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cybernaght · 1 year ago

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The fandom echo chamber: fanon, microanalysis and conspiracy brain

As someone who has been in fandom spaces, on and off, for 20 years, I find some fascinating trends popping up in the last decade that I thought to be fandom-specific but clearly aren’t. So, I would like to do a little examination of where those things come from, how they are engaged with, and what it says about the way we consume media. This is a think piece, of sorts, with my brain being the main source. As such, we will spend some time down the memory lane of a fandom-focused millennial.

This is largely brought about by Good Omens. But it’s also not really about Good Omens at all.

Part one. Fanon.

The way we see characters in any story is always skewed by our very selves. This is a neutral statement, and it does not have a value judgement. It’s simply unavoidable. We recognise aspects of them, love aspects of them, and choose aspects of them to highlight based entirely on our own vision of the universe.

Recognition comes into this. There is a reason so many protagonists of romance novels have a “blank slate” problem. Even when they do not, we love characters who are like us or versions of us that we would like to be. And when we say “we”, I also mean, “me”.

(I remember very clearly this realisation hit me after a whole season of Doctor Who with writing which I hated utterly when I questioned why I still clung so incredibly hard to Clara Oswald as my favourite companion. Then I looked at myself in the mirror. Oh. Well. That would do it, wouldn’t it?)

Then, there is projection, and, again, this is a neutral statement. Projection exists, and it is completely normal and, dare I say it, valid way of engaging with — well, anything. Is the character queer? Trans? Neurodivergent? Are they in love? Do they like chocolate? Are they a cat person? Well, yes, if this is what the text says, but if the text does not say anything… You tell me. Please, do tell me. Because, in that moment of projection, they are yours.

And then, there is fandom osmosis, and that is the most fascinating one of them all, the one that is not very easy to note while you are inside the echo chamber. It’s the way we collectively, consciously or not, make decisions on who or what the characters are, what their relationships are, and what happens to them.

(Back when I was writing egregiously long Guardian recaps on this blog I actually asked if Shen Wei’s power being learning actually was stated anywhere in the canon of the show. Because I had no idea. I have read and reread dozen of fanfics where that is the case, and at some point through enough repetition, it became reality.)

We are all kind of making our own reality here, aren’t we?

Back when things were happening in a much less centralised manner - in closed livejournal groups, and forums of all shapes and sizes - I don’t remember there being quite as much universally agreed upon fanon. Frankly, I don’t remember much of universally agreed upon anything. But now, everything is in one place: we have this, and we have AO3, and it’s wonderful, it really is so much easier to navigate, but it’s also one gigantic reality-shifting echo chamber, with blogs, reblogs, trends, and rituals.

Accessibility plays its part, too. If you were, say, in Life on Mars (UK) fandom between seasons, and you wanted to post your speculation fic, you had to have had an account, and then find and gain access to one of the bigger groups (lifein1973 was my poison, but ymmv), and then, if you feel brave you may post it, but also, you may want to do so from your alt account if you wanted to keep yours separate, and then you would have to go through the whole process again. And I’m not saying that fan creations then were somehow inherently better for it than fan creations now (although Life on Mars Hiatus Era is perhaps a bad example - because some of the Speculation Fic there was breathtaking), but there is something to say about the ease of access that made the fandoms go through a big bang of sorts.

(I mean, come on, I can just come here and post this - and I am certain people will read it, and this blog is a pandemic cope baby about Chinese television for goodness sake.)

The canon transformations that happen in the fandom echo chamber truly are fascinating to witness as someone who is more or less a fandom butterfly. I get into something, float around for a bit, then get into something else and move on. I might come back eventually when the need arises, but I don’t sustain a hiatus mind-state. This means that when I float away and return, I find some very intriguing stuff.

Let’s actually look at Good Omens here. Season two aired, and I found it spectacular in its cosy and anguished way; deliberately and intelligently fanfic-y in its plot building; simple but subversive, and so very tender. (I will have to circle back to this eventually, because, truly, I love how deliberately it takes the tropes and shatters them - it’s glorious). And, to me - a person who read the book, watched the first season, hung around AO3 for a few weeks and moved on - absolutely on-point in terms of characterisation.

So imagine my surprise when the fandom disagreed so vehemently that there are actual multi-tiered theories on how characters were not in possession of their senses. Nothing there, in my mind, ever contradicted any of the stated text, as it stood. This remained a strange little mystery until I did what I always do when I flutter close to an ongoing fandom.

I loaded AO3 and sorted the existing fic by popularity. And there it was, all there: the actual earth-shattering mutual devotion of the angel and the demon; willingness to Fall; openness and long heart-aching confession speeches. There was all of the fanon surrounding Aziraphale and Crowley, which, to me, read as out of character, and to one for whom they became the reality over the last four years, read as truth.

Again, only neutral statements here. This is not a bad thing, and neither this is a good thing, this is just something that happens, after a while, especially when there are years for the fandom-born ideas to bounce around and stew. I can’t help but think that so much of what we see as real in spaces such as this one is a chimaera of the actual source and all the collective fan additions which had time and space to grow, change, develop, and inspire, reverberating over and over again, until the echoes fill the entirety of the space.

Eventually, this chimaera becomes a reality.

Part two. Microanalysis

Here are my two suppositions on the matter:

1. Some writers really love breadcrumb storytelling.

Russel T Davies, for instance, on his run of Doctor Who (and, if you are reading it much later - I do mean the original one), loved that technique for his seasonal arcs. What is a Bad Wolf? Who is Harold Saxon? Well, you can watch very very carefully, make a theory, and see it proven right or wrong by the end of the season.

Naturally, mystery box writers are all about breadcrumb storytelling: your Losts and your Westworlds are all about giving you snippets to get your brain firing, almost challenging you to figure things out just ahead of the reveal.

2. We, as humans, love breadcrumbs.

And why wouldn’t we? Breadcrumbs are delicious. They are, however, a seasoning, or a coating. They are not the meal.

Too much metaphor?

Let’s unpack it and start from the beginning.

Pattern recognition colours every aspect of our lives, and it colours the way we view art to a great extent. I think we truly underestimate how much it’s influenced by our lived experiences.

If you are, broadly speaking, living somewhere in Western/North-Western Europe in the 14th century, and you see a painting in which there is a very very large figure surrounded by some smaller figures and holding really tiny figures, you may know absolutely nothing about who those figures are, but you know that the big figure is the Important One, and the small ones are Less Important Ones, and the tiny ones are In Their Care. You know where your reverence would lie, looking at this picture. And, I imagine, as someone living in the 14th century, you may be inspired to a sense of awe looking at this composition, because in the world you live in, this is how art works.

If you, on the other hand, watch a piece of recorded media and see the eyes of two characters meet as the violins swell, you know what you are being told at that moment. You don’t have to have a film degree to feel a sort of way when you see a green-tinged pallet used, when cross-cuts use juxtaposing images, or notice where your focus is pulled in any given shot. This stuff - this recognition of patterns - has been trained into us by the simple fact that we live in this time, on this planet, and we have been doing so long enough to have engaged recorded media for a period of time.

As humans, we notice things. Our brains flare up when they see something they recognise, and then we seek to find other similar details and form a bigger picture. This often happens unconsciously, but sometimes it does not. Sometimes we do it on purpose: finding breadcrumbs in stories is a little bit like solving a mystery. It allows us to stretch that brain muscle that puts two and two together. It makes us feel clever.

So yes, we love breadcrumbs, and, frankly, quite a lot of storytelling takes advantage of this. It’s very useful for foreshadowing, creating thematic coherence, or introducing narrative parallels and complexity. It’s useful for nudging the viewer into one or the other emotional direction, or to cue them into what will happen in the next moment, or what exactly is the one important detail they should pay attention to.

Because this is something media does intentionally, and something we pick up both consciously and not, it is very hard to know when to stop. We don't really ever know when all of the breadcrumbs have been collected. It becomes very easy to get carried away. There is a very specific kind of pleasure in digging into content frame by frame, soundbite by soundbite, chasing that pleasure of finding.

But it is almost never breadcrumbs all the way down. They are techniques to help us focus on the main event: the story. I truly believe those who make media want it to reach the widest possible audience, and that includes all of us who like to watch every single thing ever created with our Media Analysis Goggles on and those who are just here to enjoy the twists and turns of the story at the pace offered to them. And I think, sometimes in our chase to collect and understand every little clue we forget that media is not made to just cater for us.

One can call it missing a forest for the trees. But I would hate to mix my metaphors, so let’s call it missing a schnitzel for the breadcrumbs.

Part three. The Conspiracy Brain.

If you are there with me, in the midst of the excited frenzy, chasing after all those delicious breadcrumbs, then patterns can grow, merge together, and become all-encompassing theories. Let’s call them conspiracy theories, even though this is not what they truly are.

So, why do we believe in conspiracy theories?

One, Because We Have Been Lied To.

All conspiracies start with distrust.

If you are in fandom spaces - especially if you are in fandom spaces which revolve around a queer fictional couple - especially-especially if you have been in such spaces for a period of time, you have most certainly been lied to at one point or another.

We don’t even have to talk about Sherlock - and let’s not do that - but do you remember Merlin? Because I remember Merlin. Specifically, I remember the publicity surrounding the first season, with its weaponised usage of “bromance” and assertions that this whole thing is a love story of sorts, and then the daunting realisation that this was all a stunt, deliberately orchestrated to gather viewership.

And, because we were lied to in such a deliberate manner for such an extensive period of time, I genuinely believe that it forever altered our pattern recognition habits, because what was this if not encouragement to read into things? Now we are trained to read between the lines or see little cries for help where they might not be. Because we were told, over and over again, that we should.

(Yes, I think we are all existing in these spaces coloured by the trauma of queer-bating. I am, however, looking forward to a world where I can unlearn all of that.)

Two, Cognitive Dissonance.

The chain reaction works a bit like this: the world is wrong - it can’t possibly be wrong by coincidence - this must be on purpose - someone is responsible for it.

Being Lied To is a preamble, but cognitive dissonance is where it all originates. In so many cross-fandom theories I have noticed a four-step process:

A) this is not good

B) this author could not have made a mistake

C) this must be done on purpose

D) here is why

(Funny thing is, I have been on the receiving end of the small conspiracy spiral, and it is a very interesting experience. Not relevant to this conversation is the fact that a lot of my job revolves around storytelling. What is relevant is that my hobbies also revolve around storytelling. And one of them is DnD. Now, imagine my genuine shock when one of the players I am currently writing a campaign for noticed a small detail that did not make a logical sense within the complexity of the world, and latched on to it as something clearly indicating some kind of a secret subplot. Their thinking process also went a bit like this: this detail is not a good piece of writing — this DM knows how to tell stories well — this is obviously there on purpose. It was not there on purpose. I created a clumsy shorthand. I erred, in that pesky manner humans tend to. And, seeing this entire thought process recited to me directly in the moment, I felt somewhere between flattered and mortified.)

This whole line of thinking, I think, exists on a knife’s edge between veneration and brutal criticism, relentlessly dissecting everything “wrong”, with a reverent “but this is deliberate” attached to it like a vice, because it is preferable to a simple conclusion that the author let you down, in one way or another.

Three, Intentionality

I believe that there is no right or wrong way of engaging with stories, regardless of their medium, and assuming no one gets hurt in the process. While in a strictly academic way, there is a “correct” way of reading (and reading into) media, we here are largely not academics but consumers; consumption is subjective.

However, this all changes when intentionality is ascribed.

The one I find particularly fascinating is the intentionality of “making it bad on purpose” because, as open-minded as I intend to always be, this just does not happen.

It certainly does not happen in long-form media. Even in the bread-crumb mystery box-type long-form media.

When television programs underdeliver, they also underperform, and then they get cancelled.

If all the elements of Westworld Season 4 that did not sit together in a completely satisfactory way were written deliberately as some sort of deconstruction for the final season to explore, then it failed because that final season will now never come.

(There will likely never be a Secret Fourth Episode.)

And look, I am not here to refute your theories. Creativity is fun, and theorising is fantastic.

But, perhaps, when the line of thought ventures into the “bad on purpose” territory, it could be recognised for what it is: disappointment and optimism, attempting to coexist in a single space. And I relate to that, I do, and I am sorry that there is even a need for this line of thinking. It’s always so incredibly disappointing that a creator you believed to be devoid of flaws makes something that does not hit in the way you hoped it would. It’s pretty heartbreaking.

Unfortunately, people make mistakes. We are all fallible that way.

Four, Wildfire.

Then, when the crumbs are found, a theory is crafted, and intentionality is ascribed, all that needs to happen is for it to catch on. And hey, what better place for it than this massive hollow funnel that we exist in, where thoughts, ideas and interpretations reverberate so much they become inextricable from the source material in collective consciousness.

Conspiracy theories create alternate realities, very much like we all do here.

So where are we now?

I am not here to tell you what is right and what is wrong; what is true, and what is not. We are all entitled to engage with anything we wish, in whichever way we wish to do it. This is not it, at all.

All I am saying is… listen.

Do you hear that echo?

I do.

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bet-on-me-13 · 1 year ago

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Dp X Injustice AU's

So, we have seen the frankly insane about of Dp x Dc AU's that have been spawned over the years. But I never really see any Injustice AU's

And then I thought, which Dp x Dc AU would you actually use for an Injustice AU?

Let me give some examples:

Justice League Member Danny: Danny is a part of the Justice League by the time Superman goes insane. He decides to step in when Shazam is nearly killed by Superman, but gets hurt himself in the process and is thrown in jail. This causes some of Superman's supporters to doubt him, since Danny is just a 16 yr old kid and Clark nearly killed him.

Danny is sill a Solo Hero: Danny is still just a Solo Hero from Amity Park in this. When Superman takes over the world, he goes to Amity to try and recruit Phantom. Danny refuses, and they butt heads. Danny eventually promises that he will continue to just act as a small time Vigilante in return for not joining Batman's side. This changes years later, when Superman is responsible for the death of Jazz Fenton.

Danny is a "Villain": Danny is seen as a Villain because he is a Ghost. At least, that's what the outside world thinks, but the situation in Amity is different. Danny has been seen as a Hero for years now, it's just the rest of the world that doesn't want to accept that fact. So when Superman takes over the world, and tries to execute every Villain, he goes after Phantom. Only for the Entire Town to try and stop him.

@little-pondhead Everlasting Trio Villain AU: So, take Little Pondhead's Villain AU and put it in the Injustice Universe. Danny can be the insane megalomaniac Villain he always wanted to be and not feel guilty because this is a Dictatorship. (Although it does remind him of Dan before his parole). He just has fun, messing with Superman, building insane crazy inventions, messing with Superman, enacting fun Villain plots, messing with Superman, and of course messing with Superman. Meanwhile Superman is just having a horrible time because there is just this random Villain, doesn't even seem to have powers, and he Just. Can't. Catch Him! Batman is looking for Fenton to recruit, meanwhile Fenton is literally here to Not be a Hero. It gets even worse when he brings in his Friends and Ellie.

Danny is the Ghost King: Danny is the Ghost King by now, and Batman's side try to Summon Him to deal with Superman during the whole "Super Pills" event. He shows up just in time to save Green Arrow, but isn't trong enough to kill Superman. He himself gets extremely injured in the process and gets forcibly summoned back to the Ghost Zone to be healed. Now the entire Dimension is gearing up to attack the Living World as revenge for their King being so hurt.

Old Man Danny AU: My own AU. Danny is still an Old Man just living in Gotham when Superman takes over. At one of his rally's to try and garner support and stop the rebellions, Danny stands up in the middle of the crowd and calls him out on all his Bullshit. This causes the whole crowd to start yelling at Superman, which in turn causes Superman to have a Homelander Moment. He kills Danny, who just laughs as he falls to the floor, and causes a riot. What Superman doesn't know, is that Danny was slated to ascend to Godhood at the moment of his Death, so now he has a God of Death chasing him to fulfill his "need to be avenged" urges (its like hunger pangs for ghosts)

Danny as a Medium: Danny is a Traveling Ghost Speaker, like the guy you pay $5 to pretend to speak to your dead loved ones, but he can actually speak to them. Superman is patrolling the world, just making the rounds now that he had conquered the Earth, and comes across Danny's Tent. He stops by in curiosity and asks to speak to his dead Wife. Danny asks if he really wants to put himself through that, but Superman insists. So Danny, instead of just speaking for the Ghost like normal, actually Summons Lois Lanes Ghost to talk to Superman. They have a heartfelt conversation about how it wasn't his fault, and how he shouldn't blame himself, but eventually they get to the topic of Clark talking over the world. She isn't proud, but understands if this is what it takes for him to be happy. She leaves, and Superman is left finally second-guessing himself for the first time in years. Because it doesn't make him happy. (*ahem* Danny still wants to be payed, soooo......)

#Dp x dc #Dpxdc #Danny phantom #Dc #Dcu #Injustice #Injustice AU #A bunch of Injustice AU's #Villain Danny Phantom #Villain Fenton #Everlasting Trio Villain AU #Superman #Batman #Medium Danny Phantom #Ghost King Danny Phantom #Ghost King AU

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avastrasposts · 2 months ago

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Memories made, memories lost

Plot: Before Pero Tovar and his friend William Garin set out in search of black powder, he found himself doing something he never thought he would - falling in love. But what waits for him as he returns from his adventure after all this time?

Mercenary!Pero x female reader

Warnings: Angst and grief, loss of virginity (it's all consensual and it's not the main trope of the fic), explicit smut. No use of y/n, the reader is pretty much a blank slate.

Word count: 7.9k

This is written for @burntheedges Roll-A-Trope Wiriting Challenge where I requested a trope for Pero Tovar and got Amnesia A big thank you to @i-own-loki for the lovely banner! What would I do without my Canva Pro friends!?

Marriage was not something that was ever on the cards for Pero Tovar.

He left his hometown while he was still a young boy, and after that he never stayed long enough in one place to put down roots. Let alone find a woman who would want to throw her lot in with a mostly penniless mercenary soldier who relied on powerful lords always finding a new enemy to fight. Who would want a scarred battle dog with a permanent scowl and dangerous look to his appearance? And even if someone did, how could he care for a wife? A family? He moved from town to town, from country to country, seldom returning to the same place twice unless the pay was very good.

But then, one autumn in southern England, when the fighting season was over and the mud was too thick for both men and horses to march in, something changed. He was no longer young but in his fighting prime, hardened, and hard, by years of fighting other men’s wars. He had no other plans than to spend the winter in this small English town with his friend William Garin, wait for spring and the call to arms for another war or rebellion or crusade. He was going to fill his belly, hone his weapons, train the younger men and spend his evenings with a whore or two, and that was it.

Marriage was not on the cards.

But fate wanted a different path for him. And you quite literally fell into his arms as you tumbled from your horse on the outskirts of the small town.

“Curse that nag!” you yelled crossly, struggling to free yourself from his strong grip, “let go, I can stand on my own legs!” You pushed at his chest as the dark haired man let go of your waist, stepping back with a chuckle.

“And what fine legs they are,” he said, his grin wide.

