

I envision this part as the last happy thing that happened before the incident! A little group photo! Wish you could freeze the picture? Wish things could stay this way forever? WELL, I'M SORRY BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN!

Time is about to play a very silly game! (also this is so fitting with Gaster doing weird time things, maybe he is the funny tricks of time)

I obviously can't say what the incident is or how it plays out... because... that would be a huge spoiler... to the people reading this, you'll need to use your imagination!

Then there's the whole guitar part! Love that part! I imagine in the animatic I'm gonna make about this someday that there will be a shot of Sans' arm trying to reach one last time... sigh... The day I finally make this animatic it will be amazing...

But I really can't rn because spoilers! THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU GUYS CAN'T TRY TO DO ONE I WOULD LOVE TO SEE THAT

Then we can have two, or more idk

OKAY! That last part of the song mirrors the first part of the song!

But this time!!!!! IT'S PAPYRUS!!! Leaving early In the morning for royal guard duties :D gotta calibrate those puzzles early!

AND THAT'S IT!!!!! obviously avoiding spoilers! but OH MY GOD

I SWEAR THIS SONG WAS ONE OF THE SONG THAT INSPIRED ME TO MAKE THIS AN ACTUAL COMIC BECAUSE I NEEDED TO MAKE THAT ANIMATIC AND FOR PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND UJFIEF

What a girl is willing to do just so people can understand her silly angst animatic c: a whole comic

[not-equippedforthis]

really love characters who have varied panic responses. kirk stating himself that he does not panic outright, externally, not in high-stress dangerous situations, but instead becomes tense and level like a wound string, on-guard: mostly because his role as captain necessitates that he maintain level rationality even when facing potential death as his training as 'the guy who tells you what to do when shit hits the fan' requires, but also because his childhood experiences taught him early that drowning in the desperate haziness of panic won't help you survive. especially as kirk already follows his intuition so deeply. he learned to grasp and contort the feeling. spock is the main person who represses his emotions, of course, but kirk does it to those deep-set, personal ones (this includes how he doesn't reveal anything truly personal about himself willingly 90% of the time, only what others already know/shallow anecdotes) in a much more subtle way that's really interesting to me. certified expert at avoiding the subject as long as he isnt caught out on the lie. professional bluffer.

in terms of past or parents we dont know much!!! hes known as the heart-on-his-sleeve guy!!! like yes he yells, he gets irritated, excited, hes a whirlwind of quick-thinking and plans and intuition, he goes out of his way to connect with his crew and shows it, when he puts on a little act or bluff he puts his heart into it and clearly enjoys the dramatics so much, at times he wears his heart on his sleeve, he laughs openly and is honest to spock about what he means to him, he's very sun-coded to me in a burning, passionate way, always intertwined with the stars and seeking them out, but when it comes to genuine deep-set turmoil? we dont actually know all that much about him??? hes so full of emotion and character (i love fics where spock characterises jim's mind/bond as a whirl of colour and sensations, hes a quick thinker!!! intuitive!! lively!!!) and yet its still so outwardly surface level. tarsus iv gets mentioned like twice? so especially here where kirk gets briefly jumpscared by the creature, because like:

its subtle but his eyes. his eyesss!!!!! kirk commands with his emotions but there's always some sort of level of control to it, or he transforms them into something that spurs on others or uses them to ascertain a goal: seeing unguarded fear/distress in his eyes even if its faint and brief (in this instance) makes me go insane every single time. like!!! its such a small moment!!! he isnt even panicking!!! really, he just got jumpscared!!! its insignificant!!!!!!! but seeing a two-second flash of actual, naked apprehension is just...oughhh,,,,,,,,,

oh god, and dont even get me started on the galileo seven episode where he assumes a tense level-headedness throughout the whole thing, irritated and apprehensive but not panicking, making sure he maintains intelligent rationality, even when he has to leave them behind, but when spock and the crew are confirmed safe and the bridge is occupied the camera pans to him and his eyes look like they're fucking watering and he's so achingly relieved. don't even talk to me. im. fuck.

he shows so so much but at the same time reveals so little.

