#i genuinely dont wanna go back there AUGH

[beperoncin]

The Fucking Trauma

[thedevotionaltour]

starting to hit that i have no psych and my medication feels constantly on the edge of becoming highly precarious bc we have switched insurance and my previous doctor is like no longer my doctor to prescribe it and idk how long the therapy center i went to will continue to let the psych there prescribe me stuff and if they still can with insurance changes. guys i hate it just a little

[derrypubliclibrary]

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[royal-songbird]

JUST FINISHED LISTENING TO THE NEW CRANE WIVES ALBUM. HOOOOOOLY SHIT. THAT WAS INCREDIBLE. time to ramble about each song because i can <3 lalalalala

(under a cut cause this got a little long)

Scars: Listened to this one the second it was officially released, so i've had some time to listen to it !!!and . ough. its so good. i love when the crane wives make angry songs <3 really REALLY happy that they've incorporated violin into their newer songs too. the subtle shriek halfway through, the buildup near the end....GRAH (and i know they did on past albums but tbh they did not include them Enough. i love the violin <3)

Bitter Medicine: another one that was released ahead of the full album! also very good. reminds me a lot of the queen of nothing, mainly because of "someone take my keys im in no shape for driving" vs "stop the car, i wanna get out". and the AH AH OH AH OH'S NEAR THE END. YES !!! THEYRE SO FUN TO SING ALONG WITH I LOVE THEM. and the instrumentals. GRAAAAAH !!! the electric guitar (?) at the end is AMAZING.

Higher Ground: right off the bat i loved the instruments. and then when they start singing? INCREDIBLE. the vocals for this one are so so so good. like im actually in love with them, especially the first "should i head for higher ground". and its also like. very upbeat and fun. it makes me want to run around and just get myself Moving somehow. AND THE SUBTLE STRINGS IN THE BACKGROUND AS THE SONG BUILDS UP!!! i love the plucking, it so. hrgahgrhahghr. and once again. THE VIOLIN. I LOVE THE VIOLIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Predator: i came into this song expecting something similar to the hand that feeds, so it was MUCH different than i anticipated! and honestly, i love it so much?? the guitar...? whatever funky instrument thats all wobbly is. sounds so fun. and i love the vocals so much they scratch at my brain. THE CLAPPING TOO. ITS SO FUN. another one that makes me want to get up and run around or dance <3

Say It: i was excited for this one! my friend heard it live and absolutely loved it, so i'd heard a lot about it going in. its a lot calmer than i was expecting but ohhh its so good. "please dont leave me in the dark, praying for a wayward spark" augh. ough. gruahgrh. "IF YOU COULD WOULD YOU ERASE ME. ERADICATE ME FROM YOUR MIND." RAAAAAAHHHH.

Mad Dog: another song i heard good things about! i was expecting something high energy and BOY did it not disappoint. obsessed with the pace of the beginning vocals, they sound like so much fun to sing i cant wait to learn the lyrics. AND THEN. THE CHORUS!!! OHHHH. THE ECHOES OF RUNNING AND COMING. IM GONNA EXPLODE. THEY SCRATCH MY BRAIN SO WELL. and the funky instrument in the back that i think is maybe a guitar but i cant tell....its so good and funky and oh my god i love the crane wives. honestly, this is probably one of my favorites of the album. its so good. i need to tear something apart with my teeth

Arcturus Beaming: i heard this song live back when i went to their concert in april, and oh my GOD. genuinely this song changed me i think. it rearranged my atoms. it means so much to me i literally love this song, even if the instrumentals arent my favorite out of the rest of the album i cannot put it any lower than my absolute favorite. THERES MORE TO LIFE THAN SUFFERING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time Will Change You: and this song. right off the bat its INCREDIBLE. the steady beat in the back. the guitar. the vocals. and just . the general Vibes. AND THEN. AND THEN !!!! THE STRINGS. HOLY FUCKING SHIT THE STRINGSSS. THE SECOND I HEARD THEM I LOST MY MIND. they are SO pretty and THIS is exactly why i wanted the crane wives to use strings in their songs more. they include them SO well. AND AUGH. THE INSTRUMENTAL HALFWAY THROUGH....AND THE VOCALS BEHIND IT....AND AGAIN!!! THE STRINGS !!!! this is SUCH a pretty song and it blew me away the first time i listened to it

