#OR SOME WELL WRITTEN SSKK.

[tedlebred]

☹️<-checked ao3 ship tag after a few hours to find no fav fics have updated, nothing new has been posted, nothing has changed because it has only been an afternoon and fanfiction is something written and posted by people enjoying the subject matter whenever they want to and we all should be grateful for it, and the fact it’s all free no less, but I want to read before bed so what the fuck am I supposed to do now

[lavender-bundle-blithe]

BSD but Atsushi just... has the Book.

Whenever he was locked away, the place would be barren. It always has been. But somewhere in some time, the ground oddly looked uneven.

So, taking the chance, he pulled up a loose piece of the ground and saw it. A white book that looked to have stayed clean even when laying on the ground. It had no name, but it had a pretty pattern.

Atsushi had always loved reading, and it's more or less what he's used to doing. So he picks up the book and begins reading. It's text read of numerous, mystical things; fantasy and down-to-heart, future and the past, of celebration, liberation, adventure. It was as if all the books Atsushi has managed to read in the library, all its genres, all in one book.

It brought him comfort in this cold hell of his, reading the text to almost a brand new story the next time he finds himself in his gaze. It... It made him seek for the comfort the book has repeatedly explored, over and over and over again. Repeatedly explored the prospect of a family, a family the protagonist chooses.

But the headmaster always seems to disregard his thoughts, even downplaying them, saying that he won't ever find a family. That was all the more reason he wanted to keep this book, to protect it, protect their stories. Because he had an irksome feeling that if the headmaster would find out about it, he'd burn it and make Atsushi watch as punishment.

That has been several years ago, back when he was a child. Now 18 and facing all odds the headmaster told him, he found his family in the Armed Detective Agency. He has kept the book close to him but still hidden away, managing to sneak it out with him when he was kicked out initially.

And because of how much stories he's read from the book, the others would always come to him and listen to more. Atsushi didn't think of himself as a good storyteller, but oh well.

But oh boy was he not expecting that the book from his childhood would be the source of all kinds of problems they would be facing.

(A/N: I've actually written a whole other ordeal about this one, along the lines of Atsushi finding the book when he was locked away (I wasn't aware that the book would just be in the library like that, from one of Atsushi's flashbacks). But in classic ME fashion, it was sskk =w=" | Canon divergence, Atsushi is a civilian and lives with the Akutagawa siblings, and is always reading the book. Unfortunately I couldn't touch the idea to my expectations and ended up deleting it entirely. And even if I tried finding it, it's all but buried away in those many days and hours of the "Last Edit" part of Google Docs. regardless, have this ^w^ | And maybe one day, I can touch back to this idea.)

[sickficideas]

Hello! I'm new here and in terrible need of Akutagawa x Atsushi emeto fics. Could you recommend some? Pretty please! <3

hi anon!! welcome !!! I'll add some of my own and then some others from ao3 that I really like!! the ones below my own aren't necessarily emeto fics, just hurt/comfort or sickfics where vomiting happens :)) I realized there arent very many I know of that feature sskk lol

bella notte - Atsushi takes very sick Akutagawa to the agency at midnight and begs dazai to help him <3

nice try - atsushi slowly realizing Akutagawa is sick on a mission they've been sent on together <3

foolish - server/restaurant au where Atsushi is sick and Akutagawa does him a favor, and a few weeks later Akutagawa is sick and Atsushi returns the favor <3 one of my favorites I've written!!

let me worry - the first fic I ever posted lol just domestic sskk at home with sick akutagawa <3

others from ao3 that i really like:

tenderest touch (leaves the darkest of marks) by 3rdagent - super cute fic about Akutagawa breaking into Atsushi's place and finding him sick <3 the author wrote their dynamic so so well I love it

Into Your Arms by CynicalRulez - hurt/comfort fic about Akutagawa dealing with nightmares and Atsushi taking very good care of him TT TT so so sweet I only found this one recently too!!

Inconvenient by OkayFlorence - an older fic I really love about Akuatgawa truly suffering from a migraine while on a trip with Atsushi... lol </3 the caretaking here is really sweet too TT TT

[rainswept]

LITERALLY THAT’S MY EXACT ISSUE 😭😭😭

and OH MY GOD UR LITERALLY SO RIGHT. sorry let me be a hater for a second. I DO NOT UNDERSTANDDDDD. like i get messing up, i get not understanding characters fully especially when they’re so complex and well written, but it’s like some people just don’t even try. 😭 these people take the characters and twist them SO far they’re unrecognizable. HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT !!!!

and with the otp thing… like shipping is great and all but when it gets to a point where people can only enjoy the media if they ship characters/only enjoy the characters if they ship them, i just don’t get it??? like they’re so amazing on their own, the ship should ENHANCE that not completely take it away or ignore it (or change the characters to fit it) ☹️ i don’t know

no see i understand you completely, but i have seen SO much terrible mischaracterization with the bsd fandom that you could never do worse than some people have 😭😭😭

AVERY HELLO!! and god i KNOW but look. i do NOT want to be part of the problem u see. of course i will never turn dazai into a sad coquette babygirl who can’t think for himself like SOME OF YOU... but that’s SUCH horrendous mischaracterization that it almost becomes funny. STILL. i live in fear 24/7. maybe i could not do WORSE but i could still do BAD and that is enough

[kyouka-supremacy]

Atsushi for the ask game.

