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cassandralexxx · 9 months ago

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Actually no I am so pressed like it is actually absurd the number of times I have had to say “well English is my first language” while up here these past few years. to a point it’s like kind of insulting like people seem to ignore all of my background and greater details about myself and focus in on half of my ethnicity.

#mylife #Kind of a continuation of earlier #Honestly it may be in part bc I look more Hispanic now?#Like my hair is darker than when I was younger and I have curly hair now (ty immunosuppressants 🤩)#Like my sister has always had a bit darker features and she had to tell one of her teachers in hs that English was her first language 🤷‍♀️#I think another reason may be the way I talk? I used to use far more formal vocabulary #So maybe now that verbiage is different I come across as “uneducated” (which is so stupid and problematic)#But honestly I think geography is the biggest thing back home I was white and here I’m “not”#One of my friends was soooooo shocked that my dad was white like he’s “so white” in comparison to like me and my mom and it’s like idk #Not me being pressed about something from like 12 hours ago 😋#But it’s like why is it I have spent almost all my life so normal and I come here and within the last 3 years I’ve had to #Literally point out that English is my first language bc of like stereotypical/insulting assumptions multiple times #Like I hate that it’s my friends that have done it. Like yes old white men at the hospital on 3 occasions have clocked me as not white #Which is whatever but like the whole ‘there’s gotta be something mixed in with you’ from elderly sick pol doesn’t feel nearly as bad as-#-my peers and friends with their directness and implications

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ruvviks · 2 months ago

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PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC.

Vincent spends all his life searching for himself, searching for his spot in the world. He lives in the past and what will never be, longing for everything he has missed out on and everything he will never have. It is not until he learns he is dying that he comes to realize he has to live in the present, to enjoy life as it comes.; and despite his confusion, fear, and his regrets, he tries to live the rest of his life to the fullest, knowing very well he is living on borrowed time. OC WEB WEAVE SERIES: VINCENT "V" MAYER.

charles bukowski, pulp // by wiissa0 // loneliness for love; lovelytheband // louise glück, from 'unpainted door' // by biryuza // summer farah, i could die today and live again // tobia photographed by su yang // wake up; run river north // ruhlare // by julykings // lemonade; twin xl // ryan walker photographed by ryan pfluger // mary oliver, from 'marengo' // still not dead; dreamers // by lovelyopalite // by geloy concepcion // lemon drop; raynes // chris abani, ritual is journey // 'die milchstrasse', cover detail // louise glück, averno // i like cars; caroline kole // by cruellesummer // frances molina, o’death

#cp2077 #edit:vincent #nuclearocs #nuclearedits #oc web weaves #this one is long sorry. i have a lot to say about vincent #lots of fun to make though i really wanted to add in colors that fit him and stay true to his whimsy while also like #correctly portraying the heartbreak in his story. like in the end he survives so it's all ok!! but he wasn't Supposed to survive #in earlier drafts of his canon i had him die after those six months like the game says because it felt fitting for his arc at the time #but also it made me sad because he deserves the world so i changed it and for the better too because that opened up #options for me to continue the story which is how we got king of fools and all that :]#anyway this weave kind of goes full circle in a way but rather than vincent ending up still searching for himself #he has found peace with the not knowing aspect and instead he just wants to find happiness in it all. he doesn't want to be alone #he wants to spend his life with the people he loves the most and he wants to get the most out of it as possible before it's too late!!!

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 1 year ago

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obligatory rock murder mention

#i think someone said earlier that they had kind of a lot of mind control stories 'back in those days'#dont remember where #but now im trying to think if we have a lot of them in new who #and if theres something to that in terms of like societal preoccupations #but i guess im just gonna have to...........continue my classic who watch for that and make notes #what do we have in new who? satan comes to mind #midnight but i feel like thats..........a very particular kind it's not like the hypnosis thing you see here #or with the master #or i think sarah jane in the hand of fear?#maybe its JUST because they had the master around who kept hypnotising people tbh like that seems possible #the unquiet dead but thats ghosts more than mind control #i feel like we've got more bodies being taken over than minds in new who?#like the gas mask thing. midnight like i said. 42 with martha and 10?#love and monsters. idiots lantern. the vashta nerada. that guy who got turned into an ood. the masters thing in end of time #11 and the flesh. the god complex perhaps could be mind control? but feels different to me too #but i also havent watched really a lot of classic who so i dont know the vibe of their supposedly frequent mind control #town called mercy. asylum of the daleks. crimson horror. journey to the centre of the tardis? cybermen #it all feels more about the hijacking of the body than the mind or will or whatever #would be intersting to actually look into #if i continue my classic who watch #biggest mind control in new who might have been those mummy monks in pyramid/lie of the land?