[strobbylemonade]

canto 7 pt 3 spoilers and thoughts and stuff

i really didn't expect her to be like.. locked up. by herself. its so sad. i feel so bad for her in the lighthouse. also the I WANT YOU poster cracked me up.

vergilius calling her "my lady" was cute. i thought we were going to get more of their friendship this canto but apparently not. maybe later :( but also what's up with his eyes?? who's his old friend??? WHO did he take the eyes from?? it's not don quixote because he still has his eyes, so it's either the bloodfiend moses spoke with, or it's the progenitor?? or there's more first-gen blood fiends we don't know about.

adding more guesses to the dante's identity flame:

dante is bari/the bookhunter

dante is vergilius' "old friend"

dante is the bloodfiend vergilius got his eyes from

dante is verigilius' old friend who IS the bloodfiend vergilius got his eyes from

dante is dante and their old self is destroyed

dante is an extremely powerful unknown character who gets their memories back but after their canto they pull a don quixote and chooses to live the rest of their lives as the dante we know

sanchos expressions were really really awesome. she's just so... augh....

THESE GUYS REALLY PISSED ME OFF.

i'm not smart enough to understand the implications of this. but ??? sinclair standing up for donqui?? yaaaayy!!!! the sign??? and also him paralleling bari is definitely not a coincidence. i wonder what the mark of cain has to do with it all.

i didn't notice while i was playing but sinclair starts blushing when he asks her to open up. they're so cute. and they're trying their hardest to be vulnerable to their fucked up lil family. i love them.

WE GOT OUTIS LORE!!! LET'S GO!!! this was surprisingly vulnerable of her... and dante's response of "I will. As long as they have the will to change, to move forward, I will be there for them." was great. also girl what do you mean TENS OF THOUSANDS??? i'm starting to think outis has a lot more guilt for the smoke war than she lets on.

uhh and speaking of change that's another theme that's popping up more interestingly enough. yi sang, sinclair, and being "unable to change" is what caused heathcliff to distort. interesting narrative theme. (starts side eyeing dante and outis). also change being one of the biggest themes of library of ruina, with roland and angela needing to break the cycle of the City to achieve their good ending.

bari is cool as shit

the cutscene that follows this where they're all talking about how much fun they had with donqui through the stageplay was genuinely both so cheesy and sweet i almost cried.

oughhh i'm not bothered to grab screenshots from every part i enjoyed of the final point so we're doing dot points again!

sancho's backstory of being born alone and wishing to die before don quixote gave her love and life was... holy shit. "That is why you saved my life from the periphery of death... tried to share your love... and made my heart beat again."

again with the themes of suicide. the original don quixote sees sancho as special because she doesn't want to inflict suffering on others and instead simply wishes to "burn myself to ashes like I was never here". and that's how she gets her first family. because she suffered alone. and then don quixote makes his children suffer alone in la manchaland.

"I don't know who I am" lyric in Hero hits really song. YEAH I FORGOT TO MENTION MILI PEAK!!! it really feels like some of their older music, especially something from mahoyaku (the Big Moon in the background during the final phase certainly helped). the second part sounds especially like Cast Me a Spell. or something from miracle milk with the way the instrumentals and sfx sound. i really like it.

DON QUIXOTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WAAAAAAAAAAA WAAAAA

"She was incandescent, like a brilliant star twinkling in the night sky. / That very brilliance compelled me to reach out and hope." OUGHHH. dante's role in this chapter has been really interesting... they're like her, they're chained to their past but are also playing the role of someone who they don't know who they're meant to be. they have a really passive role in bringing sancho back to the Gang, with the other sinners stepping in to help her moreso than dante themselves, and then at the end, it's sancho who saves them, acts as their star, and gives them their dreams back (of having all the sinners together as one big happy family).

and just. holy shit. this entire sequence.

I DID NOT EXPECT A QUICKTIME EVENT!! big cast a spell vibes... i genuinely gasped when the fireworks went off..

LMAO SHE'S MAKING FUN OF HIM FOR THE ROCINANTE THING. also kyaa hong lu's teaching dante how to smile!!! i'm sure this won't have any terrifying implications next canto!!! definitely!! there's some interesting parallels to what donqui said about dante having an "expression" and what demian said about being able to hear them all the way back in canto iii, because donqui/demian listen to their "heart" and not their actual face/voice. interesting

also new dante sprite please???? please??? new dante pose perhaps even??? please????

interesting we're getting the clock ticking closer to doomsday after canto 7 and not 8. with the trajectory they're on, doomsday will happen during or after outis' canto (and before faust's). fun. can't wait for the random lore drop next intervallo/event where they take turns feeding don quixote their blood. please. please. please???

mili peak. pass on peak. feelings peak. augh. i love my idiot family and their pet Cosmic Horror Entity. although i would argue it's a family of 15 and not 12!!! i love found family!!!!

