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Man I wanna play Pocket Camp again *plays for like maybe 30 mins*....no I don't 😒
#gooooood god#my eyes#you cannot get rid of all the red exclamation points#there's frankly an insane amount of....stuff going on#JOIN THIS DO THIS THE EVENT IS GOING ON#WE HAVE A PLANNER NOW!#like#you do one single thing#and the whole screen is now filled with notifications to clear#the game is close to unplayable#NONE of this should show up#until you finish the entire tutorial#like i never even got to look at#or do anything with my campsite (outside of the here's how to place an item)#like i was HEAVILY overstimulated immediately#the only reason i knew wtf to do was because I'd played before#oof
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for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal
before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"
and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"
#the truman show#sbs rambles#I keep thinking about how children on popular youtube channels should probably have laws to protect them#social workers assigned to them maybe#I dunno#they did not sign up to have their lives sold for profit#but here we are#tho#I guess none of us signed up for it#and our data is harvested more than ever#god#high-tech capitalism sucks turns out#OH WAIT because tumblr is bad at getting context sometimes#let me specify:#I am not saying that the movie The Truman Show is bad or that it normalizes this#like all good sci-fi (because it is kind of sci-fi) it's there to warn us of what the future could hold#and it did that in a very good way - it's a beautiful movie#I could see someone with a bad faith take assuming I meant that it was part of the problem#it absolutely wasn't. it didn't normalize this; we did#youtube did and social media#it's us that's the problem#or more specifically: big corporations and a lack of regulation#that's the origin of most modern problems
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thank u canon plant nerd megumi for my life
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiguro megumi#yuji itadori#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#itadori yuuji#megumi#yuuji#middle one FOUGHT oh my god#angle/arm position/watering can/expression NONE of it wld go right#took 2 hours to get the lines only to realize upon laying down flats that it was still Completely off#so i took a break to bake an entire cake came back n finally it started cooperating#tbh idk if im still shaking off ytd's weird funk or what but this took ages longer than it should have#but its ok bc florist/botanist/general plant nerd megu is free serotonin 2 me#i could not decide on one apron 2 give him#but then i remembered he is th type 2 take his hobby Very seriously of course he would own multiple#looks at the hydrangeas listen . listen I Know i ws bemoaning having 2 draw so many cursing their name etc etc#but u dont understand he had to be holding one he just had to. he told me so. he held a gun 2 my head and said U Know What To Do#and i said ok ok ok ok#there r only 2 i survived#and i wld do anything fr him as we well know . cuffs his jeans puts leaves in his hair <3#jjk may have given me trust issues depression anxiety etc but it Also gave me flowerboy megu and i think that balances it out :)#edit added the bonus here bc reblogs dont show up in the main tags enjoy itfs gross flirting mwah <3
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It’s been a minute, (both post wise and design wise) so decided to update the fam + a couple additions compared to last time
#batman#batfam#dc#art#my art#redesign#again im not tagging everyone lmao#but yeah for main changes other than just tweaking the faces and hairstyles a bit#changed harper up to look a little more like her live action actress#not that ive Watched that show but the actress was v pretty#changed up jasons scarring for ease of drawing#gave cass some punky streaks#gave damian a little bit of a mohawk like i have in his ‘adult self as nightwing’ art#i dunno i like drawing those two a little more alt#but yeah it was mostly just fixing some facial proportions and hairstyles to make em all a little more distinct from one another#apologies for not posting ive mostly just been doing stuff for dnd#none of which is polished#also i should specify its helena wayne-kyle not helena b#did also fix her age
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I’ve been possessed. If anyone wants to know where Edgeworth is, he’s been watching kamen yaiba with the detective boys for 4 hours
#my art#this au writes itself COME HERE CAPCOM#CROSSOVER I BEG#aa#dcmk#Phoenix wright#shinichi kudo#Conan edogawa#ai haibara#Athena cykes#trucy wright#…do I tag everybody for my own organizational benefit. Yeah#kaito kid#ema skye#I think the kurain channeling technique is really cool and also VERY FUNNY#none pants. Sorry shin#hey welcome to the last tags. you ever pick shinichi up and go hey this thing doesn’t think being scared is good or cool for him#ace attorney#detective conan#gin would die before going to court but we are playing by ACE ATTORNEY RULES and that means Get on the stand#kaito voice FINALLY SOMEBODY USING MY LIKENESS FOR A MAGIC SHOW#AS IT SHOULD BE#Ai haibara#SORRY SHIHO I FORGOR#turnabout 4869
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i'm sorry but what are we doing what are we doing what are we doing??? 500 people in a hospital just slaughtered - pure act of genocide and what are we doing??? like, yes, just the fact that the numbers out on the streets are what they are is testament to unprecedented failure in the western propaganda murder machine, but at the same time what the fuck are we doing???