Black Hole Fantasy: i wasnt entirely sure what to expect going into this song so i was a bit surprised by the introduction- and then it just kept getting better. right off the bat it reminded me of arcturus beaming, and then the general story of the song.... just. the feeling of aching so desperately for a better life, but being afraid to take that first step because you dont want to face the risks that come with it..... i genuinely almost cried listening to it, especially as the song began to ramp up. the fantasy of taking that chance but still being afraid. AND THEN. AND THEN!!!!! "AND NOW SHES LAUGHING, AND ITS KILLING ME THAT I CANNOT SEE WHATS MAKING HER LAUGH FROM WHERE IM STANDING." AND THE SUBTLE BUILD UP OF STRINGS IN THE BACK AS THE SONG RAMPS UP FURTHER. AND YOU FINALLY TAKE THAT CHANCE, TAKE THAT FIRST STEP. AAUEUEUAGHHHH. GOD!!!!!!!!!!

Red Clay: going into this song, i was expecting something with the vibes of the icarus or keep you safe, and i wasnt disappointed!!! BUT BEFORE I COULD REALLY PROCESS THE BEGINNING, I GET COMPLETELY BLIND SIDED BY SOMEONE OTHER THAN EMILEE OR KATE SINGING. im not entirely sure who it is, my best guess is dan, but its so so good. something about red clay is so specifically nostalgic for me, and for it to play right after black hole fantasy just. completely destroyed me/pos this song is so so pretty. i love it so much.

River Rushing: AND IMMEDIATELY IM HOOKED. again, i expected something high energy/upbeat like sleeping giants- and while its not the exact same, its similar, and i LOVE IT. the vocals are probably my favorite part, especially the backing vocals. BUT OH MY GOD THOSE HIGH NOTES. THEYRE SO GOOD. a VERY strong ending for the album, which i absolutely adored

and thats every song!!!! god i love the crane wives. im going to listen to this album on loop until each song is burned into my brain okay bye

[yuukei-yikes]

I’m really curious what kind of uncles and aunts would Kano, Kido, Seto and Momo be

this is such a cute ask ough

i think kido and momo are the lesbian no kids double income aunts. best gifts EVERRRRRR. i think they host a lot of staying over idk i think theyd have a little spare room for any of the kids who wanna sleep over and theyre always asking if they want to LOL and the kids love it bc they SPOIL THE HELL OUT OF THEM kidos like giving them breakfast in bed and shit . shintaro rly has to talk to them bc his kids come back bratty as hell everytime they spend a weekend there LOL

seto would be a dad as well so like he'd be...... i think hed rly be THAT dad that's always teasing u and being annoying and acts the same as an uncle. its probably the one kids run from bc hugs very tight and augh ur beard is SPIKY!!!however always has SOME furry creature on him so thats rly kid bait. like WHERE is seto we want to see pocket hamster even if we have to go thru painful cheek kisses with spiky beard

kano would be rly cute i think he'd be a little eugh abt kids i dont think he'd like them that much but when its his sister's kids he's just so weak and i think itd be cute bc he'd just. he wouldnt be a tease or anything like he always is to his friends, to kids hes just genuinely rly sweet. the dans like😐 bc why cant u ever be this normal to us. also probably the most fun and the favorite bc he always takes everyone to do stuff they arent supposed to do and then keeps the secret from their parents :P dont get me started on my older kano hcs i feel like he'd be so lost and alone so hanging out with ayanos kids is as healing as it breaks his brain lol. but also he pranks the hell out of them and they always fall for it

my lil fankids are like. the only "biological" kids i picture the dan having cuz i think setomary adopt + shinaya adopt more so what this means is that theyre the only Babies the dan ever gets. harutaka has the first and that thang is a celebrity bc FIRST AND FOR A WHILE ONLY BABY?? THAT SHIT IS SO TINY!!!!!!!! WHOAAAAA and then shinayas kid...come on please mekatrio and momo fighting to death to see who gets to hold the baby next. it makes me sniff sniff bc compared to this haruka and takane ig they have a rly small family. maybe theyre slightly emo before the dan beats some sense into them bc THEYRE THEIR DAMN FAMILY TOO even if they arent siblings and stuff theyre still aunts and uncles <3 theyre FAMILY!!!!!!!! *passes out*

