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Omggg so today has been so unbELIEVABLY shitty
First i wake up in pain still from my back going out on sunday when I woke up. That was expected though. My dental aligner trays hurt like a motherfucker to pull out still. Then im getting a quick breakfast together and I get a text from the clinic saying my doctors appointment i needed before tomorrow is canceled AGAIN. I had to check with the clinic and the specialist (appointment tomorrow) if its okay if I have renewed referral clinic appointment next week. So fingers crossed thats okay, because thats whats happening its not possible to see the clinic before the specialist, and ive had the specialist appointment for months, and the clinic only told me i need to renew the referral on last friday, and ive had appointments every day this week. Whatever. It is what it is.
Then im pouring cereal, drizzle a little agave on top because its unsweetened, and then immediately knock the bowl over all over my lap, sticky side down. I still cant go pick up the bits under the table now, because its killing my back to even pull the chair out, my back is in such bad shape. (Was gonna ask the clinic doctor to help out w it too but i guess im going this whole week without a treatment plan, just taking old painkillers lmao.)
Speaking of painkillers, i have one left of this bottle. I have another painkiller type, but its way too strong, and even if i cut it in half itll be too strong, but im gonna have to use that if i dont have any improvement.
So all that above was the easy peasy part of my day. Next is my appointment to renew state benefits (for food). I get EVERYTHING ready all gathered into the one spot in my room i know i can get consistent cell service, and settle down. Phone appointment time comes. I hear the landline downstairs ring. Fuck. I grab my phone and paperwork and i cant make it in time both because of my back problems and also because the landline only rings twice. I literally grabbed the phone as the case worker stopped speaking on the machine. Fuck again. I cant understand the phone number they said on the machine. It takes me a minute to realize its the same number on my paper work. I try to call but my house is a dead zone. Go back to my room, get put thru to the robot answering machine because its the general number. Not a callback number. Fuck. The robot then hangs up on me saying theres a high call volume and to call back later.
But my appointment is now! I call again and get hung up on. I call again and finally get put on hold. This is like 20 minutes after my appointment time because it takes like 7 minutes of talking to the robot to get put into a call. So im on hold, i hear the landline so i rush downstairs to try and get it again but im too late (probably a robo call, we get a lot). There was no new message, so i stay on hold, where im expecting an 80 minute wait time.
Completely fucked up process when i had an appointment scheduled! I shouldve been able to call the worker back on the available phone.
Anyway. Im dying in pain and sobbing on the phone and end up having to sit on the kitchen chair thats hard wood because i got reception in there and i wanted to be closer to the landline just in case. Im sobbing for like the first 2 hours bc of pain from exterting myself rushing around the house. I try sending off a message on the online portal. But its like 'we'll get back to you within 5 days' lol.
My battery gets low so I risk bringing my phone to my room to use the bathroom and grab a charger, take off my dental trays (more pain) so i can eat and drink something. More pain when i get back downstairs.
Im on hold for longer. So i start looking for someone higher up to pester because the whole situation is fucked. Around 3 hours on hold i send off an email to someone whos the director of that org at the county.
Its at this point i realise i might be racking up a huge phone bill, so i start telling myself 'ok sunk cost fallacy this isnt worth the wait' and i start trying to log back into the portal (which id already been doing like 20 times already this day) to request a new appointment. Then the portal keeps logging me out as soon as i log in. And i cant reset my password or do anything.
Im about to give up, going nuts after hearing the same note played over and over on the hold music. And someone fucking answers the phone.
Ho lee shit. I couldnt believe it.
A 4 hour hold that actually produced results????
Apparently all their systems are down and the worker was like 'okay yeah youre gonna be the last person i process today i am not able to access anything right now' and even had to do some stuff manually, but my case is renewed and everything should be settled now
So yeah that was over 4 hours of torture being in the uncomfortable kitchen for so long, when i WAS prepared for my appointment ahead of time. Ugh. I shouldnt have to hurt myself to get this done, but no one else was in the house to catch the landline for me, and i didnt know i could get reception in the kitchen.
(Kind of worked out tho bc i wouldve had to hang up if my doctors appointment today didnt cancel, and also i wouldve hung up if the online portal functioned)
The sad thing is im not even done. i gotta deal with another appointment tomorrow in another town. (Already had to go out of town on tuesday for the teeth aligners/tmj appliances), like the car is not comfortable for my injured back lmao
I dont think the appointment tmr is anything big its prob just a check up and to renew meds, but getting there, early in the morning, is gonna be fucking hard. I doubt this doc will do anything for my back or regular level of chronic pain, but im gonna make a big stink about it because i havent stopped being in pain for like ever, and the past month has just been so fucking hard on me with trying to help family do labor intensive stuff (which is probably why my back got fucked and gave up on sunday)
It really fucking sucks being in chronic pain and no doctors wanna do anything to treat the pain. Ive already been on every type of antidepressant and none of them helped my fibro or depression. Ive actually felt a LOT better since stopping them last winter. But im still in a lot of pain all the time. I dont wnna be like 'give me painkillers' but... give me painkillers. I was so comfortable when i was on them regularly in the past. And then the whole opioid crisis thing happened and now no one gives them to me except when i had endo flare ups (which. Lol. They barely do anything for endo pain. Which is why i was so surprised they did anything at all for my back pain when i took one on sunday!) I have always been responsible with them and always took the lowest dose (cut them in half back then) because i dont like the feeling of painkillers lololol
God tho this back pain... on sunday it was so humiliating, i kept getting stuck where i was because the pain was so bad. Even just lying flat on my back was excruciating. I was Almost at the point where i wouldve needed help to use the bathroom. Even now, while my back is much better (still terrible tho) and with painkillers, i can barely twist to grab toilet paper or reach to dry myself. It fucking sucks. Getting clothes on and off? Sucks. Especially reaching to get my feet out of pants or socks on and off.
You dont realize how much you took for granted until you struggle to do basic daily movement. I thought i was doing so well too because ive been lifting weights since februrary! Just arm workouts tho. Was doing situps until i had another endo flare up in spring. I always forget how bad severe pain situations are, either with an injury or my endo flare ups. Im living in constant fear of the next endo flare up and that sucks too. My current back problem is like, spikes of level 10 pain with movement. The endo flare ups is sustained level 10 pain. So theyre not even comparable but its still super severe.
Anyway. This has been super rough on me. Especially the added pain and overstimulation of the new back pain, and now the constant pain and headache from the teeth aligners, which is another thing im super scared about. What if it ends up making my jaw worse? What if i pull out a tooth? God just prying them off my teeth is like getting teeth pulled it hurts so much. Im like crying when i have to take the bottom one off, the hook digs into my gums and then when one side comes off its excruciatingly stuck on the other side. Literally feels like teeth being pulled. Im surprised my one crown is still in place (ive been pulling from the opposite side to try and save it). And ive already lost a bunch of the tooth spikes they added to keep the aligners in place, but the office is like a 2 hour drive away so i cant just go get the spike replaced. I dont even have a car or license i have to coordinate with family lol. And the brand is like so new theres no online discussions about it so i cant even commiserate or see how people manage to cope with this level of constant pain from the trays, pulling them out, or the extra large bite guard i cant even close my lips around at night. My teeth are so crooked i cant even tell if its in the right placement bc my teeth dont fit in the bite guard tray. So lol. Im trying.
So yeah i dont have faith in my doctors im scared starting treatment is just gonna make things worse especially because thats been the case my whole life. Ill try to get treated for something and then it reveals or causes something much worse i need to treat. But im trying. Its just hard when i have to treat so many fucking illnesses all at once, and theyre all super painful.
Im fucking tired. Want this week to be over. Want to just sleep, but i cant even do that without being in excruciating pain every time i try to move position. Life rly sucks for me rn.
So thats my vent.
Oh yeah, also dermatillomania has been severe lately too lol. So i look a mess but thankfully my lips get covered by my mask. I was so scared the tmj doc was gonna comment on it but i accidentally forgot to take my piercings out before the appointment so he ended up making conversation about those instead of the glaring wounds on my lips and fingers. (He did notice my bandaids on my fingers lol)
So yeah. Send prayers and gay vibes my way pls i rly need it. Fffff time to go cry and put my trays back in
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2, 6, 11, 13, & 33 pls bella!! â„ïž
thank you annie !!! answering these is probably gonna make me late to the acappella concert but i don't care <3
2. Whatâs a medium youâve always wanted to try? aghhh i tried my hand at making gifs a while ago (like two years maybe lmao) but they were shitty because (1) i don't use or know how to use photoshop and (2) i don't know anything about gifmaking, so i haven't revisited it. but i would like to learn more about it and try to make actually good ones because when i hear gifmakers talking about shit like "coloring" the gifs im like ?? you do what to them ?? so yeah it would be nice to pull back the curtain on that at least a little
6. Whatâs a theme you find in your work? i answered this for hazel and i cannot think of another answer at the moment sorry lmao so i'm gonna copy/paste what i wrote for her
friendship! and also, the importance of kitchens! friendship is hugely important to me as a person with a shit ton of friends and also as a person who has never been in a relationship - considering iâm always writing fic that is about a romantic relationship i also always want to emphasize the importance of having people in your life who are not your Love Interest. and how much they can add meaning to your life in ways that are equal to but different than the way a Love Interest can.
11. What part of the process of creating brings you the most joy? answered this for hazel as well but let me think of something else!! OH when i write something that elicits the emotional reaction in myself that i want it to elicit in others. like if i write a line that's supposed to be funny and then every time i read it i laugh, that's a winner. or when i finish writing an emotional scene and then go back to reread it and am like holding my breath........THAT'S how you know.
13. Is there something youâd like to see created but you know you canât/wonât do yourself? damn you and hazel really overlapped on these questions! i'll just copy/paste my answer for this one bc i don't think i have another:
probably! although to be honest usually itâs the reverse, where i donât know that i want to see something created until it is, and then i see it and iâm like damn i wish i had done this but also i couldve never done this. itâs a great experience though because then once ive read it i can be like wow that was amazing because i got the same feeling i get when rereading my own work (the feeling of âthis is exactly the thing i wanted to readâ) but without having to put in all the effort of writing it !! itâs awesome. that is how i feel about @burstingsunriseâs muke fic interlude. i also feel this way about most of @reveriesofawriterâs writing.
33. Sneak peak at a wip đ oh gladly i love sharing stuff from my wips okay here's a little taste of what i'm writing for the songfic event hazel is running
âCâmon, tell me,â Michael wheedles. âIs it about Ashton again?â âIsnât everything?â Luke sighs. âAll your recent mental breakdowns have been about Ashton,â says Michael. âIt was an educated guess.â âThis isnât a mental breakdown.â âYou spontaneously dyed your hair,â Michael says with a shrug. âItâs at least kind of a mental breakdown.â
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#that snippet is a winner#i only have six minutes until my shift ends and the concert starts#is it poor form to bring pasta to a concert? am i going to do it anyway? yes to both#so byeeee#ask#annie#ijustdontlikepeople#i actually love these questions so much annie#as usual you kick ass#fic talk
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Uncle snuffy and cousin Lorenzo >>>> but YAY glad youâre enjoying writing we all know that means youâre cooking o7 Very curious to see your take on kiyora I bet itâll mirror the next epinagi ch (which is kinda soon I think??)
No same I think it was just out in there for comedic effectâŠ? Not to actually be taken like he was groping them because I mean he specializes in muscle growth and body strengtheningâŠ..like he kinda needs to know like the composition of their bodies and their builds so he can create a plan catered to their developmentâŠ?? Like yeah if anything Reo and chigiri just looked shocked LMAO I sometimes find his personality a little overbearing (him holding a grudge against Isagi is funny but also ridiculous at the same time) but Iâve never taken that first moment of him assessing the boys in a creepy wayâŠ.
Ok no because wait a Reo Isagi team up?? I even seen some of their little duo interactions but imagine them duoing in soccer plays lowk they would probably do so well?? I also kinda loved their little interactions give us more?? Where Reo isnât hating Isagi ofc but NAGI HIORI TEAM UP Iâm adding this to the manifestation listâŠ.i know their stage actors for the recent stage play posted pictures together in character of them gaming together LMAO I would love to see them as a duo both in a soccer setting and in gaming somedayâŠwould go hard frâŠNAGI AND KAISER OR NOA LMAOO I think this all just proves that pairing nagi and Reo with other people really helps bring out some of their personalities and sides of them we donât see when theyâre togetherâŠ
OOOO yes I think thatâs a good estimateâŠnot super star 20+ but definitely a fewâŠI agree I canât see him getting absolutely 0 LOL
Waittt I lowk did not think of all of these parallels between Rin and Nagi?? Shit your so right LMAO I esp love the lazy vs hardworking genius difference and their differing soccer motivesâŠNagi losing motivation after he beats Isagi but we see rin working his ass off to crush saeâŠ.Im laughing Rin aggressively roasting players and Nagi passive aggressively roasting playersâŠI wanna see those interactions with Nagi and hiori and others if Rin ever de-emos LMAOO that lowk reminds me of Hiori being the only one to help him up after Shidou busted up his nose I always laugh because wdym Reo and Bachira are standing right next to him just watching
OOOOOOOH IM EXCITED also based off the info I gathered kiyora doesnât seem as aggressive in some interactions as Iâd originally thought! He definitely still is feisty but when heâs talking about his interests I guess or isnât provoked itâs kinda cute LMAO either way Kiyora tidbits even if it doesnât do much for the fic (Iâm sure youâre probably spot on anyways LOL) Itâs kinda sorta long so Iâll leave a separate ask for it (my formatting skills are also kinda shit so if something doesnât make sense lmk)
ALL GOOD go touch that grass!! LMAO dw about needing to respond all that fast as long as you arenât dying thatâs all that matters o7 On busy days Iâll usually only check tumblr after Iâm settled anyways too so I might also be slow sometimes
PAUSE NAGI KIJA??? Wait a minuteâŠ.ive def seen that art but didnât connect the dots youâre so right??? With all the yotd weâve been talking about lately maybe weâll manifest a reboot into existence
- Karasu anon
AHHHH i hope itâs good!! iâll elaborate more on your ask w the kiyora notes but i think for the most part i got him pretty well?? heâs a little more aggressive/violent in my version but itâs also an au where it makes sense for him to be like that + the reader doesnât rlly know him that well so i think (hope?? đ) itâs okay đ°
HAHA no youâre so real heâs honestly very ridiculous to me but he also kinda serves cunt i just feel like he would be so funny to talk to plus i kinda love him and yukimiya as a duoâŠhandsome tall muscular soccer player model adopting handsome tall muscular soccer player model is so đ€© also the parallel of chris being obsessed w physical perfection vs yukimiyaâs struggles w his body (specifically his eyes) like wowâŠidk crazy potential there for a really cool fic maybe thatâll be part of yukiâs chapter in the oaeu?? since i donât really have any other ideas for him yet đ€ we will see i suppose đ and agreed it just felt silly goofy random to me i didnât even realize other people took it seriously đ°
NO BECAUSE AN ISAGI REO TEAM UP WOULD BE CRAZY GOOD isagiâs adaptability + reoâs ability to copy literally anyone would mesh soooo well together because no matter the situation reo can come up with some ability to get out of it and then isagi can adapt to whatever reo throws at him so it forces both of them to think on their feet (reo also has meta vision and heâs physically peak so he can def keep up w isagi unlike kurona in bm vs ubers) and react to whatâs going on as it happensâŠplus i think reo being forced to get along w isagi on field would be mega development for him (they were so cute in the shibuya chapter when reo asks him and bachira if they want to do karaoke they def have bestie potential) honestly the more i think abt it the more iâm like MISSED OPPORTUNITY đ© plus it would make nagi and isagiâs rivalry more unpredictable because now nagi has to figure out how to match the reosagi combo (and maybe thatâs what awakens hiori?? like damn if THIS loser can put in effort then maybe i should too) and like a hiori nagi combo would also be sooo fun đ THE THOUGHT KAISER AND NAGI IS GENUINELY CRACKING ME UP kaiserâs like âyouâre a baby chick đâ thinking he rlly cooked w that one and nagi is just like âL + ratio + ugly ass haircut + blue washes you out + your momâ (the last one hits kaiser hard even though nagi doesnât even mean it like that fr) meanwhile nagi w noel noa is just like âok coach what do we do isagi is beating usâ and noel noa is like âbruh idk figure it outâ and then nagi just pulls off one of his insane unrealistic goals which draws a little đ out of noel noa LMAOAOAO and you cannot tell me that chris prince wouldnât LOVE isagi if he was his coachâŠlike this kid is so dedicated to breaking down his body and becoming the best version of himself to play soccer thatâs exactly chrisâs brand!!
