#Like I love all of these ppl and I am SO tempted to go with fish

[agayconcept]

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[bonyato]

i'll see shows w/ the silliest goofiest character designs imaginable & be like You're Going To Become A Vital Part Of My Existence Now.

[imavikingo]

One thing I'm TIRED of is ppl tagging Stucky to simply shit on Steve. (This happens a lot in AO3)

Idk why they need to tag the ship if they HATE Steve or treat him like shit.

You can ship whatever you want but what's the need to tag that ship if you only want to bash one character? I could understand if the tag is "minor relationship/past relationship" or other variations. But they're not.

Same happens with some posts I've seen on here now. I'm tired of ppl hating on my favorite character and treating him like crap just because it's convenient now and because the writers didn't make the ship "canon" and assassinated his character and fucked up Buckys.

I try to block some tags (mostly of other ships bc you know... ppl try to justify their ships with the Steve slander) to stop seeing that kind of posts. But those types of posts keep appearing and I'm done. I actually don't feel comfortable anymore lmao.

[harrylights]

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[bunitivity]

I don't know if you've answered something similar but do you have any ZoLuSanUso headcanons for when they're sick? (Let's ignore canon for a moment, I know none of these monsters actually ever get sick, but that's no fun! We want angst, and hurt and comfort!)

No I’ve not lol but sure I can give some hcs. Out of the four of them I feel like Usopp would be the most likely to say anything if he got sick followed by Luffy and then Sanji and then Zoro who I believe wouldn’t even know if he was sick. He would just say something like I’ve been feeling weaker lately better up my training and then train harder like an idiot.

Sanji would be coming over with some refreshments and be like wait you’re breathing weird and you’re all red are you okay?/that’s what happens when you train maybe you should try it some time and then before Sanji has a chance to give a scathing respond Zoro just fkn collapses in front of everyone. Luffy would be fkn inconsolable thinking he’s dying bc anything that can fell someone like Zoro must be fatal and Usopp tries to explain that it’s just his hubris catching up to him and this is what happens when you train shirtless in the fucking cold.

Zoro would be the worst sick person bc he’d insist he’s fine and try to sneak out of the infirmary any chance he gets which is why it’s a good thing he has three boyfriends who can take shift to prevent that from happening. Though they don’t really need to take shifts bc Luffy won’t leave his side and is there under the covers with him fiercely holding him which was fine at first until it becomes too hot and it gets uncomfortable. Zoro is dying but would rather die before saying anything so it’s Sanji who has to break it to Luffy.

“You know I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing I’ve heard the easiest way to get rid of a fever is to sweat it,” Usopp points out.

Luffy’s eyes lit up. “Really?”

“Usopp darling my love,” Sanji pinches his nose. “I love you but please don’t encourage this. At this rate they’re both going to get sick and then we’ll have two ppl to take care of.”

“And here I thought you’d do anything for the people you love,” Zoro opens up the blanket. “Are you really going to let something like a measly cold stop you?”

Sanji sees the space Zoro opens up for him and the way Luffy looks so snuggly by his side and takes a step towards them and almost falls for it until Usopp snatches his wrist. Zoro clicks his tongue.

Usopp sighs. “God you’re so easy. I can’t believe you’d let him bait you like that.”

Sanji flushes. “What? No! I wasn’t going to fall for it! I was just going to check his temperature and nothing else!”

“Sure babe,” Usopp says. “Sanji you’re the cook you’re the last person we need getting sick please don’t let this idiot tempt you.”

“Yeah which is why Usopp should join us!” Luffy rises in the bed and grabs Usopp’s hand. “Double the people means Zoro would get better even faster!”

And then he drags him into bed.

“Wait Luffy! Ugh Zoro you’re so sweaty! Gross!”

Zoro just smiles before plastering himself all over Usopp making it that much worse. “Oi stop that! I fucking hate you!”

Zoro hums “sure” while Luffy just laughs. “Don’t worry Usopp you’ll get used to it.”

“That’s the last thing I want!”

“Wait wait wait,” Sanji interrupts their tomfoolery. “If Usopp sleeps here then who am I sleeping with tonight??”

“That’s what you’re worried about? This idiot is trying to infect me with his stupid germs and that is what you’re most worried about??”

“It just gets so lonely~”

“You’ll just have to figure that out because it’s already too late for Usopp I’m afraid,” Zoro kisses Usopp’s cheek and then looks up at him through his lashes. “But the offer still stands.”

“Well-“

“Sanji!”