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loderlied · 18 days ago

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honestly maybe considering making oleander ven and niles just original fiction characters? or finding a mind closet to shove them into while i find different settings for them…

#like. what good does it do when i’m only petrified of posting about those characters in relation to those games #because i know most people in that very small fandom don’t like me very much.#and they have a right to feel that way i was especially insufferable in my bg3 focus era but i always kind of am.#and i am not mad with anyone for disliking me as a result #and again. i don’t want sympathy or ‘oh no that’s not true’ you don’t have to lie to me i know i was/am it’s a fact #i’m just trying to explain my thought process behind this but don’t want to like. victimise myself or anything #i fucked up i most likely will continue to fuck up in different and/or similar ways in social situations i am trying my best but sometimes #that’s just not enough. sometimes my best makes people uncomfortable and i just need to acknowledge and learn from that #while keeping my distance.#like. i think the pathfinder game spaces are small enough where that’s probably something i should do y’know #for bg3 i certainly like mentioned earlier fucked up plenty as well but that fandom is massive #so it feels. different. y’know #even if i did already decide to revamp that stuff/zeke purely into original work but just because i thought it fit the character/plot better #anyways. i think if i can’t write about those characters in that setting for whatever reason then maybe it’d be best if i did that #romeo’s wretched rambles

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sysig · 17 days ago

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What you’d least like to hear (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #ZEX #DAX #I actually made this much earlier in the year - I wanna say in June?? But held off on it #I'd review my notes but hrmnh - best I can guess is I planned to digitize it and that didn't pan out before the end of the year #It also looks like it might've been around the same time as my ISaT fic - very much in the same emotional vein #I really love DAX <3 He's so wonderfully prideful and sure of himself and Very Certain that he and ZEX are a forever kind of deal hehe #Even if that means getting regularly knife-twisted about his feelings he's still willing and wanting to be by his side and support him #He loves him! He wants to be useful to him and has deeply-held confidence that he is needed by him #Irreplaceable - ZEX's DAX #Which of course means that being told By his Admiral that he was Wrong and Foolish to ever think as much #Where's he supposed to go from there #I saw something similar in a post recently actually - maybe just waiting for the time to finally be right haha #''I forged myself into a weapon specifically for you and now I have no other purpose to serve'' ough #Living for someone else to its extreme conclusion #I was rereading DAX and Dr. Vargas(es)'s scene recently as well - ''Do you have any dreams of your own?'' hghh #It's not quite of the Skelebros or the Vargases but whatever DAX has towards ZEX is definitely Something ''Who am I without you''#Another part of what makes We Do What Is Necessary so sad! One without the other is always sad but DAX without ZEX...#I really do want to continue the fic I have from his/Dexter's POV as well - what Would he be like without his main focus!#Somewhere he never thought he'd be - everything ZEX after a point haha #The fun of the institute is the opportunity to explore such owies right in the forefront - so many forms of emotional and physical torture #What would make ZEX say something like this! Or would Whoever-it-is just happen to share his current body's face hmm #Never quite sure who anyone is with changing bodies around here #Not that Max would say it like this either haha but who's to say it would have to be Max hmm #Considerations many

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shewhoeatssand · 25 days ago

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it’s that time again, time to put Kaneki in the mailbox

#kaneki time #friday btw. what should we do #IM DRAIWNG RIZE ON KANEKIDAY INSGESD OF F KANWKEJ EM😔#I will come back for you soon my love….#I want to write him love letters but idk how to write #I don’t know how I’d frame it and tbh I don’t even want to write the letters I just wanna decorate them and the envelope #make crazy pen pal packages for him #but again idk how to talk to pen pals and since he can’t really respond it’s hard to continue conversations #or regularly ask about something he mentioned starting (poor boy can’t mention or start 😔)#if I got better at Japanese (here we fucking go again. I haven’t studied Japanese all holidays and I’ve had weeks and weeks off.)#I think it would be better if I got up earlier but I find it hard to sleep unless I stay up late #Japanese is probably a really good morning activity #but I’m never up in the morning 💔💔#I wish Kaneki was real so he could pinch me until I wake up at 9 #I don’t know if he’d be able to get up at 9 unless he was interrupted but. knowing him he’s always getting interrupted #I doubt he’d miss me enough in the morning to do that even if I asked #he’s a kind person maybe he will #Haise banged on pots for Saiko #I don’t think I’d be as good a friend for him as Saiko