You sneered at his comment, “Too fine for you either way.”

You glared at him as you brushed your dress, “I should thank you, I guess. You saved me from a much greater fall, that stupid mare is spooked by the smallest twig and throws me twice a week at least.”

With a sigh you looked at your horse who’d decided that the twig wasn’t an immediate threat and had begun to graze the last of the summer grass just a little while down the country lane.

“If that’s the case, you best go and claim your horse before she decides one of farmer Ned’s cows has fangs and means to eat her,” Pero chuckled. He liked your spirit, and the way your eyes blazed as you glanced at him.

“I wouldn’t put it past her,” you said with a shake of your head, “I best be off, thank you again, sir.”

Tovar gave a small nod and crooked smile at your retreating back.

Later that evening, as he’d eaten and gone back to the room he shared with William, he wondered why the chance meeting on the country lane wouldn’t leave his head. He felt as if he might’ve been bewitched, one moment walking down the country lane on his way out to the smithy for a repair of his armour, the next he had a woman in his arms as her bay horse bolted down the road. You’d smelled of apples, a rich, sweet scent clinging to your hair as it brushed over his face when you both landed in the dust. The soft yield of your flesh under the rough linen dress, it was as if he’d put his hands on the softest down pillow, he’d wanted to grab hold of it and not let go.

As you rushed away from him, scolding your skittish horse, he’d watched the way your hips swayed with each step, bright hair bouncing with frustration. You gripped the horse’s bridle and pulled it around, even at a distance he could see the way your nose crinkled in annoyance as you berated the poor animal. When your anger trickled out as quickly as it flared up, your face softened and you gently stroked the animal’s nose, giving its neck a pat before swinging yourself up into the saddle again. You caught him staring and gave him a quick smile, before turning again and nudging the horse into a slow trot.

He’d made his way to the smithy and then back to the rooms he and William had rented for the winter. And when he laid down on his bed, the vision of you filled his head, soft curves, sweet smile, quick temper and a sharp tongue. He would very much like to see you again, be that close to you again.

The next day was a Sunday and he joined William at the church for mass with the rest of the village. He let the familiar Latin incantations wash over him, the rituals the same here as in his hometown as it was in every other town he’d ever visited, irrespective of the country or the ruler. The power radiated from Rome and although the churches looked different, the rituals were the same and it brought a strange, albeit dull, comfort to him.

When mass was over the congregation filtered out of the church, slow in leaving, catching up with neighbours and sharing gossip. Pero tried to scan the crowd surreptitiously but William caught his wandering eye.

“Who are you looking for? The mysterious horse woman?” he asked, looking around at the villagers and the mercenaries who were wintering here just as they were. Pero had told him of the encounter, not being able to hide how you’d remained on his mind as he returned to the rooms.

“I don’t remember seeing her here before,” Pero replied, trying to appear unphased, uncaring, as he continued to scan the open space in front of the church, but without success. When he couldn’t see her, he followed William back to their lodgings. The Lord’s day should be spent in rest and was not wise to anger the local priest.

But Pero found himself too restless to sit still, fiddling with a troublesome chainmail. He left William to it and ventured outside instead, vying to find a secluded spot in the woods to get some practice in without being scolded by someone spotting him working on a Sunday.

The autumn forest was golden, the air crisp and clear as the sky stretched endlessly blue above the trees as Pero wandered further in than he meant to. It felt good to be away from people, from the crowded town and the small rooms he shares with William.

The clank of metal on wood reached his ears and he furrowed his brows, no one would be out here felling trees on a Sunday unless there was some strange business. He moved silently through the underbrush towards the sound, and came upon a clearing, drawing breath at the sight in front of him. You had stripped down to just your slip and a pair of men’s breeches, your arms bare and glistening with sweat as you raised the heavy sword and parried an imagined attack, and hit the thick beech trunk. The sword lodged in the wood and with a grunt you pulled it free, backing up a few steps and repeating the exercise.

Pero watched you for a few minutes, your technique was good, someone has clearly taught you the basics, but the sword was too heavy for you.

“You have some skills with that sword, señorita,” he called, just as you dropped your arm, letting the sword hang by your side as you took a deep breath.

His voice made you jump and swing around, the sword quickly raised.

“Do not worry, I mean you no harm,” he said, walking towards you with both his arms raised, “We’ve met before, with your troublesome mare.”

“I remember,” you answered, the tone of your voice betraying your wariness as his sudden appearance, “What are you doing here?”

“The same as you, señorita, I think,” he replied, “seeking a place away from unwelcome eyes to hone my skill on a Sunday.”

Unclipping his cloak and satchel and placing them on a log near the edge of the clearing, he then turned and nodded at the sword in your hand.

“You have some skill, but the sword is too heavy for you.”

“What do you care?” you snapped at him, the sword still lifted as he approached.

“I train the younger soldiers, when a sword is too heavy for the user, the technique suffers. And I hate to see a bad swordsman. Or woman.”

With a fluid movement he pulled both of his swords from his back, the left one spinning in his hand, the handle held out towards you.

“Let me show you, borrow my sword, it’s more lightweight.”

You regarded him with suspicion, not lowering your own sword.

“Why do you want to help me?”

“Why do I want to help a woman become a better fighter?” he countered, still holding out the sword to you, “Because those without swords can still die upon them. I learned that a long time ago. So better the women know how to fight too.”

You regarded him with caution, the dark haired, dark eyed man with a strange accent and a menacing scar across his eye. But something in his face, the way he looked at you with a cocked eyebrow, encouraging you to take the sword he was still holding out to you, made your trepidation waver. Slowly you sheathed your own sword, and grabbed the handle of his. He gave you a crooked smile and a quick nod.

“Good. Now show me what you can do.”

With a quick movement he brought up his own sword and attacked, and you just about parried in time, the two swords ringing out through the empty forest as they met.

Marriage was not something that was ever on the cards for him. But sometimes fate wills it differently.

And before that Sunday afternoon in the forest, you’d never considered marrying someone either. At least not for any other reason than your father telling you that a man was needed to run the farm when he was gone. But the dark haired Spaniard with the scowling face, menacing and imposing, he was the one who made you see that marrying didn’t mean settling for one of the local boys.

His dark eyes glittered with mischief as he taunted your sword skills, easily smacking your arm with the flat side of his blade as you failed to anticipate his next move in the early days of your training. But it was the way he smiled with pride when you managed to disarm him and put your blade to his neck, that smile made your heart melt. He was proud of you for a skill any other man you knew would shame you for, even attempt to lock you up for. It was like taking a deep breath of air for the first time, the way he treated you like an equal in a way no ever had before.

It was mesmerising how a hardened soldier with such a menacing scowl could transform into the most handsome man you’d ever seen. It stunned you, and locked you in place, the first time you stood toe to toe with him, his back against a thick oak, your sword resting against his neck. Surprise flashed across his face first, then he smiled, his eyes shifting from the hard concentration of battle to soft warmth as his lips pulled up in a proud grin.

“I knew there was a warrior in you,” he said, holding his sword arm up in defeat as you pulled the blade away from his neck, “with my training, you’ll beat almost any man.”

“Almost any man?” you replied, your eyebrows lifting as you moved your hand and rested the blade against his neck again.

Pero chuckled, the corners of his eyes crinkling as he looked down on you, glancing down his sharp nose as you made him tilt his head back again.

“Any man, guerrera,” he smiled and again the pride in his voice made warmth and elation shoot through your body.

Sweat was dripping from his forehead, you could feel the heat of him against you, the rise and fall of his chest, your own short breaths against him as an errant drop slipped over his lips and his tongue came out to catch it. Your eyes drifted to the pink tip as he licked his bottom lip, watching it disappear into his mouth again. When you looked up, his smile was gone, replaced by something more hungry, his eyes darker as they seemed to study your face. There was no need for you to be so close to him still, the fight over. But as he brought his hand up and carefully pushed your sword away from his neck, you only let your hand drop, not stepping back. You felt rooted to the spot with his eyes on you, the warmth of his body like a magnet to your own.

“Señorita…” he almost growled, a half whisper from the back of his throat, as he slowly leaned closer, his eyes moving to your lips before his gaze fell on you again. Dark and warm, it was like being pulled in by the last of the dying embers of a fire. Pero glowed and burned hot under your palm as you put your hands on his neck and pulled him to you, your sword falling to the floor of the forest with a soft clatter.

He wouldn’t let you go, and you clung to him just as eagerly, the dry leaves rustling as you pulled him down, he rolled you over, caging you in under his strong arms.

“Señorita…” he growled again, it was all he could press out before your lips found his, soft, pliant and sweeter than anything he’d ever tasted, addictive in the way they felt against his mouth, his jaw, his cheeks as you found new places to kiss him, your fingers winding through his hair, keeping him locked in place against your lips, taking as much as you wanted from him and he never once stopped you.

He was lost. So utterly lost. And he’d never felt more at home.

You plucked last year’s leaves from your hair and cloak all the way home that day. Pero followed you to the edge of the forest as always. But this time you pulled him behind a tree and made him press his hard body against you, pinning you against the trunk. The way he groaned into your kisses made your body heat up, your need for him growing with every slow roll of his hips, hands roaming to feel as much of him as you could, his hands kneading your hips and caressing your curves.

If your lips were swollen and your hair dishevelled, your father said nothing of it when you came home. When Pero came by one Sunday after church and asked permission to marry his daughter, he wasn’t surprised.

There had been no war or rebellion to pull Pero away from you that year. William left, serviced under a local lord, but Pero stayed and put what little money he had left into buying the small farm next to your father’s. When the time came, the two could be merged and provide a good life for the two of you and any children that followed. When the small cottage was his by law, only then did he go to your father, who said yes without hesitation to the large Spaniard.

“As if I could deny you the man you’ve clearly set your eyes on, even if he wasn’t a great, big hulking warrior,” your father had said later that same night after Pero had left, “With him in your house, I know you’ll be safer than with me. And if you truly love him too, well then I have no objections.”

“I really do love him, with all his scowls and menacing looks, he is a very good man underneath it all, father.”

There had been strange looks from the villagers, but that had hardly mattered. You’d always gone your own way, and marrying a dark haired outsider with a thick accent seemed to be something that the gossiping wives had expected of you. Either way, when you exchanged your vows outside the church on the intended day, you were surrounded by smiling faces, the old priest beaming down at you as you entered the church with Pero by your side to be blessed by by God.

The feast lasted most of the day but by the late afternoon, you both left your father’s farm and was escorted by the priest, William and a few other villagers, to your new home, the cottage that Pero had worked so hard to turn into a home for you both. His first home since he left the place he was born, and now the place where he intended to live out the rest of his life as a happy man. When the marital bed had been blessed too, Pero closed the door to the cottage and you were alone as husband and wife for the first time.

“Come here, husband,” you smiled at him as he turned back from the door. You didn’t need to beckon him, nothing would keep him away from you tonight, but you liked the sound of his new title - husband.

“Mi esposa,” he grinned as he crowded you against the sturdy oak bed he’d built with the aid of the local carpenter, “my wife, finally.”

His eyes went soft, his mischievous grin replaced by a tender look as he cupped your face with his warm palms, “Never in my life did I think I’d call someone ‘my wife’, I never thought this was the way my life would be, and then I found you,” he ran his thumbs over your cheeks, leaning his forehead against yours as your breaths mingled, ”Te amo, mi amor,” he whispered.

“I love you too, Pero,” you whispered back, your fingers finding his soft curls as you wrapped your arms around his neck. Gently he pushed you backwards, making you lay down on the bed, your bed, as he moved to cage you in under his arms and wide shoulders. Many training sessions in the forest had ended this way, time slipping away as you kissed each other breathless, but it had never gone further. You’d feel the thick weight of him pressed against your thighs, felt how he sometimes rolled his hips to seek a brief relief, but he'd always pull back.

“Amor, I won’t take you on the forest floor,” he’d muttered when you asked him to stop caring so much about your virtue, “I want you in a bed, our bed, when I’m your husband and you’re my wife.”

Now here you were, in your bed, and you called him husband as he slowly removed all your layers, caressing every sliver of skin that was revealed to him. He pressed kisses to your soft breasts, moaning as he felt them pebble under his touch, his strong nose trailed across the downy hairs of your belly, and when you giggled at the way his beard tickled, he nipped at the warm skin of your thighs. The thick slide of his tongue through your heated centre made you arch your back and gasp, your fingers scrambling for purchase in his hair. You could hear him chuckle against you, the tip of his nose circling the epicentre of your pleasure, he seemed to know this part of your body better than yourself and he soon had you moaning his name as you fought to catch your breath.

When he had you drenched and dripping, he rested his head on your soft thigh and tapped your leg.

“Amor, look at me,” he invited. Through half closed lids, clouded with pleasure, you watched him slide a finger through your liquid, coating it before he slowly pushed in. It slipped in easily, and when he curled it, caressing your insides, your eyes fell closed of their own volition. Suddenly you wanted more, more of his fingers, more of him and you whined, your hips rolling over his finger.

“Please, Pero…” you whimpered, your voice hoarse and pleading.

“What do you want, esposa,” he asked as he moved his finger gently back and forth, making you gasp again.

“More…I think…more…” you mumbled and Pero smiled. Seeing you fall apart for him, slowly showing you how good he could make you feel, how he intended to spend every long winter evening, it filled him with a happiness he’d never felt before. It was like a hot burning fire inside his chest and it would keep him warm when he had to leave, he knew these memories would be the ones he returned to on long cold nights alone.

“More?” he asked, “I can give you more, amor.”

The smile in his voice made you look up at him as he moved to lie at your side, putting his arm under your shoulders and finding your lips with his own. As his tongue slipped inside your mouth, he gently pushed a second finger into your heat. He felt you arch up against him, whimpering into his mouth, your fingers digging into his arms as he slid his own in and out, setting your body on fire with every slow drag.

He moved so slowly, it was like your body was turning into molten metal, heat flowed through you, all coming from where Pero’s fingers sunk into you. Your hips rolled of their own accord, your core clenching hard around him and a tension was building up inside you. But just as you felt as if you were about to snap, like a thread pulled too tight, Pero slipped his fingers from you and caressed your side, his hand leaving a sticky trail on your skin.

“Amor,” he mumbled, moving over your body so that he once again was caging you in, his warm, dark eyes glowing as he looked down at you, “Amor, I’m going to enter you now, tell me to stop if it hurts, you are so tight.”

You nodded and made room for him between your legs, you knew this might hurt, you’d heard the wives talk and the gossip. But no one had ever mentioned it feeling this good to be with a man, this aching need to be filled up by him. It had you panting with impatience, your core clenching around the emptiness left behind by his fingers.

Pero kept his eyes locked on you as he coated himself with your silky liquid and lined himself up. Your brows furrowed as he pushed the thick head inside, and he dropped his forehead to yours, taking a deep breath.

“Does it hurt?” he whispered, slowly rocking himself back and forth, just the tip moving inside you, and you shook your head.

“No, it was just a little tight, I want more,” you replied, spreading your legs wider for him. He reached down and hooked your leg over his hip.

“Squeeze me, pull me in if you want more,” he said, gritting his teeth as he felt your contract around him, fighting the urge to push in harder, “you feel so good, amor, so good to me.”

Your legs wrapped around his waist and Pero rocked slowly, pushing in deeper with each short thrust. His face was pinched with concentration, his mouth half open as he licked his lips. With your arms wrapped around his neck, his forehead against yours, each breath you took was his and your world shrunk down to only Pero. Only his warm body above yours, his hips heavy between your legs, driving himself into you and creating ripples of pleasure through every fibre of your being with each thrust deep inside. Your eyes wanted to close but you forced them to stay open, to see your husband as he looked at you, his eyes hazy with lust, dark and burning, every movement making him groan as your body pulled him in. The tight string started to pull taught inside you again, your body moving against Pero’s, making him pick up his pace.

“Amor, can you feel that?” he mumbled, his forehead still resting against yours, “can you feel your body getting ready to fall?”

You nodded, it felt like a lightning storm ready to break, just over the horizon. Tightening your grip around his waist, you pulled him in and he understood, driving himself deeper, a little bit harder into your tight core.

“Pero…” you gasped, your nails digging into his shoulders, and he grunted in response, his hand grabbing your leg and finding a new angle.

“Amor, let me feel you come around me, give me this…” he panted, “the first time…I want it-”

Before he’d even finished you cried out under him, gripping him tight, your body trembling as the string snapped and lighting coursed through you, Pero’s thick cock driving hard into you, pushing your pleasure higher as he gasped and grunted. With a cry he broke, a loud groan, and he spilled himself inside, your legs like a vice around his waist as he rocked himself deeper.

He was heavy on top of you, the warm sweat of his torso gliding against your own chest as you buried your face against his neck and took long, deep breaths.

“Pero…my love…” you whispered softly into his ear, his wet kiss against your own neck was his exhausted response as he slowly came down from his high. Your arms were still wrapped tight around him, as were your legs, locking him in place. Not that he wanted to leave, he would stay here, in this bed, between your legs, until moss grew on him like an old boulder that no farmer could move.

He was home.

Endless miles stretched out behind them, thousands if they cared to count them. Pero did not. All he could see was the white cliffs in front of the ship, like a beacon, a sign that their long journey was finally coming to an end.

They returned, not as poor as they’d set out, but not as rich as they thought they’d be, but the only thing that mattered to Pero was that he was returning. He’d fought with his friend, felt betrayed by him, even abandoned him in the end, so strong was his need to return home. It had almost cost him his life, caught by the very army he was trying to escape as he left William behind, brought back and then thrown in chains. He thought he’d die there, locked up in a dungeon, never seeing you again.

It burned in his chest as the chains gnawed at his wrists, to never see you again, to leave you behind in this world without a word. He could see your face as he closed his eyes, conjured it up in his mind and remembered the tears clinging to your lashes as he pulled back one final time and turned for his horse. Riches or not, he was a damn fool for leaving you, he should’ve been content with what he had.

In the end it was only by the grace of God, or maybe by William’s good heart, that he’d been freed by the very friend he’d betrayed and allowed to leave and make the long journey home.

Now he stood on solid ground again, readying his horse for the final stretch home.

Home.

A word he’d never thought he’d be able to say and for it to mean something worth fighting for. A woman he loved. A house where he could keep her warm and protected. A place to raise a family.

Home. He was going home. He knew he never should’ve left.

The last ride was easy and he drove his horse fast, the afternoon barely past its prime as he saw the cottage at the end of the path, tucked in among the heavy oak trees. It looked well kept, but the door was shut tight and no animals roamed around the yard.

“Mi amor!” he called, spurring his horse on for the last few yards, “Mi amor!” he called again as he swung himself from the saddle.

But the door was shut tight and wouldn’t budge and a lap around the small house showed him that it was indeed as empty as it looked. He mounted his horse again, not yet uneasy, and set a fast pace down the lane, towards your father’s farm a mile through the forest.

Here there was life at least, chickens in the yard, a dog pulling on its leash and the door open. Again he swung himself from the saddle, throwing the reins around the gate post and striding forward.

“Stay back!”

