#My hyperfixation I have for him is so strong atm

[tastybluesprite]

Ok I just wanted to make some fanart lol. Now I’ll shut up about him (for now…)

[itsalwaysforyou]

jafar raised jay to be slippery and selfish but jay knew there was strength in numbers and decided to trust and love and hope despite everything else. and he protects these people that he finds, the only things his father can’t take from him, his own treasure he guards like the lion’s head at the cave of wonders.

he’s the last one out, there to watch their backs, as close to them all as their own shadows. he’s their third eye, always hyper-vigilant, always on the look out. he knows when to start a fight, and when it’s best to leave it alone. it’s nearly always best to leave it alone. he wrangles them all back in, keeping them safe so they don’t have to worry about injuries or repercussions or consequences. his job is to keep them safe, and keep them alive.

and yet, in auradon, with no brawls or street fights or leering parents or turf wars or rivals or enemies, what is there to protect them from? passive aggressive comments? pastels? afternoon tea? what is a guard dog with nothing to guard? jay has built his entire life, his entire self, around servitude. if it’s not his father, it’s his gang, always the helping hand and the shoulder to cry on (metaphorically, of course) and the reassuring presence. without any of that, he is nothing.

he is the thief that gives. the boy desperate to hold on to his only sense of purpose. it’s all he knows: give enough away and they might let you stick around. chameleonic, knowing exactly who to be where and when. the charmer, the heartthrob, the villain, the protector, the liar, the snake, the attacker. anything you need. he can be anything at all, as effortless as breathing.

[basket-of-cats-and-witches]

Dragon Age OCs

This will be an extensive post so obviously I'm going to put it under a read more and also tag it with spoilers... because not everyone has finished Veilguard!

That being said, I've put everything in order of most recent game to the earliest, that way if you're only interested in what weird shit I'm cooking for Veilguard, it'll be right there at the top.

EDIT: this got long. This post is Veilguard only. I'll put Origins and Dragon Age 2 in a different one.

This is mostly for my own personal reference as I continue to write banter and fanfiction, but I like posting it where people can see it if they get curious. This is all subject to change, as OCs can (and should) change as their writers do. That's progress and growth, babey.

Maybe someday I'll even include screenshots of my OCs. Dragon Age Origins my crusty beloved.

Don't care about this post but you're curious about the OC template I made? Just scroll to the bottom of the post!

Anyways, onto OC rambling!

Veilguard

Lanalath De Riva (he/they)

My currently canon playthrough. Not my current playthrough, just my canon Rook atm. This might change with time.

🐦‍⬛Stats🐦‍⬛

Age: 29

Race: Elf, non-Dalish

Faction: Antivan Crows my beloved

Class: Sword and Orb mage.

Specialization: Spellblade, lightning and fire focused. This was nuts to run, and I did it by accident.

Romance: Lucanis the disaster that you are

Birthplace: Seheron

Brief backstory:

Ngl this one was a hassle to work out. Originally Lana was a Lords of Fortune named Monarch, only I did a full playthrough and then realized Lana fit the Crows far better. And then I changed their entire backstory bc it no longer fit 😭

So Lana is, as you read, from Seheron originally. This is partially due to The Iron Bull's influence, I hyperfixated pretty hard during Inquisition.

Lana's one of many in that shitshow of a war-torn nation, probably made exceptionally worse now that the Antaam's separated from the Qun. Bioware give us more world politics and lore.

Their story is pretty straight to the point, and very DA2 and DAO inspired. In the endless war between Tevinter and the Qunari, some magister decided that a feral elf child from Seheron would make an excellent gift, and kidnapped them. Lana (a la Anders vibes) stubbornly refused to give their birthname, and was renamed by another elven slave aboard the ship.

This slaver ship got sunk before it could make it to port, and Lana was one of the ones that survived.

Through sheer luck, they made it to Antiva, and barely scraping by, made it to sixteen years of age.

And then a young Viago fell out of a window directly on top of them trying to escape someone inevitably trying to kill him, and a friendship was formed.

Lana stayed glued to his side since then, being his loyal shadow, until the Crows gave up trying to separate the two and just recruited Lana instead.

Viago's "canonically" (via datamined information) 32ish, so there's only a three year difference, making them have an incredibly strong rapport.

As a result of their childhood, Lana speaks fluent Qunlat and Antivan, and a handful of Tevene. This means the Crows send them to deal with the Antaam when needs must.

What happens if Lana doesn't become Rook/doesn't romance Lucanis:

It takes an incredibly long time, but Teia and Viago eventually get Lana into their bed (and into their hearts). Lana remains Viago's shadow, and helps Taash guide those who choose to split from the Antaam into better lives. Also helps deal with the sudden influx of Tal-Vashoth in Antiva. Even after the Antaam, you know population statistics are going to drastically change.

Other OCs Lana knows: Kaarash-Taar (later documented), Ghil'danan (later documented), Wren (later documented), and Riesel (later documented).

Ghil'danan Ingellvar (he/him, ftm)

My favorite punching bag. Idk why I love traumatizing him specifically so much, but I do. I've written considerably more for him than I have my other OCs, and I'm almost done with my playthrough of him. And by almost I mean like. Post the two dragon fight.

🪲Stats🪲

Age: 32

Race: Elf, alienage

Faction: Mourn Watch! My favorite goths.

Class: Warrior, sword and shield

Specialization: Reaper. It made sense for Mourn Watch. Surprisingly, not my favorite, though the death tornado is cool.

Romance: Emmrich, my beloved. I keep wanting to spell it "Emmerich". Old classy goth x Grungepunk goth energy. Sorry, dad.

Birthplace: Denerim! *Rubs hands together evilly*

Backstory:

I'll...try and keep this one short. I've been hyperfixating on him lately so his stuff's gotten out of control.

Ghil was born in the Denerim alienage, pre-blight. Raised briefly by his mother, he wasn't born Ghil'danan, it was the name he took later on.

Ghil's father was out of the picture from the start. His mother shared stories of his father growing up, so he's aware neither of them wanted to part, but there was a lot of baggage and kids learn young not to press on things that make their parents cry later.

Fast forward to the events of DA:O.

Ghil is more or less raised with Shanni as a sort of sister figure. Events begin steamrolling, his mother is one of the elves sold to Tevinter by Loghain (when I catch you Loghain Loghain when I catch you), and he's witness to all the horror of The Wedding. Those of you who played City Elf origin know what I'm talking about.

Ghil develops a hatred of Shems (he gets better, but those scars run deep, and I don't blame him), and things get dicey with Shanni. I'm tiptoeing around it because origins was very direct with Shanni's alcoholism.

The blight hits, the Alienage gets overrun, and Ghil flees. He loses Shanni in the chaos, and gets temporarily picked up and thrown into a tree by the overhead Archdemon, therefore cementing his fear of dragons and heights.

He obviously survives the fall, and runs past a human girl pinned in place by an ogre that was killed by a piece of fallen rubble.

He hesitates. Remembers that his mother would have wanted him to be kind to those in need, and with a LOT of effort, saves the girl.

They flee the city together. He learns her name is Wren, an orphan. Ghil is twelve as of the fall of Denerim. Wren is seven.

I'm not gonna get into the more mary sue aspects of Ghil's personality, but needless to say, it turns out Wren has the blight, Ghil willingly makes a deal with a spirit to transfer his brand spanking new magic to her to postpone her blighted condition, and they make it into Nevarra by sneaking through the Orlesian border. This is not easy, but they're children so it's easy...er. Easier.

