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Numbers Game ~ Chapter 40


One More Chance

Pairings: Cross Guild Polycule x Shanks x Fem!Reader x ???
Numbers Game Masterlist
Word Count: 12.7k+
Ao3 Link
Ongoing Series Playlist: Youtube Music Link | Youtube Link
Chapter Tunes: Run Rabbit ~ ALT BLK ERA | Broken (feat. Amy Lee) ~ Seether
Summary: The Hunt is nearing its end, but it's still too early to tell who your favorite is. At least not before that red-haired Hunter claims the final date tonight.
Ch. 39 Recap: Detailed recap is directly below the cut!
Author's Note: This one is big, and not just the wordcount. I hope you enjoy the ride! đĽ°
Dark Content Warning: No bracketed scenes, but brace yourself for Uncle Cedrick and some Sylvad family bullshit. And ya know... the feels, as usual đ
Also, I hope everyone remembers the tag/warning: Cross Guild Boys are VILLAINS. Itâs been there since day one, so đ¤ˇââď¸
Extra Tags/Warnings:
Alternate POV Symbols:
đ˛ ~ Reader | đ ~ Crocodile | đĄ ~ Mihawk | 𤥠~ Buggy | đ´ ~ Shanks | đ ~ Kat |â° ~ Flashbacks for listed POV | ⍠~ Scenes depicting Dark Content as listed in Author's Notes
!!! SPOILER WARNING !!! This fic (And This Chapter in Particular!) contains spoilers for current One Piece plotlines!!! Sorry y'all, I've been trying to keep most spoilers small or vague details, but Cross Guild is endgame, lol.
Rating/Warnings: Author May Choose to Exclude some Warnings to Avoid Spoilers for Certain Chapters, Explicit Sexual Content, 18+ ONLY, MDNI, AFAB!Reader, She/Her Pronouns for Reader, Reader-Insert, Use of Y/N, Dark Content, Blood & Violence, PTSD, Panic Attacks, Dissociation, Mental Illness, Grief, Hospitals, Doctors, Mental Health Treatment, Toxic Family, Childhood Trauma, Swearing, Alcohol, Cigars, Smut, Fluff, Angst, Guilt, Drama, Jealousy, Manipulation, Pet Names, Power Imbalance, Cross Guild boys are VILLAINS, Possessive Behavior, Teasing, Threats, Relationship Drama, Inappropriate Use of Akuma no Mi | Devil Fruit Powers, Shameless Shameless Smut, Uncle Cedrick Has Become His Own Warning, Death of an Unnamed Character, Other Additional Tags to Be Added
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Ch. 39 Recap:
Reader had to say goodbye to the man of her dreams on Uncle Cedrick's orders. He claimed that he was being generous, but that Iceburg didn't have anything they couldn't buy.
Crocodile tried to find anything useful in the recordings of his sweet girl at the asylum, but all he saw was that fifteen year old girl breaking, and that doctor praising her for admitting what she was: a monster.
Kat struggled to pretend while her sister had to keep smiling at the villainous Vinsmokes.
Mihawk found purpose again, a feeling he'd forgotten. He kept up his hunt through the seedy underworld, following the trail of greed while he left a trail of blood behind him.
Reader managed to relax and enjoy the second date with Katakuri. That Sweet Commander was too sweet, but Reader still couldn't make any promises.
Shanks felt desperate as his failures kept growing, until he finally hit his mark. He had sworn to become a villain to save Buggy's star, yet he would have preferred violence over the threats he made against Katakuri's little sister.
Reader managed to avoid being alone with Yonji during his second date, at the cost of his soldier's pain while he beat them bloody. She praised him, and managed to pretend during the breakfast the next morning. Neither Kat nor Reiju had joined them for breakfast, and the thought of her sister being happy helped Reader keep up her smile.
Now, the Hunt is nearing its end. The wedding will be in two days, but first Reader must face the final date, and the red-haired traitor that wants to claim her for himself.

One More Chance

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Run, little rabbit. Please, run away.
This island was lush, abundant, a thing of true beauty.
Yet the sight of that wild rabbit hopping through the courtyard made you want to scream. If only you could move, you would run to it, protect it from the hunters and their hungry arrows, their greedy fingers, their gluttonous mouths.
That little bunny never stood a chance.
Uncle Cedrick had already snapped his fingers for his bow, all eyes on him while he aimed for the helpless creature that was stupid and unlucky enough to interrupt him.
Looking away didnât save you from the little horror. The image of the rabbitâs extravagant death was spread too large across the screens, and your cowardly move to look away only trapped you more.
A hunterâs eyes tore through you, and you choked down stupid hope that you might survive longer than the creature that was bleeding its life away onto the pretty cobblestones while leeches and wolves applauded its dying breaths.
Those soft, brown eyes were arrows, and you knew that you were nothing to that greedy hunter but something to capture, to claim.
You were nothing but a little bunny to him, and tonight it was his turn to win you. To claim you.
His lips curled just slightly, a wicked little smirk that would have made your skin crawl if you hadnât been holding in every piece of yourself that you could.
The screen behind that red-haired hunter showed a servant lifting that prize into the air, blood staining all that pure, white fur.
You returned Shanksâ smile, hoping that your death would be as quick as that little bunnyâs if he was the one that caught you.
Hoping you would feel his blood on your hands first.
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The Great Red Haired Shanks was drowning. He couldnât fucking hear a thing, could hardly breathe unless he could watch the rise and fall of her breath, nearly bolting across the courtyard whenever sheâd hold it in for too long.
Her eyes caught his, and cruel hope filled him.
Shanks smiled at that wounded star, aching for tonight.
I just need one more chance.
Y/Nâs smile was perfect. So very sweet that the leeches around him began to swoon over the berries theyâd bet on him winning the lovely heiress.
Her smile was anything but sweet. That charming pirate had seen behind the mask, catching just a flash of hate shining through every glance she sent his way.
Iâm gonna save you, Y/N. I promise.
âSorry about the mess,â Cedrick bragged while he drew everyoneâs attention back to himself and his twisted, little game. âI know you all have been dying to hear from our lovebirds after that delightfully savage tournament last nightââ
âMy apologies for the interruptionâŚâ
Cedrick managed to rein himself in, but Shanks caught that flash of rage in his eyes when the towering hunter cut him off. He didnât seem to be as good at pretending as Y/N, at least not when someone else was hogging all the attention.
âBut of course, Katakuri,â Sylvad bowed his head just a fraction while the hunter kneeled before the little stage he shared with his niece. âYouâre well known for your impeccable manners, so I imagine it must be important.â
âIt is.â
Shanks didnât want to watch this. Heâd already downed the sparkling wine theyâd poured into another carved glass for him this morning, so there was nothing to help him swallow his shame.
He had promised to become a villain for her. It was for her. For Buggy. For Mihawk.
He had to save her.
But that wounded star had stopped breathing again while she waited for that sweet commander to speak.
Was it really for her?
She still wasnât breathing.
It wasnât for her, was it? I came here for Buggy. For Mihawk. I came here to soothe my own fucking guilt.
No. I came here to use her again. To get what I want.
Shanks wasnât good at pretending, unless his own delusions counted. He had truly believed that he was a good man.
What kind of man believes heâs good? Believes heâs better than others because he does whatâs right? What he decides is right?
Who the fuck am I to decide whatâs right?
Even with waves of self-loathing and guilt crushing his greedy heart, that Emperor of the Sea couldnât stop.
He just held his own breath until she stopped holding hers.
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Of course. Of course, your last hope was kneeling before you. It felt like the cruel twist of a knife that you could tell he wasnât smiling beneath those feathers. You were a fucking idiot for getting attached, for getting to know this lovely dream too well before it ended.
Katakuriâs deep voice barely reached you, hitting just enough to confirm what you already knew.
Itâs over.
âI am so sorry, Y/N,â that voice failed to soothe. âI want to stay with you, to take you with me, but my family needs me now. I must protect them. Iâm sorryââ
âI understand,â some alien part of you spoke. Leeches made noises over your sweetness, but you werenât sweet. You were empty. A doll with nothing inside. âThank you, Katakuri. I hope your family is safe.â
Those crimson eyes saw you too deep and you needed to scream. The need was so intense, it felt like the screams were tearing you apart. So close to falling to your knees,
Leave. Just leave. Go away. Please!
Family. What a fucking joke.
Fuck. Now you were about to start laughing. This was not good.
Katakuri had moved slightly, but he tilted his head while he studied you. He seemed to pull his hand away before heâd reached for you, and you were grateful when he left without another word.
There were so many words around you now. So many sticky, pointless words, some of them from your own lips.
You were hardly there while you made it through the interview with Yonji, hardly there while you praised that rabid, little puppy dog whose hands pulled you too close. Like you were his favorite chew toy.
A flash of red caught your eye, but you couldnât look at that other hunter while you praised the one beside you on the stupid, green couch heâd brought with him.
Numbers. Counting. Math. That would help you get through this.
Three minus one is two.
Two minus one is...
One hunter would leave you drugged and strapped to another table, only this time youâd be dissected, violated, forced to birth monsters until you died.
The other hunter made you sick with hate, with disgust. The traitor that broke Buggyâs heart, that used you to steal him away, only to abandon him again. A dangerous man, a monster. Just a fucking leech that couldnât get what he wanted from your dead father, so now he would hurt anyone in his path to tear it from your flesh.
A hunter claiming his prey, with not a thought for the pain the rabbit must feel while its heartâs blood spilled at his feet.
Either choice meant death.
Pros and cons.
You werenât naive enough to think that you had a real chance at killing an Emperor of the Sea. Even if you did, youâd be trapped on a ship full of terrifying pirates that heâd threatened to punish you with the first night you met.
Both options were torture, but red grew in your mind. It spread, slow and thick like the blood of the man that was killed just for insulting you.
Shanks had hurt Buggy. He would hurt him again if he got the chance.
Iâll kill him for Buggy. At least I can do something for him before itâs over. If I can kill him, then everything else is fine.
But you couldnât kill him tonight. Tonight, you would pretend, youâd please the monster, so heâd steal you for himself. Tonight, you would use him to forget the world.
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Red Haired Shanks was always searching. Not for treasure or glory, but for the perfect tavern.
For years, every tavern was fine, filled with bunnies and booze, laughter and ease, but every now and then heâd find what he needed.
âThere you are,â Shanks whistled as he raised his mug. âYou never know who youâll run into at a tavern, eh, old friend?â
âWeâre not friends, asshole,â Buggy spat, already so flustered and cute when Shanks leaned against his shoulder at the sticky bar top before he leaned away. âWeâre enemies.â
âCome on, Bugs, itâs been a couple of years since last time, hasnât it,â the redhead coaxed. It felt as though the world was falling away, nothing but that lovely clown and the unacceptable space between them. âAt least let me buy you a drink. Something sweet?â
He held in his laugh at the way Buggy frowned, the way everything about him was so bright, so vivid. Shanks studied every movement until he saw the shift in those crystal eyes, and he couldnât help but scrape his bottom lip through his teeth at the feeling of victory it gave him.
âUgh, fine! But only because you owe me,â the clown sighed, his skin a bit flushed beneath his greasepaint while he downed his drink.
âLead the way then, old friend,â Shanks purred. His body was tingling when he gestured toward the nearly empty tables in this shitty, wonderful tavern. Finally, the world felt right again.
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âJust follow me, star,â Buggy soothed your panicked breaths. âYou know your captain will catch you, donât you?â
âYes, Captain, itâs justâoh gods!â
You were too breathless to pout at his smug laughter while you clung to him, the only anchor within reach. Buggy had guided your steps, holding your hands while he floated beside you, but youâd barely moved across the tightrope before slipping off, and into his waiting arms.
âCome on, Iâm not about to let my flashy financial advisor go splat,â he teased, and you couldnât hold in your squeal while he floated you in circles toward the ceiling of one of the many true circus tents in Buggy Town.
âFinancial advisorâs usually work at a desk, you know,â you pleaded, closing your eyes against the striped tent that spun around and around, faster and faster. âOn the ground!â
âWhereâs the fun in that?â
The heat and danger in your clownâs voice sent your thoughts away. No frustration, no fear, just Buggy. Right here, right now.
âMy pretty star shouldnât be stuck on the ground,â he taunted while he floated even higher. âWill you shine up here with me, baby? I wonât let you fall too far.â
âI know, Buggy,â you managed to gasp while he tossed you just enough to shift your position in his arms. He stopped spinning to let you cling to him, wrapping your legs around his waist while you tried not to look down. âI know youâll save me.â
Those words felt dangerous, but the look in Buggyâs eyes made everything disappear. His slow, crooked smile sent warmth through your body, even while he spun through the air again.
âOf course I will,â your clown yelled a bit too close to your ear, and you giggled before he kissed the sound away. Buggy ate at your lips, desperate for the taste of you. Â His hunger pulled little moans and whines from your lips while he gripped you tighter around his body.
