#Mind need resting spaces
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I really needed a weekend to just rest and do random things and do what I wanted rather than what i had to and decide in the moment moment no structure and time and space to just .be and not be productive and room to focus on what i want, even if it's something small and silly, until im bored of that then move to the next thing
No pressure.
#Pressure kills me#And I don't even have that much#So.#...#Tumrblr#I do want to write..#Mind need resting spaces#To let random ideas float freely#Not pressured to do anything#So you're fresh next time you write#Or do other things#I seem to need more space than most#A week to recover from 1 high energy day.#But im not going to feel guilty about resting#Guilt is too much pressure all the time..
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*camera filming like a documentary. Vaggie is narrating. The camera focuses on Husk reading on the couch*
Vaggie: This is Husk. He enjoys his personal space-
*camera pans out to reveal Angel laying across Husk’s lap*
Vaggie: This is Angel. He also enjoys Husk’s personal space.
#*camera pans out further to show fat nuggets resting in angel’s lap*#vaggie: and this is fat nuggets#who enjoys Angel enjoying husk’s personal space#Angel: husk likes my personal space too- if you know what I mean ;)#husk: do you want to stay here or not?#Angel: …yes#husk:…I dont mind his personal space too much either ;)#Angel: 😳#they’re gay officer#huskerdust#once again Angel flirts relentlessly until someone honestly reciprocates#then it’s just: panic#panik#Angel dust#husk#husker hazbin hotel#Angel/husk#husk/angel#angel dust needs a hug#consensually#preferably from husk#Hazbin hotel#incorrect hazbin hotel#Vaggie#husk enjoys Angel enjoying his personal space#he’s definitely petting him on his fluffy lil head#and Angel is just drinking up the attention#Angel deserves nice things#they’re gay and in love#part four of the lap saga bitches
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A while back you made a post talking about yakumo and his sensitivity to temperature and I haven't stopped thinking about it. imagine when winter comes around and yakumo becomes progressively sluggish, usually staying in the kitchen and not leaving for hours, always making something near the stove to feel a little warmth from the flames or from a little taste of the things he's making (soup probably), or him picking up the habit of bundling himself up and staying in the library to read and nap. maybe when it starts getting even colder he barely leaves his room because its too uncomfortably cold for him, and if he does he's probably looking for eiden to help him warm up, but if eidens not around he gets antsy and looks for somebody else in the mansion, but he's too shy to ask and looks at whoever with his wet eyes so they know he's cold and wants a cuddle
*inhales deeply* ah yes. you understand. you envision it all so clearly. rightly so. gEt in the wAy, everybody, snake burrito walking the halls very very slowly!!!!!!! (i was about to say get OUT of the way but that would probably make yakumo colder so why not do him a favour and collide with him on your way to another room)
#feesh answer#once it drops below a certain temperature he is not leaving the kitchen#he's sleeping in a cupboard stowed above the biggest fire source. if that's even possible.#all the spare pots and pans on the floor now. that's the only way for snake to have room in the warming zone#or you really will see a large snake blanket burrito. a triple breaded snake tempura. a swiss roll cake where all the cream is wool#standing in front of the massive soup pot. permanently stirring. steaming his face above the liquid#lost in the soup#he needs a walking space heater attached to him at all times in winter#i think the wolf pups or blade will do an excellent job at that#they all live in the mansion together most of the time right? shouldn't be too difficult ehehe#honestly blade wouldn't mind just snuggling up to yakumo as a nightly duty HAHA. and garu on the other side...#warmest snake in klein...#*tosses eiden on top of all three of them. just for good measure*#actually *leaves the room to gather the rest of the clan* PRACTICALITY BE DAMNED. THEY'RE ALL GOING IN THE NIGHTLY SNUGGLE PILE#maybe they'll all vibrate yakumo to death. like the bees#sorry where was i#right. as i was thinking. if oli can slap together a paired warming vibrating necklace(? questionable) powered by essence#other similar warming devices shouldn't be impossible to create hmm?#get yakumo a robe that functions like an electric heated blanket. but essence powered#idc whose essence. either the snakes overflowing power will be put to good use or yakumo can warm up in his beloveds' essensual energy#that way he can still walk around and do his regular stuff . but he can look fluffy while doing so#yakumo crossing paths with kuya in the hallway one night. they are both wearing fluffy decadent robes.#it's like walking in a spa. and the purple fox is making his robes look super milfy. meanwhile yaku is just comfy#the power of personality and how it affects your presentation in a fluffy robe...#nu carnival yakumo
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It's actually kind of heartbreaking how many people feel their life has ended right after high school or college, and honestly, the heavy romanticization of that period of time is so overwhelmingly predominant that it can be hard to avoid. It's insidious to constantly be told that ages 10-24 are the only worthwhile parts of life, that everything after is essentially meaningless and dull.