LMAOO reo sensed rinâs insanity very early on he was staying five feet away i have to respect itâŠno because rin and nagi give such mean girl energy like they would be that duo that constantly side eyes each other when other people are talking tbh đ hioriâs the only nice one between the three of them but then he goes all super sadist and somehow ends up worse?? because w rin and nagi at least youâre expecting it so itâs not that deep but when sweetheart hiori starts spitting insults at you itâs like damn what did i do đ°
HAHA my tumblr schedule is so awk and also if iâm trying to finish a fic i hold off on asks so i donât get distracted hehe (i was working on the kiyora req hence the long wait time) but hoping to post that soon and then iâll be back to my speedy self i think!!
NO BECAUSE ITâS UNCANNY HELLO??? i was like WTFâŠbut in a good way đ like close enough welcome back kija whitedragon đ€© no because karasu as hak nagi as kija reo as jaeha bachira as zeno hiori as shinahâŠwalk w me hereâŠLMAOAOAOA omg if thereâs a yotd reboot thatâs all iâll post abt for literal weeks like iâll actually pass away
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#celebratingdean | Week 3: Divinity
He wants to carve me up into something metallic something sharp
#celebratingdean#dean winchester#deanmichael#dean graphic#spnedit#deanedit#vessel!dean#OKAY i know this is so late lmao but ive been dying to make something and just got my computer back#and this poem has been haunting me#so hopefully its not way too late lol! I'll be working thru a bunch of old prompts hopefully#to get to current ones#but yes#divinity as a burden#trying to convince and manipulate consent#the creepiness of a person as a sword- an object#body autonomy......#all these things i love the deanmichael / vesselbeing dynamic#by that i mean the push and pull the thought experiment of it#i could take or leave the ship#anyway this was hella fun i should do b&w more often#my stuff#dean#michael#edit
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Hiiii can i request prompt 53 with tsukki? My annoying cousin u may know @chibiiichan(i cant tag her its a surprise) recommend ur account and well she never been right more than now I LIKE UR ACC TOO URM JUST TAG HER IN THE POST (bcs its actually her birthday next week monday so....the least i could do this bcs she likes tsukki and shes recently talk abt the iwazumi story of yours....lmao shes cringe but in the same time got mad n i was besides her hearing her whining like bruh 'its 1 am'...i know i should buy something for her but she got spoiled enough đ
...that mf-) thank you âš
âALWAYS AND FOREVERâ
TSUKISHIMA X READER
2K WORDS
GENRE: ANGST,FLUFF
TW: SLIGHT AMBIGIOUS MENTION OF SUICIDE/ASSISTED DEATH, AND DEATH, CURSING (IN MY A/N)
THIS IS FOR @chibiiichann Happy birthday, I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS (BECAUSE I HATE IT :D ) SOOOOO YEAH I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY.
NOT PROOFREAD AT ALL. EXPECT SLIGHT MISTAKES
You were dying. You knew it. Your husband, Kei, knew it. Even friends you havenât spoken too since high school knew it.
So why did you all pretend that everything was okay?
5 year old Y/N:
You were running around your neighbourhood park chasing after butterflies, without a care in the world. As you were frollicing in the grass, you manage to trip over a rock tumbling to the ground scraping your knee making it bleed. Looking down at your slightly injured knee, your lip begins to quiver which eventually leads to wails of tears streaming down your face.
âyou donât have to cry you know?â said a slightly quiet voice towering over you. Above you was a boy, quite tall with a fat pair of glasses, golden eyes and a head full of blonde locks.
âWell when I get hurt, I cryâ you say matter oh factly (is that the phrase?) rubbing your nose as you sniffle. He held out a hand to you, which you immediately took shooting upwards and brushing yourself off. Â
The boy, after looking at you wildly, turns around and walks back to the actual park. âOi wait,â you call at the boy swiftly following him âarenât you going to ask my name?â
âno.â he says simply, proceeding to walk ahead.
âwell my names Y/N L/N pleasure to meet you,â you say jumping in front of him so he doesnât move, waiting for him to tell you his name...which he doesnât. âyou donât have to be so rude you knowâ Â
âIâm not being rudeâ he says stiffly â itâs just my brother says not to speak to strangersâ a smirk appears on his face to say âyou can leave me alone now.â Â
As if on cue, his brother approaches the both of you given the boy a slap on the back making him cringe âHey Kei, whoâs the friend youâve made here?â Â
âMy name is Y/N L/N and I'm here to be KEIâs best friend!â you said putting the emphasis on the word Kei after just learning that was the blondes name. Â
Kei rolled his eyes and sighed saying ânii-chan can we go home nowâ he folded his arms in annoyance.
âNo Kei, youâve got to get to know your new found friend Y/N-Chan right?â his brother said teasingly, knowing it was the last thing Kei wanted to do.
âYes ofcourse!â you say with a toothy grin, dragging Kei along with you to his demise.
Until the sun went down, you spent the rest of your time with Kei getting to know eachother (well him getting to know you more, since you did all the speaking.) Regardless of his previous annoyance in getting to know you in the first place, Kei would be lying if he said he didnât want to know you now.
As the sun was setting, Keiâs older brother (whoâs name you learned was Akiteru) called him to tell him he had to go home because dinner was ready. Before he left, you grabbed his hand and wrapped your pinky finger around his saying âAs long as we shall live, we will always look out for eachother as we are forever bestfriends, agreed?â
back to present - Â
In some odd way, this was Keiâs way of looking out for you. He knew what you had was uncurable and would weaken you even more as the days go by, so pretending like nothing was wrong seemed to be best in his eyes. Â
Everything you and Kei did was a game or some nostalgic act that you once did when you were children. It was sweet to say the least, seeing Kei all engrossed and determined to make you happy. Â
Your alarm rings snapping you out of you daydream, âit was time for medicineâ you thought with your face scowling at the thought. Immediately on time, as always, Kei comes In the room with all your medicine thats needed.
âArenât you my perfect little nurse Keiâ you say teasingly giving him a wink, laughing as you see his face turn red.
âDo you have to do this every time y/n?â he asks rolling his eyes at your childish behaviour.
âOh I'm just showing love to my best and favourite nurseâ you continue laughing at your own words
âIm your only ânurseââ he deadpans giving you your medicine as you talk.
âWell that is more reason to make you the best nurse.â you say smiling.
Silence falls between you, and you stare down at your arm watching as your husband gives you the medicine making you frown. âDo we have to keep doing this?â you ask which is probably the 1000th time youâve asked.
âOf course we do Y/N as Iâve said yesterday and the day before that and the day before that it-â
âBut do we really?â you interrupt âI canât keep doing this. You canât keep doing this.â
âDo you doubt me Y/N, I can do this foreverâ he says â I can take care of you foreverâ
âBut I donât wan-â
âIâm finished, Iâm going to start on dinnerâ he gets up and leaves the room yelling âIâll call you when itâs done.â
Sometimes you and Kei have these conversations. And all the time it ends the same way. You complain, he ignores and then you go and have dinner.
You can understand why he doesnât want to have this conversation. Who would want to hear about their partners complaints about practically being alive. Kei was torn, ever since he met you all he wanted to was to keep you happy. But could he compromise his own happiness for it.
15 year old Y/N - flashback
âKei Kei, arenât you excited!â you yell smiling widley
âExcited for what?â he asks, amused by your enthusiasm âitâs just highschool.â
âWell itâs a new highschool! Karasuno high school, to be exact.â
âAnd that is still just a school.â he says
âNot just any! Thatâs the school nii-chan went too, and even tho he lie-â
âLetâs not talk about it Y/Nâ he murmurs âwe should go now, donât want to be late on our first date.â
Going to Karasuno was fun, at the start everyone was pleasant and nice. But after a week or two when you and Kei were still stuck to eachother like glue, people werenât so pleasant. Kei was like a pop idol, being gorgeous and over 6ft at just the age of 15, caused alot of attention, especially when he was always around you.
At the start, the hate you got was bearable, it was the petty bitchy notes in your locker or just people blatanly talking badly about you infront of you. People didnât do it when you werenât around Kei, so when he had volleyball practice (which you were so excited that he joined the team) you were a big target for the bullies to come around.
Kei didnât really know of the bullying that happened towards you, especially since he was mainly in practice or not around when it happened. But one day in practice he heard some of his teammates, kageyama and hinata who seemed to talking about a student in one of their classes that was always getting picked on by the other girls in the year.
âYeah and I heard that Nana-san was planning on getting her and her friends to attack Y/N-san soon.â Â said Hinata
âShrimpy, who are they planning on attacking?â Kei asks to make sure he just heard the ginger correctly.
âOh this lovely person in our class their name is Y/N-sanâ he says, looking at Keiâs reaction he also asks âWhy? Do you know them?â Â
Kei doesnât respond, and immediately leaves the gym, ignoring Hinataâs and the other members of the teams yells of âWhere are you going tsukishima.â He didnât care, he just had to get to you. Â
He searched all the classes, asking every student if he knew where you were. Someone directs him to the toilets, where he burst through the door to see the other girls in your year surrounding you and beating you up. Â
âWhat the fuck are you doing to them?â he yells startling the girls.
âT-T-Tsukishima-san" one girl says âItâs not what it looks like.â
âOh fuck offâ he says, with them still frozen in shock âI said go!â Â
âAnd donât think I donât know your names eitherâ he calls after them.
He rushes towards your bruised body on the ground and cradles you gently, confused on what to really do. âOi Kei,â you say weakly catching his attention âI wouldâve won if you didnât come to stop the fight.â you joke making him scoff.
âWhatever you say Y/N.â
After you heal up, Kei already told on the girls that beat you up getting them suspended, and you explain how they were treating you because of their infatuation of him. And how they only did it when he wasnât around.
Once he learns this information, he decides to quite the volleyball team, to your surprise. But you demands on making him not quit were ignored, as he excused it by saying âI have to make sure youâre always alright remember, and if that means quitting some volleyball team then so be it.â
That was one out of the many times that Kei put his happiness before yours.
Flashback over.
When you first got diagnosed, Kei was immediately researching on it as it was a very rare condition. But sadly, he only found what the doctor already told you both. It was uncurable and your immune system and your body will weaken as the days go by.
Which it did, you were a shell of your past self. It was always shocking for Kei to see, especially with you only being 25. âIt wasnât supposed to be this way,â but he never let you see his sadness.
Whenever you knew Kei was sad you always reminded him âKei, I may be dying but please donât cry over meâ every time you said, there was a slight undertone of humour in your voice which always worked in boosting Keiâs spirit.
AN: IVE GOTTEN TO THE POINT WHERE I HATE THIS SOOO IM SORRY IN ADVANCE FOR THE SHITTING RUSHED ENDING IM GOING TO PROVIDE FOR YOU LOL.
The days passed and the years went by, and you and Kei were still alive and kicking it. Doing your daily routine of you making some joke, Kei giving you your medicine and then you eating dinner. You eventually stopped complaining, realizing and remembering your promise you gave to Kei at 5 years old in that park. âAs long as we shall live, we will always look out for eachother as we are forever bestfriends, agreed?â
Of course you had your rough days, everybody did and it was even harder being sick with a terminal illness. But having Kei to guide you through the storm made It better for you.
However, Kei isnt a miracle worker. He couldnât save you, noone could. And you both knew that. That didnât mean it made it any easier when the medicine stopped working and your pain got too hard to bear. Kei couldnât watch you do this anymore, âthe choice is yoursâ he said with tears in his eyes. Â
So you knew what you had to do, you got in your bed pulling Kei with you, and letting him envelope you in a big hug as you both cried.