Still hanging on to him with your arms around his neck, you grinded against the hard length of him, always so fucking needy for you.
âFuck, baby,â he broke the kiss with a groan. Gloved fingers dug into the meat of your ass, until he wrapped one arm around your back to hold you steady, still bobbing too high above the three rings you kept forgetting were there. Until he tugged the glove from his free hand off with his teeth, letting it fall and fall while his bare fingers teased along your thigh. âMy girlâs so fucking good for me. Can Iââ
âI need you, Buggy.â You had said that the night you met, that truth growing more with every moment that he stole you from the world. âPleaseâgods, yes!â
He was still floating, still standing in the air while you clung to him, yet Buggy managed to curl his fingers beneath the costume heâd picked for your tight rope act. He pushed that shiny fabric aside before working himself into you while your eyes watered at his wicked praise, his panicked thrusts, his pretty little noises.
You wondered how he got the leverage to fuck you like this, as though he were standing on solid ground while he held you. Then he hit so fucking deep, using the weight of your body to bounce you onto him, and you were too far gone to wonder anything at all.
All you could do was take him, take every delicious feeling he gave you. Still, as terrifying, and thrilling as fucking so high in the air should have been, you couldnât fight against the dangerous hope that this feeling was real.
It was stupid. NaĂŻve. You had tried again and again to shove it down, to just enjoy it while you could.
Buggy made you feel both safe and free. It couldnât be real.
Right now is good.
âGods, star⌠You feel perfect,â Buggy moaned through stuttering thrusts. âCome for me. Shine for me, baby. Just. Like. That.â
His name from your lips turned to screams while you came together, floating through space like stars in the sky. He couldnât seem to stop his own pleasure, forcing his come even deeper inside you as though he could carve his own home within your twitching body.
âYou donât want me to stop, huh, dollface? Want me toâ
No more dollface. No more Sylvad smiles.
âHey, Star, whatâs wrong,â your clown panicked when you were frozen by those hopeful thoughts. He cursed softly when he pulled himself out of you before racing down too fast. You shut your eyes against the spinning world, surprised by how many tears spilled when they closed.
Buggy caught every tear that fell, and you smiled at him when you felt him making strides across something thicker than air.
âYou okay, baby?â Anxiety rippled off him when he laid you on something soft to look you over. âIâm sorry, did Iââ
âIâm okay,â you choked out while you touched his hand that cradled your cheek. Relief moved across his features, but not enough. âThank you, Captain. Iâm just happy to be here with you.â
Your clown paused, and his eyes flashed with anger, with disbelief. You hated that look and all the disgusting people that must have trained that reaction into him. Â
Then those crystal eyes melted, warmth seeming to fill him to the brim before he squeezed your cheeks.
âWell, I wasnât about to leave such a flashy girl behind, but if you really feel like thanking your captain, I can think of a fewâ"
âBuggy!â Laughter spilled from you now, even as you struggled against his grip on your face. Your giggles slowed when he stared at your lips, brushing his thumb across your mouth. The taste of your own tears nearly stopped you, but your sweet, lovely clown kissed you before breathing his next words against your skin. Â
âI like the smile better.â
The warm tears that fell now were joined by more laughter, and more dangerous hope, while he kissed your true smile again and again. Â
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The dress was pretty.
It felt light and soft against your skin. A comfortable sundress to enjoy a picnic under the stars. Your locket even fit the theme, but you still kept it tucked away when you werenât fidgeting with it.
Yet, you preferred the other stupid costumes youâd been forced to wear.
âThat red looks lovely on you, sweetie,â your mother gave a flawless smile. She leaned against the vanity to beam at you while her stylists finished your hair. While you tried not to bite them.
At least it wasnât your mom dolling you up today.
Closing your eyes against your motherâs perfect smile, you fought to shove out the image of a broken doll in a red dress.
The trill of a transponder snail tore a gasp from you, and the voice that followed was worse.
âDelaine, be a dear and bring your daughter to my office. I need to check in on our little bride before the final date.â
âOf course, Cedrick,â your mother purred while she gestured for the servants to finish up. âWeâll be right there.â
Delaine Sylvad kept her smile while she led you to him. She gave you to your uncle once again, and she hummed when he brushed his lips against her cheek before she obeyed his order to leave you alone with him.
Your mother left you without a second glance.Â
âMy, my, Y/N, what a sight you are,â Uncle Cedrick praised. His eyes raked over you as though admiring a prize horse before gesturing toward the beautifully carved, but uncomfortable seat across the desk from his own cushioned chair. âTake a seat, niece. We need to have a little chat.â
Emptiness flooded your mind slowly, fog rolling in until the world felt dull.
Good.
âEnough of that,â he snapped his fingers in front of your face, cutting off your escape. âThe Hunt is almost over, niece. I need to know who your favorite is.â
âItâs too early to tell,â you recited. His smug little smirk only proved that your instincts were right.
âNot to worry. I believe I can help with your decision,â your uncle laughed, so at ease.
Uncle Cedrick toyed with a decorative arrow that heâd displayed on his massive desk, and you couldnât keep your eyes off it while he started tapping the side of it against his palm, gesturing with it while he spoke.
âIt really is your choice, Y/N,â he taunted, twirling the arrow a bit before pointing it at you over the desk. Aiming straight for your heart. âDo you remember what your choices were before the Hunt? Did you figure out the pros and cons?â
Nothing matters.
âI can be well.â You only clenched your jaw a bit. âOr I can be unwell. And I want to be well, Uncle.â
âThat is all I want, you know,â your uncle lied, his voice dipping low. It might have sounded gentle if you didnât know what he was. âI only want whatâs best for you, and for our family. Thatâs why I am excited to tell you about a little extra deal I made.â
He wiggled the tip of the arrow in front of your eyes, grinning as though it was all a game. You managed not to flinch, but your eyes closed against your will for a moment to fight against the dizziness the movement had caused. His smile had deepened after your show of weakness.
It is a game. His game.
âArenât you going to ask about the deal?â
âWhatâs your extra deal, Uncle,â you drowned in impotent rage.
He sat back with a laugh, bringing his pristine shoes up to rest on the corner of the desk. You were suddenly aware of the tension in your own body, your legs shaking slightly beneath that red fabric.
You shook more when he ordered the servants and guards from the room before pulling a small snail from his desk. He patted the creature, his fingers grazing the horned shell until its eyes flashed red.
âWell, I might be getting ahead of myself,â Uncle Cedrick tilted his head back and forth while he twirled the arrow in lazy circles. âTomorrow your Hunters and I will discuss the arrangements. If they donât agree, then they are out, but if all goes wellâŚâ
âFuck.â
âDo pay attention, dear. You have a date with an Emperor to get to, so Iâd hate if I had to repeat myself.â
An apology forced its way through your lips while you watched him sweep all that splintered wood onto the floor. Your uncle caught you slipping away again, so heâd broken that arrow over his desk, startling you back to whatever fresh torment he had in store for you.
âYou have your choices,â he started, and his handsome features were finally starting to warp, a hint of the monster that only you could see. No one else saw what he was, or they were just too greedy or scared to admit it. âNow that youâre well, you will fulfill your duties as a Sylvad and marry a suitable match. You get to choose between an Emperor of the Sea, or a Prince of the Germa Kingdom. Such a spoiled, little bride.â
âYes, Uncle.â Your voice was sweet, and you almost laughed at how skilled youâd become. It would never be enough. âShouldnât I be leaving for my date soon?â
âYouâre quite right, dear niece,â your uncle agreed. He lowered his legs from the desk, brushing a few splinters from his slacks before smiling at you again. Â âVinsmoke Judge and his partner have some riveting plans for their new research institute. I was considering sending an offer to fund some of their ventures after the Hunt, but they proposed a deal that I just couldnât refuse.â
You couldnât count your breaths. There werenât any while he left you waiting again.
âIf you choose to marry the Emperor, then one of the Princes will marry Kathryn instead,â Uncle Cedrick announced, cheerful while you struggled to understand. âSuch a fine match, and after all these years of waiting for her selfish sister to stop holding her backâŚâ
âNo.â
âYes,â he mocked your desperate tone.
You were awake now, no drifting away, no escape. Just fear and denial flooding your veins.
âTheyâll use her, Uncle. Those princes were born without feelings. Theyâre vicious!â The monster before you looked pleased while you fought to steady your voice. âYou canât give her to them. You wonât.â
âI can and I will,â Uncle Cedrick seethed, eyes wide with fury as he slammed his fist onto his pretty desk. Just for a moment, he let you see how he truly felt when something in the world dared to displease him.
His show of hatred stilled your breath, but that snarl was followed quickly by his charming, Sylvad smile.
I liked the snarl better.
You had to bite and chew the inside of your lips, sick laughter nearly ruining you again. Your uncle pressed his finger to your lips now, shutting you up.
âPlease, mind the hysterics before your date,â he scolded, removing his hand from your skin to pet the horned snail again. Its slow eyes drooped, that red fading out while he studied your face.
Looking for signs of weakness.
His fingers drummed against the gleaming wood of his desk; your eyes caught on the movement. He kept that abhorrent rhythm going until you wanted to claw at him. Finally, he traced those fingers down the side of his desk until he winked in time with a sound like a snap, like something clicking into place. The painting on the wall beside you moved, the little cedar trees opening a window to another room.
An enclosure.
Uncle Cedrick hummed a cheerful tune while he leaned through the window to pet the massive projector snail. Always so many fucking snails. He guided it to aim toward the opposite wall until its eyes cast something you knew you didnât want to see.
The selfish urge not to look was shattered when you heard her.
âLet me see my sister,â Kat demanded, the words icy with rage. She gritted her teeth, flinching away from the hand that dared to reach for her face.
Your sister wasnât restrained. She didnât look hurt.
Kat was sitting between two monsters on a pretty, green couch.
âDonât worry so much, princess,â Niji purred, thankfully pulling away from her.
âYeah, the last date is starting soon,â Ichiji soothed, unable to hold in a satisfied laugh. âWe can watch your sister all night.â
They werenât touching her right now, but you were already running toward the door when he cut the feed.
âThatâs enough,â your uncle sighed while you struggled with every door out of the massive office. Heâd locked you in a cage with him. âYou know very well that I am not bluffing. Now, do you understand your choices, or do we need toâ â
âYou canât hurt her,â you declared, willing yourself to wake up from this nightmare.
No. No. Not real. Not her.
He just smiled, gently stroking the horned snail until its red eyes glared at you.
âTheyâre gonna breed her! Torture her! She could die!â There was no change in that charming face. âPlease donât let them hurt her, Uncle. Please, sheâs your daughter!â
Words that youâd never spoken hung in the air, and your ears rang with aching silence as though your body had tried to pull them back into you.
If only that ringing silence could have stayed to spare you from his sadistic laughter. He was still cracking up while he relaxed back into his seat, gesturing for you to join him.
âMy little smarty. Did you think that was a secret,â Uncle Cedrick mocked while he caught his breath. He dabbed the moisture from his eyes as you slumped into that uncomfortable seat across from him. âI must admit, your mother and I were sloppy at best when it came to hiding our transgressions. Only a fool like my brother could have missed something so glaringly obvious.â
Uncle would have dragged you back anyway, but you fought to stay present. Only your nails on your thighs through that thin, red fabric kept you here.
she needs me
âIâm disappointed in you though, Y/N. I thought you were smart enough to keep your mouth shut.â
âbut...â
âBut what,â he scoffed as he leaned over the desk to pinch your cheek. You were too lost to even flinch.
âyou wonât hurt her you wonât let themââ
There was no fighting it. Your body was starting to carry the inevitable future for you, although your mind was still small. Parts of you had run away, but he didnât bother to chase them down.
âMy daughter has the opportunity to elevate the Sylvad line.â
His voice wasnât loud, but you winced at the force of it. He leaned back, his pretty shoes on the desk again, but you couldnât let your eyes wander there. If you looked away from his gratified gaze you would disappear.
You had to stay.
âFinally, I can bring our family the respect, the honor we deserve.â
Uncle Cedrickâs mask fell just enough to show that monstrous hunger. That greed. What do you get for the man that has everything? What more could he possibly be hungry for?
It felt like it had always been you. Your pain, your humiliation, your supplication.
But your suffering was just the bonus prize.
âArbo never cared about leaving a mark on the world,â your uncle spat now, his revulsion growing with every word. âNo ambition. No pride. He rejected every opportunity to lift our family name above the merchant class. No, my idiot brother just wanted to spoil his selfish, little numbers girl.â
âstopâ
He would never stop. He kept going, even as your body started rocking back and forth, breaths going heavy and wrong.
âYour daddy was always weak-willed. Pathetic.â Uncle laughed at the tiny sob that escaped your lips, even while you chewed on your flesh to keep them shut. âArboâs obsession with you held us all back, Y/N. It even got him killed. That sentimental fool couldnât even wait a fucking week to fetch his ungrateful brat a toy boatâ"
âpleaseâ
Broken doll.