[chelzone]

big chel's big summergamefest reactions

new prince of persia: looks like a mobile game with fartnite graphics, bored

new mortal kombat: looks dreadful and way too slow at times

path of exile 2: not for me

mecha ryu and guile vs dinosaurs: LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LET'S GO

nic cage debby daylight trailer: still funny, also wild to see how diff he looks compared to his game equivalent

witcher tv show: i dont care

witchfire: ?????? (genuinely kinda headscratching at this)

crossfire sierra squad: man i dont give a shit about VR games anymore this is lame

remnant 2: not for me

sonic superstars: looks cute. never really been into the 2D sonic games personally tho, sowwy ;w;

honkai starrail: a Polite thing for me to say is Not For Me but also i hate anime games like these LMAO

lies of P: conceptually and visually really cool but bit of a letdown to not see any gameplay ;o(

Sandland: genuinely looks REALLY FUCKING AWESOME and goddamn toriyama's style translates wonderfully ot this

throne and liberty: anything worked on by amazon games is an immediate stinker in my mind

warhaven: boring

party animals: back in like high school i liked watchin folks play gangbeasts and the like but these days its very much not for me, i feel too old for that stuff and im only 25 dfghfhgf

crash team rumble: i loved the new crash stuff both the 4th game and the remakes but this looks ???? and really bad dfgdf

alan wake 2: i liked the first one a lot even if folk's didnt. never played american nightmare or saw the control-related DLC. this one could be interesting if theyre goin further into the twin peaks vibe??

new warhammer: the series in general is not for me hyuuuu

yes your grace DLC: i really really despite the game art style of these 32-bit adjacent aprooximations on realistic backgrounds sorry AUGH

john carpenter's toxic commando: looks like shit!

baldur's gate 3: i know nothing of this series, also where's the gameplay????

spider-man 2: i wanna play the modern spiderman games at some point, the pre-marvelified version of the ps4 one looked amazing. also the miles morales one i wanna play sometime toooo

palworld: pokemon with guns is incredibly funny especially since they can get away with it this long, in no world am i playing this tho dfgdfgfd

black desert DLC: probably one of the mmos i care about the least. we really peaked with oldschools runescape and wow

LOTR return to moria: DWARF FORTRESS 3D CONFIRMED #REAL (could be good genuinely?? its not the gollum team thankfully LMAO)

FF7 evercrisis: what? huh? why (my phone cant run this shit and i dont like mobile games anymore)

banishers: games dont even feel real anymore man, sad, whatever

like a dragon gaiden the man who erased his name: a mouthful of a title but this new yakuza game looks fucking SICK!! I LOVE IT!!!

under the waves: could be something interesting?? kinda soma-adjacent vibes sooorta.. also happy world ocean day i guess fgfhf

cod warzone shit: who cares

porsche xbox: sick pride flag bro

faefarm: Not For Me

marvel snap: zzzzzz / prozd chasing that bag i see, more power to u i guess

king arthur legens rise: shit

wayfinder: shit

unreal editor for fartnite: There's Nothing Nice For Me To Say

stellaris nexus: i hear people say its good, im probably too dumb to play it

space trash scavenger: cool ps4 tech demo

star trek infinite: do NOT tell mike or rich about this game (civilization-type game maybe?????)

twisted metal tv show: where da cars

lysfanga: not for me, part 4599504

immortals of aveum: is medieval era the current trend?? robot knights too???? im seein too much of these

fartnite wilds: man,,,

ff7 remake pt 2: kinda didnt care for the first part, not for me i guess. also andrew tate off the shits

