#Jj…vents??

[averagetmntfan]

it’s crazy that 2023 is almost to an end! Another year that just flew by!

I’ll be honest, I was desperate to post my art somewhere. It’s been kinda a rough couple of years for me. And recently.

I was extremely sad last year. Around this time, actually. Let me paint a picture.

Last year, I switched schools. Which I guess doesn’t sound like a big deal, but it was to me. My whole life was at my other school. My friends. They were the best. As u can probably imagine, I starting at a brand new school is hard. Especially when everyone already knows eachother. This might come as a shocker, but I’m kinda Anti-social when it comes to ppl around my age. (Especially cuz ppl my age are such bitches Lmao) for the longest time, I coped using discord And tik tok. I Even made my own little group. But ofc, that had to come to an end too. after that, I was sad again. For the longest time I had all these ideas, but no one to really share them with.

(cuz none of my irl friends like nor watched tmnt) and recently I ended a friendship w/ someone. We were both in the wrong, I’ll admit. I did say somethings behind her back. Nothing too bad. But it did call her a hypocrite. Because she would always complain about our other friends leaving to hang out w/ other ppl. When she does the exact same thing. And I was alone. Alone at lunch. Just sitting there. She would treat me so..rudely. Just plain rude. I asked her a question (Idk what is was exactly) and she responded with such a rude response. And that was on fucking Halloween. (Which I was sick on) so that’s when the entire friendship fell to shit.

Since then I’ve been hanging out by myself in the library (well, the times it’s open anyway) so u can probably imagine how I feel. Then one day, it all changed. I discover this wonder escape. Tumblr. I signed up and made this acc. And I met such amazing ppl on it.

@allyheart707: has given me good advice on my little comic series, genially super nice, fun to chat w/. I think I’ve been mutuals w/ her for the longest.

@ghosty-0w0: very silly, I have so much fun doing art collabs w/ you!! Again, very nice and thoughtful. Mutuals for a bit but it feels longer!!

@mikey-rottmnt: the ultimate silly, whiteboard was to much fun (I’m gonna try and make another board for us lol), I have no idea how we became mutuals lmao. Very fun to chat w, always open to listen, caring and sweet. I enjoy having conversations w/ u!

@c00kietin: I had a lot of fun drawing u!!!, Irish gang 🍀☘️, that one time I didn’t get sleep was chaotic, very chill, a local amphibia fan!! I wanna talk more w/ u, cuz ur js so cool!!

I Hope y’all have an amazing new year! May the year bring u luck, kindness, adventures (hopefully) not artblock, and alot of ideas!! (Not that anyone of u need them, cuz ur so creative!!)

and dw..Hehe..I will make u all suffer w/ ANGST ANGST AND…fluff. JK MORE ANGST >:))

(no but real talk I will not js do all Angst I swear—)

I APOLOGIZE FOR THE OTHER MUTUALS THAT IK AND ARENT ON HERE, ITS CUX I FORGOT UR TAGS!!!

[withonly-sweetheart]

so... i kinda freaked out

if you cant tell already ive been raised to have abandonment issues

oh, how the stars sparkle through the ringlets washing down your face, bathing you in yet another golden glow. your mind is a beautiful, strange island with lush, blooming plant life and majestic animals that seem to prance through the forests that occupy your thoughts.

i would like to say that you are merely an ethereal being, drifting through from the heavens, an angel downcast to bless us with your ideas, feathery wings curled behind your wisps of hair that trail behind you like smoke.

every word you speak keeps the world captivated, entranced, enthralled. no one can expect what comes from your mouth, or what flows from the gentle strokes of your fingertips. this might be blunt but…

i should like to think of your lips as the opening to a gateway, golden arches and still ponds. your billowing dress dips into the water, causing ripples of longing.

dare i say that it is not the ivory string of fate that brought us together, but the idea that if you were here with me, our fingers would be entwined in a most mystical way. you are the soft shimmers that ripple from anklets, the puffy, white foam that sinks into the beach.

if one part of you is your words, the other part is what i imagine to be your smile. teeth so eloquently spaced, letting the gentle stream of your words through like the rolling hills on a sunny afternoon.

you may not know me, but i know you.

i only wish that you get to know me.

everyone this reminds me of is going to get tagged... bc finding this was like reaching into myself and shoving that piece of me into the computer. take it as a compliment if i tag you