Broken sobs tore through you now, and you curled in on yourself. Breathing hurt, you couldnât see, couldnât hear over the horrible, broken noises.
nothing now nothing now nothingâ
âStop crying.â
Dolls should be quiet and still, so thatâs what you were. Just a doll when he knelt beside you. Not real when he touched your face, sneering at the pathetic tears on your skin.
Uncle Cedrick held his broken doll by the chin, but his words couldnât hurt something that wasnât real.
not real
canât feel
âThe choice is yours, dear niece,â came a voice that meant nothing. âMarry a Vinsmoke, or your sister will take your place. If you donât want the pirate then you know what your options are, but Kathryn will wed one of those princes if you donât.â
One more burning tear stained your cheek while his fingers pressed just a bit more into your skin, still careful not to tarnish his little doll. Your uncle never needed to use his hands to hurt you. Heâd broken you just fine with his words.
Now he had trapped you into this reality, this world that he owned, because you couldnât let yourself slip into nothingness. You couldnât be that selfish again.
âIâll marry Yonji,â you spoke with a voice like your motherâs, âbut only if they let Kat go. They canât touch her.â
Uncle Cedrick patted you on the head when he stood, and you counted your breaths while he picked up his transponder snail from its decorative table. He sat in his comfortable chair, placing the snail heâd dressed to match his own image beside the horned snail that was beginning to slump while its eyes still flashed red.
âKat will be staying with her future brothers in law until your vows have been sealed,â he declared, the threat sending fresh terror to rip through your heart.
He stroked the horned snail again to let it rest. His fleeting mercy was given only to the toys that bent to his will.
âDonât fret though, niece. I wonât let my daughter become anyoneâs mistress, not even a prince. Sheâll never be a cheap whore like your mother. Speaking of,â your uncle trailed off before making a call, your motherâs, âhello, Cedrick,â floating from the snailâs sticky lips. âDelaine, dear, please come tend to your daughter. She could use some freshening up before the big night, and we canât have her running late.â
You stayed here. Distant, but not empty. Suffocating with a gentle smile while your mother dolled you up.
âDonât forget the rules of the Hunt, dear niece,â Uncle Cedrick reminded you as he guided you to the courtyard. âOur guests are here to have fun, so be sure to show the Emperor a good time. Can you do that, smarty.â
âYes, Uncle.â
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There were no stars out yet, but you stared into the golden sky all the same. Your pretty dress and the picnic blanket beneath you did nothing to keep the gentle breeze from sending shivers over your skin.
The theme of this date was crueler than your uncle could have known, but it was your own fault for choosing it from the list. Another opportunity to torture yourself, and now you wallowed in it.
Stargazing.
Waves and waves of grief poured through you while that darkening sky revealed each star like a mirage. Hope had done nothing but torment you, yet you couldnât wish it away.
You had felt true love before meeting your fate. If your sister was safe, then everything was worth it.
Bargaining with the stars above while distant eyes enjoyed the show was a balancing act. It took all your strength to keep your pitiful cries inside. No matter how many times you tried to push it down, your mind went back. Back to that strange, little island youâd almost called home.
The steadiness you held impressed even you. It almost pushed you into laughter, until guilt finally won out over grief.
Buggy had given you so much. All youâd given him were lies and betrayal. You had abandoned him just like all the rest, and now you couldnât even die for him. You couldnât kill the monster that hurt him.
You couldnât stop your disgusting desire to betray him again.
Pretty, shining stars were dancing above you now, yet you kept your relaxed position, not even digging your nails into your palms. Those stars dug into you instead. They pierced through your sick heart while you tried to soothe your own guilt, and you clung to that beautiful locket while you gave yourself permission to hate yourself even more.
Pretend. That was all. Just one more night to pretend.
One more night to forget the world, even if it meant letting that traitor use you again, for no other reason than to numb your own pain.
Selfish. I never deserved you, Buggy. I wish I could kill him for you, but I⌠I wishâ
A shooting star cleared your mind for one, shining moment.
Why is it so dark?
âHey there, little bunny. Sorry about the wait,â said a domineering pirate that knocked over the basket of food when he walked across the picnic blanket.
The leeches were loving the chaos, and the growing chill in the air made you aware of how long you must have been lying there. That Emperor of the Sea was late, and heâd left you for the vultures to pick at, squawking with pleasure while youâd been fighting not to cry.
He was still late.
âThe chief didnât feel like stargazing, so we set up his tent for your date instead. Hope you donât mind.â
That tall gruff man offered his hand, and you were too foggy to resist. A few strands of his long gray hair fell over his eyes while he got you to your feet, but he only shook them aside. He kept his warm hands on you, smirking when he caught your eyes widening at the impressive flex of muscles across his arms and chest.
âThe nameâs Benn,â he shared with too much heat in his voice. That name spiked your heart rate, even more now as he lifted your chin to meet his gaze, pulling you against him.
Leeches were louder, but there were more voices close by that you couldnât make sense of yet.
âDonât be scared,â Benn scolded when you tried to step away. âThe crewâs only here to make sure your date doesnât get interrupted.â
âYeah, the Captainâs got big plans for you,â shouted a deep voice from behind you. It was too close, and more taunting hollers and whistles followed.
Somehow, humiliation broke through your guilt and grief, and you gave another useless attempt to get out of this manâs reach.
âWhat do you mean,â you growled, too much rage in your voice.
âThatâs a question for Shanks, bunny girl. Iâm just the delivery man,â Benn shrugged, his eyes still heavy on your skin. Then the overwhelming pirate threw you over his shoulder and ran, to riotous applause and laughter. The Red Hair Pirates flanked you, teasing and taunting along the way.
Benn moved so fast that you almost missed it while you struggled in his arms. Heâd placed one of those muscular hands on your ass, smoothing down the thin, red fabric of the sundress while he charged on. The image of his groping touch was blown up across the screens for all the guests to revel in. They gorged on your humiliation, still cheering and jeering so loudly you could hear them through the forest heâd carried you into.
Maybe I can kill him tonight.
That vengeful thought was doused quickly by the memory of your waiting sister, so you had to swallow it down. Remember your place.
This world belonged to greedy, monstrous men like your uncle, and like this Emperor that had ordered for you to be delivered to him like a meal. The Hunter and the prey whose blood would stain his hands while he feasted on its flesh.
Might as well close your eyes and try to enjoy it. You knew what this hunter could do, and the threat of danger reminded you of how sick you were.
Breaking out of the tree line again, you recognized this rolling set of hills, even though you could only see behind your captor while you bounced over his shoulder.
So many scrapes, bruises, and grass stains had followed you and your sister home from the spot youâd named, âUpside Down Hill.â The two of you would roll down the slope again and again into the basin-like stretch of grass until it was filled with laughter and squeals. It was surrounded by hills, just more piles of dirt, but that dip in the world had always felt a bit special. Magical.
That had to be where you were headed when Bennâs steps tilted down, as though you were descending into the earth itself.
You werenât.
You were carried like a sack of potatoes through the thick flaps of a tent, the scent of the traitor filling that warm space.
âPackage for you, chief,â Benn grunted as he tossed you onto a bed in the center of the large, captainâs tent. If you werenât too busy catching your breath and trying not to flash him while you sat up, you would have bitten the fingers he ruffled through your hair. âOoh, look at that fire. You didnât tell me you caught a bratty, little bunny.â
âOut,â Shanks ordered, and the power behind that single, quiet demand made you freeze like prey, yet again. Your anger meant nothing against such a beast. âMake sure no oneâs within earshot. Bunny and I need some privacy tonight.â
âAye, chief,â Benn submitted as he turned to leave, his job complete. That older, powerful pirate nodded in deference toward the hunter that held your gaze.
Shanksâ eyes werenât soft. He stared at your heaving chest while he lounged on a pretty, red chair; your body was still frozen except for the desperate breaths that pounded through you. Every instinct told you to run.
Run away.
There was no point in running anymore. Just let the beast devour you one more time. Just stop thinking, just feel something before you married a fate worse than death.
He kept you waiting in silence long enough that you broke loose, aching to feel anything but this. You crawled across the bed toward him, ready to beg. Shanks went to his knees, and you nearly wept with need, but he avoided your greedy hands to pull a small box from under the bed.
âYou kept me waiting out in the cold quite a while, Emperor,â you purred, pushing that red fabric higher up your thighs while your fingers traced along the skin. His eyes were frightening now, but you didnât care. Nothing mattered. âI thought you were going to keep me warm.â
Shanks clenched his jaw as he looked down at the box, setting its contents onto the red chair while he slumped onto the worn rug beside it.
Confusion and terror filled you in equal measure while the traitor patted the little, horned snail.
A jamming snail.
What more was this monster planning to do to you that heâd need this much privacy? Surely, heâd save any real punishments for after he owned you. The presence of his crew in the surrounding hills made your mouth dry, but the memory of his manic eyes while heâd played with you didnât fit with whatever was on his face now.
âShanks,â you muttered helplessly while the snailâs eyes turned red.
The Hunter crawled to you, sitting on the floor at your feet while he took your hand in his.
âStop.â The plea was useless when it left your lips. You didnât know where it came from, only that those brown eyes looked soft again. Too soft.
âIâm so sorry, Y/N,â the leech lied too fucking well. âIâm sorry for everything. Please, believe me. I came here to bring you back to Buggy. Heâs waiting for his star.â
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âFuck you!â
âBunny, IâŚâ Shanks was pathetic again, useless against this womanâs rage. Y/N had ripped her hand from his grasp to crawl off the bed until it was between them while she paced. She kept glancing at him and forcing her eyes away, as though the sight of him made her sick.
Maybe it did.
âReally,â she spat, near manic while her hands clawed into the air as she spoke. âWinning isnât enough for âThe Great Red Haired Shanks?â You have to fucking torture me too?â
âItâs the truth, bunnyâY/N,â Shanks nearly whimpered as he crawled around the bed, careful not to spook her as he drew closer. He had to keep crawling while she tried to keep the bed between them, disgust in every frantic movement. âI promise, if you marry me, Iâll take you home to Buggy. Home to the Cross Guild. Iâll do anything, please, believe me!â
That wasnât⌠I didnât.
There was no way that his last, desperate words had been a command. He could never do that to an innocent. Never to someone he cared about, someone so sweet.
The Emperor of the Sea was choking now, the air in that little tent burning into an anger so vicious that he winced, almost shielding his face from the blast of it.
How can she carry all this inside her, he wondered, cowering yet again.
âBelieve you,â Y/N mocked while waves of cruelty suffocated him. âEven if I believed you, I know what you are.â
Sheâd seen through him from the start.
âYou think Iâd think better of you for using me to get to Buggy,â Y/N challenged, gritting her teeth while she leaned over his slumped form. âI think Iâd prefer it if you used me for berry, or to destroy a Jewel Tree for your magic fucking boat. Knowing you, youâll try to do it all, wonât you? The Emperor wants EVERYTHING!â
Buggyâs star was shining with white, hot rage, stunning the greedy Emperor at her feet. She was so good at hiding, so very good at pretending. Yet, Shanks was awestruck at the sheer weight of hatred she could hide inside that precious body.
âOut,â Shanks ordered again, feeling his first mateâs concern before the man stepped too far into this storm of murderous wrath.
âChief,â Benn checked in through the flap of the tent. Y/Nâs eyes went wide with fear and fury at the sound of his voice before turning that malicious gaze back onto the trash at her feet.
âGet out,â Shanks commanded, the flavor of domination too familiar. Too easy.
He held his breath to brace for her fear, but Y/N just slumped onto the bed, her body loose while her head lolled to the side to meet his gaze. The tent was still thick with her emotions, but they seemed to slow. Less heat, but a feeling of sickness grew, nausea pouring through him.
The sight of exhausted tears in her eyes made him unable to tell which one of them those feelings belonged to.
âWhy donât you get out, Shanks? I know you donât want me. Iâm just in the way.â
âShh, bunny. Donât say that, please.â He almost touched her hand again, catching himself before another wave crashed down.
A wave of madness, of cruel laughter that ripped his worthless heart to shreds. She writhed on the bed, mocking and taunting, spitting words like acid to sear his flesh until nothing but bones and burning truths remained.
âYou want me to be quiet so you can pretend Iâm not there? You can fetch Buggy his star and sail away together on your magic boat. Iâll just sit in the corner so you can have everything you fucking want.â
âNo, pleaseââ
Shanks couldnât think. It felt as though heâd lived too long without shame, and now an ocean of it was being forced down his throat.
He couldnât breathe while that wounded star sneered at him.
âDonât you fucking dare tell me, âno.â I watched you. You took him from me, even when we wereâI know I had no right to feel that way after everything butâŚâ Y/N pulled him close, dragging him by the collar of his cloak while her voice cracked with pain. So sharp and jagged, Shanks could feel it in his own body, deeper than all the rest.