[hearted-anon]

heyyyy if you take requests do you think you could do lee! seungmin and ler! lee know (or) hyunjin? i feel like everyone always goes rough in seungmin when wrecking him, poor puppy 😭🤚. would it be possible for soft tickles instead?

"What did I know?"

Words: 1,437 Note: Their friendship is so much to go into despite me really liking Hyunibini recently I really love their friendship OUGHHH T/w: Angst, lore, swearing Taglist: @reginald-stay09 @itzsana-kiddingmenow @hetashi-takashimaya-apollos-kid @soap143 @jungwon-is-the-one Lee: Seungmin Ler: Hyunjin

"What did I know?" Seungmin mumbled to himself, stepping out of Hyunjin's room after having calmed him down from his panic attack. He was right, despite the almost blunt words that seemed to make the elder happier than anything else the members told him as reassurance, something deep down in him regretted saying what he had said. Sometimes he wished he wasn't so straightforward with everything, able to give a little more than what has happened. However, as much as he wanted to, nothing ever came out as detailed as he'd like it to be, only the down-to-earth advice that was given that the members all appeared to take.

Everybody but him, it almost felt like so.

Opening the door back into his shared dorm with Felix, it stung how easily the Aussie was able to sense even the slightest shift in his mood, immediately rushing over to question about his well-being. Despite his desperate attempts to brush off his feelings as nothing, it wasn't enough to get past the elder's sharp gaze and observations, huffing before dragging the vocalist to the couch, which were adorned with skzoo plushies, something they both collectively decided on together. Swallowing back a snarky reply, he was swept away by the sweet scent of brownies and tea; he should remind Minho not to teach Felix bribery with food by now, but he forgets each time.

"Ah, so that's what you feel. You know, you don't always have to compare yourself to others, each person has their own way of comforting others; you're still you and are helping even if you're blunt at it. As they say, 'just follow my lane'." Felix coaxes calmly, the teacup pressing against his lips as he takes a sip of the warm beverage, waiting for the words he said to sink in. The thing is, Seungmin didn't even know how to reply to what was said, the words hitting all the way back home in such a way that left him completely speechless.

"But I look at others, and then myself, they seem to be better than me in this thing. Why's that? I keep going back at it without knowing," Seungmin finally manages out with a resigned sigh, placing his head in his hands. His cup of tea was left untouched, the brewed concoction unable to bring him out of the space that he's created for himself. Not even sparing a glance in his direction, the Aussie looped his arm around the elder's shoulder, clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth.

"Don't compare yourself with others, as they say, 'It's okay to run slower, just follow my lane, take it easy, just look ahead and run'. Think you can do that with Hyunjin? There's no need to rush after all, go at your pace," Felix questions, and for once Seungmin takes the stupid advice, even if it sounds awfully familiar in the back of his mind.

But the moment he makes it to Hyunjin and Changbin's shared apartment, it all falls apart. He looks at Changbin first, cooking something while Hyunjin nags his ear off, it's how their relationship has been; an oddly age swapped pair where all Changbin does is try his best while Hyunjin makes a daily attempt to bite his ears off with a constant talk and nitpicking on how his food could taste better. And it's working! Somehow, the rapper never fights against the criticism, only melting into a puddle of happiness when he sees Hyunjin's and his cheeks stuffed with food. Something in him stirs, seeing how affectionate they were with each other, and he doesn't know why.

"Ah, we've got visitors, go entertain them! And stop touching me while I'm cooking!" Changbin yells across the hallway, a pink apron adorned around his waist while Hyunjin squeezes his waist one more time for reassurance on something unknown, and in no time flat he zooms towards Seungmin. The moment he sees the taller staring in front of him, everything Felix told him went out the window. Why was he staring at him like he was his next meal? Damn, his arms look amazing, bulging out of his tank top and veiny as hell- is that his skzoo in Hyunjin's pocket?

