People never get my kind of loneliness and it sucks. "Oh just go out more and talk with people" does nothing for me, except make me feel more lonely. I don't want the small talk. I'm lonely because I never had a connection with people. I never found people who are like me. All I see when I go out is how different everyone is compared to me and that I will never be happy in such a society.
"اللهم يا من أمرتنا بالدعاء ووعدتنا باﻹجابة، اللهم انصرهم وثبت أقدامهم واعلِ كلمتك وأعز دينك بهم، اللهم زلزل اﻷرض تحت أقدام الأعداء ومن كان لهم معينًا وابسط اﻷرض تحت أقدام المجاهدين المرابطين وذللها لهم".
It wasn't abuse, it wasn't controlling, he states as he still fears his own reality. Refuses to acknowledge burn out or mental health, doctors or help in any capacity...thundering threats and acts of violence when she asked to change things for her own well being. Rigid boundaries and neglect did abound. Pushed her past herself into further disassociation and more trauma, continuing her cycle of living to please everyone else. Broken she'd left, and him still yelling, threatening and screaming, gaslighting and wondering... wondering why'd she'd have left. Yet, he was so rigid he couldn't see she'd always been acting for everyone else to please.
How is it that a song that isn't even remotely connected to Star Wars in the least and doesn't even have words always makes me think of Kallus when it comes on?
In case you lost it - a link to the eSIM donation guide. Even if you feel sick and powerless, you can at least do this. And even if you really, really can't donate, you can always at least share this and remind others.
[image id: a four-page comic. it is titled "immortality” after the poem by clare harner (more popularly known as “do not stand at my grave and weep”). the first page shows paleontologists digging up fossils at a dig. it reads, “do not stand at my grave and weep. i am not there. i do not sleep.” page two features several prehistoric creatures living in the wild. not featured but notable, each have modern descendants: horses, cetaceans, horsetail plants, and crocodilians. it reads, “i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glints on snow. i am the sunlight on ripened grain. i am the gentle autumn rain.” the third page shows archaeopteryx in the treetops and the skies, then a modern museum-goer reading the placard on a fossil display. it reads, “when you awaken in the morning’s hush, i am the swift uplifting rush, of quiet birds in circled flight. i am the soft stars that shine at night. do not stand at my grave and cry.” the fourth page shows a chicken in a field. it reads, “i am not there. i did not die” / end id]
a comic i made in about 15 hours for my school’s comic anthology. the theme was “evolution”
Recently, I went on a date that didn’t quite spark.
We gathered to enjoy live music, a backdrop of vibrant energy and rhythm. It was probably one of the most beautiful dates I’ve ever been on.
The audience sat amidst the blooming flowers on a flower farm, the folk singer and her guitar on the front porch of a greenhouse – the sun setting behind it as the moon rose behind us.
I arrived with a…
Recently, I went on a date that didn’t quite spark.
We gathered to enjoy live music, a backdrop of vibrant energy and rhythm. It was probably one of the most beautiful dates I’ve ever been on.
The audience sat amidst the blooming flowers on a flower farm, the folk singer and her guitar on the front porch of a greenhouse – the sun setting behind it as the moon rose behind us.
I arrived with a…