âI love you,â you say âYou know that right?â
âOf course I know that, idiotâ he replies âAnd I love you.â
âAlways and forever?â
âAlways and forever.â
AN: how did I END UP CRYING WHILST WRITING THIS WHEN IT MADE NO FUCKING SENSE, I WAS TRYING TO DO THIS COOL NOTEBOOK (I HAVENT EVEN WATCHED THE NOTEBOOK) ENDING WHERE ITS AMBIGIOUS AND SHIT AND I JUST GIVE UP OKAY? I APOLOGISE LOOOOOOL. I HOPE YOU ENJOY ATLEAST A SENTENCE OF THIS AT LEAST.
#haikyuu x reader comfort#haikyu angst#haikyu x reader#haikyuu fluff#haikyu scenarios#haikyu headcanons#haikyu#tsukishima kei#tsukishima imagine#tsukishima fluff#tsukishima angst#tsukishima x reader
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Do you think Alec and Magnus use condoms? How do you think warlocks deal with STD?
REALLY interesting question, i must say that i love it. thank you anon. i hope you know that i will take it way too seriously
okay, so the first question is, ARE magnus and alec susceptible to STDs? unexpected p-words are not a problem because warlocks are sterile anyway (and, if you subscribe to both magnus and alec being of the same AGAB, also because it's not possible to get both gametes or whatever), so let's focus on the STD aspect (really important!). i think human STDs would not affect them, or at least not magnus. maybe alec because shadowhunters are notably more susceptible to weaknesses humans have, like disease and mortality and whatnot. but would human STDs affect warlocks?
i tend to go with no, because warlocks are immortal. immortality, especially as it is built in the sh verse (immortals can be killed but their body won't die on its own) kind of implies that they have, like, supercells or superorgans or something, that don't deteriorate - or, alternatively, that can rebuild way faster than they could be deterioriated. im saying that because stuff like aging and eventually dying is essentially the process in which your body can no longer replace dying cells at the same speed at which they die, which leads to your body weakening as a lot of its functions are impaired. therefore, immortality as in not aging and not dying on your own but still being able to be killed if you are, say, stabbed, implies that that process simply doesn't happen. so we have one of the two: either the cells don't die, or the speed at which they are replaced never changes
in my understanding, this implies that diseases don't affect immortals. maybe they can even contract them, but their body is too strong for it to have an effect. like having a disease without symptoms. but i tend to believe that rather than living with 8945134081 deadly viruses and bacteria inside them just sleeping around, the viruses and bacteria simply can't live inside them - both because superbody means super-immunological system and because superbody means that the bacteria and viruses essentially have no place to grow in, as they can't break their cells or whatever it is that that particular strain does
like - and that is true particularly for viruses as far as i remember, not so much bacteria - the way these mfs work is that they attack the cells of a body and use them to reproduce. but if you are talking about a body that has cells that are essentially unbreakable or so highly regenerative any attack on them is dealt with so quickly it doesn't even have an effect, i don't think any virus should be able to break into their cells in the first place. they would die without reproducing and bam, done. if you are going with the second theory (warlock cells do die, they just can keep replacing them as much as they want without a problem) then you probably have a situation where the virus can reproduce, but its reproduction doesn't lead to any problems because the dead cells are replaced as fast as they are killed. in that case, the warlock would be, technically, carrying the disease indefinitely. but i tend to think that considering how strong that body is and the fact that they have an immunological system (as they are half human and have no reason not to inherit that from their human parents) that is ALSO mega strong would mean these viruses would probably be eliminated quickly
bacterial diseases are different since mostly what bacterias do (again as far as i remember) is that they live inside the body, not necessarily inside the cells, but using the body's space to reproduce, and eventually their presence - usually due to the fact that they produce toxic elements that affect the host - leads to nearby cells dying/the space they are in deteriorating, etc. but again warlock's cells are either essentially unbreakable or highly regenerative, so that wouldn't be a problem, and they could overpower invasive bacteria easily before a colony could form. so, no human bacterial diseases would be able to flourish, either
and that's not even considering the fact that as they are half human they probably have an immunological system that is ALSO superstrong and therefore able to fuck up any disease causers. or the role magic might take in protecting the body, like, who's to say the magic itself doesn't kill any invasive bacteria or viruses that come into the body before it can do anything? why not?
so all of that, allied with the fact that many viruses and bacteria are evolved to develop within the systems of a particular species (for example, that particular virus has evolved to grow in a cow's digestive system, and therefore can't survive for long in a monkey's or a human's), is interpreted by me as "warlocks can't contract human diseases", since warlocks are a different species from humans, as are shadowhunters. sure, they're hybrids, which makes this part of the argument a little more complicated but obviously their demon side is stronger than their human side, since they are immortal. and demons definitely aren't getting rabies or whatever because that is just too fucking lame
so okay! no human STDs. we have established that now. bUT, i think it's possible that warlocks are able to contract their OWN diseases - strains that attack warlocks specifically, particularly a warlock's magic, since again they kind of have a superbody but i feel like the magic is a more fragile thing, especially as they aren't fully magical (because they're half human)
don't ask me how these work <3 obviously magic can interact with non-magical beings and elements so maybe there are bacteria are viruses that developed specifically to settle in magical components, but that sounds like a huge evolutive leap since magic is so different from like, cells. or maybe there are also magical beings that work as disease transmitters in a similar but essentially different way. and they probably can also be transmitted via sex because i mean, why not? sounds as good a mean as any
but, could magnus and alec transmit those to each other? i don't think so, because shadowhunters have wildly different magic from the one warlocks do - their magic is angel magic, warlock's is demon magic, AND, furthermore, they work in completely different ways. for starters, shadowhunters magic is so pathetic diluted that some of them don't even consider it magic at all. i mean, that is also because of good ole racism (hardly the first time racism led people to call the exact same thing by different names so they can convince themselves their way of being is superior even when it is the same) but there is a huge difference because warlocks are able to conjure and interact with magic and have it as a part of their beings and experience of the world through it, whereas shadowhunters can "borrow" particular powers for a small period of time at best. it is possible that the magic doesn't even exist within them, they are just capable of handling it inside their bodies for some time, which is why they need runes to use it and it has a limited effect
so i think diseases that affect warlocks could not be passed between magnus and alec, and WOW is it weird to realize that magnus and alec are of different species. like i knew that but when that knowledge comes to practice it's just so weird. anyway
and idk if diseases that affect warlocks would be able to live dormant inside shadowhunters and then be transmitted because, like i said, shadowhunters have completely different magic if they even have it at all, and i don't think the disease beings that live in warlock magic would be able to be inside their body. so, to answer your first question - i don't think magnus and alec would NEED condoms, because i don't think they are capable of passing STDs to each other, and in at the very least magnus' case (debatable for alec, i tend to think that because shadowhunters are essentially human they can catch any disease humans can, altho maybe they have a rune to begone them) i don't think they can even catch human STDs. and magnus has a cum kink so that probably means no condoms
as for how warlocks deal with STDs! like i said i think they are only affected by STDs (and diseases in general) that affect their magic, not their body. so, they probably have treatments for those. we gotta remember that warlocks have a very developed society full of academics, so they probably have worked to find cures for magical diseases, if they exist at all. so, there are probably particular treatments for those. i don't think magical diseases abound or anything, particularly because the amount of magical beings is pretty limited and magic is so different from non-magical elements so non-magical beings such as viruses and bacteria would have to change a lot to be able to evolve into magic-affecting beings. again, if they even exist. but yeah i think they as a (group of) society(ies) have worked on cures for those. which is funny to think about because like, do they blast the magical diseases with begone rays or something? please say yes. id love that
with all of that being said, i hope u know that i was planning on answering asks the next weekend (not this one, the other one) cuz ive been busy as hell lately and it'll be the first time i'll have time lmao, and i was literally just in a bathroom break between readings when i saw this ask and i just couldn't resist answering it. this is it. what broke my studying resolve. magical STDs. you should be proud
mandatory disclaimer that please for the love of god use condoms, you are not immune to STDs. also, this post is about show canon, not book canon, so i don't care if this is in accordance to what the books say. also, i'm no expert in healthcare, this post is just for fun, so don't take anything i used to build my arguments as scientific truth or anything like that
#sh#shadowhunters#magnus bane#alec lightwood#dirty words#hello everyone! i have been gone for quite some time. please accept: this#now back to studying#lore#meta#ask#anonymous#long post#im not sure if this is very comprehensible but i did my best
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CHRISTINA ITS BEEN SO LONG (over 40 days I checked). IM SO SORRY I HAVENT SAID ANYTHING IN SO LONG IVE BEEN CRAZY BUSY. Also I had to make myself not go on tumblr at all for a bit bc Iâm waiting to read the haikyuu series when itâs all done (I cracked and read kags but itâs ok) ANYWAYS HOW ARE YOU DOING LATELY MI AMOR??? I got to hang out with my friends yesterday we went shopping and I saw this crazy cute boy at Starbucks (he was the barrista that took our order) the under part of his hair was dyed purple and he had red eyeshadow under his eyes like eye bags and he was funny and nice and omg how cute he looked while talking to customers đ©đ©
Anyways I read modern day Romeo and Juliet part 2 OH MY GOD IT WAS SO CUTE AND SWEET THE PART WHERE HE SAYS HELL LEAVE IF READER DOESNT LIKE HIM BACK AND HE HAS A SOFT LOOK IN HIS EYES đ©đ©đ© THE PART WHERE HE KISSES HER HAND WHEN HE SAYS GOODNIGHT HAD ME SCREAMING
Can you tell Iâm trying to say as much as possible to make up for not sending anything for awhile
OH MY GOD ALSO I was on tiktok earlier and I saw this girl that was so pretty that she made me want to do art again (Iâve had really bad art block since like February)
I hope youâve been doing well :33 đž (Iâll start talking regularly again I promise)
Ps make sure to eat regularly and get enough sleep and to take care of yourself physically and mentally you deserve it remember to be kind to yourself <3333
Pps LMAO PP I hope you have an amazing day (and have had a bunch while I was gone)
JFOWNFKWNFKE HELLO!!!! Iâve missed you a ton!!! I was worried something happened to you but ugh I know life gets so busy so no worries!!!
LMAO the series is done now itâs okay you can read them all in itâs full glory đ„°đ„° I appreciate you being so sweet and wanting to read my fics tho!!!!!
AWWW! I love falling in love with Starbucks baristas (another fic idea perhaps???? đđđđ) itâs just so cute haha
FLOWNFKEKF LISTEN I LOVE ME SOME USHIJIMA HE IS KING SHIT HE IS MY BABIE đđđđđđđđđ pls someone protect him and give him love
LOL you never have to make up for anything lovely!!! I just love hearing from you đ„° also Iâm sorry for my late response - I just moved into my new place and shits been really busy and chaotic lately đ
Funwofnekfn ugh I feel that. Iâve had writers block for a while now and even with like art in general I really want to get back into it but I feel like I canât đ
đđđcanât promise we sleeping or taking care of ourselves but I just drank some water soooooo đ but I hope youâre doing super well babes!!! Sending you all my love!!!
