#MAN IM SORRY BUT THIS IS LIKE. LIKE. AAAAAAAAAAA

[nightcxty]

you did WHAT?????????????

new headcanon unlocked! johnny silverhand is forced to answer VS studios' fan mail for 1 hour every week!

[qrichas]

thinking abt the happy pills arc again but mostly importantly at how many references of brazilian history was there during forevers lives specially the music... like the clothes ccforever was using the video of rio in the 50s the references to vargas era and bossa nova. i saw an artist making an animatic of him using "construção" by chico buarque which is one of my fav songs from the anti ditactorship era along with "panis et circenses" and my brain got rewired as well. gosh it was soooooo so good and so well done you can even make a video essay about it ccforever rlly poped off with that i never felt so hyped with an arc bc im an history nerd AND seeing brazilian history implemented on a multilingual server was just *chefs kiss*

[syrips]

'strahd's scary'

'strahd's evil'

yea ok but hear me out.

imagine if. if he let you hug him.

[dervampireprince]

i have never had such a visceral urge to dominate and fuck someone more than i have with miguel o'hara so i don't know what that says about me

[quodekash]

okay, two things to say here

one: pran's loving stare <33

two: HOW THE HELL IS PAT'S LEG DOING THAT??? HIS FOOT IS POINTING INWARDS

THE ENTIRETY OF HIS LEFT LEG HAS TWISTED AND ROTATED COMPLETELY???

AM I JUST LOOKING AT IT WRONG OR IS PAT A CONTORTIONIST

its entirely possible he's just double jointed. i also have a lot of double joints

buT IM STILL CONFUSED BECAUSE LEGS DO NOT WORK LIKE THAT

OH

WAIT I GOT IT

HIS TOES ARE TUCKED UNDER THE CALF OF HIS OTHER LEG

IM SUCH AN IDIOT

SORRY GUYS, FALSE ALARM

ah shoot i got distracted for an hour watching commentary youtubers

HE SAID THE THING

THE THING THAT THEY ALWAYS SAY

GNERJDKBSGF

IM CLAPPING MY HANDS LIKE A HAPPY TODDLER RN

BUT YOU ALSO SAID THAT

YOU ALSO CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM

TELL HIM THAT

OMG

DID TIAN FREAKING SPILL THE BEANS ON PAT??? THATS SO FUNNY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

his feet are normal again, dont worry guys

(guys being me. im pretty sure i was the only one freaking out about his foot but i just need a little bit of validation)

IM SOBBING

HE SAID IT

VOIEPSDHBGOVULJRBFGOBUVRPDOUFGVBNREDOUGJBVNEIRUJKDFBGNEVORIFDJLBGNBOIERUJKDFGOBIJKLERDFOIGJLBENRVOIDFJLGBVEOIRFDJLBNGBIOREJLVFDB

KISS YOUR FREAKING BOYFRIEND KISS YOUR FREAKING BOYFRIEND KISS YOUR FREAKING BOYFRIEND

H EL P

IM NOT OKAY

AAAAAAAAAAA

HHHHHHHHSBGHJSDBFX

I THINK IM DYING

THEY MEAN WAY TOO MUCH TO ME

JUST FREAKIN KILL ME ALREADY

HOW DOES ONE DEAL WITH THIS

HOW DO YOU FUNCTION WHEN PATPRAN ARE SO FREAKING PERFECT

bro just looked directly at the camera

THEYRE SUCH HUSBANDS

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

is it love.

okay never mind, it's not love lmao

hell yes

husbands

such husbandly husbands

ERODJFLBHGNKJRDF

THEYRE ALL DOING THE 'I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU' LINE AND ITS KILLING ME, I LOVE IT

ah frick

im just remembering that thing about how heart transplant patients only live up to like 10 years after getting a heart transplant.

and that statistic is for people who listen to their doctors and dont go to a mountain and dont do exercise they should not and dont eat food they should not etc etc, so tian's life expectancy is probably even less than that.

ITS OKAY, LET'S IGNORE SCIENCE, WE'RE IGNORING SCIENCE

HES A FICTIONAL CHARACTER, SCIENCE DOESNT HAVE TO APPLY

NOT TODAY, SATAN

i hate you so much for this jude

why would you send me that tiktok

everyone spam @judebilation with hate for emotionally destroying me and also probably you

(im just kidding i love them too much to be super mad about this, and also FICTION MEANS SCIENCE DOESNT APPLY, WE DONT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT SCIENCE, so to jude: i forgive youuuu)

HE'S READING ITTT

PLEASE THE MUSIC WAS SO DRAMATIC THERE

IM JUST TRYNA EAT MY CHEEZLES MAN BUT I NEARLY CHOKED ON THEM

ITS SO FREAKING FUNNY

HOLY HELL

i finally finished the episode! it only took me (checks watch) 16 and a half hours to do

and if you wanna be nitpicky, technically it took 37 days and 30 minutes to start, and then 16 and a half hours to finish after that

and i still have an entire episode to go, so let's get right to it (after i pee and make a hot chocolate, cos i need emotional support)