ATSUSHI HERE WE GO THANK YOU FOR HEARING MY PRAYERS

Favorite thing about them: HIS SELFISHNESS. It's so so delicious to explore. Can you imagine a protagonist that saves others not out of simple good will, but because of egoistic self-preservation motives? It just feels counterintuitive for me lmao, and I found it quite messed up when I first watched the anime, but now it's so compelling to explore. His whole “everything I do is in order to gain the right to live” is crazy fashinating. Because lol, that's entirely nonsensical to me! There's no such thing as “gaining the right to live”; all humans, every person in the world is inherently deserving of life. All. No exception. So there's no level of “weak” or “worthless” that would make you lose that right. The fact that's it's a vision so distant and absurd from mine, idk, it just makes it very compelling to explore? “What if there was a little fucked up guy who believed the right to live had to be earned” just sounds like a very interesting premise.

Least favorite thing about them: When I first watched the anime, I think I found him low-key annoying? I just... Don't do very well with self-deprecating people and people who complain a lot in general, I usually suffer in silence and tend to (wrongly) assume others should do the same (this probably makes me sound pretty mean, I swear I try to be understanding irl). However, it doesn't bother me as much anymore, I simply think it's more of a distinctive trait of the character that makes him multilayered and unique. As of now, I can't think of anything I don't like about him if not the fact that I wish he'd rely on Dazai and others in general a little less. I know that has to do with his lack of self-worth, so maybe it makes sense,, but as of now he feels kind of stuck. I just wish we'd see him grow more on that front.

Favorite line:

There may be better ones, but I really like the delivery of this one.

brOTP: KYOUKA AND ATSUSHI they make me go insane. Already talked about this in the Kyouka post but just to reiterate: in my headcanon Kyouka really is the only person Atsushi feels genuine, selfless affection towards. It's very sweet. They're siblings. Kyouka's happiness is really important for Atsushi. They really do have that feeling of people who got out of an abusive environment learning what normality is supposed to be like together. I also really like how they compensate for what the other lacks, be it decisiveness and coolhead for Atsushi and empathy and positivity for Kyouka. Although plenty shipping them romantically, I really like platonic sskk and atsulucy as well.

OTP: I really like sskk eheh. I think they're neat. There's a thousand and one reasons why I find them pretty great. They're objectively the only reason why I got invested in bsd as well as the only thing that has me keep up with the franchise to this day. Right now, I feel like the one thing I really appreciate about them is how you can be the worst person in the universe and still somehow be loveable to someone. I think it's sweet. I also find it very fun and enterataining to explore their various soulmatism antics. They're both very complex and multilayered characters with something deeply wrong with how their minds work that makes them very fun to analyze both by their own and in the complexity of their relationship. Their collective story arc and canon relationship progression is extremely engaging and nice to follow, too. I love dazatsu and atsulucy as well!! Both were ships I wasn't particularly invested when I read the manga for the first time, but really grew in me in the last six months or so. I really dig akuatsulucy as well!!

nOTP: Nothing?

Random headcanon: He really likes reading. There's some real meta-analysis to be made here I actually had written this is probably not the right place to talk about, but in a work that's all about literature, he's the character who reads.

Unpopular opinion: He's the hardest character to write / characterize. That's why people should probably go easier on other fans when they mischaracterize him. He's just very multifaceted and genuinely hard to get. I keep seeing people being like “Stop babyfying Atsushi he's an independent adult!!” then turn around to say “he can't be shipped with Dazai because there's too much unbalance of power :// [somewhat implying Atsushi can't make free decisions for himself]”, or “Stop making of Atsushi a soft baby who never did wrong in his life!!!” then turn around to say “Atsushi is the happy puppy of the agency who gets treats and pats from everyone ^^ ” like. At least to me, a lot of people's arguments sound self-contradictory all the time; but that doesn't mean people should stop having fun and characterize the characters as they like! Just, let's stop being mean to each other and try to be a little more accepting towards others' takes, shall we? And yes that also includes letting people find Atsushi annoying if they find him annoying (although like, I've NEVER found anyone call Atsushi annoying ever, so really, what remote fandom spaces is everyone visiting? Why are you looking for clothes (good takes) at the soup store (Tik/tok I assume?) ).

Song i associate with them: Common World Domination by Pinocchio-P, HIBANA by DECO*27, Ghost Rule by DECO*27, so on and so forth.

Favorite picture of them:

Favourite panel from the manga:

Favourite illustration: Look, there's too many beautiful illustrations, I can't chose. Here's a very good one though.

Favourite illustration in the anime art style:

But also:

Favourite Mayoi card:

Send me a character?

[cheshire-writer]

bsd s5 ep11 spoilers

About the debate if the manga is going to follow the anime's footsteps (apparently impossible because Fyodor's hand isn't injured), it occurred to me that if it isn't, Dazai may yet not be alive after all, ie the skk angst might be manga-real and not skk fucking around right under Fyodor's nose.

Why?

Because of Sigma.

Because, unless Fyodor survives and or the next antagonist also has a super genius or two like Ranpo and Dazai on their side, it's going to be a tough sale.

To Sigma: Dazai went out of his way to save his life. Sigma even states that in the battle for control over him, Dazai won. Sigma went and stole every secret Fyodor has. This means that if Sigma survives, which is likely (and possibly joins the agency), Dazai's proof of character development will maintain his influence on the narrative. Sigma becomes Dazai's legacy. Sskk become written in stone in his memory (not like they need much more of a push anymore). Cue guilt, responsibility, what would Dazai do, and all that other fun stuff.