Hehehehehe pp fjwonfkenfow Tysm bean đ„șđ„șđ„șđ„șđđđ
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modern day Romeo and Juliet (ushijima x fem!reader)
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ayo. ive read my scheduled email and its time for freewriting shit again. lmao. I want this post to be like a small light from a lit match stick inside a very hollow, icy, and numbing cave. (sounds cartoonish right? I know. Im obsessed with Adventure Time.) I want all people to be genuinely happy. Â Spiritually, emotionally, and physically. Upon reaching my 24th anniversary in this world, I finally learned how to truly embrace all my emotions. Some are more overwhelming than the other, but we have to heed in our treacherous yet perplexing minds that everything is fleeting and we are in control. The feeling of extreme sadness fades, but so does joyful states. Everything can change in a matter of minutes or years. You are in control of all your emotions. You are in control of all your life choices. Your actions. Your words. Your perspective. It feels weird to actually write about it. I've wanted to talk about it. I never wanted help from anyone as I firmly believed that I was alone. Sure, I have a family and friends, but it is hard to see that when your head is clouded with negativity. I've even come to the point where I was too overwhelmed, I found being physically hurt less painful. The pain I felt distracted me from what I was thinking. My mind tended to go bonkers. lmao. But bro, I was so good at concealing my bonkers mind. It's easy to fake any emotion that you have. Slap anything sunshine-y or happy to anything and people would believe you. It went on for years. Long story short, thousands of bracelets collected, it became worse. The physical pain could no longer withhold the emotional pain. Couldn't sleep. Couldn't stop thinking. And voila! I found a good amount of self help books (from tumblr) and novels. Novels that brought me to different places. Self-help books that made me understand what I feel and what to do. I've read that taking the easy way out will leave everyone sad. AND IN THE FIRST PLACEEEEEE, I NEVER WANT THATTTTTTT. I want everyone to be happy. I would act foolish and do dumb shit to make everyone happy in a heartbeat. So, that idea made me push a few more years. Later on, the crippling shit came crawling back again to my head, sooooooo I needed new shit to keep me distracted again. Films, series, music, and short clips from YouTube helped me out a lot. Every single time that my mind is going to think like anything that can think of, even to the point that I was just going to think that I might be hungry, I'd watch something. There's just something about silence for me. Because of this new habit of mine, I've learned more about myself. I love different types of things. I like horror. I like thriller. I like comedy. I like romance. I love all types of films, but there is something about the horror genre that interests me. I still can't point out what, but I love watching horror films. With regards to music, I've learned that I love Indie, Punk Rock, Rap, and Pop. We all can't like a specific genre. It's stupid to ask "what genre of music do you like?". It's not actually stupid-stupid, it's just stupid. Ya know? Anyway, passing this phase, I needed to find something again because it's not doing the shit that it was supposed to, I tried investing more time on video games. By investing more, I mean a whole shit lot. I love video games since I was young cuz.... u know.... they keep u... try to guess it! oh yeah. you got that right! distracted! I love the aggressive plays and trashtalks that my friends and I make. The short stories we tell one another. The rants. The lame jokes. The late night we sound drunk but we are not drunk jokes. The roleplays. The lame jokes. The memes. And once again, The lame jokes. Something about lame jokes and the laughs and curses after that always gets me every single time. Oh shoot. Yup Yup. Few years later, I finally noticed the pattern that my sadness is temporary. I got over it one way or the other (or another. depends on how you wanna read it. i dont wanna say another cause i might write about one direction like what im doing now so-). Happiness is temporary as well. But, we are the ones who are actually in control of our emotions. If you wanna feel sad, be sad for a while. You're getting too sad? Try hanging out with your funny friends. Can't do that? Find an alternative. Watch a movie, knit a sweater. Anything your mind could think of as long as it will keep you mentally distracted from being physically and mentally hurt. I do have a few notes though. We cannot and should never assume what people are going through. It may be petty for you, but it may be very crucial to them. So never everrrr say things like: -Some people have it worse than you -At least you have ..... These sheetsss are annoying as heckkk and could really down someone. I know it is not your intention to annoy but people react differently. alsooooooo, it is not okay or normal to hate on things for bandwagon. that is just plainly crazy and stupid. let people enjoy things. anddddddd never suppress your emotions. admit what you feel inside and try to think of a way to resolve ittttt. keeping it to yourself will just make it worseeeeee. find your own outlettttttttt. hihihi ïž alsooooo. being more spiritually full with God's words and ideas really help me to be spiritually happy. ps. im christian but i dont discredit other religion and even applaud other religion's ideas and beliefs. this is a really long, selfish post so i might as well recommend some things I like : Songs with their lyrics that made me go through life. âIâve got soul but Iâm not a soldierâ -All These Things That I've Done, The Killers âIt's not too late, I'm still right hereâ -Breaking Your Own Heart, Kelly Clarkson "And the salt in my wounds /Â Isn't burning any more than it used to / It's not that I don't feel the pain / It's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore / And the blood in these veins /Â Isn't pumping any less than it ever has / And that's the hope I have / The only thing I know that's keeping me alive" -Last Hope, Paramore âThere is not a single word in the whole world / That could describe the hurt / The dullest knife just sawing back and forth / And ripping through the softest skin there ever was / How were you to know?â -Hate to See Your Heartbreak, Paramore "It's holding on, though the road's long / And seeing light in the darkest things And when you stare at your reflection / Finally knowing who it is / I know that you'll thank God you did" -1800, Logic "Did some things you can't speak of / But at night you live it all again / You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now / If only you had seen what you know now then" -Innocent, Taylor Swift (My bb) "10 months sober, I must admit / Just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it / 10 months older, I won't give in / Now that I'm clean I'm never gonna risk it // Rain came pouring down when I was drowning / That's when I could finally breathe / And by morning gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean" -Clean, Taylor Swift âI guess I always knew / That I had all the strength to make it through.â -Believe in Me, Demi Lovato "I'm addicted to the madness / I'm a daughter of the sadness / I've been here too many times before / Been abandoned and I'm scared now / I can't handle another fallout / I am fragile, just washed upon the shore /Â They forget me, don't see me / When they love me, they leave me" -I Hate You, Donât Leave Me, Demi Lovato âI'm overwhelmed / I need a voice to echo / I need a light to take me home / I need a star to follow / I don't knowâ -Nightingale, Demi Lovato "I'm a walking travesty / But I'm smiling at everything. // Arrogant boy, Love yourself so no one has to." -Therapy, All Time Low "I tried it once before but I didn't get too far /Â I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart. / But maybe I'm alive 'cause I didn't really wanna die / But nothing very special ever happens in my life / Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that / All the blood escaping me won't end the pain / And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me / I died to be the white ghost / Of the man that I was meant to be" -Ghost, Badflower "Are the pieces of you / In the pieces of me? / I'm just so scared / You're who I'll be / When I erupt / Just like you do / They look at me / Like I look at you" -DNA, Lia Marie Johnson Movies and series to try : -The Perks of Being a Wallflower (The book is bomb af. if yall havent tried, ur missing out) -The Kings of Summer -Never Let Me Go -The Art of Getting By -Silver Linings Playbook -Winterâs Bone -The Lovely Bones (The script. The words) -Me and Earl and the Dying Girl -American Horror Story -Black Swan
pps. remember that every one has their own pace and point of view. donât push yourself too hard, and donât overthink. give yourself time, and respect all your emotions. analyze them but not more than like 5 minutes as anything beyond that might cause you to overthink and be sadder. and sad is not rad. hehe. you got this. you got you. self love is the best even though it can be tricky to do. nobody else is like you. youâre the only one of you (i just remembered me.......... i might have hummed it while typing it mid sentence). consider other peopleâs opinion but do not let it cloud your own judgement as you know yourself best. dont let other commentâs define you. spread love. vibe people you vibe with. ayeeee lets go!!!Â
ppps this is my last post bc im happier now and know myself better. i no longer limit myself on the age that I want. I want to live as long as how God wants me to be. hehe.Â
x :D
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1-100 TELL ME ALL
Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well
1. What is you middle name?
Jesse
2. How old are you?
22
3. When is your birthday?
dec 9
4. What is your zodiac sign?
sagittarius
5. What is your favorite color?
purples
6. Whatâs your lucky number?
9
7. Do you have any pets?
no
8. Where are you from?
bc canada. my great grandparents are from russia
9. How tall are you?
5 something
10. What shoe size are you?
7?
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
3 that i actually use
12. What was your last dream about?
i dont remember my most recent one but i had a banger of a dream i described in another post
13. What talents do you have?
i think expressing myself, or music, i have some talent that needs discipline
14. Are you psychic in any way?
well i am a spiritual person, in a way. and growing up in a toxic drama filled family, i have Developed the Skill of guessing how people are feeling and what they are gonna do. and i analyze dreams. so not psychic but i am really interested and intuitive whats goin on in there
15. Favorite song?
for some reason https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oilVq8-F4_Q colours by roosevelt ive been obsessed with lately i just loop that shit. loop loop loop. blaringit into my ears and speedwalking down thestreet. the beat.!!!! i feel like I  took all the colours
16. Favorite movie?
spiderverse. i really enjoyed always be my maybe.
17. Who would be your ideal partner?
someone who doesnt make me feel like im Too Much
18. Do you want children?
not RIGHT NOW
19. Do you want a church wedding?
i have no idea actually. id want a special wedding definitely.
20. Are you religious?
yes, i honestly feel like i just come like this, i dont go by any books and i dont want to be associated with christians. if i be too religious i start getting the Bad Feelings
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?
yes visiting sick relatives. and one in a psyche ward.
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?
i got a parking ticket
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?
no. maybe i did and i had no idea who they were because id never heard of them
24. Baths or showers?
showers.
25. What color socks are you wearing?
alien socks that are green and black
26. Have you ever been famous?
no. what does that even mean !!!!
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?
yes because money but noooooo. its hard when one person definitely doesnt like me. if im famous some people just wont like me and theres going to be more of them
28. What type of music do you like?
stuff with electric guitars in it. funk. bops. i cant get enough lately
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
no
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
one. and sometimes NONE. i dont fucking know why its just more comfortable. id lie down on a floor and pass out
31. What position do you usually sleep in?
i usually cant fall asleep unless im on my face with my arms tucked under me for warmpth and general log shape. after that though its chaos. dreamin
32. How big is your house?
BIG!!!!!! so many rooms. so many people.Â
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?
on a Functional day, cereal. not because its my favourite thing but it doesnt require a lot of attention and its easiest to tolerate. my appetite is just. like this
34. Have you ever fired a gun?
HELL no.
35. Have you ever tried archery?
in my child days i shot my hair elastics around and pretended i was fighting aliens. this is definitely archery.
36. Favorite clean word?
i dont really think about words like that. pizza is a nice word.
37. Favorite swear word?
bitch. its really fun to say.
38. Whatâs the longest youâve ever gone without sleep?
not all that long. if i was up the entire night i am usually sleeping in midday no matter where i am. ive disappointed many teachers. its called not caring.
39. Do you have any scars?
yes, but theres no dramatic stories to them, just me not leaving scratches and bites alone as a kid. they look kind of cool though. and theyre so mysterious. youd think id have scars from self harm but no.
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
i believe so...
41. Are you a good liar?
yes, when i am 100% like morally committed to lying.
42. Are you a good judge of character?
NO. my thought process is: its rude to assume someone is going to behave badly, and they will be offended and have hurt feelings if you anticipate that. i have to like. treat everyone with exactly the same respect unless theyre a dick. otherwise its being judgmental. and it ends up as naïveté. but im okay with that . the price of being a good person
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?
i could do a british one once i guess LOL and it looks like now ive Absorbed a mexican accent but i never really try to talk in other accents
44. Do you have a strong accent?
i dont know how to answer this
45. What is your favorite accent?
idk i like new things i havent heard before. and thinking about how other languages work. theres a lot of different accents at my work and i honestly enjoy listening to them
46. What is your personality type?
that.... INFJ. see. psychic
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?
one of the gay jackets
48. Can you curl your tongue?
dont think so
49. Are you an innie or an outie?
innie
50. Left or right handed?
left
51. Are you scared of spiders?
depends. i had these big house spiders in my dungeon at my parents house, and id just be âhiâ and set them free. but if i see one where im not expecting it i might yell a lot and tell everyone and run around and then set it free
52. Favorite food?
tacos from my old work. i was indeed. screaming, lost in the sauce. i waited until i was away from the restaurant because i knew all my dignity would vanish
53. Favorite foreign food?
idk... i need to eat more curry. i need more curryin my life. bring it on.
54. Are you a clean or messy person?
clean
55. Most used phrased?
âthis slapsâ i feel like ive been saying that a lot
56. Most used word?
I
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?
a whole entire fucking hour (when i wake up) otherwise 5min
58. Do you have much of an ego?
i do, but i hide it.Â
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?
chomp chomp. i am not a patient man.
60. Do you talk to yourself?
yes, when i know no ones around, or when im not worried about seeming like a crazy person at work
61. Do you sing to yourself?
nah
62. Are you a good singer?
no. i can sing and it sound okay. Â nice even. but good??? like beautiful?????? no.
63. Biggest Fear?
someone dying, natural disaster, new illness
64. Are you a gossip?
maybe. i feel like i have the Tendencies and then im like âam i being a bad person right nowâ. i want to know the deets though.
65. Best dramatic movie youâve seen?
i Simply Dont Have the Attention for Those
66. Do you like long or short hair?
BOTH . long hair is more fun to draw. short hair is hot
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?
fuck no. why would i. fuck off. i dont care about your states.
68. Favorite school subject?
ART ART AR T
69. Extrovert or Introvert?
introerverte
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?
no
71. What makes you nervous?
people who are not Definitely Cheerful
72. Are you scared of the dark?
no. unless i think about things to scare myself on purpose
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
no unless they need to know. because im not a fucking ANIMAL
74. Are you ticklish?
depends. i can be not ticklish if im determined.
75. Have you ever started a rumor?
i dont think so... i started a rumor i was from mars
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?
maybe i was supposed to train some girls and then i probably didnt do a great job and they didnt listen. they say my job now is somewhat authority and im like...... ok......Â
77. Have you ever drank underage?
no
78. Have you ever done drugs?
no
79. Who was your first real crush?
someone whos OUTTA MY LIFE
80. How many piercings do you have?
two? i got them pierecd at claires lmao and i didnt get an infection because im  so salty. then i took them out because they were from claries
81. Can you roll your Rs?â
hell yes
82. How fast can you type?
so fucking fast. faster than my work finder helper. im fast im very fast
83. How fast can you run?
IM VERY FAST
84. What color is your hair?
orange
85. What color is your eyes?
green
86. What are you allergic to?
im still trying to figure that out. whatever it is gives me hives
87. Do you keep a journal?
yes. so i can get better at handwriting and just talking in general and hear what my voice sounds like. and to have a space away from other peoples needs and pressures
88. What do your parents do?
my mom is a stay at home mom and my dad shoots pop bottles into the sky
89. Do you like your age?
sure
90. What makes you angry?
everything. cabbage. i swore about cabbage for a long time the other day. i am just full of anger.Â
91. Do you like your own name?
YES. i mean i chose it i better. honestly my first name ......... i feel self conscious about it sometimes. i think it was the only name for me though. it wasnt the ideal most wonderful namei could find because those didnt fit, it was MY name.
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?
im going to have two sons and im naming them brick and rusty.
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?
yeah, i want a boy a girl
94. What are you strengths?
my strengths doing all 100 questions, this is serious muscles
95. What are your weaknesses?
the exhaustion of jumping from one question to the next especially when they are vague. im not complaining this was my idea
96. How did you get your name?
i pfound it in the baby name book and i was lie  âhey yyy, i saw that name in black beauty, lets use it for my gay coded villain what the hell!â
97. Were your ancestors royalty?
no but i did have some ancestors who lives i a mansions andhad fucking SERVANTS. before you call me problematic my other part of family was like sewing things and not going to schoolÂ
98. Do you have any scars?
weve been over this. when im older im going to get a cool scar fighting a dragon
99. Color of your bedspread?
pink, white, blue
100. Color of your room?
white
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Do you know anyone named Austin? yes When was the last time you held hands with someone? yesterday Who was the last person to make you laugh? my fiance as usual Who was the last person you talked to in person? mum
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies? hoodies
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? im okay with being at home tbh Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from? haha i never delete my texts so its a ton of people How many pillows do you sleep with? four. i cant do any less Honestly, when was the last time anyone saw you in your underwear? two days ago Last person you talked to on the phone? elle Kiss anyone in the last week? yup How much money is in your wallet? $0. i never carry cash Anything exciting happen lately? not really :( Who was the last person to look at you like you were crazy? i dont remember
Has someone disappointed you recently? no Do you get along with your friendsâ boyfriends / girlfriends? i do. weâre pretty close knit tbh Do you know anyone who is having a baby? not right now actually Have you ever been called heartless? no Looking back, did you ever think youâd be where youâre at in life now? haha not at all, both in good and bad ways What are the last spoken words you heard? they were quick How many months are there until your birthday? 6 Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? i dont drink milk When was the last time you had Starbucks? nearly a month ago How many letters are in your last name? 8 Have you lost friends in the past year? nope Who did you last text? my fiance Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? definitely! if youre on the same page, its totally worth it Last November, who were you in a relationship with? my fiance Do you still talk to the person you last kissed? yes What was your last phone call about? my job Do you think you are an argumentative person? i can be if i feel particularly passionate about the topic How are you feeling right now? tired Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? maybe Are you someone who worries too often? haha yes How has the week been? quick Have you ever dyed your hair? yes Have you ever been in a play? yeah as a kid for school How many children do you want? 2 Do you have a bad temper? not really. i get shitty but i dont rage or anything Have you ever spent the night in the hospital? nope Want to get something off your chest? nah Anything good happening tomorrow? its friday! Are you saving up money for anything in particular? just a ton of savings, wedding and house things Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you? tbh not really! my fiance knows me better than my sister tbh Is there someone you want to talk to right now? no Does the person you like know that you like them? yes Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? shein lmao. ive had it for two years. it hasnt ripped or anything! Were you happy when you woke up today? no lmao Last thing you ate? i made my own club sandwich and it was shit Doing anything special tonight? i dont think so tbh
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SPN 8x06:Â âSouthern Comfortâ
THEN: Garth Fitzgerald IV. Sam retired because he met Amelia and they had a normal life. Dean was in Purgatory. Bennyâs his new friend, whom Sam immediately distrusts.
