#Maybe I'm just mentally ill lol

[lemonnbug]

"you can't change the past" maybe you can't, I on the other hand know how to change my memories of the past. The 12 year old Me in my head may not be the real me at 12, but she's stronger and doesn't have as many regrets and when someone makes fun of her by asking "What, are you gonna eat me?" she replies "Yes." and unhinges her jaw.

[riiver000]

sorry this is a different fandom LOLOLOL i got back into adventure time and have been majorly hyperfixating on fern. its terrible i started crying randomlyu like 3 times today because of him

[ultrakill-confessions]

I kinda wonder what it is about ultrakill that uh (how do I say this without being an asshole) that attracts so many systems (?)

I like statistics so I wanna like, study what it is about certain games or series that seems to collect folks like that. Is it how the fandom treats a piece of media? Is it the demographic? I donno!

Like if we all just decided to treat doom 2016 the same way we treat ultrakill would introjects n stuff start popping up over there too? (I picked doom cause it's a bloody shoot em up with religious undertones and insano angst potential, but feel free to insert any other game here too) I'm just genuinely curious about it all

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[jeanralphiosbf]

should i make a tag list ,, would anyone care ,,

[once-in-a-half-life]

yippie I got my spotify wrapped

of course Freeman In The Flesh by Vandoorea is my #1 song lmao.... according to Spotify I'm in the top 0,001% of listeners (maybe bc I'm the only asshole on the planet who kept that song on repeat and made sure to listen to it every day)

[hotmess-exe]

it's not my story to tell, so i won't be writing it, but i sincerely hope to see an interactive fiction someday where the protagonist is a felon. specifically, i'd like the protag to be someone who has served their full sentence and just gotten out.

there is so little respect and empathy for that perspective, so i just would love a well-written IF about it

[ficoandleo]

[Please convince your violent husband to use the sensory deprivation tanks at Darkwick General instead of committing crimes against his own body. I've already wrangled permissions for him to use them freely, he just needs to show up.]

@ask-doctor-isami

He starts to type 'He's not my husband' but concludes that it's besides the point and a waste of time to say. He knows who he means.

He hasn't done anything abnormally dangerous since then, but if I think he's acting strange again I'll see what I can do

Not that that BTH listens to me. But he might consider it more if I suggest it

On the other hand the more I think about it the more I don't know if leaving him alone with nothing but his thoughts is a good idea

He flies off the handle at random. He might just feel worse in there

Maybe he'll tell me why he doesn't like the idea at least

[gentlethorns]

you know what? i'm gonna say it. i miss being seventeen. not for the "glory days," bc they weren't, by a country mile lol. if i had glory days i'd say they were in 2020. but i miss the electricity, the constant undercurrent of euphoria and deep plunging black. i miss the fight i had. i was literally known for being scrappy. i was self-destructive and coping poorly, but goddamn if i didn't burn bright and long. it took me until my twenties to finally start to fizzle out. does the candle with its wax melted down to the base of its glass cage miss when the wick was lit?

[squid-ichorous]

i wish i could go to therapy more often because i'll spend an entire afternoon as the pepe silva scene but when session comes around i completely forgot about it

[ihatesilco]

if you imagine your problems are zany wacky sitcom premises your life feels much better i promise u

[elytrafemme]

ok no but tell me why this mental illness stuff is starting to feel fake as fuck rn like... tell me WHY i was like decently normal around my family this whole trip and now the second i’m home i’m crying like GIRL. i mean like i guess i did do this yesterday and i wasn’t totally “normal” but i was like generally really happy... is mental illness just a state of mind for me i seriously do not know what is going on!!!

[bewby]

soooo insane how depression actually affects the way i talk/speak/my speech patterns/etc like not only have i lost motivation to even talk to myself and it's rotting my brain away but i also forgot how to talk to others entirely because it has become. exhausting for me. awesome

[arctic-hands]

I'm the worst person to try to gaslight lol. One, I already know I'm crazy, so between that and my piss poor memory I'll just assume I left the lamp on and forgot about it even if I do have a hazy memory of turning it off. Try to trick me into seeing things that aren't there and I'll just assume I need to up my dosage of abilify. Saying you said something completely different to what you actually said and I'll just go with the flow because I'll assume I just flaked out in the previous conversation and don't want to commit a faux pas

[panicdeleter]

If we're doing scales, may I add emmengard's suicide scale? It's a useful resource too I think.

My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.

I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think “Well, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot more” so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that “10” is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said “6” because I thought “Well, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.”

[gloomyshoujo]

God okay I know I'm an absolute newb about painting/rendering. But goshhhh it's taking me a long time. And like, when I take a long time on just a single piece, I keep thinking back to all these pro artists saying how bad it is to take a long time. But also like......I am having fun?? And idc about being a pro or whatever. Like, if I wasn't having fun or hated the whole thing OKAY like gurl you gotta work faster or move on. But when I started it, I hated how it was turning out, but now I'm digging the look a lot and it's been both fun and kinda frustrating just bc my low attention span is screeching in agony.

[binch-i-might-be]

I do feel accomplished by today's. Accomplishments. but I am not going to lie to you I am feeling incredibly anxious also