“Okay fine! I’ll just sleep all by myself in our big stupid bed while the three of you get to cuddle here all warm and happy.”

He does not do that and just ends up sleeping on the infirmary floor because he’s an idiot and he occasionally reaches out to touch Usopp’s hand that’s dangling over the side of the bed because he’s crazy like that.

Of course the next ones who get sick are Luffy and Usopp. It doesn’t happen right away it doesn’t even hit them at the same time. Luffy is the one who goes down first because he’s the one who spent the most time with Zoro and unlike Usopp he was willing to kiss Zoro while he was sick because he genuinely didn’t believe he would get it but he does.

Luffy does not like getting sick. Does not like how weak it makes him feel and most of all how lonely it is when his boyfriends or friends aren’t there to keep him company. Reminds him too much of being small and being sick and alone because Ace went out to hunt and he couldn’t go with him. And now he’s thinking about Ace which is a whole bag worms and fuck being alone with his thoughts like this is just torture.

So he gets extra clingy because he can’t stand being alone. And of course his boyfriends indulge him holding his hand and talking to him to distract him to keep the bad thoughts at bay.

“I’m sorry,” he’ll tell Sanji. “I should have listened to you. If had none of this would have happened. It’s okay you can go back to work I’ll be okay.”

Sanji would normally chastise him but he hears the vulnerability in his voice and just squeezes his hand and then brings it to his lips. “Nonsense, my love. I’ll stay with you until you feel better.”

Luffy tears up a bit. “Even if you get sick?”

“Even if I get sick.”

Usopp would make a makeshift bed out of chairs and lay down so they’re at the same eye level and it feels like they are on the same bed even if they aren’t and reaches across the vast distance to hold his hand and make him laugh with his stories some fantastical some real(albeit exaggerated) about the things he has missed. Luffy will listen with rapt attention until he dozes off. Sometimes Usopp will fall asleep holding his hand and Zoro and Sanji have to come collect him.

Some nights Zoro will sneak in after the two others have fallen asleep. Just to watch over him and if Luffy is awake he’ll wrap him up in some sheets from head to toe to prevent himself from getting sick again and then cuddles him to sleep. Luffy is so happy despite how stuffy and uncomfortable it is. Just happy not to be alone.

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Sanji is just in the kitchen making breakfast one morning when Usopp comes up behind him and wraps his arms around him and rests his head on his shoulder. “Sanji I think I’m getting sick.”

“You too??” He checks his forehead and sure enough Usopp’s burning up. “You guys are going down like flies. But before we tell Chopper give me one final kiss.”

“Do you really think that’s a good idea.” Then he laughs at the downtrodden look on Sanji’s face and kisses him. “Guess it’s fine I don’t think it’s that serious anyway.”

It’s that serious and he ends up joining an overjoyed Luffy in the infirmary. Hurray a sick buddy!

“I really do not like how happy you are that I’m sick. Feels like a red flag.”

“What?? I’m not happy you’re sick I’m happy we’re sick together!”

“Diabolical.”

“I’ll show you diabolical!” Then he just starts kissing him all over.

Sanji is just distraught that they’re both sick now. “I haven’t gotten any Luffy kisses in so long.” Okay maybe that’s not the only thing he’s distraught about but still!

“No one’s stopping you.”

“Shut up Marimo this is all your fault! If you’d just learn to wear a shirt none of this would have happened!”

“Oh please you love it when I don’t wear a shirt.”

“When it’s hot out! …wait did you just say nothing is stopping me?” Sanji’s eyes go wide. “Don’t tell me you have been making out with Luffy this entire time!”

“What moron would do that!”

Then they get kicked out of the infirmary for being too loud.

It hits Usopp a lot harder than the other two. Because unlike his boyfriends he’s just regular person and whatever felled them straight up knocks him out. He’s delirious and barely conscious for the most of it which makes the others quite distressed. Especially Luffy who is the closest to him(proximity wise) and who ends up seeing the worst of it. He will try and talk to Usopp but only gets short responses back and sometimes they aren’t even coherent and make no sense. This just makes him even more distressed which leads to Luffy staying up all night despite also being sick and needing his rest just to watch Usopp sleep afraid that if he falls asleep Usopp will just stopped breathing. No matter how much Chopper reassures him Usopp will be fine there will be this tiny voice at the back of his head whispering what if and he just can’t risk it.

Even after Luffy gets better he’ll lie and say he is still sick just so he isn’t forced to leave. He’ll wrap around him several times cocooning him in his arms in the dead of night whispering in Usopp’s ear to please not leave him he couldn’t bear to lose anyone else. And then sigh a breath of relief when he feels Usopp squeeze him back.