Which leads us to two, the next antagonist. Like many, I'm assuming it's going to be the Order of the Clock Tower (H. G. Wells! Adam, maybe? That scientist who made Adam, whatshername!). But with Dazai and all-breaks-removed Ranpo on the ADA's side (unless the deal with the PM strikes here), the OotCT is going to find itself out manoeuvred pretty quickly, no? Like with the Guild, as soon as they get their hands on information (deducing which is what Ranpo excels at, not to mention that Dazai presumably already knows a lot since unlike the Guild, the OotCT seems to have a pretty established profile and it's implied (? someone refresh my memory) that the PM had some dealings with them at the end of SB. Simply put, unless the OotCT has a strategic genius on their side, I have a hard time seeing them as legitimate threats. Meaning, that to make them more dangerous...it would suit just to remove a card from the ADA's hand. Dazai is in prime position to be removed.

Also, the end of SB foreshadowed a coming 'storm' and Chuuya killing Dazai while dehumanized and under mind control would probably trigger something in the long run.

(Don't know how coherent my thoughts are right now, sorry, it's too early.)

[pleucas]

i'm still half asleep as i write this. sorry if unorganized. i wake this morning but a wee little soul accused of not dismantling the facade of the character, of demonizing mental illness and most horrendously, watching the anime first. oh Cheese is also here sitting in the corner. real ominously, kinda scaring me.

so, firstly, i actually hate watching anime and like all animated media where there's a book. they speak too slow and less information is conveyed. if i can read something faster than i can watch the show, im going to read it. ive actually only watched the first couple episodes of BSD and the Dark Era ones. ive read the manga like 3 times and most of the light novels relating to chuuya and dazai. now that that the clear most important point is out of the way, which is that my media illiteracy is through MY OWN CHOICE !! onto the others. dazai is a well written character. he's entertaining to think about. a character being well written doesn't make them likeable though? he was written to be annoying, he gets on near everyone's nerves in the show. i can be annoyed with him AND ALSO understand that despite that he is a multi layered character who isn't necessarily all good or bad. sorry if i came off like that wasn't the case in my other asks. i get his facade, i understand why he does it, ive been there to when i was reallllly deep in depression. and with that said, it still frustrates me. this is gonna be a shocker, a real hard pill to swallow, some other expression of surprise, living life in a state where you're always passively lying to people is bad for you relationships!! i feel the burden to see through the facade is often placed on the people around him, but i think setting the standard that people should just know without you telling them can be pretty unhealthy.

i think in these kinda ships where one of the character's has basically erected a wall between themselves in the war, the compelling part is seeing the bricks, day by day, be taken apart. and, ultimately, it is on the person who put up the wall to do that in the end. they can have help, of course. most need a remarkable amount of assurance for it, but still it falls on the shoulders of the person who put it up.

im not going to compare mental illness or toxicity, but i don't think Chuuya even wants to assure him. furthermore, given their relationship, i think that's a respectable decision. im not going to bash him for disliking someone who admits to doing everything in his power to annoy him even at his lowest moments (STORMBRINGER DAZZAI OH HOW I HATE YOU. TANGENT TIME: there's a difference between manipulating a situation to be advantageous and it happening to turn out good for the people involved and helping. intentions matter!! dazai wanted the outcome best for HIMSELF. he does this a lot, drags other people into it. all the time. beast dazai? even worse. hate that guy. people read beast as a dazai angst book?? what??? clearly it was sskk fodder.) Chuuya is far less intelligent than dazai, alright. not a negative, but when it comes to holding him accountable my standard isn't as high. he clearly cares for others and has a strong moral backbone, even if id disagree with him on it, unlike SOMEONE i know. he values personhood generally. mentally ill people still have free will. i don't hate dazai for being mentally ill, i hate him for the choices he makes. i understand they stem from the illness, everything exists in context or whatnot, but that doesn't excuse it. on the point about him changing for the better, i don't actually think he has. not in a significant way. once more, intentions matter. he's 'being good' because Oda told him to be, but to this day, he still manipulates the people around him - and this is an active choice. one example: everything he makes Akutagawa do. in the relationship, he's very clearly still taking advantage of the emotional abuse he put him through. it helps the ADA, but it also shows he falls into the same patterns he always has. he can change, of course, and id like to see him change, but in my eyes it hasn't really happened yet. when it does? maybe ill like skk!! ive got hope for this arc.

on a much lighter note, im pretty sure i know who Cheese is. i showed this page to a friend a couple days ago and they said something about sending an ask in. sorry about them, they talk too much. me? im very concise. This has obviously been Rimu

RIMU OMG WELCOME BACK I'VE MISSED YOUUUUU

to preface: yeah totally fine to hate a character and acknowledge their complexity. very valid perspective, don't let anyone tell you otherwise

this is getting intense (& interesting!) and i've received a few more additions to this Saga in my inbox so i supposed i'd get a little into it as well. dz's character and skk has always been interesting to me so m gonna start procuring theses... sorry

firstly, i apologize for disregarding your agency in your own media illiteracy. please understand that there was little ill intent and i was actually trying to protect you from the dazai glazers, tho idk if you rlly want my protection there. they do get kinda feisty tho so you are one brave soldier

abt the dazai brick-wall-facade thing: super interesting and yeah i generally agree with you. his inability to communicate has been emphasized and i think it's something that, if he were a real person, he'd probably have to work on LOL. idk if bsd necessarily treats it as a bad/good thing — just a Thing. but then applied to skk, i actually believe asgr puts a lot of time into showing (not telling) that dazai does Not do this with chuuya, especially when they're 22, arguably even in stormbringer (tangent for later).

it's all very subtle — laughing at the rich girl act, smiling at him during lovecraft, legitimately giving him a choice about corruption, even calling him a diff "partner" title in jp. very, very subtle shit. notice that bones kills most of this. the thing is, i think it's also made clear that chuuya easily reads through the remainder of dz's bullshit, mostly when they're 22 (but therefore suggestively 17 and on, since they haven't been in contact since dz left the pm) — playing into the rich girl joke, suggesting code-worded formations during lovecraft, reading through dazai's stupid rolling-on-floor shtick in meursault. none of this has to be explicitly romantic either, asgr employs this stuff to demonstrate that they have a close, long-term bond. again, subtle shit, probably only readable if you have the context of stormbringer, which leads into the tangent.