because this can't be another blm - record numbers of people out on the streets and what? what happened? what result but deepened reaction and further entrenched state violence? this is an acute genocide that is happening right now we're just gonna do the same shit we've been doing for a decade that we know does worse than doesn't work??
signs at protests shouldn't be begging biden to call for a ceasefire, they should be calling for unions to stand up and collectively refuse to handle genocidal war goods. unions representing newsroom crews and newspaper workers should collectively refuse to produce propaganda of genocide. the fucking politicians aren't gonna fucking stop this shit, it's only gonna be labor shutting it down that's gonna stop it. fuck letters to the senator we gotta stop the fucking death machine and labor is the ones with our hands on the levers.
#palestine#strikes aren't just for better working conditions#they're to show who has the power#without us none of this runs#labor has to step the fuck up and stop this now#we should be writing to labor unions i swear to fuck
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Whenever someone tries to make a point about something the Konoha kunoichis, I need to make a pause and remind them how out of character they were in some of those moments.
Kishimoto pretty much abandoned Sakura and Ino's friendship and then tried to bring it back during the War arc. Ino lost her sensei and then her dad, and when was Sakura? You mean to tell me she wouldn't care? About any of it? Or when Sasuke was declared to be killed, do you mean to tell me that Ino wouldn't have run to find Sakura?
The way Hinata was written on Shippuden???? Naruto aside, people forget that Hinata refused to give up during the Chunning Exams and forced Neji to almost kill her if he wanted the victory. She was stubborn, she was prideful too, she had more going on than simply a crush on Naruto. She was told by her father she was a failure and yet she didn't give up on becoming a kunoichi, did she?
Then why is that Shippuden wrote her like her sole ambition was Naruto, hm?
And Tenten? She was MEAN when she wanted to be because she was highly competitive. We know that she wanted to train under Tsunade, so where did the death of that dream take her? She's such a powerful kunoichi and yet we know so little about her personality, her life...
We got "Ino and Hinata know some medic min techniques" in the most random way possible... We know Sakura would walk around with Hinata even, so what about their girl bonding moments during the genin to Shippuden years?
It made me so angry whenever the girls treated each other like strangers in Shippuden. So many stupid situations made to highly their teammates even if I meant to write the girls out of character...
#Hinata was ambitious back then!!! Yes she was inspired by Naruto by the fight was her own#she didn't fight for him she fight for herself#the whole point of their connection is that they were both losers rooting for each other to succeed#out of the Team 7 members Sakura was the one who spend more time with the rookie 9#I'm not saying they should like her better than Naruto but they shouldn't definitely know her better!!#and you mean to tell me they didn't care about her mental state when they were told that Sasuke was to be killed?#none of them?#I love Sai but Kishimoto took the character who knew less about it to give Sakura a lecture and no one else showed up? at any moment?#I'm convinced Kishimoto only did that to force the Sakura confession to Naruto and feed the love triangle agenda#it sucks to be the female love interest in a story focus on the male parts of the love triangle#I'm actually glad Kishimoto didn't write Tenten so ooc but it's still a shame we got so little Team Gai on Shippuden#they were mostly filler after being one of the strongest genin teams in Konoha#bless Temari and Tsunade for being the best written female characters of Naruto#because I'll never forget Kushina wanted to be Hokage and they gave it to her husband#anyway#naruto#sakura haruno#ino yamanaka#hinata hyuuga#tenten naruto#kunoichi#kunoichis#naruto female characters#naruto shippuden#konoha kunoichis
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Hey, remember when Critical Role had a show specifically designed to give a platform and showcase to smaller creators (many of whom did see a huge increase in their reach and business) and despite people snidely demanding that CR had a responsibility to do something like that and saying they should for years no one watched it and it got cancelled?