Sanji is just as bad as him staying up late at the infirmary not leaving until Zoro has to physically lift him and carry him out. He redoubles his efforts whipping up dish after dish that he hopes will help. Zoro often have to force to take a break. Zoro is worried too but unlike Luffy and Sanji he knows restraint(when it concerns others that are not him lol) so he ends up looking Sanji so he doesn’t overwork himself and ends up bedridden too. Two sick people are already bad enough.

Once he gets him in bed Sanji would still stay up worrying and confiding in Zoro that he’s afraid that they may not get better alluding but not outright telling him about his mother’s illness. She had been looked a lot better than Usopp and she still died and so what if the same happened to either Luffy or Usopp?? Then were would he be? Just all alone with stupid Marimo he would say all while burying his face in Zoro’s chest trembling. “Don’t be stupid they’re a lot stronger than some stupid cold they’ll both be fine In no time especially after you made that dish? What was it called again?”

He will try to distract by making him talk about those legendary dishes he learned from Iva until he falls asleep.

Zoro who’s usually so unflappable ends up infected by all Luffy’s and Sanji’s anxious energy and just ends up feeling useless since there’s nothing he can do but watch over Luffy and Usopp while they sleep and helping Luffy get out of his spirals once the waiting gets to be too much.

But because Sanji can’t be stopped(Zoro is too m he just isn’t as vocal about it) they end up sleeping in the infirmary too. Making a makeshift bed on the floor much to Chopper’s chagrin.

Usopp wakes up early one morning finally released from the ravages of his fever to see his three boyfriends in the room with him. Luffy clutching his waist and Sanji holding his hand which has started cramping from the impractical position. He looks up and makes direct eye contact with Zoro who smiles with heavy eye bags under his eyes and says “took you long enough.”

Usopp reaches out and touches his face and brings it closer so he can kiss it. “Thank you for waiting.”

There’s a little bit of a celebration once the other two wake up and everything is right with the world.

Until Sanji gets sick.

“And this is why I said you shouldn’t work so hard stupid cook.”

“Are we cursed? Is this why this keeps happening?? Feels like we’re stuck in a bad dream!”

“Don’t be stupid this is because Sanji was stupid and worked himself sick.”

“Maybe so but-Luffy!”

Luffy stops where he had been crawling into bed into Sanji’s outstretched arms who’s crooning sweet nothings to him.

“What? You can’t get sick twice from the same cold. I stayed with you even after I got better and I’m feeling just fine.”

“That cannot possibly be true.”

“You gotta admit he has a point.”

“I do not want to hear that from you patient 0. I blame you for all of this.”

Zoro just shrugs and makes Sanji scooch over.

But because there was no one there to correct them and both Zoro and Sanji agreed with Luffy outvoting Usopp 3-1 he had to let it happen. And to no one’s surprise they all got sick again.

[katerinaaqu]

Hello! May I ask, Did Odysseus have concubines/sex slaves? I keep hearing ppl say he did

Hello Anon! That is a very good question. I think he definitely had war prizes if we believe the passage on the Iliad in rhapsody 1:

Even if I choose to take the prize of Ajax or of Odysseus: I could take it and carry it away

(Translation by me)

We do know that all Greek heroes had some sort of war prize during their plunders so they would also share women with each other. So Odysseus we can expect he definitely had slave women as war prizes. Now the question is whether he used them for sex or not. It seems that there is a family tradition hahaha since Euryclea is mentioned in the Odyssey that Laërtes had her as a loved slave but he never slept with her out of concern for his wife's jealousy

But he never took her to his bed for he was concerned of his wife's anger

(Translation by me)

So it seems that we can assume that Odysseus took a similar route as his father in this. We do know he had slave girls as prizes of war and conflict (he had 50 of them just in his megaron/palace) but he seems to be using them as servants or protégé rather than sex slaves. To be honest I wouldn't be surprised if he was tempted once or twice given how long he was away from his wife (and I did entertain that possibility in my story "Ismarus! Ismarus!"):

But I wouldn't be surprised if he followed the same path as his father and never actually go all the way through with his slave girls but had them as his servants to do some tasks for him like bathe him, help him prepare or potentially mourn the men of his that died during the war.