Your sword was raised. Your sword? No, his sword, the one he’d left with you. Held up by you now, threatening him to not take another step forward.

“Mi amor, it’s me, Pero,” he smiled, spreading his arms wide and taking long strides to you, wanting nothing more than to pull you into his arms and feel your soft body melt against his after so many months.

“Stay back!” you snarled, taking a step back and settling into the fighting stance he’d taught you and Pero floundered, stopping in his tracks.

“Amor…Have I changed that much? Don’t you know your husband?”

“I don’t have a husband,” you replied, your sword still raised, “Now, leave before I set the dogs on you!”

Pero felt a cold dread rise in his chest, confusion clouding his mind, he didn’t understand why you didn’t know him and he dropped his arms, his face a pained mask.

“Mi amor, it’s me, I left a year ago on a foolish mission, you were my wife when I left and I have fought so hard all this time to get back to you and…” he trailed off as your eyes showed no recognition, no flash of relief. Just a hard stare at him.

“Tovar!”

A voice called out, an elderly man coming around the corner of the cottage, his white hair in tufts around his ears and neck and his face concerned.

“Tovar, it’s good to see you safe after all this time, my boy!”

The man forced a pained smile at Pero before he reached you.

“Daughter, lower your sword, he is a friend, he just hadn’t been past here in some time,” the old man put his hand on your arm and gently made you lower the sword, “Go inside and make sure the stew is not burning, I will speak with Tovar and join you shortly.”

Pero looked on in confusion as you sheathed the sword, smiled at your father and turned back into the cottage.

“John, tell me what’s going on, why does my wife not know me?”

“Come with me,” he replied and gestured towards the edge of the farm yard, the low stone wall serving as a seat as he sank down. Pero remained standing, glancing back at the cottage. Part of him wanted to storm into the cottage and grab you, shake you and make you see him, see him, your husband. But John’s hand landed on his arm and pulled his attention back to the old man.

“It began not long after you and William left, her memories have been slowly going and neither the priest nor the physician know why or what caused it.”

“What do you mean, her memories are going? She doesn’t know me?” Pero gripped the handle of his sword, not a threat, just a comfort, to hold on to something familiar as he rubbed his thumb over the pommel, “I am her husband, she loves me, how can she forget me?”

“I don’t know, Pero,” John sighed, rubbing his weathered hand over his face as he shook his head, “she just doesn’t. And it’s not just you, she seems to forget most new things from one day to the next, a new neighbour, the cow giving birth to a new calf, selling a few of the chickens, she just forgets,” he looked over at the cottage where a thin tendril of smoke rose slowly from the short chimney, “She remembers her childhood, her brother and mother dying, after that it all becomes hazy.”

John looked up at Pero again and Pero could see the toll the past year had taken on his father-in-law as pain flashed across his face, his usually bright eyes sunken and dark.

“I’m sorry, son, she doesn’t even remember meeting you, nothing of your life together, and not you leaving.”

It hits him like a dagger to the chest, piercing in its pain and wrenching his chest open; he left, she begged him not to, but he left and this is his punishment. Her mind is protecting her from the pain he caused. With a groan he turns around, sinking down on the wall, his head buried in his hands, it feels as if his throat is closing up, a sob tearing its way up, like broken glass cutting him open.

“I left her,” he groaned, choking around his words, “She begged me not to go, that last night before I left, and I thought I had to and left her anyway. I broke her heart and this is my punishment, her mind has removed me from her so she doesn’t have to live with my betrayal.”

“Son…” John said, his voice choking too, but he put his hand on the younger man’s shoulder, “We do not know the will of the Lord, you did what you thought was best.”

The hand on Pero’s shoulder burned like fire, guilt over taking him and he stumbled to his feet, shaking off the other man’s grip with a shrug.

“I’ll leave, it’s for the best,” he replied, striding towards his horse without looking back, his jaw tight around his words, “Take care of her for me.”

“Tovar, wait,” John called after him and hurried to his feet. He grabbed the reins of the horse just as Pero swung himself into the saddle, “She loves you, still. I know she does, she just needs to remember you.”

“Remember how I broke her heart and left her? What kind of a husband was I? No,” Pero shook his head and gathered the reins, making John let go of them, “Let her have a good life without me.”

The door of the cottage creaked as he spoke the last words, making him look up towards it. You were standing in the opening, an empty water bucket in your hand, your eyes on him.

“Are you really my husband?” you asked, glancing over at your father, but finding Pero’s eyes again. Pero felt his throat close up again as he saw the way you looked at him, a complete stranger, not a trace of recognition.

He just nodded in response, not trusting his voice.

“He is, my dear,” John replied in his stead, “Do you remember me telling you about him when your mind first started to go?”

You shook your head at that, your eyes still on Pero.

“I’m leaving,” he said, a deep furrow in his brow as he ruefully shook his head, “I caused you both enough hurt.” He nudged his horse to turn around, walking it through the gate and out onto the road, avoiding John’s look of pity.

“Wait!”

The call came just as he was about to spur his horse on, away from your empty stare.

“Wait,” you called, hurrying after him, stopping as he halted his horse and turned in the saddle. You came up to stand by its neck, looking up at him, “Stay at least the night, I…I know I lost so many memories, but...if you’re my husband then you should stay, maybe something will come back.”

“No,” he shook his head, looking away from you and down the road, “I caused too much harm, I don’t want you to have to relive the pain I caused you.”

“Please, my life has been cut in half, I can’t remember it, but I know something big is missing. I will gladly take the pain again if I can have the rest of my life back,” you put your hand on his horse’s neck, tilting your face up to him as you waited for his reply, “Please.”

He couldn’t resist looking down at you and he felt his resolve weaken as your eyes met his. Such a familiar face, the one he loved so deeply. The colour of your eyes was seared into his mind, the small imperfections on your cheeks that he’d mapped with his lips so many nights, the shape of your perfect nose that he’d traced with his calloused fingers when you complained that it was all wrong. So many long, cold nights, picturing this face in his mind’s eye as he tried to do what he thought was right, the desperate moments when he thought he wasn’t coming back to you at all. Facing monsters from nightmares in overwhelming numbers, even as he fought for his life, this face was floating before him. You were the one he was fighting so hard to get home to.

Now you were looking back at him, pleading with him, and he knew he had no choice. The last time he denied your request, he’d almost lost his life and you’d lost your memories of him. He would stay. The pain he would feel at seeing you look at him like a stranger would be a small price to pay compared to the pain he’d put you through with his greed and stubbornness.

He gave you a nod, a short movement of his head as you held his gaze. He searched in vain for a glimmer of recognition, a flash of the woman you were before he left, but there was nothing. Just a small, uncertain smile as you dropped your hand from his horse’s neck and took a few steps back.

“Thank you,” you mumbled, glancing back at your father, “my father will be glad to have you with us too, he’s probably tried to make me remember you so many times.”

Pero slid off the back of his horse and took hold of the reins as he turned to you. His rough fingernails dug into the palm of his hand as he clenched his fist, the familiar scent of your skin washing over him as he got closer. He could feel every bone in his body aching to reach out and pull you into his arm, bury his nose in the soft skin of your neck and breathe you in, feel your hands on him again. He could feel himself torn in two; the urge to bolt when you took a step back from him, the need to stay near and never leave again.

“Amor…” he mumbled, tearing his eyes away from you as you took another step back, the pain and emotion plain on his face.

“I’m…I’m sorry…” you whispered, “I don’t know what that means…”

For a few moments you looked at him as he refused to meet your eyes again, his gaze wavering as his hand closed around the reins of his horse. His knuckles were pulled taught, the tension in his still form clear, and you took another step back.

“Please, put your horse away and I’ll heat up water for you to wash. Father said you’ve travelled far, you must be weary. There's good stew cooking too,” you raised your hand and gently put it on the neck of his horse, “Come, please.”

He followed you into the house once he’d put the horse away, your father leaving to bring the small herd of cows in for the evening. Water was heating over the fire and you mixed it with the cooler water from the barrel as Pero stepped over the threshold with his heavy saddle bags by his side.

“You live with your father now,” he said, a statement rather than a question, but you nodded, wiping your hands and turning to the stew pot.

“Yes, well, I don’t remember living anywhere else but he tells me the cottage down the road is where I lived before…” you trailed off, putting your hand to your temple as your brow furrowed, screwing up your eyes as if trying to search for a memory. Pero shifted by the door and you turned to him with a surprised look on your face.

“I-I guess…that’s where we lived?” you asked and a look of anguish flashed across his face.

“Yes….yes, we lived there,” he replied, still holding his heavy bags, looking like he was almost on the verge of leaving again. “We moved there on our wedding day and I… Do you ever visit it now?”

You shook your head but hesitated, “Never…but maybe I have been back, but I forget from one day to the next, I know it’s there but if I see it now, it’s like I see it for the first time.”

Pero dropped his bags on the floor and rubbed his hand over his face, his shoulders slumped as if under a tremendous weight.

“Amor…” he said to the floor before looking up at you again, “I don’t know if I can do this. We lived there, you and me, they were the happiest days of my wretched life, and now it’s all been taken from us. You look at me like a stranger and I can’t stand it.”

You didn’t know what to say, the man in front of you was a stranger, nothing in his voice or face was familiar. The only reason you asked him to stay was your father telling you he was your husband, and that feeling in your chest of something missing, that empty space in your mind, a big piece of your life’s memories missing.

“I’m sorry…” you said again, but he shook his head.

“Don’t. It’s my fault, I did this to you. And I’m staying until you tell me to leave.”

“I might not remember you in the morning,” you said, “I often forget meeting new people.”

New people

It cut through him like the sharpest blade. He’s ‘new people’ to you now, not your husband, or even a friend. Just a stranger in your house.

He nodded at the large bowl that you’d filled with water, “I’ll get cleaned up now, do you want me to go outside?”

The cottage was familiar, he’d spent much time here before the wedding, and not much had changed in the year he’d been gone. It had only two rooms, and he presumed you were sleeping in the bed nook against the back wall, your father in the other room. The small cottage didn’t hold much space for privacy.

You shook your head and turned back to the fire, “I’ll keep my back turned, I need to watch the stew.”

He stared at you for a beat, the achingly familiar shape of your shoulders, your hips and the way you cocked one out to the side as you leaned forward over the large pot. How many times hadn’t he come up behind you, run his hands over your soft shapes, pushed your hair to the side and pressed kisses to your neck as you giggled at the way his beard tickled your skin. Now you stood with your back to him to not see as he pulled off his clothes, something you’d done to him almost every night. Unlaced his shirt, pulled it from his breeches and caressed his skin with your soft hands.

The dirty shirt dropped to the floor with a soft sound and you heard him wring the washcloth as you added the last of the herbs to the stew. You couldn’t help yourself, you glanced over your shoulder and stole a look at him. He was a stranger, but supposedly your husband, and either way, he was handsome. Under that layer of grime and sweat, he was a striking man, unlike any you’d ever seen. Or, at least, unlike anyone your mind would let you remember. So you glanced back at him and was struck almost dumb by the sight. Broad shoulders, a muscular back tapering into narrow hips where his breeches hung low as he rubbed the washcloth over his abdomen.

The back of his neck was tanned golden, his back lighter and marred by a long scar that shone bright in the dim light. It looked like a painful injury, old and long since healed over, and you wondered if he’d ever told you what had happened to him. Had you run your fingers over as he told you the story? You realised you must’ve spent countless nights next to this man in your marital bed, his hands on you, your hands on him. This man, this stranger in your father’s house, would know you better than anyone else, every inch of your body and your most intimate secrets.

As if he could sense your eyes on him, he glanced back over his shoulder and met your eyes, and he seemed to hold his breath for a moment. Then he turned fully to face you, the washcloth forgotten in his hand.

“Amor…” he whispered and you bit back a sudden sob. His eyes were so hopeful, you wanted nothing more than to remember him, to have all the memories of him flood back into your mind as he dropped the washcloth and took two quick steps across the floor.

“I don’t remember,” you sobbed as his arms wrapped around you, “I don’t remember anything about you.”

He didn’t say anything, but he didn’t let you go. Instead he let you sob against his chest, holding you close as he rested his chin on your head. His heart was beating wildly, thrumming so hard you could hear it as you pressed your cheek against him, and even though he was a stranger, his arms felt safe around you, the scent of his skin comforting and soothing.

With a small movement he rubbed your back, slowly up and down, “It will come back, amor, it will. And if it doesn’t, I will make you fall in love with me again and tell you about all the memories we have.”

You nodded against his chest, your sobs subsiding, but you didn’t pull away from him, and he didn’t let his arms drop. He held you just as tight, reluctant to give up the feeling of having you in his arms again after all he endured to get back to you.

“Although…I’m still not sure how I made a woman like you fall in love with a reckless mercenary like me, how will I manage that again?” he said, a small smile to his voice and you looked up at him. He’d lifted his chin from your head and was looking at you with a sad smile, tears clinging to his dark lashes.

“Promise me you’ll try,” you said, your voice low and broken.

“Every day for the rest of my life, amor,” he whispered, “I will make you fall in love with me again and then we can make all those memories one more time.”

A/N - I hope you enjoyed this bitter sweet little story! Bonus points to anyone who caught the LotR reference :)

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schlock-luster-video · 7 months ago

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On April 9, 1973, Clay Pigeon debuted in Sweden.

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yespleasetommyshelby · 9 months ago

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Before he cheats - Modern Tommy Shelby x reader

I've had this song stuck in my head for days and it's gotta go 😩 This literally took me all of 2 hours to plan/write/post and it hasn't been proofread so bare with!

Enjoy! 🥰

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"56, 57, 58, 59, 60, that's it, I'm done." I huffed as i threw my phone onto the sofa besides me, frown on my face as I sighed. "That's two fucking hours!" I muttered to myself stamping my feet into my trainers I threw my coat on before picking up my phone on some final hope that I'd actually had a reply, but low and behold, obviously not.

"Fucking Thomas Shelby always thinking with his mother fucking dick." I continued to mutter under my breath as I left my home on Watery Lane slamming the door behind me, my chest burning in anger. Stepping out onto the path I shoved my hands into my coat pockets, fists clenched as I headed the short distance down the road to the house where I'd practically grown up.

"Watch where you're fucking going!" I screeched as a teenager flew past on his bike almost knocking me into the road. "Fucking males and their fucking shit." I continued to slate each and every male that came into view in the 2 minutes it took to get to my destination, 'men are all the bloody same' my mum used to say, 'honestly, get yourself a women, their much easier.' Looking back maybe I should've taken her advice.

"Where is he?" I asked as I pushed open the doors to the betting shop that sat in Watery Lane, the punters and staff going silent as I watched with my hands on my hips. "Oh come on, you know exactly who I'm talking about!" I all but yelled into the silent room, after being with Tommy for 2 years now I had almost as much authority as him, almost.

"Y/n, not here." Polly's voice had my head on a swivel, finally spotting her in the doorway to John's office I stormed over ignoring the looks I was getting from everyone.

"Where is he Pol?" I sighed as I flopped down into Johns office chair. "And why are you in here?" I asked noticing that John wasn't in his own office.

"He's disappeared with Esme somewhere, honestly these Shelby boys and their dicks are ridiculous." She mumbled, lighting the cigarette she held in her hand.

"Tell me about it." I sighed, knowing that if Tommy wasn't in the office he was only going to be in one other place. "He's at the Garrison then." I asked, watching as she froze slightly before shaking her head.

"I think so, yeah, what's he done this time?" She sighed as she rubbed her eyes, having dealt with nothing but pissed up (and off) men and women placing bets they can't afford all morning, dealing with her nephews love life was definitely not on her to do list.

"Nothing Pol, he's done nothing which is the fucking problem! He was supposed to meet me 2 hours ago and I haven't heard anything since a lousy morning text all because he's too busy with that fucking whore Grace!" I ranted, reaching out and taking one of her cigarettes before lighting it and slamming the lighter down on the desk. "You know what I'm done." My voice sounded much more convinced then my mind as I said the words.

Shaking my head I stood up in a flash, out of Johns office and into Tommys within a second, without looking I reached behind Tommys desk and picked up the baseball bat that I knew he kept there in case of emergency's. Pushing my way past Polly who was stood in the doorway I made my way through the punters and out into the street without a second look, the bat weighing heavy in my hand.

"Y/n! What are you doing?!" Pol's voice follows me out into the street. "Come back inside!" She yelled, passers by stopping to look at the scenes, before a sharp look from Pol had them walking on.

"Woah! What's going on here?" I was stopped in my tracks as Arthur, John and Esme appeared from the corner ahead of me, grins on their faces as they looked from the bat in my hand to the scowl on my face.

"Looks to me that she's off to play baseball." John laughed, his input met with a thud on his chest by his wife.

"Would you two idiots shut up already." She giggled slightly as she pushed her husband into his older brother. "Now what's up with the bat?" She asked, smirking slightly as she had a feeling she knew exactly where you was going, after sitting on the phone for an hour the last time Tommy pissed you off she knew not to get in the way.

"Like John boy said." I shrugged, my hold on the bat tightening ever so slightly. "I'm going to practice baseball with a nice new shiny Land Rover I saw parked outside of the Garrison." I grinned before pushing my way through the trio and continuing on my way.

I couldn't help but let out a loud laugh as the Garrison came into view and just as I had predicted there was brand new Land Rover sat outside its doors. The brand new Land Rover that only 3 days ago I had travelled up to Scotland to collect with Tommy, not knowing that it would be the last journey I'd take with both him and the car.

"Y/n come on back to the shop love, we'll sort this shit out." Polly pleaded once more making me stop in my tracks, the Shelby's had been like a family to me, even in the years before me and Tommy had officially gotten together, being friends with Ada and all.

"I'm sorry Pol." I sighed shaking my head as I turned to face her and the trio that had followed behind. "But right now, right now he's probably slow dancing with that bleach blonde tramp and she's probably getting frisky. Right now he's probably buying her some fruity little drink 'cause she can't shoot whisky." I laughed a little, knowing for a fact that she couldn't handle the drink that Thomas Shelby worships so much. "Right now he's probably up behind her with a pool stick showing her how to shoot a combo, but he don't know." I laughed as I reached into my pocket and pulled out my keys, my hand wrapping around the longest and sharpest of them all, ironically the spare key Tommy had given me for this exact car.

I could help but grin as I stuck my key through the shiny black metal of the drivers door, the small act creating some kind of pleasure, a pleasure that only increased as I walked my way down the car, the key dragging a horribly crooked line right down the side.

"Right that's enough now! Cut this shit out!" Polly yelled, her eyes flickering between her nephews burnt lover and the door which he could come through at any second. "Think about what you're doing y/n." She almost pleaded, or at least as close as I'd ever seen her.

Ignoring her I made my way round to the passengers side, the metal bat dragging across the floor being the only sound to be heard, except for the muffled giggles that the other two Shelby brothers struggled to keep back. A wave of emotion hit me as I climbed into the car, a lone tear slipping down my cheek which I quickly wiped away.

"He doesn't deserve it." I muttered to myself as I quickly wiped it away without a second thought. "Fuck him and all the whores he's had in this fucking car." I growled gripping my keys as I began to carve my name into the leather seat.