It's hard not to look around you and think that your life still is open and full of potential when you're told over and over again that the rose-tinted childhood is the last time you were alive. It's hard to realize that your life isn't over when you walk off the stage of your graduation.
We must realize that we will always be full of potentials. Your life won't be over until you take your final breath, and then? That's simply another chapter in your story, one of many. Let yourself realize that you're alive in the here and now. There will be good and bad, but never a complete loss of potential or hope.
#positivity#it's just... weird when you see somebody your age who says how over their life feels you know?#and i feel for them. i feel their pain and the emptiness of not knowing what's next or what you should do#and that's sometimes the scary part of life. but your story isn't over yet#one day it will be. one day you'll put the pen down and dry the ink on the yellowed pages and close your book of life. but that's not today#you are allowed to be an aimless spirit. you are allowed to breathe in without the crushing weight of productivity#the idea that your only potential happens when you're too young to realize it is wrong#your potential has nothing to do with feeling your youth and how little you know#it is hard to really internalize this and remind yourself to make space for hope and positivity...#...and you might not be ready to internalize this. that's okay. i'll wait with you (in a strictly spiritual sense)#we can wait together and not think about any of it. just to rest and collect our minds and feel the world hold its breath with us#all this to say that your life isn't over yet. you don't have to beat yourself up over not having lived at fucking 18#allow yourself the compassion to realize that you needed time to grow and mature and explore the world in your own way
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Im about to make a whole osp style video on the importance of pacing and spacing in relation to whump or an authors decision to seriously harm a character
#kipspeak#long story short I wholeheartedly believe if you space it out wrong you will disengage your audience#and as a general rule of thumb you have a maximum of THREE instances across micro and macro story beats individually#Which both rest on a sliding scale of importance from minor to major and the spacing and groupage depends on what it is#three is also a guideline- I’ve seen characters hurt in unsatisfactory or overblown ways with only two; and I’ve seen it done#very well with four pushing five major focus points#setting also matters. Everything matters. But the conclusion is this#You are always on a balance beam with making your blorbo miserable. be aware of your major ‘chapter’ breaks (reset points)#… I have thoughts about things that I think have done it wrong and it is entirely about the pacing/spacing and not about the actual event o#the whump.#ahve I mentioned I hate that word yet. whump. I’m going to use it though because I need to get a point across#AND MIND YOU THIS IS FOR STORYTELLING WITH THE GENERAL PUBLIC AS AN AUDIENCE MOSTLY#of course that falls under genre and medium exceptions…#brb. I’m going to make an osp trope talk video
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I've never been a "born in the wrong generation" type of guy because for So Many reasons I would be dead. Full stop like I would have died during childbirth I would have died of appendicitis age 8 and that's not even factoring in my queerness and neurodivergency and ultimately my mental health (carefully maintained thanks to support/modern advances in medicine and treatment). On Top Of That my hobbies include The Video Game and many such things that are of modern invention (adjacently: including The Device I'm typing this out on right now which has become my main avenue of communication to the outside world)
But I'm just saying that. It WOULD be nice. To exist in a world where fluorescent lighting doesn't exist and everything is possibly 99% less overstimulating all of the time forever.