Kearney, Missouri.
RIP first victim. Decapitated.
Oh shit, here we go.
âYou want to talk about Benny? Fine. Let's talk.â
âOkay. How about he's a vampire?â
Donât talk to Dean like heâs 5.
âDon't pretend I don't get it. I know you had to do what you had to down there.â No, Sam doesnât get it. He didnât just âdo what he had to doâ. Dean genuinely befriended Benny after going through Purgatory together.
âAnd what about my friend, Amy? She was what? 'Cause you sure as hell didn't have a problem ganking her.âÂ
Amy had been killing people.
Benny hasnât killed a single person since coming out of Purgatory.
You spent ONE DAY with Amy. Dean spent a year with Benny.
âHe tell you he's not drinking live blood, or something? And you believe him. Wow. Okay.â HE KNOWS, HEâS SEEN BENNY DRINK FROM HIS BAGS.
âYeah. I got a vampire buddy, and you turn your phone off for a year.â
âDon't turn this on me.â
Youâre using Deanâs past year against him, heâs gonna turn around and do the same to you, regardless if itâs fair or not.
âLook, Benny slips up and some other hunter turns his lights out, so be it.â
âBut it's not gonna be you, right?â
It is, actually, and itâs gonna be heartbreaking, so screw you very much.
At the crime house.
âSam, Kevin's in the wind, okay, you're sulking around like a eunuch in a whorehouse, and I can't help but ask myself, when is decapitation not my thing?â pfft.
Garth!!!
I really donât get the annoyance they have with Garth??? Thatâs always been an issue of mine concerning the Winchesters.
Look how happy Garth is to see them again! What an angel!!
âUh, you guys have no idea how much I missed you.â
âA Texas Ranger, Garth? Seriously? We're in Missouri.â Says the man whoâll say heâs a Texas Ranger in Kansas in S13.
Garthâs multiple phones.
Ringtone #1:Â âJumpâ by Kriss Kross.
âSince when is giving advice your job?â
âHold up. Are you the new Bobby?â
âYou shut your mouth.â
âYes.â
âYou shut your mouth!â
I could honestly punch Sam and Dean for how mean they are to Garth. Garthâs been helping out as best as he could since three of the best hunters in the community either died or went M.I.A.
Scott Lew.
Eww. Green goo.
OHHH WHY DID GARTH HAVE TO TASTE IT????
Ringtone #2:Â âWild Wild Westâ by Kool Moe Dee.
âOne of those things rings Hammer, I'm throwing down.â Get ready to throw down then.
âAlcottâ was carved into Chesterâs chest.
âDo you remember anything at all about what happened? Um... Chester dying?â
âNot really. Bits and pieces, I guess.â
I get the joke too, Garth.
A visible negative reaction to the name âAlcottâ.
âSara had one night with him, whereas I was with Chester for 37 years.â And yet you couldnât let go of her going to prom with him?
Lunch time.
âI was in Purgatory.â
âLike the Purgatory Purgatory?â
âNo, the one in Miami.â
ohoho.
âMan, thatâs balls.â
âThat's not how you say âballs.â"
Why donât you cool your damn jets, Dean?
âSo, howâd you get out?â
I CANâT STAND that passive aggressive move Sam does there.
Garth went to college and then dental school.
âWhere'd you think I got my first case?â
âLet me guess - Tooth Fairy.â
â...Yeah. Man, I felt terrible when I ganked that SOB.â
I love that last line and the genuine sadness when Garth says it. Bless his heart.
Scottâs asthmatic, and heâs got ectoplasm coming out his ear.
HOT COFFEE TO THE FACE, GOOD LORD.
RIP Jeff. Killed by Scott.
âSussexâ
One of Bobbyâs hats!
STOP BEING A FREAKING GATEKEEPER DEAN
âThat's not how you wear it.â WHAT OTHER WAY IS THERE TO WEAR A HAT
AGAIN I DONâT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY TREAT GARTH LIKE AN ANNOYANCE TO DUMP ON EACH OTHER.
Sara Alcott, now Sara Brown.
Domestic Sam flashback.Â
Sam and Amelia had sex.Â
âYou asked me if I lost someone. I did. My husband. He died in Afghanistan eight months ago.â
âWe were together forever. Or at least it seemed that way. Then one day, Don just enlists. Didn't ask me, just said something about wanting to do the right thing. Next thing I know, he's off overseas and I'm all alone. I got a couple letters, some phone calls, and then a knock at the door. Just like that. And everywhere I looked, all I could see was judgment and pity and just this constant reminder of Don everywhere. So I moved here... and became even more of a hot mess than I already was. And you hit a dog.â
This is one of Ameliaâs better moments. When she lets go, when she lets her walls down, sheâs honest and sweet.
âEasy there, flyweight. Last time you drank a beer, I had to pick you up off the floor.â Fair enough.
âYouâre such an idjit.â
âIdjit's supposed to be used angrily. Okay? Not happy. If you're gonna butcher it, don't say it at all.â
KNOCK IT OFF, DEAN.
âBobby belonged to all of us, Dean â not just you and Sam. Now, I'm just taking what he showed me and trying do something with it. That's all!â
Itâs nice to see Garth stand up for himself. It certainly shut Dean up.
Grudges are the connection.
Bobbyâs journal holds the answer: spectre.
The Confederate Unknown Soldier.
âSee, the idea was, they took a faceless, nameless soldier they couldn't identify, and they buried him here to commemorate all the soldiers who died.â
âDid you learn that in college?â
âNope â Civil War re-enactments. Once a year, every year. Don't hate.â
I hope Garthâs still doing what he loves.
Love that sass.
Sam finds the string. Thatâs an important clue.
âWhy open it up if you're not gonna take anything?â Oh, but they did.
âSure. We won.â
LMAAOOOO I LOVE THAT
Scottâs having an asthma attack. Deputy goes to get the inhaler...gets possessed by the spectre.
RIP Sheriff. Killed by Deputy Doug
Did Scott even get his inhaler?
Our next lead: Karl.
Deanâs on Karl, Sam and Garth have research.
âHey, uh, Sam. If you ever need to talk, I just want to let you know that I'm here. About anything â you know, life, uh, Dean, you.â Garthâs a sweetheart.
Flashback.
âHey. Uh, just lock up when you leave. I'm late.â
âWait, what?â
Ameliaâs probably got work, donât worry about it, Sam.
âI know I said a lot of things last night, and I know I can't ask you to forget them. But just... Do.â And then sheâs back on her bullshit.
âBecause I don't need your pity. I don't need you looking at me the way they all â like that.â Is it me or is she confusing pity with sympathy?
âHey, ump. You remember me? I stole second!â
âKarl? What the hell are you doing? Why are you doing ââ
âWhy am I gonna make mustard from your brain stem?! I don't know. Why did you call me out, ump?â
OF ALL THE THINGS TO HOLD A DAMN GRUDGE ABOUT
A theory on who the Confederate Unknown Soldier is.
âCorporal Collins of the Union shot and killed his brother, Vance, who fought for the Confederacy. Local boys.â
âLegend has it that Vance swore vengeance on his brother with his dying breath. Years later â consumed by guilt, no doubt â the corporal dug his brother up where he'd buried him on the battlefield and brought him home.âÂ
UH, DID HE HAVE TO SMELL HIM LIKE THAT?
Thereâs the spectreâs object: a penny.
W E L P
Three Days Ago.Â
âFell on Black Daysâ by Soundgarden. I always wondered what the song was, I always enjoyed it.
I love the montage of how the coin got passed around.
âWell, let's go through some of Sammy's greatest hits.â Letâs not.
âYeah, I might have lied, but I never once betrayed you.â Uh, Amy.Â
âI never once left you to die.â Â Ok, canât argue with that.
Garth putting his life on the line.Â
âCome on, Dean. You do not want to kill your brother. You â you've been protecting him your whole life. Don't stop now.â
âHe left me to rot in Purgatory!â
âAll right. All right. Maybe he did. I don't know. I wasn't there. But I'm sure he had his reasons.â
âJust like you had your reasons for Benny.â
âWho?â
LMAO
âBenny has been more of a brother to me this past year than you've ever been! That's right. Cas let me down. You let me down. The only person that hasn't let me down is Benny.â Oof, thatâs gonna stick with Sam.
âGoodbye, Sam.â :(
NICELY DONE, GARTH!
âHow come that penny didn't jack you like everyone else? I mean, I can understand why it didn't affect the kid who took it. He's young and innocent. But, uh, everyone at some point in their life feels like they've been screwed.â
âNot me, man. I let all that stuff go with the help of my yogi, my Sega Genesis. And you should, too. You can't change the past, amigo.â
Garthâs a damn saint.
âNow, there's something I want to say to you. Stop being a idjit! With Bobby dead, you and Sam are all each other has. And that's not so bad, man. Now, you know what's coming next, right?â
Garth hug! Garth hug! Garth hug!
Ringtone #3:Â âU Canât Touch Thisâ by M.C Hammer.
âYo, Lamar. What do we got? Wendigo? You got a flare gun? No? What about a flame thrower? Â Then you'd better get some sneakers, buddy, 'cause you're gonna have to run.â
I love Garth.
Why couldnât we have ended the episode there?
âI don't pity you. Okay? I don't. You and I â we're a lot of things, but we're not to be pitied.â True.
God, how much was she drinking?
The start of their relationship.
âYou and I both know you didn't need that penny to say those things.â True. Dean will reiterate that Bennyâs the best friend he ever had in a later episode, completely on his own will.
âOwn up to your crap, Dean. I told you from the jump where I was coming from, why I didn't look for you. But you? You had secrets. You had Benny. And you got on your high and mighty, and you've been kicking me ever since you got back. But that's over. So move on, or I will.â
Again, I wonât argue with Sam. Dean shouldâve told Sam about Benny from the jump (maybe then Sam wouldnât hate Benny so much). Dean does deflect from talking about his own past year but bringing up Samâs. Itâs been happening for months and Samâs sick of it. I get it.
âYou know what? Hear this, too. I just might be that hunter that runs into Benny one day and ices him.â
And there^ is where I draw the line. The first half was understandable but that^? I think thatâs Samâs rather pathetic attempt to say something thatâs gonna hurt Deanâs feelings the way his own feelings were hurt. Like, Sam...donât embarrass yourself.
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Where you going for a shark girl and lava boy mirror for the kids
Nope, they were based on Bakugou and Kirishima themselves. Now the real question is, has Horikoshi based Kirishima and Bakugou on shark boy and lava girl? Thatâs a question I got no answer to, though.
Anon said:That smiling Sero... my heart... canât take it. You contribute so much to the BNHA fandom... I appreciate you, I appreciate you so much. Thank you, itâs great, all of it is so good
I wouldnât say I contribute much at all, honestly lol just doodles, but Iâm glad you like them! :D
Anon said:Jeez-la-wheeze
...?
Anon said:The comic strip of Baku exposing Kiri's black roots made my day. I now use it too cheer me up.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! glad people are still somehow finding that one hahahaÂ
Anon said:I'm. So. That comic w the kids was so lovely it's one of my fave things EVER I love how u portrayed them it was so so perfect but. I ran out of tags for the first time bc I was rambling about it so much. That's. how much I love it bless u for my life jfghjghfj
;O; thank you so so much!!!!!! Iâm super glad you liked it that much!!! ;A;
Anon said:I LOVE SEEING THE KIDS HELL YEAH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D glad to hear that!!!
Anon said:I feel like That one meme comic would fit the Baku and Kiri fam well the one where someone would swear and the other person with cover the ears of the innocent with a >:O face then the innocent would swear and >:O would beat he crap out of the peep who taught them
Lmao but to be fair considering how Mitsuki is and how Bakugou turned out, I would find it hard to believe if at least one of the kids didnât end up swearing haha
Anon said:Hi!!! I love your art so much and I just want to wish you happy holidays!!!!
Thank you!!!!! I hope youâll have great holidays too!!!
Anon said:I really like the kid characters you created they are really cool! (In your opinion which kid is closer to kiri and Baku? I have a mini head cannon about it but I would like to know your thoughts!!) I would love to see more of them when ever you feel in the mood to draw them!! :) love all of you work you are consistent and talented and I really enjoy checking your page to see all the new art you post!!
Thank you for liking them!!!! And hmmmmmmmmmmm letâs say that Makoâs closer to Kiri and Tai to Baku, but not by much - a bit because Makoâs a high energy type of kid and Kiri has energy to spare always, a bit because Tai is the quiet type and Bakuâs good at keeping him busy and entertained with things in his comfort zone, but also because back when they adopted Mako Bakugou was... really scared he would fuck it up so Mako ended up growing closer to Kiri first, and because when they adopted Tai Baku was the only one he for sure wasnât gonna accidentally hurt with his quirk so he grew closer to Baku first. Bakugouâs also better at keeping calm and working out whatâs the problem when the kids cry (surprisingly) (Kirishima more often than not ends up crying with them) so since Tai gets easily overwhelmed he seeks him out often - ah well, in general theyâre all really close, but, yeah. This is how it is.
Anon said:Were those Kirishimas scars???
They were! I came up with the design after he got hurt but before Hori implied he got no permanent damage, so Rappaâs fight influenced it!