"What the fuck is going on right now?!" My head snapped up as I heard another voice, Ada having stumbled upon my little rage room experiment, shall we call it.

"Ada! Nice of you to join us, i'll tell you what's going on shall I?" I asked as I hopped down from the car swing the bat up over my shoulder as I waved over to her. "Right now, your brother, you know the one that I'm supposedly engaged to, is in there living it up with that Irish tart of a woman!" I yelled, using the bat to point towards the door, not caring how loud my voice had gotten. "Right now she's probably up singing some white trash version of Shania karaoke, right now she's probably saying 'I'm drunk' and he's thinking that he's gunna get lucky! Right now, he's probably dapping on three quids worth of that bathroom polo!" I screamed, the more thought I put into what was actually going on just inside fuelling the rage even more.

I let out a gut wrenching scream as I swung the bat into his headlight, once, twice, three times moving on to the next I swung again laughing as the glass crashed to the floor before swing it into the windscreen for good measure. Throwing the bat to the floor I put my hands on my hips and grinned as I looked at the mess that was Tommy Shelby's new car before making my way over to Arthur.

"I need your knife." Holding my hand out infront of him. "Please Arthur." I sighed knowing that he always carried one no matter where he went.

With a sigh and grin he reached into his pocket and placed the small switch blade into my hand.

"Seriously Arthur?! Why the fucking hell did you give her a knife?!" Polly yelled as she threw her arms up in frustration, knowing that if anyone was going to be killed for this it wasn't going to be her.

"She asked nicely Pol." He shrugged, loving the fact that his brother was about to have the surprise of a lifetime and all he had to do was sit and watch.

Sticking the knife into the front tyre I smirked as the hiss of air filled the air, walking round and putting a knife slash in all of the tires for good measure, I stood back with a grin laughing at the look of amusement over the 3 Shelby siblings faces, the smirk on Esme's and the fed up look Polly had been giving me for the last 10 years.

"What the fucking hell is going on?!" The man of the hour roared as he stepped out onto the street, the pub doors banging against the walls before Grace appeared behind him, eyes cast down. "Answer me!" He bellowed, the vein in his neck popping with each syllable.

"Hi Tommy, remember me?" I asked sarcastically making his eyes jump to me, his face dropping ever so slightly. "You know, the fiance that you used to have!" I stepped forwards as I spoke shoving him back slightly, knowing if it was anyone else they would have recieved a bullet to the head, but I knew he'd never lay a hand on me.

"Y/n? I thought we were meeting later?" He asked, brows furrowed in confusion as he pulled his phone out of his pocket, the numerous texts and missed calls flashing on the screen and the time that read two and a half hours after the planned meeting time. "Oh." He muttered, wiping his hand across his face. "What have you done?" He asked as his eyes trailed along the nice long line that now travels the length of his new car.

"Yeah, oh." I nodded, laughing slightly as Grace stepped out besides him. "I suppose you missed the show while you were in there with ol' Gracie here. But I'll give you a rundown shall I? Well I dug my key into the side of your pretty little souped up four wheel drive, carved my name into your leather seats. I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights and slashed a hole in all four tires, maybe next time you'll think before you cheat." I couldn't help the tears that fell next, the adrenaline slowing and my whole body began to ache, the end of an era, me and the Shelby's.

"Y/n-" "No." I cut him off, not wanting to listen to any kind of reasoning he would throw at me, anything to get him back in the good book. "I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl, because the next time that you cheat, oh you know it won't be on me, no, not on me." I wiped my eyes before pulling of the ring that he had given me 6 months ago. "Guess I'll give it to you aye, Gracie." I muttered, throwing the ring at her feet before turning to walk away.

"Y/n!" His voice reached my ears just as I'd passed Polly, Arthur, John, Esme and Ada. "Y/n please!"

"Bye Tom!" I yelled without turning back, keeping my head up I shoved my hands into my pockets and carried on, not giving them the chance to see the tears that were currently streaming down my face.

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There you have it! My first fic where they don't end up happily ever after, hopefully you enjoyed!

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gretavangroupie · 3 months ago

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Bluebird Lane - Chapter Two

Pairing: Jake Kiszka x Female Reader

Word Count: 9.7k

Warnings: Cursing, Angst, Pining, Mentions of Death, Sexual Themes, Kissing.

A/N: Gigantic, massive thank you to @gretavanmoon and @builtbybrokenbells for endlessly encouraging me with this one and daydreaming with me. Thanks for reading!

JAKE POV

A trickle of sweat slips down the side of your neck as you lift your mattress onto the bed frame. It falls heavily, sending a burst of air up around it, the sound echoing through the mostly empty house. Your bed is definitely too large for the room, but sleep is one of the things you refuse to compromise on, and this mattress was the best of the best. There is truly nothing better than finally sleeping in your own bed after endless months of hotel beds and tour bus bunks. The wooden bed frame really only fit in the center of the room, leaving you enough space for your dresser and a nightstand or two. You briefly wonder if you made the right choice giving her the larger of the two rooms, knowing your furniture was better suited to more space, but quickly shake away the selfish thought.

You place your hands on your hips, catching your breath as you look at the baren mattress. The house is warm, a little warmer than you want, but you knew that the constant rush of outside air coming in through the front door was to blame. The ceiling fans are running at full speed, but it just feels like it's pushing around the warm air instead of cooling the place down. You look around the room for the box holding your sheets and bedding, knowing that is the next task on the list if you want a place to sleep tonight. You snatch up the navy blue sheets, tossing the folded stack onto the bed with a thump and a huff of air.

Your heart is racing, but not from the effort you just exerted. Instead because you know Y/N is going to be arriving at any minute. You glance down to your watch knowing an hour has passed since she texted you that she was on her way, and that her car would be pulling into the driveway in the next few minutes. You worked all day trying to get as much of your belongings unpacked as possible before she arrived. Josh and Sam even spared the time to help you with the bigger furniture this morning. You knew there was no way you were wrestling that couch through the front door all on your own.

Truth be told, you were secretly hopeful she would want to keep your couch when you offered it. It was a bigger splurge item as of recent, the slate gray L-shaped Cloud couch stealing several grand from your bank account just a few months prior, but after sitting on it in the Restoration Hardware showroom, you knew you were not leaving without one of your own. Of course, your previous living room was much larger and was more accommodating to a couch of this size, but it filled the room here, and in a way almost made it feel more cozy. You knew she would put her own feminine touch on the room, balancing out your ‘guy stuff’ or whatever she called it.

You pull your hair up off of your neck, tying it into a bun before working to pull the sheets onto your bed, letting the fitted sheet snap into place. You toss the pillows to the top of the mattress and throw your comforter onto the bed, pulling the edges down to try and make it look like you tried a little. You could already tell you were going to sleep hard tonight, and the clean smell of the sheets made your bed all the more alluring.

You hear a car door shut, pulling you from your daydream and you know she is here. You wipe your sweaty forehead against your forearm and smooth back the hair at your temples, rubbing your fingers over your mustache as you nervously make your way into the living room to meet her at the front door. You pull the front of your shirt to your nose, praying you don’t smell as bad as you feel, dropping it quickly as she steps up onto the porch and hoping that she didn’t see you do that.

“Welcome,” you smile, opening the door all the way to let her inside. You are secretly nervous that she won’t like how you have things arranged, but swallow down the fear as her eyes light up.

“Hey, wow, it looks so…good in here already!” she says, dropping a potted plant down onto the floor. She drops her purse and keys with it as she steps further into the house, taking in the sight of all of the furniture in its place. “Jake, how did you– you did all of this today?”

“My brothers came by earlier to help, no sweat,” you answer casually, standing with your hands on your hips as you watch her. She turns to you and tosses you a playful knowing smirk as she eyes your sweaty shirt.

“Okay, a little sweat,” you tease. She shakes her head and walks around in the kitchen taking notice of the boxes still scattered around. “Is your car unlocked? I can start grabbing things?”

“Oh, you don’t have to do that Jake, I can get it.”

Instead of arguing with her you smile and nod, heading out the front door towards her tiny silver car. It’s packed up to the brim with a small rental trailer attached. You take notice of the number of plants occupying her front seat and smile, hoping her green thumb will rub off on you. You grab a box from the backseat, carrying up the front porch steps and into the house, finding her in her bedroom opening the blinds to let some sunlight in.

“Jake! I can get it all, seriously. It’s packed in there like a clown car,” she giggles, “I shoved it all in, I can take it all out. I know you have your own stuff to do. Also, is this the mas– Why didn’t you take the bigger room? You were here first.”

You huff out a laugh, “What? What do you mean? Of course I gave you the bigger room. You’re going to be here a lot more than I am. It makes the most sense. It’s also closer to the bathroom and has way better natural light. And I just saw all those plants in your car…I think I made the right choice.”

“Are you sure? We didn’t even really talk about it,” she asks, pulling her bottom lip between her front teeth. You swallow harshly as you try to pull your eyes away from her lips.

“Absolutely. No question. Though, I will say, part of giving you the bigger room means I have to keep a guitar or two in the living room,” you pause, tilting your head towards her. “Now, where is the key for the trailer? Wanna get that thing unloaded while we still have some daylight.”

“Jake, really, you do not have to do all this…” she argues.

You stop and turn to her, raising a brow, “The key, sweetheart.”

Her cheeks color pink as she rushes past you out the door, bending over to grab the keys from the place on the floor. You do your damndest not to let your eyes linger on her ass as she bends over, but you fail. Miserably. Get it together, Jacob.

You follow her out to the trailer, unlocking the padlock and pulling up the metal door. Only a few small pieces of furniture occupy the space and you momentarily consider calling Sam to come back and help you just so that she doesn't have to, but before you can decide she is inside the trailer lifting the side of her dresser.

“Woah, woah, okay, take it easy. S’all this going in your bedroom?” you ask, stepping up into the trailer with her.

“I think so. You pretty much brought everything else,” she smiles, shoving the dresser forward.

“I can call my brother to come back over and help me get this in–”

“No, I can do it. How do you think I got all this in here?” she asks, a look of insult on her features.

“You did this alone?” you ask, feeling sick to your stomach.

“Are you surprised?” She smiles playfully, trying to lighten the mood.

“I mean, yeah. I am, honestly.” You pause, wondering how they hell she did it. “Okay, well shit, let’s do it then. You just tell me if you need to stop for a second.”

“I’m good, let’s do it.” she answers, lifting her side of the dresser, following your lead as you walk it out of the trailer and into the house.

The two of you continue this way until the trailer is empty, and the car is unpacked. She is now in a similar state as you are, sweaty and tired and in desperate need of a drink, however you both still have quite a bit to do before calling it a night.

You leave her to her unpacking as you rifle around in the kitchen looking for your toolbag. You know it's in here somewhere, using it just this morning on your own bed frame. You spot the bright red bag and snatch it from the box, making your way back into her room to find her packing her clothes away into the dresser. She looks at you, then to the tool bag in your hand as she raises her eyebrows.

“Your bed frame,” you answer, nodding towards the black metal frame leaning against the wall.

“Oh, I–”

“Can do it, yeah, I know, but so can I. Keep unpacking, let me do this,” you demand, dropping the bag to the floor. She doesn’t argue, instead turning back to her stack of t-shirts on the floor.

“Where do you want the bed to be?” you ask, looking around the room.

She glances around biting at her lips, “Right there in the middle,” she answers, pointing to the space beneath the windows. It’s probably where you would have picked, too.

You make quick work of the frame, finding it a lot easier to put together than your own. A few screws and bed slats later it’s ready for the mattress and box spring. You maneuver the box spring down onto the slats with a metallic clang, grabbing her attention from her place on the floor.

“You wanna help me get the mattress through the door?” you ask, pushing the hair off your face.

She nods quickly, pulling herself up with the edge of the dresser and following you out into the hallway where the mattress sat leaning against the wall. The two of you drag the mattress in through the doorway and into the room, ready to flip it and place it on the frame.

“You got it?” you ask, carrying the bulk of the weight.

“Yeah, drop it on three,” she pauses, “One, two, three!”

You drop the mattress onto the boxspring, both of you falling face first onto the bed from opposite sides. You both let out a relieved sigh, taking a second to catch your breath as you turn to your back to stare up at the old wooden ceiling fan spinning overhead.

“Your mattress is kinda hard,” you say, turning your head to face her with a smile.

“I like my firm mattress thank you very much,” she quips, giving you a playful smirk.

You suck your teeth as you answer, “You would hate my bed then.”

She rolls to her side to face you,“Why, is it really soft?”

“It’s the best mattress in the world, I have tried them all,” you tease, pushing up from the bed and grabbing your tool bag. You make your way to the door, stopping to look at her, still laid out on her bed. You swallow harshly as you push down the intrusive thoughts swimming through your mind. “I’ll leave you to it, just shout for me if you need me.”

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You’ve almost got all of your clothes put away, not that you really had a ton to begin with, but nonetheless they are put away. Shirts hung, pants folded, coats hanging neatly in the back of the closet. You stack your books on your dresser and arrange your boots by the door, feeling pretty well accomplished for the day. The sun is set now, and the air in the house is finally starting to cool off. You can hear Y/N in her room, still working steadily as she unpacks her boxes and stacks them in the hallway. You push your last empty box into the hall, deciding to break down a few and take them out to the curb.

As you enter back into the house you spot the few boxes on the kitchen floor and the rumble of your stomach lets you know that unfortunately, emptying these boxes is a pressing task. You see a few of hers scattered with your own, hers marked ‘kitchen’ in purple marker. Hearing the sound of hangers sliding across the rod in her closet, you decide to unpack her kitchen boxes, mixing her things with yours. It's a plethora of coffee mugs and mismatched dishes, travel coffee mugs and reusable straws. You smile to yourself as you load them into the cabinets, stacking them neatly next to your own mugs, your souvenirs of places visited.

Your stomach rumbles again and you know that you need to deal with it before it gets out of hand and your mood starts to decline. It didn’t take much these days, but you were still trying to make a good impression on your new roommate. You pull your phone from your pocket and flip through delivery options, deciding that pizza is typically agreeable amongst everyone. You hesitate for a second, deciding that you should probably ask her just in case. You blow out a breath and head down the hallway, knocking on her door just enough that it swings open.

“Hey, I was uh– I was maybe gonna order a pizza? Are you…hungry? Do you like pizza?” you ask, feeling like an idiot for stumbling over such a basic question.

“Of course I like pizza,” she laughs, shaking her head in disbelief. “Who doesn’t like pizza?”

Your fingers fidget with the pendant of your necklace, rubbing against the face to try and calm your nerves, “Great question,” you laugh. “What kind of pizza do you like?”

She taps her fingers against her lips, and you can’t help but take notice how her fingers melt into the plush pink skin.

“I like everything, really. Just no olives,” she answers, rushing out the last bit and biting against her bottom lip.

A tiny laugh huffs from your chest, “No olives, okay. Got it,” you nod, pulling your phone from your pocket. “I’m gonna order it then jump in the shower.”

She swallows hard and nods as her cheeks turn pink, “Yeah, sounds good,” she answers, quickly averting her eyes from you as you lean into her door frame. You look at her for just a second, watching her place her perfume bottle on her dresser, fighting every urge you have to walk over and see what it smells like. Begrudgingly you pull yourself away and turn your attention to your phone, stepping into the bathroom and starting the water in the shower.

With the pizza ordered and on its way you strip out of your clothes, dropping the sweaty heap onto the bathroom floor. You pull back the shower curtain and step into the baby blue tub, letting the hot water fall around you, rinsing the dried sweat from your skin. It feels good, too good, and you find yourself staring off into space as your muscles start to relax. As you open your eyes you reach for your shampoo, seeing that the bottle is not alone on the shelf anymore, and is now joined by three others. A matching shampoo and conditioner has joined the lineup in two light pink bottles, sitting next to a bottle of green body wash that is said to smell like Cucumber, Seaweed, and Green Tea.

You wrack your brain trying to see if you can even think of what Green Tea or Seaweed even smells like, doing your absolute best to convince yourself not to smell her body wash. You shake away the thought, lathering up your hair, and refusing to let your eyes land on the pink bottles in front of you. You do not want to know what her shampoo smells like either. Not at all.

You rinse away the suds from your hair, reaching for your bar of soap, fresh from the box. You wet the yellow bar in your hands until it starts to produce bubbles, sliding it over your chest as the clean fragrance starts to fill the steamy air. You glide it over your arms and down your legs before depositing it back into the soap dish, using the soap left over to clean the rest of your body.

You slide your hands over yourself as your mind starts to wander again, eyes locked on that bottle of body wash, knowing that it holds the answer to the question plaguing your mind. Your hand wanders over your groin, spreading the soap over your length and gently tugging at it until it feels clean. You let your hand linger as the water pours over you, your eyes transfixed on the blue tile wall in front of you as your mind wanders with thoughts of the girl across the hall. Absent-mindedly your hand begins slow, languid strokes, the blood beginning to rush from elsewhere. It feels good, and you feel yourself starting to harden in your hand. But, as a thud sounds from the otherside of the wall, you’re quickly snapped from your transient thoughts, remembering exactly where you are and what you’re doing.

“Fuck,” you mutter, pulling your hand away and turning to rinse to soap from your body. You shouldn’t be having these thoughts, and you especially shouldn’t be acting on them. You turn the water off and slide the shower curtain open, pulling your towel from the countertop. The fog on the mirror is starting to dissipate as you run your towel through your dripping hair, still kicking yourself for letting yourself get caught up. You dry the rest of your body, wrapping the dark gray towel around your waist as you look at yourself in the mirror.

Again, your eyes catch sight of the bright green bottle on the shower shelf, still calling out to you to taste the forbidden fruit. Unable to stand it for a second longer you forcefully snatch it off of the shelf, popping open the lid and breathing in the scent. You feel your body relax as you breathe it in, the perfect blend of fresh and sweet, sending your head into a frenzy as you pick out each note of fragrance. You close it up, and place it back on the shelf as quietly as possible, pretending you didn’t just cave to your own rules. You knew as soon as you did it that you shouldn’t have done it, but you did, and you’d never tell a soul.

It’s always strange trying to acquaint yourself with new places. You feel like a stranger in your own home even though you’re surrounded by all of your own things. The sounds the house makes are different, the smells are different, even the energy will take some getting used to. You drop your towel to the floor and grab a pair of sweatpants from your dresser, pulling them over your legs as you scoop the towel up from the floor. You toss it over your shoulder as you make your way to your closet, pulling an old ratty t-shirt from its hanger. You run your towel through your hair one last time on your way back to the bathroom, hanging it on the hook behind the door and shutting off the light.

You felt better now that you’d showered, though the hunger was setting in full force. You knew the pizza would be here soon, and the thought alone had your stomach growling angrily. You step out into the living room, turning on the floor lamp now that the sun was set and the room was dark. You grab your acoustic and make your way to the couch, promptly sinking into its buttery soft cushions. Still worth every dime. You sit there for a minute, feeling the tiredness of your muscles really starting to set in as you let your body relax. Your head falls to the back of the couch as you prop your feet up onto the coffee table. An exhausted sigh leaves your chest as your guitar lays over your lap, and you suddenly wonder if you even had the desire to play it now that you’d sat down.