[sealbee101]

i just remembered something and im going bang my head against the wall augh awh ow

when yusuke and keiko WERE in a relationship it wasn't the greatest one either because yusuke wasnt telling Keiko about ANYTHING he was doing and that was putting keiko in more harm then good and making a communication barrier between them. AND AND!! when they were together (i forgot) they couldnt hang out long because yusuke immediately had to leave to go meet up with toguro (while this can be explained because he was a spirit detective and koenma assigned him the rescue yukina mission previously this doesnt excuse why yusuke didnt say anything before)

and i wanna dive into kuwabara more

Kuwabara was and has been emotional (ex: when eikichi was in danger he was genuinely worried) and he was even more emotional during chapter black when he realized yusuke was going to sacrifice himself, and even said himself along the lines, "if you're not here than who am I?"

Yusuke was Kuwabara whole definition, what he was made for, it shaped Kuwabara who he is and what he stands for with his own morals, its why Kuwabara was so impulsive, and aggressive because Yusuke was impulsive and aggressive. Overtime however as yusuke developed kuwabara did too and was able to become his own person, it could explain why kuwabara wasnt in the makai tournament because it was about self discovery and kuwabara already had himself figured out.

It makes the arguement in between them make sense because Kuwabara couldn't understand why Yusuke was leaving for so long, and we never knew if Yusuke told him the reason or not so we just assume Kuwabara was unreasonably lashing out and yelling out of turn but he was in fact very reasonably upset.

Sensui was was dead and there wasn't else threatening the world in Kuwabara's mind, he wasnt aware of what was going on in demon world with the three kings, and we dont know if Yusuke TOLD him or not. Kuwabara was going to be left without Yusuke AGAIN and for 3 years!! and while he wasnt defined by him anymore in some parts he still needed of him there. Kuwabara was exerting himself the entire series emotionally throughout the spirit detective saga, and all the way to chapter black, and yusuke died twice in those periods. After Sensui's defeat it should've been over and him and Yusuke should be able to play games and hang out right??

WRONG!!!

Yusuke apparently has to leave for an unexplained reason to a world where the same things they fought against live and hell be gone for 3 years. 3 years Kuwabara knows hes alive but wont be able to see him, 3 years of being unsure if he even is going to come back.

Kuwabara and Keiko were left with that uncertainty of Yusuke wellbeing, Keiko had to wait for Yusuke which in some aspect prevented her in doing what she should do so freely, it's why she yelled out in the epilogue, it might be random but it's Keiko finally saying that shes tired of being tied to Yusuke and that it was time for her to be her own separate person and she should've been her separate person but-- 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅 AH!! STOP!! 🍅🍅🍅🍅 AHH!! AHH!! 🍅🍅 BUT SHE COULDN'T BE DUE TO NARRATIVE!!! *crowd cheers and boos as I run of stage sobbing and tomato stained*

WARNING : guy saying there opinion about a certain subject!!! do not take these seriously!! some of the stuff I say are based on my memories and I have the memory of a 1 month goldfish!!!

this discusses Keiko Yukimura and how cool she is and how she and Kuwabara should get more attention and how cool and epic they are

THESE CONTAIN SPOILERS (season 4, Makai Tournament and 3 Chapter Blackspecifically) GO WATCH YU YU HAKUSHO IF U HAVENT!!!! GO!! GO!!!!

why keiko and kuwabara r cool n awesome under cut v!!!

keiko deserve better and to beat yusuke stinky ass im so frustrated about the epilogue even til today im so mad Keiko literally deserved better she should’ve gotten what she wanted 

i will FOREVER be upset with how Keiko was handled in the epilogue and in general because all she is/was written as was someone who should endearingly yell “oh yusuke!!” and fall into his arms and swoon for him (which happened countless times in the shows 4 seasons) but she’s SO much more and I wanna talk about it. 

