#Mutt talks

[gothknots]

My head tilts to the side like a dog when I’m confused. Do u still want me?

Yes or yes

[maiuowrites]

i r'memba her...

thares times tha' i r'memba her...

in yer smile.

in yer laughta.

in yer eyes.

in yer thoughtfulness...

she was m' light back then, y'know? she was all i cared 'bout, th'only one who kept m'goin' on a right track back when i lived in hell.

through m' drunkness; she was there. much like ya are now.

through m' highs; she kept me anchored. jus' like ya do now.

my memory still stings, m'Soul still cries somedays r'callin' her...

bu' in those times, i hear th' differences b'tween ya both now.

how yer smile tilts jus' enough ta th'side, it smirks... somethin' hers neva did.

how yer giggle turns inta squeaks... somethin' hers neva did.

how yer eyes flash a hint of playfulness when yer thinkin' misjift... somethin' she neva pulled.

how ya hide in th'shadows, thinkin' no one can see ya...

...

ya don't think ya have a light, do ya?

ya don't believe ya bring in warmth ta othas, do ya?

well, Baby...

...ya do.

...ya've brought me in a sense o'warmth, where i no longer fear th'unknown.

.... I Love You. ♥

[silliestbun]

I’m hiding in the same room as my department chair right now and she’s in a meeting with another teacher >.< I don’t think she’s noticed me so far luckily, I was avoiding a big school thing and she walked into this room which is usually empty :(

I’m behind some tables and switching between editing this writing piece for her class and reading the filthiest posts on this site <3

My pussy is so needy Nghhhh it’s pulsing whenever I think about one of them noticing me

[muttthecowcatridesagain]

No I wouldn't ... this bedroom gives me so much anxiety

like the darkness in the corners, the tall dark curtains Does anyone else get it?

I had a few friends over at my house the other day and they complimented how welcoming and bright it is. But what they don't know is that this is the only way that I can arrange my house where it doesn't give me unnecessary anxiety

Like I'll always live in a small apartment sized space because that way there are no empty spaces to worry about. I'll always hang up string lights and have a million lamps and light colored walls because they're bright and comforting. There's 0 dark corners here. I'll also never have tall ceilings or large rooms because what will protect me, where will I hide?

Anyway just throwing this out there because I feel like one of you will understand

You would kill a man for this bedroom

[muttgifs]

stim gifs and other gifs that I don’t have anywhere else for. f2u with credit. not afraid to block if you make me uncomfortable. 18+ due to certain gif sources.

[muttthecowcatridesagain]

Ok so I’ve been putting off this decision but this post has done it

I’m just not about to pay for a site that’s only getting worse regardless of what I personally do. I’m tired of the bots and the gimmicks

I originally joined tumblr to follow fandom events and be more connected with the community in my fandoms. Now most of the events are hosted elsewhere. That used to be twitter, but now I’m not even sure where.

I don’t feel as much of the community aspect of fandom anymore—the part of all this that really gave me joy

I’m not sure where the best place to go is. I feel like there’s a lot of people on discord but I also feel like I’ve been shut out of many communities there because I don’t really know anyone to get invites

So I’ve decided for now to mainly use Ao3 for my fics—which yes will update once I’m able to not have a mental crisis every other month in case you were wondering (I’m finally in a more stable situation but I need to calm down and get used to it)

I’ll use neocities for updates and communication with a guestbook. It will be a gradual process bc it takes me a while to code sites.

I plan to have a fashion site, bookbinding site, and fandom site. I also hope to start streaming some more of the games I play.

I’ll post my sites here when they’re ready. I’ll keep my blogs here as an archive after that, but I’ll be here much less once everything is moved over.

I think overall the direction that general fandom organization and sms sites are moving is just not for me anymore, which makes me really sad. But at a certain point I can’t keep fighting it and have to use my free time for things that actually make me happy

I hope you all understand and I hope we meet again in another place

Thanks for being my mutuals and followers here! It means a lot to me that anyone followed me here at all ❤️

[cutemutt]

Hi Mutt,

I'd love to hear a public sex fantasy of yours. Couls be with me, or anyone else really.