stormbringer dazai, or mafia dazai, is dazai at his worst. every character in bsd has a time when they are at their worst, and they are all working to redeem themselves, for themselves. that's kinda the point of the whole series: find a reason to live, for others but primarily for yourself, no matter what you've done or will do or didn't do. at the point of sb, dazai does not understand human connection as a part of the self, since he's an isolationist little imp and also a traumatized "i know too much" child. pretty sure the whole shipping container scene was meant to demonstrate this. so yeah, dazai put chuuya through physical and emotional hell because he didn't understand the weight of either of these torments. when he finally does in dark era, he gets outta his "worst."

but you'll notice that when it comes to chuuya's humanity, he gives chuuya as much time as possible and hesitates to speak. again, subtle shit. i really think it does sb a disservice to say that dazai was trying to have the best outcome for himself — his goal was to protect mori and the freshly righted PM from collapse (aka protect yokohama from collapse), and along the way chuuya gets a power-up after losing some friends and going through some pain (which isn't that deep to dz) while also hurdling the question of his humanity by finding out a bit of his past. it's a very "i'm above it" analysis of reality, which i think sets up dazai's character arc + og mindset pretty well — through dark era and fyodor, dazai faces that he cannot be "above it" if he wants to really live. and so, here we are, witnessing him come down here to eat, breathe, fall in love, and die.

abt BEAST — i agree with you lol. i think BEAST is the epitome of a dazai who is forever "above it." his only option is suffering, lackluster returns & the achievement of a singular goal, and suicide. it's a subplot and subtlety to read into. otherwise, BEAST is utterly and wholly sskk/aku/atsushi gourmet dinner.

& on the topic of dazai's death that you mentioned way back, i agree with you. dazai needs to get nerfed somehow to confront the struggles of living. i think meursault has been pretty good for that, now that fyodor's up and kicking again — dazai's been intellectually and physically bested, and now he's facing everything he thought was inconsequential. the loss of friends, of agency (lol of The Agency also), of purpose, of physical ability. his suicide stuff is quite possibly chekov's bazooka missile and he'll probably end up dying (maybe through self-sacrifice), although in a completely different tone than in BEAST. im going to tentatively trust asgr with that... it would possibly make or break dazai's character LMFAO

ugh this is so long. i have/had Thoughts and you've dragged them out. but abt dazai being good/bad (as dz glazer identifies it) or better (as you id it), i'm pretty certain the whole point of dazai is to demonstrate that there is no good or bad in the world. like. Yeah. i somewhat agree that he isn't "changing for the better" in any significant way, precisely for the reasons you pointed out. him relying on others directly is a good sign tho (trusting atsushi to handle things in dead apple, sending akutagawa as the eyes/flare, etc). i'm rather certain we're seeing, rn in meursault/airport arc, dazai's capacity to truly change being challenged. so yes!!! i too have hope for this arc :0

this ended up being pretty dz centric which is sad because skk are two components after all... but this is way too long now. as always, pleasure to read ur writing, and keep it going!!! and please say hi to your discursive cheese friend for me <3

what have you done to me, cas

[giovanni-solos]

My solution to absolutely everything that troubles me late at night is to yell to the rooftops about whatever has my interest, be it yapping off in my brain or reaching out to my bros. But tonight I decided “here we go I’m giving up my wack ass AU to Tumblr” as my coping skill.

It’s an age swap au mostly centered around DazAtsu (this is your cue to leave if your not here for that) and the 18 Dazai navigating through grief and life in the agency, along side his strange growing feelings towards Atsushi that he just can’t seem to name. the way I see it is that since him and Atsushi have swapped ages, it’s either his past would have taken place much earlier or he would have just skipped the years in hiding and gone straight to the other side like Oda had wished of him.

I’ve actually had two fanfictions written for it so far that have almost NOTHING to do with adjusting to his life because of inconsistency but I will still post the first one as well as the second one hoping I didn’t just copy paste the same exact link twice. Funny story I actually came up with this thanks to taking part in the 2023 DazAtsu week over on twitter before I deleted the app and account, it came with a art piece I’ve featured previously on here, those are (kind of) their designs but those aren’t the updated ones. God now that I’m thinking about it I’ve been cooking this up for MONTHS and haven’t said or done much of anything on it publicly.

Actually while I’m on my tangent here is the doodles, showcasing them mostly

The next one is an unfinished piece I made for them

I leave a lot of things unfinished in terms of both art and writing. But, without further adeiu here’s some little facts I managed to keep bouncing in my pinball machine of a brain:

• Dazai had been in contact with Ranpo after Oda’s death and received an offer to become a detective. While waiting by the iconic river for who he thought was Ranpo intrusive thoughts struck him and he jumped into the water. Atsushi fished him out and gave him his coat.

• he’s been stealing that damn huge coat any chance he gets ever since

• Dazai had one of Oda’s shirts, it became a source of comfort after his friend’s death to the point he just hardly took it off.

• Atsushi’s attire, though hardly professional is actually acceptable considering what his ability does to clothes.

• Yosano, Dazai, and Kyouka all share a close somewhat familial bond over their dealings with the port mafia and Mori. Yosano also has a spare key to Dazai’s dorm incase he relapses.

• Dazai still cannot cook for shit no matter how people try to teach him, not even his mentor crush Atsushi is successful in doing so.

• Dazai always feels intimidated by Fukuzawa, and tries his hardest to avoid eye contact with him afraid he’ll disrespect him.