@mydarlingclaudia

@dollivication

@xdeadxxeyes

@candlekiss

@chesue00

@hiya-itsamber

@vaaaaaiolet

@idyllcy

@eyesofsix

@vampiricgf

@missoranjespersonal

@ekurie987

@jillsandwhichs

@ghosty-writes-23

@rigorwhoring

@uhlillie

@faintfill

@clandestinedmeetings

@praisethegabs

@rookieclaire

@puppedup

@inkonparchment

@nilpill

@ivmp

@lottiies

@loen-kennededy

most of you guys on this list are the only reason i actually put effort to write. you've all been such inspirations to me and honestly im so so grateful for that.

i realize im saying this about people who write fanfiction but its the little things? i love all of you sm. seriously. please never stop being the people you are and never let people bring you down because honestly? i mean what i say

and i love you <3

[redrum-alice]

Migrated to ibispaint midway...

The pink sketches were from december 2022 and the black one (ibispaint) was made recently

Was hoping to finish this back in January, but i had other stuff to do :'>

This is all a WIP btw..

[averagetmntfan]

TW: rant or vent or smth I don’t fucking know ok.

I hate this fucking house so much man

My sis fucking pisses me off so much I actually can’t with this shit anymore. Dude I just need someone to be here for me

I feel so alone

[st4rgiirll]

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

welcome to my blog <3

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fics !

OUTER BANKS

jj maybank fics;

unfortunate

rafe cameron fics;

babysitting troubles - coming soon !

911

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coming soon!

edmundo diaz fics

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LOCKWOOD & CO

anthony lockwood fics;

injuries

HOGWARTS - DISCONTINUED

theodore nott fics;

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DERRY GIRLS - DISCONTINUED

james maguire fics;

aye, gag me with a spoon will ye?

FOO FIGHTERS - DISCONTINUED

shane hawkins fics;

cant remember to forget you

MOTLEY CRUE - DISCONTINUED

nikki sixx fics;

piercings and tattoos - nikki sixx x reader x tommy lee !

brooklyn baby

character ai bots !

OUTER BANKS

jj maybank bots;

kidnapped by singh

party gone wrong

jj's bimbocore gf

cousins wedding

he's back

rafe cameron bots;

the other woman

maternal love

PERCY JACKSON

percy jackson bots;

star shopping

sunsetz

baby im yours

pretty boy

amphitrite's daughter

a match into water

ocean eyes

psyche's daughter

step-dad's arguing - TW abuse !

wildest dreams

just dance

hug me, bring it in

TEEN WOLF

stiles stilinski bots;

missed date

winter formal

THE INTERNSHIP

stuart twombly bots;

addicted

911

evan “buck” buckley bots:

dispatcher hostages

edmundo diaz bots

coming soon!

PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER

charlie kelmeckis bots;

high makeout sesh

party

STURNIOLO TRIPLETS

matt sturniolo bots;

you dress differently

chris sturniolo bots;

tour

chris' goth girlfriend

FOO FIGHTERS

dave grohl bots;

party

shane hawkins bots;

sister's bestfriend

writing

talking to your bestfriend

a fan

bestfriend's brother

behind the drum set

catching his eye

sharing a bed

a better version of behind the drum set?

your best friend

HOGWARTS

theodore nott bots;

party

professor

surprise

vent

[withonly-sweetheart]

lowkey its the people who put barely any effort into anything, fail all their fucking classes and fucking do all this shit just to bear the success bc their parents are nice

but when i actually work for it im told no.

i swear if i could kill myself?

[masquerading-man]

Why did Sisko send Rugal to Cardassia!!!! It makes no sense to me…. Do they ever give an explanation?? They were literally just like,, “ah yes small child you have to leave the people you consider your parents now and go live on a different planet with strangers”.

Like, if Sisko was concerned about Rugal hating Cardassians, or pitied Rugal’s birth father, why didnt he just mandate visits to Cardassia or somethjng??

Also, Sisko says something along the lines of “Rugal was the real victim of this whole thing”— So is he implying that Rugal was a victim because he was a Cardassian that didnt grow up with Cardassians? Please tell me im interpreting that wrong because its reeking of race essentialism :(

And most importantly: did Rugal have no say?!?!?!?!!!!!

