#Lord... his acting...

[athousandbyeol]

happiness and acceptance, old grief, fear, vulnerability and the need to belong; episode 7 recap

oh, wow. this episode is so bittersweet. it's so beautiful and pretty and kind and gentle, but so realistic and painful and jarring and quiet.

i think by far, this is one of my favourite episodes. it's such a surprise to me—i think we're finally seeing and hearing and experiencing jiang tian's inner voice for the first time—upfront. it's no longer hiding away with the shadow under his feet. it's evident. but still so very shy and afraid. but it's there. and it's waiting for the right time to come out.

i have to say, this episode makes me realise that trauma runs deep and long and everlasting. i don't think it could ever go away. and I see that in jiang tian. i see how that trauma has shaped him to be who he is—so closed-off and fragile and fearful—but still so gentle and loving and appreciative and attentive.

there's something in the way benjamin is as an actor—i can't compliment him enough. it's difficult to pull off these intricate yet believable facial expressions without being cringey or over-the-top. but he did everything with poise and grace and so much attention to detail that I'm just in utter shock and awe.

happiness and acceptance

something about this sequence... i can't really put my thoughts into words. but the way jiang tian's face morphs from happiness to awe to acceptance? probably, a thought crosses his mind; I'm happy now. finally, I'm happy with someone who makes me the happiest.

the smile he wears when he's looking at sheng wang is of gratitude. and relief. and it's so bittersweet to me how it took him 16/17 years to finally have a morsel of this happiness. he truly deserves this and more :(

old grief

honestly... would anyone ever believe that these pictures come after those stills mentioned before? i wouldn't. because how on earth did the sparkle in jiang tian's eyes disappear—and how did the old gloom of grief suddenly became too blinding? (benjamin tsang, THE actor you are.)

there's so much grief and unwanted old memories and the bitterness of remembering those recollections that were very haunting and hollowing and suffocating.

i can't even imagine the pain jiang tian went through as a child—to witness the infidelity of his father—to see his mother breaking her bones and wearing fake smiles just to make ends meet—to find refuge in a stray cat because finally, someone could understand him. could understand the loneliness. could feel the sadness coursing in his bloodstream. could feel everything he was feeling. and it's so heartbreaking.

fear

jiang tian's fear is so quiet. it's so distant. it's so elusive. but it's there. and it's growing. it has never stopped growing. even though jiang tian tried to push it away, it would still crawl back to him, like a second skin.

and it's daunting how there's a new fear unlocked in him; losing sheng wang. losing the shine. losing the happiness. losing the tranquillity sheng wang brings upon him. losing his light—his sun.

i think jiang tian was so scared of qi jiahao or di zhaitao hurting sheng wang again. because he didn't want sheng wang to experience that again—to fight alone—to be afraid alone.

but once jiang tian found sheng wang, the fear subsided. it's a relief. and it's the usual anger. but not the destructive kind. this time, it means i care. it means i'm so worried. it means don't ever do that again. it means don't ever leave me.

vulnerability

it's so mental to me how this episode finally brings forward jiang tian's feeling to the spotlight. we could see him slowly becoming more open, especially with sheng wang.

it hurts me so much when jiang tian could only look at sheng wang tying the bracelet around his wrist. he didn't say anything. he was just looking. because jiang tian didn't know what to say. he didn't know if words could ever describe how much this moment meant to him—how sheng wang meant to him.

so he could only watch. he has always been watching sheng wang from a distance. but this time, he could watch sheng wang from a distance close enough to be assured that sheng wang won't stray too far from his orbit. sheng wang would be there—here. and jiang tian would finally meet him halfway.

"suddenly i feel that you're about my age."

sheng wang was coming for my life when he said this. it felt like a sucker punch straight in the face. Lord.

it's so heartbreaking because i do understand the meaning behind sheng wang's comment. i guess, even to sheng wang, jiang tian felt like someone older—a brother, a father, a friend, a protector, a saviour.

it feels nice to hear sheng wang saying this to jiang tian. it's assuring too. somehow, it's a reminder to jiang tian that he's still young. he doesn't have to grow up before the right age. he doesn't have to be an adult between them. he doesn't have to carry the burden alone. jiang tian doesn't have to do all these alone. he has sheng wang now. they can be kids or grown-ups or whatever—together.