[greenvillainredemption]

WATCHING THE RISE OF RED WOOOO

Idk if I’m surprised or not that they had carlos canon die for real. I also don’t know if it’s a great decision considering current kids probably don’t know real life stuff (though I think it’s safe to say the people who were kids at the time of the originals and cameron’s death are old enough to get it now)

Also very intrigued by alex boniello’s character, I’m guessing he’s like the kind of strict order-follower who learns to break away from that role which is a trope I love love love

BRANDI AND HER MAN IM SO SORRY IDK HIS NAME BUT AAAAAAAAAAA

[malt-rants-and-stuff]

⚠️‼WARNING!! HIRAKAGI MANGA CHAPTER 21 SPOILERS‼⚠️

I ALREADY SAID IT BEFORE BUT THIS CHAPTER HAD ME ON THE FLOOR!! I HAVE LEGIT PERISHED WHILE READING SO MY GHOST IS HERE TO WRITE ABOUT HOW AMAZING THIS CHAPTER WAS!!!

‼ SPOILERS BELOW CUT ‼

OKAY STARTING OFF STRONG, THE VERY FIRST PANEL!

LOOK AT THESE CUTIESSSS!! I WILL NEVER BE OVER THE FACT THAT KAGI IS THE FIRST THING HIRANO SEES EVERY MORNING!!!!

SASAKIIIII OGAAAAAA MY BOYS ITS BEEN TOO LONGGGGGG

BRIBERY! :D

Hirano back at it again feeding into the pilot propaganda

also, kinda gay to think about another man like that unprompted while using the word "exploring" if you ask me.

"I can't believe he had the nerve" I can't believe you had the nerve to even think that.

also, love sasaki giving one of his classic "I know what you are hirano" looks

HANZAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Have I ever said how much I love this dude? he is so silly and so important to me you don't understand. this panel is adorable!!!

HIRANOOO YOU ARE SO CLOSE TO GETTING IT, THE POINT IS RIGHT THERE!! IT IS NOT DIFFERENT WITH THE DAMN PEPPERS MY BOY!!!

I LOVE HOW HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S GOING THROUGH EVERY STAGE OF GRIEF IN THAT SECOND PANEL LMAOOO

"I think......" I AM GOING TO KILL!!! WHY IS THIS HITTING ME JUST AS HARD AS THE "I guess he wasn't going to touch me" SCENE AAAAAAAAAAA

alsooo I count this entire page and the page before as more proof for my aspec hirano propaganda

KAGI MY SON YOU LOOK SO CUTEEE

WHEN I TELL YOU I DIE EVERY TIME HE DOES THIS

ACK THE BLUSH!!! NOT VERY HETERO-JUST-ROOMATES OF YOU HIRANO!!

also I love how he's slowly getting more and more flustered everytime kagi asks for 10 seconds

he looks so happy i am gonna CRY

........................... . z.d.s..s.

JAKKQOWISHSJHDBBDHDJWISKWOAOKAK

OH MY FUCKING,,,,,,,,,

I CANNOT DO THIS I CANNOT COPE I AM DEAD DYING ON THE FLOOR I HAVE DIED FROM GAYBRAIN I WILL NEVER RECOVER

also THIS WAS SO TSUNDERE OF YOU HIRANO IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE

also also THE FIRST TIME HIRANO INITIATES THE 10 SECONDS THIS IS A MONUMENTAL OCCASION I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD FRAME THIS PANEL

EXPLODES!!!! KAGI'S FACE I CANT DO THISSSSS

SO BLUNT KAGI LMAO!

"........." QHAT DOES THAT MEAN HIRANO!!! EXPLAIN!!!!!!!

.

WHAT.

WHATTYYTTJEOAJSKEHEKWJS

KAGI HELLO?!?!??!?!???! I AM UNWELL?????? YOU CANT BE DOING THIS TO ME????????

FIRST MITSUKOU DATE NOW THIS I AM IN SHAMBLES

THE MANGA IS JUST AS SHOCKED AS I AM?!?!?!!!

-------------

OVERALL: 10/10 CHAPTER I AM NEVER GOING TO RECOVER THANK YOU HARUSONO!!! I NEED FINANCIAL COMPENSATION FOR THE MENTAL DECOMPOSITION CAUSED BY THIS CHAPTER 🙏

[actuallyitsstar]

bradley rooster bradshaw & 22, 12, 21? <3

✨ send me a number and a character! ✨

HENLO USER MARCHRAINDROPS!!!! ily and im so sorry for how long this took aaaaaaaaaaa but pls take my humble offering, and i hope that u enjoy my attempt at doing this ask justice lol <3 <3

(p.s. i did answer one of these for bradley here already, so click for another and more lighthearted headcanon lol)

22. something you like and dislike in reading for this character?