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seaofreverie · 4 months ago

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Anyway how is everyone doing

#had to get up at 6 in the morning and therefore had 4 hours of sleep today (a weekly occurence pretty much)#so i just took a nap which took all evening and i'm still tired yayyyyy. because naps only work how they should about 10% of the time #and also i did nothing else today because sleep and now i'm truly wondering what to do with myself anymore #meanwhile i have to get up and go to school again tomorrow 😑 and the day after that 😑 and the day after that 😑#or i could drop out again and have nothing else to do anyway and continue rotting in my room #(whether it's my dorm room or my actual room doesn't matter). what's the pointtttttt #might be reaching some kind of limit or maybe i'm truly just dramatising and should just chill about it all #save me 4 hours of music listening now probably. idk man #got my minimal amount of social interaction today in the form of riding the elevator with 3 of the ppl from my course #when i could have (and normally would have) just taken the stairs instead #i feel like i made a big important step today that will help me later on through this year (no not really)#at least one thing i've noticed recently is that i might have the reverse of what is i guess is usually called seasonal depression #in the sense that now that it's chilly and cloudy and it gets dark earlier i feel like i'm finally LIVING in a way #the good effect of that will probably pass after a week or two though #but also just a bit over a month left now until my birthday and then my long awaited trip!!#anyone else get unreasonably excited for their birthday each year even though there's never anything special about it in the end #and that only makes the day more depressing lol #ok whatever i'm done whining now i think. music time then #celebrating (a bit late) one year of gratsax and lil beethoven today. some of the albums of all time for me personally #goosepost

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icewindandboringhorror · 10 months ago

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Various images of things

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1. PIBBINS.... cheering clapping hooting hollering glorious applause everytime I see a pigeon in public #2. Birthday card that I drew for someone. .. kittys...#3. 2023's annual haul of tiny white pumpkins.. i get at least one white pumpkin every year around fall when they have pumpkins in stores #because I just love the color and texture ... bright white and smooth and cold and round.. kind of like a volleyball or something #4. A brief adventure into watching big brother (only earlier seasons of course as I hate all reality shows post like 2013 or something when #they became overly focused on social media and overproduced memeable phrases more.. like even though ALL reality shows have always #been extremely fake and annoying and mindless it's like..... newer stuff seems A Different Kind Of Fake or something) since whenever #I'm sick sometimes I find weird mindless things like that to watch (that one time I had bronchitis I watched all of Flavor of Love in my #half awake illness stupor and now everytime I heat up canned minestrone soup (mostly all I ate that week) I think of flavor flav since #thats just a weird brain connection I have now lol) ANYWAY.. I was sick and watched like 2 seasons of this and then thought it was too #uninteresting and obnoxious to continue (more like 1 and a half since I skipped the rest of one once only boring people were left) BUT this #one guy had a very mischevious looking face and he also said a few things (like the above captioned speech) that sounded like dialogue #some fantasy character would say.. so I took a screencap of him and edited him into a mischevious wizard i guess.?? idk I was sick lol #~your little friend has a poisoned tongue~ is just a very unexpectedly serious sounding wording for some random normal #frat dude looking guy to say while casually chatting on a reality tv show in like 2008 or whenever that was filmed lol #5. FLUFFY CLOVERS!! I'd never seen them be furry and soft before?? inchresting..#6. Noodle sitting in bed with the cat figurines looming above him... the council of kittys...#7. McDonald's full breakfast platter + asparagus + strawberries & cream (also of course this is old and I am now boycotting mcdonalds etc)#i try to group the images somewhat consistently like.. winter stuff with winter stuff or summer stuff with summer stuff #but I have so many random pictrues floating around on my computer that I never post that sometimes some are not organized or just #thrown into a set because there's nowhere else for them. Like the pigeon picture is from like 3 years ago for example lol #8 & 9 - I think I've posted these before but I just find them very interesting looking flowers. whenever they happen to be blooming #I'll pick up a few when I'm out on walks or etc. ... poof ball looking things #photo diary

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schrijverr · 3 months ago

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the way it's killing me to not come onto this blog and gush about all the AUAUs im writing, because then I'd be giving spoilers, but ahhhlksdhgfdkhgldfhl, you all, they're so fun!!!! I wanna gnaw on something!!!!! Like please, let me out of this hell of my own making so I can share all my shit!!!!!