The sound of a door opening in the hallway grabs your attention, your head shooting up from the back of the couch to catch sight of Y/N walking across the hallway and into the bathroom. The door shuts and the light came on, the tiny yellow sliver of light beneath the door lighting the hallway. You hear the shower turn on and the sound of the shower curtain opening and you swallow back the nerves rising up in your chest. You refuse to let yourself think of her in there, coating herself in that fucking delicious body wash. No.

You push yourself up from the couch, walking your guitar back to the stand before making your way into the kitchen. You know you need to find some plates to eat on before the pizza arrives, so you start digging around in the boxes until you find what you’re looking for. It doesn’t take much digging to find them, loading them into a cabinet with a few bowls and small plates.

A knock on the door fills the air as you close the cabinet, your legs practically sprinting to the door to answer. You graciously accept the pizza, tipping the driver and sending him on his way. As you shut the front door you hear the shower turn off, and you know that it will be only a few minutes until she smells the pizza and finds her way into the kitchen.

You turn towards the fridge, opening it to find a bottle of champagne sitting inside, along with a small white envelope taped to the lid. It has your names written in a messy scrawl and you know that Ralph has left this as a gift for the two of you. You decide to close the fridge and wait for her before reading it, not wanting to seem like a jerk.

You hear her soft padding of her footsteps as she makes her way down the hallway and towards the kitchen, and in some cruel twist of fate you can smell her before you ever lay eyes on her. She steps up to the kitchen counter, her cheeks pink from the hot shower as her hair hangs wet and wavy around her face. She has on a giant oversized t-shirt, with a faded and well worn image of Stevie Ray Vaughn on the front. You feel like you’ve been punched in the stomach as you realize she might have good taste in music, too. A sliver of red boxer shorts peek out from the hem of the t-shirt, her bare legs practically glowing in the dim light coming from the living room as a sleepy look crosses her face. Realizing you are definitely staring, you clear your throat and turn towards the pizza.

“Pizza is here,” you say, stating the obvious. A grin pulls across her lips as she eyes the box in front of you.

“I see that,” she teases, leaning her hip onto the side of the counter. “Just let me know how much and I’ll Venmo you.”

“Oh, no no. It’s fine, I’ve got this, don’t worry about that,” you say, not even registering that she would want to pay for part of it. You hand her a plate and motion for her to go ahead, watching her open the box to reveal the pizza.

“God, I’m starving,” she whines, grabbing a few slices.

“I figured you might be,” you smile, filling your own plate. “Do you wanna sit on the couch?” you ask, glancing over to the kitchen table piled high with boxes.

“Yeah, okay,” she nods, walking over to the couch and sinking down into the cushion. “I am so glad we decided on yours. Mine sucked.”

“I love this couch,” you admit, taking a seat at the opposite side of the L shaped sofa. You both start to eat fairly quickly, the room going silent as you both work to rid yourselves of the hunger in your stomachs.

“I’d ask if you wanted to watch a movie or something, but,” she teases, nodding towards the TV in the box on the floor.

“Yeah, that will be on my to-do list for tomorrow. That and internet, I feel like I’m in the stone age right now.” you pause, smiling at her. “Do you like to watch movies?” you ask, placing your empty plate on the coffee table.

“Yeah, I do. I like all kinds! What about you?” she asks, mimicking your actions. She folds her legs up underneath her on the couch, almost disappearing beneath her t-shirt.

“I like historical stuff, war movies, documentaries,” you answer, suddenly feeling pretty predictable. “But I don’t really have a ton of time to watch stuff like I want to.”

A side smile stretches across her lips and she nods, “So no Notebook for you, then?”

“Hey, give me credit. I do have a sister, and I have seen that at least twice.”

“Alright, fair enough I guess. I can get down with historical stuff, though,” she says, tilting her head to the side.

Really?

“Be careful,” you laugh, “Gonna get yourself into trouble saying that.”

“How’s that?” she asks, playing as if she doesn’t already know the answer.

“You’re gonna find yourself suffering through all of my favorites,” you answer with a smirk. “But that being said, what is your favorite movie?”

She giggles, “Just by looking at me, what do you think my favorite movie is?”

You look her up and down, suddenly feeling the overwhelming sense that it won’t be what you think. She knows that you want to answer and say some romantic comedy. She’s baiting you just to prove you wrong. “Okay, I’m gonna guess it’s something old school. You think I won’t guess… ”

“You’d be right. It is old,” she nods.

“Alright,” you continue, rubbing your fingers over your lips. “Can you give me a hint? Give me a genre at least.”

She sits up, repositioning herself on the couch. “It’s romantic, from the fifties.”

“Is it a movie I’ve heard of?” you ask.

“Yes. Everyone knows this movie. At least I hope they do…”

“Oh, um– The one with the cat– Ahh, what it called– shit, um, the tiffany's movie. Breakfast at Tiffanys?”

“So close, but no cigar. It’s Roman Holiday,” she answers, stretching her legs out to rest on the edge of the coffee table. Your eyes flick down to her legs, silky smooth from her shower and glowing in the lamp light, feeling a strange feeling stirring in your stomach. “Same actress, so I will give you points for that.”

“I don’t know if I’ve seen that one actually,” you admit, peeling your eyes away from her legs.

“What?! Oh, it’s the best. We will have to watch it.”

“You know, I was fully expecting you to say that it is some newer romantic comedy or something. I’m pleasantly surprised,” you confess. “I like the old stuff, too.”

“It’s kind of all we had. My mother was a hopeless romantic. We watched old films constantly. In fact one summer we watched one every night. We never had cable, or even real internet, honestly. We just had our old VHS tapes and each other.”

You feel your heart twist in your chest at her admission, suddenly feeling like the life you live is more fortunate than you’d previously thought. You suddenly feel stupid about your internet comment just minutes ago. You decide to change the subject, noticing that she is feeling a bit uneasy.

“So you mentioned gardening,” you pause, “How did you get into that?”

She smiles and nods, “My mother. She taught me everything I know. It’s therapeutic for me now, reminds me of her. Plus everything tastes better when you grow it yourself.”

“Sounds amazing,” you answer, “Seems like a nice hobby to have.”

“Wasn’t always a hobby. Sometimes it’s all we had. Was more of a necessity.” she answers, and again you can feel her uneasiness. You nod in understanding and change the subject again as your heart grows heavy.

“Did you get your stuff all put away?” you ask, standing up from the couch. You grab your empty plates and walk over towards the kitchen, listening as you walk.

“I did! Well, most of it at least. I still have a little bit to do tomorrow but I can at least sleep in my bed tonight.”

“Shower has good water pressure, I was happy about that,” you say, placing the plates into the sink. You glance at the fridge, remembering the champagne waiting inside.

“Oh yeah, Ralph left us something,” you say, opening the door and pulling out the cold bottle. You pluck the note from the lid and hold it up for her to see. “Left us a note too.”

“Oh, he is so sweet,” she whines, resting her head on her fist.

“Would you like some champagne?” you ask, holding up the bottle.

“Absolutely I do. I don’t think I have any glasses though,” she says, her face falling a bit.

“Don’t need fancy glasses to drink champagne,” you smile, grabbing two coffee mugs from the cabinet, feeling thankful you put them away earlier. You pop the cork on the bottle, pouring the bubbly liquid into the mugs and grabbing the note.

You walk back over, handing her a mug and the note, taking a spot a little closer to her this time.

“Barcelona, huh…” she smiles, reading the words on her mug.

You sip from yours, feeling the bubbles slide down your throat, “Mhmm, that one is newer. Got that a month or two ago.” You spin your own mug, reading out the city. “S’ones from London. Super old.”

“You really are gone a lot, huh?”

“More than I’d like but I wouldn’t change it for the world,” you answer, watching her take a sip from her mug.

She sets it down on the coffee table, opening the small white envelope and unfolding the lined paper. Her brows crinkle together as she reads the first few words, her eyes then shooting up to yours looking tearful.

“Shit, Jake…”

God that sounded sinful.

“What’s it say?” you ask, pretending the blood wasn’t rushing straight to your dick.

She clears her throat and begins to read. “Y/N and Jake, I hope this letter finds you both well and celebrating your new home. I figured a bottle of champagne would be enjoyed by the two of you as you ended your first day unpacking. PS- I hope it’s cold.” she giggles, moving her hands further down the paper.

“I thought that I would share with you a few of the memories my family made in this home, and hopefully inspire you to create your own. Every holiday was spent here, family traveling from all over to get a taste of Gail’s Thanksgiving turkey, and her Christmas cake. It was chocolate and was my favorite thing in the world. We always put the tree in the front right corner of the living room, just so we could see the lights through the window from outside. The neighbors on this street go all out for Christmas, lights and decorations and everything. It truly is a sight to see. We only got one white Christmas here, but maybe you two will get lucky.” You see her eyes starting to tear up as she reads, and you feel the lump growing in your own throat.

“I should tell you to watch out for that back porch step, the drop off is a little further than you’d expect. My son Johnny learned that the hard way. Broke his arm in the middle of the summer one year. Had to rush him to the hospital. Never did find a good solution for it. When it gets really cold out you’ll need to throw a blanket over the flower bushes out front so they don’t freeze. I left a few of Gail’s recipes taped in the kitchen cabinet, just didn’t have the heart to remove them after all this time. If you ever feel like making one of them, be sure to call me, I’d love to join you.”

You watch her swipe away a tear from her eye, your hand instinctively reaching for her arm to comfort her. You lay your hand on her forearm, rubbing it just slightly before pulling it away, feeling the pull to put it back more strongly than you thought possible. “You want me to finish reading it?” you ask softly.

She sniffles a bit and brushes her damp hair over her shoulders trying to regain her composure. She takes a long drink from her champagne, clearing her throat again to speak. “No, I'm almost done.”

“I hope that you two will love this house as much as we did. It houses a lot of very cherished memories and I have no doubt that it will house yours too. I’m so glad this will be home to such a wonderful couple. If you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to call me, love Ralph.”

HER POV

Your hands are shaky as you fold up the letter, placing it gently on the coffee table. You can feel Jake’s eyes on you, and you know you have to get your emotions in check before he notices. You clear your throat and take a sip from your mug, letting the alcohol warm your bones. You never had that life, the family memories, the special holidays, none of it. You were lucky if your mom could afford a Happy Meal on Thanksgiving. You never faulted her for it, though. She worked hard, throwing every penny she had at bills and keeping the two of you fed. Poorly, but that didn’t matter much then. There were no extravagant Christmases or big family dinners, no special vacations or birthday parties. You never knew those things existed, not really anyway. Not until you left.

Your eyes flick over to meet him, his head thrown back on the top of the couch cushion as he looks at you. His cheeks are pink from the champagne, his thread-bare Led Zeppelin t-shirt barely holding on for life as it hangs loosely over his shoulders. His hair is long and wavy as it dries on his shoulders, the ends curling up a little from the natural humidity in the air. He seems relaxed, his legs stretched out across the length of the couch, and his feet crossed at the ankle. He seems perfectly content to sit here and listen to anything you have to say, willing to talk about anything, not just respond, and for some reason it scares you a bit.

You decide to change the subject, not wanting him to ask about your sudden change in demeanor. “What’s your family like?” you ask, rotating your hips a little on the cushion to face him more.

A slight smile pulls at his lips, his head nodding just slightly as he tries to figure out how to give you the condensed version of his life.

“Well, there’s Josh and I, my sister Veronica, and Sam is the youngest. My parents still live up in Michigan so I don’t get to see them as often as I would like to, but when we do all get together, it’s always a chaotic multi-day party. Lots of drinking and laughing and cooking… I try to go up for holidays when I can, but sometimes with our touring schedule that isn’t always possible. Sometimes we fly ‘em out though, to wherever we are in the world. Incredibly supportive, good people. Wouldn’t trade them for the world.”

“And your brothers do the band with you,” you pause, “Does that ever get…” you trail off, trying to find the word you’re looking for.

“If you’re asking if we fight, the answer is yes. Every single day,” he laughs, “We are all way too passionate about our opinions and refuse to back down. But I think that because we’re all family, we have no choice but to work it out, and things always end up ten times better in the end. That and we usually have Daniel to mediate.”

You nod as you listen, feeling completely taken by the way he speaks about the things he loves. You can hear the conviction in his voice, and you can tell that his relationship with his family means everything to him.

“I bet your parents are very proud,” you grin.

“I like to think they are, of course, my dad would never say it to me directly,” he teases. “We are close, just in very different ways.”

“And your mom?” you ask, letting your eyes meet his.

“Karen,” he smiles, shaking his head in thought, “She is…Just like Josh. The light in every room. Our biggest supporter.”

“Do you talk to her often?” you continue.

“I do. We text mostly. I’m not a big phone call kind of guy, but occasionally. We talk at least once every day or two.” he pauses, “What about you? You close with your parents?”

“Oh, it was just my mom and I, and yes we were very close.” you answer quickly.

“Does she live close by? Where did you grow up?” he asks, and you start to panic, not wanting to reveal that part of your life.

“Um, not too far from here, about two hours away.” you answer. He furrows his brow trying to place where it could have been, but comes up blank. “We just…had very different lives. My mom passed recently and my dad isn’t in my life. He wasn’t a good person.”

“Oh, I’m really sorry to hear that,” he says, his face growing long as he realizes you don’t really have much family.

“It’s alright. I manage.”

He seems to understand that you don’t want to talk about it, quickly nodding his head and attempting to change the subject. He lifts his finger and motions to your shirt with a smile. “I like your shirt. Love SRV.”

You look down at the old t-shirt, the image so faded you can hardly make it out yourself. “Oh, yeah, my mom loved him. She had a huge vintage collection. I kinda inherited it all.” you smile.

Your eyes flick over to the note on the table and another wave of guilt rushes through you. “I still feel really bad that we are lying to Ralph. That note was so sweet, and if he ever finds out the truth he will be crushed.” you whine.

“Hey, hey, don’t worry about it. It’s fine, I promise. It will all work out. He will never know.” he urges, his eyes pleading for you to trust him.

It’s quiet between the two of you for a minute or two, only the sound of the refrigerator running and the cars passing out front. Your eyes scan over the room, seeing a few more boxes that need to be unpacked tomorrow. They are all labeled ‘Living Room’, and you briefly wonder where in the world you are going to store all of it.

“Hey,” you say, turning to look at Jake. His eyes meet yours as you continue. “We might not have cable, but I do have Scrabble.”

A grin pulls across his lips as he tries to bite them together to conceal it. “I am too good at Scrabble. I would hate to beat you on our first game night. That’s impolite.”

“No one has beat me at Scrabble in ten years, Jake. Hate to burst your bubble.” you smile, getting up and digging around in the boxes for the game. “I’ve been the champ my whole life.”

“You may have met your match,” he laughs. He works quickly to clear the coffee table, tossing a couch pillow to the floor for you to sit on. Your hand meets the tattered red box, pulling it out and walking back to the coffee table.

He watches you settle across from him on the pillow, setting the box on the table with a thud. His hand starts to reach for the box, but you stop him.

“Oh, I’ll set up, the board is really old and kinda flimsy,” you say, reaching for the box.

He grabs your hand and gives you a playful smile, “I will set it up. I’ll be gentle. You refill our mugs.”

You raise your eyebrow at him, feeling a swirl of butterflies in your stomach at his demanding tone. You quickly stand and return to the kitchen, grabbing the bottle of Champagne from the fridge and filling the two mugs to the top.

“That should do it,” you giggle.

He smirks as he sees the practically overflowing mugs, “Yeah, I’d say so.”

You can hardly pull your eyes away from him as he leans over the table and sips from the top of the mug to empty it enough to pick it up. His lips are gentle as they press to the lip of the mug, his throat moving just slightly as he swallows down the bubbles. A heat blooms in your chest as you shake your head of the thoughts swirling around. You focus on the wooden tiles in front of you, positioning them on the stand to see what you’re working with. It’s not an amazing set, but you have a few solid options for your first play.

Jake does the same, and you watch as his fingers gently move the wooden tiles around to form words.. His touch is so gentle, that his movements hardly make a sound as the tiles are rearranged. You aren’t sure if it’s the alcohol or what, but you can hardly pull your eyes away from him.

“Ladies first,” he says, looking up at you now that he is happy with his tiles.

“You sure?” you tease, “Don’t want to make this too difficult for you.”

“Try me, sweetheart.” he smirks, nodding for you to start.

You bite back a smile as you place your letters on the board, spelling out the word ‘Vector’.

“Vector, hmm…” he hums, rearranging a few letters on his stand as fingers swipe over his lips. You swallow harshly as you imagine how that must feel.

“Alright,” he breathes, placing his letters to spell out ‘Hunter’.

You both draw your letters from the bag arranging them for your next play, as Jake fiddles with his phone. A few seconds later music starts to play softly from the speakers, just enough to fill the silence.

“This okay?” he asks.

“Of course.” you answer, just as your next words presents itself to you.

You place your letters on the board to spell out ‘Tenor’ and Jake nods.

“Hmm, maybe you will give me a run for my money,” he teases.

“I told you I wasn’t playing around.” you answer, watching him place his letters without a second thought. His letters spell out the word ‘Ovate’ and you’re positive he just made that up.

“That’s not a word!” you tease.

“Sure is. Means oval shaped.” he says, raising an eyebrow in challenge.

“Hmmm, okay.” you growl, placing your next word down.

“Aeon,” he grins, “Nice one.”

“Thanks,” you flaunt, shaking four letters out of the bag and into your hand.

He lays out the word ‘Young’, playing off of your letters and you feel yourself starting to get more competitive with every play. The two of you play back and forth for what seems like a hundred turns, Jake never faltering, and one upping every single one of your plays. He might actually beat you.

The words seem to be getting larger and larger and more complex with every turn, your body starting to ache from sitting on the floor crouched over the coffee table. Thankfully the alcohol in your system has you feeling a little more loose than usual. You decide to stretch out under the table, your legs resting dangerously close to his body. He looks down and notices but doesn’t say anything, instead playing his turn and spelling out the word ‘Nocturne’.

You silently look at your letters, trying to decide what word you can play off of his, when you feel a warm hand move to rest on the top of your ankle. You don’t dare look at Jake, knowing that if you do he might move it. Your heart starts to beat rapidly in your chest as you feel each one of his fingertips on your skin. Your insides feel like jell-o under the warmth of his hand, the small gentle gesture reducing your brain to mush.

With shaky breath you nervously look up at him as you place your letters on the board to spell out ‘Counters’. His hand doesn't move as he grins at you, silently commending you on your play. He taps your leg with his hand as he moves to play his word, using almost every single letter on his stand.

“Osculate?” you question, furrowing your brows. “That’s not a real word.”

He grins as he leans back onto the couch, his hand returning to rest on your leg. “It is, promise.”

You shake your head, “No, no way. I don’t believe you.”

“Look it up,” he nods, gesturing to your phone.