something that rly matters to me when it comes to bradley is, i guess for lack of a better word, his attitude. bradley has had, admittedly, his share of traumatizing experiences in life, and he was raised on eggshells and rose-petals, walking under the shadow of a grief too heavy for him to bear alone, watching the adults he knew and trusted be crushed slowly beneath it instead. he was a bright and happy child whose innocence was slowly stolen, piece by piece, building a sardonic and cynical adult. bradley was soft, and he still absolutely c an be, in the right setting and with the right people. but he's still a grown man, at least thirty-four-ish, who's been hardened by loss after loss after betrayal, who has gone through war and come home again. he can be sarcastic and self centered, closed-minded and demanding, vindictive and rageful. he's brash and quick to speak, fierce in spirit but measured, too; aware of the pitfalls behind life's every corner and terrified of stepping on another; this time, completely alone. he hesitates and he meets the consequences of his indecision, and he takes that blame out on others.

i guess i like to see bradley's roughest edges acknowledged. he has been hurt, and he will hurt other people. he's not exactly a white knight of most situations (except for when he is- sacrificing himself for phoenix in training comes to mind; it is all about nuance isn't it?). i think it's easy to paint those kinds of flaws out of the picture, and i can understand why we might want to- because after all, no one wants to think about their favorite character being the "bad guy" in a situation. but everyone is, sometimes.

i guess what i don't like is seeing bradley treated with kidd gloves. realistically, bradley was spoiled as a kid, and why wouldn't he have been? the hope of a family grieving the loss of its pillar (goose), and that's a lot of weight for a little kid to carry. they'd doted on him, and put all their efforts into giving him the happiest childhood they could muster in the face of that loss, and maybe they were quick to give in to demands- maybe they were quick to take the situations upsetting young bradley away from him instead of teaching him how to cope with them. i'm not sure if, for all of their love and devotion, the adults in bradley's life would have known how to teach him to cope with a situation healthfully, anyway.

12. what's a headcanon you have for this character?

bradley has goose's old cross necklace, and it's one of his most prized possessions.

when bradley was little, he was 100% a mama's boy. after all, for all that mav was there, which was always as much as he could be but no more than the tight grip of the navy on his collar would allow- it was just bradley and carole against the world, together, for most of it. he talked to his mom about everything, trusted her with everything, and he took her illness so incredibly hard. obviously- that's his mom, after all- but even more than he showed, at the time. he'd tried to be strong, for his mom and for mav and because he's not sure he remembers anymore, but he thinks it's what his dad would have wanted, too; for him to take care of mom. he tries, but doesn't end up remembering how to take care of himself at the same time.

the wedge that separates bradley from the world and everything good in it is the same one that splits carole off from her family and leaves them alone without her. as her illness worsens, bradley becomes more and more sullen and withdrawn and angry, with the world and the lot handed to him. he savors each moment he has left with her but grows to dread hospital visiting hours, too, because it gets harder and harder to remember her as she was with each hour he spends watching her waste away. the breaking point is when he's thirteen years old, and they know carole has a few months more, at best. bradley isn't supposed to know yet- but he isn't stupid. he can overhear parts of a hushed phone call, and see the worry lines around uncle mav's eyes when he tries to offer reassurances that bradley doesn't believe in anymore.

she calls him in for visiting hours alone, telling uncle ice to take uncle mav home and make him take a shower and go to bed. mav protests profusely, but a look of understanding passes between ice and carole over the heads of everyone else in the room, and everyone but bradley is subsequently herded out. bradley settles himself on the edge of her bed, feeling awkward with the presence of the dreaded ticking time between them. despite her gauntness and exhaustion, though, she offers him her brightest smile. i have something to give you, baby, she tells him, and then it's dangling from her fingers before he has time to realize it fully- a silver cross necklace. his dad's necklace.

i've was meanin' to give this to you, when you're all grown up, she says quietly, and bradley swallows hard, drawing in a shaky inhale. but i just couldn't wait any longer. your daddy would be so proud of you, honey. and bradley knows it means she loves him and that daddy does too, but he also knows it means that his mom is saying goodbye. when uncle mav sees him wearing it later that evening, his small hand tightened around the metal so firmly that it digs into his skin, his uncle's face blanches, but mav doesn't say a word about it. bradley doesn't either. when everything falls apart between them much later, bradley tries to assign meaning that isn't there, telling himself that maybe mav had wanted that necklace to keep selfishly to himself, or that maybe mav hadn't thought he'd deserved it. it's not until much, much later that he manages to reason out the much simpler truth of the moment; of the guilt and the exhaustion and the realization that his all-but-sister knew she didn't have much longer if she'd finally passed the necklace down.

during the long years of his twenties and early thirties, bradley clings to the necklace, convinced it holds the parts of his past that he's missing, the feeling of belonging he's craved and cannot seem to find. the weight of it against his breastbone, beneath his uniforms, is half-comfort and half-terror. he doesn't explain it to anyone, not even to phoenix. i didn't know you were spiritual, she tells him upon catching a glimpse of it in the gym. bradley is hasty to shove it back inside his shirt collar. i'm not, he growls back, and that's that. she doesn't ask again. he doesn't volunteer. just like the look mav had worn upon seeing the necklace, it isn't until much, much later that bradley figures out what he'd been missing, after the mission and after the reconciling and after everything- til he figures out that maybe the necklace means something to him because it had meant something to mom and to dad and to mav, and that maybe he doesn't have to drag the ghosts and spirit of all three of those people into the cockpit with him each time he goes up into the air. maybe knowing they had loved him all along is enough. he tells himself that this is what the cool metal against his skin reminds him of, now, and for the most part, he finds that he can learn to believe it.