Pepperidge Farm remembers
#luck being salty o’clock#every so often I see people still jeeringly demanding that CR as the big fish should platform their smaller faves#and I get critter hug war flashbacks#critter hug#I actually liked that show and I’m still annoyed none of the people who kept asking for it showed up for it#critical role
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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you
#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what#allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of#the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than#to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do#im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt#take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was#mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their#mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that#explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain#direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in#arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to#engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out#theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive#a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked#picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing#sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example#for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war#is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old#wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for#steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with#especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can#look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never#treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time#but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made#feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them#accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me#yapping#diary
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Outfits of the Guard from an older fic of mine, Tangerine and Roc. Supposed to be a bit of a mix of styles from Central Asia in the late 15th century as they go about their travels, with a little battle-ready touch.
#siggy draws#the old guard#tog#tog fanart#yusuf al kaysani#nicolo di genova#quynh#andromache of scythia#kaysanova#andromaquynh#*director's commentary in the tags wee woo:#none of these fits are exactly what i envisioned when i wrote the fic but they're generally what they should have been wearing#y'know like some layers come off and some come on throughout the fic ofc#does joe look battle-ready? absolutely not.#he wants to be fashionable! <3#this was the first time i've really attempted to draw embroidery and patterns by hand and it shows lol...#anyway. joe gets the snazzy main-character colours and nicky gets all the brown because he's nicky#also he looks so tired because he is lol. let him rest. or not. let him not rest idk.#i should have put more effort in and drawn different version of their outfits with weapons too but alas#quynh should have a nicely embroidered quiver and a bit of armour. they should all be more armed up --#-- after meeting the kazakh settlement in the first chapter. but can anyone blame me for not wanting to draw all the weapons...#anyway i miss them and i miss this fic and i miss writing like this ;_; <3
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u can really tell the tonal difference in how i talk about motogp and tennis from the last two posts... like with motogp it's always. hope pecco and jorge know what a great job they've done this year <3 the most important thing is that they have fun <3 i'm very proud of both of them <3... such an enjoyable season so happy to watch :D... and then with tennis it's a bit more. men holding tennis racquets should maybe consider setting themselves on fire. you're a spanish or italian tennis player? I Will Kill You On Sight. fuck this sport. fuck everything. tennis is the path to sin. we're all going to hell
#//#me watching spaniards italians and australians repeatedly stab each other in motogp: ah yes. this is Justice for my son#who has been WRONGED by all three of those nations NONE of which i will EVER forgive for their crimes#i always feel like motogp was a social experiment to lock up the two most insufferable sporting nations together#and just let them settle it between themselves. no innocents hurt. alien vs predator but at least they're putting on a show#honestly the funniest way to watch motogp is to be an equal opportunities hater of spaniards and italians you guys should all try it#- casey stoner
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I think Jmart would work really well in a Pride and Prejudice au bc I think Jon proposing to Martin while insulting him would be funny.
#a talking bunkat#jmart#tma#The question of who else close to him Jon would be insulting remains. Martin doesn't have a lot of family like Elizabeth#which could be interesting#Also I don't want to write a period piece so like. I would have to make office politics the equivalent of 17th century social hierarchy#but like in other ways it works so well. Tim as Mr. Bingley would be perfect. And Elias could be. Mr. Wickem I guess?#I guess actually that Elias and Jonah could be different characters...#Hm. Something to think about I guess.#Sasha would take Jane's role and then I'd have to come up with a reason for Jon to sabotage her and Tim's relationship...#WAIT UNLESS I CAN WORK NOTSASHA INTO THIS ALSO. And Jon's season 2 paranoia.#Hm. Much to think about.#Martin showing up to Jon's house (the Archives) uninvited on some kind of like. Tour? For a class? Martin goes back to school au?#And obviously Jon doesn't have a sister like Mr. Darcy so Martin meets... Daisy?? WAIT GEORGIE I'M AN IDIOT THEY EVEN HAVE THE SAME NAME-#Hm. Miss. Bingley who would she be... like of I was going purely based on actual relationship it would be Danny but I'm not doing that#I mean we have no evidence that Danny WOULDNT try and get with Jon for his money/social status but let's be fucking real here for a second.#Idk. Literally no one other then Martin is interested in Jon in any romantic way.#anyway none of this matters I should go to sleep.