Heâd caused so much pain.
âYou made Buggy forget about me,â she sobbed, anger still present in the air like a weapon within reach. âYou pretended I didnât exist, but I forgave you. I told you to fucking take him, Shanks! You promised me!â
âY/Nâhey? Bunny,â Shanks panicked. The air around them had gone calm, everything soft and heavy when the woman before him went limp. He reached for her pulse, dreading that it would be as still as the air sheâd been dominating a moment before.
Maybe she passed out? She couldnât hide all that energy so quickly, couldnâtâ
His fingers found that miraculous pulse on her neck, drumming slower and slower, until his own spiked at the touch of her hand on his. Y/N sat up straight as she held onto him. She stayed so calm while she begged.
âI canât go with you, Shanks. I told you already, remember?â She made him dizzy, trying to remember something vital, but he couldnât look away from her. âYou promised that you would take Buggy and make him happy, but you lied! You promised me that youâd love him with everything in you.â
Buggy.
Shanks shook himself, but it was too late to save those words. Words heâd always meant to say to his oldest friend but never found the right time.
I donât deserve it anyway.
He pulled back enough that she was pulled forward slightly, refusing to free his cloak from her shaking hands. Her eyes were wide and unblinking as though she was trying to keep her tears at bay, but their failures had already stained her cheeks.
âYou promised. So, leave,â Y/N demanded. âI want to stay. Please, make him happy.â
âBunny,â he gasped while he reached for his last chance, fumbling with it as though he wasnât the âGreat Red Haired Shanks.â Finally pulling it free, he held the key between them and almost huffed a laugh at the adorable look of confusion on her face.
This whirlwind of a woman had overwhelmed him so thoroughly that heâd nearly forgotten the little key in his pocket. This key that he might have worn down into nothing if he held onto it another night, the tiny bit of metal like a worry stone to soothe his wretched soul.
Y/N was still staring at it, brows furrowed until he cleared his throat.
âThatâs a pretty necklace youâve got there, bunny,â Shanks breathed, a little freer now that Buggyâs locket had spilled from that red dress. He was feeling too much hope, but he was too damn selfish to fight it. âWhoever gave it to you must have good taste.â
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Somehow, no matter what corner of the world theyâd passed out in, the air always tasted sweet when he woke with Buggy in his arms. Shanks had never been a morning person, yet his body seemed to crave that feeling as much as his heart did.
His body seemed to grieve the loss of it, a split second of fear before he melted into the pleasure of feeling his lover beside him.
âMornin,â Bugs,â he teased, trailing his breath along Buggyâs shoulder while his little morning whines got louder.
âShanksâŚâ
His eyes rolled back at that perfect sound. He needed to make it louder, needed to hear it again and again. Shanks held himself back, though he was nearly drunk on Buggyâs sleepy moans.
He had to savor this.
Buggy wasnât ready to come back yet, but the future Shanks held in his mind made every goodbye all the sweeter. He didnât want to dwell on the absence when he could look forward to every chance encounter. Especially when each time they parted brought them closer to that lovely future.
He didnât see any other future ahead, except for the days he drank his doubts away.
Buggy would join him in the end.
âOf course you will,â Shanks almost commanded as he whispered along Buggyâs ear.
âI willâwhat? Ah, shit,â Buggy squirmed away when he caught eyes with his lover, though he didnât squirm very far. âYouâre still here? Youâd better pitch in for this room since youâFuck. IdiotâŚâ
âThatâs no way to greet a guest,â the red-haired pirate teased, his hand curled around Buggyâs body until he found his clown waiting and ready. Until Buggy started moaning again and the rest of the world, the rest of time, disappeared.
âYouâre more of a PEST than a guest,â the clown complained before Shanks gripped his balls, tugging slightly until Buggy relaxed against him. âAsshole.â
âIs that an invitation,â Shanks chuckled. He left kisses now while he pressed his cock against the squirming, grumbling clown. âMissed me, didnât you, Bugs?â
âShut up and fuck me already,â Buggy ordered, though his voice was breathy while he fetched the lube with a floating hand. Now he was squirming so well, lifting his thigh to let Shanks in. The red-haired lover played and praised, fingers reaching and stretching before he claimed his clown.
Perfect.
âKnew ya missed me, baby,â Shanks growled, triumph coursing through his veins when his body found Buggyâs again. Still lying on their sides, his hand reached around to grasp that swollen length while his own, brutal cock made all those pretty whines return. âYouâre so good for me, Bugs.â
âFuck, please,â Buggy whined when Shanks stopped stroking him. He gave out the cutest, little yelp when Shanks nipped at his neck, still pounding into him when he replied.
âPlease what, baby? Missing my touch already?â
Buggy turned to look at him over his shoulder, those beautiful eyes so desperate while he frowned.
Shanks snatched that blue hair, and Buggy disconnected his head from his neck to turn into that hungry kiss. He was rewarded with that greedy hand back on his leaking dick, but Shanks bit the clownâs lip to keep him from ending that delicious kiss.
The red-haired pirate drank in those precious noises now. They kept going while Buggy twitched and came in his hand. Such perfect noises while Shanks filled him up, so fucking high while he shoved himself deeper and deeper. Only the urgent need to breathe could have broken that kiss.
His clown stayed for a bit. Shanks ached to keep him now, but he took what he could get. Buggy stayed in his arms long enough to catch his breath before he was bickering again.
Shanks smiled at Buggyâs frown, even while he floated away.
It wouldnât be the last time.
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A key.
A missing key.
The onslaught of emotions youâd just drowned in seemed like nothing compared to the sickening mix of horror and hope that little key had sparked.
âNo.â
Shanks looked pained at your cowardly word, but he didnât reply, and he didnât move.
The key was just there, and you wished you didnât have to know.
A laugh, twisted and terrible, left your lips when you reached for it; your shaky hand was smeared with makeup and tears, and the thought of your pathetic cries was too much.
This was too much.
âI can helpââ
âDONâT TOUCH ME,â you screamed, batting that greedy hand away while yours fumbled with that warm lump of metal. That chain of guilt and brightness slipped easily from your neck, yet the loss of its weight was heavy, pulling you deeper into the quiet earth beneath you.
Itâs just a picture. Iâll get to see his face one last time. Thatâs good.
You hadnât looked at it in a while, and the pressure of more stupid tears burned your throat as you traced your fingers over the pretty pictures. That ship and its shining star. That six and its spade. That keyhole and it's no longer missing key.
The locket fell with its key, just a lump of metal on the bed while you held onto the true source of that warmth. You cradled an ear in your hands and somehow the raging storm of emotions within you went still.
It wasnât the sick stillness of escape. This stillness was quiet and warm. Soft and secret.
It made you forget the world.
It was just you, and Buggy, and his ear that had gone pink like it always did when he got flustered, when you praised him, and kissed him.
For just a moment, you were free. The vision was so clear that you laughed with gratitude. The most precious daydream played out in that one glorious moment, and it made everything alright.
Everything had been worth it.
âThank you for saving me, Buggy,â you breathed over his skin. âBut I need you to stop. I need you to let me go.â
âBunny, wait,â cried the red-haired hunter when you placed that lovely ear in his hand. âPlease, tell me what you need. Iâll do anything.â
There was no mirror in the tent that you could see, so you did what you could to clean the mess of makeup and tears from your face. Shanks followed you while you searched, while you stretched your body that felt so perfectly light without that chain.
Everything was fine now.
There was just one last thingâŚ
 âPlease, love him,â you smiled up at the Emperor while you cradled his cheek. âYou owe me, Shanks.â
Bells. Distant, but drifting through the hills. Soon you would leave this magical tent, this dip in the world.
Better to end it now before the pain hit again.
âLet me go, Shanks,â you sighed, still giving a true smile when he blocked your path to the exit. âI want toââ
âIâll kill him for you,â the monster vowed, those soft eyes gone hard as steel. His voice clawed through your stillness, until fear filled your veins. It started slow like poison, drifting up from the floor until you were nearly paralyzed beneath his looming form. âLet me end it right now, bunny. All these leeches deserve it, donât they? Cedrick deservesââ
âDonât you dare hurt him!â
Too much fear and rage slammed through you, so you couldnât even laugh at the dumbfounded look on his face.
The bells were closer.
âSame goes for you, Buggy,â you let out a hiss, regretting that your last words couldnât be sweet. âTell Crocodile and Mihawk, too. If any of you hurt my family in any way, I will never forgive you, or myself. I will hate you all with everything in me.â
âButâŚâ Shanks tried, but his mouth hung slack, his shoulders slumped while he still stood in your way.
âNo buts, Emperor,â you mocked. Your precious moment was gone now, replaced by anger and disgust in the only weapon you had. You were disgusting, but it would all be worth it. âIf you hurt any member of my family, I will kill myself. Youâd have to keep me in a fucking cage, but Iâd still find a way. Now, let me go.â
The Hunter didnât move, but he didnât stop you from going around him.
The night air was cool and sweet, but the fluffy robe wrapped around you like burning chains. You closed your eyes until you were shut away, not wanting to gaze at the sky again.
Youâd seen just a piece of your true love tonight, and no other shining stars could compare.
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She was gone.
Red Haired Shanks stared into the space sheâd left for what felt like decades, frozen in shame and disbelief, until glinting red caught his eyes.
âWait, Bugs! IâŚâ
The jamming snailâs glowing eyes drooped, slowing until the creature slumped within its horned shell. It looked nearly as sick as the failed hunter felt.
Shanks collapsed onto the bed, resisting the twisted urge to kiss Buggyâs ear, to take comfort, to take and take like he always did.
Heâd failed them all. He couldnât do anything.
And now heâd wasted his chance to apologize, not willing to risk the slim chance that he could still do any fucking thing to help.
He returned Buggyâs ear to that locket. It was a new, lovely worry stone for him to use.
Iâm no hero. Just an asshole.
Sick laughter surprised that Emperor of the Sea when it spilled from his lips, the memory so bittersweet as it flooded his mind.
Y/Nâs first accusation.
It hadnât been that cursed island; it was that sweet, sick girl. She had held up this mirror, and Shanks could only thank her, pitiful and weak while he cowered beneath his own reflection.
âToo much fun,â Benn asked, that deep voice too soft while he leaned over the bed to look him over.
Every bit of his life felt like a lie.
âNothing another bottle wonât fix, old man.â
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Nothing was real. Waking, breathing, moving, all felt wrong. It was supposed to be over already, yet you still existed in this unfamiliar body.
You still had to function for a few more days and Kat wasnât there to remind you to eat.
Your mother did the bare minimum, beaming at Shanks while she tasted all the dishes on the breakfast spread to encourage you to act like a normal, pretty doll.
How could you eat when the Emperor of the Sea kept his eyes on you?
The Hunter had almost been late, and he almost smelled like wine, but his voice was soft and villainous, and his gaze was a cruel torture. Temptation and punishment for your weak, selfish wants.
Yet, nothing could have weakened you more than the knowledge that Buggy was listening.
Shanks would keep him close, and any word you spoke would reach him.
How could you eat when you were being flayed alive?
âYou must have had quite the date,â Uncle Cedrick quashed what remained of your useless hope. âSeems you wore out the little bride already. Need some coffee, niece?â
There would be no escape, but Kat would be safe, and Buggy would be loved.
Thatâs good.
Everything else is fine.
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Red Haired Shanks had woken early.
Stupid, fucking birds were chirping too fucking close, the sharp sounds piercing through his skull. None of the bottles heâd drunk had fixed a thing.
The pain of the bright, loud morning outside his tent hadnât woken him; that warm lump of metal in his fist was enough. His clown was there, listening to his failures that piled higher and higher. He could have suffocated beneath the weight, as though this grassy basin was being filled with a mountain of dirt.
He could have laid there until the end, let the earth bury him away. The Emperor was nothing but a coward, relieved that he could drift into darkness on his own now. He didnât need the pomp and circumstance, the admiration or the trust heâd been gifted by so many.
Visions of laughter and smiling faces poured through like poison.
Shanks did want all of that. He wanted the life heâd made, and the comfort and steadiness that only being a hero could grant.
Yet, it was never enough.
More than anything, Shanks wanted to be a hero for the people he loved.
Iâve been going about this all wrong.
Shanks pieced himself back together, struggling not to think out loud. He held that warm metal in his pocket to keep from speaking to the piece of his love that dwelled within it.
I came here to be a villain, the red-haired hunter reminded himself while he watched Y/N fading away behind a smile and an empty plate. Shanks worked the crowd during their vapid interview, still disgusted by his ability to charm, and bewildered by her ability to pretend.
Y/N seemed truly empty now. Broken.
Itâs not over yet.
She had slipped from his grasp, all that energy inside her gone cold. Heâd spent so long chasing her, yet that precious little bunny had never been his prey.