Anon said:YOU DREW MORE KIDS OMG IM FUCKING DYING. IM CRYING. YOU MADE MY NIGHT. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THESE KIDS YOU CREATED AND THIS AU I'M SO GLAD TO SEE MORE OF THEM THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOU'RE A BLESSINGGGGG!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
Anon said:I did ask how the kids were doing!! Yay I love seeing them! They're great!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! glad to know I didnât imagine that ask then hahaha
Anon said:I just noticed that Bakugou is playing with Kirishima's foot in that one photo where he's just talking to help keep Kiri's mind off Bad Shit, and omg it's the cutest fucking thing I've ever seen? Just how adorably comfortable and casual they are together and gahhhhh I love them so much
;O; glad you caught and liked that!!!
Anon said:not to be controversal but uhh do you like mp100 or are you full bnha :0
lmao Iâm the furthest thing from full bnha youâre gonna find anon, Iâm in way too many fandoms honestly, I just happen to always end up drawing bnha lately lol I did post a couple of mp100 things before, tho theyâre p old by now :O
Anon said:Consider - minamomojirou
I still donât understand minamomo tho :O
Anon said:Dude I'm like...legit in love with your art style it's so GOOD it makes me wanna stare at any of your drawings for like. My whole life
*sobs* thank you so much???? ;;;;;
Anon said:The sad paramores make me sad. ;-;
Iâm sorry ;-; (.......... that was sort of they purpose tho :0)
Anon said:Idk if this is weird or not, but I love how you draw feet. Like they looks so nice? And I just??? Is it odd to think someone draws feet nice?
I donât think itâs odd at all! Thank you!!! :D
Anon said:i have a hc that kirishima is from a foster home and at some point fatgum finds this out and is like 'this child is mine now ' and adopts him. he even gets permission to come to the dorms and ask kiri for permission only to watch the mofo cartwheel down the hallway and crash into a wall yelling 'IVE GOT A DAD' happy hugs ensue
That a good headcanon!!!! A pure one!!!! A warm one!!!!! We do know heâs at least got a mom, tho :0
Anon said:Your art always puts a little smile on my face and brightens my day up! Thank you for sharing it with us :)
!!! Thank you for liking it!!!!
Anon said:Hello! I'm not sure if you remember, but a couple weeks ago I asked you about your process making comics! I finally had time to sit down and draw following a similar procedure you described, deciding to start drawing my ideas out on a huge canvas like you do, and I'm AMAZED at how much easier it is to draw on a huge canvas rather than trying to figure out how to lay out panels on individual smaller pages. Thank you so much for explaining your procedure, it helped me out a lot and I-- (1/2)
-- ended up making a comic that I'm actually pleased with for once! (2/2)
OHHHHHHHHHH youâre most welcome!!!!! Iâm so glad to hear that actually helped you out!!!!!! :D !!!!!!!
Anon said:The way you seem to have so much fun drawing has inspired me to start drawing, too! I'm pretty shit at it atm but I keep thinking about this thing you said one tine about how it's awesome how one creates something out of nothing when one draws (no matter what the drawing looks like), and that helps me go on! So!! Thanks!!!!!
ITâS TRUE!!!! ITâS AMAZING!!!! YOUâRE AMAZING!!!!!!! I hope youâre having as much fun with your art as you can manage, anon!!!!! *O*
Anon said:Your bakusquad doodles give me life, who do you consider to be the Squad Mom out of the lot?
.....................itâs Bakugou, isnât it (and thank you so much!!)
Anon said:Ah! I love all your art (even the fandoms I'm not a part of and all your OCs!) I also really like your headcanons and opinions so I have a quick question: Do you have any specific or persisting (as I'm sure it could change a lot) headcanons on what the BNHA kiddos will look like as pros?
I donât, actually! :O I do hope Aoyama will do something about the lack of redirectors for his laser to his hands, and I ALSO would love for Kaminari to get some close-range weapon (anything metal would work for him, really, but Iâve been thinking tonfas lately đ), but aside from that Iâm all up in Horikoshiâs hands! I hope heâll make me see cool updates to Bakugouâs costume with this new arc, actually :O didnât get to see him fighting all that much, during the license exam!
Anon said:Hiya! I really like your art and all, and since I'm on mobile, I normally save it in my phone. Is that okay? I don't repost it anywhere at all! I just like keeping it so I can enjoy your art. I really hope you don't mind because I never claim anything against of or use it for unnecessary stuff. Thanks!! đđ also I really love your art like yes
Thatâs fine by me!!! Thank you for liking my stuff enough to give up archiviation space in your phone for it hahaha
#fran answers#there's short talk about the krbk kids in this#writing it out here more for myself to find it later really lololol#anonymous
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I switched the format to bullets cause numbers were annoying to deal with lol sorry
3 FearsÂ
not graduating on time/ failing
idk i dont have many fears
3 things I love
my dog
my family
my friends
2 turns on
im not gonna include being attractive cause that feels like a given so sense of humor
plays piano or guitar
2 turn offs
being an asshole
bad hygineÂ
My best friend
cat and jen
Sexual orientation
bi
How tall am I
5âČ2
What do I miss right now
idk no one really cause i got to see my family today and i just got back from seeing jen
i guess jacob and tim?
Favourite color
blue!! :D
Do I have a crush
lmfao no
Favourite place
my college town
What am I listening to right now
a lets play lol
Shoe size
7 or 6.5 depending
Eye color
brown
Hair color
black/ dark brown
Meaning behind my URL
alliteration lol
Favourite song
i have too many
Favourite band
shinee? i dont really know lately
How I feel right now
sleepy lmao
Someone I love
my brothers and mom
My current relationship status
hoe lmao
My relationship with my parents
good with one and not so good with the other
Favourite season
fall or spring
Tattoos and piercing i have
tattoo on my forearm and one piercing on each ear
Tattoos and piercing i want
tattoos: theres a few lol
piercings: none
The reasons I joined Tumblr
because it looked like fun and for fandoms
Do I ever get âgood morningâ or âgood night â texts?
i get goodnight texts/ snaps sometimesÂ
Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
no
How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
it depends, anywhere from 10 minutes to 45Â
Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?
yep
Where am I right now?
jadenâs room
Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
reasonable but sometimes loud
Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
i live in my apartment at school but other than that with my momma
Am I excited for anything?
this festival thing next weekend but also lowkey worried for it lmao
Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
uhh yeah i do
How often do I wear a fake smile?
whenever im uncomfortable i guess
If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
someone who will pay off my tuition and loans
What do I think about most?
freaking out drama stuff i guess?
although thats mainy just been these past few weeks
Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
i only really like being in front aslong as itâs with other people
What was the last lie I told?
ummm probably something about my drinking or âlove lifeâ to my family
Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
i dont mind either but probably phone call so i dont have to worry about what i look like
Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
lol ghosts, oh the irony
but yes to both
Do I believe in magic?
nah
Do I believe in luck?
ehhh kind of
Whatâs the weather like right now?
hot as balls and im not here for it
What was the last book Iâve read?
im reading the simpsons and their mathematical secret rn and i like it a lot
Do I have any nicknames?
way too many lmao
Do I spend money or save it?
it used to be save but as of lately ive been spending way too much money sooooooooooo lol fuck me
Can I touch my nose with a tounge?
nope
Favourite animal?
my doggo
What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
talking to jen
Whatâs a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
idk twice songs i guess??
What is my favorite word?
i dont have one
My top 5 blogs on tumblr
idk lolÂ
everyone i follow, how about that lmao
If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
stay hydrated and i take donations
Do I have any relatives in jail?
not to my knowledge
What is my current desktop picture?
isnt it so cute? :D
Had sex?
yeah
Bought condoms?
yeah
Gotten pregnant?
no thank fuck
Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
nope
Had job?
yes i had job
Smoked weed?
nope, but my mates want me to smoke with them next weekend
Smoked cigarettes?
nope
Drank alcohol?
yepppp lmfao
Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
nahh
Been overweight?
not technically
Been underweight?
nah
Gotten my heart broken?
nope
Been to prom?
yep
Been in airplane?
yep
Learned another language?
yep
Wore make up?
almost everyday
Dyed my hair?
nah, i thought about it tho but i bitched out
Had a surgery?
um i mean my wisdom teeth got removed, does that count?
Met someone famous?
yeah i did on two occasions it was dope
Stalked someone on a social network?
i think so? idk
Been fishing?
yeeeee
Been rejected by a crush?
ive never shot my shot nor have i had an actual crush in years so no
What do I want for birthday?
realistically, nothing
Do I like my handwriting?
eh i mean itâs okay but not really
Where do I want to live when older?
idk but i wanna stay on the east coast
Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
sneaking out: no cause ive never snuck out, not technically i guess
doing something bad: i mean it depends on your definition of âgetting caughtâ but yes
wait itâs a definite yes lmao whoops
What Iâm really bad at
everything probably lol
but specifically lying i guess
What my greatest achievements are
choreographing modern with chris in march and it went really well i was so proud of my dancers
idk if this counts but this past year i partied with some of our schools football players and lydia paek told me that she wants some of my butt so basically iâve peakedÂ
The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
honestly idk, i probably agreed with themÂ
What Iâd do if I won in a lottery
pay off my loans/ debt
pay off my mom and brothersâ debt
get my mom a house and vacation to the phillipines cause she really wants to go
get my mates gifts
invest
What do I like about myself
uuuuummmmmmmmÂ
My closest Tumblr friend
idk lol
Any question youâd like?
lol welp
Are you outgoing or shy?
in the middle i guess but probably more on the outgoing side
What kind of people are you attracted to?
attractive people with nice smiles i guess??
Do you think youâll be in a relationship two months from now?
lmfao god no
Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
nah but it depends on the contextÂ
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
my mom and brother??
What does the most recent text that you sent say?
âripâ
What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
eric nam - honestly
amine - heebiejeebies
hyorin - dally
blackpink - ddu du ddu du idk how its spelled
john mayer - new light
hayley kiyoko - what i need
cardi b - i like it
yoon mi raeâs entire gemini 2 album
this is more than five i know but theyre all bops and u should listen to them if you havent already
Do you like it when people play with your hair?
yes but only if i know them
Do you think there is life on other planets?
yes, even if itâs just bacteria
Do you like bubble baths?
no i actually really dont like baths
Do you like your neighbors?
i dont really know them
Where would you like to travel?
korea/ asia
Favorite part of your daily routine?
talking to my mates
What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
which part arenât i uncomfortable with lmao
What do you do when you wake up?
turn off my alarm or look at my phone usually
Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
well my arms got tanner cause i drive with my arm out the window so i wish my arms were lighter so it would match the rest of my body again lol
Do you ever want to get married?
lmfao can we not talk about future commitments?
cause no probably not
If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
do u mean is my hair long enough? cause yes
Would you rather live without TV or music?
tv
Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
yeah when i was like 12
What are your favorite stores to shop in?
forever21, and h&m probably
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
it depends on the situation
Do you smile at strangers?
sometimes
Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
well i mean the cat is already out of the fucking bag for the one thing (well one of the things) i was desperately trying to hide soooooo
Ever wished you were someone else?
when i was younger but not in recent years
Favourite makeup brand?
for foundation i like fenty and tarte
for lipstick smashbox and i also liked kat vond but she is against vaccienes sooooooo
Last thing you ate?
chips lol
Ever won a competition? For what?
idk
Ever been in love?
i thought i was but eehhh i dont know anymore oh wellÂ
Facebook or Twitter?
twitter
Twitter or Tumblr?
i use twitter more so twitter
Are you watching tv right now?
nah
What colour are your towels?
white
Favourite ice cream flavour?
i dont have a favorite
First person you talked to today?
uummmm my mom?
Last person you talked to today?
chris
Name a person you hate?
i dont hate people but im really pissed with justin rn
Name a person you love?
my mom
Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
fuCKING JUSTIN
Do you tan a lot?
lmao no
Have any pets?
yes and i love him
Do you type fast?
eh its a moderate speed
Do you regret anything from your past?
lmao yepppp
Ever broken someoneâs heart?
oooohhhhhhh boy, yeah kind of....
Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
no
Is cheating ever okay?
on people, no
Do you believe in true love?
idk
What your zodiac sign?
gemini
Do you believe in ghosts?
i answered this already
Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, whatâs the first line on that page?
âgeeky mathematician with a masterâs degree. By contrast, when heâ from the simpsons and their mathematical secrets :D
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in middle school i used to get that bad "vision goes black whenever i stand up" thing wayyyyy too much and so this one time i got out of bed in the morning in a rush because i "slept in too late" (it was like 11:50am LMAO but i was not yet in the habit of staying in bed till 2pm so.)
anyway so i got up way too quickly and then my vision went black but i was panicking so i didnt lay back down till it cleared. so i went about brushing my teeth / washing my face / normal morning routine all while my vision was going dark and it was getting increasingly harder to breathe
i went downstairs to get breakfast and then my vision went straight up black i could not fucking see anything and i was trying to pour cereal while literally blind and my ears were ringing and i could barely breathe and i was spilling the milk everywhere and eventually i just collapsed. idk if i full on fainted, i might have for a split second, but i do remember being upright and then one moment i felt my body hit the floor and then my vision cleared FINALLY and my mom was panicking and screaming and i literally NEVER tell her when im feeling ill so i was just like "i just wanted to lay down" acting like it was the most nonchalant thing ever that i just spilled fucking lucky charms and milk all over the counter and then proceeded to lay down on the floor, for no reason.
so obviously my mom did not believe me and finally i was like ok perhaps i fainted idk and she called 911 and anyway an EMT came and was asking me if i was okay and honestly, once my vision cleared on the floor yeah i totally felt fine and normal so i was just like. so awkward i thought everybody was making such a big deal out of everything
but then the EMT said i should go the hospital just in case or something IDK cause then i was in the car on the way to the hospital and like halfway there i started getting this absolutely dreadful headache. i felt like i was fucking dying. in hindsight i know now that i was getting a migraine but i had only ever experienced that once before in my entire life (coincidentally also the last time i had been hospitalized!) and i was like 10 or 11 i had no idea what migraines were so i didnt know what was going on. so i entered the car feeling totally fine and by the time we got to the hospital i was just barely even conscious they got me a wheelchair and a family friend works at that hospital so she saw my name on the patient list or whatever and came rushing over to see me and like i was acquaintaces with her daughter so i was like, subconsciously, like NOOO DONT LOOK AT ME DONT SEE ME LIKE THIS ;_; but also i was barely conscious so i also didnt really care
so anyway they get me a room or something idk. i'm so out of it at this point im barely conscious the doctors had no idea what the fuck was going on i got an IV in my arm and then i started vomiting (as i always do with migraines <3) and it was terrible and i think i got a CT scan at some point. or maybe im mixing up my memories from the hospital visit before this one . idk. the day passed in a blur i just tried to sleep but i kept waking up to puke
then i woke up at like 5pm and i felt totally fine again. like i woke up feeling brand new. totally rested. no pain. i mean i felt a bit weird and disoriented still from the aftermath but other than that i was totally normal. the doctor gave me some weird yellow pills to take and then i was on my way home like nothing had happened
#anyway idk what was up with me i think they said something about dehyrdration + low potassium idk#i think the yellow pills were for potassium . i remember they were yellow and potassium because i always#think of bananas = potassium nad they were yellow like bananas <3#ANYWAY MY POINT IS . ever since this. i have never fucked around when my vision blacks out from standing up#i will always sit back down till it clears i am NOT going blind and getting hospitalized again just bc i didnt take an extra 30 seconds <3#brot posts
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masters of the scene
I know this is super shocking bc this is probs the soonest (?) ive posted between parts lmaoÂ
I did want to hurry things up before saturday, tho, so here we have it, friendsss. if youâve missed a part:Â
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AU: Matteo Balsano is a famous singer who has been crushing on this one girl he saw every day behind a window many years ago, back when he first started recording his debut album and inspired his first big hit, âPrincesaâ. Luna Valente, professional Olympic skater turned actress is at a local (and very popular) talk show to promote her breakout movie. This is where it all starts.