(my heart was twisting and turning in my chest when I watched this... and I ended up crying...)

a sense of belonging

these stills are enough to explain the depth of their budding relationship. the reliance. the trust. the love. so much love and respect and desire and need and greed to be each other's protectors.

sheng wang just said everything i hoped he said at one point in this story. and I'm so glad that his words were so true and honest and beautiful.

"for everything you did to me, i'll do the same for you. I'll be here, with and for you."

i adore how both of them are brave to take the next step together. and I like how sheng wang was the one suggesting this move-in. i think it's so important for his character because he has always been beating around the bush—he has always made jiang tian guess what he wanted. but this moment right here, he was being straightforward and resolute and firm.

move in with me. it'll be only us there. it'll be our own little world. it can be your world. and your world is my world.

and the way jiang tian was looking at sheng wang with so much hope and relief and happiness and gratitude............ i'm bawling :(((

final thoughts

i absolutely adore this episode because i feel like it's a reset for the second half of the series. it feels more intimate, in a sense that we're finally getting into jiang tian's backstory (that will definitely kill me in future episodes) and the beautiful transformation of their love story. it's so bittersweet and I can't help but sympathise with jiang tian and sheng wang.

i'm certain the next episodes won't be rainbows and sunshine, but it also won't be only rain clouds and thunderstorms. I'm just so, so glad that episode seven, the second portion of the drama, started off with something very vulnerable but honest and relatable. it reminds me of how we witnessed sheng wang's backstory in the first episode and the first chunk of the series.

i'm most definitely anticipating tomorrow's episode. i hope it won't make cry the way it did in this one.

(also, shout out to my best boy gao tianyang! don't worry, love. li jia will definitely fall for you <3)

[hootyhoowoo]

In da clerb, we all fam

[happypeachsludgeflower]

Non transmitigation au where Shen Yuan auditions for a part in PIDW on a lark when it gets a live action adaptation, not thinking he’ll actually get a part (he just wanted to be able to say he did it okay? He was dated okay??! He was not dared he just thought it’d be neat, but he’ll admit to nothing.) and, much to his horror, ends up cast as Shen Qingqiu.

He somehow accidentally makes Shen Qingqiu so likable that he’s the most popular character. The fandom goes feral over him. He becomes famous. New fans are joining the bandwagon in droves to watch him.

And all the while, Shen Yuan is frantically trying to pretend he isn’t the most notorious anti fan troll to clown on the internet. He has never heard of PIDW before what do you mean Peerless Cucumber whomst?

[emacrow]

The civilization trapped in an ice meteorite.

Superman, after saving the earth from another earth ending bomb, breeze through space, were glowing clouds of gas and dust known as a planetary nebula floated around aimlessly with glowing green dwarf particles as if a solar system was sucked into, but there only lays a sun and 7 planets here before before something caught his eye.

A pusling aimlessly floating ball like metorite full of frozen white ice with green dipped in the bottom in the middle of space. The pulsing glow flickers like a couple of very slow heartbeats.

Superman used his x ray vision to see inside, and what he saw immediately immediately griped the ice and speed flew over through back to the Watchtower which was not far from here.

Superman spoke in the coms of his oxygen mask to the Watchtower.

"Open the space entrance gates, and someone calls in Beatriz Da Costa. I found a floating town trapped in metorite ice with what seems civilians' insides." Superman spoke in the coms as he pushed the metorite carefully toward the watchtower, unaware of the gigantic glowing transparent being with 8 neon green eyes staring at him wrapped around the ice metorite like a Serpent to it's eggs.

[benevolenterrancy]

"Heavens, he doesn't understand again." "Every time he says 'I don't understand', Lui-shixiong grabs someone to demonstrate until he understands..." Ji Jue quietly complained to Shang Qinghua. No wonder the injuries at Bai Zhan Peak had only increased!

so this is obviously Liu Qingge's entire love language, right?

