#NEET2024

[internalresistance]

I look at this one uh from time to time -

[fr3shm3at]

picking the perfect psp to customize is impossible-

my top picks rn are

white (impossible to get rn)

mint green

ice silver

felicia blue

[medstudying]

I GOT INTO MED SCHOOL!!!!!!!

[kitaab-aur-kalam]

[bladeechan]

It's hard for me to wake up and go out. I just want to bed rot and play silly games.

[lotuseaterwhowistlesinthedark]

I feel like if I complete my back log fully, clean my house, do the laundry and dishes and stay organized then I'll be happy. Let's test this theory

[weirdo-busy]

2 & 3 weeks of November

I thought I will try and study more after holidays but obviously they just created a type of environment where I got into procrastination back I was trying but I wasn't studying my mornings were getting filled with watching shorts or youtube content or I am sketching basically I was doing everything except studying which I used to regret at night because I don't want do that I want to study and crack my exam so I need to make most out of the last week of November 💪 I need to fight back I need to get on with the schedule I need to be disciplined consistent and have fucking self control. It's High time now I can't mess up anymore

But I don't feel like waking up in the morning if anyone could suggest something helpful to wake up early please do..

I will try my best 💪📚

[noapologiesbynirvana]

[scarlet-stu-dies]

18. 10. 2024

today was fun.

woke up at 5. read through bdc a bit before breakfast.

9 - 10 - nerve muscle physiology. they only taught us what we already knew about neurons from 11th/12th grade.

10 - 11 - anatomy - joints. taught us the basics about joints and their types and mostly covered everything except moveable joints.

11 - 1 - foundation course. basically teaching us how we are supposed to approach learning while in mbbs.

1 - 2 - walked back to the hostel, had lunch, went back to the college.

2 - 3 - biochem. mostly the proff took the entire time to talk about the subject and what he expects from us and about the exams and stuff.

3 - 5 - anatomy. all the teachers of the dept gathered us all, assigned each of us a cadaver (groups of 20) and had us take the cadaveric oath. ngl the formalin did make my eyes water. i was on table one so I was near the storage and ig there's more formalin covered stuff in there?

after that i accompanied my friends as they bought their books and then we all went to buy our dissection kits. (dissection is tomorrow!! can't wait!!) and by the time i came back to hostel it was 7-ish?

the seniors gathered us around, no ragging just a bit of an interaction. then dinner time rolled around but i skipped it to wash clothes 💀 (kya halat ho gayi hei yaar meri-)

anyway then me and my roommates tried group study. the keyword is 'TRIED'. none of us are group study people so it didn't work out.

i read the intro to the first chapter in physiology. and then started with anatomy lower limb. we're working on the hip bone rn and will finish that in tomorrow's lecture. i wanted to complete it tonight but i don't think that'll work out, really. it's already 1:30 and I don't wanna annoy my roommates by keeping the lights on for long.

and besides, i often found myself on the verge of falling asleep during lectures because I got used to sleeping a lot during the 5 months gap between neet and now and I don't want that to continue so ig i really should get some sleep.

good night, loves! <3

[duhwani]

AIIMS jaungi <3 (patient banke)

[studaxy]

23rd Jan, 2024, Tuesday

1:40pm: the obstacles have shown up. in the form of a toxic parental. a small relief is that it wasn't of my making but when a parent fails to do parent things, its like a double edged sword and you're the one getting cut on both ends.

while I did stay up last night to try and complete Thermodynamics - and when I crashed after that I didn't wake up early at all T_T - it dawned on me that its simply too big of a chapter to complete in one day. along with the other chapters I've assigned myself this week.

I thought about it and I think realistically I'm not going to be able to finish them all in the time I have right now, but I can still do something so I don't walk into an exam blind and resigned.

so as a compromise, I'm gonna do as much as I can for the chapters I scheduled each day and its okay if I don't finish the whole thing, because I still did learn and now know more than I did yesterday. despite what anyone says, that's enough.

next month, hopefully with a better plan and more time I'll catch up with everything.

[scarlet-sam-chaos]

"the amount of time, money and effort we spent on you, if we'd done for any other kid, they would've definitely topped-"

NO MOTHER, FUCK YOU.

YOU KNOW WHAT? MY INSPIRATION FOR THIS DIED THE DAY I GOT 710 IN A TEST, fucking 710 IN AN AIATS and YOUR FIRST WORDS WEREN'T "congratulations" THEY WERE, "WHO CAME FIRST?" because i'd come second I-

[fr3shm3at]

ฅꪒ_ ̫ _ ꪒฅ 𐙚₊˚⊹ᡣ𐭩

[kantikotoq]

did a little cosplay :3

[kitaab-aur-kalam]

[internalresistance]

My online lectures were going fine but I made a mistake .

I thought comparing myself with others at this moment won't sting me much , I thought I needed a reality check for my sake , I thought the overwhelming numbers of students and rankers wouldn't affect me this time around but oh boy i don't even know myself. I once again buried myself under all what ifs , the bad ugly what ifs .

And yeah I just started , so I do feel like everybody is ahead of me and not just that , everybody's better brighter and most likely moving mountains . I have roughly a few months left in me , left to sit in the hall and write my course of life as they say . I don't mind much taking another year to crack this devastating hell of an entrance exam but it's starting to hit me now , just NOW , that it's embarrassing. It's embarrassing to sit and keep trying with clenched teeth and red eyes once more to get back one ' you didn't give enough ' from myself .

I had never tried enough . Never once I gave enough. So never before I got enough . But standing at the final doors to much dreamt adulthood , I feel the deep need to try . Once . And enough . Even typing this out of my system rn feels disgusting and I feel it so abdominally rooted I want to mission abort .

I am trying . I wish I was lying but I am trying , only if I knew trying real hard for the first time in my life will make me feel so small and insignificant and fill me with regrets of not striving or wanting anything as deeply at a younger age .

Lastly , anybody out there feeling anything even a point similar to this , I hope you get the ugly things out of your system too like I did .

And I am right here .