Mourn Watch goes "hey that's some interesting magic you've got there" and takes Wren in who's like "hey fuck you take my brother too" and they're like "these two are definitely not related but okay"

And then they attend schooling together, until a few years later when Wren's condition begins to worsen again, because it's the BLIGHT, and she gets recruited into the Wardens.

This is where Wren and Ghil's paths split. More later on Wren. For now, my punching bag.

With Ghil's genius, fierce sister out of the way, he gets bullied RELENTLESSLY. Ghil's a smart cookie, but his grades begin to drop and he fully introverts.

Then, Hezenkoss takes him in as her student. Sort of. He's technically her student, but moreso she wanted a henchman to narrate at, and he got stuck doing a lot of manual labor.

Hezenkoss gets him trained up as a Reaper, especially as he shoots up like a weed and becomes The Second Tallest Elf Ever (I'm looking at you, Halsin Baldurs Gate 3), and transitions. Hezenkoss doesn't notice. He's not her Archnemesis Emmrich, so she doesn't care.

She also doesn't notice when he anonymously tips off the Mourn Watch that she's up to shit. Someone had to be the whistleblower, that's all I'm saying.

And from there, he graduates into a proper member of the Mourn Watch.

After a chance encounter with Professor Volkarin in the Memorial Gardens (with the tissue box, a la Clue), Volkarin comforts a grieving eighteen year old who has incredibly complicated feelings about the death of Shanni and being completely alone in the Mourn Watch.

Volkarin is unaware that this not only revives passion in the Mourn Watch in the Youth (this is actually pre-transition, oops), but plants the seeds of a budding affection.

Ghil then spends the next fourteen years trying to forget his first crush, fails miserably, wrecks several relationships in the process, and changes completely by getting tattoos and pretty much only ever hanging out with the dead.

And Myrna and Vorgoth.

Then the events of the game happen, and oh no! Guess there are Still Feelings for Volkarin, and now Ghil is helpless to fall head over heels in a proper, adult love.

What happens if Ghil isn't Rook/doesn't romance Emmrich?:

Let's be honest. Ghil would always romance Emmrich. But in the course of "never became Rook and Emmrich old man yaoi'd with Strife", it's...hm. A bit sad.

Wren dies in the end (unless she's Rook). So Ghil fully closes off to the living, and spends the rest of his life with the dead. He still has a living friend in Lana, of course (to be explained in Wren's backstory), but that's the most of it. I'd like to hope that Ghil falls in love with someone else. Do I, the writer, think he will? No. Ghil has been spending fourteen years trying to fight his own heart. He's one of those people who wants to move on but just can't. It's the inherent tragedy of his life.

Where the hell is Ghil's dad in all this?:

He's one of the Greater Dead. Literally cannot leave the Necropolis, got the love of his life pregnant and kicked it. Ghil has no idea, and Etheldredd also has no idea that his child is a part of the Mourn Watch.

The Necropolis is vast. Maybe they'll find each other posthumously.

Other OCs Ghil knows:

Lana, Wren (to be documented, but also duh), Riesel (to be documented). Very vaguely Din, a HoF OC, because she was at The Wedding and lived in the same alienage.

Wren (she/they)

She's baby and I love her. Too bad I'm addicted to the inherent tragedy of the plot. I'm not goth for nothing.

🦅Stats🦅

Age: 27

Race: Human!

Faction: Grey Wardens, my favorite narrative punching bag. Or Bioware's, besides the elves.

Class: Mage, whackin' stick staff.

Specialization: Death Caller! I haven't played it yet but I plan to for her playthrough. Seemed appropriate.

Romance: Undecided. Maybe Bellara, because Neve's already planned for someone else and I managed to make Harding disapprove of me A LOT in the beginning of my Wren Run.

Taash is also definitely on the table. As I said, undecided.

Birthplace: Denerim! Same as Ghil.

Backstory:

The majority of Wren's early childhood can be referenced in Ghil's long-winded backstory. So this'll hopefully be shorter.

Wren was the illicit bastard of a Chantry sister and a Templar. Thus, she got dropped off on the orphanage's steps and summarily forgotten.

Despite this, Wren had a pretty happy childhood! Sure there was the occasional haunting and blood magic and slew of murders in Denerim, but that's pretty normal.

...right?

She knows who her father is, simply because his conscience is more guilty than her mother's. Her father stopped by to check up on the orphanage regularly on his circuit, and she often got cheap gifts from a father who was rarely there.

Still, she dreamed of being a Templar when she grew up.

Flash forward, Denerim, the Blight, everyone dies, and she finds a brother in Ghil'danan.

For a while, Wren remains one of the top students in the Mourn Watch. She grows up, attends lectures by Volkarin who becomes a mentor figure to her, and perfects her magecraft.

And then, her blight symptoms get worse.

Wren collapses on her way to class, and is found by a Grey Warden, who offers to recruit her and stay the Blight's hand a while longer.

She agrees. (This is where her particular backstory gets a fuckton of content warnings, so I'm going to keep it light. To be blunt, my OCs are often a dumping ground for trauma, and Wren got a lot of the heavier ones. Trigger warning for grooming and abuse. There'll be red text like this when trigger warnings are over.)

Wren is trained specifically by one Warden, the one who saved her. He's an older Weisshaupt veteran who's well-respected, and encourages her as she grows.

And when she turns eighteen, he tells her that due to her young age, it could reflect poorly on him that he made her do the Joining so young. He tells her that if she wants to remain a Grey Warden she'll marry him, and she owes him for it because he saves her life.

And for a few years, this works. She endures a very abusive relationship.

And then, Ghil finds out.

Because of her Warden husband's venerated status, he's hard to bring to justice, so Ghil just takes the swifter path.

He hires a Crow, a young one named Lana De Riva, and although they're reluctant when they find out it's a Warden that's the target, context for the hit makes them agree.

And together, they make it seem like an accident.

Wren's highly conflicted at first, but over time, settles into her new, freed role. She becomes a Warden librarian, for lack of a better term, and finds herself. She still keeps a low profile in the worries that someone will find out what her brother did, but remains relatively at peace even as her Calling slowly creeps closer.

What happens if Wren isn't Rook/doesn't romance anyone?:

Well, Wren's a strong independent nonbinary who don't need no man, but she's also got the constitution of wet paper in a typhoon. So when she's not Rook, she participates in Weisshaupt. While she survives, the aftereffects of adding more blight to her system is what eventually does her in, much to Ghil's grief.

I like to think she becomes a spirit of Kindness or Joy. Or good ol' fashioned Wisdom.

Did the Templar father make it?:

If he did I'd make him kick it at Therinfal Redoubt. But no he doesn't. Wren still has his Templar cloak that he gave her, once. She's got mixed feelings on her father.

OCs that Wren knows: Ghil (duh), and Lana.

In the circumstances where she dies, Lana and Ghil pull a favor with Riesel to get her HoF father to accompany Wren to the Deep Roads, as he's her idol and an uncorrupted part of the Wardens. So technically, she meets Lithe Surana, my DA:O OC and canon HoF.

Kaarash-Taar (he/him)

Finally, a bulwark of maturity and a breath of fresh air in the Trauma Squad. I'm very excited to play Kaarash in a later playthrough. Because I've been focused on the Traumatized Three, I haven't given too much thought to him yet. Just basic sketches of ideas.