[bug-slappy]

everybody in the world go read the reigen spin off

[butter-n-breadrolls]

Bagginshield fanfics that have Bilbo use the mithril shirt and sting to kill Azog and save Thorin are just perfect. Perfect writing, another layer of heroism for Bilbo, another reason for Thorin to be madly in love with him, and for it to be super hard for untrustworthy dwarves to not accept him. Extra points if Bilbo tells Thorin he’s sorry that Thorin wasn’t the one to do it after everything Azog had done to his family, and Thorins just standing there thinking about how to convince Bilbo to marry him

[razormain]

the convo in the shackling prison...

[chicxibalba]

woof

[lacilashea]

I love Jesus more than all and all my posts belong to Jesus and he is my Lord and savior, the Messiah, the Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews, the rest on the earth and that much being God's son. as my Lord and savior and this is not about me but about Jesus the Messiah, the Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews and the rest on the earth and that much being God's son with Mary, and Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost have feelings like you and others do that also exist because of God, and you can talk to Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost literally all the time and they do talk back to you and outside of prayer also and will be that close to you and talk to them and others that exist like you all day and night long and you'll never be alone and start talking to Jesus about everything and your lives will improve, No one needs governments, kings, queens, etc of people anywhere when people could just help one another as God and Jesus said and with God and Jesus being kings over us and all the people even now God and Jesus should be-1 samuel 8:6-9-It displeased Samuel when they said to him, “Appoint a king over us,” so Samuel prayed to the Lord. The Lord said to him, “Listen to everything that the people have requested of you. It is not you whom the people have rejected, they have rejected me as their king. They have done this from the day that I brought them up out of Egypt to this very day. They have rejected me and served other gods, just as they have rejected you. So grant their request, but warn them solemnly and inform them what the king who reigns over them will do.” and then what happened to Jesus-John 18 and 19 and he-JESUS IS EVERYONE'S KING and GOD'S BEGOTTEN SON with Mary and GOD JESUS'S DAD AND OUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS KING-as for you, DO NOT BE CALLED RABBI. you have but one TEACHER, AND YOU ALL BROTHERS. CALL NO ONE ON EARTH YOUR FATHER; you have but one FATHER in HEAVEN. DO NOT BE CALLED MASTER; you have but one master, the MESSIAH-JESUS-MATTHEW 23:8-10. Just more FACTS.

I love Jesus more than all and all my posts belong to Jesus and he is my Lord and savior, the Messiah, the Christ, Jesus is my King and should be your too instead of people and made up governments and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews, the rest on the earth and that much being God's son. as my Lord and savior and this is not about me but about Jesus the Messiah, the Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews and the rest on the earth and that much being God's son with Mary, and Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost have feelings like you and others do that also exist because of God, and you can talk to Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost literally all the time and they do talk back to you and outside of prayer also and will be that close to you and talk to them and others that exist like you do all day and night long and you'll never be alone and start talking to Jesus about everything, and your lives will improve and I'm not just saying that it is true and I know from my own personal experiences that Jesus is a friend to all that want to be his friend just like God is Abraham's friend, God is the same way, the Holy Spirit, Also others really do exist God Jesus and the Holy Ghost have made-a variety of angels, animals, plants, people, demons, devil, you, me and more me who God, Jesus and Holy Spirit has made and you only worship Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost as that how it is suppose to be and Jesus is who allows you to talk to God and anyone(as you are breathing)-John 14:6 just ask Jesus and he let you talk to them. Exodus in the comments to Chapter 24 and goes to 40 to look up the rest-Jesus is King and should be ruling us with God as King and the Holy Ghost everywhere right now instead of people and made up governments. Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost are my-Laci Lashea Higgins and many more last names in my families only kings and you should understand why you do not want people over you and all should be given back to Jesus God's son to be over/leading as king, ruler, leader over everybody only with God and the Holy Ghost-not people as Jesus is the only Messiah and that is why. If they do not take a hint with made up governments everywhere just write in JESUS on the ballot because that is not suppose to be going on either anywhere with made up governments or kings over anyone anywhere when Jesus can be over everyone and should be-not people. Everyone looking at my blog knows exactly what I mean.

[maegalkarven]

I've just played through Gortash's coronation with and without Karlach in the party and the difference-

Like when Karlach is in the party Gortash puts on a mask of composure and authority. Durge is still favorite assassin and all, but 'Lord Gortash' needs to maintain presence.

