#Maybe I'm just over-analyzing this

[scoliosisgoblin]

Rip Beth

She doesn't exist in my book :)

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

when I want to write something self indulgent to give me all the angsty and cuddly hurt/comfort feels but I can't because I end up feeling guilty because I'm seeking after feels that I feel in an inappropriate place because my mom told me one time when I was 15 that I shouldn't search that out or it's probably sexual sin but it confuses me because ALL the feels happen that way for me even if it's entirely platonic and nonsexual and so I don't know if it's okay to want to write to that because apparently all pleasure of any sort, even over platonic stories, is sexual or comes with a possibly probably sexual feeling and I also am having a hard time figuring out what's genuine conviction from God and what's just my anxiety/OCD/perfectionism/fear of failure

[transmascutena]

thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

[virtualcarrot]

[DE] musing abt the limits of superficial acab discourse and the way fandom deals with moral discomfort, I guess

“ACAB”, “the only happy ending should be leaving the RCM”, “you’re a terrible person if you draw/write these characters enjoying the sort of corrupt cop stuff that they canonically do in-game” discourse is killing meeee

God forbid you don’t performatively remind everyone that you do hate cops, actually; and god forbid that you don’t find that True Healing and Happiness for Disco Elysium’s characters can only be achieved by leaving the force.

Metas could be written about how Kim and Harry are actually deeply flawed people who enjoy wielding some form of authority in a way that they actually feel best working as cops

(is it healthy? no. is it Good™? no. Is it true to their character? this is where media interpretation comes in)

Metas could be written about how that doesn’t mean ACAB isn’t real, that just means they’re the kind of shitheads (that we, the players, still love) who enjoy being cops

Metas could be written questioning the amount they’d have to change to adapt to a life as civilians, how much and what kind of a push they’d need to go for it,  if it’s change they could even manage, if they could financially survive it, if they could find fulfillment in any other career, at their age

But no. Why waste time on that instead of easy slogans. I mean, we like them, these characters, and we don’t want to feel guilty for liking them, because what does it say about us, then, that we like flawed cops?

(nothing it says nothing it says we played a good nuanced extremely well-written game that skillfully made us like the sort of character whose past actions include sequestering some woman and beating a dude into disability. that’s what it says. i’d even argue that discomfort is part of the point)

[hupla222]

Something Here

Maybe I'm wrong but I feel like there's definitely something in this scene. Like, why would he introduce himself like that if it wasn't going to be relevant, especially with Liko repeating his name afterwards. I don't know, I just get this gut feeling that his name is going to be important later on. Wouldn't it just be that special kind of tragic if Gibeon didn't even know his name? Let me know what you think!

Given that no one seems to call him by name (as I mentioned earlier his name is only said twice before this moment) and well as generally never seeming to be acknowledged by the others in the Explorers, I'm getting a sad picture. Like, I don't think Chalce has ever responded to anything he's said (neither has Amethio) and Spinel only responded to shoot him down (even then it felt like he was shooting down the idea separate from the person who said it, like he wasn't directly talking to him). Its like they see him in a "Oh, yeah, you're here" kind of way. Or maybe I'm over thinking things. The only person who doesn't do this is Coral who will actually talk to him and Liko, hence giving away his name to her (or maybe he's just finally seeing her as more than just a child, which is equally as fitting). He's been ignored so why shouldn't he do the same to everyone else. Poor man, he looks so distraught in that second screenshot (but I could just be projecting how I want him to feel).

[cutter-kirby]

well fellas i thought about chara dreemurr for one second and now i need to replay undertale

[cicadasides]

really struggling w the fact that i just. can't connect to most people. i feel connected to my mom...sometimes my dad and siblings, but that's it

[suffercerebral]

me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

You know yesterday or whenever it was when I was questioning whether or not I was depressed? Well, tbh, I think if I consider the fact that I have said very little publicly about Thunderpussy's second album, which, for all intents and purposes, should make me excited to be alive to talk about their new album, then...yeah! I'm depressed.

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

I've thrown on American Psycho like two more times in the background since watching it cause it's short and it's really reslly funny to me and just like... I like that movie a lot I think. Not even because it's particularly good or profound or anything I just think it's really fucking funny. Christian Bale acts like a psychopath for about an hour and a half and delivers the most fucking bullshit absurd sentences like he REALLY believes them. "Cool it with the antisemitic remarks" and "STUPID BITCHEE" are lines said by the same character. The short soliloquy he says where he goes "I'm not really there" is a great little blurb about dissociation to me and I really like it and I cannot ever use it anywhere because it's spoken by fucking Patrick Bateman who goes on violent misogyny-fueled killing spree like 30 minutes later. This movie is so fucking funny.

[thegreatpapaya666]

i tried to do what this video did and failed miserably but whatever

the only thing I like about it was because I turned around at the end of the second run, it created a sort of fade out-y effect and it sounded cool

still felt like posting it cause i'm too tired to do much else but oh well

[stinkbeck]

nothing more relaxing than like acting out a play in my room alone

[nocturnal-birb]

Considering the new MOAC video with Imperator, it got me thinking since it's the events before Kiss the Go-Goat chapter, that would mean Imperator was staying at the ministry before going to Nihil to watch his performance (preparing herself before leaving)

Here's a little theory I got

We see one of the scenes she's clearly upset for a second then becomes happy. Somehow I got a little theory in mind that she's probably upset that she's pregnant but somehow happy about the thought of it cause she'll get to have a family with Nihil

Or in another hand, Imperator walking like she's upset right before she looks at the cam and changes her expression- somehow tells me that maybe the she and the Clergy had an argument of perhaps something? Might be a little far fetched but what if the Clergy forbid her to go out since she's mostly needed more in there than to Nihil's ritual?

Basically, Nihil is doing what all the Papas do: doing rituals to spread Lucifer's words and whatnot. While Imperator is working behind the scenes at the ministry but maybe in that time, she wanted to go to Nihil as support but the Clergy refuses cause she's much more needed there hence she looked upset for a few seconds until she just decided to just abandon what the Clergy tells her and just go to Nihil to support and also tell she's pregnant (which shows her smiling afterwards) but clearly still upset about the Clergy forbidding her to go out to see him- which shows at the end of her hitting the door before leaving

But for a split second, she looks back- maybe rethinking of whether to go and listen and obey or go fuck it and see Nihil in which she did.

[cosmiicfairy]

🗑

[bredforloyalty]

this paragraph in particular is very concise and sums it up well imo:

The question we should be asking is not why people are sometimes cruel, or even why a few people are usually cruel (all evidence suggests true sadists are an extremely small proportion of the population overall), but how we have come to create institutions that encourage such behavior and that suggest cruel people are in some ways admirable—or at least as deserving of sympathy as those they push around.

(from the bully's pulpit)

[imwritesometimes]

I hate that I've been sitting here for hours and I have nothing to show for it. I hate that I've been writing this thing for weeks and I still am like what's the point of this?