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freshkidpeach · 3 months

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this is me if you even care

#I’m still losing my shit over this #It’s all I’ve been thinking about #Like I could barely sleep last night #I love her so much already #loz #echoes of wisdom #Zelda #legend of Zelda #loz eow #the legend of zelda

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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erisolkat · 2 months

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god i hate everyone

#who thought it would be cute to immediately start ribbing me about how hairy and bald and ugly im gonna be when i go on t #one. im taking minoxidil. two. i wanna be hairy. and three. im not transitioning to attract you guys im transitioning to attract other trans #people! other trans guys find it hot come on!#like ok so dads brother is out here rn right #so first mom tells me hes gonna ask me questions about being trans. ok fine.#second she starts going on about how i had to be emotionally vulnerable with like 3 different therapists for this. whatever.#then when i start participating in the conversation she immediately asks “so how are you feeling about losing all your hair”#THEN she has the audacity to say to my uncle “yeah its sort of a gamble hes either gonna end up hairy like the italian side or fairly #baby smooth like yall“ when she fucking KNOWS that im dysphoric about my lack of body hair #and this happens every time! and its out of nowhere constantly!#all the while the cis men in the room are fucking bullying me with all this toxic masculinity bullshit!#sometimes i just wish i had never come out is all im saying #kept this a secret until i became an adult yknow. yeah i would have to do everything myself but it wouldn't be like this #just because i told you that you could call me a fag doesnt mean youre suddenly allowed to do microagressions constantly #shes tickled to fucking death with calling my future bottom growth my “teenie weenie” what the fuck! what the fuck!!!#and meanwhile every time i try to say words or make a joke my dad and grandpa jump on the fucking opportunity to correct me! or cut me off!#sorry im fucking exhausted i barely slept at all the night before last and got i think maybe 7 hours of sleep at most last night #and i just got out of therapy which always wears me out

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why-the-heck-not · 9 months

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Just signed up for the bachelor’s thesis course (today’s the deadline; very on character, gotta leave till the last possible day) Crying screaming throwing up??? I’m hella stressed abt it

#and not sure about the topic #I didn’t yet need to be but I’m afraid I didn’t write enough like ’’what are u interested in’’ bc mf how would I know?????#so in january I’ll just see what group I’m at and figure the topic from there it’ll be fiiiiiiiine #and if not; it’s only 6 months like I could handle 6 months with a shitty topic I think (barely and not well but like doable)#also rn it’s 7am lol bc I basically filled the form last night & decided to sleep on it just in case and now it’s way too early to be #feeling this frazzled #i’ll have more coffee; surely caffeine will help #2023 #december 2023

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aeoneris · 1 year

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so i got the sunbreak design works artbook that just came out last week. it turns out there was one final short story in the back of the book to go along with the ones that were released last summer, and it marks the very end of rise. here is a very, very rough paraphrased translation that i told to my friend about it. it's about kagero and yomogi. it's so precious...

Edit: This story has now been properly translated by me and a Japanese friend of mine! Please refer to it here! (this post has a lot of inaccuracies since it was a quick run through, but now we've properly translated it)

#kagero #yomogi #monster hunter rise #master utsushi #utsushi #i could barely sleep last night like idk if they will ever release a full translation of this so i tried my best with machine translate #ughhhhhhhh i love everyone in kamura village so much #but i ESPECIALLY WISH ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD FOR KAGERO AND YOMOGI...#kagero 's deadname is literally the thing that ruined everything for him... that's such horrific misfortune...#but i'm glad he survived ... he's the world's number 1 grandpa #also laughing at how they had to shove in one final utsushi x hunter moment right at the end dude pls

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bunnihearted · 6 months

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#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts ://#idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt..#i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw....#nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭#idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know.....#oh if only things were easy

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kingtankgirl · 2 days

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this is officially worse than when i had e.coli i can definitely say that now

#emeto n illness etc its pretty gnarly and i dont have a filter so read at your own risk #its been 3 fucking days of barely sleeping and having that sleep interrupted by severe abdominal pain and vomiting #and then during the day i feel almost normal again! and then right before i go to bed the pain comes back and then im just up all night #this is the fourth day of work ive fucking missed this week and i literally want to jump off a cliff #this is worse than my ulcers its worse than e.coli and i havent slept since i woke up at 11:30pm. and its 8am.#ive been shaking and vomiting all night and im soo so tired. i need this to stop. the pain definitely got to like an 8 last night #and all i could do was lay on the couch and just writhe and whine because i literally cannot keep anything down!!#not even my.sleep meds that i unsuccessfully tried to take twice and threw them up both times #my whole body is pins and needles from fevers or chills or sleep deprivation i dont rly know or care #this is the first time in 8+ hrs ive been able to look at my phone without the nausea worsening tenfold so im dropping all of this #and if you think all of this feels bad physically! wait till you hear how it feels emotionally and mentally!

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gaybitchfx · 9 months

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these braces make me wanna cry and then kms it hurts so bad and i can’t even eat what i wanna eat i feel so miserable atp

#kay★rants #like bro i could barely sleep last night cause of it

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gaytobymeres · 2 months

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Oughhhhh

#feel like I could pass out at work #barely got any sleep last night for literally no reason except I couldn’t fall asleep #and I’m now feeling very woozy #also feeling super super anxious also for no reason #except probably it’s just that I’m tired #I should be excited because after today I’m on holiday for a week!!#but no we have to have an awful sense of foreboding that I can feel in my chest