🐍Stats🐍

Age: 31

Race: Qunari, Vashoth

Faction: Shadow Dragons

Class: Warrior, two-handed

Specialization: Slayer, I think! Give me back Reaver, Bioware.

Romance: Neve. Honestly bc I'm a gay transman I almost never go for the female LIs, but Neve... she's cool as hell. I wanna see what she's like. Incidentally when I made Kaarash I forgot Neve belonged to the Shadow Dragons factions LMAO

Birthplace: he doesn't know! Most of his young life was spent at sea.

Backstory:

Kaarash-Taar is an orphan, picked up by an old Tal-Vashoth sailor nicknamed Beres.

Beres, who grew up under the Qun, did what any ex-beresaad would do - drag the kid onto his Captain's ship and teach him the ways of the world and the Qun.

Ironically, this happened to be Isabela's ship.

Beres was a part of Isabela's old crew, pre DA2 events. He heavily respected his captain, and expected the same of his adoptive son.

When Isabela's ship was wrecked in the reefs, Beres and his young son survived, being taken aboard a ship while adrift at sea.

This was seen as a miracle, until they learned it was a slaver's ship, and the two were supposed to be cargo.

That didn't go to plan. Years of work as Beresaad and then with Isabela made Beres a wickedly sharp warrior, and Kaarash was much the same way. They managed to corral the slaves, enact a plan to overthrow the slavers, and successfully executed it, taking over the ship.

For the first time, Beres was a captain, and for nearly ten years Kaarash stayed by his father's side.

Later, when it turned out Isabela was alive, Beres joined his crew to hers and went back under her captaincy. But by this point, Kaarash was a young adult and hotblooded, feeling the energy of the revolutions happening around him.

Around this time he separated from them, drifting from place to place, helping refugees and freeing slaves. Around this time, he met Riesel, a young elven woman with an impressive family legacy, and decided to travel together in search of like-minded people.

Eventually, they found it in the Shadow Dragons.

While Beres doesn't necessarily agree with his son's revolutionary actions (he thinks it'll get Kaarash killed), he reluctantly supports his son nonetheless. After all, Kaarash has proven time and time again to be a tactical leader, and as time passed on, cool-headed under pressure.

What if Kaarash doesn't become Rook/doesn't romance anyone?:

He's still fighting with the Shadow Dragons. Maybe he'll romance Hal or something, that guy's fried fish does seem like it's worth being a little gay for.

OCs he knows: Riesel, Lana. Technically he knows Ghil, but like. Distantly. They don't talk, really, but they get along well enough.

Riesel (she/they/doesn't care)

Riesel's actually the oldest in terms of how long she's been in my brain for! I made her back in 2018, when I played Dragon Age Origins for the first time. She was baby then. Now, like many of us who did the math and realized our Wardens' children are grown adults in Veilguard, she's a fully fleshed out OC.

She's also probably the only one I'm not going to do a playthrough for, because....well, maybe. Idk. We'll see.

🐍Stats🐍

Age: 28ish

Race: Elf (non-Dalish)

Faction: Shadow Dragons

Class: Rogue, stabby

Specialization: Duelist! It looks incredibly fun and fits her backstory.

Romance: If she absolutely had to romance someone from the party, it would be Davrin, I think. He's got his shit mostly....together.....and Emmrich's too old for her tastes.

Otherwise she'd romance, idk, the Viper or something. Or Tarquin AND the Viper, which would drive her father to an early Calling.

Birthplace: Amaranthine City. For those of you who played Dragon Age: Awakening, you know where this is going. Probably.

Backstory:

*cracks knuckles excitedly*

Riesel was born to two loving, wonderful elven parents doing their best in an arling that hates elves. Like most of Ferelden. And the rest of Thedas, unless you're Bioware and suddenly pretend that the racism from your last three games doesn't exist.

And then, her parents died in the assault on Amaranthine city.

She was left wandering the rubble, crying loudly and dragging along a stuffed nug, until some tall man in shiny armor came and picked her up and tried to help her locate her family.

And he did, but they were in less than stellar condition, so he said "I guess you're mine now" and swept her away.

His husband, the ex-Crow, was exasperated but too smitten with his new spouse to tell his darling Warden "no".

(but really, Zevran did actually want to take care of her as much as Lithe Surana did.)

And so the pair raised their little girl lovingly. Riesel grew up fluent in Orlesian and Antivan, learned to throw knives, and sneak around so that her fathers didn't know what she was getting into.

(They did, but only interrupted when it was actually dangerous.)

Over time she learned a few rules.

1. Never be a Crow, Marry a Crow, or Hire a Crow. Fuck them Crows.

2. No joining the Grey Wardens. There are no griffons, and it'll make your uncle Alistair really sad.

These truths were ingrained in Riesel, and eventually she grew up to be a relatively responsible and level-headed adult. Who wanted to be a Grey Warden, but wasn't allowed to, so she settled for the next best thing.

The Friends of Red Jenny. This is who she was with before she met her best friend Kaarash-Taar.

Together, they traveled together to try and help people while her dads were away trying to cure the Blight, and eventually the pair joined the Shadow Dragons together, remaining a bombastic dynamic duo.

What happens if she doesn't become Rook/doesn't romance anyone?:

Romance is dead, or will be shortly, if Zevran has anything to say about his precious baby's relationships. Also Riesel doesn't care. Regardless, she's off saving people with the Shadow Dragons and doing things that will definitely send her parents to an early grave.

OCs she knows: Lana, Kaarash-Taar, Ghil, and Wren if Wren goes through the Calling.

TEMPLATE IN CASE YOU WANNA WRITE YOUR OC SHENANIGANS

Name:

Age:

Race:

Faction:

Class:

Specialization:

Romance:

Birthplace:

Backstory:

What happens if [pronouns] doesn't become Rook/doesn't romance someone?:

Other OCs they have connections to:

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Anyway, that's it for this humongous OC dump! I hope you enjoyed, and if you use the template, feel free to tag me in it! I love hearing about people's OCs.

Have a good night, and happy Dragon Age!

[rikiflowers]

lost times

pride and prejudice go hand in hand when you're in love. Qifrey was full of it, but you love him nonetheless.

a Qifrey (Witch Hat Atelier) x you story, part 1, 3,393 words

warnings: smut in the next chapters

i hope you'll like it haha. My hyperfixation on Qifrey is very strong atm.

chapter 2, chapter 3

...

News of Qifrey's stay at the Assembly is circulating, faster than intended. The "problem child" is back again, as they whispered to each other. Your heart was racing as you walk down the aisles. Let your father be damned for not telling you. Who knows how long he has been here. He is probably asleep in the doctor's area, as his injuries are more serious than expected. You literally run, ignoring the looks of others.

How long has it been since you last saw him? Too long.

You open the double doors to the medicine tower and immediately a nurse comes to meet you. With a look, you indicate to her to be quiet. She immediately recognized who you were and let you go. You have your goal clearly in mind. You want to make sure he's okay.

"Where can I find Qifrey?" you address the nurse you just sped past. "Down the corridor, at the very back right." You nod to her before continuing on your way. When you arrive in front of the room in question, doubts arise in you and you pause. Is it wrong to visit him? Did he even want to see you if he was awake? Questions are buzzing around in your head that you won't find answers to if you don't go into that room and experience it for yourself. Carefully you knock on the door and after a short wait, you step inside. A familiar face comes into your field of vision.

