#Just could not focus while making it lol

[emiett]

I'll be at SPX tomorrow! Come say hi at table 84A!

I'll have zines, prints, notepads, stickers, and copies of my graphic novel, Skeleanor the Decomposer!

I'm also debuting a very stupid Locked Tomb fan comic

[tangents-within-tangents]

Thinking about the song "Ship in Port" by Radical Face and clones

Thinking about the line "Farewell to the chains we were born into" and what that can mean for the clones

Thinking about how "But I have always stayed in place/Under that old illusion that it's safe" could equally describe Hunter, Echo, and (s1+2) Crosshair's complete opposite approaches to the Empire and post-war life.

The way Crosshair clings to his identity as a soldier of the Empire

And Echo as a soldier of the Republic

But Hunter puts his identity as a soldier behind him

Crosshair fights for the Empire to gain purpose

Echo fights against the Empire to save his brothers

And Hunter decides the Empire is too strong to even try to oppose

"A ship in port is a safer one"

"but it's not the reason it was made"

"So forgive me if I wander off"

"And forgive me more if I just stay"

Thinking about what The Bad Batch could have been if it had more fully explored the differences between those ideologies

(Thinking about what The Bad Batch could have been if it had dedicated more screen time to the 'reg' clones within the Empire and the underground network's fight to free them , instead of just sidelining Echo and Rex for a hypothetical clone rebellion show we might never get)

[fullmetalscullyy]

working hard

[doubledyke]

does anyone else feel like.... extremely frazzled when they get home from the store or similar places??

[narcan-necromancer]

[upwards-descent]

Me: Okay so if we take a long rest now, it should trigger the scene wit--

Bf: Wow, we just got to a new area, we JUST took a long rest, but you just GOTTA bend Gale over immediately, huh?

Me: Hey-- but-- listen, this is my run! 😭

[keeps-ache]

the urge to talk my head off vs. the calm of quiet vs. the Thoughts

[drifloonz]

one day ill be annoying ab my selfship again . although i enjoy that ppl enjoy my writing most of this is entirely self indulgent, projection, and for me . being so real .

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

Some recent pressed leaves and stuff to add to the collection :0

[deus-ex-mona]

little brothers and their will to #slay, man </3

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! ^-^

[orcelito]

as someone with insomnia whose brain runs a mile a minute at all hours of the day every day always it's often hard for me to remember that i need sleep like everyone else does. like i see mentions of people sleeping and im like "lol couldnt be me" then i remember that i too must go unconscious every night, ideally for at least 8 hours a night, every single day, ad infinitum,

literally what is the point. i'd rather use my time for other things thanks

[elegyofthemoon]

the personification of hope between 13-2 and LR where hope stands as the desire for humanitys future in 13-2 and even between 13-2 and LR when world got plunged into absolute chaos (no pun intended) and then the absence of hope in the world in LR leading to the worlds doom

[cortexreaver]

my wotr review so far is although i dont care for the way like any character talks and i think everyone is constantly saying too many words (i wpuld know im good at doing that myself) i like the style otherwise i enjoy it the most when shit slows down and the story is being told to me instead of shown through stiff animations between a handful of voicelines which is the worst way to tell a story period imo but especially when youre telling one in such a limited form of the medium a narrative voice is an easy solution to those limitations and i dont get why it isnt utilized throughout the game. it wouldnt break The Immersion any more than the repetitive encounter design does especially the big epic clashes where my brain starts leaking out my ears while i wait for 10 npcs in a row to take their turns even sped up this brings me to my main gripe which is that this game has no respect for my time, a finite thing that contrary to what some may believe i do have other things i need or want to do with. the only game that can so cheekily waste my time and earn my forgiveness anyway due to its charm is chulip. you are not chulip. you are a game based off a ttrpg made by and for people who feel that d&d of all things doesnt allow them to suck their own dicks to their desired level of precision and efficiency and incidentally have very wringable necks

[mathmusicreading]

Blog(ger) Shift

I am, so weird and bad about original posting and about reblogging and about saving things on Tumblr and that's why my blog has been mostly inactive or the lurking consumer type. But I don't want my fears about putting myself out there, being seen and known, articulating myself well vs. having been told my whole life I'm too wordy and opinionated vs. not managing to articulate myself well enough to justify being verbose and passionate, etc. to continue to control me so much.

So for my new specific-interest sideblog that I'm not locking, I hope it being themed will help me with making more original posts and reblogging, and I'm publicizing that here to push myself and also welcome interaction.

RIP to my other public specific-interest sideblog and the fandom sideblog I took over for someone that I didn't take further and to my private sideblogs that were meant to make me reblog and save and say stuff because they would be personal and just for me. I still would like to make those happen and reblogging and posting things that matter to me here, and oh my heart for the content ideas I haven't been working on, but they're pipedreams with how I'm (not) managing my life and I keep kicking those cans down the road.

To the person who I developed a real relationship with as a beta but who by now I probably count as having disappeared on with how long it's been and my not coming back to explicitly say I still can't help and don't know when I can, I am so sorry. I'm being a coward languishing in hoping I can tell you soon that I can get back into beta-ing for you and talking, but that's turned into me not talking to you because I'm waiting to be able to say something positive. Hopefully my vaguing here can help push me into talking to you, or at least this is here for you to read if you happen to see it; and I want you to know you absolutely can talk to me, can call me out, and if you're so gracious as to still want to be friends with me and just chat despite my dropping being your beta, I'm here for you and still want to be your friend even if I don't know if I'll have the spoons to be a good one and I know my saying that preemptively isn't apology or justification enough.

Honest assessment, I'm going to curse and say my living situation and work have both become even more of a shitshow, and with those things in mind I can't begin to imagine handling a real project until basically literally a year from now.

Which segues back into the main topic of this post. My goal isn't to have my new sideblog be like an active mainblog nor to abandon this blog—people interested in that blog can and should still interact with me here given how primary vs. secondary blogs on Tumblr work, and in terms of using that blog to help make me be a better Tumblr user, I think I should make certain original posts here and reblog them there as opposed to them being original there. With my mental-emotional and time resources, I want that blog to be "active" for a given definition of active, but really I think I should see my objective as "clear out tabs and likes and photos and lists and notes and drafts, etc. from the last four months" by saving stuff there, as opposed to my goal being the original posts I want to make there, and actually my long-term goal should be to use that momentum to do the same for older digital and physical storage that hasn't been lost or stolen. In my failure to be an interesting person, do I at least manage to be fascinating as a basket-case? Ha. But, also, as expressed above the Read More, the exercise of my danmei/Chinese sideblog is supposed to be a foray into me allowing myself to be an interesting person.