BREAKING: OLYMPIC GOLD MEDALLIST SAYS GOODBYE TO SKATINGÂ
SOL BENSON, 24, recently known for her role as skating legend Marissa Mint in âSHATTERED WINGSâ, announced this morning she wouldnât return to training, or to any competition as a participant again. The announcement was posted on all her social media accounts, reading: âI can proudly say itâs time. Today, a new chapter in my life begins. Iâm officially retiring from professional skating.â
Benson also took the chance to thanks her fans, saying: âThe last ten years have been an unforgettable experience. A lifetime wouldnât be enough to thank everyone who has been by my side helping, supporting, and cheering on me on this journey. Iâve done everything I could and wanted, and I hope youâre all as proud of me as I am of myself and the accomplishments weâve done. I love you all very much.â The now ex-skater didnât specify why she was leaving, but she affirmed it wasnât anything but a personal choice: âI know many of you are shocked, or confused as to why Iâm doing this now, thatâs the reason I want to point out itâs not because of my health or a change of careers, as I know some might be thinking. Simply, this is me acknowledging my heartâs desires.â
Opinions and critics were instantaneous from the fans.
@Â Sol_Benson: Thank you. pic.tw.com/3747829
     @ solnation: @ Sol_Benson please tell me this is an early april fools joke Iâm crying
     @ sol_fan73937: @ Sol_Benson THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT, THIS IS NOT WHAT I PLANNED, AND I JUST WANT TO SAY I DO NOT UNDERSTAND
     @ SolMiReina56: @ Sol_Benson on one hand Iâm happy youâre doing this in your terms but on the other I just want to scream whAT THE FORK BENSON
Bensonâs famous friends, however, showed nothing but support for her.
@Â Simon_RB: today the sun goes down and the moon rises! So proud of you @Â Sol_Benson
@Â JimM: Working with you, one of the greatest skaters of our time, was a privilege. Being your friend, and share all these memories, is an honor. Your talent will shine bright like your soul no matter what â„ @Â Sol_Benson Â
@Â TheAmbarSmith: An absolute star. @Â Sol_Benson
The news broke amid rumors of the skating star dating Italian heartthrob, Matteo Balsano, leading some fans and theorist that her new relationship was linked to her decision.
@ SolecitoDeMadrugada: I donât wanna start sh*t here, folks, but Sol said sheâs acknowledging âher heartâs desiresââŠ. What if Balsano convinced her to quit????
@Â SolBonita: If Matteo Balsano had anything to do with this I will cut that bitch in half just sayinâ
@Â soltteoforever: omg what if sol quit to form a duet with matteo???!!! #relationshipgoals
@Â elbalsanito: if yâall really think MATTEO BALSANO would make his two minute long girlfriend quit her career for him yâall are batsh*t crazy donât even look at me
So far Benson and her team have offered no comment to the critics, choosing silence over explanations, and only time will tell what sheâs planned for herself next.
Is this really her end in skating? Will she approach a musical career with her beau? For more Sol Benson, click here!
He was a coward.
And an idiot.
An idiotic coward, really, because he hung up on her as fast as his brain and hand could do it. He couldâve lied, told her it was only a guessing. Or he couldâve come clean about his stalker-ish ways and freak her out. Or come clean and skip the stalker-ish ways. But, no, heâd hung up and now when she saw him sheâd demand an explanation and probably give him crap for hanging up on her and then creating a lame excuse as to why.
Because so far, he could only come up with his phone dying in that exact moment and him forgetting to call her back. For two weeks.
Again, an idiotic coward he was. Â
âAre you listening to me, Matteo?â heâd been lost in his thoughts again, unsurprisingly. It was something heâd been repeating lately, and usually blamed it on him âmentallyâ writing his songs. Sometimes, it was the truth; but most of the time it was an excuse to get GastĂłn and his mom off his back. Today was Delfiâs turn at enduring this lost lapse. âMatteo! This is a serious matter, you dick!â heâd laugh at the insult if it werenât for her aggravated look. He was used to the annoyed, yet knowing look of his friend and his birther, but Delfi looked nothing but stressed. âCan you focus on what Iâm telling you?â
Matteo threw her an apologetic smile. âSorry, Delfi. I was just-â
âI donât even want to hear it! I just need to listen to me and tell me what the fuck is happening between you and Sol Benson!â Well, shit. She was even cursing now.
âWhat do you mean?â he asked, genuinely confused now. Delfi knew better than anyone that he wasnât dating, and even if he was, she never cared about it before. His manager sighed exasperated, throwing a newspaper across the table, pointing to him to read it.
The sole headline was enough to make his blood run cold.
âRead it till the end.â
âSheâs retiring?â Matteo couldnât believe it. A million questions came to his head as he read the article, âwhyâ being the loudest. âI just- what?â
âI donât know, and I donât care about her, Matteo.â She sighed again, passing her fingers through her head. âWhat I do care about is that theyâre mentioning you as the responsible.â Delfi raised her hand when he opened his mouth to protest. âI know you arenât. And Iâd like to think a woman like her is strong enough to not let an idiot like you convince her to give up her career. However, this is bad because youâll be crossed as a chauvinistic pig, and could seriously hurt the image the older fans have of you. We need to counterattack, fast, and I need you to tell me just exactly how close you are to Sol.â
âWhat for?â He was getting defensive, and Delfi could tell so, too. She softened her look.
âThis is not about you being a heartthrob, Matt. This is about people judging you wrongly-â
âAre you listening to yourself? They already judge me wrongly!â Delfi pursed her lips.
âOkay, bad wording. Still, we canât let them think youâre that kind of person either.â
âCanât you talk to GastĂłn about it? Maybe he can-â
âWe agreed to break the contract with most of the magazines and the heartthrob stories, but you canât just sue someone for linking you as someoneâs boyfriend. If this was an article solely about you, we could make an agreement with them but since itâs about her-â
Matteo frowned. âCanât you talk about it with her team? You said you knew them, maybe you can work on something together-â Now she looked offended.
âWhat do you think Iâm doing? This is why I citied you here, weâre meeting them in ten minutes to discuss it! And first I needed your stupid ass to explain your situation to me so we could have some ground but all youâve done is daydream about God knows what!â
âWait, what?!â he looked down at his sweatpants, and the semi-sweated t-shirt heâd worn to go to gym before the meeting, and he just knew his hair was a dishevel mess. He hadnât even bothered with his contacts, so his glasses were stuck on his head unless he wanted to be as blind as a mole. Heâd thought heâd only be meeting Delfi, and now- âsheâs not coming, is she?â
âWho is âsheâ?â Delfi air-quoted, not getting why he was getting freaked out.
âLuna â Sol, she isnât coming, right?â
Delfi scoffed. âOf course, she is! This is all about her, why wouldnât she be here?â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â he almost whined, jumping out of his chair to get his gym bag, and spray the shit out of his deodorant on his body. He didnât have any hair gel, so his hair had to stay the same. He was really regretting not taking the time to fully showering before coming.
âOh, so now you care about how you look at meetings?â He didnât answer her, still busy with his gym bag. He was sure he had mints buried somewhere. âI take that you like this girl?â Matteo said nothing, but nodded the slightest. âI know the rumors arenât true right now, but I really need you to tell me if you think they will. The earliest GastĂłn and I can come up with counterattacks to protect your privacy and hers, the better. Especially since her contract with her team will drop soon.â Delfi asked, her tone a lot softer and less teasing. Sheâd taken his wishes seriously, and he was very grateful about it. He was in good hands if shit ever hit the fan.
Matteo dropped his bag, and sighed a quiet âyesâ. And then turned to her, louder this time, âI donât want anything hurtful, insulting or degrading to be said about her. The less sheâs mentioned, the better. If it means we must re-sign with them, and have them write me off as a playboy, then so be it. But not a bad word about her, Delfi.â Â
She smiled, her words comforting him a little. âIf itâs in my hands both of you will be protected. Now, go tame your hair before your little star runs away from seeing it and turns into stone, medusa-boy.â
She was this close to picking up her phone.
The urge of checking her phone was eating her up but Luna was trying her best to avoid any type of interaction with social media in the last two nights, but it was proving to be harder than she imagined. After the news were out in the open sheâd turned everything off; her phone, laptop, and tablet, burying them deep in one of Ninaâs photography drawers so she wouldnât be tempted to read her fanâs comments, or the articles magazines and newspapers were publishing on the web.
When her team called her early in the morning for a meeting, though, she knew something else had happened. Theyâd already discussed everything related to her retirement, and werenât meant for another meeting for another three weeks, when sheâd sign the remaining papers to break most of her commitments and contracts, with only the bigger ones left until she could find another lawyer outside of her management. Not that she didnât trust them, but Mariano was more a âmaking business onlyâ instead of âbreaking businessâ type of lawyer.
âStill no news from Tamara?â She asked Nina beside her. Nina shook her head.
âShe said sheâd be meeting us there, to ask for Alzamendi and to not talk until Mariano and she were present.â
âAlzamendi?â She repeated, âdoes that sound familiar to you?â
âI think I might have an idea.â Nina admitted. Luna looked expectantly at her, urging her to tell her. âPedroâs girlfriend, Delfina Alzamendi, is a head manager here.â
She frowned. âBut sheâs in the entertainment business, not in sports. Why would she cite us here?â Her eyes widened, âyou donât thinkâŠâ
Nina shook her head rapidly. âNo, no, no. Tamaraâs better than that, she knows you donât want to enter acting, she wouldnât do that to you. I was thinking more that maybe one of Delfinaâs clients could be involved.â
âBut why would Ămbar contact me vĂa my manager? She has our house number, and SimĂłnâs and yours.â Nina looked at her funny, confusing her. âWhat?â
âIâm not talking about Ămbar, L. I think this is about Matteo.â
His name made her scowl. She still hadnât forgiven him for hanging up on her without an explanation, or a goodbye, and the guy had sent her to voice mail after she tried calling him back.
âHe has my number too.â Not that he cared to use it again. Boys were stupid.
By now Nina looked amused, but grimaced after a moment. âYou havenât seen it, have you?â
âSeen what?â
Nina took her phone out of her purse, typed in her code and opened her phoneâs browser. She was about to protest when she saw her type âsol benson matteo balsanoâ, but was quietened when Nina clicked on an article about Matteo being the reason she was retiring from skating.
âThis. It started the morning you posted the news on Twitter and a fan replied saying you meant Matteo when you said you were following your heart. I think thatâs why Delfina wants to talk to you and Tamara, because Matteo wasnât left in the best position. People are crossing him as a controlling chauvinist.â
Luna was feeling dizzy. She had meant for the news to affect her only, but now she was dragging Matteo too. âPeople are saying this?â
âMostly your fans, and uninvited activists, but yes.â
âHe must hate me now, Nina.â She groaned, hiding her face with her hands. By now they were almost by the entrance desk, and a few of the people there stared her way.
âHe couldnât even if he tried, Luna, donât worry.â Her friend cooed, squeezing her hand in comfort.
âHis manager contacted mine, Nina. People donât do that unless theyâre strangers or you hate the other person.â
âI think youâre exaggerating a bit.â
âHe at least has to be mad. If anyone said Iâm the reason theyâre quitting their career Iâd be too.â
âMaybe, but not mad at you. The people saying this are mostly gossipers and fans you have no control over, Luna, donât worry.â She nodded a couple times, trying to calm herself and the unnecessary guilt she was feeling in that moment.
When she finally felt calm enough, she dragged her feet to the lady behind the desk, asking her politely where she was supposed to go. The ladyâs eyes shone with recognition, before asking her who she was meeting with; as soon as she said âAlzamendiâ, the womanâs grin could have rivaled the Cheshire cat.
âMiss Alzamendi and Mr. Balsano are waiting in room 7. Go straight that hallway and turn left on the first corner, it should be easy to spot it, the numbers are big enough; theyâre still waiting for Mr. PĂ©rida, and your team, though. Is there anything I can get you both to drink? We have black coffee â black, decaf, with milk, vanilla latte and moka, tea â chamomile, green, lemon ginger and berry sangria, hot chocolate â sweet, bitter, Spanish, Mexican, white and raw, lemonades â strawberry, mango and mint, sodas-â
Luna blinked a couple times, surprised that a) they had so many options and b) they made their receptionist learn all of them.
âUh, do you have water?â Nina asked, interrupting the woman before she went on to list all their available sodas. The receptionist shut up immediately, pursing her lips at Nina for a second before nodding, then she looked at her, expectantly.
âA Mexican hot chocolate would be nice, thank you.â
âAnything to eat? We have a couple of restaurants delivered to us, if youâre hungry.â Before she could refuse, Tamaraâs voice was heard behind them.