(Please does anyone have an explanation or hc why Sisko did this?? I love Sisko but this was by far such a bad decision out of the blue imo 🥲)

[leontheluxuriousone]

TW! Vent & Swearing

My sister rlly just came into the living room and fucking called me fat. Like actually shut the fuck up. SHUT UP. IK WHAT I LOOK LIKE. I FUCKING KNOW OK?! And it isnt the first time she’s done this. I don’t know why I even tolerate this shit anymore. Like body shaming? Not funny. its literally just making me more insecure.

I wanna cry. I’m extremely sick of this fucking shit. Why do u do this? WHY? WHAT MAKES U THINK IS OK TO COMMENT ON SOMEONES BODY LIKE THAT? FOR UR OWN ENTERTAINMENT?! LIKE HA, FUCKING HA. WOW SO FUNNY.

I cant Even anymore. I promised myself I would say smth, but I didn’t. im so sick of it all. The arguing, the yelling, the screaming. honestly? I just wanna run Away. But I have no where to go! I’m stuck!

Sorry for the long text, I’m just really frustrated rn.

[cannedchipps]

the boys in my class fucking sexually assaulted someone i'm gonna fucking cry get me out oF THIS CLASS SHDVDVBZBZBZNSMAMS. AAAABABABABABAB

[littlecajunlady]

Hold on, I actually have something to say about Lucky Spencer, his recasts, and the punishment of actors through character assassination.

Under a read more because I have A LOT to say:

For some reason, every January for the last few years, I watch clips of General Hospital - sometimes storylines I've seen before, and sometimes stories I want to see for the first time. This January I decided on Lucky (JJ) and Elizabeth, and I've watched every scene of theirs I could find from '97 to '99 and '09 to '11. I'd seen a few of their older scenes, a bit more of their recent scenes, but it was my first time watching everything from the beginning. Two months later and I'm still thinking about them, how sweet they were together as teens, and how the writers ruined them over and over again.

My first memory of watching GH was with my older sister, and it just so happened to be the episode in '99 with Lucky's funeral and the reveal that he was alive. As a lover of angst, I was enthralled. I wanted to know what happened next. Now in hindsight, that was truly the end for them. Sometimes I feel like Lucky died in that fire and he never came back. Lucky said it himself in a scene with Luke in '10 - "Elizabeth and I never recovered from that fire," and he was right. And it is so disappointing to me. A small part of me almost wishes I didn't know how good they were then, so that I never learned how far they'd fallen.

The characters as teenagers were beautiful together. They were IN LOVE, and they sold it, and had better chemistry than almost any characters I've ever seen. I know this is a soap opera and almost no one is allowed to stay married to one person, much less with their high school sweetheart, but I just wish they hadn't done so much deliberate, irreparable damage to this couple. And for what?

From the wiki I read recently, Jonathan Jackson wanted to leave as early as '96 or '97 and they convinced him to stay, which I'm grateful he did so we could get the Liz/Lucky story. I hate that he left, and really dislike recasts in general, but I would never begrudge an actor for wanting to move on from a soap opera, even if I miss them. And to expect an 11-year-old actor to commit to a lifetime as one character is ridiculous. He wanted to leave again in '11, and while that was incredibly disappointing, I understand why he did.

He's said in interviews that he wanted to work with Tony and Becky, and have Liz and Lucky reunite, and have lighter stories. I know actors rarely get a say in their storylines, that they've gotta shut up and do the work they're given, and I get that. But considering those requests were the whole reason he even agreed to come back in the first place, why did they apparently agree when they had no intention of following through? So he left, which was within his right to do. Creators/producers/writers don't have to cater to actors' wants, but then they shouldn't act surprised when the actor leaves when they've lied to get them in the door. So yeah, I don't blame him for leaving, and I'm happy for him that he got Nashville soon after.

Unfortunately, now Lucky has since been punished for this. They turned him into a deadbeat dad who doesn't see his kids. They absolutely did not have to do that. They could so easily say he talks to them at least once a week on the phone, that he sees them every few months, and sends them gifts on their birthdays. It might not be perfect but at least it's not the complete abandonment of his children. Jax was allowed an offscreen relationship with Josslyn, so why can't Lucky? It's so out of character for him to do this and the writers' motives are so transparent to me.