âDear friends and Hunters,â his true prey beamed. Cedrick Sylvad had taken the stage again, controlling this insatiable crowd with ease. He seemed to glow when his game was played out, when his toys followed his every whim. âItâs been an honor to host you during this Hunt. Only two remain, and in two daysâ time, one of these Hunters will claim her.â
Shanks followed his preyâs guiding motion to stand beside him, the green-haired prince flanking his other side.
Leeches. Vultures. Pigs.
The horde of vermin writhed and squealed with pleasure, as though Shanks couldnât kill them in an instant for treating him like a toy, just there to amuse them.
âWe will have a day of rest tomorrow, so our Hunters and their lovely doe can think on their choice,â Sylvad announced. He dared to put his hand on Shanksâ shoulder, so at ease while he enjoyed the attention. âI wonder which of you will be joining our family⌠Either way, this wedding will be one for the books!â
Shanks nearly ended the man on that stage when those owning fingers squeezed his shoulder, shaking for just a moment as though showing off his new toy.
He couldnât kill him. Couldnât.
But Shanks would hunt him all the same.
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The next day was dark without that wounded star, her fading light still more beautiful than anything on this greedy island. No amount of wandering, or jokingly asking for his little bunny, could guide him to her.
Even her mountainous rage and despair were absent from the air, as though sheâd faded away completely.
It would have been easy to find her. He could just take her. His power shook beneath his skin, tempting, calling, seducing. Like an addict, Shanks had to ward off every bargaining thought.
If he wanted to be a hero, heâd have to do this the hard way, which was harder with every passing hour that his prey kept him waiting. Everywhere he looked, his own stupid face was displayed beside that cocky prince. Decorations and invitations to a wedding that was more of a game than anything else flooded the space.
Shanks frowned at one of the banners again, zoning out on the foggy treetops and decorative arrows and leaves.
Antlers were the only hint that Y/N was involved in this wedding at all. They framed the title, âThe Hunt Is Over,â leaving the faces of the Hunters to float above the trees, arrows pointing down toward the tantalizing question that so many had already lost berry over.
âWhich Hunter Will Claim Her?â
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It really was pretty. If Shanks didnât want to rip out their throats, he might have praised whoever designed the annoying sign that he couldnât stop staring at.
âExcuse me, Emperor Shanks?â
The pretty servant girl cleared her throat. Her eyes flew wide with fear when she met his stony gaze, until he remembered that he wasnât there to slaughter them all. She blushed at his false smile, his charm enough to cover the violence humming within, at least for this pretty girl that led him deeper in deeper into the monsterâs den.
âThere's my favorite Emperor,â Cedrick welcomed Shanks into his gleaming office.
Every perfect item seemed in its perfect place, except for a wooden chair along the wall beside the desk. Y/Nâs uncle motioned for Shanks to sit across from him in a cushioned chair that matched his own, but that wooden chair left a hint of disgust on the pirate's tongue that he had to choke down.
He tortures his food before he eats, doesnât he?
Shanks had to focus now. He had to charm this beast. Yet, it was all he could do to soothe the beast within him when Sylvad ordered his guards and servants from the room.
He couldnât kill him. Shanks couldnât go against her wishes, but he knew he was right on this.
Cedrick Sylvad deserved to die.
âMay I confess something rather embarrassing, Shanks,â he smirked, like a child that already ate all the sweets. It was all the pirate could do to keep pretending, so he nodded while he reached for the offered glass of whiskey to have something to cling to.
âOf course. Youâre one of my most fashionable friends now, arenât you?â
The beast laughed with pleasure while they tapped their glasses, hunger in his greedy eyes before he spilled his secrets.
âThe truth is, Iâm a bit of a fan,â Cedrick laughed at himself, and then at Shanksâ blank face. âI was enamored with tales of the Pirate King growing up. The thought of being so powerful that the world declared you a king⌠I couldnât get enough of those stories. Quite a clichĂŠ fantasy for a second son, I know. Yet, here I am, sharing a drink with Rogerâs apprentice.â
âTo Roger.â Shanks raised his glass again, hoping that the old man couldnât see him now.
âTo the One Piece,â Cedrick urged, a manic glint in his eyes while they toasted again. âAnd to Hunters and Kings that claim whatâs theirs.â
The man laughed while he opened a hidden window into a room beside the desk, so many glinting shells in that luxurious snail enclosure. The beast was having so much fun, almost giddy while he played with his toys.
The newest was a familiar, horned snail, but its red eyes stayed dormant for now, while he lined up a large projector snail to face the opposite wall.
âShanks, I am about to share some delicate family secrets with you. Regardless of whether you accept the terms of this marriage contract or not, I hope that you will take them to your grave.â
The beast dropped his smile with this somber tone, but Shanks could still taste it. He was having fun.
âYou have my word,â Shanks lied.
âIâm glad to hear it. I am going to show you something quite shocking, and quite dangerous. Please hold your questions until the recording is over, and the horned snail is active.â
He didnât wait for a reply before dimming the lights for the show.
Shanks almost killed him then. His own Haki fought against him, and he had to conquer himself now, otherwise that greedy island would be nothing but dust.
That wounded star⌠It was a nightmare. Endless clips of that broken girl reaching her breaking point, sick laughter filling the space while Shanks fought not to reach for the locket.
Many of the scenes were in a hospitalâan asylum, but the Emperor swallowed down more bile as other scenes followed Y/N through the world, as though everywhere sheâd gone had been owned by this monster and his fucking snails.
Each clip was short, but they all showed him what Cedrick wanted him to see.
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âDonât worry,â the young girl cackled while she rubbed her hands over her face, smearing lipstick down her chin while her little sister cried at her side. âItâs just dolls! Just pretend. Just a brokendollbrokendollâ'
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âIâll make you poor, and dead. Donât forget, your daughterâs not well!â
The wounded star was older as she breathed her rage against her motherâs face. A hint of fear showed in her motherâs eyes before Y/N walked away, harsh laughter following her through the halls.
Her laughter.
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âEveryone here wants to help you, Y/N,â floated an unnervingly soothing voice from off the screen while Y/N struggled with the restraints at her wrists. âWe want you to get well.â
âAnd I want you to fucking DIE! Haha HA!! That's right, you piece of shit, Iâm going to fucking KILL YOU!!ââ
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Y/N had no laughter or tears in the last clip. Just fury on her face while she lunged across a breakfast table toward her smirking uncle. Dishes shattered as she sent things flying, but she seemed to break more once the guards and servants pulled her back, soothing voices guiding that empty girl away.
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âMy apologies, Shanks. I know how shocking it must be to see such a sweet, young girl for the monster she truly is,â Cedrick sighed, the corner of his lips hinting at his delight. He swapped out his toys now, the visions of nightmares replaced by the jamming snailâs red eyes. âPlease, allow me to explain.â
The Emperor of the Sea couldnât speak, but the beast didnât seem to mind. Cedrick filled their glasses again and enjoyed the sound of his own voice.
âMy dear brother was quite sentimental, if you recall,â Cedrick began, almost including Shanks in the conversation. âHe cared for my dear niece so much that it broke the poor girlâs mind when he passed. After all these years of treatment and support, Iâm afraid that Y/N will always be sick. That last clip was just a few weeks ago, you see.â
The burn of whiskey on his tongue. His mind couldnât focus on anything else.
âIâve done everything I can to protect her, and the people around her,â Sylvad bragged, resting his feet on the edge of his desk. âUnfortunately, Arbo put us all in a difficult position with his will. That sick girl is his sole heir, and sheâll only become the heir when she marries. Even more dangerous than that, he declared that whoever my niece marries will own half of our familyâs company once the vows are sealed.â
Shanks remembered to act surprised, but he still couldnât speak. Cedrick nodded at his furrowed brows and continued on.
The beast knocked on the wood beside the jamming snail, drawing the Emperorâs eyes. Controlling even him.
âIâm sure you can understand why Iâve gone to such lengths to protect Y/N from her fatherâs blunders. The poor girl isnât well. Putting her, let alone whatever villain that decides to take her for himself, in charge of her fatherâs legacy would be cruel. Shameful.â
âOf course,â Shanks managed to say something, although he wasnât sure what.
The beast seemed pleased by the sound, his tone shifting while he tilted his head back and forth.
âI have had the great honor of guiding my family through this storm,â Sylvad dragged on. âI will do everything to protect the Sylvad family legacy, so I have allowed my sick niece as much freedom as possible, but itâs time to set things right. Sheâs unwell.â
He had to stop sinking. Shanks had to wake up.
Had to fix this.
âSo, she needs a husband that can head the company? I didnât thinkââ
âY/N needs a husband that will sign their half of the company to me so that I can continue to run it without exposing how vulnerable and violent Arboâs favorite daughter is.â
Finally. Finally, fucking getting somewhere.
Cedrick pulled a crisp sheet of paper from the drawer beside him, laying it out along with a wooden pen carved and etched with gold branches and leaves.
âThis seems a bit rushed,â Shanks teased, trailing his fingers across the contract. âWhat if Y/N doesnât choose me? What if I decide to take her and elope instead?â
âSuch a pirate,â Sylvad chuckled, as though praising a favorite pet. âAs youâve seen, my dear niece has been sick since she was a child. We have kept it hidden to protect her dignity and the familyâs reputation, and although weâve kept the full details of Arboâs will hidden as well, it wouldnât matter. Y/N canât get married.â
He gave a deep laugh now, leaning his head back after Shanksâ confused expression.
Shanks was going to kill this man if he kept this going much longer.
âDue to a legal conflict of interest with the stipulations in Arboâs will, Delaine wasnât able to take on the role after he passed, so my sister-in-law came to me for help. As Y/Nâs conservator, it has been my duty to keep her healthy, and to provide as much freedom as is safe for someone in her condition.â
The realization hit the Emperor like a punch to the gut, but he sipped his drink to keep from showing it.
He really does own her.
âSo, donât go getting greedy, friend,â Cedrick scolded, tapping the contract between them. âEven if you steal her away, I must give consent and sign the documents for her marriage to be binding. Worry not, Iâm sure youâd rather be out on the seas than mired in paperwork. Youâll still gain plenty of wealth, land, resources, a butchered Adam tree⌠Hells, I can even call in favors for you if you need certain areas cleared on your path to the One Piece. The Sylvad family takes care of its own.â
Shanks looked it over, noting that all he said was true. All it asked of him was to transfer over his portion of the Sylvad company immediately upon marriage. If he married Y/N, her uncle would win.
He signed it. He was here to charm the beast.
âWonderful,â Cedrick purred while he studied Shanksâ signature and added his own. âNow, regarding the question of Y/Nâs choice⌠Iâd like to offer you another deal, in case my dear niece chooses the prince. You will gain everything from this agreement, except you will be marrying a younger, healthier, less⌠traveled bride.â
Cedrick pulled a picture frame from the top drawer of his desk, smiling at it before he laid it between them like he had the contract.
Kat. Y/Nâs little sister, beautiful, even without the matching family smile.
âI understand if youâd like to punish the brat that cost you the Jewel Tree Adam all those years ago,â Sylvad beamed over his steepled fingers when Shanks met his gaze, âbut I assure you, Kathryn will make a much finer Queen.â
âBoth of these deals favor me,â Shanks tried, lost in the riptide of this manâs little world. How could he charm the beast when the beast kept pulling him closer, offering more and more? âWhat is it that Iâll be bringing to the table? Thereâs no company to sign away for Kathryn, is there?â
âIâm a fan, remember?â
The pleasure in those words shifted the air in the room, and Shanks was too busy trying not to be sick to figure out why.
âFollow me, Shanks, Iâll prove it.â
He obeyed, following the man that owned too much across the large room to stand before one of the many paintings of cedar trees along the walls.
Sylvad was humming again when he pressed the side of the gilded frame. The painting swung out on a hinge to reveal a few smaller frames that held various wanted posters and newspaper clippings inside, but Cedrick drew his attention to the article in the center.
It was old, so many secrets protected behind glass and gold.
âThat article doesnât say much,â the beast sighed, letting Shanks read it, as though the pirate could read a thing right now. âBut the author is a friend of mine, so I got to hear Morgansâ real take on the God Valley Incident. Rumors that even that old bird wouldnât risk putting to paper, but if theyâre true⌠Well, Iâd be an even bigger fan.â
The Emperor could just leave. Run like a coward from the sick desire in his enemyâs eyes. Â Â Â
But he had promised.
âWhat do you mean,â Red Haired Shanks asked. He hoped he could tear that question from the world, so heâd never have to say those fucking words again for the rest of his life.
Cedrick took in a breath, wetting his lips before gripping the Emperorâs shoulder again. He couldnât know how close to death he was.
âSylvadâs are good at keeping secrets, Shanks,â he promised before leaning close enough to breathe the secret along Shanksâ ear. âMy nieces would be honored to carry the blood of Dragons.â
No. Run away.