"Yes, it is, Changbin has Chan in his hoodie, and the rest are somewhere on his bed," He's been staring at Hyunjin for so goddamn long he didn't even know he was talking aloud, wasn't that just great? Being led into their cozy apartment, he allows himself to be dragged into the artist's room, scattered with paint and splotches of colour that he knew Changbin has endlessly whined about, eventually succumbing when the entire house looked like an art piece in itself.

"Did you come over to talk about something? You usually let us know before coming over." Fuck, how did Hyunjin just, instantly know whatever was going through his mind? Were him and Felix just crazy good mind readers, or was he just that easy to read? Letting out a sigh he didn't know he was holding, staring right into Hyunjin's eyes while explaining his situation feels like absolute hell, why did he just look majestic like that?

"Yea, I just feel like, I should be more sensitive about things y'know? Especially with you, Felix told me to talk to you about it. I- I feel like I'm too blunt about things, and what's so good about- Wahahahait!" Before he can explain himself fully, he forgets everything when two hands immediately begin to squeeze his sides tenderly. Hyunjin doesn't say anything yet, and Seungmin immediately thinks opening up about this was a complete mistake, and yet he can't stop the melody of giggles that tumble from his mouth.

"… is this really what you think of yourself? You may be 'blunt', or whatever bullshit you've called yourself, but your eyes always tell a different story," Dang it, he and Felix should really stop swearing during their gaming sessions, the other members are already beginning to pick up on it. But nonetheless, the artist's words did definitely lighten up the mood, hearing what he was exactly in other's people's eyes made him feel warm and fuzzy, especially since it was from Hyunjin of all people.

"Ahaha! I gehehet it! Plehehease!" Around others, all but him, he's never felt so weak, so vulnerable. Hyunjin was never one to skimp on the affection towards his maknaes, and especially when it came to glorifying their abilities, he excelled at that; just like how he excelled in literally everything else, Seungmin thinks. However, he's stumped when the fingers don't slow down or stop, the gentle feeling making the butterflies in his stomach tenfold, cheeks brightening when the taller places his chin onto the vocalist's shoulder, completely silent.

"Arghahaha! T-That reheheheally tickles!" Seungmin begs, despite the sensations being so soft against his skin, careful with it as if it was made of glass, it felt relentless, almost like a lesson that Hyunjin wanted to stick onto the puppy. His legs kick, he pushes at the nimble fingers weakly, and squeals loudly when a gentle kiss was placed against his skin, sending a shiver and peals of giggles to leave his mouth. And throughout all this, that damned menace was quiet, the soft sizzling of the stove being heard in the background.

"Hyuhuhung! I'm behehegging you!" It was only then did Hyunjin decide it was a good time to let up on the vocalist, slowing to a stop with his fingers drumming against his stomach to keep a few breathless giggles slipping out of his mouth. As if by a stroke of luck, Changbin waltzes into the room with two grilled cheese sandwiches that he looked awfully proud of, along with a bowl of tomato soup. Staring at them both in silent permission, Hyunjin nods while Seungmin gives a tiny thumbs up, and it was only then did the eldest of the trio place the glass plate onto the artist's nightstand, smiling widely and leaving the room.

"Don't ever think so lowly of yourself again, okay? Come, eat, I know you're tired. And Hyung makes really good sandwiches," Munching on a bite of the crispy bread and melty cheese, Seungmin thinks he can get used to the strange feeling in his heart, shaking his head as Hyunjin chases Changbin down, realising in the sandwich were slices of eggplant. Ah, classic comforter Changbin, Seungmin wondered, enjoying bites of his food, and his full heart as footsteps and squeals rang through the noisy apartment.

Even then, he was pretty sure almost every member knew about this by now.

[d011zk1ll]

02:41 am. Entry one. Thinking about alyanette. OUGHHH alyanette. Oughhhh alyanette. I can feel my insides withering as the lack of alyanette hits me. I can feel the withdrawal symptoms. I should sleep. But alyanette. OUGHHH. I must. I must make them kiss like two Barbie's. OUGHHH.