21: something you like and dislike in writing for this character?

i think it's sort of rare to be in a fandom where you have this primary character and you know so much about the things that built that character. i mean, not the most rare- obviously there's a lot of stories and franchises out there that focus on lineage and talk about long-spanning over-arcing stories. but to get to know carole and to get to know goose and to get to know mav and the other flyboys too; depending on your opinion of the closeness of the group after the first movie (i guess we all know MY found-family-obsessed-ass's opinion on that lol <3) is a gift that builds a picture of bradley, and unpacking it and piecing it together is one of my favorite privileges in writing him! feeling like i know the people who shaped bradley means i feel like i know bradley so much more, too. there's so much focus, especially in tgm, on history and mirroring and repetition and the weight of years and the passage of time, and of course there needs to be, for a sequel made so long after the original- because it is all built on the power of nostalgia- but it also says something about the construction of a character like bradley, doesn't it?

that being said, i do spend a lot of time trying to strike the balance, because i think there can be too much mirroring and a little too much drawing from influence. the double edged sword is allowing bradley to be a separate and independent person who is shaped by and not defined by those things. i think it's very easy (or at least for my sentimental ass it is lol) to get a little TOO wrapped up in the ~nostalgia~ and the trying to weave a 30+ year narrative into one character's image, and i do have to remind myself to avoid letting that walk all over the actual characters i am actually presently writing.

@marchraindrops AHHHHHHHHHH again i am so so sorry this took so long but i thank u so so much for thinking of me and sending the lovely ask, i had a lot of fun answering ;) and i am always thrilled to type my silly little answers lol. i promise to always answer even if it takes like.... more than a hot minute lol <3 TY AND ILY!!!! <3<3<3

[possumsarenice]

FELLOW SHOWTIME ENJOYER!!!!

SORRY IM JUST COLLECTING FELLOW SHOWTIME ENJOYERS LIKE POKEMON CARDS-- HII!!

the fun part of rare-pairs: it's always a Soyjak reaction when we stumble upon each other ... Ive been looking for fics, dawg.. I'm probably gonna stalk ur blog for some yummy showtime crumbs

FELLOW SHOWTIME SHIPPER LETS GO!!!!

But no problem you following me for showtime stuff, I’ve done the same to other blogs. Heck, I’m doing the same thing with other showtime shippers. But do note that this is a multi-fandom blog so you will be jumpscared by those jesters from Fnaf a lot lol. But AAAAAAAAAAA

SILLY GOOFY TEETH MAN X ANXIETY JESTER GO BRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

[johnmalevolent]

moolevolent37

john .

get what

oh

the book

sure john. rolls eyes

the.

:0

he told him!!!!!

seen..

not liveblogging much cos im eating huhu

JOHN..:(

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

JOHN;;;;;;

FAAAAAAK

FAK KATA GUE TEH

NANGES

between john's memory and arthur's trust issue though still trying to convince him they're friends.. too much

that late??

i mean that makes sense

but i thought it waa still like 9

NO OSCAR!! :(

oh fuck

fuuuuck

oscars just gonna. leave that.

oscar:(((

OH FUCKKK

That was.

youre my purpose................

AGGHHHHHHHHHH

ACK.

HE BELIVERS IN YOT

GWHW

GAH.

fughting so hard to stay with private eyes

whats the oscarthur ship name

angeleyes?

i rmb seeing some1 calling em blind faith

AAAAAAAAAAA..

better rain than snow. ouch.

whats w

the dreamlands??????

oh shit. ew

sial aku lagi maem rendang

untung ga jijik an

its been a while since some gore on this podcast

LMAO arthur says the exact same thing

tldr jealous

"until?" 🥺

RELY FULLY???

*picture of edwardian offense*

i know john's unreliable and he (john) prob knows that as well so thats prob why he (john) didnt say nothing back so I'll get offended in his (john's) stead

"oscar's not our only option" uh oh.. im sure this wont get personal...

🥺 arthur repeating john's description to oscar

sorry im just a humble john girl

ooooh

go, exposition dump man!

sorry i didnt mean that

eyes peeled :3

children..

