#My Journey Through Grief

[gunstellations]

a little family

[verdemoth]

you don’t wanna know how many times i tried and failed to post this. i’ve typed this so many times. anyway i finished this Veils design! i probably had a plan for those embroidery panels when i first sketched them but that was over a year ago, and the sketches were ill defined so i had to guess at the shapes. They’re definitely meant to represent Veils’ other forms but i can’t give you more than that, alas the details have been lost to time and poor memory and poorer sketches. I have some alt lace colours below the cut

wait the white lace image keeps breaking and the black lace one duplicates. what if i put the white one here

wait the white lace image keeps breaking and the black lace one duplicates. what if i put the white one here

ok that seems to work. thanks tumblr.

edit: deleting the duplicate was a bad idea. i’m in post hell. load bearing duplicate image/text

[lychee-milk]

ali project released a 30th anniversary live edition of GOD DIVA and omg she still sounds amazing 😭

[bunnys-tales]

[tr4umaborn]

i accidentally went on a walk down memory lane in some documents from the two tumblr rpgs i was in before coming to indie and a few things i realized:

even 10 years ago (yeah y'all this was 2013/2014) i was writing really well. and more. god the things we developed and specifically ships UGH

i lost my dad in feb 2014 and i ended up having an awful fallout with a ship partner because we were both going through a LOT at the same time. unlike me now who has gone through a lot of growth since that moment, 22 year old just lost her dad bee made some serious mistakes in a conversation i must have saved bc i thought i'd need the receipts. if you ever aren't sure you've grown and changed, i promise you that you ARENT who you were ten years ago. now i just wish i knew how to contact this person to apologize for the way i left things back then.

i think the thing i crave more than anything is developing things to such a deep place that i am so completely invested in it. that's where my creativity is. i AM getting this right now which is amazing, but like reading through all of those rps just made me realize that is absolutely where i thrive.

[caxycreations]

Some memes I made with the meme generator that @heavensfallenfaction linked me to.

[lisbonsteresa]

going through something horrendous

[tylerpitlicktruther]

💕😮goofy game faces😗💕

[myflagmeansace]

i'm looking forward to seeing Ed's messy and so very human journey in S2

he's not only grieving the potential future he could've had with Stede but grieving who he was and can never be again

he can't go back to being the Blackbeard from before, he can't have exactly what he dreamed about with Stede, and he can't hold on to his destructive Kraken ways

he's lost a big part of his identity so he's trying to find purpose, trying to figure out who Ed is, and trying to figure out how to continue living his life

i think his journey will be hopeful and empowering but so incredibly messy and complicated and I'm so here for it

[diet-cokette]

if you told me even three weeks ago id be leaving catholicism I wouldn't fucking believe you

[pinkseas]

girls will put an EXTENSIVE amount of thought and research into their next couple of planned fics and THIS IS THE THANKS THEY'LL GET FOR IT.

[autisticlaezel]

I think I'm gonna switch Gemma's romance to Karlach because it's thematically so, so juicy for her

[scatteredshowersposts]

A post-canon, pre-reunion No. 6 playlist for Shion. This playlist follows Shion from the end of Volume 9, through Beyond, until just before he reunites with Rat. It concludes right before the events of my story, Summer Rain.

In the Country - La Luz There isn't one thing that I wouldn't do for you Why leave?

Good Grief - Dessa But I’m willing to work for this Just show me where to dig And I’m ready to hurt for this

I Don't Trust U Anymore - Left at London As a kid, I was idolizing millionaires and all the presidents But I don't trust them anymore No way, no way, no, not again And I may never trust at all No way, no way, I'm over them

Working for the Knife - Mitski I always thought the choice was mine And I was right, but I just chose wrong I start the day lying and end with the truth That I'm dying for the knife

Glass House - Screaming Females Whose house is this? A gift was promised Future structures till we all vanish

The Center Won't Hold - Sleater-Kinney I need a real affliction Gives me a reason to stay I need a new reflection Don't wanna see my face

Fear the Future - St. Vincent When the Earth split in two I was I, you were you I run for you Run for me, too

Kokomo, IN - Japanese Breakfast God, I wish we could go back there Left alone in my room I know they deserve you too And maybe I'm not that worthy

[flowachild]

anyway going to ~feel my feelings~

[cherrybeetle]

a heart so heavy its shape stays pressed into the central space of your soul . lol

[velvet4510]

The fact that The Hobbit is such a lighthearted family-friendly book, especially when compared to LOTR, actually breaks my heart when you consider that it is Bilbo’s writing. That journey was anything but a fun trip for him. He went through real dangers and horrifying moments. He saw violence for the first time. At the end of it, he lost his love. And he went home traumatized, heartbroken, and forever changed.

Yet when he wrote the story down, he emphasized the more successful and fun parts, and glossed over the depth of his pain and grief when the losses happened (even leaving Fíli and Kíli’s deaths to a throwaway line.)

Because what else could he have done? Nobody else could possibly understand his pain. Bilbo wasn’t like Frodo. He didn’t have a Sam who he shared the experience with and could talk to about it every day afterward, to help him work through writing down the details of the darker parts of the story. And his other friends lived far away and could only visit occasionally.

And the hobbit children were all full of wonder about Elves and dwarves and trolls, so he put the focus on that.

I feel like that was his way of dealing with his trauma.