[frozenhi-chews]

okay you've gotta tell me all about starlo, I am so interested in your ship with him ajsjsjs

HOOOOOO MAN. OH GOSH. You have no idea what ya just unleashed!! I hope ya don't mind some spoilers from Undertale Yellow, the game where he's from. I HIGHLY recommend you play it! (You can play Undertale beforehand, but it's kinda it's own thing. There are references but it's overall it's own thing)

That being said, STARLO FROM UNDERTALE YELLOW! Spoilers ahead

This!! This is my cowboy husband!! North Star, as he introduces himself in the game. He has a posse called the Feisty Five, which consists of his friends Ed, Moray, Mooch, and Ace.

Named them in order, left to right. (Also hi Martlet)

Stars gets excited seeing a human, a COWBOY human, and takes them to the saloon where he starts infodumping about humans and Westerns (no Starlo, humans aren't fireproof XD)

Then we meet his childhood friend, Ceroba, as she talks to Stars as he's infodumping. I love Ceroba, she's so cool! Anyway she gets him to stop talking cuz Yeah. He probably would continue FOR HOURS XD

Anyway then the sheriff let's ya explore the town, and you do these lessons for him, a dual (or duel), him giving you a gun (WHICH HAS THE BEST LINE IN THE GAME I AM NOT KIDDING) and a trolley problem. Pffft. And in between these lessons you can go around and talk to the residents, take a nap in the Feisty Five's and Ceroba's house, and talk to Ceroba about why he loves cowboys and Westerns so much

When he was a kid, he found these VCR tapes about Westerns, and he watched them so much, showing them to his friend, being so excited about them. Front to back, left to right. He loved these things. And based his life around Westerns.

Anyway at the end of your training, he dubs Clover the Deputy of the Wild East! (That's what the town is called) and the other four get upset. He leaves for the mines to get a badge, and some resentment they had building up since the lessons began finally starts breaking and ya end up in a fight with them. Stars soon comes back and they all have an argument about what's happening, and soon they all leave the posse. And Ceroba even agrees that he's being a bit Too Much.

And so he runs off. Stopping halfway, looking at his family's farm, and when you catch up, he's barely holding onto his cowboy persona. Now known as Starlo thanks to Ed, and he's thinking getting a human soul would fix his reputation. So he builds up the rest of his shattered persona and fights ya

Only Ceroba snaps him out of it (his fight is SO PRETTY too like. OUGHHH)

After that he calms down and starts talking, he takes off his hat and it turns out he's a nerd. He's got glasses on. He even says you're allowed to make fun which is. oUCH. (Something tells me he was bullied as a kid in school)

After all that you go to his family's farm. He's got a brother most say is older (as an eldest sibling, he just has Those Vibes. Poor Orion). And a mom and dad. His dad (Solomon) says that Starlo hasn't visited in years, but he believes his son wanted to help save the farm. Even when LARPing as a cowboy. He also puts on an accent that some people say his dad taught him to use

His mom, Crestina, is adorable and I wanna give her a hug. Anyway she talks about how Starlo used to have a crush on Ceroba growing up, but he was too shy to take initiative. Ceroba ended up marrying someone else, Chujin, and Stars was so heartbroken he didn't leave his room for days. He was eventually told he needed to get over it (he's such a good friend. Chujin died and Ceroba's daughter fell, so she's a grieving widow and he never hit on her. Just wanted to make her happy, which is why he does the cowboy thing)

It's even said that Starlo and Chujin did NOT like each other. Chujin hates humans, one almost attacked his daughter. And Starlo is embracing human culture by doing the whole Wild East thing. So yeah They Did Not Like Each Other. I also think Starlo was a bit jealous of Chujin cuz he married his childhood crush. They just didn't like each other

Oh yeah he also drank magma to impress Ceroba

I'm sure there's more but I have to Do Things and I've exhausted almost all of it. Fienkfkrkfkrjr I love himmmmmmmmmm

[fatuismooches]

SMOOCHES!!! Hii my cutie patootie!!! ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