And then it's just Durge in the party and Gortash is a fucking smiling giggly mess. I can't express how freaking giggly he looks at EVERY second of the convo. Literally "blushing, giggling, twirling hair" kind of a vibe.

And WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK is that? How I'm supposed to NOT align with him??? How my Durge is supposed to not be immediately compelled to destroy the world just so this man kept looking at them like that?

[xjackjackx]

The new episode finally gave Chosen the characterization he needed and Dark the gremlin characterization Showdown STOLE from him. It shows why one turned good and one didn't.

Chosen was never fundamentally a bad person, he was just scared and thought he was the good guy. He was scared Alan would hurt him, he thought he was doing a good thing by destroying his PC and attacking all those icons that supported him, that worked for the man that saw them as expendable. When destroying websites, he attacked "the most dangerous cities in america" and the angry birds pigs; he was destroying what he thought was dangerous. Even at his worst, he never wanted to hurt innocents, he wanted to keep himself safe and defeat what he saw as dangerous.

And then he sees Minecraft. He finds a moment of peace and relaxation. And for the first time since birth, instead of destroying, he makes. Sure, his little house was for himself and not anyone else, but he still realised it feels good to be good, to be in your own comfort instead of attacking everything. And most importantly; when Dark destroyed his little house, when it was time for them to go, he put himself in the shoes of all those civilians he hurt, that lost their homes. And he realised that he's never actually helped anyone, just destroyed innocent lives. That's why the episode takes place after Angry Birds but before StickPage, because that's the middle point of Chosen realising if it's even worth doing all of this.

Dark, meanwhile? He doesn't care. He never sees any reason to calm down. If he's not actively doing anything, he's bored. And for a bored man with superpowers, the best way to feel excited is to use those superpowers for something. That's why he loves the Nether so much, almost like a parallel to Chosen enjoying the Overworld. It's his own home. Endless destruction, a Hell-like environment, eldritch beings that are like lambs for the slaughter; this is Dark's home, this is what he thrives for.

And that's why Dark never turned good, and why he likely won't turn good anytime soon assuming he's still even alive. And it doesn't matter if Dark is influenced by his "Dark Lord" title, if his "Destroy TCO" programming is influencing his thoughts, or if he's actually just a psychopath. He's not afraid like Chosen, he's not insecure like Purple, he's not vengeful like King, nor is he misguided like Victim or Agent. If Orange represented Alan's good side, Dark represents Alan's evil side. He's evil because he likes it. It's his own hobby, the same way Green has music and Blue has gardening. And the same way Green and Blue never stop enjoying their hobbies, Dark will never not like killing.

But the scene that caught my attention the most - the most important scene in this entire episode - is Chosen trying to stop Dark from blowing up his house, only for him to do it anyways as Chosen meekly walks away.

Because again we are shown that between what Chosen wants and what Dark wants, Dark will always choose what HE wants.

But Chosen was tired of having to satiate Dark's wants and needs when Dark never cared about what Chosen thought.

[achlyisdumb]

Hollow Escape AU

Chapter 1: Part 5/6

First // Previous // Next

[myfamilyllashea]

I love Jesus more than all and all my posts belong to Jesus and he is my Lord and savior, the Messiah, the Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews, the rest on the earth and that much being God's son. as my Lord and savior and this is not about me but about Jesus the Messiah, the Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews and the rest on the earth and that much being God's son with Mary, and Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost have feelings like you and others do that also exist because of God, and you can talk to Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost literally all the time and they do talk back to you and outside of prayer also and will be that close to you and talk to them and others that exist like you all day and night long and you'll never be alone and start talking to Jesus about everything and your lives will improve, No one needs governments, kings, queens, etc of people anywhere when people could just help one another as God and Jesus said and with God and Jesus being kings over us and all the people even now God and Jesus should be-1 samuel 8:6-9-It displeased Samuel when they said to him, “Appoint a king over us,” so Samuel prayed to the Lord. The Lord said to him, “Listen to everything that the people have requested of you. It is not you whom the people have rejected, they have rejected me as their king. They have done this from the day that I brought them up out of Egypt to this very day. They have rejected me and served other gods, just as they have rejected you. So grant their request, but warn them solemnly and inform them what the king who reigns over them will do.” and then what happened to Jesus-John 18 and 19 and he-JESUS IS EVERYONE'S KING and GOD'S BEGOTTEN SON with Mary and GOD JESUS'S DAD AND OUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS KING-as for you, DO NOT BE CALLED RABBI. you have but one TEACHER, AND YOU ALL BROTHERS. CALL NO ONE ON EARTH YOUR FATHER; you have but one FATHER in HEAVEN. DO NOT BE CALLED MASTER; you have but one master, the MESSIAH-JESUS-MATTHEW 23:8-10. Just more FACTS.