"Olu."

"I haven't seen you in a long time," he replies back. He sits on a chair by the window. His face looks tired and sunken. Clear concern is evident in his facial features. Immediately your gaze falls on the sleeping figure on the bed. His white hair covered almost his entire face and the many bandages envelop his body almost completely. "Who did that?" you breathe close to tears.

"Brimhats."

The name seems like a punch in the stomach. You feel like you've been thrown back several years. His urge for revenge was immeasurable at the time. "If it hadn't been for his student Coco... it would have been even worse for him."

Coco. He had students. That's what Beldaruit told you back then. It makes you happy that someone like him has found his purpose. He shares his warmth with the kids. "Then I guess I'll have to express my thanks to Coco personally."

Olruggio nodded with a smile. Together they look at the sleeping Qifrey. Back then, they had been a team. Always together. And now there is hardly anything left of it. You feel how it tingled inside you. You have the urge to touch him; To make sure that it is really him in front of you and not just an illusion. But you can only stand to the side and look down on him. With a heavy heart, you detach yourself from the sight of him. "Don't tell him that I was there," you say to the black-haired man with a heavy heart.

"Are you sure?"

You're sure. You just wanted to make sure that he was alive. Everything else is null and void. "You desperately need a little more sleep, Olu."

"I can say the same to you," he replies ironically. You just smile.

"Take care, Olruggio."

…

too many years ago

"So students. Today's exercises are intended to prepare you for different vegetations." You only listen to the professor with half an ear, because today the teaching situation is different than usual. The students of some of the professors in the Assembly will attend these lessons together. This includes Qifrey, who is usually always hidden at your father's side. You give the white-haired man furtive glances, hoping you're not too flashy (you're too flashy). Olruggio is standing next to Qifrey and he is looking over at you at that very moment. You quickly avert your gaze and feel the blush on your cheeks, which always does what it wants. Even in the most inopportune moments. They saw how you look at him. Embarrassing.

"Why are you so red?" jokes your friend next to you and nudges you even harder than intended, so that you lose your balance. Strong hands hold your shoulder and prevent you from falling backward.

Black long hair appears in your range. "Easthies... Thank you," you say absent-mindedly and straighten up. The closeness to him is a bit too much for you. He smiles slightly and nods at you.

"He likes you," she whispers in your ear and you dismiss this instantly. "He's just my protector.", you tell her with a grumble, because it’s not something you enjoy.

"If that's what you mean," she says more than ambiguously, which you ignore. "Let's focus on the task now," you hiss at her.

"Killjoy," you hear her grumble and you just grin crookedly.

"The task today will be a bit more difficult. You are in the territory of wild animals. You are the invaders and you have to know how to behave. Find the following herbs on your parchment, which you must find in this area. Gather in groups. Your bracelet shines in a certain color that brings you together."

Immediately, your gaze snaps to your friend's bracelet. Hers glow in radiant yellow, while yours glow purple. You are both sulking. "I'll see you later..." you tell her and squeeze her tightly. In the hustle and bustle, you have to look around.

Now all you have to do is look around to see who your partners are. Immediately you feel hot and cold at the same time. Qifreys and your gaze meet at the same time and then on the bright purple bracelets. What a twist of fate.

Easthies appears next to you. Of course, with the same colored bracelet. Two others appear next to you. You introduce yourself, not missing the reluctant glances of the other two in the direction of Qifrey. Easthies next to you also only mutters to the white-haired man, who does the same as the cool gesture.

That can only go wrong and you should be right.

"Stop treating us like inferior witches!"

The two group members, whose names you have long forgotten, are at their wit's end. While you try to find the special herbs together and not draw any animal's attention to you, the others throw everything overboard. "Guys... please be quiet," you try again, but you fall on deaf ears.

"Tell that to the conceited shit. It is only because he is Beldaruit's pupil that he has so many privileges."

"And what kind of privileges would those be? You're only here because you come from big witch families. You haven't done a bit, you snobs."

"Say that again and I swear to you-" The taller of the two suddenly grabs Qifrey and holds him by the collar in the air. "Stop it!", you try again. Easthies next to you stood unimpressed next to it and seems to find the whole thing very amusing. "Help him," you ask the black-haired man, but he just shrugs his shoulders. "It's quite pleasant to see him like this." Hearing that from his mouth makes you tremendously angry. You turn away from him and try to intervene. Too late.

Qifrey was thrown into the lake.

"What the hell?" you blurt out angrily and push your laughing colleagues aside. "It's just a little water."

"And why doesn't he come up again?" you ask with a pounding heart. You wait a few seconds and nothing happens. Couldn't the white-haired man swim? Your body is acting faster than your brain at this moment. You jump in, feel the icy cold of the water. Your eyes burn as you open them to look for him.

You can see white hair that is slowly sinking. With all your strength you swim to him and realize that he is unconscious. Just like that, you can grab his hand and pull him to you. You can't hold your breath for long. You quickly try to bring yourself to the surface of the water. If it weren't for the sudden burning pain that spread through your body and the sudden blood pouring out of your arm. A large water snake has snapped at you and is trying again. Adrenaline pumps through your body as you use all your strength to swim faster. You've made it right away. Your legs suddenly become numb. The poison of the snake.

You have to make it, but your body is now working against you, pulling you back into the abyss. Someone else pulls on you. It is Easthies who jumped into the lake. As your head emerges above the surface of the water, you take the deepest breath of your life before Easthies pulls you and Qifrey out of the water. You cough while you see the lifeless body of the white-haired man. "Are you crazy?" you hear Easthie's barking voice, but you don't care. "He needs first aid," you just say, before you heave yourself to him with the last of your strength. Your legs are not working right now.

"I called for reinforcements."

"Hell, He needs help!" you yell at your protector, who suddenly becomes quiet due to your outburst. You try to revive him. Right now, you don't seem to care at all that you press your lips on his to ventilate him. The adrenaline displaces every other thought, except to keep it alive. "Qifrey... please," you pray to the white-haired man. You haven't even told him what you feel yet. He must not die. He can’t die. "Wake up, you fucking idiot!" you shout again and again between attempts.

The witch seems to have heard you. After the nth attempt, he starts coughing and you hold his head to the side so that he can get rid of the water in his lungs. You cry with relief before you lose consciousness due to the poison in your body.

…

You wake up with the worst migraine you've had in a long time. Your eyes have to get used to the bright environment, but then you realize that you are in the hospital wing. "You're awake...", you hear a familiar voice. Easthies stands next to you and looks down at you with relief. The memories before you fainted come back to your mind. Easthies didn't want to help you help Qifrey. "Why are you here?" you ask coolly, feeling how dry your throat is. You are not the mistress of your body right now, because you want to grab your neck, but your hand only comes very slowly to the said place. Everything plays out as if in slow motion.

"I have the mission to protect you," he replies as a matter of course, which makes you snort. "You really did an excellent job," you reply sarcastically. If he had helped you right away, you probably wouldn't be in this situation and the black-haired man knew that. You can see it in his suffering look in his eyes.

"Is Qifrey okay?"

He just nods. That's enough for you. That was your goal, to save him. Your feelings for him have been confirmed. You are in love with the white-haired man. You never wanted to see it, but the moment he was close to death, you realized it.