Keiko generally cares for yusuke and they’ve been friends literally since they were kids, she’s the only one that actually looks deep into yusuke and see that he DOES care and he isn’t a douchebag and he just acts like a little stinker, she’s the only one that actually bothers to ‘take care’ of him and look out for his well being in the anime because nobody else will (yusuke’s mom is more prominent figure in the manga especially in the dark tournament arc). She was HAULING ASS in season 1 because she was the only one that was willing to run into a BURNING building  to save Yusuke, and Kuwabara was also the only one to run after Keiko inside the house to save her and Yusuke, and she called EVERYONE out on it— she took matters into her own hands and she’s a queen 4 that ❤️❤️

Kuwabara was also the only one that was determined enough to actually befriend Yusuke too, Kuwabara said himself that “it was never about winning” he just wanted Yusuke to stop being a lone wolf and join the pack. 

Keiko literally wanted Yusuke to stop being a uraMESS and get his life together, Kuwabara and Keiko are literally his cheerleaders trying to actually get him on the right track and do something instead of being laid back, (That’s why those two we’re able to get into a good highschool, Shizuru even said that Kuwabara needed to work hard if he wanted to go to a good highschool, Kuwabara maybe be clumsy and silly but he’s a smart cookie too.) Kuwabara wanted Yusuke to actually defeat Toguro so he faked his death, Keiko was literally graying during the whole tournament too because she was so worried he was going to die. 

And then Chapter Black and the Makai Tournament  happen. 

These  two RUINED me, i will never recover from them especially when Kuwabara was having a meltdown during the Yusuke and Sensui fight. 

keep in mind: 

Kuwabara and Keiko were two out of Yusuke’s mom and that principal that were genuinely distraught over Yusuke death, crying and screaming Keiko fell to her KNEES and sobbed.

And they were also the only two that were actually PISSED OFF about Yusuke leaving, especially Kuwabara because Yusuke DIED right in front of Kuwabara and all of a sudden now he’s alive but then he’s leaving?? For 3 YEARS to go to demon world?? Kuwabara had every right to be upset and so did Keiko.

You can tell at this point Keiko was exhausted, Kuwabara was fuming and both were sick of Yusuke shenanigans Keiko was drained at this point, it was emotionally draining her and you can tell when she said “Yusuke…I don’t think my new boyfriend…will like that,” (i forgot but I think that’s how it went) 

And then now they’re both told to WAIT 3 YEARS??? (keiko specifically) 

this is where the writing didn’t make sense to me but made the scene where everyone was at the beach so impactful because you can tell Keiko has reached her limit and finally had enough when she yells, all her anger, her exhaustion, “It’s time to get what I want” 

but then suddenly Yusuke comes back and it turns into a romantic moment???

Yusuke put Keiko through hell and back and you can see that she wasn’t starting to brush it off her shoulder, it was WEIGHING her down especially if it was getting into her own life and what she wanted to do. 

yusuke goes through character development to become less iof a delinquent bad boy guy throughout the series yes but I feel like it’d be more impactful if Keiko actually broke it off with Yusuke because it would give him the realization of that his action affect other people emotionally/mentally and not just himself physically. 

anyways i think they should beat yusuke with hammers 

[brandnewcitymp3]

ok i Finally mustered up the energy to sit down for three (3) hours to watch fingersmith and. ough. not rly a review? but spoilers down below