I think he definitely had slave girls that were supposed to be sex slaves like every king had but whether he used them or not for sex is up for interpretation. Slaves were generally a gray zone in Greek context so people were not considered "cheating" for having them the classical way. On the other hand the existence of Laërtes and not using Euryclea for sex despite his attraction for her (and even paying 20 oxen for her which is not a small price) I should say we can assume that Odysseus follows the same path and never uses any slave for sex out of loyalty for his wife (which could perhaps explain partially the attraction he felt for people like Circe or even Nausicaa in the back of his mind; how the possible suppressed sexual desire he had made him even more vulnerable to Circe's charms for instance so this is perhaps how she kept him bound to her by fear so long -although I do not fully align with this hypothesis I guess it is still on the table)

So yeah one more time; yes I am sure he had at least one war prize for his own that we know from the Iliad but whether he used them for sex or not I think that is up for interpretation but like I said following the sample of how Laërtes treated Euryclea I would say we can equally assume that Odysseus did the same and used his slaves of war the same way that he used them in his palace: as servants. It is up to you.

Hope that helps.

[ghostherlig]

no no let’s get you started on talking about railao breeding kink! (I meant to send that yesterday but completely forgot 🤣 please talk about railao and trans railao and t4t railao please I am so starved and desperate for them. Also, moment of silence for the lost fics, that is literally the worst feeling in the world 🫡🙏😭)

ASDKLJFHDA- railao breeding kink never leaves my brain i wish i was joking-

i really do have to write a fic about them (which technically the western au is gonna be my top priority once the collaring fic is done and they're going to be a big part of that- (and once it get bATTERIES FOR MY MOUSE AND KEYBOARD-))

also thank you, moment of silence 🫡😔

okay here's my trans railao rant bc i cant contain myself (under the cut bc it gets long and also nsfw warning- includes trans raiden, trans lao, and t4t railao)

i love love love trans raiden- i think lao brags about his everything for a reason and i think raiden knows that intimately- trans raiden whose always had a smaller chest and never felt the need to bind and just worked out to get his chest how he wanted it- raiden who has little to no shame about undressing around ppl bc he grew up in a small village and everyone knew and was fairly supportive :) lao who was ultra extra supportive and helped raiden since boyhood feel more comfortable with who he was and how he presented himself- hasldfkjasd they are so soft i love them

anyway- lao def also takes the strap when raiden feels like topping, and you bet lao makes that all about raiden- literally all the praise and affirmations for him as lao absolutely loses his mind as his boyfriend takes him apart like he gets paid to- raiden who had the biggest breeding kink and likes to get stuffed but also loves stuffing lao even more- they for sure have an ejaculating strap on just so raiden can make an absolute mess out of lao aslkdjfhasdf

trans lao had a lot more insecurities as a kid to me, wasnt necessarily afraid of telling ppl bc they would be hateful but was afraid bc he wanted to be only a man in their eyes- like he was scared they would see him differently than he really was- but raiden helped him with his self-confidence (a little too much, some might say-) and that's why lao talks big game- though often he can follow through, there's a limit to the things he's done and can be good at first try

trans lao who absolutely goads raiden into stuffing him full at every possible convenience- before training? why not- we got twenty minutes and an empty closet, no one's coming by here- it's almost five am and we have training in half an hour, that leaves them plenty of time to have raiden stuff him full and clean him up after- lao is so tempting and raiden falls for it every time, the poor man

lao also loves absolutely breaking raiden down with a strap on- whenever he has the energy to he teases raiden until he's fit to burst and then makes him wait while lao goes to grab everything they need- pillow princess raiden is so near and dear to my heart aasldfkjdf he deserves it :)

railao with one of them being trans is always fantastic but t4t railao really has my heart- t4t railao where both of them grew up and learned how to be themselves together, both kind of figuring it out and coming out at the same time, going through the awkward spots together and helping each other through it- asldkfhasdf them having that friends to lovers slow burn where it takes them like five years, three life crises, and almost the end of the world to realize that they love each other-

t4t railao where they both crave the closeness of the other so much so that it's maddening and they end up forgetting where one starts and the other ends-

any version of railao that knows where the other is in a room at all times, even blindfolded they could find each other in dead silence, i swear- railao with that soul tie bc they've spent so long together that they've become basically inseparable, literally a package deal, where one goes the other does too-

asdlfkjasdf i love railao so much i need to spend more time writing them- new year's resolution: write railao-

[thegamingcatmom]

Hi, it is me <3 I love the Tanya content but I am thirsty for some Irina stuff (can't help myself I have my fav sister :p)

I was wondering a few things bc I wanna know everything but I will settle for this:

How far Irina would go for you? And how affectionate is her? (Like does she like to cuddle, is she a touchy person? Idk all the sappy stuff, gimme gimme!)