"I'll have your father called. He was quite sick with worry."

Easthies walks out of the room, which is pleasant to you. You can't stand this guilty look that literally crushes you.

After a short time, your father floats into the hospital room. His face looks sunken and exhausted. He probably didn't sleep much. "my little daughter"

"Hello father... How long was I gone?"

"Three days. Three whole days in which I was sick with worry," he speaks theatrically and strokes your forehead lovingly. "Easthies told me what happened. That was very brave, but also stupid of you, my little one."

"Nobody wanted to help me. Should I let him die?"

"Of course not..." Beldaruit murmured. The two witches have been suspended for the time being. And you and Qifrey get to repeat the task again."

You nod.

"But only when you are completely healed again. The poison has spread almost all over your body. So you still have to stay in bed."

You just grumble. "Will I get at least a few books?"

"but of course" bright laughter can be heard. "I had some sent for right away."

"Thank you, father."

Beldaruit pulls out pastries from under his curtain. "Eat quickly before the nurses see it," he says imploringly and hands you the sweets. Your favorite variety. You accept it gratefully. For a moment, you forget the white-haired man and your confusing feelings.

Qifrey sits in his room at the same time, staring at the bare wall in front of him. He should visit you, but how can he do that when your guard dog sends him away and he doesn't know how to thank you properly. It's confusing for him. You are the daughter of his teacher, who has always been in the background. He shouldn't really be interested in you and yet he does. He always notices your gaze, which is often on him and the white-haired man always wonders why. Why should you look at him like that? It's hair-pulling that he wastes too much thought on you. You saved him and almost died in the process. His heart pulls slightly at this thought. He has to thank you. Qifrey just has to find the right time.

He didn't find the right time. Two months have passed. Now he is standing here to catch up on the task. With you. And you don't even look at him. Qifrey screwed up, he knows that. He doesn't like the way his heart beats unusually fast when he looks at your side profile.

"I think we should start here and then work our way from there-"

Qifrey doesn't listen to your explanation in a harsh tone. He is spellbound by your lips, which make these sounds. He has always thought you are beautiful, but now he realized how much.

"Did you even listen to me?" Your voice knocks him out of his thoughts. You look at him angrily and he notices how his ears glow. "Sorry"

You just roll your eyes. "Whatever," you reply and start all over again, skillfully ignoring the fact that he has been staring at you intensely until just now and that you ignore with all your might that your cheeks betray you.

You just want to get it over with and avoid the white-haired ones as much as possible (an impossible task).

You are too good. Far too quickly you both find one medicinal plant after the other and you even manage to talk to him at a minimum. Your vocabulary is limited to yes and no. He doesn't deserve more from you either.

Until you get to the place where Qifrey and you almost drowned. You feel your fast heartbeat and turn to him. He looks at the spot, his entire body seems to be stuck. "Hey...", you speak to him carefully, but he doesn't seem to hear you.

You take a step towards him. Still no movement in his body.

"Qifrey..."

Again, no answer. Suddenly the white-haired man starts to tremble. Your body acts too fast, because your hand rests on its shoulder. He flinches and looks at you with wide eyes. "Sorry, I didn't want to..." You take your hand away again.

"You almost died because of me."

You are frightened by his sudden words. "You almost died because of those assholes"

"You are Beldaruit's daughter..."

"Are you saying that just because I'm his daughter, my life is worth more than yours?" This is a rhetorical question to which there should be no answer because it is so absurd.

"Do you look down on me like that?" No answer. Silence is answer enough for you. "When we're done here, never look at me again." Full of pain, you literally spit it at him and turn away. You hold back the tears with all your might.

Qifrey grabs your wrist and pulls you back. "That will be impossible for me"

"And why?" The skin tingles where Qifrey's hand lies.

You don't get an answer. Instead, soft lips land on yours. Clumsily and much too quickly this kiss passes and with big eyes you look at the white-haired man, who seems very uncomfortable with the whole thing. With an exploding heart, you overcome the distance to him and pull the witch towards you. You are more demanding because for far too long you could only think about such a situation in your dreams. Qifrey's shock seems to be over as his hand rests gently on your cheek as your hands wander to the back of his neck. You have no idea what you're doing, but you hope it's good.

Your head is suddenly empty. Only his lips and the warmth occupy all your senses. You separate from each other far too quickly; Your breath mixes forehead to forehead. You just can't believe it. Qifrey kissed you first. Your dream has come true.

Shyly, you raise your eyes and realize that he has been looking at you for a long time. At the tender fifteen, Qifrey stole your first kiss.

-

You can see Qifrey's students scurrying around the hallways. A smile forms on the lips. Beldaruit told you about his plan and you could only shake your head about it. Your father is simply incorrigible. You're curious to see what ideas the girls come up with.

You are so lost in thought that you notice too late how someone runs into you. It's Coco. You can just grab it so that it doesn't fall down. "Oh, excuse me... I didn't look where I was going."

"Everything okay! I didn't really pay attention either..." You see the girl taking what looks like a piece of Danish pastries on the floor with pouting lips.

"Oh, I'm sorry..." you say. How about I give you a new piece of this, Coco?"

"Oh, you know my name?", the younger one asks carefully. 

"I belong to the Assembly and I am an acquaintance of your professor. So, what do you say?" You want to have a little chat with his student, so you don't want to make the impression that you're a complete stranger. (Even if you are to an extent).

"Really, you would do that?"

"Of course, after all, I am also partly to blame for the fact that the good piece landed on the floor."

"If it doesn't make a fuss.", considers the young witch.

"It doesn’t," you assure the green-haired girl.

The two of you make your way to the kitchen to get hold of another piece of the pastry. You're in luck. You could give the last piece to the young witch.

"How long have you known Pofessor Qifrey?" she asks you with powdered sugar on her mouth. You sat down in the garden. You drink your favorite tea while the wind blows gently through your hair.

"A very long time. We studied together and I know a lot of embarrassing stories from your professor," you giggle as you think of the countless memories that wander through your head. "Can you tell me some?" Her eyes literally shine. It makes your heart beat faster. "I can tell you one, but don't tell your professor," you say conspiratorially. "I won't!"So while you tell Coco an anecdote from your childhood days, you feel how warm your heart was. "You're very brave, Coco."

The girl looks at you in amazement. "... that you fearlessly threw yourself in front of your professor... I admire your courage"

"Professor Qifrey scolded me a bit for that."

"Probably because he was worried about you... you're his pupil, after all."

Coco nods. "I hope he will be completely healthy again." Your heart contracts easily. "I hope so too..."

...

After your short meeting with Coco, you sit in your chamber in the evening and get ready for bed. You feel the exhaustion literally take over your body. Your thoughts circle around the white-haired man again and you feel like you've been transported back to your childhood. At that time, the peer was constantly in your head.

Nothing has changed...

[watchful-gays]

After like 1,5 years my hyperfixation on tma has ended.

Also I've only just now decided to post about it. (Partially in an effort to get over my digital social anxiety.) Bad timing, but oh well.

So here's some info on me & what you'll find on this blog :)

Be warned, spoilers for the entirety of tma lie ahead. I'll try and tag them but it gets a bit much sometimes

My fav character is Jonah so likely most of the posts will be about him. I have loads of thoughts and very strong opinions on him, most of then affectionate.