Shanks couldnât run. Heâd promised to become a villain to save her. A monster.
Cedrick Sylvad dragged that greedy hand along his arm, not even flinching when the Emperor looked down his nose at him.
This trash thinks he can own everyone, doesnât he?
âDo you agree to both offers, Shanks? Will one of my nieces be mother to aâ â
âOf course, Cedrick,â the monster purred. âHow could I resist?â
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Author's Note: Wowzers, this one was a lot. I've had this chapter outlined since before the Hunt began, but finally getting to write it felt intense. I think I psyched myself out, lol. I hope you enjoyed it! Also, who's ready for the wedding?? I have some wedding plans drawn up already, but I had to stop myself from focusing too far ahead until I got to this point, so I don't have a chapter estimate yet. Knowing me, this might be a lengthy wedding, lol. It'll definitely be a wild one though đĽ°

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Chapter 41

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Lani's Birthday Oneshots: 2024 đ§
As per tradition, today is my birthday and as a gift to you, I present a HP ONESHOT REC LIST to celebrate đĽł! Here are 15 oneshots, under 10k words (mostly), one for each day in June leading up to my birthday. Lots of genres, lots of tropes, ordered by ship (kinda).
đź - fluff | đ - angst | đĽ - smut
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1. The Pirc Defence by @sleepstxtic [Draco/Harry, E, 10k] âď¸âŁď¸ This fic is brilliant!! Masterful, even. Kat does it again with the intriguing plot, the deeply intense relationships, and strongly lovable characters. This is the chess rivals to lovers fic that everyone deserves and needs to read RIGHT NOW.
2. Nightswimming by @sweet-s0rr0w [Draco/Ron, established Draco/Harry, M, 5k] đĽđ This fic is delicious. Searing hot anticipation. That feeling right before the climax, the first spark of the match before the fire is fully lit. Exquisite. I just want to bask in it.
3. Postcards Of A Life Well Lived by @ghaniblue [Luna/Draco/Harry, M, 950] đźđŚ Georgeous slice of life. I love the dynamic between the three, weaving in and out of each others' lives. Luna is a gem.
4. This Tree Grows from Ash and Dust by @wellhalesbells [Dudley/Draco, M, 9k] đâŁď¸ This fic is rife with tension. The Drudley dynamic sucks you right in and with unrequited Drarry in the background! I cannot get enough.
5. Different by @camelliacats [Nigel/Colin, T, 10k] đźđ Canon-compliant how Nigel falls in love with his best friend's brother. Teen romance, first loves, and all the wonderful complicated feelings that come along with it.
6. self-made by @onewhodiedyoung [Cho/Ginny, T, 3k] đ𦢠Beautiful post-war story. Ginny grappling with her identity and who she is after everything. Cho knowing and supporting and growing.
7. My Kink Is Karma by @chaos-bear [Lavender/Gilderoy, E, 3k] đĽđ¤Ł What a pairing!! Hilarious fic with some hot and then awkward smut. But absolutely perfect.
8. thorns, in amber by @thisisdecemberista [Sirius/Lily, established James/Lily, E, 5k] đđĽ God, this fic. The infidelity angst mixed with war mixed with their all-consuming love for James. A whirlwind of emotions that had me in a death grip. So so good.
9. Bouquet by sky_watcher_rose [Minerva/Poppy, T, 3k] đźđ So sweet, so lovely! A professors getting together story that melts my heart. I always knew Minerva was a sweetheart beneath that strict exterior.
10. the end of illusions (who could ever be saved) by lovelit [Tom/Percy, E, 3k] đŚđ Percy discovers Tom's diary and things spiral from there. I absolutely adore Percy in this: hardworking, overlooked, and just seeking a friend.
11. Come Slowly, Eden by Paimpont [Voldemort/Molly, M, 3k] đ𼧠A pairing that at first glace seems incongruous but actually works so well! Molly showing Voldemort kindness, and him showing her family mercy. *chef's kiss*
12. Tom Riddle Sr. by @limetameta [Tom & Tom Sr, T, 4k] đđĄ A Tom Riddle Sr. character study in which he raises Tom on his own. Voldemort is so much the same, and so much different. I would read so much more of this universe.
13. Unfinished by @turanga4 [Fat Friar & Harry, T, 1k] đđ Grief, love, and loss. A lovely, heartfelt look into the aftermath of the BOH and Harry finding comfort in Hogwarts.
14. Through the Sleepless Night by @mugsdontlie [Mundungus & Arabella, T, 2k] đźđ I love friendship fics and I love their friendship here! Mugs is the master of rare pair dynamics. There's such familiarity between the characters. It feels so real and the perfect backdrop to canon.
15. Sexy Gobs by @emilyrickman [Lighning Era & Professors, T, 650] đźđ Hilarious and so creative. The formatting is insane! But I'm most impressed by creating a cohesive story simply from a couple of post-it notes.
BONUS FIC (>10k): Wit Beyond Measure by @midnightstargazer [Unrequited Bloody Baron/Grey Lady, T, 14k] đđ Stunning, amazing fic showcasing Helena Ravenclaw. Struggling under the expectations of her mother, leaving to find herself, and returning to safeguard the castle's students. I love the depth, the fleshed-out insight we get into her character!
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Want more fics to read?
Try my rec tag:Â #lumosinthelibrary
Bday Oneshots (<10k), Year in Reading, WLW Library
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My types of readersđ
So, please be nice. I'm not trying to copy @princessbrunette at all nor anyone else who makes readers like this. She has inspired me to do something cutesy and nice! I've made the readers personalities and aesthetics completely different from hers.
I'm going to give a bit of an background description of the reader so you get a feel of what they are like!
â¨My readers are...
đFox Reader(nickname: FoxyđŚ)
-Fox reader tends to be a bit of a daredevil and tends to be a bit mischievous. She loves to sneak around and hide, eventually jumping out and scaring people. She loves the color orange and is obsessed with stiletto nails and flowers.
THIS IS HER AESTHETIC
đBunny Reader(nickname: bun bunđ°)
-Bunny reader is very outgoing and extremely chill. She tends to get shy sometimes but can have a bit of attitude and isn't afraid to speak up for herself. Some people think she gives off Cher vibes from Clueless. She's just a simple girl who loves pink and being a humble girl boss.
THIS IS HER AESTHETIC
đPuppy Reader(nickname: pupđś)
-Puppy Reader is adventurous and loves to play and have fun. It's never a dull day with puppy reader. She loves the outdoors and is an extreme extrovert. She tends to let her curiosity get the better of her and can get into dangerous situations but she always uses her smarts and finds a way out. If not, she'll cry about it to get her way lol.
THIS IS HER AESTHETIC
đKitty Reader(Nickname: Kit Katđ)
-Kitty reader is very proper and sophisticated and very mature. She takes her loved ones and her job very seriously. She can be playful when she wants to be and she can be very sharp and strict. Her favourite phrase is probably "What? Cat got your tongue?" and then laughs in your face.
THIS IS HER AESTHETIC
đDeer Reader( nickname: BambiđŚ)
-Deer reader is very doe eyed and smart. She is also very quiet and mostly kept to herself. She's the type to be extremely introverted around new people but once she gets comfortable with you, she vibes with you and lightens up a bit. She's very sweet and innocent and she loves to do the right thing.
THIS IS HER AESTHETIC
#Moodboards#Au's!#My readers!#Enchanteds readers<33#deer!readerđŚ#kitty!readerđ#puppy!readerđś#bunny!readerđ°#foxy!readerđŚ
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Oh! Could you narrate me? If that's okay- also you can call me Kat (or Charles) I don't think I ever mentioned that
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âOh! How wonderful! Hopefully you wonât throw my narration off the way @biblically-accurate-crow did when I narrated them⌠and it is nice to finally know your name.â
âThis is the story of a man named Charles.
âCharles interests was simple. when he was bored they would re-blog posts they found interesting or they would ask questions to his favorite ask blogs.â
âThey liked all sorts of things⌠from portal, to the Stanley parable, dork diaries, home stuck, and just over all meme culture⌠until one dayâŚâ
âhe wanted a break from his screen. An actual fulfilling job that would bring him some joy. so he got up and got a job in an office building and from that moment on they became employee 417. employee 417âs job was simple and that was to walk back and forth from office to office and deliver scripts to there boss⌠yet he had never seen his bosses face. And from then on he made it his lifeâs goal to find out who his mysterious faceless âbossâ wasâŚâ
â�� now dear reader⌠as you know the last scripted narration I made didnât work as well. So I will give you some more⌠choice in this. What will you do?
1. Grab the papers and return it to your bosses inbox.â
2. Knock on your bosses door and demand to see his face.â
3. Other make you your own â
âNow with those option in mind I hope this will stir my old creative juices.â
Sincerely the narrator
#the stanley parable narrator#tsp narrator#your narrator#ask the narrator#the stanley parable#tspud#tspud rp#the stanley parable: ultra deluxe#narrator tsp#narrator
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⌠. âĄă . ăâş ă . ⌠. âĄă . ăâş ă . âŚ
đđ°đ catgloopbunthing (kat-glue-p-bun-thing): a gender related to being catgender, bungender, green slime, aliens, stickers, and being a thing! this gender is very vast and can take other gender in itself to make it even bigger! req @ no one ! made by ? -> the flag and gender are free to use! /gen (check our dni before interacting)
#mogai community#mogai coining#gender coining#mogai safe#xenogender#mogai blog#thinggender#catgender#bungender#slimegender#aliengender#stickergender#catgloopbunthing#âď¸;; Heaven Sent#đď¸;; He Who Is Immortal
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Hello! Just donated âŹ4.97, my name is Kat đ. Thank you.

Hello Kat; here is your print and thank you again.
We start with the oracle of animals. You had the ram (it does not matter if you are not of this sign) here is his message:
I am the ram, I ask you about the progress of your projects, do you put all the means in place to bring your life projects to fruition. I will help you end procrastination, with perseverance, I can help you achieve your life projects. With me, I invite you to change, I am a sign of fire = of passion, creativity and youth. If you question your legitimacy and have a low self-esteem, call me I'll be there for you.
The oracle of angels here are your 3 quotes:
- No matter where you are in the world, an angel is with you. - God's children always hear the angels - angels help you take care of your body.
With the Akashic tarots: We start with the rising moon, we are at the beginning of a new cycle, the windows are open = new possibilities can come into your life, if you adapt. Here, there is an artist who sculpts, a creative who works hard and who does not look at the hours, he draws several sketches to achieve perfection, he is not afraid of failures, he starts all over again. not very far. But in the center we have 2 cards the inverted Queen of the Forces and the karmic trenches: this means that you are not sure of yourself and your abilities, you can succeed as you sabotage yourself. You still nurture the same thought or karmic patterns that make prosperity sterile, yet if you observe the karmic trench map, there is a horse that can help you and you already have some of your land already plowed just plant. seeds. But there is hope even a wish that is going to be excused in a romantic encounter or a new job, only if you roll your eyes = if you are truly aware of your potential.
With the golden tarots: I feel the decline of a masculine energy, the absence of dialogue on the part of a masculine energy. Yet you had hoped a lot of this person with the energy of the Empress, aborted plans, you were in a position where you know what you want but not this person. Has this male enerie left? I also see an apology from him but he made the decision to leave even with these apologies ?! he left you alone in emotional grief, no concrete response, impossible to complete this emotional cycle with the wheel of fortune reversed and the 10 cups reversed.
Ok, I understand better why, I am told to tell you about some tips to cut and move forward in your life, because it is time.
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You are asked to listen to this for at least 1 month, during cleaning, or cooking, during a nap or activity or while driving your car.
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hiya! can you make a flag for someone who loves the moon and stars, cats, pastel colors and this emoji? đˇ (o^â˝^o)
also if you can, can you tell me some pronouns and names relating to the description above? thank you!!
your gender is queued and your pronouns as well as names can be found underneath the cut !!