Thank you ❤️❤️

Hellaw. 🫶🫶

(And that´s absolutely valid. ❤️)

How far Irina would go for you?

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Stare at it all you want, it´s not gonna stop anytime soon.

I think the easier question here would be: How far wouldn´t she go?

It´s easy because the answer is simple: It doesn´t exist. The answer, I mean.

I don´t think words could express the love she feels, the things she´d do for you. Her love is timeless and all-encompassing. Tanya might have fallen first, but Irina fell the hardest. You know I consider her the most maternal of them, and you also know a mother´s love is considered the strongest of em all? Mix that with her undying love as your mate and you might be halfway there. Honestly.

When Irina loves, it´s with everything she´s got. She´s a romantic through and through, and although she might not be able to enjoy human things the way you do, that won´t stop her from going all out on it, regardless.

It doesn´t matter where you two are or what you´re doing - as long as she´s with you, it couldn´t be more perfect.

Irina the Romantic

She´s gonna arrange candle light dinners at your favorite spot high up in the mountains near a cliff that overlooks the whole of Denali national park. This is also where you shared your very first kiss.

Ye, all the way up there.

There´s trees surrounding the spot, which she´s decorated with fairy lights. She´s got patio heaters set up all around to make sure her little human mate will be all nice and cozy at all times - she ain´t taking any chances with accidently getting you sick. Then, she´ll serve you your favorite food, tell you stories about the old days or her further plans for the two of you, or just silly things to make you laugh. If you´re not busy holding your cutlery, she´ll be the one to occupy that space. With her own hand. Fitting like a puzzle piece.

She wants you to have the time of your life. <3

Irina the Caretaker

You´re feeling unwell or just having a really shitty day in general? Say no more-

She´s gonna run the two of you the best of baths, setting up candles all around - your favorite fragrance, ofc. There´s so much foam, it makes you feel like you´re floating on cloud nine. Depending on your well-being, she´ll have some snacks prepared for you as well - chocolate, fruit, crackers. You name it, you shall receive it. Ofc she´s got meds and the softest of tissues ready as well, should you require anything. She´s put on some nice music in the background, so soothing you almost fall asleep. However, she knows how much you love her singing voice. If that is what you wish, she´ll sing you the sweetest of lullabies.

She´s gonna be so very affectionate with you as well. Massaging those stiff shoulders, kissing along every inch she can reach, running her hands through your hair. She´s gonna take a bath sponge and run it along your arms, your back, down your belly, along your legs - so tender in her care for you. Ofc she´s also gonna wash your hair for you, she knows how much you enjoy that - mewling and purring for her like a kitten. ;3

She´ll do anything to make her babygirl feel better. <3

Irina the Protector

I mean-

I think that look says it all.

No matter if it´s some random ass person or the family - she´ll protect you and your honor at all costs. People get snappy with you, or downright hurt you with their words? She´s gonna rip into them (with words, ofc....she´s tempted, though), and she´s gonna make them regret they´ve opened their foul mouths in the first place. At some point, she´ll probs switch to Slovak in all her rage, not even realizing ppl don´t understand a word she says, lol. (She´s adorable.)

If all talking doesn´t help, she´ll simply throw them the deathliest of stares. That always works.

Okay, but what if it´s not just words anymore? What if someone actually put their hands on you?

Oh, oh boy, holy-

Dead. Or well on their way there, at least. Usually, she´s not one for drawing out the inevitable, but in this case she´ll make an exception. She´ll thoroughly enjoy making them suffer, just as they did you. She´ll enjoy every scream and whimper, until all that´s left is sweet, sweet silence.

She´ll make sure you´re far away first, though. Not because she thinks you might despise or fear her, but because she doesn´t wish to expose you to any sort of violent display. Not if she can help it. She doesn´t wish for you to suffer night terrors, and she also knows the view might be a bit too much for your sensitive stomach to handle.

However, you might just be able to convince her to show mercy...perhaps. If you ask nicely. Very nicely. >;3

I´m sorry for the late reply, but I hope this makes up for the wait a lil bit. <33

Thanks a lot for your ask. ❤️❤️

[woodlaflababab]

A rant on Aang being fed, this is half serious half a joke

Starting with the Headband episode where they go to a restaurant that is specifically for meat (as we hear Aang say 'oh, we're going to a meat place?' and based on how he doesnt join them, the place doesnt have any other options) despite 1/4 of their group being vegetarian.