I'll probably post some small analysis on writing, themes and characters whenever I feel like it

Will def reblog lots of fanart! So many talented and creative people in this fandom :)

Will post about some other podcasts, whatever I'm listening to atm, though this will stay mainly a tma blog

So yea! That's this blog.

Much love to anyone who read this, have a wonderful day/night <3 may the horrors of life treat you kindly.

[sunlikesdrawing]

What is a yap if not an essay straight from the heart am I right

OKOK LETS START IN ORDER, FIRST OF ALL THE COSTUME AAAHHHHH THAT IS SO COOL AAAHHHHHHAHAHAHHHHH

Where I live it's not that common to celebrate halloween (it's not even fall in october, it literally happens in the middle of spring lmao), so I usually don't even remember it's coming, bUT IMAGINE WALKING DOWN THE STREET WEARING FAROFF COSPLAY THAT WOULD BE SO SICK AAAHHHHH

Moving on from that, I'm actually making a faroff playlist of my own, cause there was one someone made on spotify but there were a bunch of songs I really liked for them that weren't in it and some that were that didn't feel that fitting, so I decided to just do my own thing lol

I think my personal hc for Fenn's music taste (more particularly for modern AU Fenn) would be A LOT of classical music for studying (just like me fr), and then he'd also say he doesn't like pop music but he'd secretly love it, especially stuff from the 70s, 80s and 90s. Idk, just saying, just a silly idea, just having a little fun with it, maybe yes maybe not

Oh and since we're talking about other personal interests, I'd actually like to mention lately I've been hyperfixating a lot over Sherlock Holmes, to the point I have gathered fairly extensive physical descriptions from things mentioned in the books to make my own Sherlock Holmes designs. If you'll allow me to yap about this a little bit, actually, one thing I'd like to mention about it is that in the first ACD book (A Study in Scarlet), there is a small detail said about Sherlock when Watson first sees him, and I quote: "He held out his hand as he spoke, and I noticed that it was all mottled over with similar pieces of plaster, and discoloured with strong acids." Turns out, after some research, that this discoloration might actually be a condition called chemical leukoderma, which is the loss of skin color following the contact with chemical substances that destroy the melanocytes (skin pigment cells) on your skin. TO KEEP IT SIMPLE, IT LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE VITILIGO BUT IT'S CHEMICALLY INDUCED INSTEAD OF GENETIC AND I THINK IT'S CRAZY THAT NOT A SINGLE SHERLOCK HOLMES ADAPTATION HAS HAD THAT IN CONSIDERATION CAUSE IT'S SUCH COOL DETAIL FOR CHARACTER DESIGN RAAAAAHH!!

Anyway, I apologize for the little (not so little) detour but I just had to say it. It's been on my mind for SO LONG. Moving back to faroff, I actually am working on a thing atm that I think you'll like, but I'm not talking about it just yet. It's probably gonna take a while anyway so you'll just have to be patient. There will be more faroff fanart coming soon tho☝️

Hi, it's midnight here, I'm in bed studying for a test and definitely don't have the mental capacity to think about what to post so just, idk, feel free to yap about whatever

[dead-scorpio]

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

Thanks for the tag! @he-is-so-fucking-cute 🥰

Three Ships

Okay, I'm gonna do three ships that I have at the moment, because I would be absolutely unable to do my top 3 ships of all time or whatever

1) Daemyra fro House of the Dragon. Literally can't with them, brainrot is real and strong and I love them (also Daemon/Rhaenyra/Laena 👀)

2) IronStrange, Marvel. I just like sarcastic geniuses together idk

3) Dream/Calliope/Hob from the Sandman. Idk, the fics are few but they were good enought for me to ship them. Even tho i dont find Dream very shippable and I generally prefer gen with him.

(Honorable mention to Celeborn/Galaderiel, because I could've had it it trop had Celeborn as anything more than an off hand mention 💀. No, seriously, he deserved more than that.)

First Ever Ship

Probably SasuNaru, at least from the time when I actually started to get into fandoms and knew what shipping even means.

Last Song

Dorak Gai by Wegz. I've been enjoying some Egyptian rap lately. Tho, it just as well could've been something by Sabaton. Dorak Gai just happened to be the last song I've heard today.

Last Movie

Hmmmm. I don't remember, tbh. I haven't been watching movies often lately. Batman maybe? I think I watched it in summer. But I can't remember if I saw any other movies after that. I watch TV series more often than movies 🤷‍♀️

Currently Reading

A whole bunch of HotD fics. That's about it tbh. Well, there are fics for some other fandoms too, but hotd is my hyperfixation atm, so yeah

Currently Watching

The Peripheral, I'm watching it with a friend, and it's going slow. I still have one episode of Wednesday left. That's about it 🤔

But I have a very long list of things to watch alone and with a friend, so there is that.

Currently Consuming

Well, I've already mentioned hotd. I've also being playing Fallout New Vegas a lot lately. I'd play Warframe too, but my laptop is dying and can't handle it 😭😭😭

Currently Craving

Hmmmm, motivation to draw. That would be very nice. Also, some cuddles. I always crave cuddles, I'm very touch starved 😔. A cat to pet would be nice too.

Tagging @drxgonstone @faraige @futureheartswithbooks @dubiousdisco and @rainbow-demon503

That's not 9 but eh. That'll do. Feel free to ignore it, of course

[tangled-cl0wn-core]

Where, besides Tumblr, can people find you doing fannish things? (Obviously only mention sites and usernames you actually want to be found at. Don’t expose your secret identities on my account.)

What other names have you gone by on these platforms, including Tumblr, if any?

When did you join the IT fandom? And what got you into fandom, to begin with?

What are your favorite ships, or characters, if any, and why? What do they mean to you?

In what ways do you participate in fandom? (ex. Posting memes, reblogging/commenting on content, writing fanfic, making fanart, creating fanmixes, etc.)

Do you have any in-fandom inspirations? Other members of the community that drive you? (And if you have the time/energy, in what ways do they inspire you?)

Name and link some of your favorite works, please!

Do you have any works of your own that you feel particularly proud of, or wish more people would’ve consumed? Please provide links if possible.

Have you ever participated in a fannish event (ie. IT Week, a fic Big Bang) or applied to be a part of a fanzine? If so, which ones, and can you please link them?

Without any form of bashing or lashing out, what is something you feel this fandom is missing?

 HI!! since you asked before sending it, I knew this was coming but my First Cool Guy Tumblr Ask is so neat,, anyway!!

This is my only IT-specific account, but I post almost everything I draw on my instagram, https://www.instagram.com/fabricsofteners/ (I don't know how people make links cool on tumblr aaa) I also have an AO3, https://archiveofourown.org/users/tangledheadphonecord , where I might post this one really long fic I’m working on (maybe not, as it’s super lame but God am I putting in work)? But mostly it’s just really old stuff atm, and no IT content right now - just some random drabbles from past hyperfixations tbh.

I used to be ‘fabricsofteners’ everywhere besides here - tangledheadphonecord is a username I used for my tumblr because I want a change from the fabricsofteners brand, as I've had it for quite a few years and have just grown kind of bored - just waiting a bit to change my instagram user. I also used to be ‘unbrandedmarkers’ like, three years ago on instagram? but, that era ended fast. I think I might have an old Tumblr under some variation of ‘fabric softener’ but honestly even if anything is up on it I’d probably be embarassed to look at it now.