#and like. a little less capitalist dystopia. i could do with less of that.#but focusing primarily on my own struggle. it's just a bummer sometimes like#i genuinely had fun!!! w my sisters and friends!!! esp at the arcade w ddr that is ALWAYS so fun#but man you can't even take me to your own damn house unless if you're ready to accept vampire rules.#my sister can/does dim the lights if i ask and i don't mind asking it's just fucking crazy to me like#damn uoy guys live like this. bright ass lights ten diff convos at once music in the bg. what if i died on this beanbag#BUT. THAT IS. one thing that is very nice i AM allowed to die on the beanbag!!!!!!! i'm allowed to cozy up and rest#while everyone does their own thing and i can listen in and chime in every now and again. severely underrated tbh#i really only feel a little hopeless when i think about like. public spaces where the only thing i can control is myself#IF i am ever employable again my requirements would be. no florescent lighting. i will die.#which like. kind of limits my prospects.#i do enjoy outdoors/physical work actually though so. i'm just limited bc i have to bind.#i am. so severely. banking on top surgery working out. it won't be a cure-all but by god it WILL open up my options#plus the. constant fatigue. of binding. but not binding is even worse. i need divine intervention (surgery)#SAD. well there are other people in yhe world#but man rhat is like my fave joke to make but i feel so much sadness attached to it. the world will move on without me.#there are a million other people who are far more capable. much 'easier'. ect.#and i know the answer is well there's only one me and there are a handful of people who love me. who keep me and include me#i am very thankful for that.#it's just a bit of a bummer sometimes. i stay silly and have the most fun i can but i am a little sad about it.
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The pattern is that people straight up do not read™. or they read a 3-5 tweet summary of what happened and treat it as if they did. or because shonen expectations based on "the classics" is bullshit and significantly rotted people's brains when deciding wether an ending is good or not.
Which could be nothing right
yeahhh. i will forever regret reading the last chapter through leaks because it was a dreadful experience, and watching everyone ever shit on it for like a week after genuinely made me want to just get off the internet forever or something because i felt like an idiot for liking the ending (all this is my fault for getting too invested in both tumblr and mha etc etc).
All the "it's rushed" and pacing complaints barely matter to me at this point because you just cannot feel the pacing of something correctly when you're reading it exclusively through leaks. you can't absorb info like that. And don't get me started on the number of complaints and criticisms I've seen of the last chapter that are just provably bullshit (I saw someone say Izuku didn't get a statue lmao. yes he did, you just read the fucking leaks and watched twitter drama unfold instead of reading the actual chapter i fear).
#i just. do not think it is as bad as some people want to make it seem. i know not to take people who make cashier peaked in high school deku#jokes but like some of yall are treating this as if it's a major failure of the manga ? ? ?#it's underwhelming if you want#it didn't touch on stuff you wanted it to touch on whatever#i personally think that it did okay with the constraints it clearly had#like even without going into shonen jump conspiracy theories horikoshi had been doing 15 pages chapters for a while now#I also think that a lot of disappointment comes from fanon interpretations becoming canon in people's minds especially regarding izuku#and like do not get me wrong i had mixed feelings when i read the chapters i still have mixed feelings on some aspects (hawks what r you#doing etc etc)#i dont blame people who didn't like the ending for not liking the ending#i am just very annoyed by some justifications for not liking the ending#i don't even bother arguing with anyone at this point bc i don't want to be that person (too often) and because it just straight up makes m#feel bad lmao#anywayssssss i probably wanted to say something else but i forgor#oh no yeah listen. maybe you think it's lazy and maybe it is lazy to do an 8 years timeskip and leave a lot of stuff up to the reader#i personally really like this choice. important points were addressed and the rest can be speculated upon by the fanbase and by god.#we are the mha fandom guys. we can speculate. we love to speculate. we have EIGHT YEARS#you can do literally whatever you want man#i already have my personal canon for what happened during the eight years and believe me it helps a lot with the mixed feelings lmao#again. horikoshi did Not have a lot of space the story clearly had a lot of plot changes halfway through. i really do think this is more#than okay. this ending is not the end of the world i promise.#anyways i originally started like citing bs criticism i saw and then i thought ok lets not. inside thoughts etc etc.#i am not a meta analyzer i regularly learn i've misunderstood something about something or misremembered a plot point i am Not the person#for actually good meta and a lot of very insightful stuff on how we are very much not the target audience and lack cultural context go see#pikahlua lmao#mha manga spoilers#mha 430#mad mha ramblings//#ask//#i almost want to say ask to tag lmao? i have the mha cri/tical tag blocked so if anyone needs the opposite for me being overly positive
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We got so high the only memories of a very long complex important conversation (one-sided entirely more of a rant) between CB and 🐙 look like... this
See more rant in the comments ☆ I lost control!