#rrposts #like i completely acknowledge that i would not have this problem if i just posted everything right now #but then how would i torture anyone?#its not fun if i cant torture you all #so alas it must all be kept a secret for now #(omg am i buck in season one of this au? call that method writing lmao)#anyways yall are going to have a blast with these i think #i know i am #one of them is so fucking stupid and i love that #we need silly stories #but also why are some of these bitches getting angsty on me?#like colloquially known as AUAU 11 why did you do that to me?#im dying to go back and add more AUAUs to the earlier chapters #bc i kind of gained steam with these later on and i have gotten more ideas #like chapter 9 inviting them all the the birthday party or calling Eddie in the truck on the way back from the crash anyway #or chapter 13 with someone questioning his personal emergencies or chris getting dropped off #like those would all be so fun #rn im writing an oceans 9-1-1 AUAU which is very silly (hopefully)#then we'll see #might write those call back AUAUs before continuing on #bc they have been gnawing at my brainnnn

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wttcsms · 1 year ago

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i love enemies to lovers but we’re unlocking a new dynamic that is enemies AND lovers

#the ghost fic i mentioned earlier is kind of a prequel fic to one of the wips i had #the ‘i know there’s a blade where your heart is’ fic #this draft is even more fun for me to explore just bc i was watching a silly show w my younger brother #we’re binging the entirety of total drama #and i luv my mean girl heather #and even though she really has feelings for this one character #and he returns those feelings!!!#and even tho he throws away a million dollars for her #she just continuously stabs him in the back in pursuit of her own goals #and so i really wanted to write that dynamic #and obvi reader will be somewhat softer n kinder in the pt 2 #i think this original fic is so so fun bc i get to write from a perspective of someone who NEEDS to survive #who has to actively always choose their own survival over relying on someone else #and it’s not necessarily a good thing but i get to write why u think that’s the ONLY option for you #and exploring ghost’s reaction to ur constant betrayals is fun as well #just mixing things up a little bit hehe

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roadyblr · 3 months ago

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OKAY, 1 IVE NEVER SEEN THOSE PICTURES THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH FOR YOUR SERVICES AHWPASJQOIWS

(me bc I only blush at pictures of idols. no actually)

IVE NEVER SEEN MY MAN SO BEAUTIFUL BEFOREEE!! HE LOOKS SO MAJESTICC

(I'm so happy I just started a cat pin board on Pinterest. waiting for it to say yechan when I start on my cat saving spree)

im so sad about the watermarks:((( what are those even for???

luv ya!! <333

GLAD TO BE OF SERVICE i had to share with someone and you gave me the perfect opportunity

yechan is very cat coded the venn diagram is a circle on that one ("little guy syndrom™" i whisper)

a lot of fansites do that for credit purposes! unless you mean the boxes in which case thats usually there before they get cleaned up and posted (take this with a grain of salt im using context clues idk how fansites work)

#roadyblr blorb #nah fr caught myself smiling at a beomgyu video earlier #touched grass #im also hoping this fansite is like a good one #and i mean that in a moral sense because a few of them have been going behind security at airports and im like ick thats wrong #if i ever got side eyed by an idol the earth would swallow me up idk how some can do that kind of stuff and continue on like nothing happen #rambling mb thats how i be today

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gotham-daydreams · 1 year ago

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Y'all get ur paper tissues and keep em W you at all times. I don't think ıts gonna end good for us,,

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Though it depends if some of y'all don't take certain confrontations very well, and a whole "you messed me up" type of admissions that have a pathetic/shity excuse given. As well as just uncomfortable situations in general.