I watched IT for the first time in 2019, I believe, but wasn’t really in the fandom until actually like, April of this year. I entered the fandom and developed a hyperfixation (sobs) by complete mistake - I read all the fics for michael mell/rich goranski on ao3, and was on a camping trip and wanted to read some Homosexual Fanfiction and literally remembered IT on a whim (rich-to-richie association) and read a bunch of Reddie fics, and it was all down (up?) hill from there.

Unshockingly, I’m sure, Reddie is my number one favourite IT ship. I’m also an enjoyer of Benverly, as well as Stanley/Patty - IT is like, the only fandom where I actually like the canon ships. I do also think Streddie/Stozier is really cute and Bill/Mike (unsure of the shipname?) is nice when I see it!! I think Reddis is cute because I am a total sucker for best-friends-to-lovers, as well asthe  ‘I tease everyone but mostly you’ and the ‘I’m so tired of you bullying me but if you ever stop I’ll cry’ and... just, the entire dynamic that they have. Stanley/Patty - there is no reasoning, I just want Stanley to be happy. Benverly - the way they were each other’s first Meaningful Interactions in so like?? agony, they’re so cute. They both deserve to be happy, and I’m so happy they find that happiness in each other. 

As for characters - Richie is absolutely my favourite. I (unfortunately /hj) kin and relate to him on so many levels it hurts. Having a character that feels that fear of their sexuality because of a horrible environment is painfully real. covering up struggles with humour and all that?? yeah, mood (also, crushing on your best friend-). What he means to me, in a sense, isn’t really canon - I read strictly fix-it fics, because I want to feel that hope that like fanon Richie, I don’t have to hide forever. I can be myself and be happy. Obviously I can’t much look to the movies or anything for that but hey - what’re Andy or Stephen gonna do, tell me to stop reading fics? 

I also really like Stanley!! I don’t,, have a reason. I just think he’s adorable and I love his dynamic with the other Losers a lot. Stanley breathed like, once, and instantly became a comfort character and not even I know why at this point, he just is. Eddie & Bev are up there, too - honestly, Bill is the only Loser I don’t have a strong attachment too. And honestly, he’s growing on me rapidly.

I mostly draw whatever my goblin hyperfixated brain can think of, as well as rebloging just about every post that I see and like (art, jokes, edits, fics, etc.) - I start and stop a lot of fics, maybe one day I’ll finish one but as of yet I have not... Sigh.

I honestly don’t think I do have anyone to tag for inspiration? I follow IT blogs but none I would go to for inspiration (no offense to any mutuals-) inspiration for me is mostly just seeing a pose and going ‘okay’ and suddenly I have a drawing - I have no clue what happens in between.

So, my current all-time favourite IT fic atm is https://archiveofourown.org/works/18213215/chapters/43087232, though I will say it’s a really heavy fic and to read with caution. Going away from Angst, any ‘famous Reddie’ AUs are amazing, but I constantly reread the entire https://archiveofourown.org/series/1560019 series. It’s cute and funny and I THRIVE for domestic Reddie content. 

Actually not Reddie, I throughly enjoyed https://archiveofourown.org/works/23201011 for giving me the Mike content the movies have robbed me of for too long, as well as https://archiveofourown.org/works/25262698 which is pure stanlon greatness and made my heart flutter for the boys more than once.

I don’t really have any IT fics up of my own creation, and honestly my reception in way of Tumblr notes is far better than I expected so honestly, I have none to link lol. As long as I get minimun interaction I will thrive.

I wish I could say I’ve been in anything like a zine or anything, but I have not! I’m relatively new to the fandom (and having a social media dedicated to one thing) so I wouldn’t even know where to begin to join or be qualified for one, y’know? I’ve done art weeks in the past and found them incredibly fun but haven’t seen any for IT - but if anyone does happen to know of any... Feel free to send them my way-

As for the last question - other than like, hyping up Chosen and Jeremy just as much as we do the other IT kids (which, honestly I’m not even sure if is still a problem - I’ve just seen posts about it and it’s made me wary), I’m not sure? I’ve honestly not encountered anything in the fandom I find awful and honestly, for a fandom about a movie that is... Well, IT, I’ve really just kind of enjoyed my time in the fandom thus far?

(I will say we need 200% more attention being drawn to 1990s adult Eddie Kaspbrak, who is one of the most beautiful men I have ever seen - but I also feel that way about James Ransone, so I’m not mad.)

(Also, we should be calling out the 1990s IT more, I watched it recently and it’s so bad /lh)

Anyway!! I feel like this answer was incredibly long and I am so sorry!! But like, thank you so much for asking me anything at all fihabsfhbafb I thrive at any chance to talk about the dumb clown movie. (Also, i’m sorry I say ‘honestly’ so much-)

[phd-in-horrible]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; MUN & MUSE - MEME.

FILL OUT & REPOST ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

STOLEN FROM TAGGED BY: @the-judge-of-bones 

TAGGING: You! Do theft! Do Crime!

MY MUSE IS:  canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO (but there really isn’t a fandom anymore so *shrugs*)

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK (personally no because he’s my son but yes)

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK (but he can take a car to the face...)

Are they underrated?  YES / NO / IDK (less that he’s underrated, but more people need to keep loving this movie!!!)

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO 

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG (god my son deserved better)

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO / IDK ( depends on the verse. Pre movie, no, but post movie yes)

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BADHORRIBLE/ NEUTRAL. (He has a Ph.D. in Horrible! Even though his landlady knows him as Billy, the lovely young science major downstairs who helps weed her garden.)

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON?  — I hope pretty well. The movie is amazing and honestly there isn’t much I’d change about Billy! The most I do is fill in the gaps between official content, and steal headcanons from amazing fanfics I find of AO3, haha. I might be playing Billy a little too soft, but l isten.. he’s my baby boy....

SELL YOUR MUSE! AKA TRY TO LIST EVERYTHING, WHICH MAKES YOUR MUSE INTERESTING IN YOUR OPINION TO MAKE THEM SPICY FOR YOUR MUTUALS.  —  Everyone’s a hero in their own way. Billy’s personal way of saving the world is tearing down the establishment and ruling over the anarchy. At least, he hopes that’s how it’ll go down after he gets into the Evil League of Evil. So do you like misguided anarchists who assume that they’re evil and randomly break out into song? Do you like socially adorkable geniuses who honestly just need a hug? Or conversely, do you love evil scientists that regret everything and desperately need sleep or a cup of coffee? If so, Billy buddy is the muse for you!

NOW THE OPPOSITE, LIST EVERYTHING WHY YOUR MUSE COULD NOT BE SO INTERESTING (EVEN IF YOU MAY NOT AGREE, WHAT DOES THE FANDOM PERHAPS THINK?).  —  Well, Billy can be hard to talk to sometimes, due to his weaker social skills. Plus, he is technically a villain, so he does crime. Billy can get very jealous very quickly when it comes to the people he likes (read:Penny,) and pretty gung ho about his political stances. Also, maybe people don’t like musicals.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?  —  After reading so many wonderful fanfictions of my son, and watching the movie 14 times in one week, how could I not? There are five stories that I especially contribute to  my current hyperfixation, all of which I HIGHLY suggest you read! They’re here, here, here, here, and here! If you like them as much as I do, please give the authors some love!