“No– What does it mean then? Use it in a sentence.” you urge.

He smiles and leans forward, repositioning himself to hover over the edge of the table. He grabs his phone and types in the word, seeming satisfied as he looks at the screen. He licks his lips before speaking, his eyes locked on yours.

“Well, it’s Latin for one, and it means lips,” he trails off. His voice lowers a bit and his tongue brushes his lips again, “Specifically the act of touching lips.”

You lean forward over the coffee table to look at his phone, needing to see it with your own eyes to believe it. Your face is only inches from his, and you can smell the Champagne on his breath and feel the warmth radiating from his skin.

You let your eyes meet his again, finally able to see the fleck of gold buried deep within the dark brown of his eyes. “I’ve never once heard that word,” you whisper.

He looks at you, letting his eyes flick down to your lips before moving back to your eyes. “Well I’m sure you’ve done it.” he smirks.

“Done what?” you ask, feeling the tension growing between the two of you. Your heart is hammering in your chest just from his proximity.

“Kiss,” he whispers, a devilish grin on his perfectly pink lips. His head moves slowly towards yours, tilting to the side before brushing his lips softly against yours. Chills fill your body as his lips meet yours, the taste of him shockingly present even if only for a moment. Your lips move against his instinctively, a soft whine sounding from you from the contact. Before you can even process what is happening he pulls away, your body already craving the feeling again.

“There, now we can be sure,” he grins, resettling himself against the back of the couch. It’s as if nothing ever happened as he plays his next turn, his hand returning to rest on your leg as your brain swirls with a thousand different thoughts.

You aren’t even sure what to say, or how to react to that. All you know is that you need him to do that again. You’re down to your last play, both of you teetering on the edge of a win and all it comes down to is this. With shaky hands you play the word ‘Twice’.

Jake tries his best to conceal his laugh, running his hand over his mouth as he lets out a knowing sigh.

“No way,” you breathe, “There’s no way,” you say, suddenly realizing that he knows he is about to win.

His eyes flick up to yours, half guilty and half victorious as he nods his head and bites his lips together. He places his final tiles to spell out ‘Wiz’ giving him the last fifteen points he needed to seal the deal.

You stare at him in shock, truly unable to recall the last time you lost at a game of Scrabble.

“You seem surprised,” he grins. “Told you I would win.”

“I–” you mutter, “I can’t believe it.”

“No one in my family will ever play me. Probably should have mentioned that.” he giggles, starting to clear the board.

You roll your eyes and shake your head, smiling at how beautiful his smile is. How pretty his laugh is. How alluring his eyes are in the dim living room light. You suddenly realize that it must be glaringly obvious how suddenly smitten you are with this man, feeling a rush of embarrassment overtake you.

“It’s fine, I need to go to bed anyway,” you mumble, pushing up from the coffee table. You’re unsteady on your feet, the champagne hitting you all at once. Jake quickly stands and catches you, steadying you before you topple over onto the floor.

“You okay, Y/N?” he asks, both of his hands resting on your arms. You can feel that warmth again, not only from his touch but also from his stare. The two of you look at each other for a few silent seconds, your eyes flicking down to his lips again, begging him to kiss you one more time.

You watch his Adam’s apple bob as he swallows heavily, taking a deep breath as he releases your arms. You nod and step backward, awkwardly looking around the room as you think of something to say.

“Thanks um– for playing with me,” you stammer.

“Of course, I will let you win next time.” he teases with a grin.

“Absolutely not. I want to win fair and square,” you laugh, grabbing your phone off of the coffee table.

“Fair enough. ‘M gonna lock up and put the pizza away, and I uh– I’ll see you in the morning, I guess?”

“Oh, I can do it,” you say, looking over towards the kitchen.

His arm reaches out and stops you, his touch soft and gentle, “I’ve got it.” he whispers.

You smile sheepishly and nod, “Okay…Um, goodnight Jake.”

He pinches his chin with his fingers as he smiles at the ground before looking back at you. “Goodnight, Y/N.”

You slip into your bedroom and close the door, your heart pounding in your chest as you can finally let your real emotions loose.

Holy shit.

You frantically change into your pajamas, swapping your t-shirt for a thin pointelle tank top with a tiny pink rose at the top. You pull on the tiny matching shorts and put your hair in a ponytail, staring at yourself in the mirror as your mind swirls with thoughts of Jake. You cannot believe you just kissed your roommate, on the first night no less. But he kissed you, right? And why did you like it?

You quietly open your bedroom door, walking across the dark hallway into the bathroom to brush your teeth, turning on the light and settling in front of the left sink you claimed as your own. You were thankful for the double vanity, giving each of you your own space in the small bathroom. You reach for your toothbrush and turn on the water, lifting the toothbrush to your teeth as Jake appears in the doorway.

You’re positive you felt your heart stop at the sight of him, standing there in just his low slung sweatpants, the Led Zeppelin t-shirt long gone. Your eyes focus on the stack of pendants hanging against his tanned chest, his hair no longer hanging freely around his face, but instead pulled back into a bun at his neck. You rip your eyes away from him, trying not to stare, but you can feel his eyes on you just the same.

You quickly realize you are in significantly less clothing than you were earlier, leaving very little to the imagination. You keep your eyes focused straight ahead as you watch yourself in the mirror. He steps up next to you at his sink, grabbing his own toothbrush and turning on the water. His hand reaches for his toothpaste sitting in the cup on the counter. His eyes meet yours as he squeezes the toothpaste onto his brush with a smirk. Your heart is beating rapidly as you brush your teeth, your eyes wandering to look at him through the mirror as he begins to brush. You catch each other's eyes a few times, a soft smile taking over your faces as you both brush for the full two minutes.

You lean over to spit, suddenly feeling nervous for him to watch you, but you do it anyway, secretly wondering if this would be a nightly occurrence. You hear a soft chuckle leave his lips as he watches you, finishing out his two minutes of brushing as you rinse with mouthwash. Feeling squeaky clean you lean against the counter with your arms folded across your chest, watching him just the same as he watched you. He feels no embarrassment spitting in front of you, making a scene as he gargles his mouth wash and flashes you his bright white smile.

He raises his eyebrows playfully as he takes in the sight of you one more time, letting out a deep breath before turning towards the door.

“Night,” he winks, slipping out of the bathroom and down the hall before you can respond.

You make your way back to your bedroom, noticing his bedroom door is still open. His sound machine is on, playing a constant stream of white noise as his room glows a deep red. You catch sight of him in his bed just briefly, slipping into your room and shutting the door as your heart pounds. You slide into your nice cold sheets and let your tired muscles relax into the mattress with a sigh. The mattress Jake was laying on just hours ago. Shit. Stop it Y/N. You cannot have a crush on your roommate.

Right?

JAKE POV

You settle your head against your pillows, letting out a sigh as the fan blows cold air onto you. You can hardly shake the image of her in that little sleep set from your mind, wanting nothing more than to reach out and feel its softness against your hands. Those two minutes in the bathroom felt like ten, controlling every single urge inside of you telling you to kiss her again.

You aren’t even sure what possessed you to do that. It wasn’t something you typically did, but for some reason, it felt right. She felt right. The two seconds your lips were on hers were the best two seconds you’ve had in months, and knowing she was sleeping just one door over was killing you.

You reach over to your nightstand for your phone, seeing a missed text from Sam.

Sam

10:12PM: What is your new roommates name again?

You

11:07PM: Y/N

Sam

11:09PM: Is she hot?

You decide to send him a photo of her, knowing you can’t admit to him that you do in fact think she is hot, because he will never let it go. You open her instagram and take a few screenshots, sending them over to him to let him decide for himself. Though you already knew what he would say.

Sam

11:15PM: Wait…I think I know her. I recognize her.

You feel your heart start to beat a little harder. Shit, how does he know her?

You

11:16PM: How?

Sam

11:17PM: Hold on, let me go look at her Instagram.

It feels like a year passes before he messages you again.

Sam

11:25PM: Oh shit! Yeah, she gave me a massage a few weeks ago. Danny recommended her to me. He sees her too.

You

11:26PM: What?

Sam

11:29PM: Yeah! She works magic. I wonder if she would remember me…Maybe I will make another appointment.

Goddamnit.

You

11:30PM: Watch it, Sam.

Sam

11:31PM: Yeah, yeah, I think I will. Gonna talk about you the whole time like I don’t know who she is…

You

11:32PM: Do it and see what happens, I’m warning you.

Sam

11:33PM: Oh relax Jake

You lock your phone and toss it to your nightstand, wishing you never even responded to him in the first place. How was it that she had her hands on both of them before ever touching you? It seemed wrong. The thought alone makes your skin crawl. You want her to touch you like that.

You suddenly feel a wave of guilt creeping over you that you kissed her tonight. Even though she kissed you back, and it was in the name of fun, you know you should have asked first. You should have never crossed that line. But god it felt so right.

You know you need to apologize in the morning. Apologize and make things right between you. Tell her you shouldn’t have, and that you respect her as a woman and as your roommate. Show her that she's safe here. That she’s safe with you. That she has nothing to worry about or be afraid of.

You will do that for her, pushing your mounting feelings to the side, even if it’s not what you really want. You don’t know exactly how long she’s been alone in this life, but you do know that she wouldn’t be anymore. You were going to make sure of it.

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Sonic Forces Mobile roundup: Tech Knight Silver teased, Surge the Tenrec leaked

Several character events have been teased and leaked alongside new patch notes for Sonic Forces: Speed Battle. Here's a quick run-through of them all.

Surge the Tenrec leaked

Take a look at the official SEGA HARDlight render of Surge the Tenrec, spotted within the game's files. Not much is known about her runner specifications and release window as of yet, but more is expected to be revealed later on.

Surge will join Whisper the Wolf and Tangle the Lemur as the one the latest IDW Sonic comic characters to appear in official games media.

Tech Knight Silver officially teased, Mummy Knuckles coming soon

SEGA HARDlight posted two teasers for the upcoming slates of character skins in Speed Battle: the "Tech Knight" skin for Silver the Hedgehog, and the "Mummy" Knuckles the Echidna skin.

All of the aforementioned runners were inadvertently teased by name in a spreadsheet leak from the game's developers in late June. Since then, a spokesperson acknowledged that the slate was "subject to change," but did not rule out the release of the mentioned characters, which all came to fruition as planned.

A spokesperson did not acknowledge the leaked renders of Surge and Tech Knight Silver as of press time, due to a policy that prohibits discussion of datamined content.

New in-game events

Speed Battle players can collect Special cards for Sonic the Werehog and Reaper Metal Sonic during the "Graveyard Smash" event. The mission rewards will alternate between each character in the event, scheduled between 24 to 31 October. The event's bonus box will contain 15 cards for each runner.

There is also a new "Brawl Mode" event to earn guaranteed cards for Sonic the Werehog and Reaper Metal Sonic. Scheduled between 24 October to 7 November, players will be placed into teams between the two runners.

To score points in this Team Vs Event you will need to hold the Brawl token, and carry the Brawl token over the finish line. Deal damage to rivals to steal the Brawl token from them, but if you get hit they'll take it back!

The winners of the event will receive 50 cards for their chosen runner, while the runners-up will receive 25 cards.

The new Halloween-themed events followed the launch event for the Classic Super Sonic runner, timed to coincide with the release of Sonic Superstars. Here's the specifications, in case you missed it:

Patch notes

Here's a brief look at the official update notes for version 4.22.0 of Speed Battle. Expect various bug fixes and Tails' Vault improvements.

Balance changes

Reduced damage on 'Sharp Shelter' for Boscage Maze Sonic,

Reduced radius on 'Brutal Barrier' to one lane for Linebacker Omega,

Removed invincibility from 'Twin Tail Boost' for Movie Tails.

Gameplay changes

Added a ray-beam effect on spawn of 'Cyclone Charge' for Longclaw,

Metal Sonic can no longer steal 'Steal'.

(h/t Sonic Mobile News, article contributed by Spectre, Syn, and Scarlett for the Tails' Channel newsfeed.)

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dizzyduck44 · 8 days ago

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Do we need to talk about driving standards?

I don’t really want to do this post because I’m about to slate drivers I like, but after today I think we need to discuss one of the issues that doesn’t seem to be being talked about. Driving standards and in particular certain drivers.

(I’m going to try really hard to keep this on track and not have it bleed into the FIA regs rant that is coming).

Today we saw a full race quali and a full race in a day, at times in horrendous and dangerous weather. Some people rose and some I now question WTF are you even doing?

In a race that claims a DNS, a crash on the formation lap, a start procedure infringement that has never happened before, a DSQ and a top 3 that all benefited from a red flag (more on that later) , plus we have no idea if and when the race classification will be finalised as out of 15 finishers, half have to go and see the stewards after the race, maybe we have to accept something went very very wrong here.

Let’s be clear I was the first one to say on Saturday that we need to remember we have 3 rookies and Lance Stroll on the grid and to ask them to run in that weather was asking for trouble and unfair. I really wish I’d be able to style that out as a joke, but after what we have seen today, I can’t.

Let’s get into it. There were 5 red flags in Qualifying as Colapinto, Stroll, Sainz, Albon and then Alonso all high fived the wall at speed. Dooming poor mechanics at the end of triple header, who had already been at the track since 4.30 to massive rebuild jobs.

Was it too dangerous to run? Well Lando in the McLaren (that would later prove to be as much use in rain as a paper boat in a gale force wind) kept improving, so I guess there was something in the track. George and the two RBs found something as well. Car or confidence, your decide.

So on the way to the grid Yuki gets fined TWICE for speeding in the pit lane. On a good day that would be a talking point, today not even mentioned.

We roll round to the race start. Alex’s car can’t be fixed. I struggle to understand why Williams gave up a P7 starting position but that’s another post. Off we go and 3 corners in, Lance is in the gravel 😒 Your mechanics have killed themselves to get you on the starting grid and you can’t even make it to the start? No words.

I’m not gonna lie as soon as I saw Lance stuck I assumed we were going for a second formation lap. I’m old enough to remember abandoned starts were different to aborted starts. When the lights changed Lando and George didn’t hesitate to go for the second lap. I know this is unusual but do we not clarify this with drivers regularly? Well obviously not as some cars moved and others stayed still. What are they talking about in driver meetings?

So we finally get the race under way and people are sort of holding it together. We have a couple of bumps, a few off road adventures and a spin or two but generally all within the realms of a wet race.

Until, Nico Hulkenberg gets stuck. Now Nico is an experienced driver. 200+ races. Now me, sat in a chair at home, knows that if a Marshall touches your car off the circuit you are out of the race. Why then when he saw 4 Marshall’s push him back on did he continue? And then line up in the pit lane at the red flag as if nothing had happened? It begs belief.

Then Colapinto. My heart broke for the Williams mechanics, to see the one car they had already fixed back in pieces. Ultimately in that weather you don’t push your luck on fresh tyres. I assume this is something you learn in karting. However that lack of judgement ultimately decided the race as the red flag gave the three podium sitters a free pitstop under a red flag.

To crown it all off we restarted the race in the most questionable conditions of the day and almost immediately Lando told us they couldn’t really see the car in front (if you are going to get that close to George’s rear end, take him on a date first!). Ollie Bearman showed us (a number of times) drivers were struggling to see the track. The camera couldn’t even see cars. Well it’s ok, cos we about to get a safety car, as yet again Carlos decides to visit the wall. Oh and has to go and see the stewards about driving dangerously!

Now at this point three of the drivers that caused red flags in quali have now caused issues in the race be it flags, safety cars or an aborted start. Three of the same 5. Let that sink in. Had it been 3 different drivers we could forget it, but three in both sessions? WTF were they doing? I’m shocked, annoyed and amused in equal measures. How? Twenty best drivers in the world so we are told.

And Oscar’s name got mentioned way too many times for comfort over this weekend. Spinning, off the track, causing a collision.

Don’t get me wrong we saw some awesome driving today. Max and Esteban in particular stand out, brilliant if lucky. Lando’s over take on George, and Liam defending Checo were what we like to see in the bravery department. Lewis decided to be himself for 10 laps and it was awesome. Finally a special word for Fernando. Clearly in pain but out of respect for the mechanics who had worked so hard to get two cars back on the grid for the race, determined to finish the race.

However it’s difficult to forget that we saw some questionable stuff today. Can it all be blamed on the conditions? Well I always argue that if you want to be an F1 Champion you have to be able to drive in all conditions. I think from now on I will be side eyeing a few drivers in that respect. Which is really hard as I like a lot of the drivers who I have mentioned in this post.

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desertrose244 · 28 days ago

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Hii!!

I was wondering if you could share some of your favorite fics? I've been in a drought and was just curious 🦅

RAH YES I CAN THIS IS MY FAVOURITE QUESTION TO GET!

I wasn't sure if you wanted fandom specific ones so here's just a collection of some of my all time favourites. These aren't one's that I've linked on this blog before, just because I already have given those appreciation posts and I have SO MANY FICS and authors that I love. Anyways, all of these are /reader - and most have mature tags, so just be mindful : )

BG3:

[Ongoing!] Hellish Rebuke by @bludazey is an Ascended!Astarion fic that answers the open ended state we left Tav and Astarion in. It's dark and filled with drama in such an addicting way I am literallly almost falling off my chair waiting to see what happens in it! Everyone within it is characterised well and the lore put into our MC makes choices a much more 3 dimensional thing as they are not a blank slate like the ingame Tav! [Complete!] Aleatory by @avas-poltergeist is a prequel fic for a durge run centering Astarion x Durge and it's a fic that knows the tone it should take and executes it perfectly. I especially love how it doesn't hold your hand through it's narrative and doesn't treat it's reader as if they are stupid. Some actions, feelings and thoughts are almost done as if they are environmental storytelling and I am a SUCKER for it. Also I just adore the durge being a halfling- they are characterised perfectly. Transformers:

[Complete!] Gravity by @shinyportalsandthings - ohhh my god I dont even what to say. This fic is a Starscream fic and wheeew boi it can be hard to make the gremlin a compelling romance but this fic blows it out the park. The dialogue is witty and natural- I adore the scale of it because it's not a "let's end the millions of years long war" it's just a "let's go be happy" - UGHHH It's just so fun, redeemed Starscream I love you. ((More reccomendations for Transformers are on my metal dune, found here!)) Misc:

(Doom (2016)): [Complete] Rip And Tear (Into My Ass) by Goremungunder is one of two inspirations for my entire writing style. It's a Doomslayer insert fic and it's just perfect in every way. Such an enjoyable read and an excellent fic for a x reader tag that doesn't get much attention. I think about this fic at least once a month and have read through it like 5 times pls give it some love its amazing.

(League of Legends) [Complete - I believe- but set to ongoing] Dream a Little Dream by OrangeCrushCrushCrush is just hilarious and at the end of each chapter even features some art made by the author! All of their work is enjoyable to read, even without knowledge on the world or a pre-existing like for the character. I mean, the second half of this fic is centered around Yorick Mori- a character in League I had literally NEVER touched- but then I read this and mained top lane for like 4 months after.