aaaa THIS is what i mean by Yearning. THIS is the kinda shit i Want and that i Wish the handmaiden had. like dont get me wrong the handmaiden is still way better. but like. augh. how the relationship between maud and sue just Builds. So. Slowly.........obsessed. was going insane. it rly helped tho bc it Actually established how much time had passed. and that was my issue with the handmaiden bc it seemed like it just went v quickly (and at first i thought it was just me craving a slow burn and also having rewatched this movie so many times it just feels like it zooms by but after watching fingersmith yea no it is p fast. but to be fair: the handmaiden is tryna explain a Lot and has Less time to do it. fingersmith is a whole whopping 3 hours. 180min. they have the time hfsjkl (wait now that im thinkin abt it the handmaiden is literally like 2.5hrs?? so fingersmith only got like an extra 30-40min or so on them?? AND THAT SHIT WAS STILL VERY SLOW BC THEY HAD TO DO THE WHOLE ASS PLOT TWIST THAT MAUD AND SUE BEING SWITCHED AT BIRTH AND SHIT LIKE FHSDJKL I DONT CAREEEFJDLS like i read abt it before so i saw it coming but im just.......who cares hfsdjkl. BUT YEA basically fingersmith was able to successfully execute the slow burn in 1.5hrs and the handmaiden COULDVE done that too BUT im goin back to my argument that they spent Way Too much time on the uncle and the count hfdjkls. like i get it. narrative. it’s good. but. i wanna see my girls bc this story is abt them hfsdjkl. AND THAT’S ALSO THE THING TOO with fingersmith SO LITTLE TIME is spent on the shpeel between the gentlemen and the uncle (like that Whole ending part of the handmaiden where the uncle catches the count and tortures him? yea. literally non existent in fingersmith. gentlemen gets stabbed by maud or something and the uncle just dies some time later of something ig idk fhsjkl it’s all just so brief and i appreciate that tbh fdjskl) but yea they rly dont spend a whole lotta time on the uncle at all. like to a point where i would genuinely forget that this whole deal is to scam him like fhdjkls the gentleman was there fairly a lot bc yea makes sense. i just didnt like him fhdjklls like he deserved to get stabbed and die pathetically hfdjkls anyway)) im derailing and i lost the point with my parantheses hfjdlk but yea!!! Time. fingersmith did it better. like one Very Specific honestly the Perfect example of this is the thimble scene. that scene happens a Literal month after sue and maud first meet. so sue has Been playing as her maid for a whole month. so these two have Been spending time with each other and getting to know each other and getting along and having fun with each other for a Whole Month. their feelings for each other are festering and they are starting to realize it. screaming. the scene was so brief like Way quicker than the one in the handmaiden which lingers for a while and i honestly rly liked it is So Intimate and theyre looking in each others eyes and and they quickly pull away before it lingers on for too long bc they are still trying to understand the feelings they both have. EVEN THO THEYRE BOTH SCAMMING EACH OTHERRRR AUGHH. poetic cinema. idk yea this is getting long now hfdjkl but yea. O YEA ONE MORE THING. handmaiden characters were way better. like duh we been knew. that shouldnt be surprising dhfjka but yea. bc maud and sue were so hesitant before going thru with the plan bc they felt so guilty abt scamming the other like this. meanwhile sookee sweetened the pot for herself and was like “o wee lamb. how sad. oh well” and hideko was the one who even suggested scamming her in the first place!!!!!! cunty!!!!!! also the wedding night scene was inch resting too. specifically with the blood bc i was obsessed how hideko just sliced her own hand while lookin the count dead in the eyes while he looked lowkey shocked. but with fingersmith it was the gentlmen so cut his own arm for it so. lame. like maud was gonna do it too!! but he just did instead. whatever. maud Literally had sex with sue right before that anyway so yknow. king shit. anyway yea i think im done now hfjkdls if u actually read all this ty i love u and i hope u had a lovely day c:

[hallelujuh]

lefou moments™

"she's so well read and ur so fucking hot athletically inclined”

"why do you need her when you have us?" translation: “u and me are practically married already why r u never happy goddamnit gaston”

"i'm not done with you yet" "me neither" ;-;

"it's never gonna happen ladies" *prances off after his actual bf*

lefou copying gaston’s mannerisms ;-;

lefou biting his lip as gaston's describing married life...and then looking annoyed once gaston mentions belle

gaston: "while my love massages my tired feet" lefou: *starts to massage gaston's back*

when he got the dirty old drunk guy to rub gaston’s ears ahahah i was laughin

i s2g i thought he broke that dude’s neck jfc

lefou, laying across a table in draw-me-like-one-of-ur-french-girls position & singing about gaston’s manliness,

"they'll tell you which team they prefer to be on"

tom dick & stanley’s faces say it all

the wink

when he smacked stanley on the head... & then when he grabs tom by the face to get up onto the table ahaha

hes just rlly adorable during the “who breaks hearts like gaston”. happy clappy boi

"NOBODY BITES LIKE GASTON" *SHOWS OFF GIANT BITE MARK IN AN AREA NO STRAIGHT MAN SHOULD BE BITING* WHAT DO THESE WRESTLING SESSIONS ENTAIL?? IS WRESTLING A CODE WORD FOR FUCKING??? UM???