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION GOING?  —  I’m honestly not sure. Probably my hyperfixation, but also my burning desire to do my son the justice he deserves. So perhaps it’s out of spite so more people watch the movie, haha.

SOME MORE PERSONAL QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO / I SINCERELY HOPE I DO?

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO / SORT OF? ( There isn’t too much that I need to headcanon for him sice I’m pretty close to the source material, but I do have ideas about his background and the issues that he struggles with.)

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO (God help me, yes,)

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO / SORT OF?

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO ( hey, it is what it is. )

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO / SORTA.  (Eh, but that’s more on a personal issues thing. I’m pretty sure I have rejection sensitivity dysphoria, but I try my best to not let it get to me. In our day to day interactions, don’t worry about it! It’s my own issue and none of y’alls responsibility.)

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL?  — Well, I haven’t heard any yet since this blog is so young, but I’d assume so! 

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER?  — GOD PLEASE DO!!!! My son needs more love and I want to explore him in depth!

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?  — Eh, occasionally. But really, that sort of stuff doesn’t really matter to me. If anything, it’s fascinating to see their interpretation of the source material!

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOUR PORTRAYAL, HOW WOULD YOU TAKE IT?  — Well, I’d take in in stride. Besides, those people usually just don’t follow back, which is fair!

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT?  —  Well, I’d be a little annoyed. Some people have “hot takes” on Billy’s character that I strongly disagree with, but it’s their opinion on the matter, and I can’t change much.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PEOPLE POINTING OUT YOUR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS?  —Go ham, haha. Grammar typos don’t bug me as much since I generally have so few, but if it’s bugging you for a thread, let me know!

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN?   —  Some would say too much, haha.

[chaos---incarnate]

Self care tag list

I was tagged by @aceveria

🌿 Favorite comfort food: Sushi!! If I'm in any sort of bad mood just give me sushi and my mood will do a 180. My favorite is a local all you can eat restaurant chain, they have one that makes fun of Trump 👌

🌼 Favorite alcohol (or hot drink): I don't drink alcohol, and I don't really drink hot things often, I get hot too easily and I get really uncomfy when I'm too hot. If I had to choose tho it'd be coffee or tea.

🌷 Favorite relaxing activity: Hiking! Hiking is one of my favorite things to do in the world and just being out in the fucking woods relaxes me on a whole different level.

🌸 Favorite fluffy/feel good fic: I don't really read fanfics anymore, I'm just not hyperfixated with any fandom enough to have the attention span for them. I also just don't read fiction a lot, my favorite book atm is Death on Earth: Adventures in Evolution and Mortality by Jules Howard, it's really good, 10/10, would recommend.

🌻 Favorite calming scent: Petrichol, or just woodsy earthy scents in general, not too strong tho, I'm sensitive to smells and get migraines from them really easily. There's also this one soy candle Target sells called Cozy Nights, oo fuck I can burn through a 2 wick one in like 3 days.

🌺 Favorite relaxing or uplifting song: My music taste generally tends to be the opposite of relaxing, but if I wanna relax I'll listen to anything by Avi Kaplan. I also have 2 playlists that could be considered uplifting, one's for straight vibing and the other's for if you wanna get so hyped up you can overthrow the government, if you want either just shoot me a message 👀

🌵 Favorite white noise: I usually play Markiplier horror videos in the background when I'm doing something, anything else by him is too distracting for me because I wanna watch, but his voice is really calming and helps me focus :)

🍄 Favorite book to get lost in: I don't really get lost in books anymore,,,,, the last book I got my head stuck in and would never put down was LOTR Return of the King

💐 Favorite chill out show: I don't watch TV or Netflix really,,, if I'm depressed I'll play Bo Burnham and if I'm anxious I'll play John Mulaney or Round Planet if I have to use Netlfix. Though I'll usually go on youtube and watch Markiplier, Natewantstobattle, some sort of D&D show, or Jenna and Julen

🌹Best advice you've ever had: "Get comfortable being uncomfortable" I used to have a mentor who was like another dad to me, and the first piece of advice he gave me was this, I haven't forgotten it since. The whole point is, if you're comfortable, you'll never grow. You need to move on and be uncomfortable to become better.

Tagging @hannanodaa @sleepiehun @taycake-sandwitch @mystic-majestic you don't gotta do it if you don't wanna.

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ok i never liked an uchiha from their first appearance until i rewatched and got up to shisui’s first appearance. and then i may have fell in love anyways it’s so weird being invested in an anime again but this is my current form of escapism/hyperfixation and it’s solely based on nostalgia

during my rewatch and catchup off of where i left in shippuden i also freaking fell in love with lee???? and just like got really attached to team gai in general. i mean i always loved their episodes in the naruto filler eps too and i thought tenten was cool but then in this rewatch im like: i love team gai so much i would die for them. and idk how im going to watch neji die and how it affects team gai lmao

ALSO the tenten-centric fic i’m reading atm (kunoichi blossom) is not helping my cause. it’s just making me sad for what didn’t happen and what could have happened. and shisui just happens to be a character with a semi-central role towards the chapters it’s currently up to now (yes it’s still ongoing and hasn’t been updated since 2018 so jm praying for a miracle bc I have like 12 chapters left until I reach its current state)

ive grown to appreciate Sakura even more like way more. i think she’s neat and i was definitely too harsh on her and ino as a 10year old and even as a 14 year old. yikes but we unlearn shit and grow the fuck up folks

choji is one of my favourite characters??????!!?? hes just a genuine good boy man. love that about him. i would share my chips with him

naruto deserves the world and that arc before the fifth shinobi war countdown arc that i can’t remember the name of rn was one of the best arcs for naruto in terms of showcasing his character development and emotional depth

sasuke and naruto clearly have a strong bond. now idk what kind of starcrossed lovers or platonic bros, or whatever u wanna call it, dynamic they have but it makes me emo Ahahahaha bc they really are soulmates in every sense

i still don’t like the way sasuke’s character has (not) developed??? like i know he’s going to have a redemption arc but it’s just done so... lazily

pre-massacre sasuke is kinda adorable tho

ive always had a crush on kakashi, like from when i first watched naruto like 12 years ago to the year of our lord 2019. it’s never going to go away man

kisame can like... get it. i mean have u seen the shape of water?

speaking of the akatsuki tho - i used to find deidara cute and konan cool as hell but now it’s become kisame (Cute?) and konan (still cool and cute) still remains one of my faves although she left the entire story ???? what’s up with that ??

my strong dislike for kabuto and obito grew even stronger and yeah fuck oROACHimaru that snake bastard!

Still love the sand siblings with all my heart and wishing i could give gaara, a 2D dude, a kiss on the cheek idk man. also when they appeared towards the end of the sasuke retrieval arc - GOD WHAT AN ENTRANCE

also neji is so dumb pretty. i joked about liking him back in high school and now im suffering the consequences of that joke bc it came true

my feelings towards anko are still the same though: very gay admiration

i love shino for always talking about camaraderie and friendship. also, he’s such an Aquarius it makes me laugh

rock lee has 2.3 braincells but that’s okay because he has a heart of gold

ino seems like someone who’s really smart but purposely dumbs it down so that she doesn’t overshadow certain ppl?? idk man like i thinkshes really powerful in that HER MIND can do things like really compelling, controlling things jfc

hinata’s techniques were always the coolest to me and neji’s by association. honestly they can both palm strike me unconscious idc