I think I could actually go on forever, but I'll stop here for now. Thank you for the question Star! I really love getting to go through my bookmarks and deciding what I want to reread XD

#fic reccomendations #deserts asks #self insert #astarion x reader #starscream x reader #lol x reader #doom slayer x reader

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mothwingwritings · 7 months ago

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Dreaming Of World's End

Reader X Zenos Yae Galvus

Waaah it has been so long!!! I apologize for the absence! I have been working on and doing all kinds of stuff (fics included) as of late so I did one of my classic dip outs there for a moment, but I’m here! Just plunking away as usual. :)

With Dawntrail coming up I have been focusing a big chunk of my free time on trying to beat Endwalker (I am slow in all things, video games included lul) because I wanna be there with the herd with Dawntrail comes out!!! I have no idea if I am gonna make it, but I am doing the best I can to catch up!!!

That being said: Zenos brainrot propelled this fic from my brain, to my computer, to you. Was I and am I also writing a bunch of other things? Yes. Is this the only thing I could momentarily focus on writing-wise because I have been compromised by my love for this fucked up man? Also yes. I’m sorry. It’s bad. I was already obsessed with him in Stormblood and now that I am deep within the clutches of the Endwalker msq… It’s over for me guys. It was a good run, but rip to me. My WOL may be playing hard to get, but I’m sure not. Zenos if you are reading this, you can just have me.

So without further ado, here is a Zenos fic I have been working on! My love for him aside, I think Zenos is a super fun character to write for, so I really hope I did him some justice! This is a reader insert fic, but you are the Warrior of Light in it so feel free to insert your OC’s and WOL if you like! I tried to keep the reader neutral, but I will say it’s def aimed more at a female reader/character and if you are a shorter race like a Lala it will probs be a little wonky, so my apologies. Also, I am about half way? A little over half way? through the Endwalker main story, so potential spoilers up to that point. This fic takes place sometime between post Shadowbringers and the first part of Endwalker.

Nothing overly explicit, but due to the nature of this fic it is 18+ please!

Thank you so much for reading!!! <3 I truly hope you enjoyed!

WARNINGS: Unhealthy relationship (if you can even call it a relationship), intense infatuation, implied noncon, noncon mentions, a lot of fighting and mentions of fighting, mentions of death and the end of the world, unwanted touching, Endwalker spoilers.

It was always the same dream.

Amaurot. The end times. Death, destruction, chaos. Streets tainted by endless misery, stifling woe permeating the air as people ran about frantically, picked off left and right by horrendous, nightmarish monsters. Screams pierced the air as the remaining survivors struggled in vain, desperate to escape a fate that they could not avoid.

Just as any other night, he would watch it all unfold with cold indifference. Walking through the crumbling, fire charred lanes of this shell of a once bustling city, he would take it all in at a leisurely pace, maintaining a stride no more rushed than if he were taking a pleasant stroll. His features would be void of distress or malaise, his face a blank slate as he paraded down roads lined with bodies and devastation.

Zenos could say it was because he had grown accustomed to it, have the same dream each night and the grisly scenario that laid in wait past your closed eyes was bound to no longer shock you. But that would be a lie, as this ghastly nightmare had never truthfully bothered him to begin with. He simply didn’t care, not about the dying planet, nor its inhabitants that suffered the same fate. This scene from another time, this moment from a faraway place that no longer existed, he couldn’t bring himself to feel any form of remorse for the phantoms left to wallow helplessly in this endless, hellish loop, even if his own star was on track to share the same fate.

An echo of the past was just that, to dwell on it was a fool’s errand.

But tonight, it was not the end of times that greeted him when he closed his eyes. In its place stood an immaculate hall appearing to belong to some manner of grandiose castle. Pristine and orderly, he sat upon a large throne questionably positioned in the middle of the walkway, facing so that a vast expanse of the hall was clearly within his view.

Had he been here before? It was hard to say, having been trapped by palace walls most of his life they all blurred together after a certain point. Perhaps this wasn’t even a castle, but some manner of fortress. The varying weapons displayed neatly along the surrounding walls certainly made it feel as if this was more than just a mere abode for royalty to live out their boringly opulent lives, perhaps it doubled as an armory of sorts? Every sword, spear, and battle axe looked immaculately cared for; their blades so sharp simply looking at them made you feel as if you had been sliced.

His time to dwell upon the mystery of his surroundings was quick to dissipate however, as he felt a familiar presence approach him from behind. He remained still when a delicate hand was placed upon him, crawling from his arm to slide unhurriedly across his broad shoulders. The caress occupied the entirety of his thoughts, manicured nails scratching lightly against his flesh as they raked across his back, pressing just hard enough that they left a pleasant burn in their wake.

“There you are,” a deceptively alluring voice purred in his ear. Phantom arms draped themselves loosely over his shoulders, their fingers moving to trace a swirling pattern upon his chest. Goosebumps littered his arms at the brief contact. “Were you hiding from me?”

A small smile spread across his lips. What elation merely hearing your voice caused.

Were he not already aware of it, he would recognize he was in a dream from this interaction alone. You, only you, would be welcomed to touch him this way. But even were he to offer invitation, you would never do so of your own free will. There was a mixture of pride and revulsion that kept your interactions with him void of skinship, save for the fleeting contact that occurred when you were locked in combat.

His motivations, the way he chose to experience the world, your differing values and opinions. Like night and day, they barred you from reciprocating his feelings towards you. Because of this, he was left to revel in your touch exclusively in the realm of dreams.

“On the contrary,” he hummed, “you have been the one to keep me waiting.”

A low chuckle reverberated from your chest, sending a shiver down his spine. You rose to your full height, pulling away slowly until you disconnected from him completely. Even if the contact was nothing more than an attempt at provocation, he missed your touch the moment you detached yourself.

“Well then I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me, my lord,” you enunciated his title tauntingly, the playful lilt in your voice exciting him further. He heard you take several languid steps away from him before you spoke once more. “That is, if you even have a heart that can offer forgiveness.”

Zenos rose to his feet, turning to finally face you. Your back greeted him as you stared up at the myriad of weaponry covering the back wall, the hand that was moments ago atop his chest now gracefully running across the hilt of a long sword. Your fingers lingered on the handle, moving as if you were going to grip it, but never completing the task.

Zenos smiled. You were toying with him.

“You jest,” he spoke, taking a measured step your way, “if anyone has intimate knowledge of the existence of my heart and whom it beats for, it is you.”

Your posture stiffened in acknowledgment of the insinuation, yet you refused to turn his way.

“Is that so,” your voice seemed distant, as if you were unwilling to accept the burden of the intense desire he held for you, “Forgive me, I must have misread the situation. Due to the nature of how our meetings always end, I figured you only ever wanted one thing from me, and that is my blood.”

A low chuckle rumbled from within him, his eyes crinkling in amusement. For all that you were, all the skills and knowledge that you held, you could certainly be dense.

“I desire all you have to offer,” he answered plainly, “Your fury and malice, your rage and rancor, your disdain and desire,” he continued to approach you, each step slow and deliberate as he closed in on your staunch form. “Your love and affection are no different. I want to consume your every thought, just as you consume mine. I want you to taste me in the air you breathe and feel me crawling under your skin, even when I am far removed from your presence.”

He stopped several steps away from you, keeping his distance but lingering close enough that it bordered on intrusive. He raised his hand calmly, reaching out to grab a stray lock of your hair between his fingers. He gingerly caressed the silky strands, smirking when he noted that even such slight contact caused a shudder to lurch your otherwise statuesque form.

“You can play the fool all you want, but you cannot hide the fact that the same beast that dwells in me is also within you. They call out, craving each other to the point of madness. We need each other. This dance we share must continue in perpetuity, lest our fierce yearning for each other’s presence turn us to savages incapable of rational thought, driven to the point of committing mass, undiscriminating destruction as a means to appease ourselves.”

He smirked, placing a gentle kiss atop the tendrils in his hand, before letting it slip from his grasp completely. “And you would do anything to divert that misfortune, would you not hero?”

Your shoulders began to quiver, shaken by the threat of violence he could and would commit simply to be by your side. An impatient sigh escaped his lips, “So come, what better way is there to quench each other’s thirst and prevent calamity than through a mutually beneficial rendezvous? Surely even someone as set in their way as you are is in agreeance.”

“I was under the assumption that you planned on battling me until the world was torn asunder, regardless of if I entertain your perversions or not,” Your voice dripped with disdain as you spat your response at him, “If that is the case, pray tell why I should not cut you down where you stand? Why must the dance continue if the outcome is all the same?”

Your words made the smile on his face grow, stretching his lips to an unnatural degree. Taking another step forward, he leaned in until his mouth grazing the shell of your ear. Placing his hands firmly atop your shoulders, he gave a tight squeeze as he responded.

“Because we share one destiny,” he pressed his cheek flush against your head, inhaling deeply before releasing it in a slow, shaky sigh, “even now as you try so hard to deny me, our fate is intertwined, my warrior. You cannot escape me, and I have no desire to escape you. The dismantling of this world as a result of our conquest is all but inevitable and I welcome it with open arms.”

“I won’t let the world crumble to ash.” Your bold declaration was spoken as if it were fact, the conviction in your voice sending a surge of wanton excitement coursing through his veins. “Say and do as you like, the future you seek will never come to pass.”

Oh, how he adored you.

“Hmm,” he hummed, “You can try and stop me, but you cannot escape what has been predestined.”

During the course of the conversation, your hand had had traveled to the base of an axe, your fingers wrapping around it to grasp the handle in a constricting hold. All of the anger that had been bubbling up reflected in the whites of your knuckles, the tremor of your hand becoming more apparent as your composure slipped further and further. The cool demeanor you initially donned had completely shifted, overridden by the immense agitation his presence was inviting.

The axe was ripped swiftly from the wall, lacking fluidity. There was no care for keeping the wall in tact or making sure all the other weapons that surrounded it stayed in their spot. You ripped it down with one great tug, bits of stone and surrounding armaments clattering noisily into a massive steel heap on the ground as you finally spun around to face him. Zenos had seconds to react as you swung down in a wide arc, the finely sharpened blade slicing easily through the decorative tiling that coated the floor, decimating the ground where he once stood.

“There we are,” Zenos growled in anticipation, sizing you up with a bloodthirsty grin, “you are a vision to behold when you let your ferocity consume you.”

You deigned to answer him, your icy countenance his only response as you straightened your posture, considering your next move. Your distaste for him was clear as you hefted your axe from the ground, dust settling around you as it was freed with a mighty yank. Weapon in hand, you came for him in a relentless torrent, striking at him in a flurry of breakneck swings. In the ensuing madness, he grabbed the nearest weapon he could reach-a sword that was more ornate that functional, but it would serve its purpose for the time being.

The enmity increased as he reciprocated your attacks. Parrying each blow with a steady hand, he responded to your blows with calculated strikes of his own, expertly countering your aggression. The air around the two of you had become electric, charged with hostility and fervor as you hacked away at each other time and time again.

Though frantic, the assault was far from inelegant. Each swing of your axe and swipe of his blade was an orchestrated maneuver befitting the couple who performed them. It was as beautiful as it was fierce, a true force of nature. To an untrained eye the activity would appear as nothing more than a blur of chaos, annihilating all that was in its wake. But to Zenos, a man who had dedicated himself to your study, it was a sight that made his heart ache.

He was witnessing a glorious preamble, a promise forged in battle between himself and his righteous and powerful hero, the only person with whom he ever felt a true connection. This battle, amongst all of its other perks, gave him purpose.

Fighting you, he felt alive. To be the sole receiver of all your ire, your discontent, your undivided attention… it was like a dream. He realized this encounter was most likely just that, a conjuring of your presence from his sleep addled mind, a side effect of his constant ruminations of you. You already occupied each of his waking thoughts, it only made sense that having you visit in his dreams would soon follow.

Be that as it may, the knowledge that this moment lived solely in his mind did little to dissuade his desire to get lost in it, to get lost in you. If he couldn’t have you in the waking world, his dreams would have to suffice, at least for the time being. Besides, there were things he could accomplish in his dreams that would never be plausible elsewhere, moments of intimacy he could forge that would never present a chance of happening in reality.

A particularly rough blow sent Zenos reeling. The sword knocked from his hand scattered just out of reach, his body lurching to an abrupt stop as he collided with rubble that had piled up behind him. A quick glance your way revealed a small smirk ghosting your lips, a hint of satisfaction shining through your hostility. He could see the assurance reflected in your eyes, a swell of pride over the victory you would soon be relishing.

Zenos mirrored your glee, pleased you were having as much fun as he was.

As you hoisted your axe high, thoroughly preoccupied with your pending achievement, Zenos took the moment to strike. Launching himself from the ground, he rammed his body against yours, hitting you hard and fast. The speed at which he closed the gap astounded you as much as the collision had, causing the axe to topple from your hands, skittering out of your reach. A pained grunt escaped your lips as you collided with the ground, Zenos following suit atop you. His hand cradled the back of your head as you fell, catching hold before it could crack against the stony floor. It would do no good to have you suffer injury and pass out now, not as things were about to get truly interesting.

Positioning himself atop your fallen form, his body caged you in as you lay beneath him, panting and exhausted. Splayed amongst the rubble, your confusion morphed into a look of annoyance as you realized your situation had drastically changed. Your success had been stolen from you and now the thief had you cornered, trapped right where he wanted.

“I wish you could see yourself as I see you in this moment,” Zenos spoke between his own labored breaths, pressing into you ever further as his face hovered inches from your own, “Disheveled and feral, transformed by your bloodlust, you have never been more breathtaking.”

“I’m not like you,” you retorted sharply, “I don’t revel in such acts of savagery.”

Zenos chuckled, “And yet you seemed quite delighted moments ago when you were convinced victory was within your grasp.” You frowned as his hand found purchase on your chin, gripping it in a tight pinch to keep your focus fixed his way, “But here you are now, bested and at my mercy.”

You grimaced, “I have yet to lose to you. I refuse to concede defeat.”

In response to your bold declaration, he gave a throaty, booming laugh. How was it that you always knew just what to say to drive him absolutely mad with desire?

Unable to contain himself any longer, Zenos smashed his lips to yours, capturing you in a heated and hungry kiss. Your brain took a moment to comprehend the abrupt action, but as it did you began to struggle against it, thrashing and clawing at him in an effort to create distance. Zenos remained firm, making it clear that you had expended far more energy than he had, leaving your assault lacking the power needed to stop him. Whines of displeasure snaked from your mouth as his grip tightened on your chin, squeezing so roughly you couldn’t help but gasp in pain. Eagerly seizing the opportunity, he muscled his tongue inside of you, lapping at the inside of your mouth aggressively. He groaned as he savored the taste of you.

When a need for air arose, he pulled back slightly, staring down at you with lidded eyes. Your saliva coated his lips, giving a glossy sheen as they curled into an offputtingly tranquil smile. His hand moved from your chin to drag languidly across your cheek, the brief touch of his rough finger tips sending a shiver down your spine. Your gaze wavered the longer you stayed trapped in this awkward position, your eyes brimming with uncertainty. You seemed unsure of where to look, what to do, how to escape. In his wishful thinking, Zenos wondered if perhaps you were even unsure if you truly wanted to escape.

Amongst your numerous charms, Zenos found your enigmatic personality to be one of your most appealing. Being such a virtuous being, your motivations, ambition, and drive were all easy enough to sort out. You are Hydaelyn’s chosen, the Warrior of Light, the people’s champion, and you live up to those titles and more. You are a hero through and through, a source of salvation for those you protect and a complete nightmare for those that offer opposition. There is no doubt that you are a force to be reckoned with, no matter what the encounter or situation may be.

And what good hero is without a nemesis? It’s a role the disgraced Prince and betrayer of his kin plays well. In his illustrious life he had gone through the motions, donned many hats, played countless roles, many of which were not of his choosing. But of all his grand titles, your adversary is most certainly his favorite, the only one that gives him any sense of pride. Your existence gave him purpose, and for you alone he kept up the hunt.

But he knew it was different for you. Though cut of the same cloth and driven by destiny to engage him, your feelings did not completely align with his own. You were driven by more than barbarity, more than a duty to save your people and your planet. There was something inside of you, something that made you YOU, that he could never truly know, no matter how desperately he wanted to.

You were his greatest conundrum, a true mystery, and when you look at him as you were now with those eyes that swirled with anger, uncertainty, grief, and something yet unspoken… What was he to do but become a slave to this maddening, consuming attraction?

He gloated about being the victor, but it was clear you would always have the upper hand.

“Get off of me.”

The demand brought him back to the present, sheer determination replacing the conflicting emotions that fought for dominance within you. He could tell by the bite in your voice that your vigor was returning, and given a bit more time and provocation, the battle would gloriously resume.

“Eagar to carry on with our dance, are you?” He responded, an almost teasing lilt to his voice, “Or is it that you just can’t stand the thought of defeat at my hands?

“I already told you, you didn’t defeat me,” you glowered, your rage becoming palpable the longer his unwanted presence loomed, “I came here to end this farce and I plan to do just that.”

A beat of silence passed, followed by a sigh. Parting your lips to speak, your voice came out quieter, more desperate than it had previously.

“I wanted to keep this is civil as possible and respect your wishes as best I could, no matter how twisted they may be. But even for your own benefit, you refuse to entertain the notion of making this situation even the slightest bit amicable. You speak of such lofty things as fate and destiny, but all I am witnessing is you causing unnecessary suffering, hiding behind my name to do so.”

For a split second, another flash of uncertainty danced across your features. You bit your bottom lip in vexation, a glimmer lighting your eyes as they swept across his handsome face, “There is more to this world, more to this life, than waiting for its untimely end. To live out your days perpetuating death and blind havoc is no way to exist, it’s a tragedy. Why can’t you see that? Zenos, I-“

As if taken by surprise, you cut your own words short, silencing the previous thought that had been brewing. Zenos felt as if you looked pained, staring at him with pleading eyes, face scrunched up in frustration. Even with all the hate you carried for him, you were still trying to understand him, still clinging to the hope that maybe you could save him too.

Here, on the cusp of annihilation, you were doing all you could to fulfill the role of hero and protect the people that you loved. In order to fulfill that duty, it meant he must be defeated. There could be no other ending, the inexorable conclusion to all of this was always cold and endless death. Whether it would be all of humanities or just his own was still to be determined, but it did little to change the fact that there was no future to plan for, only a violently rapturous and melancholic end.

To be cherished by you, to feel your love as if he were one of your dearest companions… It was a thought not meant to be dwelled on, but one he found hard to completely shake from his head. How would it feel to be earnestly and unequivocally loved by you? Perhaps in another world, another time, your souls would be reborn and given another chance. A fresh beginning to grow together, an opportunity to nurture something more than the misfortune this world had thrust upon you. Maybe in some alternate telling of this tale the two of you were together and happy, with nothing but a bright future awaiting you on the horizon.

But that was simply a foolish daydream. All that he had, all he could hope for, was the here and now.

You sighed again, steeling your resolve with a shake of your head, “Never mind. You have already proven to me mere words cannot move you, so I will save my breath.”