WHATS WITH THE MUSIC

oh

fuck

John's been noticing things Less:(

WHAT IS IT

okay ive finished eating

"usually - and i do mean usually," 😭😭😭

to arthur this is another day in the week searching a basement

:'3c john.. yes girl recognize your limitations and dont take up risky tasks ur not confident with!!

whoop

oop

john architecture description ive missed u!!!

for what.

from what

FUCK

oh

OSCAR😭

2gether:3

OUCH

WHAT

What

what

WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTRR

FUCK OSCAR'S HERE TOO

HOW ARE WE GETTIN THRU A KICK-ARTHUR'S-ASS EPS WITH ANOTHER HUMAN IN THE VICINITY WITHOUT THEM DYING

ouch

it was funny when john said "sorry i meant to say duck" episodes ago

:(

OSCAR

FUCK

ACK

THE DAGGER

FUCK

FUCK

THE PRESSURE

OHHHH ITS CONTROLLING OSCAR

FUUUUCK

MALEVOLENT PODCAST

ARTHUR

SHIT

WHY NOT THE

YEAH JOHN

THANKS

:c

WELL DONE INDEED!!!!! :'3c

JOHN?

JOHN?

John????????

JOHN?

i thought i heard satisfaction there

i sure hope i was wrong

oscar :(

:'(((

christ

malevolent podcast

ooooh yea the critter was rly controlling oscar

DOZENS?

bleeding out isnt even a risk in this podcast is it

FUCK

ada tukang bangun rumah di sebelah

and the dok dok dok is contributing to the sfx

menghela napas

we're so back

[namelessdeceased]

hey man i was wondering if you got any sk8 the infinity fic recs ? seeing as i watched it today and im like Obsessed now lmao

how are you doing btw

YOU WATCHED SK8 AAAAAAAAAAA YESSSSS I LOVE SK8 REEEEEEEEE

JUST GO ON THE RENGA/MATCHABLOSSOM TAG I'M SORRY I DON'T SAVE FICS

[doetic]

Yo! Its me again, the same anon from before.

Im still using the ai chats you made and man, like, the narration is so amazing and dialogues are so accurate. I do agree with you on how the Yandere Schlatt one is less Schlatty. Its definitely more...docile? Maybe thats the right word?

But the TED ONE??? *bangs fist on table again, i cant even describe how good its going.

A zombie apocalypse fic w/schlatt sounds fucking amazing! And possibly an ai chat based on that??? im so here for it and eager to read it! I think my brain still not over The Last of Us show, so i can definitely see an apocalypse + schlatt fic absolutely rock.

Can't wait for the fic!!! Have a good day!!! -🕷 anon

AAAAAAAAAAA sorry!!! Ask box ate this!!! Praying for the day tumblr decides to work well.

Yeah the Ted one is def my golden child right now!! I'm waiting with bated breath for the day char.ai let's me fix the schlatt ones it's driving me insane!!!

Rlly hoping so hard thay things slow down at work soon so I can finally get fics out, I'm so so excited to put out the zombie apocalypse one! It's about halfway done at 3k words, but I work at a museum and we're gearing up for the 100 year celebration as well as working as a social media manager for a local politician and some local festivals that are happening real soon so I'm swamped!!!

I never watched the last of us show, I like zombies as a concept and in writing but I'm so squeamish that watching them and actually seeing them be depicted freaks me out so so bad! I let my friends rant about the plot to me though and I can't wait for season two so I can hear about that second hand lol!

I hope you have a good day too!!

[starry-night-rose]

ELLIS!!! Or should I say, Elrizz?! 😈😈

Your doodles are CUTE. Don't ever say they're bad doodles smh!! Plus your neverending ideas? Chefs kiss You're one of the backbones of the idol au imo...

So far, anything mallellis related has such a grip on me. Beauty and the beast AU? Sign me the hell up!! All your ideas have been a slay so far >:))

Keep up the good work! Sorry for hurting your man HZKSNSSK

- from your local friendly neighborhood nem

NEMMY POO OH MY GOD??????

YOU LIKE MY DOODLES? MY SILLY LITTLE DOODLE OODLES? JUST MWHA MWAH

IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKE MY DOODLES aAAAaAAAAAa

The ideas never do end, they just keep coming and coming and coming😈😈😈😈

THANK YOU FOR LIKING MY LITTLE IDEAS RAHHHHH

you like......mallellis.....RAHHHHHHH THANK YOU MWHA MHWA

BEAUTY AND RHE BEAST AU????? Don’t worry pookie, working hard to make more from it😈😈😈😈😈

I WILL KEEP THE HARD WORK UP! Keep hurting malleus/j

LOVE YOU NEMMY RYAN POO MWAH MWAH

[lingerxng]

i started this hawke/lucanis(/spite) rp (im not crazy you are) and i have. notes.

-ira reuniting with isabela. wah.

-ira is going to straight up ruin solas' plan bc they are NOT going to be quiet about varric being dead

-fade eye works akin to darkvision in dishonored. they can see through walls, see the outlines of people. they can very clearly see spite with it.

-lucanis rescuing ira when bellara and/or emmrich are bombarding them with questions

-ira helping lucanis sort out any Feelings™ he has about being first talon

-ira helping out lucanis with relief efforts in treviso

-spite doesn't Get why neither of these idiots will just *talk* about their *feelings*

-spite is a needy cat. not a possessive scary dom, but like HEY LOOK AT ME PAY ATTENTION TO ME I WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTION. god love them, ira's gonna give him attention, too.