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captain-lovelace · 1 year

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#Sometimes I think about the fact that without my OCD diagnosis I might be dead #Like given the intensity of how things ramped up last fall/winter especially #I was so terrified that I was sleeping like 2 hours per night in like half-hour bursts #And sometimes could barely speak #I have no idea what I would have done if I hadn’t been able to get some distance from it instead of #Believing it was all my fault and I was just uniquely awful #Suicide mention #Like to be clear: diagnosis is not something I think everyone should pursue and I think the actual *therapy* I was getting during that time #Was not actually helping #But having some way to say that the thoughts I was having did not reflect on whether or not I deserved to live #Was a relief

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autogeneity · 8 months

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attempting going to bed at 9pm (or earlier! technically. for falling asleep time) feels so ridiculous. like some sort of joke. and yet. purportedly this is what getting up at 5am would demand. is this really something people do wtf

#m #people commonly do get up at like 5 or 6 to go to work and shit right #hell if I were going to the office I would have to as well #do they actually really truly go to bed at fucking 8:30. surely that is insane #kids don't even do that I don't think #also even if I only directly require this twice a week #I probably gotta do it every day because there's no way in hell I am successfully sleeping at 9pm if I woke up at 9am lmao #well I can get away with 5:30ish but I usually snooze for at least half an hour lol so...#my first alarm for when I get up at 9am (aiming for 8:30) is 7:48 #my first alarm for probably 5:30 is 4:48 #so my alarm clock tells me it's time to go to bed at 20:30 and I am like bruhhh #today I probably could and should since last night bedtime was 4am #but it still feels weird as hell like it's unreasonably early #I'm still buying dinners so it is theoretically possible. it would not otherwise be #and yet idk man #just a few weeks ago at 20:30 THE SUN WOULD'VE STILL BEEN UP #even now sunset is like 8pm. you want me to sleep an hour after sunset. this is silly! it's barely dusk!

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browntrait · 1 year

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good morning, today is startin off terrible!! :DD

#didnt sleep last night #like. at all.#just applied to 6 jobs in a row #why do they make u fill out everything #IF U ALREADY SUBMITTED A RESUME #AND COVER LETTER #FUCKKKK #im so fuckin tired of it #also the eggs i made this morning? wtf??#they turned out so weird #i could barely even eat them #tldr; im pissy n need sleep #see yall when i wake up #k's words #rant in tags #yall know what it is

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running-in-the-dark · 4 months

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very very dizzy today. don't know why. I've eaten, everything else is fine, so this is just really unfair honestly

#I took my sleep medication last night just to see what it's like if I only take it when I need to... not a good idea! could barely get out #of bed #so that might have something to do with how weird I'm feeling #sigh. I need to throw away the rest of the medication so that I don't feel tempted to maybe try this again #no! remember how annoying the side effects are you dumbass! 😭#feels like there's clouds drifting around in my skull #quite unpleasant #personal

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candyriku · 5 months

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finally getting a chance to work on chapter 15 today :-)

#shout out AS ALWAYS to people leaving comments!!!! you are keeping me motivated you are keeping the dream alive #for some behind the scenes: in the last few weeks i've been barely sleeping and it makes it very hard to write or even be in a good mood #i usually need 11+ hours to function and so like. 2-3 hours a night is putting me in a bad place both mentally and physically #and yes i realize 11 or more hours is like a silly amount of sleep but idk. it's just how i am. i go to bed early AND sleep in ahaha.#i've been falling behind in all my classes due to the sleep thing so writing for fun has totally been off the table lol #ANYWAYS #typing typing typing (this chapter will be a lighthearted one)#we all need some fluff and levity i think (and i need to give time for Riku to care for Sora even more and be like. wow. i love you)#I was struggling earlier bc i wanted to write both about how Sora has been hiding darkness from loved ones and needs to let them in #but also with the idea of sora feeling that he needs friends to have strength or value. and i kind of realized i needed to pick one #like maybe a better writer than me could have both of those things be addressed at once but for me i was like... I want Riku to comfort him #which goes against him learning that he's fine on his own. we can address that in a different fic. rn he is just sad and needs to know #that he can share that with the people around him. and that he's still loveable despite it all #also shout out to my gf for teaching me “love isn't something you deserve that's not what love is” like. i did not know that b4 her #so I asked her lots of questions for chapter 14 actually cause I was like. i want Riku to support Sora in the way you'd support me #cuz IDK SHIT ABOUT THAT i have always felt unworthy of love and like i had to beg people to stay with me until i got into this relationship #so i was like. judy. what is your wisdom. how do you care for me when i feel like my pain makes me unloveable. what would you say #So yeah shout out to her! I am off on a tangent now hehe sorry. thanks for reading if you read this at all!! have a good day :)#jtsys fic #updates

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tmnt-obsessed-ace · 7 months

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None of the android emulator sites work

I wanna play this game so badly 😭😭😭

WHY DO I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE OFFICIAL DESKTOP VERSION TO COME OUT??!!?!? ITS NOT FAIR

#I legit dreamed about playing sky with burb last night #I was so excited I could barely sleep #and I turned my computer on so fucking fast thinking that somehow I could get it to work #but it didnt #like five hours of trying for nothing #:( :( :( :( :(#pain

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practically-an-x-man · 7 months

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my mom's diverticulitis is flaring up and it's really tough bc on the one hand I obviously empathize with her and i really don't want her to be in pain. but on the other hand she's even more difficult to be around when she's in discomfort because she literally does not stop talking about it

#i mean seriously every other sentence out of her mouth is about how she's in pain. how she couldn't sleep last night. how she's miserable #and it's not that i don't understand what she's going through #i have chronic pain of my own. and insomnia. and chronic fatigue. i get it.#i had two straight years of my life where i was in so much pain i could barely move. couldn't eat or sleep and dropped to 100 lbs #so like. i understand what it feels like and i empathize from that respect #but it's so hard to even share a room with her when that is *all* she talks about. esp since there's nothing any of us can do to help that #(not even getting into the way she basically forced me to pretend everything was normal when i had my own severe medical stuff)

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