And if that wasnt bad enough, when they brush off Aang, Aang says, and I quote

"I'll just get some lettuce out of the garbage."

And they accept this???? And leave him??? They don't act like this is exactly out of the ordinary? How often is Aang going dumpster diving for food???? Like, what a weird fucking throw away line.

And then

What was he eating during the painted lady episode? Bc all sokka was buying was poisoned fish and clams. I hope they just, had rations, and they were just,,,, choosing to eat poison fish instead of said rations, bc the alternative, is Aangs been on his own foraging plants around a dead river for however many days they were there. Katara over here extending their stay like, hell yeah pop off katara, save those people, but also, she had to know Aang didn't have shit to eat right???? Aang’s not eating the berries, wtf is he eating? Katara you found edible berries? And didn't tell Aang?????

And I don't remember him complaining abt any of this, like, kid, child, you are in one of the most rapid stages of growth and are doing the physical work of mASTERING THREE ELEMENTS IN NINE MONTHS, sustenance is, in fact, a necessity

Catch anti-aang ppl coming out here and saying Aang should've just stopped being so picky, that if he really wanted to eat, he'd have eaten what was available and how the others aren’t responsible for making sure he's fed. That sounds exactly like some shit anti aangers would say.

And you know who it also sounds like? SOKKA

MY BOY

HOW CAN YOU DO THIS

He looks at the vegetarian whos a vegetarian bc of his dEAD CULTURE/RELIGION and goes "just stop being vegetarian :) even the meat here eats meat :)"

Sokka I love you, but omg I want to punt you across a courtyard

Im sorry, but if my friend were to come up to me like "I'm a vegetarian, have been my whole life, it's the way a lot of my culture does things, its something I learned from family and friends who are all now dead" I'd be half tempted to become vegetarian myself just out of solidarity. Is that just me? Am I just gung ho on friendship? Hello? 

Also, fuck you @ bumi throwing a fowl leg at him knowing hes uncomfortable with touching meat. Theres gotta be better ways to prove hes an airbender than making him panic by throwing a dead animals leg at him

Justice for Aang man, feed the poor kid.

[infiniteorangethethird]

hey! sorry if this is weird but would u mind explaining what being "loveless" means? like in the way people say "loveless aro" or "loveless apl" etc

Heya there, not a weird question at all! However I do wanna preface this by saying that other ppl in the community might have different experiences with the term than I do, different reasons for identifying with it, so just keep in mind that as almost everything, being loveless is a spectrum and others might have slightly varying definitions of it.

I'll give a shorter, more generic reply, and then a longer explanation of my own relationship with the word, hopefully it'll be enough to paint a picture to anyone new to the term. (If not, feel free to ask follow-up questions! I love talking abt this stuff lol)

In general terms, loveless is pretty much what it says on the lid. The LGBTQIA+ wiki describes it as someone who "is in some way disconnected from the concept of love, does not feel love, may doubt that they feel love, or rejects the idea that they need to experience love". Basically, someone who doesn't feel love, or feels it in a way so disconnected from how other people seem to experience it that calling it love would feel disingenuous, wrong. Ppl who identify as loveless are usually reclaiming a word that has been used against them so many times - essentially saying "actually I don't feel love (the way society expects me to) and that is okay".

In terms of my personal experience: from what I can have seen, when people say they love someone, what they mean is an emotional desire to be with someone - to spend time with them, to talk to them, to make them happy, make sure they are safe and well. You get the gist. The important parts to consider here are the fact that it is an emotion, and that it is directed at a person/concept, not the actions surrounding that person/concept. It doesn't matter what you do or what the other person does, you want to spend time with them, even if it would need you to do or try things you otherwise wouldn't even think about doing. (The trope of "going to see a movie you hate but your loved one loves" comes to my mind.) You don't desire the actions, you desire the person, so to speak.

And this is exaclty the thing I don't experience. When I spend time with people, I do it with the expectation that I get something out of the interaction - a good time, help or support, a listening ear to my current brainrot, whatever, which I "pay back" by offering my support, my help, my listening ear when the other party needs it. I am not drawn towards people but rather experiences - and if those experiences involve or are made better by involving others, it matters little to me who those others are, so long as the experience itself is not ruined. It's always so strange to me when people go into things they don't really enjoy just to appease someone they love - if you don't want to do it, then why do it when someone else wants you to? And even more so: why do you want to spend time with someone when every interaction you have with them makes you unhappy, makes you suffer? ("They sometimes treat me badly but I can't just stop loving them" is a sentiment I hear a lot and don't understand at all.)