- e

hiiiii um I love the idea of you in public with a plug/myself in public with a vibrator (I would probably be too nervous to actually do this but UGH the IDEA of it!!!!) and obviously I think about fucking in bathrooms all the time <33 a bit on the sweeter side, I love the idea of being groped under tables at dinners or in movie theatres, just a hand on my thigh or a hand on yours. I’m a slut for anything physical really

[muttthecowcatridesagain]

Wow I didn't realize until this post that people from other countries were setting their modern aus in America bc they thought more people would read it/it would be more palatable

Like generic TV US only reflects maybe 1 or 2 places in the actual US, and it can be very boring/overused

Not to hijack the post (ie not everyone writes like this) but for me the setting is always another character of it's own with it's own traits, quirks, strengths, limitations, etc and needs that thought put into it to be interesting. Ie if I'm writing a modern au set in the US, you better believe that the characters will be having a grand and/or gruesome time in New Orleans with all it's specific culture

Anyway - I went into a rant below. TLDR - it really bothers me that people think the US is actually like that and that they have to write their modern aus in that setting to get views

TV!US/the US culture that is portrayed to international audiences is an extremely sanitized version of reality here meant to be more relatable to a larger audience (and also make the US look like this happy, resource abundant place with no or little personal problems for its citizens).

People who live in the US writing modern aus fall victim to this as well for multiple reasons - for example for a long time TV and other nationwide mediums have been associated with cultural assimilation and even dialect/accent/unique language loss in the US

It was one of the reasons that I was so excited to join the sambucky fandom 2 years ago and read/write in a setting that was familiar to me! But it's also the reason that writers from the US were assuming that there's snow and actual standard hotels in a small fishing town in rural louisiana . . .

Anyway, all that to say - if you're moving your characters out of their canon setting please don't hesitate to set them in your home city/culture. It's interesting and valuable writing! And unless you're really passionate about it, please don't set them in generic US culture - which is something that doesn't even really exist as you've been shown it by the media

I just wanna say, if you aren't American, definitely try setting a modern AU in your country. Fill it with the things you know, to breathe life into it. It's really nice to see new settings, to open up a fic and go 'oh wait, hold up, I know that place'. It might only apply to a few people who read your fic but it's really rewarding to get that feedback.

(Americans keep doing you, just trying to encourage the rest of us lol)

[faggy-mutt]

"my daughter turned out fine!"

uhm ur son is whoring himself out to ppl on the internet he's never met (nd he's wayyy too into it) ...

[gothknots]

Recently come to realise how much I love older/bigger men submitting to me, letting me turn their brains off, moulding him into the perfect pet for me to play with, There’s just something about him giving up all his power to someone younger, even though he could most definitely manhandle me if he wanted too. I’m going so feral just thinking about it !!!

[grzybjek]

A collage I made for one of the characters from my newest story. His name is Kundel by the way hes an absolute manfail and a menace

[muttthecowcatridesagain]

This is so interesting to see an outside viewpoint on this. I love studying language and accents so I have some thoughts

people from the us do pick up on fake accents ... if the actors are using their accent or one from their region. The amount of fake bad southern accents is astounding - I just never comment on it because most of the time it's played for laughs (as are most US accents beside the "default" accent here) or it's serious and they get points for not making fun of it

it's true that the separation between groups of people here is significant, and the effects of that are insidious. There's a lot of fear here that people in other parts of the country don't know anything about the people or life here. . . and that affects their political decisions almost 100% of the time. Like there's the fear that something that's beneficial for another area of the country could be catastrophic here. And those fears are backed up by recent happenings (most of it environmental). This is bad - I really think that most people who live here need to learn about all the different regions and people of the country (and not as a caricature)- and about how things they do affect their neighbors.

when a british actor does an american accent everyone’s like “i didn’t even know they were british until they were on colbert.” but when americans do a british accent everyone’s like “they’re supposed to be from east cocksford but their glottal e’s are north dicksford. shameful.”

[nothankyoudear]

I think it genuinely cannot be overstated how important that kiss in season 2 of Good Omens was.

From a plot standpoint, that kiss showed Crowley's desperate attempts to keep Aziraphale, to reel him in and back to the Us that they had built upon.

But from just a show standpoint, they. fucking. kissed.

Obviously their love transcends physicality, and Neil has said that Good Omens is a love story even before season 2, but the outright confirmation of a widely popular queer ship ON SCREEN is just so... Unheard of.

Every fandom or show has their trademark gay couple that aren't-really-gay-but-also-kind-of-are-gay: Merlin and Arthur, Sherlock and John (very heavy offender), Dean and Castiel (okay this one was canon, but we all know what happened IMMEDIATELY afterwards), and I suppose at some point Ineffable Husbands had just been included in the same category as the rest of them.