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i politely demand you talk about your nge/pacrim au!
thank you for enabling my behavior and for all your art omg <33333 i will attempt to coherently and briefly outline my thoughts
the short version is: yuuta/rika saves you post-battle and both are irrationally upset when it turns out that you already have a boyfriend.
yuuta would like to take some of the credit for digging you out the rubble, but the truth is, it was like his mech was on auto-pilot, overriding all of his controls to dig you out of a lifeless environment and stash your cold, limp body in the center chamber until yuuta and rika were transported back to the base.
yuuta doesn’t understand why he lost control of rika like that, nor does he understand why he feels so upset when he goes to visit you in the infirmary and there’s already some other man by your bedside holding your hand. he vaguely recognizes kokichi as a junior engineer who’s done a few surface level repairs on rika, and he’s surprised and green with envy to find out that kokichi is also your boyfriend.
yuuta doesn’t understand the anger he feels, or the headache he gets, or the panic attack that’s threatening to rise in him, or why his feet automatically drag him back to his mech, or why he feels like he could hear rika’s faint sobs and screams in his head and he lay in his pilot chamber. none of it makes sense and he can barely sleep because of it, but it happens every time he thinks about you and kokichi for too long; and strangely enough, if the thinks about how rika seemed to come to life to save you for too long. there’s some kind of missing link he can’t piece together.
when you’re conscious, you can’t seem to recall any part your childhood, and only have your memories from college onwards, save for bits and pieces of the attack you were a victim of. yuuta learns that you were studying to be an engineer, that you were moving to work at the hangar and be closer to your boyfriend, that kokichi was slated to pick you up from the airport that ended up being the site of attack. a small part of yuuta wishes kokichi had been there, thinks that rika wouldn’t have found him in the rubble.
you’re the miracle save, and somewhat become the baby of the hangar. world-renowned pilots you’d only ever studied in class stopped by to give you their condolences, offer their help. you try to remain calm when satoru gojo and kento nanami make an appearance as a duo in your tiny recovery room, calling you brave and bowing to you with a home cooked meal in hand. senior engineers do their best to recover your work from college, assuring you that your injuries and recovery period would be a non-factor in the hiring process—that you were free to start as soon as you felt comfortable. you get the most attention from yuuta, who makes himself a friend, and a critical part of your recovery, essentially firing your physical therapist in favor of fixing you himself.
everyone makes you feel welcome, but yuuta makes you feel safe. he holds your waist while you re-learn to walk, he sneaks you into the pilot’s lounge while the jaegers have their repairs done—and nods in faux-sympathy as you mourn the presence of your boyfriend, who seems busier than ever these days with nuisance repairs, jokes about how yuuji and megumi seem to be particularly reckless with their jaeger lately—he squeezes your hand when you have headaches and fractured flashbacks of your past that you can’t piece together, he holds you when you cry out of pure frustration of not being able to remember who you are
yuuta’s a real smooth talker, too. always knows exactly how to comfort you while your boyfriend is busy, always talks to the press about you so preciously, always makes you feel like you have a purpose even if you can’t remember your past self—maybe you weren’t meant to remember anything before him and rika, maybe it was meant to be this way. it’s a twisted comfort, but it’s something to cling to, it’s better than crying over memories you no longer have.
everyone notices yuuta’s weird reverse stockholm syndrome lol… the way he hovers over you like he’s your sole protector and savior, the way he demands to be privy to all decisions about your health care, the way he remains close to you with no fear of your boyfriend. nobody says anything, though—yuuta’s a pilot, a good one, and one the few solo pilots in the entire world. he’s precious and vital to humanity, worth a thousand men, worth ten thousand engineers. besides, his friends see something special between you two, especially the co-pilot pairs; satoru and kento, megumi and yuuji, choso and yuki—they know compatibility when they see it, and boyfriend or not, you have something special with yuuta. they all share a common thought: kokichi is fighting a losing battle. and even if he could beat yuuta, he’d never win against rika.