But most people don't view relationships as exchanges of goods and services, and have an expectation of this emotional drive from the other party. This emotional drive is what I'm missing, and this lack of drive is the reason I choose to call myself loveless. It might be tempting to assume that I choose to not feel love, that I am deliberately distancing myself from people, but trust me: I've tried for many many years to force myself to love others, but emotions don't exactly work like that. Me calling myself loveless is accepting that there's an emotion others experience that I don't, and that it's okay to not be able to feel love. It frees me of the expectations I have been putting on myself for so long.

I hope this helps answering your question 😊 other loveless ppl feel free to add onto this, the more thoughts shared the merrier!

[mazzystar24]

HAJSKF I WARNED YOU ID BE BACK WITH THE GODSEND VS MIRACLE WORKER PARALLEL

Okay so like a godsend is like sent from god right? so like holy, righteous, unexpected, etc so it’s kinda like a blessing

But a miracle worker is someone who actually performs the miracle or like divine act

How am I gonna tie this all up in a nice little bow for my English gay ass? Glad you (probably didn’t) ask

So we have all agreed Eddie is like textbook catholic guilt and his relationship with Ana was like the what was expected of him type deal? So the wording godsend carries more weight when you add the catholic guilt element cos it kinda ties in to him being tempted to stay with her regardless of his feelings because she’s the right or “holy” choice

Meanwhile buck being described as a miracle worker kinda places him higher than Ana in the catholic wording sense but it also kinda goes against the whole dont idolise anyone other than god ( Alexa play false god by Taylor swift or even better take me to church by hozier) and blah blah blah basically buck = unholy but desired by Eddie

BUT buck immediately says “no just an excellent negotiator” so it strips that religious context away and it shows the domestic mundane reality and kinda contrasts the differences between Ana and buck in relation to how Eddie’s little catholic guilt views them

Idk if this makes sense but in my head it makes sense so you guys get a peek at what goes on in my head- did I go too deep into the most random words? Yes do I love to do it and annoy ppl with insane over analysis? also yes - you think this is bad try being any of the poor ppl I’ve dated

[teddybeartoji]

MIIICCKKKEEEYYYY HIIIIIIIII MY DEAR!!!!!!!!!!! ok ok ok i hope im not too late but i saw you answering the horrible asks and ….I WANNA PLAY!!!!!! i’m so so curious abt 19, 59, and 69 >:) MWAH MWAH MWAHH

QUINNN!!!!!!!!!!!!! HII HELLO SWEETHEARTT:3333333333

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

I WOULDN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! honestly it doesn't even sound tempting to me.. bc i think that if i were to go back to yk change something, to fix something - another thing would get messed up. like i go and change the narrative and what if it actually goes in a worse path because of that? does that make sense? anyhow long story short i wouldn't go back bc i'd be scared to fuck it up even more!

59. do you like the snow?

I DOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY REALLY DO!!!!!!!! i used to not like it though but the only reason behind that ugly hatred was the fact that we had to go skiing in school lmao i wasn't a fan of that so it just made me dislike the snow smhhh but now that i am free from that - I CAN FINALLY ENJOY THE SNOOWWW:33333333333 i think everything looks sooo so pretty when it's snowing!!!!!!!!! and i really do love playing in the snow too lmao it randomly snowed here in march and while everybody was pissed abt it i was so excited my cheeks hurt from smiling........

69. do you believe in soulmates?

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH I DOOOOO:((((((((( mickey the lover mickey the sap mickey the "it's meant to be" aaaahhhhhhh i can never stop adding little soulmate mentions to all of my works i simply cannot stop it i love soulmates okay. i think it's such a sweet concept. oh and while i love the idea of it meant to be i don't think soulmates always work out though. i feel like a lot of ppl think that soulmates might be like an mmm easy way,, as in like you don't have to work for it since it's "meant to be" but i don't think that's true at all. not to bring stsg into everything but they really are the best example of it i think. like how could anyone look at them and then say that they weren't soulmates yk??????????

but yeah i really love the idea of soulmates i love the idea of your body just immediately recognizing the other and i love the idea of just Feeling it. like you meet this person and you just kinda know it...

horrible asks

[barbatosgossipsection]

Every day that passes the more I consider giving up on this game. I haven't been playing through the events, the recent cards haven't done anything for me and feel easily forgettable, and even the main storyline has been seriously lacking.

