#OCD talk

[f4ggydog]

ocd in pop culture: oh my god, I’m like super organized! like everything has to be tidy for me or else I just go nuts!!! like my folders aren’t color coded rn and it’s pissing me offffff. hold on, I gotta go adjust them. sorry, it’s a little quirk of mine, y’know?

ocd in actuality: did i look at these corners enough? no, i have to scan the corners again or else everything feels unclean and dirty.

-i had to wash my hands so much that my skin started cracking and now I’m bleeding all over the sink, but i still feel unsatisfied.

-oh, i’m zoning out? sorry if it looks that way or if I’m not talking. my brain just keeps repeating this extremely offensive slur that I can’t even reclaim and I very badly do not want to repeat it but my brain keeps telling me I’m going to do it. so I’m just keeping my mouth shut because I’m afraid the word will slip out even though I don’t want to say the word and have no intentions of doing so.

-i wanted to go hang out with my dog today but while hanging out i got thoughts I didn’t want about having sex with my dog. and even though I don’t want to act on them and I think they’re disgusting, I still feel the need to stay away from her in case I harm her because I’m afraid.

-real event ocd has completely ruined my memory. i no longer know who i am as a person and i never trust myself morally. my memory has been sabotaged and past events feel like a blur because I can’t trust my brain to recollect them properly.

[therapeutic007]

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[astralvoids]

Funny thing to explain that tends to fall on people's ears even with immense research is how versatile OCD is.

OCD simply refers to obsessive compulsive disorder. It's a disorder around an obsessive thought which distresses which then triggers an compulsion or urge that is done or is on the mind in order to sooth the obsessive thought.

Nowhere in this disorders description refers to cleaning or cleanliness so it does irk me that people still use the term "I'm so OCD" for referring to not standing mess. It's not only immesly rude but also further perpetuates the social myths of what OCD is vs the actual disorder.

I could elaborate further and have spent a long time researching the negative effects of disorders like OCD being buzz terms negatively effecting the people who struggle with OCD but that's another thought.

TLDR: OCD is not a cleanliness disorder or peak organization and schedules disorder. But an actual disorder that affects people in a variety of ways that's not silly goofy

[chaosandchaos]

My hands are all dry and cracked, a sign to slow things down and get back at it again.

[herrling]

intrusive thoughts so bad I'm crying

[unimo]

kinda like how my lack of concentration helps with my intrusive thoughts. 😬👍 sometimes their too big to fend off but occasionally my brain just forgets.

[eight-littlenightmares]

hey, real quick. to all of those people who romanticize OCD, and treat it as a cute, fun little quirk:

come fucking take it then.

no. no, i’m serious. come take mine. you can fucking have it. have fun with your newfound unstoppable stress, compulsions, and eternal guilt :D

(small disclaimer: this is kind of an aggressive sounding post?? so i just wanted to apologize to my followers, this is not a callout of any specific person, i’m just venting 😅 especially if any of y’all have OCD, i know how it can make you feel guilty to read aggressive posts even if they aren’t directed at you. so just wanted to say y’all are good!!)

[maripr]

After unlocking all achievements in pathologic 2 and 72 hours of playing (and that's JUST haruspex! Imagine what I will be like when (🥹) the other two campaigns come out), I have Thoughts about the game just like I did for Patho 1 that I find myself currently unable to explain but I will maybe try to find a short description for this game: a masterpiece of pain.

Also you must play imago at least once, because it's worth it. I don't know what but it is worth it. (And also once you've beaten that every other playthrough is gonna feel easier)

Just like fear and hunger 1 and 2, although I loved both games in both series, the thought of replaying the respective first one, despite my love of the ambiance and characters etc, fills me with DREAD. Replaying the second game? I'll do it. It'll be painful and annoying and maddening and I will have to be very careful it doesn't trigger my ocd obsessions about having to finish that section now and today because oh boy then I'm gonna lose 4 hours of my life in the fucking abbatoir but I will replay the game and in the end, I'll enjoy it.

Idk even with both second games not being fully completed yet, I find the experimentation you can pull in a playthrough incredibly interesting. While the respective first game is doomed to remain a somewhat unfinished beauty.

[baileyboo2016]

“I’m a little ocd i like to arrange my pencils in CoLoR oRdEr” 👹🤭

Ok. First of all, you’re not “a little ocd”. You don’t have it. And trust me, you do NOT want it. I would give you mine if I could :)

[adelle-ein]

whenever i see someone with ocd talking about their compulsions my reactions are always like

a) that compulsion is sooooo unrealistic and dumb and supported by nothing, unlike mine which are all 1000% real

or b) the compulsion feeds off or is similar to one of mine and i immediately start developing it too

and that's why i need to Stay The Fuck Away from ocd subreddits or ones that attract ocd behaviors :(

[silenthillmutual]

my therapist once told me that ocd is "the closest you can come to having a delusional disorder without having a delusional disorder" and i think i'm still a little lost on how we draw the line in the sand. maybe it's because i also have bipolar disorder, so my obsessive thoughts are amplified by the unstable emotions, but when do hard-held beliefs about which compulsions will fix or negate the obsessive worry cross from one side to the other? at my worst i have been on the floor vomiting, fully bought into the belief that every siren i heard was the police coming to arrest me for crimes i could not remember committing. i believed that bleeding would "purge" me from my "sins" and make me whole again.

i don't have an end to this. just questions.

[b-lessings]

I would like to apologize to the part of my brain responding to my health OCD. The poor neurons must be in overdrive! I am causing them burnout. 😭

[whereisthesun]

I HATE MORAL OCD. well i shouldnt say hate thats a strong word. and i dont want to sound like i hate people WITH moral ocd because i dont of course. i just hate having it. but i shouldnt think that, i do like having morals, its just stressful to be thinking about them so constantly and scrutinizing every little thing i do or think. but really thats the least i could do so i should at least try, right? just because i suffer from— no, struggle with moral ocd doesn’t mean i should just stop thinking about things all together, thats not what im saying and i should make that clear, but i

[angelicgarnet]

the way people online talk about autism is getting really weird, like do they know that neurotypicals still have interests? that someone being passionate about a hobby doesn't mean they're autistic? you guys know that right

[chaosandchaos]

So, I've been washing and cutting my salad/veggies lately instead of buying everything finished and done. I felt ready to try it out and see how it goes. There have been episodes where I have thrown everything away, but not as many times as before.

The thoughts of things not being safe are still so effing loud, but I know I just have to ignore that and not let it overwhelm me.

I have also bought food I have avoided making for almost 10 years. Just thinking about it makes me almost freak out, but I have decided to not let it rot in the refrigerator this time.

[herrling]

want to think abt Katze and hcs to fill into stuff that wasn't clarified by their source (e. g. backstory) or just our ship in gen

forced to be anxious about finals and deal with breakdowns and ocd intensifying because of that :")