• the dynamics of skk and sskk are mostly unchanged other than sskk being both wiser between themselves, and skk being two feral little shits that need to be put in cages.

not sure if I mentioned Chuuya and Akutagawa being swapped like Dazai and Atsushi. Oops.

Look at that you got to the end, feels good? Bad? Well you got here anyways. I quite enjoyed rambling to the walls of my enclosure hoping to be given a piece of cheese, I actually forgot about my stresses for a moment whilst i ran to go grab my sketches. ‘Twas nice, happy holidays you crazy people who decided to read this post.

[angst-in-space]

april '24 writing progress

words written: 11.1k

most words written in a day: 1,123

least words written in a day: 0

yearly total: 46k

projects worked on:

ya sci-fi book rewrites

adult fantasy book edits

finished editing ch 10 of sylvix dreamscape fic and sent to betas!

planning bsd regency au

started soukoku oneshot

works published in april:

none

april goals:

sigh well….you know….finish my ya sci-fi book rewrites MAYBE.

finish sylvix dreamscape ch 10 edits

start soukoku oneshot… maybe try to finish a first draft

make some progress on some other fics???

may goals:

sigh i don't know, maybe just rewrite ONE CHAPTER of ya sci-fi book? 🥲 hopefully a bit more than that but idk we'll see lmao

implement beta feedback + post ch 10 of sylvix dreamscape fic??

edit & post chapter 16 of altea rising maybe?

continue working on soukoku oneshot

finish an outline of bsd regency au

mayyybeee work on other fics? specifically maybe sylvix pacrim au...i miss it...

notes:

well i'm still feeling a little discouraged about my progress but WHATEVER WE PERSEVERE... as usual i still have not finished rewriting my ya sci-fi book, but i did finish chapter 32 rewrites, which means i'm now on chapter 33/36 AND I REACHED THE CLIMAX so we are getting there. i think ch 33 is really going to kick my ass, so that might take me the whole month. but optimistically, maybe i will finish that and at least start ch 34??

i also started my soukoku oneshot, but by "started" i mean... literally just that lol, like i have less than a page so far. 😂 i got kinda stuck right away because i was struggling with designing an original villain character BUT i'm excited with what i came up with and feel more prepared to delve in now. so, hoping i can at least continue drafting that this month!

i've also been planning another long bsd fic (i think i mentioned this previously?) - it originated as a shin soukoku pride & prejudice au but has since morphed into a super long joint skk & sskk regency au (still very p&p inspired but...not as closely based on it lol). i have pretty much all the major beats planned out but still have a few gaps in it i want to flesh out before i start writing. so i'm hoping to finally finish my (terrifyingly long) outline for it, so i can maybe start writing it soon???

as usual... i would love to make some progress on some of my other sadly neglected fics. in particular i've been thinking a lot about sylvix pacific rim au again so i may return to that if i have the time/energy.

i also would love to update at least one fic this month. I FINALLY FINISHED EDITING CH 10 OF SYLVIX DREAMSCAPE FIC and sent that to betas, soooo might be able to finally finish posting that by end of this month!! while i'm waiting on beta notes on that i was considering doing edits of ch 16 of altea rising and maybe posting that too. :)

so yeah, much to do this month but a lot of exciting stuff!! 👍

[philzokman]

help im leaving tomorrow for an 8 hour plane ride and i need fic recs

I AM SO GLAD U ASKED FJWKDHSJS

okay okay so these are gonna be a mix of skk and sskk but i hope u enjoy :D

1. everything or nothing by well that happened - skk

“College AU where Chuuya finds out that the boy he drunkenly made out with the night of orientation is his new roommate. His arrogant, smug, very straight roommate. And the boys are each convinced the other is trying to ruin their life by making them go absolutely insane.”

i think the most kudosed skk fic on ao3 so not very. underground indie. JDHSJ the writing style isn’t my favourite but the plot is really good and the characterisation. oh my ever loving fuck THE CHARACTERISATION!!! strong nsfw that i’m like 99% sure is quite crucial to the plot though so i’d maybe skip this if ur not comfortable with that!! (the first 6 ish chapters should be mainly fine though for that if ur just wanting smn small and funny)

2. waiting room by srxlee - sskk

“In which the smell of antiseptic becomes familiar, and the feeling doesn't hurt like it used to, yet it aches. Where Ryuunosuke battles his habit of loving that which is fleeting. And now his hand, calloused and bruised, just can’t seem to let go.”

HEKANDHWKS i would die for this fic. it’s absolutely amazingly written like genuinely there are like 6 chapters where my mouth was agape the whole time purely bc of the writing style. the plot is really interesting, and the author deals with illness very very well. it DOES have a happy ending im so proud to announce and it’s overall very very sweet and i love it please read it i beg KDHSJ

3. learn to love by thebackwardsstep - skk

“Dazai pissed in a stranger's car- because screw the bourgeoisie- and now he has a sugar daddy. What the fuck.”

i physically could not tell u a thing about this fic, i read it when i was suffering with the flu BUT from what i do remember it was surprisingly sweet and the main ending conflict is resolved by a bird so JDHAKSH also also also in spite of its name it only has like 2 nsfw scenes in it which are VERY easily skippable and also a scene where dazai dresses up as a girl and they go to a ball :D

4. debatable society by chlovrs - sskk

“Atsushi has always struggled with self-confidence so to boost him up, his friend Dazai convinces him to join their University debate society. It works for a little bit, he makes some friends and is actually able to like, ya know...join in on conversations without shaking like a leaf. But then they start competing with the students from their neighboring University and of course, Akutagawa, the one who is beauty incarnated just loves to fucking argue.”