Raising your torso as much as his hold on you would allow, your eyes bore into his, fully accepting the challenge that lay ahead. Though still restrained, there was an aura of dominance that surrounded you. It was a warning to Zenos that your binds were temporary, whether he released you willingly or otherwise was his decision, but regardless the outcome would be the same.

“If it’s the end you want, it’s the end I will bring you,” your soft words clashed with the look of malice reflected in your eyes, your breath fanning his face as your noses nearly touched. For an instant your eyes darted to his lips, and Zenos wondered if it would be you to instigate the kiss this time.

“I will fulfill my role. I will be your end and your salvation.”

Your words pierced him, the proclamation sending sparks of excitement to course through him, igniting his soul. His whole body burned for you, intense and consuming, his need for you was beginning to show itself in ways beyond his control. Pressing his hips flush between your spread legs, he made his intentions known to you, a shiver wracking his body when you released a small gasp of surprise.

Clutching the remaining shreds of his sanity, he grunted as you writhed against his growing arousal, pulling your body up towards him until he had engulfed you in a tight embrace.

“Enough time has been wasted,” he snarled into your neck, his chest rumbling as his grip on you tightened, “let us deliver a ruin unto ourselves so extraordinary, so beautiful, that naught will remain but the scattered fragments of this forsaken world.”

Loosening his grip, he pressed his lips to your forehead in a chaste, yet gentle, kiss. Your brow furrowed at his touch, shoulders tensing as you drew yourself back from him, recoiling at the small display of adoration. He found the reaction endearing, even with his intentions laid bare and and his hardened cock pressed firmly against your core, it was the smallest token of his affection that caused you to squirm.

Repugnance, hatred, scorn- whatever you felt for him in this moment, none of it mattered, none of it deterred him. He loved you, and he would make that love known in the only way he knew how, while he still had time to do so.

“This shall be my final gift to you,” he purred into your ear, his grip latching securely to your tunic. With nimble hands he started to pull, exposing yourself to him bit by bit as the fabric turned to tatters in his hands. “Let us relish it my friend, my warrior, my beloved. Destroy me, and I shall be your devastation in kind. ”

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Basement Lovers

Warnings 18+ for the following:- Dubious Consent, Spooky Halloween Vibes, Mention of A Loved One’s Death, Implied Witchcraft, Implied Murder / Human Sacrifice, Loss of Virginity, Oral (Female receiving), Fingering, P in V Sex, Multiple Orgasms. Seriously do not read if any of this upsets you, the warnings are there for a reason. Feedback is welcomed and any mistakes are my own.

By proceeding you are acknowledging that you are over 18 and are consenting to the content below the cut.

Author’s Note 1:- Flowing from my muse as part of this spooky season, it seemed by the time I was finished this fic lent itself to a totally unspecified male character so I simply went with it. Hope anyone that reads it envisions their own character and likes the result. A special thank you also has to go to the fabulous @caplanbuckybarnes whose Titles For Caplan Writing Challenge makes a very welcome appearance here too.

Author’s Note 2:- Flashback scenes in color.

Synopsis:- Coming across a strange body in the basement of an old abandoned mansion you quickly discover that not all myths belong to the past.

Pairings:- Unspecified Male Character x Female Reader

Total Word Count:- 4,052

Leaving home and setting out on your walk as you normally did, the autumn evening and the cooling breeze welcomed you always like a well known lover and eased away the tensions the daily grind of that work and life had left behind. And the children running to and fro in all the various costumes of the Halloween season only added to the magic. A magic you yourself would soon come to experience.

Smiling and waving at the passing parents who acknowledged your presence with the same cordial greeting before taking a left turn off the main road and heading towards the older part of the neighborhood, a whisper on the breeze caught your attention and sent an eerie feeling creeping down your spine, but as usual looking around you, you saw nothing and simply shrugged it off as part of the holiday atmosphere before heading off on your walk once more. Except you didn't get very far and there was definitely something to see after all.

Standing outside the old McHenry house now on Blackthorn Lane, the eerie feeling seemed stronger here but it was nothing compared to the compulsion that now moved you up the driveway towards the entrance. A path no one in living memory had ever walked before. Placing one foot in front of the other now, while looking around curiously as the very air seemed to shimmer and sway all around you, your hand coming up to rest upon the doorknob fully expected to find the thing locked. But that was not the case however.

Turning at your touch and opening now of its own volition, you turned your head back towards the road, fully intending to walk away from this unnatural occurrence, but it seemed the house had different plans. Calling out to you in a way no other place ever had, your curiosity now overpowered every sense of self preservation that had been drilled into you by those that had gone before you and so stepping inside you really should have been freaked out when the door slammed shut behind you, but your attention was focused elsewhere.

Gazing around the foyer now at an inside that looked far better maintained than the grounds outside, the beauty and grandeur once present here was still evident for all to see ... even beneath the layer of dust coating everything like a protective lover. Hell, even on closer inspection, you could see that the years hadn't really claimed this place at all. Walking now from room to room as a feeling you couldn't explain compelled you forwards, the windows were all still somehow intact and the floorboards showed not one sign of wear or decay. It was remarkable actually. What would have proved even more remarkable you imagined, had you ventured upwards, would be the fact that the roof overhead was still as pristine as the day the first slate had been placed upon it, but fate it seemed was calling you in a totally different direction.

Having made your way throughout the ground floor and right back to where you had started, a door now visible on the wall beneath the double staircase that definitely wasn't there before completely held your attention in a way that should have told any sane person to get the hell out of there. But then it was the failure of that very instinct earlier that already led you here and found you now opening this door too to see what lay inside. Which would end up being a most terrible mistake.

Walking forward now and ignoring this door closing too as if in a trance, the stone steps appearing before you didn't seem to register the danger you were in. For the house seemed to have you now. Continuing downwards now, one foot at a time, your eyes widened in both shock and surprise as the scene before you tapped into an old memory your grandmother had shared with you as a child and confirmed all that you now saw before you. The legend was true.

Seated in the middle of this basement type room on a throne cast in the most elaborate of materials, the man chained to its armrests however had to be none other than the last known occupant of this opulent manor. And the last known sorcerer from centuries ago if the stories were to be believed. Reaching back through your memory now to the week before your grandmother had died, the girl you were then recalled in vivid detail the tale she had spun that you had simply chalked up to an old woman's fanciful imagination. But that it seemed was no longer the case.

Speaking in hushed tones then that only came about with age, the woman you loved so dearly had painted a picture of a vibrant town that prospered far beyond the other towns and times around it until one day the truth of its success was finally laid bare and the decline which reaches all at last took hold there too.

Explaining how the story went of a neighborhood seamstress stumbling upon some strange ritual taking place within the bowels of McHenry Manor, your grandmother continued to explain that a group of skilled local women supposedly versed in the arts of witchcraft entered the Manor after hearing her report, performed some type of ritual of their own and were never heard from again as the Manor's grounds somehow sealed themselves shut to all who tried to enter.

At least, that was the official version.

Watching your grandmother's eyes light up now as so many kids did when they knew something no one else did, your grandmother beckoned you closer now so she could impart to you one last secret it seemed before time finally claimed her. What she had never told you before, what no one in your life or surrounding neighborhood had ever told you before it seemed, was that the mansion was far older than you had ever known and it was an ancestor of yours that had not only been one of the women responsible for its current condition, she was also the only one to walk free from that cursed place.

A place you had now entered.

Coming back to the present now and looking back on the story in a different light, you still couldn't understand what all this meant and what it had to do with you. But it seemed there were still mysteries here to unravel. Walking around the room now while blatantly ignoring the figure obviously trapped in its center, your hands coming in contact with an invisible barrier as you reached out to pick up something off a nearby table told you there was definitely more to your grandmother's story than just the creative ramblings of an old woman. For one, not a speck of dust lingered here as it did in the rooms above you.

Trying various other spots now along the table, cabinets and bookshelves still as pristinely preserved as every other part of this odd building, the invisible barrier still halting your progress might have triggered your frustration if a burst of inspiration didn't suddenly occur to you however ... the man on the throne? Was it possible somehow that he could be the one thing in this whole room that you could actually touch?

Holding onto this thought now while silencing every other thought and instinct that screamed at you not to follow through with your idiotic intentions, your feet brought you closer and closer to the center of the room and the vision now waiting there. For there was no other way to describe him.

Not one for putting much stock in looks if you were honest and wholly unskilled in the art of dating, sex and all that came with it, you would of course have to be both blind and stupid not to admit that the man now seated before you, untouched by time, was nothing short of stunning. Tall in life, if his seated posture was any indication, his dark hair, striking cheekbones and all round muscular frame offered a rare insight into the man he must have been in life and the presence he no doubt commanded in every room he must have entered. But what of him now?

Walking in a circle around the throne now while taking in the chains that ran from his wrist to the chair he occupied in death as he had in life, your mind still couldn't comprehend that this was the same man. How could it be? The story had seemed weird and fanciful enough when your grandmother had shared it with you. And now, here you stood before someone supposedly far, far older than you and yet ... he could so easily be someone with whom you could see yourself sharing a life.

Which probably explained why your hand now rested against his cheek as your fingers caressed the startlingly soft skin beneath them. But perhaps the most startling thing of all was the result this action brought forth as the stranger's eyes now opened and locked with yours as if trying to reach out and connect with your very soul. And perhaps that might have happened if his actions that followed didn't pull you from your musings.

"Witch, I can smell your magic," the stranger croaked out suddenly before continuing, "dormant as the ashes of ancient times, but no matter. Wherever the spark is present, I still have the power to reach out and harness it." Rising from his throne then as the chains still held him to it, your mind screamed at you again to run, but your legs didn't seem to want to cooperate to that extent. Taking one step back instead for every one he took towards you, the snapping of the iron as they reached their maximum length seemed to be just the catalyst you needed to fire you into action. However, your handsome stranger it seemed had other ideas.

Murmuring words you had never heard before, words in fact no other human had now heard in centuries, the barrier that previously kept you from his possessions now somehow extended to keep you from the door, but it wasn't this occurrence that frightened you at this moment. No, instead it was the niggling force working its way throughout your body that somehow now caused you to not only turn around and face your captor, but take you right back towards him.

Screaming at yourself now to fight whatever was happening, though no words were ever heard, your legs finally halting your movements just within his reach told you somehow that this was his doing. And that was even before the man spoke again. "Ah yes," he still croaked as his slender fingers now came up to caress your cheek in the very same manner yours had done to him earlier, "I can see her in you. Your ancestor. Can feel her in you too," he continued with a smirk and if nothing else had scared you thus far then this action definitely did.

Evil in a way you couldn't describe, the smirk, coupled with those same fingers roaming over any part of your immobile body his reach could now access, it was his next words that wormed their way into your heart and froze it solid. "She was with child. Did you know that?" he asked as he still caressed your skin before revealing the final details of the story your dear departed grandmother was never privy to. Standing her ground and refusing his advances and promises as each of her sisters fell before him, your ancestor it seemed had given the last of her power to bind him forever to this place, but not before he had cast one last spell himself. A terrifying one he now took pride in revealing to you.

Reaching for her stomach as her own hands closed around his wrists and forged the chains that kept him rooted to this spot, his words invoked an ancient and powerful curse that in turn bound him to her bloodline. Promised in time would come a child, ignorant in the ways of magic, but destined to be his forever by the mark that sealed her fate. A mark he now revealed to you as his hand formed a fist below your throat and tore your top clean in half. There above your belly button now, as it had been your whole life, his fingers tracing the crescent moon birthmark brought you back to yourself and the shocking implications of all that he had just revealed.

You were meant to be his. But how was such a thing even possible?

No one in your family that you knew of possessed any magical ability and the birthmark he so reverently spoke of had never so much as raised an eyebrow among anyone that had seen it. Surely if such a curse had been laid upon your ancestor someone in the family would have known about it. Been watching and waiting for it. Surely to simply ignore it would have been the height of foolishness. After all, if your ancestor was as powerful as this man and your grandmother had seemingly believed surely she would have left a warning for those that came after her that such a grave threat hung over every one of her female descendants.

Unless! What was it he had said about her giving the last of her power to bind him to this place? Could it be she had thought that no longer having magic would save her descendants from whatever he had done? The laugh you let escape your lips at this little insight now told both you and the stranger how foolish that miscalculation had proven to be however, for it seemed the stranger had won, your ancestor had lost and you would be expected to pay the ultimate price. But what was that price exactly?

Raising your head to look at the stranger now, though his fingers never left your mark, your voice caught in your throat at your first attempt at speaking, but a quick cough soon found his full focus back on your face as you now began to question exactly what lay ahead. And his answer made you wonder if the curse itself hadn't invisibly dictated aspects of your life you had never even considered. For it seemed your lack of experience could be laid at his feet.

Explaining now that you had the power to free him, while he had the power to awaken gifts you never even knew you possessed, it seemed a kiss was the key to this whole thing ... your first kiss. Bound through spells older than the oldest of gods, you giving yourself to him, body and soul, would complete the ritual and meld your souls together in a way that made both of you stronger than the parts that time had currently separated. But you had to agree. A choice your ancestor had refused time and time again it seemed, leaving you now having to choose to walk your own path like her or embrace the one she had unknowingly thrust upon you. Which didn't seem like much of a choice really given that you couldn't seem to leave this place.

Grasping onto this particular thought now and shocking the stranger as you turned around and walked away from him, your hand reaching out for the door once more and still finding it blocked from the same invisible barrier you suspected still held you here, you now returned to the stranger and asked the only question that truly seemed to matter. "If I refuse to help free you this barrier will keep me trapped here forever, right?" and the smirking nod he sent your way was the only confirmation you needed that your life as you knew it was well and truly forfeit. Which now left only one course of action available to you.

Moving forward now and placing your lips against his, what had started out as something weird and clumsy soon changed to something completely different however as the man before you took control and deepened the kiss into something you knew you could never have initiated on your own. Biting your lips gently before his tongue sought entry and began to twirl itself with yours, his hands now pulling your body flush against his made you suddenly aware of everything your young life had so far been missing out on. And it seemed this revelation only made you yearn for more.

Twenty-four years old now and already past the age that most of your friends had begun to experiment with all the hidden activities their bodies had been designed to experience, it seemed your earlier conclusion had been correct ... the spell invoked all those centuries ago had somehow suppressed your natural urges if the sounds emanating from your body now were any indication. Panting, moaning, whimpering and sighing as his kisses grew harsher and your bodies now began to grind against each other, you were about to push him away in a much needed attempt to suck some oxygen into your over exerted lungs when his weight suddenly pushing you down to the floor brought a whole different thought bubbling to your mind ... the chains that held him were no more.

Free to ravage you now in whatever depraved manner his years of captivity saw fit, it still seemed that he alone was in full control of the situation unfolding all around you as the concrete floor below you and his weight above you didn't quite seem to crush you in the manner you would have expected. But that still didn't bring you the relief it should have, for now there was nothing between you and the man that meant to claim you. And that's exactly what he set about doing.

Removing your clothes as he did his own, his lips, tongue and teeth now began the same manipulation of your body as they had with your mouth and the experience was one you knew you would never be able to recreate on your own or with any other. Sucking here. Licking there. Biting, pulling and squeezing with just the right amount of pressure to make you question whether the experience was pleasurable or painful, the moisture leaking now from between your legs left no doubt at least as to how your body felt. It was coming alive in a way it never had before.

Reaching out towards his own body now as you tried to find something to ground you while his skillful ministrations continued to pull you apart, his hips now grinding against your intimate area brought what he had planned into stark focus however and you suddenly found the strength to push him from you at least enough that you could now see the face of the man who was determined to make you his own. But were you ready for that? It seemed you would either have to get ready pretty fast or convince him of your fears and doubts however if the rod now glistening beneath his legs was any indication. For it seemed he was well on his way to getting things started. But it also seemed he wasn't totally ignorant of what the intricacies of the spell had entailed however, as his eyes now followed yours to his dangling member and the implications its growing size meant for you.

"Don't worry darling, I'm well versed in using this tool and preparing all equipment properly. It may hurt slightly at first," he cautioned as his fingers now rested against your cheek in a gesture meant to reassure, "but I promise the pleasure and power on offer will soon obliterate all memory of any discomfort our coupling creates," he continued and this time as his lips connected with your nether region instead of your mouth all concerns your mind had previously conjured seemed to disappear as it now tried desperately to keep your lungs working while also trying to find the words to express the feelings assaulting every nerve in your body from the sensations working their way from his mouth to your flower. But it seemed you couldn't really describe what was happening.

Holding down your hips with one hand as his tongue and teeth manipulated a particularly sensitive spot between your legs, you could now only pant out shallow breaths while murmuring the word yes over and over and over again as first one finger and then another entered your private field and connected with parts of you you never knew existed or were even capable of creating the reaction this man was now pulling from you. But you knew you never wanted him to stop.

Reaching towards his head now and locking it in place with your hands and thighs, he somehow took your participation as consent and doubling his efforts, the scream that ripped forth from your throat at the same time your body spasmed and liquid gushed from your garden into his waiting mouth told you that this must be what a full body orgasm felt like ... and you didn't think you could survive another. But it seemed your companion couldn't give a rat's ass what you thought.

Continuing to stimulate your flower as wave after wave of orgasmic bliss radiated through you from head to toe, you were too far gone it seemed to notice his manhood replace his mouth, but not too far gone apparently to remember the words his lips had spoken earlier as he thrust it home in one fluid motion and a scream tore your soul apart when a white hot pain traveled along every nerve ending you possessed and threatened to rip all conscious thought from you, leaving nothing behind but an empty husk dedicated now to nothing but his pleasure. But it seemed that was a mild exaggeration.

Remaining still within you and shushing your pain with soothing words that sounded vaguely like those one lover might speak to another, your bodies remained connected as one until suddenly the fullness within you became more than both of you seemed able to handle and your hips began to nudge his own all by themselves. Taking this as a sign now that you wanted more of what he had to offer, your shallow breaths and whimpered sobs soon gave way to slapping skin and ancient words as the man above you ratcheted his member in and out of your pussy while a magical glow spread forth from your birthmark and ignited a fire within far more penetrating than the one that triggered your meltdown when his erection had torn through your maidenhead.

Continuing to pound into you now over and over and over again as one orgasm ended and another one began, his words eventually died on the air at the same time his balls and cock tightened like a coil before releasing burst after burst of warm cum against your now well used walls. Swearing and groaning out above you now as those same walls clamped down hard around his shaft and milked him dry of every bit of his essence he had to give, his body now collapsing atop yours was indication enough that the man was spent. But you however still seemed to have some wits about you. Rolling him off of you onto his side now, though he still somehow managed to remain inside you and as a result brought you with him, you would have asked him what the future now held, but something told you the answer to that was pretty obvious.

Gazing at him now as the haze which held him earlier had somehow slipped away as a result of what both of you had just shared, the feeling between your legs, the memory of what both of you had just done and the sparks now lighting up your fingertips told you one thing loud and clear ... you were not your ancestor. Giving into your desires and the knowledge that had been kept from you your whole life, you had chosen your own path and for better or worse you would walk it now beside this man for however long forever lasted.

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