Oh! And crying, but not like- the sobbing kind. The kind of crying that makes you feels stupid for crying in the first place. That kind of stuff! :D

#talking daydreams #i'm very excited to continue to write part 3 and see how that goes #kind of like i said in one of the earlier asks-#it's kind of heart wrenching but that depends on who you are

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quibbs126 · 2 years ago

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Maybe it’s just me and my fascination with body horror, but I feel like Cookie Run could get a lot of mileage out of it. Considering you know, they’re Cookies

Show us some messed up looking Cookies that are either products of horrific experiments or some sort of disease that horribly disfigures Cookies until they crumble

#note that when I say fascination I mean like I’m intrigued by it #I haven’t actually seen a lot of it since I have a weak stomach for horror specifically gore and stuff #I like body horror that doesn’t involve gore or intestines or all that stuff #but like I want to see it #this was sort of inspired by the Undertale thing I mentioned earlier #and White Lily being Alphys and thus makes some sort of Cookie Amalgamation #now I want to see White Lily have horrific experiments in her efforts to help Cookies #I recognize that she probably wouldn’t have them she doesn’t seem like the kind of person to continue #if her experiments cause body horror to other Cookies #nor would she experiment on living Cookies without knowing what it’d do #I suppose unless they were like on their deathbed and it was her trying to save them #but regardless I want body horror in Cookie Run #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #cookie run ovenbreak #random stuff #body horror

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honorhearted · 1 year ago

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Try + John André?

SEND TRY + A CHARACTER YOU’D LIKE TO SEE ME ( ATTEMPT ) TO WRITE ! / @meerawrites + anonymous + @pagetreader

He could still remember the very first time he saw her: shiny, coquettish eyes, a revoltingly expensive gown, and hair piled high with jewels and strings of pearls -- pearls that now tightened around his heart akin to a vice of his own folly, reminding him of what a damned fool he'd been.

While André sought affirmation and prestige, he learned too little too late that the titles, the accolades, and even the respect were all nothing without Peggy. He was nothing. Such a revelation would have once bothered him, but what were all the trappings in the world, should the true jewel of his heart no longer have a place?

Sullen, he clasped a glass of sherry between his fingertips, holding it loosely while his guest stood behind him with impatience.

"Sir?"

"Yes, I heard you," he grumbled. "Were my earlier instructions not clear? By the good Lord above, it truly is remarkable that some of you can even lace your own damnable boots." Slamming his drink onto the table at his side, he turned and straightened, his eyes flashing like two fiery coals. "You've already had contact from Rogers, have you not? Finish the job. Or need I go out and perform that task for you, as well?"

When the man bowed his head, stiff and reproachful, André turned back towards the roaring fireplace, scowling down into the dancing flames with visible scorn. Nearly all of his problems began and ended with that infernal man, so with any small scrap of mercy, the issue would soon be over and done with...

#meerawrites #pagetreader #Anonymous #try a character meme #//wow everyone was thirsty for some andre lmao #this was kind of hard since i'm getting tired/worn out #but i basically decided to make it the guy who rogers k.illed in my earlier ask #so dun dun dunnn continuity! lol

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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which character in Yakuza do you think has the best development?

everyone gonna say im biased but genuinely daigo has my favorite character development throughout the series

#snap chats #he's the only one with any real notable character growth tbh if i may be so daring to say #aside from kashiwagi too tbh. i also really love his change but bro's here for like three games so 💀#i think its just that his is more abundant #he goes from a punk to being a responsible man and i love it every time i acknowledge it #like yeah he fumbles around a bit but we see him figure things out and sort himself out and it's really great to watch #it feels satisfying almost- even if he ultimately has to end the thing he fought so hard for in the name of kiryu #tho daigo willing to end it opposed to be obstinate and continue to fight against it is pretty big for his character #idk i just dont think people give daigo's character the credit it deserves #like hes not loud or overly flashy he's very much in the background but i guess thats why i love him #like his changes dont come with a kind of fanfare or obvious Aha moment on screen- its just something you notice over time #well maybe except in Y2 where we DO get that pivotal This Is His Changing Point moment #but after that we just see him grow and try to get comfortable in his new position as chairman #sorry i have Daigo Lover disease. its terminal i was watching a clip of him earlier and felt my heart grow three sizes

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the-kipsabian · 1 year ago

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i cant promise more hanahaki today (unlikely until like sunday tbh) but i can say i'll try my best to start writing when i get back from the store

#i am an insecure lil fool but so far everyone has been so nice and saying such kind things despite all the niches and such ;;#its really doing what i was hoping it would with me posting it earlier than intended and that is to motivate me to continue with it #so. to anyone thats read and said something nice about the hanahaki so far. thank you. seriously 💜#it makes such a huge difference to a smol writer to hear someone likes what they do and take the time to say it 💜💜#night is an absolute mess on main

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