NAMES
here is a whole list i made of names relating to stars i think you may like ^_^
tulip/tulipa
tabby/tabbi(e)/tabitha
catherine or katherine, could go by "catie" or "katie" as a nickname, or "cat"/"kat"
lynx
tiger
felis
cali/cal
celeste
patch
shadow
max
simba
star
PRONOUNS
cat/cat/cats/cats/catself
kit/kit/kitty/kitty/kittyself
kit/kitten/kitten/kittens/kittenself
me/meow/meow/meows/meowself
paw/paw/paws/paws/pawself
bell/bell/bells/bells/bellself
tu/lip/tulip/tulip(s)/tulipself
moon/moon/moons/moons/moonself
star/star/stars/stars/starself
pa/pas/past/pastel/pastelself
đˇ/đˇ/đˇs/đˇs/đˇself
đ/đ/đs/đs/đself, đ/đ/đs/đs/đself, đ/đ/đs/đs/đself, đ/đ/đs/đs/đself, đ/đ/đs/đs/đself, đ/đ/đs/đ/đself, đ/đ/đs/đs/đself, or đ/đ/đs/đs/đself
đ/đ/đs/đs/đself
đ/đ/đs/đs/đself orđ/đ/đs/đs/đself
â¨/â¨/â¨s/â¨s/â¨self
âď¸/âď¸/âď¸s/âď¸s/âď¸self
đ/đ/đs/đs/đself
đ /đ /đ s/đ s/đ self
đ/đ/đs/đs/đself
đą/đą/đąs/đąs/đąself
đ/đ/đs/đs/đself or đââŹ/đââŹ/đââŹs/đââŹs/đââŹself
#twy's name + pronoun help !!!#anonymous#pronoun suggestions#pronoun themes#neopronouns#neoprns#nounself pronouns#emojipronouns#emoji pronouns
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@186yyxy tagged me to do this, tysm! đ
rules: answer the questions & tag 10 people
name: some ppl call me lia, some ppl call me kat. whoâs to really say at this point
gender: am girl
height: 5â3â ;-;
sexuality: bi!
favorite animals: oh iâm so glad you asked. i love them all very very much but my faves are cats, bunnies, foxes, seals, raccoons, turtles, bats, & bears in that order
average hours of sleep: anywhere from 4 to 7 itâs different every night uwu
cats or dogs: i love both but cats đ
current time: 3:59 pm
dream job: i donât have one! i hate having a job and i working so my dream is marrying rich or something idk
when i made this blog: july 2011! i think iâve had this particular url since early this year tho
why i made this blog: my sister told me to make an account so i did, but i didnât start using it actively until like 2013-ish cause thatâs when i started getting more interested in fandom communities
reason for url: scorbunny is my favorite pokemon but all the cute versions of it were taken so i just went up an evolution and added an o
i tag @kiwiz, @avatar-aaang, @sunflowerseulgi, @bitchymochi, @scacey, @got7, @readmangoes, @helpfuldilemma, @lilyshilo if you want + anyone else whoâd like to! đ
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Drooling over Communication
Communication and apologies must be trending because the Thai Bls are serving them up hard. We don't care why, but we are so here for it.
ThamePo (the absolute GOAT when it comes to apologies!)
Your Sky wins for communication, boundaries and consent!!! đ Waiting is HOT!!!
Perfect 10 Liners
Most emotionally aware ML goes to Brewing Love
#đ Dori has been drinking and the typos made this post take 5 years#đ Kat is ready for bed#we are too tipsy to be clever#Don't know what to do with all this healthy communication!#emotional intelligence is sexy#perfect 10 liners#your sky#your sky series#your sky the series#thamepo#thamepo series#thamepo the series#thamepo heart that skips a beat#brewing love#brewing love the series#kdrama#thai bl#thai drama#bl drama#going to bed... maybe#...we mean separately#queer but not for each other#gmd post#gmd rambling
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Post nine gifs of your favorite characters and let people guess your type.
Then tag nine more people to do the same đ
Wanna play along and not tagged? Do it! Just tag us so we can see your answers!!!
Oh this is FUN! It's our first time participating in a tag game. Thanks @hughungrybear for inviting us to play along!
Since there are two of us, we are going to color code this post and both participate. For this post, đ Kat's answers will be PURPLE and đ Dori will be GREEN.
Let's Go!
It was HARD to come up with answers, and we reserve the right to change our minds tomorrow! 𤣠Here are our favorite characters in no particular order:
1.
Faifa from Perfect 10 Liners
Kuea from Cutie Pie
2.
Johan from Fourever You
Bison from The Heart Killers
3.
Joke from Jack & Joker (by a hair, a hair I tell you! A thin one!)
Jack and Joke from Jack & Joker (I know it's technically two people, but I can't pick)
4.
Payu from Love in the Air
Namping from Every You, Every Me (thank GAWD this was only 2 episodes because I barely survived)
5.
Ming from My Stand-In
Ming from My Stand-In
6.
Cake from My Only 12%
Seeiw from My Only 12%
7.
Po from ThamePo (honorable mentions: THE ENTIRE CAST)
Ko Yeong from Love In The Big City
8.
Tian from Tale of a 1000 Stars
Khai from Theory of Love
9.
Dongfang Qing Cang from Love Between Fairy and Devil
EVERY character in Begins Youth (I'm not picking and you can't make me)
Decided to let tumblr pick the 9 people to tag and play if you feel like itđ: @heretherebedork @respectthepetty @babyangelsky @nabi-unveiled @lurkingshan @anpanman95 @ppeonppeonhan @tortibomb @mamuljjukrapao
Editing to add our type for anyone interested :)
We 100% spent way too much time overthinking this, but it was SO fun and we've loved seeing everyone's lists! Thanks to everyone for playing along with us!
đ Kat
What was my theme again this week? Just kidding, I watched P10L today so I'm full-up on Faifa love and dreamy sighs this morning. I came to this asking myself "What characters took up residence in my head and made me obsess over them for awhile?" Even then it was hard to narrow it down, and some of my choices were all over the place. A common theme I appreciate is what made up this list. Drum roll please: I love a character who is all in supporting/loving/taking care of their partner. Sometimes I like them soft and fluffy like Faifa, sometimes I like them a little toxic and crazy, extra points if they rock some delicious daddy dom energy. (Sprinkle in some delicious angst and pain and I am ALL IN.) I can think of a lot of characters who COULD have made this list based off the theme, many are characters I liked from series I enjoyed. But, if they're going to take up residence in my head, they have to have a little something extra that sets them apart from the crowd, a special ingredient that makes me obsess over them. Each of the characters in my list has that something extra. I won't bore y'all with the details here, but if anyone wants to know what makes me love any of these characters in particular or just to squee together, I'm happy to talk all day about my favorites in another post.
đ Dori
My favorite characters are ones that make me live their pain. I love when characters bring me along for their emotional journey. But these characters caused me wounds that need to heal, only to eventually scar and become part of me. That isn't to say that characters that hurt me are the only characters I love an unhealthy amount, but they are the ones I spend WAY too much time thinking about and can't forget.
Although I definitely enjoy some angst and pain, I really don't like being hurt too badly and need a happy ending. I don't want to end up ugly crying with a face full of tears and snot! Some of these characters did me real dirty and can not be forgiven for what they put me through! Looking at you Jack & Joke, Namping, Ko Yeong, and EVERYONE in Begins Youth!
Also, when putting together this list, I made myself a rule that I couldn't pick multiple characters from the same show. I mostly followed this rule, with a couple exceptions... I couldn't let 7 of the 9 be characters from Begins Youth! I lived in the pain of that show for WEEKS! Fadel lost by a hair to Bison. Fadel hurt me longer and gave me way more wounds, and part of me loves him more. But another part of me is still on the freaking beach with Bison asking Kant if he's fooling him again! That single moment cut me deep. And I had originally picked Third from Theory of Love because there was so much pain there. But I found myself stuck in that train station with Khai, his quiet and accepting tears, blaming no one for his pain and loneliness other than himself. I went through similar process with all the people that made it on this list. These are some of the characters I have spent the most time thinking about and living in their pain.
đ @nabi-unveiled was spot on pinning down Kat's list and was got the main idea guessing Dori's! đĽ°
#that was HARD!#disappointed our girls didn't make the top 9#also the BLs have been killing it#they took almost every spot#tag game#gmd post#gmd rambling#gmd list#gmd kat#gmd dori
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Pick Nine: Characters I Dream About
đ Dori's List
When playing a recent tag game, @nabi-unveiled mentioned that their "dream about" list would be very different from their favorite character list and that made us very curious. So we said, I'll show you mine if you show us yours! So they did! Here's @nabi-unveiled's Characters I Dream About and đ Kat's list. This post will be mine :)
Wanna play too? Consider this your official invite! Just make sure to tag us so we can follow along â¤
Is it hot in here?
Let's go!
As usual, I spent WAY too much energy and time overthinking this list đ I also had to come up with some rules for myself. When you make your list, do it how ever you want. No need to follow my self imposed rules. Also, I apparently feel the need to explain some things about making this list for anyone actually interested. Skip ahead if you don't care to find out how my brain works! LOL. In my mid 40s, I learned some things about my current self while making this list.
Dori TMI Ahead
First, when trying to come up with my list, I hit an immediate wall when trying to decide who I want to dream about. If I let my dreams include myself, anxiety and other factors made me immediately uncomfortable and caused a momentary crisis if I am honest. What I like to think about is not the same as what I want to experience, apparently even in my imagination, so I needed to take myself out of the equation. In my list, I'll be dreaming about getting a bonus scene with their partner. đ
My brain has decided it doesn't want to memory right now. I must be spending so much time and energy mentally living in what I am currently watching because I could only think of characters I have watched semi recently.
Also, I am apparently too lazy to be creative. Generally, I don't think of people in a sexual way unless given a reason. Something about their actions or words has to spark that thought process for me or I have to intentionally go there, it doesn't happen accidentally. So for that reason, when I ask my brain for this type of character, I am finding it harder to consider characters outside the more spicy series. They just aren't popping into my mind right now.
Since my brain is lazy and wants to think about only characters I have watched lately AND have shown me their sexy side, my list is apparently limited to the spicy thai BLs I have watched. đ¤Ł
Notes about my preferences:
Bodies are bodies and although I find many of them beautiful and sexy and I enjoy looking at them, this does not directly connect to sex in my brain. For me, I need context of what those bodies are doing to connect those dots. For this reason, attraction to the physical image of a person will not give them access to my fantasies.
I'm need more than a pretty meat suit to be attracted to a human. It takes personality and usually some kind of emotional connection. A pretty package is just bonus.
In real life, I am a green flag girl. I have a DEEP love for my green flag characters, but I don't mind some red flags in my fiction. Butterflies come from the safety part of our brain, so sometimes a red flag is exactly what gets my sexy spidey senses tingling. đ
Who made the list? I find desire sexy as hell. My favorite character to "dream about" will always be characters that know what they want, aren't shy about it, and enjoy being physical. These are characters I want to see lose themselves in their desire, whether through taking control or surrendering.
Finally, the Characters I Dream About in no particular order and only for today because I reserve the right to change my mind tomorrow đ¤Ł
1) King from Bed Friends. King has no shame when asking for what he wants while also caring for the wants of his partner. He doesn't run from his desire even when what he desires changes from something physical into something more emotional. Love Uea in this series too, but he's holding back from fully leaning in to what he wants (initially and for reasons). So the guidelines I set for myself made this an easy choice for once. I spent way too much time thinking about these two while making this list and now I think I need to re-watch this.
2) Ming from My Stand-In. Ming's one of my favorite red flags. Also, one of my first BLs. His want turned to need in a way that had me pretty obsessed. I want some more please.
3) Great from 4 Minutes. My favorite Great when it comes to something I want to dream about is the original timeline Great. He is really just there for the pure enjoyment of the moment. Zero shyness or shame and doesn't even care about secretly being recorded. Frick... I need to re-watch this one too đ
4) Johan from Fourever You. Excuse me Sir, that was hot! We will not be discussing what that did to my sexy spidey sense đł
5) Kant from The Heart Killers. Not going to lie, this one surprised me and I am both confused and not confident about his appearance on this list. This show is overflowing with characters that give themselves over to what they want with many that seem to fit my tastes/guidelines better; Style's over the top unquenchable need, the intensity of Fadel's early episode pent up energy, or Bison and is barely contained emotions that take over in the blink of an eye. Plus half the scenes we got of Kant, he was scared or overwhelmed by guilt, so he should be completely ruled out. Maybe I just want to see him back at episode 1, just there for the pleasure of moment. Or maybe I am fooling myself and it is really all about that top lip and butt grab! But I think he's the one I would want to see the most... right now... in this moment... I may change my mind in 30 seconds. Also, why am I so fascinated with his top lip?!? Like I need that in 3D.
6) Namping from Every You, Every Me. I can't talk about him. It was love at first sight and I desperately wish I could have seen him just give in and live in that moment. đđđ Fuck this show.
7) Meunfah from Your Sky. I just saw these two as the cutest ever, right up until they weren't. đł For someone that finds desire sexy, these two had me unhinged. Fah went from completely consumed by love to completely consumed by passion and I could watch these two all day. When trying to choose between the two, Fah won with his straight forwardness, how he is so tuned into his partner, and his self control when it's necessary. Though the way Teerak gets absolutely swept away makes me want to live in that body.
8) Phu from The Boy Next World. It's about how badly they want each other. And Cir has some unreal levels of self control when it comes to reigning himself in, which I apparently find hot as fuck. But this time, it's the way Phu hits the gas when Cir is trying to pump the breaks that I can't stop thinking about... today, in this minute.