âLuna!â She smiled politely at her manager, nodding in greeting to Mariano. âIâll have a latte and the sir will have black coffee, no sugar, please.â The older woman addressed the receptionist, who simply wrote it down on a little notepad. Tamara didnât bother to thank her before she was dragging Luna â and Nina, who was grabbing her hand- towards the hallway the lady had pointed out before. âOkay, so; Matteo Balsanoâs manager called me yesterday and requested to have a meeting as soon as we possibly could, thatâs why I called you last minute, sorry. Are you aware of the rumors going around of you two?â Luna begrudgingly nodded, âgood, I donât have to explain it, then. Alzamendi didnât specify why she was requesting us, but my bet is on the news hurting Balsanoâs image of the perfect guy.â
âThatâs what Nina told me, too.â Tamaraâs eyes flickered to Ninaâs.
âGood.â Thatâs all she said before going back to explaining. âMore likely than not, theyâre pissed. It could be the boy, it could be his manager, it could be the label. Or a mix of all. We already broke all magazine deals, so thereâs not much we can offer to clean his name. Weâre betting on his team acting up and choosing to clean it up themselves, while praying they donât leave you dirty at all. Mariano can make up an agreement with his lawyer to even out and make it fair for both.â
âDo you think Matteoâs capable of going as far as dirtying up Lunaâs name?â She could tell Nina was worried, and already feeling protective of her. Tamara shook her head.
âHe doesnât strike me as the type, but we need to be prepared for the worst-case scenario.â She told them honestly, finally stopped walking in front of a door. Before they entered, though, she looked at Luna straight on. âListen, munchkin, when you enter that door you need to forget whatever relationship you have with the guy.â She was about to protest, but Tamara shook her head. âJust until we know where we stand. And who we stand against, okay?â She merely nodded. âGood. Are we ready?â
Matteo was sure those had been the longest â yet quickest, because he spent most of them rushing to make himself more presentable- ten minutes of his life.
The door opened, and the corner of his mouth went up at the knowing heâd see her in seconds. When she didnât acknowledge him, the smile fell. When she sat down on one of the chairs and kept her eyes on the table, he frowned.
Was she mad at him, at the situation they were in? Was she sad? What if it hadnât been her decision? Could that be why she looked so⊠not herself?
He was about to go to her when Delfi stopped him. Matteo looked at her, questioning why sheâd done it, but she sent him a look that said âquietâ. Â
âDelfina,â the woman â who was part of Lunaâs team, if his guess was correct- greeted his manager, a tight smile on her face. Then she turned to him. âMr. Balsano, nice to meet you.â
Delfi sent her a polite smile. âTamara, Mariano, itâs always nice to see you again.â He couldâve sworn he heard the man say, âis it?â under his breath. âMiss Benson, Miss Simonetti, long time no see.â Wait, she knew them?
Luna looked up from the table, throwing a quick âhelloâ to her; her eyes flickering for the shortest time to his face, before turning down again. His frown deepened as Ninaâs friend answered Delfiâs greeting, more enthusiast. âHi, Delfi, itâs good to see you again, too. I wish it were under, uh, better circumstances, though.â
He could tell Delfina was amused at her words, if her mouth twitch was any indication. âStraight to the point, huh? Sadly, weâre waiting for Matteoâs lawyer to get here first.â
âWhy isnât he here yet?â the man asked rudely, disdain clear as water on his face. Matteo felt attacked by his tone, and jumped at Gastonâs defense.
âIâm not his only client, sorry not all of us can afford to have a clear schedule twenty-four-seven.â
Mariano raised his brows. âAh, yes, youâre right. Real jobs keep you busy. My bad.â
Matteo scowled at him. âHow would you know? Youâre jobless now that your client is quitting her not so ârealâ job, no?â
âMatteo.â Delfina warned him in a hiss, pinching his arm to keep him quiet. He noticed Lunaâs blank look turning into a small grimace.
Mariano was about to retort when Lunaâs manager grabbed his arm. âDonât.â Then she turned to Delfi, âI thinkâs itâs for the better to start discussing the elephant in the room, sweetheart. You can always update your lawyer when he comes.â
Delfi pursed her lips at the nickname, but stood up with a nod. âFine. I donât think I have to explain why weâre here exactly.â
âYou understand this is not Miss Bensonâs fault, right? This was a matter taken out of context by their fans and the media.â The manâs tone wasnât exactly condescending, but even Matteo felt like he was trying to teach Delfi how to do her job.
Still, Delfi remained as calm as she could. âWe do, as Iâm sure you understand your clientâs choices shouldnât taint my clientâs image, no?â
âHeâs as tainted as you can get them. Arenât âplayboyâ, âheartthrobâ, and âladies manâ nice ways of saying man-whore?â Matteo heard small gasps around him, but he was too shocked at the insult to notice whose gasps were from. Mariano looked smug. âIf anything, he is the reason they assume conclusions. If your client didnât have the image he has, our client wouldnât have linked to him in the first place.â
That was enough for his friend to snap. âIf your client had been properly trained to do interviews without making a mess we wouldnât be in this situation at all!â
âThose articles had died down until both your clients chose to approach ours at a public event knowing there would be photographers all over the place! Howâs that for trained?â
âEnough, Mariano!â His partner shut him up. The woman had the decency of looking ashamed. Delfi and him, though? They were pissed. âIâm really sorry, guys. This is not at all what we came here for and I apologize for my-â
âYou have nothing to apologize for, Tamara.â Delfi interrupted her, âhe does.â
Mariano pursed his lips, but spit out the apology anyway. âIâm sorry for the way I behaved just now.â Matteo clenched his jaw, moving his gaze to Luna, who looked mad, too. At whom, though, he didnât know.
âAs you know, all our news deals are broken. We have no control, or stance to negotiate with them anymore. So-â
âSo, you want us to fix it for you? Is that it? Why should we, after the stunt your team just pulled?â Matteo almost growled, his anger rolling in waves through his body.
Tamara grimaced. âI was hoping we could make an agreement. I know we-â she pointed to Mariano and herself, â-havenât behaved as we should. But this isnât about us only.â She looked at Luna, whose frown and pursed lips were more evident now than before.
At last, she fixated her eyes on his.
âIâm not asking you to do anything for me.â
Matteo sighed out, âLuna-â
âNo. Listen, if your image-â she scowled at the word, â- is so important to you I can ask JazmĂn or someone else to interview me and Iâll tell them the truth.â Matteo almost choked up. Where was she getting at?
âThe truth?â Delfi repeated, expectant.
Lunaâs friend looked worried, now. âLu- Sol, please-â
She looked at him, her eyes not wavering for a moment. âYâknow, that youâre not the reason of my decision. Iâm sure your fans will be shocked to hear youâre not the center of my universe.â
âLuna, plea-â Nina tried to gain her attention, but she still didnât move her gaze from him.
âAnd Iâm sure theyâll be glad to know weâre not dating, much less friends.â
Had he been punched? He felt himself getting his breath knocked out of him. He barely heard her friend warning her. âLuna, stop. This isnât you talking.â Â
âNo, let her talk.â Matteo was proud he didnât sound as hurt as he was feeling.
âOh, so youâre talking to me now?â her sarcasm was throwing him off. Why was she mad about him not talking to her when she basically ignored him too? âOr do I have to wait another two weeks for you to answer me again?â Oh.
Oh.
âYouâre mad abou-â
âDude, no.â Was thatâŠ? When had GastĂłn arrived that he didnât even notice? He felt his friend squeeze his shoulder, before palming it a couple times. âDonât answer that, youâll never win that argument.â He whispered, shaking his head in Lunaâs direction. Then he turned to everyone in the room. âSo, what did I miss?â
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HI BABY!!!!
I LOVE THOSE TYPES OF VIDEOS SO MUCH THE SECOND THE SONG STARTED I KNEW WHAT WAS GONNA HAPPEN!!!! IâM SO HAPPY ALSO THE PLAYER TRYING TO MAKE ZHONGLI DANCE SKDJFJDKDJFLD i love how dancinâ has just become the official genshin song.
yes back to scheduled program:
itâs a super unpopular opinion đł iâve never heard anyone say that skdhdfjdks. but same i think iâve seen the first two over ten times throughout the years but iâve only seen the last one Once. the movies do a great job at lore though so i donât think reading the books are necessary... personal opinion. OH idk how famous it is but itâs a truth and dare fic and itâs super nsfw idk how much you like reading those but itâs called âit started with a spinâ... itâs a mess but i remember reading it years ago and really enjoying it jshshsj.. also WOW???? you really fell into the drarry hole huh? granted itâs understandable they have some amazing writers. and sooo much content.
BUNNY CUTE CLUNA OH MY GOD HE SAID BUNNY CUTE!!!!!!! đ„ș ok this just made razor and bennett my new favorite duo in the game sorry everybody else..... ok nvm aether + razor too? wait no now iâm confused razor should be everybodyâs baby.. including ours yes letâs adopt him... i canât believe we already have children together đł
RIGHT? i love that so much too! as much as i enjoy canon bamf midoriya i love fics that contain quirkless midoriya as well. something about him not needing a quirk yet changing the world is just *chefs kiss* that does feel like a you thing to do lmao sjshskks imagine how easy writing would be that way. also iâve been curious about smth: do you have any favorite fics you can recommend? longer fics perferably iâm feeling Angsty.
it is a long time but idk.. it can create friendships that last for a long time. iâm still bestfriends with people i got to know at 5 years old and iâm 21 now so sjsjdksdk i guess being around each other for so long makes your bond different. but iâm sure itâs the same when you share those crucial teenage years together too.
diluc is always there and heâs so tempting.. damn. but yeah after xiao you could go for it!! imagine having xiao and diluc on your team... the fucking op-ness. is it difficult to get primogems at the higher levels?
WHAT????? are you kidding????? holy shit this game is on something.... how long will it take to ascend hahaha. now i know what streamers mean when they say that itâs okay to stop at level 80 with most characters....
CLUNA DO YOU HAVE 8 TUMBLR ACCS OR AM I PICKING THIS UP WRONGLY.... but jokes aside that the best system you donât have to worry about spamming one blog or it being messy. i admire that a lot, couldnât be me but i admire that a lot.
CHONGYUN EATING COTTON CANDY.. i just got a visual like him picking cotton candy from his hair and snacking on it help shdjjdhdjsks heâs so adorable. (pink and blue are equally used here!! i mostly see it during fairs and stuff. do you like it?) dip dye was so famous around that time remember when everybody did it? i remember crying bc i wasnât allowed. and yeah i dye my hair once a year usually. mostly softer brown colors (my natural hair color is dark brown) and black when iâm feeling emo. i did peachy red hair once and i think that was my prime hsjsks. wbu? have you ever dyed it?
OIKAWAAAAA....... thereâs something so fucking good about a seemingly confident boy thatâs actually super insecure and very passionate that just hits right. right? and i do have two hq wips actually they arenât very advanced because iâve been so busy but they exist. one iwaoi and one kagehina. those two are my main ships in the show so far actually, that might change but who knows. i just love those two soooo much. the dynamics are just mwah. i need to get them out in the world some day.... hbu?? are you currently working on anything? hq or anything else? AND OFC IVE SEEN THAT. i actually love that drawing sooooo much cluna i remember seeing it weeks ago and going aaaaaah wow. the crown,,, his hair,,, i just think youâre the most amazing and i have such a crush on your talent.... đ„ș (just you in general as well actually đł)
itâs the weekend, aka more time for us! canât wait to hear from you again babe... <3
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HAHAHA YEAH WHEN I SAW IT I WAS LIKE OMGGGGGGG OMGGGGGG!!!!! the things people come up with wow đ©
oooo! thatâs good then. i just donât think i absorb information as well from movies compared to books ahaha. well iâve learnt all the important stuff through fics now i reckon đ€Ș oh iâve seen that!! but iâve purposely been not reading it fhdjdjskkwndks i feel like the concept wouldnât be my thing but.. i might give it a shot. AND YESS there are so many good drarry authors whoâve written amazing fics ugh i love it here
itâs what razor deserves đ©đ© where should we take him first đ€Ș family day out
hmmm fic recs which pairing? i could give you a lot of drarry, and a decent amount of iwaoi and kagehina maybe.. i donât read a lot of fic for pairings/fandoms i write unfortunately.. but for a start the drarry fic running on air i mentioned is reaaaaally good!! a shorter one but just as good one is âto hurt and healâ. and i hope youâre doing alright đ
omg nice!! thatâs so sweet tho.. do you know anyone whoâs had their childhood friends to lovers experience <33 ahahah
dude xiao and diluc omg⊠i am manifesting đŻ it kinda is! if you run out of achievements and youâve explored everything you can only really get primos from your daily commissions⊠i believe. which is why updates with new areas like dragonspine are a big blessing djdjskkdnfjc
yeah same omg crazy.. i think i might try levelling some of my main 4 up with books and then iâll just like passively let them gain xp as i play lmao.âŠ
I HAVE...⊠DEFINITELY MORE THAN 8 INCLUDING ONES IM JUST USING TO SAVE URLS/BLOGS I STARTED BUT NEVER CONTINUED BUT..⊠yeahhhhhh LMAO
omg.⊠your brain m.a. your brain!!! (i love cotton candy!! we call it fairy floss ehehe. do you like it?) FJSKKDKSMS i wasnât allowed either đđ. oh nice!! omg peachy red??? das cool af. and iâve never dyed my hair before!! but iâve been wanting to bleach it lately heheh
iwaoi and kagehina dynamics are definitely top tier⊠i hope youâre able to work on those wips again soon!! and i have a lot of hq wips!! none iâm actively working on.. but yeah! thank you so much đđđđ youâre too too kind to me đđđ but yeah i was also like??? i really did that??? wow. i mustâve been possessed by some kinda oikawa loving and good at drawing demon when i drew that fr (the feeling is.. mutual đł)
ALSO THAT REMINDS ME. I HAVE THE PERFECT PLACE TO GO ON OUR CO-OP DATE omg so i was thinking about where we could possibly go together as xingqiu and chongyun before falling asleep and literally startled awake when i realised⊠wonât tell you yet so itâs a surprise hehehe unless you also know đ what iâm thinking đ
woo!! canât wait for your reply đ
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