#just happened already forgot#tide hand possession but not fully boo#you can only be here becAUSE I ALLOW IT insert danphant image here#the only thing i remember about my rant already is#i want to know why im the stagehand i am#i cannot be complete#i know why i am the clown that i am#somrthing i gave t shit for#and then i#i realized i am also incomplete in a different way#also everyone needs to give less of a shit#bECAUSE#Oh he really remembers now#the people that will love us will love us in our entirety and Nothing Else Matters#i dont care about what anyone thinks because i know that#i know the only people who deserve me are people who can love me in my entirety#monster teeth and all#i hope this makes it sink in for the others in the long run#in my complexities are beauty and in your complexities are beauty and isnt it wonderful how intertwined it all is#the rest... the rest is just noise#stuff to fill the space#things to trigger thoughts or feelings in my mind#you could call that a friend#but that feels like a disservice#they said if i wanna keep going i need to move to a post instead of the tags for my high ranting#and i will surrender to reason#they speak#and you know what#mental illness
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90s Raphael’s characterization between the first movie and the next two is interesting. Could make for a good fic.
I love Raph's characterisation across the 90s trilogy.
There are so many little things I could point out, but overall, I love that he's a little guy with big feelings! He doesn't always know what to do with them given he's a teenager with sensory issues and trauma. I love his strong convictions about right and wrong and justice and helping others and protecting his family and bystanders. I love watching this kid who spent fifteen years in isolation discover what he wants and fight for it.
Splinter tells him and his brothers their whole lives (as gently as possible) that the world above will never understand or accept them, but Raph carves out a place for himself anyway. He must have brought home so many strays growing up, and then he brings home three humans who change their lives. As he gets to know April, Casey, and Keno, he learns that he craves connection, a wider social circle than his family can offer. He wants people to know he exists. And we see how much he wants, but the price to have it is too steep. Because he can't reveal himself to the whole world and protect his family; he can't live in ancient Japan and have them, too. Despite so desperately wanting more, he chooses his family every time. I love when tmnt media and fandom explore these aspects of Raph.
My 90s fics tend to focus on how Raph is harmed by their conflict with the Foot Clan.
Sunset is my take on some of the missing hours between Raph's capture and rescue from Foot HQ.
Wrestling imagines how Raph might've broken down after the first two movies given everything he went through.
Thanks for the ask =)
#rewatched parts of the movies to help answer this and man i forgot how much i love 90s raph#i like to think he was a very weepy toddler/little kid who liked to snuggle#but at some point began to perceive that as a weakness and now he shouts and punches when really he wants to cry and be held#but! it's okay! because his family still makes sure he gets those things#in the first movie splinter can tell raph is upset when he comes home#so he calls him to his side to offer wisdom and comfort him#his brothers know he needs space sometimes and are more than willing to give it#but don still reaches out first when he sees how upset raph is about losing his sai#and you can tell raph is so uncomfortable stewing in stress and uncertainty#that sometimes he lashes out at leo or don or someone that will push back and start a fight#but there's this sweet scene when they come back from the farmhouse#where raph expresses frustration that they don't immediately set out to look for splinter#so leo calmly reminds him that they need rest and it does seem to settle his mind!#and all the bros are physically affectionate with each other and splinter and april#gah it just makes me very happy#that he struggles but has a loving family and that doesn't erase his struggles but they still help and love him a lot#both of these fics are from a raph-centric event i participated in back in march by the way!#raphael splinterson#tmnt 1990s#tmnt#my asks#whattrainofthought#writing off the rails
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as a femme who just got a rescue pigeon who seems to like people but hate Hands™️ with a passion, do you have any advice? also love your little guy and your username lol
:') <3
I'm assuming they're aggressive rather than fearful of hands? That's pretty typical for pigeons, especially male pigeons, as a lot of their courtship and status is based around biting/wrestling with others, and hands are generally what they target with us lol. It's hard to say for sure without seeing your bird's behavior and knowing a bit more context but my best guess is one of two things - if they're reacting to hands being placed near them with aggression that's probably just them being defensive, while if they're seeking out your hands it's more likely (but not for sure) a driving behavior. For the former, respecting their space as much as possible is best, while for the latter you can let them wrestle your hand a bit as long as it doesn't hurt too bad. When Quinn was going through that phase, I basically just treated him like a bitey puppy, backing off and ignoring him any time he bit too hard until he learned what was an appropriate amount of force he could use without hurting me!