-lucanis *getting* ira's relationship with defiance. maybe lucanis isn't in love with spite, probably, but like. there's a bond there. there is annoyance and aggravation and conflict, yeah, but also. trauma bonding.

-coffee dates 🥺

-ira hates the stuff but they like lucanis 🥺🥺🥺

-ngl. ira is straight up gonna tell lucanis that illario was fucking whatserbucket. sorry dude, your cousin's a traitor.

-"you have a brother. would you kill him?" "carver is stupid, but he's not stupid enough to align with fucking *venatori*."

-all three of them are touch averse until they figure each other out 🥺

-WAH SOMEONE NEEDS TO GET IRA A NEW MABARI

-ngl i hate the word "nonbinary" being canon. like. as an enby person myself. ira does not call themself nonbinary. they complain about being id'd as a man, they also know they don't want to be a woman. but they don't NEED to have a label for themself.

-i think the Tale of the Champion he/him'd hawke. which ira is still pretty irritated about. they were only ever really "out" to the core group, but still!

-(people who misgendered ira, from least to most: carver, merrill, isabela/varric/fenris (tied), anders, aveline, sebastian.)

-(i could probably also make this list for the vg companions bc honestly. honestly. i hate that they're all sooooooo niceys to each other. we need more squads who want to kill each other.)

-ira loved anders. ira hated justice. they were continually on again/off again. it wasn't a healthy relationship. but the love was there. it just wasn't enough to save anyone.

-(coughs. because ira is Quite Tall and Quite Muscular, they're more or less a perpetual top. which. they don't love. they put up with it, bc who are they to complain, but.)

-OH GOD IRA RUNNING INTO CARVER AT WEISSHAUPT AAAAAAAAAAA

-ira feels.... *so much* guilt about kirkwall. they genuinely feel responsible for everything that happened. logically, they know it's not true, it would have happened either way, but... they should have seen that bartrand was twitchy. they should have seen that isabela was avoiding the qunari compound. they should have seen what anders was doing.

-they find sandal's journal at the lighthouse and they're GIDDY

-i think spite should purr.

-lucanis needs BODY HAIR why is that man so SMOOTH

-i said earlier that ira is touch averse and they are but thats bc they haven't had actual, real physical sensation in. checks notes. ten years. wearing *clothes* is painful. *sunlight* is painful. once their nerves calm the fuck down, god, they miss being touched. they were always very cuddly with the kirkwall gang.

-ira is going to be *besties* with harding. they get on okay with neve, but they find it a little unnerving how much she notices things. they're p amicable with taash and davrin. they *do not like* bel and emmrich, only because they just... the two are *very enthusiastic* and *very curious* and *dont always know when to shut the fuck up.* when they want some peace and quiet, they find lucanis.

-they love assan. he reminds them so much of dog.

-ira's little Place in the lighthouse is the nook under neve's office. they set up a little hammock (beds are too soft), they get some candles, some drapery to make it a little more cozy. they like how private it is. they like that no one can tell when they're home and when they aren't.

-hawke being a mage, and one quite knowledgeable about the fade and the blight, makes them a prime candidate for the one to be kidnapped by ghilan'nain during the final battle. lol and lmao.

-ira is gonna tease davrin and lucanis about their flirting sooooooo much

-ira has pierced ears.

-have you ever seen those videos of astronauts back on earth, dropping things midair, and then being surprised about gravity? yeah.

-i think spite is more likely to kiss ira before lucanis purely bc spite doesn't know what impulse control is

-ira ends up being rather blunt bc. well. theyve spent ten years talking only to spirits. who dont understand nuance or "white lies to not hurt feelings".

-GASP. SPITE MEETING DEFIANCE.

-when ira fights, it's like half casting spells, and half using their staff as an actual, physical weapon. they're MUCH more physical than the average mage. that's what happens when you have to fight templars in close quarters.

-ira IS going to call out the crows for being, uh, a self sustaining orphan factory.

-most notable scars: center of chest/back (arishok sword), left side of neck (templar dagger), across face (the nightmare)

-ira doesn't like calling it a "mage rebellion". the mages were granted the rights to leave the chantry, so long as they voted to do it. the chantry decided to take that back AFTER the vote had been cast. the mages didn't rebel, they seceded.

-lucanis' house is very nearly bigger than lothering. just. thinking about that.

things we have already discussed, to keep this all in one place:

-who better as a fade expert than the guy who was stuck there for years?

-ira is GREAT at dealing with abominations. they offer to stay up with spite to keep him out of trouble. it's not like they're sleeping, anyway.

-the weight!!!!! of a family name and expectations!!!!!! the burden of a title and a city on your shoulders!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-ira goes with lucanis to treviso. they have seen what happens when a city falls to blight, and they will not stand by and let it happen again.

-(they fail. again. add it to the list.)