lefou turning a bro handshake into a gay ass cuddle sesh & looking like it was his favorite place in the world to be ("too much?" "yyyyyep")

him paying everybody to go along with it. him perfectly orchestrating & choreographing everything. my what a guy that lefou

when he couldnt get on the table i laughd so hard man

gaston: "i shoot from behind" lefou: bent over the table, now on top of the table, now on his hands & knees, now flat on his back staring up at gaston...

clearly everyone was choreographed except josh gad. they just told him “prance around & act gay. stand on tables a lot. u can improv the rest. just make it rlly homoerotic” & he was like “k”

the...noises as gaston’s describing how he hunts. those r. questionable noises..

gaston picking lefou up with one arm & lefou swooning..his faceeee lmfao

him dancing while gaston’s on the table aww i luv him

gaston dropping his drink down for lefou to catch & drink ;-;

the graceful jump from one table to the next ahah

how happy they both were when they were dancing on the table, even if gaston shoved lefou out of the way so he could have the spotlight. like those were genuine smiles. the actors were havin a damn blast.

my illiterate son,,

how he modestly looks down at his feet when gaston says he’s the best

“how has no girl snatched you up yet?” 

"i've been told im clingy" he says, practically sitting on gaston's lap, his arm around him, "but i really dont get it."

awkward moment of silence. awkward gaston coughs awkwardly. lefou stares at gaston, clearly thinking, "why hasnt a lady snatched me up yet? did ur dumbass srsly just ask me that? r u fuckin serious?? u dumb motherfucker??"

lefou's bitch face....

like his arms r crossed & he looks pissy as hell when maurice walks in. hes rolling his eyes. what a little bitch. i fuckin luv him

“ohhh”

"do u really wanna marry into this family?”

how he like. slowly & gingerly cimbs out of the carriage. i thought that was sweet. he’s slow & calculating, in comparison to gaston’s fast & impulsive. 

"deep breaths, gaston. deep breaths. think of the war! think of the widows!”

ofc gaston’s “...the widows :)”

the nose boop. the booping of the nose. pls.

lefou's face after maurice says "u will never marry my daughter" “i saw that coming”

lefou's face when they leave maurice

lefou’s face when he sees maurice is alive

hes so precious he was so worried augh 

i like how he’s talking abt maurice but then gaston looks at him & he shuts up instantly. poor lefou. my poor boi

gaston practically seducing lefou by grabbing his chin and staring deeply into his eyes, their faces like barely an inch apart,,, fuk,,,,

it was in order to manipulate him by disorientating him in an intimate way...but it was still p fukin hot & def p fuckin gay

lefou's face during that...poor thing

also maurice's face during that says a lot too i think

also josh gad has nice eyelashes lmao

lefou protesting that they should storm the castle. gaston threatening him. lefou glaring at his back the rest of the mob song. poor bb

"are u not the least bit concerned this castle is haunted?" "dont lose ur nerve, le fou"

“oh hello! u must be the talking tea cup! & u must be his grandmother!”

"gaston!" le fou shrieks as a piano falls on him, which gaston purposely allowed to fall on him,

"gaston, help me!" "sorry old friend. it's hero time" "ouch" defeated sad le fou gives a defeated sad le sigh

plumette harassing le fou,,poor le fou. hes having a bad day already

le fou & mrs potts teaming up

"well ur too good for him anyway" *gay nodding*

he was disinterested in the dance & then stanley showed up & he was like 'omgomg ok cool yes i cant live w this'

[hale-of-stiles-heart]

#augh my heart..... #of course he could say something lile ''i cant just be some random adrenaline-fuled impulse i need it to mean something'' #and then geralt could immediately reassure him that no no that's not how he meant it #but if jaskier keeps it vague then!!!! aaaaahhh they both walk away heartbroken #and then HE'S gonna have to be the one to nut up and confess #because i genuinely cant picture geralt contuning to pursue someone after a rejection #(and also geralt already confessed once sortve!!!! its the bard's turn xp) 

He pulls away from the kiss, using all of his willpower to do so, keeps his eyes closed and his fingertips pressed to his lips as he says, "I can't... Not like this..."