#individual birds have their own quirks so generally respecting their space/autonomy is a pretty good rule of thumb#quinn learned pretty fast what was ok or not and is really good at warning you if he doesn't like what you're doing#but when i first got him we'd hang out but he didn't want to be touched for almost a year#so keep in mind that they might need time before getting to that point especially with rescues#also very funny way to start this message happy belated pride month everybody :)#i have so many asks i never responded too oops ill get to the rest of these soon
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uh oh it's think about josh hours
#do you think he gets blue when during inbetween shows?#once he's rested and reunited with his loved ones and settled in do you think all that adrenaline comes crashing down?#like he was made for a stage and to share his art one way or another and I wonder if he always needs to keep moving#to keep creating and offering a look into his mind and soul.#that he loves to be loved and to also share his. to feel the joy he and his brothers lead.#not in an egotistical sense but he just thrives off the love he's surrounded in#I'm sure he loves being in his space with his people. but sometimes I wonder if his message was meant to be shared and he thinks so too.
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mhm. (✿◠‿◠)
oh my god :( he’s so gorgeous and pretty and beautiful and stunning he’s literally glowing my cheeks hurt from smiling sm he’s so pretty :(
#dreamy sigh.#thank u sm for sending this#and imprinting this in my mind for the rest of my life my dearest seph#i desperately need to have this video tattooed on the back of my eyelids#he’s never beating the prince allegations#i’m so in love with him :(#how can someone be so gorgeous#and his un-whitewashed skin tone oh my god#how do i kiss someone through the screen#he’s so dreamyyyyyyy#i love him i love him :(#i love u sm seph u always send stuff that makes me stare off into space#asks & responses <3#ᓭི༏ᓯྀ‧₊˚ — ♡ 𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.#— jake?!#this ain’t no jake that’s prince jaeyun#this is getting too long but i can write literal paragraphs.#he literally looks like he escaped from a painting#how can someone be so ethereal#oh prince jaeyun.#— seph ! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
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Hey uh
anyone here on Art Fight this year or-
Cuz I'm on there, same name and everything. I'm on Team Vampires.
You can like, add me or whatever...I mean, if you want...
I haven't interacted with anyone on here or even really drawn in a couple months, sweet pulsating spider-christ ...
#I KNOW I KNOW I CAN JUST. DO THE THING. BUT I ALSO CAN'T. YKNOW????#I DON'T KNOW WHERE MY MIND HAS BEEN I DON'T#I'M STILL STRUGGLING WITH HEALTH Y'ALL#and sometimes instead of bouncing back and forth from feeling stable enough to do things and absolute dog shit i just-#-'welp i guess I'll just not do anything! that'll solve all of my problems! I'll get better if i don't do things and just rest and space out#-'WOW I CAN JUST BE ISOLATED AND PATHETIC IN MY ROOM ALL DAY COOL'#like...I EVEN GOT MY PAIN MEDS BACK! AND I QUALIFIED FOR A HIGHER DOSE WHICH IS A MIRACLE BC THIS IS FLORIDA!!#but like. idk.#and it's not like i don't care at all!!! I've missed you guys like fuck!!!! i just feel like I'm so far behind and everyone is on another-#-plane of existence at this point! and the longer it goes the more guilty i feel coming back bc i feel ashamed and lazy...#but i know you guys don't give a shit about at all. and I'm sorry for assuming and being so hard on myself#but also my fandoms are all over the place rn so uh. I'm so sorry LOL#but seriously anyone on art fight?? i really need to get back drawing but it's daunting...#especially since my guess 2 or 3 years were kickass by the last 2 literally no one but my wife interacted with me#one friendly fire from my partner. in two fights. after putting HOURS OF EFFORT THRU CHRONIC PAIN AND ILLNESS into all of those pieces...#i know I didn't draw a fuckton but i just got so discouraged and sad after awhile. and some never even got any attackee comments.#it all felt so damn pointless#but I'm nothing if not a survivor#as Zapp Brannigan once said; 'the spirit is willing but the flesh is spongy and bruised'#I'm a hot fuckin mess but even if i barely get any interaction at all again i can at least say i didn't give up-#and put in effort and love like always. no half-assing with art fight unless it's just me and my wife or a friend doin stupid friendly fires#BUT ANYWAY I STILL WANNA FUCK SLASHERS. IF ANYTHING THERE'S STILL THAT. IT'S STILL ME.