-ira is gonna have beef nearly as big as lavellan's with solas. he is pretty much the direct cause of everything bad that has happened in their life.

-bonding over living under the constant threat of qunari!

-ira is quite physical during a fight. they use magic, sure, but they also use their staff as a physical weapon, and they're not afraid to use their hands. or elbows. or knees.

-they also use their magic in ways not common to mages. they were taught in chasind techniques. (dont ask me what all this means yet, i'm still working on it.)

-post-fade, ira has a better handle on their magic, akin to the way solas uses his. obviously they aren't NEAR as powerful as him, but they don't need to channel spells through their staff.

-ira is so *restless* after the fade. they have magic living in their skin. when they aren't out with rook, they're out somewhere else, trying to find SOMETHING to do.

-they spent ten years in the fade. it felt like so, so much longer.

-Ira cursing out Solas in Elvish. They had... a lot of free time in the Fade.

-The Boys (gn) keeping each other company on sleepless nights.

-Ira working some magic and actually touching Spite. Bonus points if the first time they do it is to, like, flick his nose or smth to tell him off.

-Look I know the world is ending and everything is terrible but also. Fun little trip somewhere. Maybe there's a festival in Llomeryn, or a show in Treviso, or... something. Something that's NOT a date. Could never be a date.

-I can't decide if I like the idea of Ira being 42 now or if Fade Shenanigans happened and they only physically aged, like, a year or two and they're 35 or smth. Who knows. Who knows!!!

-Lucanis feeling comfortable enough especially because Ira speaking/talking/touching Spite to sleep beside them, because they know Spite won’t immediately try to leave or hurt anyone.

-Lucanis looking up both Chasind + Kirkwall Specialties not to be weird but to. Just make something Ira would want to eat. <3

-Being the only guy to call them Ira, because Hawke is good right, but it’s a symbol and a title as much as Champion and maybe (dependent on how you’ve characterized Ira’s opinions on titles, idk if Ira likes being referred to at all but like. Lucanis calling them by their name in private. The Big Puppy Dog Eyes as he makes them coffee.

-Ira feeling comfortable enough around Lucanis to fall asleep. They spend a loooooooong time post Fade avoiding sleep, bc... well. They're afraid. They don't want to dream. They don't want to go back there. They were never able to really kill the Nightmare, and they know he's there, waiting for them. And they're so afraid that if they fall asleep, they won't be able to get back out again.

-Ira and Spite make a deal where Spite lets Lucanis sleep and Ira answers whatever questions Spite may have. Or plays cards with him. Or teaches him about human things. (Or. Kisses him??? Ira is honestly the first person to defend Spite's personhood, honestly they also probably call him a spirit rather than a demon-- you spend enough time surrounded by them, your opinions change, yknow?)

-Spite would be. The worst. Around them. Literally just??? constantly hovering, telling Lucanis to stop by Hawke because They. Must! Know! and it’s just a question he can’t ask anyone else. Wailing.

-Ira and Spite make a deal where Spite lets Lucanis sleep and Ira answers whatever questions Spite may have. Or plays cards with him. Or teaches him about human things. (Or. Kisses him??? Ira is honestly the first person to defend Spite's personhood, honestly they also probably call him a spirit rather than a demon-- you spend enough time surrounded by them, your opinions change, yknow?)

[quodekash]

hopefully I can do the rest of the episode in under 30 images but I guess we'll see what happens

anyway, there's nothing wrong with the work sailom is doing, but he's like 17 and that man is 50

on another note: kang is so jealous and its hilarious

me-core

SHE KNOWS

SHE KNOWS

AND I KNOW SHE KNOWS

that felt like "have a biscuit, potter"

HELL TO THE YES

I LOVE HER SO FRIKIN MUCH

I KNEW IT WAS ABOUT STUDYING

but ALSO its about kindness and empathy and human decency

im sorry what.

she hath render me speechless

IN LOVE

LOOK AT THAT BLOODY SMILE

AAAAAAAAAAA ITS THIS SCENE

FJFHJGHFDJGJFDHGJHFDJHGJFDHGJFDHJGH

hEY, I ALSO need to pee! we're twinning!

oh HELL YES

we've been very lacking in the cheesy sponsor segments in this series, im glad they're finally here

and, of all sponsors, it's my love, oishi

im so happy rn this tiny little sponsor segment has made my day

and so has the rest of the episode, I guess

bro, he's hyper focused rn, do not under any circumstances break his focus or I promise you he will not get anything done for a week. let the stress and adrenaline take its course, and then you can make out when it wears off

omg he's gonna blow it up in his face, that's adorable

THEYRE SO ADORABLE I AM NOT OKAY

HPEIRGNDBF

THAT WAS FRIKIN INCREDIBLE AS PER USUAL, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

okay okay okay preview for the next episode lets go lets go

im so hopeful that they're gonna kiss next episode

OMG ITS THIS PART NEXT EP??

