#OCD or something?

[angelicgarnet]

the way people online talk about autism is getting really weird, like do they know that neurotypicals still have interests? that someone being passionate about a hobby doesn't mean they're autistic? you guys know that right

[aropride]

[spyroz]

if anyone needs help identifying things that can become moral scrupulosity OCD obsessions/compulsions, heres a list of some i've experienced:

rereading your posts/texts over and over

checking your notes and/or followers list frequently to "make sure" bad actors aren't interacting with you

checking OP's blog before interacting with posts

compulsively opening a social media tab to look at your notifs and then closing it, over and over

fearing ways that things you say/do (or don't do) could be taken in bad faith. being anxious that your words/actions will be misconstrued as morally wrong, bigoted, rude, or aggressive

feeling guilty or obsessing over whether you should or shouldn't have reblogged a post

feeling like you aren't "allowed" to disengage from online discourse or unfollow people who post it

fearing you're being stalked, talked about, or called out behind your back. fearing you'll never be forgiven and that people might even celebrate your disappearance or death, even though you havent done anything wrong

searching your own name/username to see if anyone is actually talking about you

imagining defenses you would make against nonexistent heinous accusations or arguments against you, to prove that you didnt do it

feeling like you have to roll over and become a doormat when others are cruel to you, because it could cause strife if you do anything other than grovel or apologize

having trouble enforcing your own boundaries out of fear that they are somehow "wrong" or unethical

ending up surrounded by people who have all the "right opinions" but are super mean and unpleasant, and make you feel like you have to walk on eggshells

fearing that just HAVING moral ocd makes you a bad person somehow (for example, i often fear that having moral ocd is somehow pushing a 'stranger danger' or misanthropist agenda, even though i actually have a lot of faith in my fellow humans)

some of these bullet points are not inherently bad on their own, but if you find yourself having this kind of anxiety very often, that's not normal, and it's time to get offline or even seek professional help if it's impacting your life

this list is catered to how online culture influences moral scrupulosity, it is not indicative of how everybody's moral scrupulosity functions, and it is not exhaustive

[identitty-dickruption]

relatedly, I think that some of the most extreme takes about morality and relationships and "being a good person" come from people with undiagnosed/unrecognised/mismanaged obsessive thinking. and that, here on the social internet, we often all do a really good job at fuelling each other's worst obsessive tendencies*

*in case this breaks containment: this is coming from someone with OCD. I have been diagnosed for several years now and have been thinking about this a lot

[lucabyte]

A belief in Nominative Determinsim

[turtletoria]

one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)

[girljeremystrong]

i love tumblr because you can post something like 'i hope my best friend's boyfriend dies' and everyone agrees and nobody tells you you're crazy

[hillerska-official]

[powerfulkicks]

intrusive thoughts are so funny. your brain is like "imagine how fucked up it would be if you pushed that stranger in front of a car lol" and you're like yeah. that would be fucked up. i'm not gonna do that though. and your brain is like "ok. just to make sure i'm gonna make you think of it in graphic detail over and over for the next five minutes just so that you really understand how fucked up it would be." thanks i guess.

[ink-wells-and-feathers]

hey u. yeah person reading this. you don't have to reblog that thing if you don't want to. it doesn't make you a bad person if you don't. nothing bad will happen if you don't. if you're like me you're struggling with this. I understand I am too. but nothing bad is gonna happen and you're not a bad person.

[thefreshprinceofjunes]

talking with @plague-kavoo about soriku motivates me to draw things (even if its just a meme redraw)

based on this image:

[maridotnet]

first meeting

[phoebespenglers]

can we please stop telling people to kill themselves and to rot in hell and that they deserve to be bullied and that they are inherently horrible people who deserve to die and get doxxed. please. can we please stop doing that.

[six-of-cringe]

tumblr is to moral ocd what tiktok is to adhd and post

[theshadowrealmitself]

The whole “cheats on test, creates the apocalypse” thing is such a disproportionate punishment, but it has to work, just, poor Danny Fenton in school, not even risking looking away from his paper for a second in case that somehow causes the school to blow up

[helpforintrusivethoughts]

things to remember today:

you are not a burden

the world would not be a better place without you in it

there is always something to laugh at

it may feel horrible now but it will not always be this way

kittens exist

there is nothing wrong with asking for help

somewhere in the world, flowers are blooming

your thoughts do not define you

take one step at a time. breathe deep and slow. someone out there cares about you. please don’t forget you are alive