THIS IS SO CUTE. it’s been a while since i’ve read it but from what i can remember the plot is rlly cute, and sskk’s dynamic is really sweet. the author is also the absolute sweetest person ever and i highly highly recommend leaving a comment or two bc they’re genuinely soso sweet and Will respond KDHAKSH (there IS one nsfw scene but again, very easy to skip and doesn’t affect the plot by any means)

5. thé art of precious scars by run_mello - skk

“Role reversal AU where Dazai is in the Port Mafia and Chuuya is in the Armed Detective Agency.

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When a famous painting goes missing from the Mori Art Museum, the ADA jumps in to help investigate the case. So Dazai and Chuuya go on a mission together, solve the mystery together, fight enemies together... and somewhere along the line, they fall in love.”

holy ever loving FUCK THIS FIC IS AMAZING. i remember the first thought i had while reading it was “this authors read the irl authors books.” LIKE IT SHOWS SO MCUHF WJDKDH i think my favourite example of this was in i think the first or second chapter when dazai plays the synonym/antonym game from no longer human it’s genuinely really really sick. as well as that the author will occasionally sprinkle in quotes from books and poems and it’s just. very very very cool. the characterisation is phenomenal its so well written very highly recommend !!!

6. chuuya is red hot and dazai is so not by icedlightroast - skk

“Dazai couldn't wrap his brain around it. How could the student population think that Chuuya Nakahara was more attractive than him? And, alright, sure, maybe professors shouldn't get caught up in petty drama. But to Dazai, this wasn't just drama. This was war. A war in which he was not going to lose.”

this made me giggle an abnormal amount. KDHAJS this fic had me kicking my feet back and forth and twirling my hair oml it’s soso cute VERY short but very very cute

BAR LIKE 30 FICS THATS MY REC LIST FJSKS !! hope u enjoyed and have fun on ur trip !!!! :D

[knockyasocksoff2022]

Hello!

ABOUT ME:

I’m an INTP like these anime characters.

I’m a 4w5 enneagram.

I KIN:

Ranpo (fitting seeing as he’s also an INTP)

Chuuya

Poe

Dazai

Nikolai (Mostly in that order)

I love writing relationship reveals, alternate universes, and sickfics.

I usually update my fics on Wattpad first, sometimes I forget to put them here and there is a bit of a time gap, so if you want to check if a story has been updated and it hasn’t been updated here, check my Wattpad account (under the same user name).

ABOUT THE BLOG:

This is a side blog!

I follow/like from my main blog @justmorebtsffs which I hardly use anymore because I joined Tumblr when I was really into BTS (I still like them, but BSD is my main thing now)

Check out my other BSD Blog dedicated to my fic The Untold Origins of the Port Mafia: @theuntoldoriginsoftheportmafia

You can send requests, but they may take quite a while, because of how busy I am, and I can barely focus on the stories I already have. The updated schedule is when I feel like it. Sorry. Pls, keep me accountable for updating. If you’d like to ask about my ongoing works, pls do, it will help me remember to update them.

This is my first time really opening my ask box, so I’m really shy, lol.

CONTENT:

Fanfiction Masterlist

Want to see how an un-updated fic is doing, or see the formation of upcoming works? Check my FANFIC STATUS TRACKER!

(I’ve written a ton of fics so I just added the link to it here to prevent my intro post from getting too long.)

My Idea for a Dazai Osamu Animatic to the song Fireflies by Owl City

I’ll probably make a master list for my HCs as well sometime soon.

Bungou Stray Dogs Things

Mainly Fanfiction (Relationship reveals, AUs, Sickfics)

Some incorrect quotes

Headcanons

Attempted memes

Anime Music Video / Animatic Ideas

I write about BSD (Bungou Stray Dogs).

STORY HIGHLIGHTS:

The Untold Origins of The Port Mafia (20 / 30 chapters)

Tanizaki Junichirou Port Mafia AU (14 / 14 chapters)

Sicktember 2024

MAIN SHIPS: 

Fitzgerald x Zelda (his wife)

Fukumori

Fyolai

Hawmitch (Hawthorne x Mitchell)

Kaji x Yosano

Odango

Ranpoe

Suegiku

SSKK 

SKK

Tachizaki

I know some of these are unpopular rare-pairs and I do love Atsulucy and Kousano, but I picked the pairing I thought had the best dynamic, pls don't judge. (I think Kousano is cool af but Yosano and Kaji are 10x funnier)

SIDE SHIPS: 

Akuhigu

Atsulucy

Higugin

Kousano

Kunikidazai

Mushiango

I think Kenji and Kyouka are cute together (as besties with small crushes on each other, cuz they're 14, or aged up) or Kyouka and Atsushi (aged up Kyouka or aged down Atsushi ofc).

What I DO write ✔️

- Relationship Reveals

- Sickfics (no emeto) 

- Fluff

- AUs 

- Violence (nothing too harsh, only because I’m not that skilled at writing gore)

- Character death (I've never written character death before, and I don’t really fancy the idea of writing it, at least not where the character stays permanently dead, but I might try it.)

What I DO NOT Write ❌ 

- emeto (throwing up may be mentioned but not described in detail.) 

- smut

- x reader (reader insert or "your name”) I don’t judge, It’s just not a genre I like to write.

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i dont have a following here lol, just on ao3, but if you have somehow stalked me enough to find my tumblr, then heres some little answers to common questions.

IM SORRY I FORGOT WHO I GOT THIS FROM :/

How many works do you have on Ao3? 15

2. What's your total Ao3 word count? God i dont know, im too lazy to count. By rounding up and down on works I have 203K

3. What are you top fics by kudos? Thats a really fantastic question /j Probably my Fyodor / Nikolai BSD fic that I have crossposted here, or a Simeon / MC Obey Me! fic called "Lament."