And to have it be moved from mostly fandom and fan work fuelled to outright canon - like 'they fucking kissed on screen' canon - is just so fucking fantastic.

It's not vague, it's not lines that are blurred for the sake of being on the fence of appealing to two audiences at once, and it's not only canon because the creator just said it's canon without rhyme or reason purely for the sake of appealing to a queer audience (looking at you, Ms J. K. Rowling) - it's undeniable, blatant evidence that Crowley and Aziraphale are in love.

And yes, at the moment it's devastating, but it's also devastatingly real. And that's so important.

Especially with the release of Our Flag Means Death, I really do hope we are entering a new era in mainstream media where queer ships finally aren't treated as some sort of mysterious prize that the writers dangle in front of you like a carrot on a stick, and are just simply treated like any other ship out there.

Because if so, then queer kids will be growing up to these shows, see this new era of unabashedly queer media, and won't have to hide away their ships like some dirty little secret. They won't have to wonder if their representation is even representation. They won't have to get excited over being able to see the small chance of themselves represented in a character only to be let down so incredibly badly, because queerness is good only when it's marketable.

So sure, ending season 2 like that is fucking crazy, but you know what's crazier? Whatever the fuck Neil just did with that kiss.

[femboyhorror]

"Oops, My Brother is Clinically Depressed!"

( a comic i doodled up based off of the end of chapter 3 of fisherman's knot by @scribefindegil a.k.a. a scene that has living in my lizard brain rent free since i read it. go check that story out of you haven't! i hope i did the scene justice! )

[askspookyfox]

Thanks for the memories, see ya when I get back in town. Happy Halloween and stay spooky~ 🎃👻☠️

Uhhh... yikes. Sorry about the unfinished comic! Definitely didn't want to end this year's blog like that (especially when I was doing so well this entire month!), but I'm outta steam and I'm spending time with Night (October's artist) for Halloween this year, so... :D;;; But this will be done, so expect this later in November! Until then, I'mma chill and enjoy the remainder of my time here with them.

Like Spook was saying, I'm extremely appreciative of all the new followers, all the likes, reblogs, and even new questions (seriously, got some REALLY good ones in just the last week alone 👀). I'm so heckin glad that you got to enjoy Spook's return this year and I hope to see y'all next year, especially since I intend to answer some of the harder, more in-depth questions that will explain Spook's abilities more! 😈 Until then, stay spooky friends and have a fantastically wonderful Halloween!

[mueritos]

happy indigenous peoples day ^-^ a year ago i found out my family is half indigenous, so ive made it a personal duty to try and reconnect in order to honor those ancestors and histories. it's not my fault that I may never know my tribal affiliation (we know they lived around Popocatépetl), but it is my responsibility to do my best to honor them. since starting grad school, i've made an effort to talk about my indigenous roots more often, and to be honest about the fact that i do consider myself mixed indigenous. I also talk about this taking into account that I have white privilege, and how this has complicated my relationship to indiginiety.

anyway, i went to an ipd event outside of boston today and was so happy!! i had to leave early for a health emergency (thank u random uti) but it was so fun and i experienced and learned a lot. loved the mexica dance group who danced for Huitzilopochtli (i love you Huitzilopochtli he was pulled for me during a tarot reading and he told me to be fucking strong!!!!), and i especially loved experiencing the seven sacred directions where the entire crowd moved as one. i talked to some lovely indigenous people and they gave me so much guidance and love! it made me feel so happy...I wish I was able to stay longer, but I enjoyed being in a space where I was so welcomed.

if you're detribalized like me or trying your best to reconnect, never be ashamed of the fact that you were forcibly removed from your tribal affiliation. never be ashamed of how you look like either! there were so many "white passing" indigenous folks there embracing and celebrating with those in full regalia, and so many people of many appearances joined in for ceremonial dance. even if you're 10% or 3% indigenous, I still think you deserve to know your ancestor's culture and history! i still think you deserve to honor those parts of you! they wanted us to forget about our indigenous roots for a reason, and i refuse to colonize my mind any longer. opening yourself up to indigineity, even if you don't know your affiliation or "how much" is in you, is far better than never learning a damn thing about indigenous folks.

i hope everyone had a lovely indigenous peoples day ^-^