And Geralt immediately backs off, doesn't press for details, just immediately stops and is waiting for Jaskier to announce he's leaving forever but then Jaskier's fussing over him after a minute like nothing ever happened so Geralt figures 'okay he wants to stay friends, I can handle that, I don't wanna lose him'

#WAIT ok. another option: its been a little while. jaskier has just been turned down by a barmaid or something in a rather embarassing way #he's sitting with geralt(either around a campfire or in an inn room) and hes like ''well that sucked.'' and geralt is like mmm. #and jaskier's like dont rejections suck? and geralt is like hmm. & jaskier is like whens the last time you got rejected? lets swap stories #and at this point geralt is pratically grinding his teeth. and jaskier DOES NOT REALIZE WHAT HE'S JUST SAID #and after a bit of prodding geralt is like ''you. the last person who rejected me was /you/.'' #leaving jaskier absolutely floundering

Jaskier's struggling for a response, splutters for a bit before finally managing, "I didn't reject you! I was just... Postponing things until you weren't all hopped up on adrenaline!"

Geralt goes, "What the hell are you talking about?"

Jaskier explains, "I thought it was just the adrenaline! I've seen you kiss that witch of yours mid-fight enough times to know a good fight gets you going. I thought you were just so pumped full of adrenaline and raring to go and I was just the nearest warm body. Wanted it to mean something if you kissed me and then you never did again so I figured you weren't actually interested"

After a close call on a contract, Geralt's so relieved Jaskier didn't get hurt or fucking die that he kisses him and as much as Jaskier would love to just melt into the kiss he doesn't and stops it instead bc he thinks it's just bc of the adrenaline and the fact he's the nearest warm body

oh nooooo D:

[sphinxae]

I followed a few inspiring quote blogs a while back and i honestly have no clue why i follow them. I dont really understand how ppl see some of these and think "heck yeah im awesome and productive ! I feel great! Or if i dont feel great now, 'this too shall pass' haha!" bc i see it and its stuff like "when you wanna succeed as much as you wanna breathe, you'll make it" and all i think is wtf?! Lay off people? All it does is induce anxiety for me like oh shit this means im not good enough and ill never succeed Do these quotes actually help people? Like the "tomorrow's a new day" or "if you are seeing this, you're wonderful and you are gonna have a great day"? I am honestly asking and not trying to judge or be cynical its just when i see them my brain doesnt go "! :D" but rather more reacts like "im suspicious and will pick this apart however i can so stop patronizing me and dont tell me what to do" so i just wanna know if its just my brain being a shit and if these actually help people. My brain already reacts to the idea of long term or spontaneous affection from any source with unwarranted suspicion (theres precedent that i can think of to cause this reaction?) Like someone will confess to me and my brain will just be like "ok but when is the other shoe gonna drop wheres the punchline this is a mistake you should push them away" or like if someone says something really sweet to me and all that goes through my mind is wow thats really sweet wait u should shut this down now somethings gonna go wrong u should laugh in their face and say something hurtful so they will never talk to you again I honestly havent the faintest idea why this occurs and it bothers me that its there. Thankfully impulse controll is a thing but the initial thought to push them away leaves my off kilter and i feel like if i didnt say something of a similar sentiment back it would be unequal or that i have to handle the situation delicately and abscond when i can. And since that leads to things being said on the fly i feel like it isnt genuine and like im lying which just makes me feel worse which makes me want to push them away more so they wont be lied to again and so i wont be filling their life with lies that are small but pile up bc when someone finds out you lied about one thing they are mad let alone multiple lies. It desttoys the relationship and you already feel bad for lying but then you have filled their life with anger and doubt and wow i hate socializing despite the fact that it is necessary for me to function semi normally and i wish my brain would stop doubting everything bc that isnt fair to othe people? Imediately doubting their truthfulness os a sign of lack of trust and unfounded mistrust is really rude? Augh im tired