9) my brain is done braining so I will go with an easy pick Lian from Cutie Pie. They spent so much time showing us beautiful loving scenes between these two, but I definitely dream about Lian letting go and getting lost in the intensity of his need for Kuea. đĽľ
Honorable mentions that didn't make the cut:
Thame from ThamePo. Thame is 100% my every dream when it comes to a partner. If there was one character I could be, it would be Po. I WANT SOMEONE TO BE TIRED FOR ME!!!! Fuck. That show was relationship porn. And the butterflies I got when he touched Po's hand to hold it for the first time... my sexy spidey sense did things that defy logic or reason. And it may have taken him a minute, but once he decide to go for what he wanted, there was no hesitation.
Sian from Every You, Every Me. Damn my own self inflicted rules forcing me to choose between him and Namping. But it was a hard choice. Sian's don't give a fuck confidence and willingness to go after what he wants was hot as hell.
I really wanted a woman on my list and I know there are many that I could come up with if I gave it more thought, but I am tired. My lazy brain is filled with my current watches, which don't have any women I think of in this way. But one did come to find from a couple years ago... Dao Ming Zhuang from Meteor Garden. I was already in love with her badass self and then she showed up in front of my eyes dancing like that. I might be scared of her, but that's what would make it fun right?
@nabi-unveiled, thank you so much for playing along with us! Loved seeing your list ⤠People like you are what makes Tumblr so fun!
I showed you mine... your turn!
Wasn't going to tag anyone, but then I remembered I wanted to officially tag @my-rose-tinted-glasses after the last game! Come play if you want or feel free to pass đ
#i accidentally wrote a book#bless you if you actually read all of it đ¤Ł#making this list caused a mental crisis#100% overthought this as usual#these are my answers for the next 30 seconds#Characters I Dream About#tag game#GMD list#gmd post#gmd rambling#gmd dori#thai bl
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9 PILFs I'd Walk Down the Aisle With
@nabi-unveiled commented, and I am paraphrasing in Kat speak, that Muenfah may be a lovely cinnamon roll who objectively is sweet and wonderful... but that he is boring. đ: He might be a sweet treat, but he's missing the dopamine sprinkles I prefer on my pastries. đ : I would marry that man in a heartbeat because the moment he started doing all the things, my heart was his. đ: Well yeah, I love all the things. But there are plenty of characters who will also do ALL the things but in a flavor I find more exciting. đ : But can you name 9 of them? đ: Hold my beer coffee.
List Parameters and Working Definitions: For the purposes of this list, I am leaning into the definition of cinnamon roll characters as someone who is considered sweet, kind, and good to their partner and will prioritize the wants/needs of their partner. Also, since we are exploring the concept of Green Flags with Dopamine Sprinkles, this list will be made up of green flag characters only. But, for funsies, I'll add a bonus list at the end of some not!green flag characters who may be morally gray or even toxic baddies, but when it comes to their partners are the ultimate cinnamon rolls.
Honestly, I CLEARLY have a type and I believe I could include 6 characters for this list directly from my dream about list. Having 2/3 of this list done feels like cheating though. These PILFs (Pastries I'd Like to Fuck, read: they may be pastries, but they have the dopamine sprinkles that keep me excited) are absolutely in MY list, but will be officially excluded from THIS list.
Win from Until We Meet Again/Between Us
Johan from Fourever You
Yai from I Feel You Linger in the Air
Yoryak from Wandee Good Day
Mahasamut from Love Sea
Faifa from Perfect 10 Liners
In no particular order, I give you 9 Green Flag Pastries with Dopamine Sprinkles that I could happily spend my life with:
King from Bed Friends
Pat or Pran from Bad Buddy (I'll only count this as one, but I could be happy with either. And both easily meet the description in my opinion!)
Lan Zhan/Lan Wangji from The Untamed
Jun from ThamePo: Heart that Skips a Beat
Pisaeng from Be My Favorite
Seo Jeong Hu / Healer from Healer (I know he was an honorable mention, but since he didn't ACTUALLY make the list I don't think it's cheating to add him)
Jang Jae Yeong from Semantic Error
Lian from Cutie Pie
Gao Shi De from We best Love
And now for fun... they may be red flags, but when it comes to their partners they go soft and fluffy! Also for clarification... aside from Ming I don't know that I'd want more than an occasional night or two with any of these guys. I have a soft spot for Ming though. He does guilty angst so well.
Ming from My Stand In
Cirrus from Boy Next World
Prapai from Love in the Air
Style from The Heart Killers
#And then đ Kat said âBET.â#This is how I spend my time instead of working.#I probably should have been putting away my laundry#It's okay laundry. No one is doing me either.#đ Kat clearly has a type.#Dopamine Sprinkles#PILF#gmd kat#gmd post#gmd rambling
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Pick Nine: Characters I Dream About
(Find đ Dori's list here)
đKat's List of Character She Would Like to Rub Up Against:
This list was harder than I anticipated and it changed a few times. If I had to do it again tomorrow, it might look different. There are a LOT of characters that COULD go on this list. Ultimately if settling on 9, I decided to go with 9 characters who have more recently joined my harem. I wasn't intentionally TRYING to keep it to BLs, but out of the media I have consumed lately, it is the BL characters who made it to my dream about list.
Additionally, I am openly queer, which is not at all reflected in this list. There are plenty of women and non-binary folks that live in my dreams. A few of them made this list initially, but as I added more characters they ended up falling off.
The completely arbitrary rules I worked from are as follows:
While physical attraction to the actor behind the role is a given, the ultimate attraction has to be to the CHARACTER. Ironically, this means that both some of the actors and characters I would love to rub myself against didn't make this list.
One character per series.
One character per actor.
I wanted to include different "flavors" of characters I am attracted to, because I think it would be easy enough for me to make an entire list of characters that attract me in the same way.
In no particular order, other than who I thought of first, I give you...
Great from 4 Minutes.
Great in the real timeline....
.... Great in his 4 minutes timeline....
.... and Great in Tyme's 4 minutes timeline.
I love that we get to see Great in three different ways. In the (early) real timeline he is who he is, a broken and sad child who had to take care of himself. In his 4-minutes timeline we see the man he wants to be, and ultimately the man he tries to become later. In Tyme's 4-minutes timeline we see the man he could have been, and the possibility of who he may yet become.
Also, in the name of transparency, Bible's thigh tattoos are my fucking catnip. Respectfully meant, given that I don't actually want to objectify a real person. I'm just saying, I want to RESPECTFULLY rub my face all over his thighs repeatedly and purr.
Uea in Bedfriends
Though honestly I really feel like two K/cats without King just doesn't work as well. So King plays a big part of the fantasy. But Uea takes the cake, hell he IS the whole damn cake. The reason BEHIND Uea's WALL OF DO NOT FUCKING TOUCH breaks my heart, and makes me want to break people. Watching him drop that wall when he chooses to, watching how he's owns his whole damn self, his sexuality, and King too is... well something. I love that his surrender is a god damned gift and he demands that King recognize that and show his appreciation suitably.
Win from Until We Meet Again/Between Us
Bro had me at CONSENT. I would have said clear consent, if not established before, needs to be established at the point of foreplay. I didn't realize consent could BE foreplay. Enter "Call me Hia" Win, and yes please. Win is a delicious combination of traits and behaviors that I want to wrap around myself and cuddle with after. I loved watching him fall for Team, and the complete panic and crisis that he experiences because for the first time he has something he wants to hold on to, and he is afraid he can't. I especially love that he is willing to embrace his own vulnerability because he WANTS to be there for Team. He may not always understand his own emotions, and he may sometimes try to insulate and protect himself, but he is willing to put it all out there and he loves with his whole heart.
Johan in Fourever You
I don't even know what to say here. Johan is... just fucking Johan. Johan does it for me on so many levels. Johan loves North, and he communicates and telegraphs this in every possible way. The way he looks at him, the way he is always touching or holding him. Johan knows how to cherish someone and that is damn sexy. And the desperation in those kisses, the way that he kisses and touches North like North is the very air he breathes and like North is the only thing keeping him tethered to this world. I just... yeah... there it is.
Tan in Manner of Death
I JUST LOVE HIM DAMNIT. I love that he's morally gray by circumstances not by character/values, but that he does what is necessary. I love that he has liked Bun for YEARS and is determined not to miss his chance again when the opportunity literally comes up and drunkenly kisses him. I love how sweet he can be and how that contrasts with how deadly he is. Also, if a proposal doesn't come with that kind of energy, don't bother asking.
Mahasamut in Love Sea
Look... if I do not get to eat or better yet be eaten by Mut on vacation, is it even a vacation worth going on? Mut is the ultimate pleasure dom and I am so damn here for it. He will make your body sing in ways you didn't know was possible, and he will get off on it. He will feed your praise kink, and then make you a snack to replenish your energy so you can go on to round two... and three... and four.... and five... This man oozes sensuality and all I can say is hell yes, sign me up.
Yai from I Feel You Linger in the Air
Yai fucking redefines cherishing and makes it so damn sexy. If you are not going to worship my whole being the way he does then I don't fucking want you.
Yoryak from Wandee Goodday
Yak is like a toy I can never get tired of. I will chase that damn red dot forever. I love his kindness and his softness and how he is ALL FUCKING IN for his partner. As an admittedly weird ass person, I have a special appreciation for someone who won't blink at my weird ass self, but instead will put on the fucking bunny ears and shake his fluffy tail at me until I pounce. I would Teeny Tiger the hell out of his Big Bunny.
Faifa in Perfect 10 Liners
Faifa was supposed to be in my honorable mentions list... until I went through the GIFs and fell back in love with him and now he is ON THE LIST. He's adorbs, he's snarky, he takes care of people, and he is wounded in a way that this KittyKat is SURE she can cure.
I feel the need to add a few honorable mentions who didn't make the list. Out of respect I will NOT tell you who Faifa replaced.
Seo Jeong Hu in Healer
Fighter in Why R U?
Day from Love Syndrome III
I am not proud of this one, but I won't lie and say I haven't enjoyed some Day centric fantasies. Ultimately I don't actually LIKE Day's character, and I have MASSIVE ISSUES with the story, which is one of the reasons he didn't make the list. But if I was going to sign up for some toxic red flag loving and let someone fucking OWN me - a psycho who wants to pamper me so much I can't live without him, will more likely than not grab my throat at least once during a make out session, and looks like Lee Long Shi (respectfully)... I could do worse.
Thanks for playing with us @nabi-unveiled, this was super entertaining. Thanks for showing me yours!
#Did I flash my kinks at you?#I SAID IT RESPECTFULLY#Too tempting to make naughty Kat jokes#I need to end this now or I might change my list again#Characters I Dream About#tag game#GMD list#gmd post#gmd rambling#gmd kat
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Faifa Is My Sexy SchrĂśdingerâs Cat
đ Kat here rambling away! In discussing Faifa having unexpectedly made my dream about list while I was going through GIFs, đ Dori said that she just can't imagine the sexy yet, and maybe once she sees it in P10L he could make the list, but that her imagination canât make sexy happen when it hasn't.
For me though, Faifa has entered the state where I am totally crushing on him. I enjoy his character, and his kisses have been steamy enough that my imaginationâs interest is piqued in the sexytimes way.   Because we haven't gotten a Faifa NC scene to date, my imagination gets to determine the script.  I can take what we HAVE seen, a super fun character I love with some wonderful kisses and expand it from there.  He can be everything I want him to be in my fantasy, because I donât have a basis for comparison. The irony is that depending on HOW any NC scenes go, he may fall off my list if what we are ultimately shown isnât my brand of fantasy fuel.Â
So until it is OBSERVED- Faifaâs sexiness exists in two states - he is both fantasy worthy AND ALSO not. Iâm enjoying choosing to believe he is fantasy worthy, and hoping if/when that NC box opens and I get to observe that sexiness state, that he remains so. đ¤Ł
#Did I just use quantum mechanics to discuss sexiness?#Whatâs in the box?#Sexy until proven otherwise#faifa is my happy place#Crushing on fictional people#Yes I do spend my time thinking about these things#I know Iâm weird#Itâs all part of my charm#faifa#p10l faifa#p10l#perfect 10 liners#thai bl#gmd post#gmd rambling#gmd kat
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You know how sometimes when you see a scene, a song pops into your head and you can't let it go? That's how these were born.
We bring you The Heart Killers video edits!
Courtesy of đ Kat at the expense of her free time and adulting. We thank her for her sacrifice.
The video that started it all: apparently YouTube has decided this video is inappropriate and won't play nice with tumblr, so we will post the video directly... (they are not wrong)
And then Kat took my photo edit and made this amazing video:
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Ah Bison. We love you.
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The tears got us! But then this song popped into our heads and made us laugh. Thank you Supernatural for blessing us with this song that has continued to make us laugh when we cry.
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#thank you Kat for all your labor of love!#⤠your sense of humor#the heart killers#the heart killers series#the heart killers the series#kantbison#fadelstyle#the heart killers bison#thk bison#the heart killers fadel#thk fadel#gmd edit#gmd post#gmd kat
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