I love Jesus more than all and all my posts belong to Jesus and he is my Lord and savior, the Messiah, the Christ, Jesus is my King and should be your too instead of people and made up governments and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews, the rest on the earth and that much being God's son. as my Lord and savior and this is not about me but about Jesus the Messiah, the Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ the truth, Jesus King of the jews and the rest on the earth and that much being God's son with Mary, and Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost have feelings like you and others do that also exist because of God, and you can talk to Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost literally all the time and they do talk back to you and outside of prayer also and will be that close to you and talk to them and others that exist like you do all day and night long and you'll never be alone and start talking to Jesus about everything, and your lives will improve and I'm not just saying that it is true and I know from my own personal experiences that Jesus is a friend to all that want to be his friend just like God is Abraham's friend, God is the same way, the Holy Spirit, Also others really do exist God Jesus and the Holy Ghost have made-a variety of angels, animals, plants, people, demons, devil, you, me and more me who God, Jesus and Holy Spirit has made and you only worship Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost as that how it is suppose to be and Jesus is who allows you to talk to God and anyone(as you are breathing)-John 14:6 just ask Jesus and he let you talk to them. Exodus in the comments to Chapter 24 and goes to 40 to look up the rest-Jesus is King and should be ruling us with God as King and the Holy Ghost everywhere right now instead of people and made up governments. Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost are my-Laci Lashea Higgins and many more last names in my families only kings and you should understand why you do not want people over you and all should be given back to Jesus God's son to be over/leading as king, ruler, leader over everybody only with God and the Holy Ghost-not people.

[mistninja]

Fitz/fool master servant role-playing road trip 100k words... And it's canon

[utopianparadoxist]

hottest take i ever dropped, but its extremely not woke or cute to hate dirk or make him out to be an uncomplicated misogynist/homophobe/abuser or whatever. he's literally a macrocosmic villain of viciously targeted homophobic abuse from a violently and personally omnicidal, omnipotent homophobe stalker.

i dont care that he's an imperfect victim who carries that abuse forward, thats just what being in the thrall of a stephen king monster does to you. it doesnt make it not homophobic to pretend that dirk is just some chud and his hang ups with gender and sexuality are self-inflicted. I even include Bro in this! like, that man didn't just live expecting the end of the world, he directly lived through an ongoing horrific apocalypse in the form of the AIDs crisis that predominantly targeted people like him at the same time.

To say nothing of AIDs being a crisis that was openly being discussed as a divine punishment of gay people, a view that was tacitly endorsed by Reagan and other members of the US government. And then there's Lil Cal in his ear, literally the unholy ghost voice of a malevolent Christian God, whispering in his ears that the [VILE SLURS OMITTED] deserved it?

Like, Caliborn openly talks about trolls as pestilent vermin who deserve to be wiped out in every way imaginable, you're not gonna convince me Lil Cal wasn't saying exactly the same shit in the way most efficiently targeted to hurt Bro imaginable.

I don't think Bro ever got a moment's peace with which to even consider the idea of touching another man that didn't go untainted by Cal's hunger for dominance and violence or his mockery and disgust for any kind of desire for affection or human connection.

I'm not even gonna keep going because I could forever, I hit some sort of turning point on this subject recently and started thinking about it non stop, but Lil Cal as a force in Bro's life growing up is 100% one of the most horrific things in Homestuck, its a horror that just keeps getting deeper and deeper the more you consider it.