It was fun in the beginning, we got to learn more about the brothers, there was some good angst, interesting plotlines, etc. But then the writing just fell off and it's been going downhill ever since?

I mean... [SPOILERS] that resolution they gave us of God being nothing but a loving father?? Like... What. The. Fuck?? A loving father? REALLY?? The fucker who's been the main villain of this whole damn story?? The reason all these characters are heavily traumatized and need millions of years of therapy??? AND they had LUCIFER of all ppl talk about God in a good light? The most traumatized of the brothers?? Who's canonical worst fear IS God?????

"Mr. Stark, I don't feel so good" -> me reacting to that extremely cursed lesson that I wish I could delete from my brain fr

Like legit, ever since that happened I've been looking at the exit door like "damn you looking real tempting rn" 💀

And I swear, the moment something with that level of "out of characterness" and "let's throw everything we told the audience in the garbage and go crazy" happens again I'm BOLTING, straight up sprinting, rushing the fuck out of here

— Anon

[ericstoltz]

life update!!!!

hi hello friends good morning good afternoon good evening its that time of the month again! this isnt really a big life update like the last time bcs i just thought id list down a bunch of things ive had on my mind.

first of all, im very happy to announce that i was able to watch 16 movies last march !! exciting!! i know ive said the last time that i quit the bingewatching thing but HONESTLY im in a work from home setup and the only way to keep me inspired is by watching a movie ... i am yet to find other ways to stay inspired so watching movies will just do for now... ALSO im gonna try to update my newsletter for the first time this year and itll probably be about the movies that i saw this march that i liked ! im now comfortable with turning the newsletter to be more about movies bcs nothing major has been happening in my life lol . so pls stay tuned for that newsletter post if ur interested!

another thing is ive decided to make this blog more personal! for the past year ive made this blog to be more about movies and gifs and stuff, and as much as i love getting the notes and reading ppl's tags, im going to try and make this blog work for me this time :) hope it doesnt get annoying or something... im also in the process of fixing my about pages and tags and all. ive used tumblr since 2012 so im still struggling with the setup. LIKE yes i want to maximize the fact that you can edit html pages and its cute and lets me be creative but at the same time, im on my phone majority of the time . and i dont like being on my laptop after work because ive literally just been using a laptop the whole day. for work. im rly shy to post some stuff about me (bcs i havent done it before fr insert the tom hanks dialogue from joe vs the volcano abt doing some soul searching and coming to the conclusion that hes just boring so he stops doing it) so if u see me doing it as an attempt to fix the personal pages on my blog, im sorry! AAAND as for the gifs thing, im thinking of changing my film diary tag, one thing i really enjoy is taking note of dialogues i love from a movie so i might just do screenshots. i really miss making gifs even though most of the gifs i end up with are LQ , but it just really isnt feasible now . (also some movies are just so tempting to gif LIKEEE valley girl and everytime we say goodbye 😭😭 it physically hurts me that i cant gif josh whitehouse and tom hanks in those movies....)

ALSO im really very very happy that ive gained new followers recently. i enjoy chatting with you guys and get so happy whenever i get the notif that someone sent me an ask/message!! ive been idle on stan twt/fandoms in general so its been a really long time since ive actually... talked to people... it makes me really happy talking to u and im sorry if my happiness doesnt show in my replies/posts. as i said, its been a while since ive done this and i usually go on here as soon as im off work (when my brain is semi-fried and the words are not wording anymore) . i hope i dont come across as bored/uninterested :(

and it isnt just about fandoms too, im genuinely insterested what u guys are up to lately and all... (in a non stalker way). it just feels nice to have friends in general ^__^

SO YEA, i think thats about it :) if u've read this all until here ilysm! thanks for ur interest and lmk how ur day was! or just send me something u want to talk about !

have a nice day :)

[preeningpisces]

oh my gosh ❤️ I am going insane over that snake Kenjaku drawing!!! It is so, so good!!! Just the way you draw lines — the confidence in your lines — and the way they form across the page/screen/canvas… so, so good!!!! And the facial expression??? The pose??? The inherent sensuality present?? It’s just so sexy! So seductive!! I am absolutely going insane over this!! I haven’t been able to get this image out of my head ever since I saw it! It’s so gorgeous 💕 I’m tempted to print it out 🫣

Aaaa thank you!! I'm glad you like it, I love drawing kenny all slutty-looking hehe

I think the near snake kiss was a bit too much for some ppl LOL but im very happy to hear you vibe with it :3

Thank you for sending this in!! it was very encouraging & made me smile 💛💛💛