It’s been a while since I last sent something here and I’m so sorry about that!! I’m doing a lot better now (although I never got my test results back to see if I had that syndrome or not LOL) and I almost have the two new Fontaine regions 100% oopsies! But I have like serious brainrot (but school is so tiring I usually just nap the whole afternoon) anyways!! I listened to one of mitski’s songs called “Once More to See You” and ugh it honestly just reminded me of Dottore and fragile!reader. The beginning makes me think of how fragil!reader and Dottore (especially) having a reputation and being looked as “weird” or as students who don’t belong in the Akademiya. The rest of the song just reminds me of Dottore being alone once fragile!reader fell into their coma, and him longing to feel your hand against his. To have your warm touch, caress his cheek, kiss his lips, embrace him, and to say his name, “Zandik!” In that lovely tone of yours. ouuughh I love fragile!reader and Dottore so so much just Dottore having to wait so long for them to wake up. Like imagine having to wait hundreds of years for the only person who’s every shown you affection and love. The only person to hold you so lovingly, say your name with love and not disgust, or with horror.

And after waking up??? Oughhh I know I say this a bit frequently but Dottore would become so so protective and possessive. I mean, you’re the only thing he has left, and he almost lost you once. He won’t spare to almost lose you another time, especially after centuries went by without your warm touch, or your voice. He defff savors every moment you two have together when he’s available. And especially when he becomes so used to having you on his lap and him being able to feel your heartbeat. Sometimes he may unconsciously tighten his grip on you when he’s holding you.

okieokie I think that’s enough for today!! I hope you’ve been doing amazing smooches again I’m so sorry I’ve been away I always wanna brainrot but sometimes I think my ideas aren’t that great compared to anons (YOUR ANONS ARE SO AMAZING I LOVE READING EVERY POST, AND KAI’S WRITINGS <333 MWA MWA!!) But i hope you’re getting lots of rest and staying healthy!! A bunch of chu chus n hugs, n maybe a few cuddles ! hehe!!

-from your dear boo boo bear 🎐 anon! ౨ৎ

🎐 ANON MY BELOVED!!! Oh my gosh I'm so happy you're back and alright, I missed you, and I'm so happy to hear your health has gotten better ❤️ Congrats on your Fontaine exploration and omg i totally understand, take those naps if you need to 😭 I'm not much of a napping person but those few times that i do nap, feel so good lmao. Okay brainrot time~

WAH THANK YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TO ANOTHER MITSKI SONG... omg i love this so much. Dottore was definitely ostracized and excluded in the Akademiya, everyone thought that he nor his crazy ideas belonged there. And you, I imagine your reputation start to get dragged through the mud the more you hang out with Dottore. They just don't understand. Why would you ever want to even sit in the same room as him, much less befriend him? You started to be labeled as the same things as him. You don't mind (most of the time, sometimes it still gets to you) because you think those people are just shallow compared to your friend. But Zandik himself doesn't understand you either? There's no way that his "friendship" (your words, not his) is worth the stress of all this. He doesn't understand, it's not like you're using him, if anything he's the one using you instead. Zandik doesn't understand... but he's not going to admit that the fact that you chose him over everyone else makes him feel a certain way. And that tingly feeling only grows and grows. And he refuses to acknowledge it... until you leave him and suddenly everything he's chosen to ignore hits him at once. Everything that Zandik's been trying so hard to deny, he admits to now. He misses you... he longs for your touch, your kindness, the way you treat him with such love, your voice... as horrible as this is, it really did open his eyes. Made him realize that living by himself again in the dorms is slowly making him even crazier without you. Made him realize that he's willing to do anything, and i mean anything, to get you back.

OH YEAH Dottore is extremely protective over you when you finally wake up. See, Dottore isn't really scared of someone else hurting you. He knows that he and his segments would never let that happen. Rather, he's scared of other things. Like your illness. Things he can't control. Dottore is a man who's used to being in control now, so when he can't predict things? When he can't see them coming? He doesn't like that. Not one bit, especially when it comes to you. He needs to know everything, otherwise, he won't be satisfied. He can't risk you being hurt again, not under his watch. You're very confused in the beginning because hello? This is the same guy who used to let you go out and do all these crazy tasks on his behalf? But yeah, he can't help but be very possessive. It's very Dottore like of him.

Thank you for the delicious brain rot 🎐 anon!! I enjoyed it tremendously :3 AND SHUSH YOUR BRAINROTS ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE THEM. But yuppp my anons and Kai have such yummy writing!! I am doing well, thank you :) just busy but I'm fine! Giving you lots of my hugs and kisses to you toooo <33