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I feel like a hot mess
#i just spent the last 50 minutes cringe failing#walked to a new uni building. wrong floor#got to the right floor. found out it was restricted to students of the faculty of law only#the law students get to study in. such a pretty library while the rest of us have to sit in buildings that havent been renovated since 1983#my uni fucking sucks everything is so far apart and the interior is ass .#I NEED PRETTY PLACES TO SIT OR ELSE ILL GET WORSE MENTALLY LIKE IT'S THAT SERIOUS OKAY#how am i supposed to feel like. at least partially functional if the inside of my mind is all existential dread suicidal agony and then#outside the weathrr is fucking disgusting and the study spaces are ugly and falling apart#anyway. sighs#z.post
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reminder to parents; don't threaten your kid with a "you will regret not visiting us. these family members will die any day now". just generally a bit uncool I'll be honest.
#embers-hoots#death#parental abuse#look man i don't really make posts about this atm but. fuck!#ive been feeling funny today and the last thing i needed was my dad#who hasn't spoken to me in fucking months#sending me an essay with all this shit in it#the last time i saw him he told me my partner was grooming me and the leftist trans agenda (real words) has got me#this happened on My Masters Graduation Day#and i told him to not fucking speak to me for the rest of the time he was staying in my university town#and he kept it up this long#shame it wasn't longer bucko#anyway im gonna go get groomed by my lover /j#fuck man. literally in the best mental space ive ever been in my life. i refuse to be guilted back down#vent#i suppose#look theres an 80% chance ill delete this before the nights over don't mind me
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1 year ago today I was at my lowest point, and had it not been for some friends I called and went and stayed with for a few hours, I know I wouldn't be here today.
Today, I'm lying in bed after driving home to a beautiful sunset, waiting for the energy to come back to finish a project to wear tomorrow night. I'm going out with a friend I haven't seen in almost 3 years. I saw more friends last weekend who i also havent seen in nearly 3 years. I've done things I couldn't even dream of 3 years ago. I've done things that this time last year seemed completely out of reach to me.
Life is still hard. It's always going to be hard. But in the past year I have held so much happiness in my hands that I know, deep down, even when it decides to leave, that happiness will return to me. I can let it go and be sad for a while, but it will come back. And each time, I will learn to tame it further so it stays for longer, until one day it builds a nest just outside my window so I can watch it for years to come.
Hold on to your happiness when you have it. It will build itself a home in you, and one day you will look down and realise it flew in for the last time and never left
#is it weird to like... celebrate the 1 year anniversary of deciding straight up to kill yourself?#but instead it was the first time you decided to call a friend and day hey i need company and a safe place to crash land#idk its wild#about me#my stuff#personal#introspection#i guess#been on my mind a lot lately that i genuinrly nearly missed out on so much that has given me just the greatest joy ive experienced#front row barrier at MCR#front row barrier for the killers#i saw Billy Joel live#i started pole dancing after wanting it for 5 years#im assistant manager at my workplace#and ive done more creatively in the last year than the last 2 before it#despite having half the space#because i feel alive enough to make again#all im saying is that it gets better#and im going to rest on this lookout for a while#then continue this climb
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