And frankly, I feel like they've been ruining Lucky since the first time JJ left. After running out of JJ scenes to watch, I finally grit my teeth and watched some scenes with the recasts. I watched some of JY's Lucky return storyline. The actor was fine I guess, but I didn't buy him as Lucky, and the chemistry with Liz just wasn't there anymore. I hate the brainwashing stuff and how he no longer loved Elizabeth. If I'd been watching this live then, I probably would've quit because that is NOT the story I would've wanted to see with these characters.

GV's Lucky is even worse. I'm sure the actor is good in other things but that character was definitely not Lucky. I mostly blame the writing, but every time I see him, I say aloud to myself, "I do not know this man." Lucky would not be a cop. From some scenes I've seen, he was controlling and downright mean to Elizabeth. He was so unlikable and annoying. While the drug addiction storyline is good for drama and a challenge for actors, I just don't buy that as a story for Lucky, and definitely not the cheating. Again, it's just so very out of character that I simply don't think of that man as Lucky - that rage-filled, Dudley Do Right cuckhold? I realize this sounds really harsh, and yes there were some nice moments too (I begrudgingly admit their 2005 wedding was very sweet) but for me the bad far outweighed the good. I don't know what the character (and actors) of Lucky did to deserve such character assassination

It's very telling to me that the moment JJ returned, Lucky was allowed to be smart again. Competent at his job. To actually be respected by the other characters. What a concept, huh? There's no way JJ would've returned to that mess of a character otherwise. I agree that it's fucked up that GV was fired and that JJ was told that GV moved on of his own volition, but I'm glad JJ returned for the time he did, even though they had no idea what to do with him.

Siobhan? She was fine at first but then became shrill. And she was just the rebound girl he never should've married. The Balkan storyline was definitely not one of their best. Lucky's exit - which both JJ and Tony complained about - by having Lucky leave his kids just before Christmas to go talk to some rocks? Wtf were they thinking? An actor leaves and they no longer have any obligation to make a satisfying conclusion for fans, I guess. The Liz/Nik affair was so gross to me. I don't know a lot about Becky's firing, but they clearly wanted to punish her and her character too before getting rid of her. While I hate what Liz did, I don't hate the character, because they clearly had some kind of vendetta against Becky to want to trash her character so thoroughly. And I understand that's even the nature of soap operas - that everyone gets the chance to fuck up and do unforgivable things - and I guess that's just an aspect of soaps that I absolutely hate. That some characters aren't allowed to stay good and true to themselves for the sake of drama and who's the daddy storylines.

I know there are GH fans now, and probably many back then, who are sick of LL2 and want Liz to move on. And that's fair. But I'm also sure that there were so many people who wanted them back together, especially after JJ returned. I was one of them. What an absolute waste of history and chemistry. Jonathan and Becky both wanted it. A lot of the fans wanted it. They didn't even have to keep them together forever - soap couples never last - but to NEVER allow these characters any happiness together when we finally had JJ back is one of the biggest fumbles I've ever seen. They ruined the characters a long time ago, and they ruined this couple yet again. And I'll never forgive that.

I want JJ to come back as Lucky, I always will, even if it's just for a little while. He probably won't, and why would he after last time? I don't want a recast but if they decided to then maybe I'd give him a chance, only because I want them to stop trashing the character. But honestly whoever they cast probably still won't be Lucky to me - JJ IS Lucky, and some characters just can't be recast. I'm trying to make my peace with that, and with the fact that the last time we saw the REAL Lucky and Liz happy together was back in 1999. The showrunner and writers at the time had the rare opportunity to fix that in 2010 and chose not to do it. Why? I could never guess.

[beperoncin]

The Fucking Trauma

[ahwait-no-yes]

after a few years, I've finally changed my profile picture on here. so long vent art of ouma that i drew in 2019 on microsoft whiteboard 💔

[jjfantasy]

Honestly, after two semi-finals the one song that stuck with me is the Czech one. Cz-pop, go girl, I hope you fly high.

[averagetmntfan]

Is it sad that I’ve gotten use to my sister basically body shaming or-?

I swear one of these days I’m actually gonna snap and punch her square in the face dude

[dilfcherricola]

Doing so bad at using the pressure pot it absolutely should not sound like this

[maeraevokaya]

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