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I ALWAYS DO OMFG I LOVE COMMENTS GIVE ME MORE <33

5. What's the fic you've written with the angtiest ending? I don't really write angst because it makes me cryyyy but I have one angst fic I wrote for a friend that was a SSKK fic, it had a kinda happy ending but everybody except the main pair died. It's called "The Pear Blossoms are Always Sweeter in Winter".

6. What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending? Like- all of them? If I had to pick one it would be a Rui / Tsukasa fic called "From Heart to Soul and Back Again"

7. Do you write crossovers? Yes, not often though. Most of mine are unposted.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic? No, not yet. All of my stuff has "Don't like don't read" in the notes.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yes. I usually write queer fics in general because I myself am a queer transmasc guy. because of this I think I write MxM smut the most often, follwed by FxF and then MxF.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Yeah. And that stolen fic has more kudos than mine 😭

11. Have you ever had a fic translated? I translate my own usually, but I have a friend who enjoys translating my fics into Lithuanian for their friends. I usually help them because my Lithuanian is so-so.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Only once, and it was posted to Wattpad. I'm not sure if anybody could find it, but it was called "Collab Fic: 3 Minds, 2 Hearts.

13. What's your all-time favorite ship? Don't ever ask me that /j It changes so often I literally can't pick. I think currently it's Akito / Touya? It's the ship I'm currently writing for anyways.

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? An original work that's well over 500K words but I'm too lazy to send it to a publisher.

15. What are your writing strengths? ... I write smut well according to my friends.

16. What are your writing weaknesses? Writing straight fanfic.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? I do that a lot. I get some anger because I forget that not everyone can understand it-

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for? This is embarrassing but the Dream SMP!!! 😭

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? I haven't written for Minori / Haruka yet, but I have a WIP that I just started...

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? Jesus I hate to say this but a fanfic I wrote for my highschool Japanese textbook-

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Hello.....If you don't mind me asking (again), who are your favorite romantic relationship's couples in books/ manga/manhwa/ anime/movies/tv series (can be canon or non-canon)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before....Thanks.

shipping is one of my fave hobbies, I could ramble abt it all day. 🙏

I usually like ships that haven't sailed the most, because pining is the best part 🤭

how popular the ships are is also important to me hence I like to have a variety of fanfiction to choose from so I can keep on thinking about them😭💕

that being said, soukoku from Bungou stray dogs has been my OTP for years- the enemies/rivals, ex-partners, short/tall, bickering, anger issues, hate relationship but insane trust, mafia/detective dynamic just does it for me. not to mention how both of these characters are insanely well-written and can be appreciated by themselves, even tho they were literally created to complete eachother. (confirmed by author) (other ships i like from BSD are ranpoe, fyolai and sskk)

mizuena from Project Sekai is my favorite wlw pairing, again with the banter. but they deeply care for eachother, adore one another and just their dynamic as friends is wholesome. they understand eachother, help eachother grow and heal with truly inspiring stories. their relationship just feels real. (other pjsekai ships I rly like are ruikasa, anhane and akitoya.

xiaoven might be a very hated Genshin Impact ship but it has a chokehold on me.. the immortal demon/deity troupe is just immaculate. (some of my other ships are haikaveh, cynonari, eimiko, beiguang)

mitsukou from TBHK. they had me when Kou to wanted to die together with Mitsuba so they could live on together as spirirts.. such a platonic thing to want isn't it. all jokes aside, what they have is so precious. Mitsuba is a lonely guy but Kou is always there for him through it all. I'm also a sucker for the human/ghost dynamic.

I'm just gonna mention a few more: aziracrow/ineffable husbands, spideypool, lumity, shadowpeach, bronseele, vanoé, wangxian, hualian, sherliam, marcanne, bubbline, stolitz, hananene, homumado, mikayuu, renga

thanks for your question !

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tagged by @kae-karo !! thank u kae :D

last song i listened to: i've been listening to fall out boy all day bc my parents were visiting and helping me organize my spare room, and that's the least offensive band i listen to / my dad actually likes them, so!! some fob song or another. probs last of the real ones lmao

three ships: ONLY THREE... well i'm always brainrotting over xiaother (genshin) <3 and i've been thinking about sskk/akuatsu (bungo stray dogs) again lately bc i just caught up on the most recent handful of chapters of the manga. i love themb so muchhhhh. and for number 3, we'll go akiangel bc csm has been a new thing i've gotten into recently!!!!

currently reading: i've been having to read 3 poetry books per week for my graduate classes but like. for Fun i've been reading "sleeping giants" by sylvain neuvel, which is a rlly fun sci-fi written as if a collection of notes/interviews!! i've also been reading "what manner of man," which is a newsletter/serialized novel inspired by "dracula daily" about a priest going to an island inhabited by a vampire... and it's uhhhh perhaps a bit more spicy than the og dracula if u know what i mean ;;)))

most recent movie i watched: OH MAN UHHHH.... what WAS the last movie i watched?!?! it might've been emo: the musical, which is very dear to me and not on any streaming services cough. big comfort movie for me.

(also, this game doesn't ask, but i started listening to PODCASTS AGAIN... this time i'm working on the white vault, which is a horror fiction podcast written as a set of found notes/audio files. it's very very good)

craving: nothing at the moment!! chapstick???? sleep?????? LMAO. but my parents brought me girl scout cookies (lemonades, the superior cookie) so i have been Thinking About Those...

tagging: @geometricalien @mykindofcrazy and @sellyoursoulforagoodname !!! (if i didn't tag u and u want to participate, say i tagged u and i'll edit this post for u ;)c)

[kyouka-supremacy]

Fukuchi for the ask game please!

