God. Wow it's almost amusing to think about how much I needed things to have special meaning when I was like 13-17..
Now I'm just like yeah this makes me happy yeah Im burnt out from this other thing, I'm glad to exist, haha this thing is funny, etc. Without fussing over it having to mean something or be symbolic and it's kind of nice.
Doesn't mean I dislike my past self for needing to have things have deeper meaning, I appreciate the way I saw the world and my life then. It's how I experienced things then and it's nice to look back on that. I've become a lot more self aware since then and maybe that has something to do with it, maybe if you're more secure in who you are you're less likely to need to assign meaning externally or something.
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Scary Sunset.
I'm concepting things way outta order in this story, but I'm sure you can piece things together. Context is for a storybeat where, after defeating and capturing Adagio (thus having all three sirens in her possession), Sunset enacts her revenge plot to release the sirens on Canterlot as Thea discovers she's been manipulated. In a confrontation, the two scuffle and fight over the siren orbs while Sunset struggles with her conflicting wants and emotions.
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some sam & max art from this week
go-karting • popsicles • peanut butter (celebrating dog day)
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Honestly, the most genuine advice I can give to other traumatized queer people who were traumatized by other queer people is that you need to internalize the fact that queer people who share an identity with your abuser(s) are not your abuser(s).
You cannot project your trauma onto others in that way. It is not fair to you and it is not fair to them. I understand. It's a fear response. It's PTSD. It's trauma. But you cannot let it control the way you view other queer people who are not your abuser(s) because they are not your abuser(s).
Queer people are just that - people. We can hurt each other. We can traumatize each other. We can do horrific things to each other just like any other human being can. But you cannot fall into the mind trap of blanketing your trauma around entire identities. The problem with your abuser(s) is that they abused you, not that they were a particular kind of queer.
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