THE HOPE FOR THE KISS IS GETTING STRONGERRRR

it'll probably just end up with the music playing and the dramatic close ups of their faces and we'll hear chimon singing in the background and they'll stare at each other for far longer than necessary, and then abruptly push away from each other, awkwardly cough, and pretend it didnt happen. and if they don't abruptly push away, someone will walk into the area and THEN they'll abruptly push away from each other and pretend nothing happened

IM SO EXCITED FOR NEXT WEEK HOLY FRICK

[diorwoo]

AAAAAAAAAAA REN im so happy to hear that you’re doing well, or…. trying to make everything fine, BUT IM SO HAPPY THAT U’RE TRYING YES BABE WE HATE LIFE BUT unfortunately we have to keep going just to spite it !!!!! (my motto 24/7) but yes omgomg we should exchange igs (i’ll send u another ask hehe)

i’ve missed u so so much and literally when i felt like i have feelings for one irl man i immediately thought of u and went,,,, my gawd ren’s gonna have a field day about this,,,,,,,, buT literally idk how and idk when but i fell for him and now im down bad IM A SIMP. THERE I’VE ADMITTED IT 😔. (i don’t even simp for san anymore 😨😨😨😨😨)

but to tell u a brieF bit abt this man (bcs if u let me actually talk about him, i could go on for DAYS), he’s literally the sweetest mf that’s living on this earth, i kid u not. it turns out, he’s been interested in me since my first semester of uni (im currently in my 5th semester) but he’s never gotten a chance bcs i get into situationships often and he’s super shy so he was not confident on approaching me at all 😭 but in the beginning of our 5th semester, we end up being in the same classes and we found out we have mutual friends and that’s when we started hanging out (at first, in group settings)!!!!

to answer ur question, yes he’s very handsome, he’s very tall, and he goes to the gym and……. welllllllll i shouldnt be thirsty on main but GAWDDDAMN he can literally headlock me n i’d say thankyou (LORDDDD IS THIS WHO I AM NOW) but yeah 😝 the first time we hungout, we’ve barEly talked, but long story short i got drenched bcs we went to a golf driving range AND THE SPRINKLERS TO WATER THE GRASS TURNED ON OUT OF NOWHERE AND I WALKED INTO IT 💀 he then offered me his shirt and it just started spiralling after that ehe (🤢 i folded 🤢)

we’ve recently been going on dates and he picks me up to go to campus even though he lives literally 5 minutes away from campus and i live 30 minutes away from campus 💀 like he spends an HOUR driving just to go to me and take me to campus then drives another hour to take me home and go back to hiS house almost everyday and he’s just…. so sweet. he’d open his car door for me all the time, never lets me pay for anything (we literally physically BRAWL in front of every cashier of every restaurant we’ve eaten in bcs i also insist in paying), is such a SHYYY person but gets loud whenever hes with me and texts with emojis with me, always waits for me anytime EVERYTIME, sends me tiktoks of cats bcs it reminds him of me, is allergic to cats but has FOUR who he loves veeery much, and thinks of the cutest activities for the both of us to do :’-)

also, one time i got him his favorite coffee (that he drinks. every. single. day.) and he literally couldnt stop going MMMMMMMM THIS COFFEE IS SO GOOD everytime he takes a sip and i was like… bro it’s the coffee u drink everyday tho????? and he went sorry it just tastes sm better bcs u got it for me 😔 AND I WENT AKAKKANFNDJSBJSJSSJNS !!!!!!!!! there’s so many things about him i could tell u but oops i realized i literally just wrote a 3 page essay about him 🧍‍♀️

ANYWAYYYSS all the simping aside, i can’t thank you enough for supporting me throughout my journey here!!!! you were the first person ever to send me an ask detailing abt how u loved my first work and that holds such a special place in my heart IM NOT KIDDING. literally trashed around like crazy when i saw ur ask ily. and i love love whenever u send me asks bcs theyre so fun to read and its so nice to get to know u!!! thank you so so much for being u, ren. i literally cannot thank you enough and im so glad we’ve met <3 i love u the mostest <3

OH MY GOD U ARE DOWN BAD ND THE THING IS U ARE DOWN BAD FOR A GOOOD ASS MAN A FINE ASS MF LITERALLY LIZ U WON IN LIFE DANG THATS HUSBAND MATERIAL

he DRIVES U HOME DOESNT COMPLAIN SIMPS FOR U OMFGGGG IM SO HAPPY FOR U LIZ IM LITERALLY SOSOSOSOSO HAPPY ND THE STOEY AAAAA IM SO ON LOVE WITH like he was right in front of u nd I'm telling u are gonna have ur happily ever after (my frnd also had the same story nd is now happily married with the guy ) MY GOD LIZ U ARE IN LOVEEEE Finally U PULLED A GENTLEMAN A KEEPER A LOVER A SIMP FOR U (when both simp for e/o >>>>>>) TELL ME MOREEEEE I WOULD LOVE TO LISTEN TO U ND YES I WILL ANNOY U 9N IG 🤩🤩🤩ND Y3S THANK U SM for coming back nd u just healed a part of me which u didn't break