Fukuchi, sure!

Favorite thing about them: Causing Akutagawa to die for Atsushi I think he's a very well written villain!! He's sympathetic and likeable and his motivations are sincerely noble and understandable. His plan fell a little short, but that's just bsd for you ahah. I like how he poses real and relevant political questions, I dig any sort of political discussion. Overall, he's just a character I have lots of fun to reflect over and talk about, but that's primarly due to being a politics nerd pffttt.

Least favorite thing about them: I find some of the gags he gets into quite unpleasant, it's not for my taste personally.

Favorite line:

Self-explainatory. But like, something that actually has to do with Fukuchi...

It's just, I get the sentiment? Like, I get the feeling of being willing to do anything if it's to save even one single person.

brOTP: Sorry for being predictable, but highkey Fukuchi and sskk lol. Because Fukuchi seems to care about them /so much/. I find it a truly moving part of chapters 84-88, how Fukuchi doesn't want to fight even more than sskk themselves. He's genuinely sorry for them. He offers them heartfelt advices. He waits for them, he gives them time to regrup. He offers to spare one of them. Fukuchi has been a kinder mentor figure to Akutagawa in twenty minutes than Dazai has been in six years. He compliments Akutagawa and acknoweladges his value and spares him words of respect even after his death. I just,,, in a perfect world he would have loved them dearly, and be the first supporter of their union.

OTP: I REALLY like Fukuchi and Fukuzawa. Tragic yaoi FOR REAL. Very characters who aren't canonically gay but whose behavior just makes so much sense if you read them as gay. Also my other personal shipped them before they got popular. They just care about each other SO MUCH they didn't ever denied it and yet are forced to be on opposite sides... Ultimate star crossed lovers fr.

nOTP: Nothing. I need to delete this section.

Random headcanon: I can't think of anything of a proper headcanon, but I feel like he's looked to Fukuzawa and Ranpo many times and intimately wished they could have created a family together. I feel like the chapter 83.3 cover (the one a little further below) is exactly what Fukuchi would have dreamed his life to be if the world was different.

Unpopular opinion: I'm glad he killed Akutagawa. Duh. I've said this so many times but the “I wish Akutagawa didn't die” is a sentiment I really can't share.

Song i associate with them: I can't believe I could actually think of something, but Knife by rerulili is perfect as the love triangle / katanas / dying in your gay lover's arms story.

Favorite picture of them:

Favourite panel from the manga:

Favourite illustration:

Favourite illustration in the anime art style:

Send me a character?

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Bsd anon again im gonna be here a few times im having many thoughts- but I think Sin Soukou is so freaking interesting, more interesting than even Soukou or their predecessors that I cant remember the name of (Mori and Fukuzawa) Its just- something about how different they are compared to either, how much that actually affects them, the difference between how they are turning out vs how the previous Soukous turned out, how despite everything, I don't think they ever actually will kill each other. I think its so interesting the change you see with the two, the affect they have on each other compared to the others-- its just so,, interesting- Also, question of the day. Do you think its good that Dazai changed from his Port Mafia ways? With the way he treats Atsushi vs Akutagawa specifically? Do you think there's similarity between the way he treats the two at all? I often find myself thinking about how despite Dazai being better as a person, and trying his hardest to not be a bad mentor, he still ends up giving bad ideals (Thats not the right word but I cant remember the word) to Atsushi. After an attack his slapped Atsushi and told him not to pity himself, despite the fact that he had just been shown some of his worst memories and accidently hurt people he saw as friends, some of the first friends in years. Its not punching him right in the face because he cant put up a shield, no where near that, but its still not a good thing to do. I can accept that Dazai has changed a lot since the port mafia but I think he still has a very long way to go, especially when it comes to being a mentor to both Atsushi and Akutagawa, even tho he seems to messing up a lot less w Atsushi thanhe did w Akutagawa But tbf the only reason I'm thinking about this is cause its always bothered me how Dazais treated Atsushis trauma as more of a,, annoyance than anything?? Like,, idk I'm rambling at its five am lmfao I should stop before I start going off on tangents

MY FUCKING LAPTOP SHUT DOWN AGAIN WHEN I HAD ALREADY WRITTEN SO MUCH GOD FUCKING DAMMIT

anyway hello again bsd anon :DDD

about shin soukoku, tbh i really like their dynamic a lot more than soukoku or mori and fukuzawa. not to say i don't like soukoku, if you couldn't tell by what i reblog so often i definitely like them (the same cannot rlly be said about mori and fukuzawa but that's another thing lol), but i really enjoy the sskk dynamic :D they have such cool effects on each other as people and they work so well together in fighting and like i mentioned i think their conflicting views of dazai is also rlly intersting and like hrgahgdhfkjs i like them a lot kjdfsj

then to answer your question, i do think it's good that dazai left the mafia, and i do think he's trying to be better. and he's definetely a lot better than he was in the mafia. i do think he's trying to be a better mentor. but like you said, he still isn't the best at it with atsushi. he's definetely doing a lot better with atsushi than he was with akutagawa, but yeah i do think he fucked up with that slap. atsushi's, yknow traumatized from when he rlly young and he literally just hurt people he cared about who also literally wouldn't fight back. like?? idk man i think there's many much better ways to deal with atsushi spiraling??? my dude??? though i guess dazai wouldn't have experience with it lmao

i get what you mean by it kinda feeling like dazai was treating atsushi's trauma as an annoyance. didn't really like it either. to be fair dazai didn't exactly have like. a good example what to actually do. sdkhfj,,,

he is definitely a better person now though. good for him lol