#answered#teehee there's So Much Lore that i could talk about but i tried to keep this a reasonable length#and i hope it feels slightly ominious teehee <333#this is really just me bringing back my favorite point to light again: none of the jjk boys are SHIT!#boyfriend>? never heard of him! to yuuta he's YOUR save#he and rika pulled you out of the dirt and snow and brought you back to life... hows ur boyfriend gonna compete with that? he shouldnt ://#he should give up :// it sure would make yuuta's life easier... sigh#also note! the rest of them aint shit either! bc WHY are they rooting for him 😭 terrible#there's so many versions of the au the temptation to truman show it is also there but i think i want that for something different#teehee <333 anyway thank u for ur art my dear !!!!!!!!!!#there's also another version which is simply youre a co-pilot with someone else#and the yuuta comes along looking like a kicked wet puppy and somehow he's like 98% compatible with you#and everyones like whoah what the fuck... which makes u angry bc u were perfectly happy being previously more compatible with ur boyfriend!#and here comes along this LOSER to ruin everything....... love of ur life but a LOSER#yuuta x reader#pacrim au
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Reasons I think there should be more fanfics where Marinette renounces the Ladybug Miraculous:
Very small
Heart-Too-Big Disease(Terminal)
Very eepy
Someone get this girl some anti-depressants I'MFUCKINGBEGGI-
No Heroing = More time to bake & sew
Marinette's love language is gift-giving so she can make things for all her friends
friends are in less danger
Chat Noir can know her identity
Chat Noir can give his princess forehead kisses while on duty
She can hide with her friends and comfort each other during akuma attacks
Ladybug Alya/Kagami/Nino/Luka
New Ladybug can give civilian Marinette forehead kisses as well
She can be Multimouse sometimes(as a treat)
Maybe Akumatized Marinette(She is so tired, please give her a break[But also she would be so interesting as an akuma])
Throw stale croissants at Master Fu
Did I mention she is very tired and should be allow to sleep more?
Her parents don't need to worry about her(as much)
Sabine and Tom can know she was Ladybug and be supportive and comfort her for making a Big Girl decision
More time to egg Gabriel's car(and maybe him)
No Yo-Yo = Bite mean akumas who hurt her friends
Help with the Ladyblog
People can make weird conspiracy theories about why Ladybug disappeared
She can maybe know Chat Noir's identity
She is very busy being class president
More time to make friends
Lila loses some ammo
Give Tikki goodbye kiss on cheek
Now only member of class who doesn't have Miraculous(funny)
Bittersweet goodbye with her kitty(May not be forever)
#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#miraculous fic#miraculous au#Miraculous angst#Marinette angst#multimouse#Renouncing Mirauclous#flame writes#this is not an exhaustive list#I definitely don't think she should give up her Miraculous in canon#but the fact there are like no fics of this concept is wild#at least none I could find#the show and fandom puts such ephasis(at times) on her not actually liking being Ladybug#And the weight that puts on her#So it's weird there are like no fics of her giving it up#except for like one where her mom uses it for a while cause Mari broke her leg#But she doesn't really give it up and still is working as a hero
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Why are so many people on Tumblr/Twitter claiming Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss are bad shows??? "They're not mid shows guys they're just bad" can y'all give me one concrete reason they're bad besides debunked "controversies" or things that other people told you were bad about em?
Like I'm halfway convinced all of these people claiming these are such bad shows and are annoyed about em haven't actually watched them - "I don't need to watch a show to know it's bad" pretty sure you do if you want to have an informed opinion, that goes for everything actually.
If you're annoyed by the hype and the fan culture?? That's fine we all got our things but that doesn't make the shows themselves bad I think y'all just like having someone to poke fun of without feeling like a bully and honestly?? That seems like a miserable way to live.
#This is specifically about that mid shows post going around#What other people like and consider good/bad/mid is none of your business and not a reason to make fun of them#Y'all think you're being SO progressive and kind when you're still being cruel to people online for the smallest shit#You don't like it?? Don't interact with it just block and move on#You curate your own internet experience it's not that hard#I don't like rwby or one piece and those come up on my dash all the time it's so easy to ignore and move on#I don't call those shows bad because surprise! I've never seen them so I don't know!#hazbin hotel#helluva boss#Y'all claim cringe culture is dead but still mock people who like “cringy” stuff like any of this is gonna matter in five years#And mark my words I'm gonna get called cringe or some shit for this post#When y'all should be thinking about why you take joy from calling people shit on the internet like it's gonna make you happy#Years long mutuals of mine are even jumping on the mockery bandwagon!! I've followed y'all for almost a decade what is going on
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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