#Jax angst

[sunification]

JAX ANGST ALERT!

OK OK SO GOOSE SAID THE NEXT EPISODE IS ABOUT DEPRESSION ON IN THE NEW TEASER WE SAW THIS. IT DEADASS LOOKS LIKE JAX IS DEPRESSED AND RETHINKING HIS LIFE

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

This is going to be very angsty so I will warn you now. There's themes of depression and loss so if you're uncomfortable with that please don't read this.

Jax grieving the loss of the Reader

★ After the smoke has cleared and you get put into the cellar the first thing he does is go into a depressive episode. It lasts for about a month, just staying in his room and laying in bed. Not doing anything, just laying in his bed and feeling completely numb.

★ You are just... Gone. You aren't coming back. He's never going to see you again and that's the hardest part. You won't laugh at his jokes anymore or scold him for being too cruel. He misses your voice more than anything.

★ He should have told you how much he cares. If he did you might still be here. Maybe he just pushed you too far? It's all his fault. Those dark thoughts plague his mind when he's alone. He blames himself, when in reality it wasnt his fault.

★ During this dark period Caine tries his best to get Jax out of his bed. Staying in his room all day everyday was sure to mess with his head. In Caine's words, he needs to "breathe in some fresh, digital, air!"

★ He didn't want to, go figure. Unfortunately for Jax he didn't really have a choice because after a few weeks; Caine ended up fast traveling him to where he wanted the rabbit to go.

★ Depressed Jax laying in the grass was quite a sight for everyone else, who haven't seen him for weeks. He just plops himself in the grass and stares at the sun. Good luck getting him to play along with Caine's adventures. He can't even muster up the will to smile.

★ Your room is marked with a "❌" now. A constant reminder that you are gone. He hates looking at your room. The key to it Is still in his room somewhere but he will never use it again. Too many painful memories.

★ It takes him months before the grieving process runs it's course. Even after he starts feeling like himself again he still stays awake at night thinking about you. He will never stop missing you.

[copper-cu-29]

Redemption

[unfunnyaceartist]

My hand slipped

[e-rrrrin]

GONE |JAX

When he sets his eyes on your abstracted figure he refuses to believe what he was seeing. It's only a digital hallucination! It’s not real. Maybe it's just a prank, right?

It can't be real.

It can't be.

He shuts your door room closed, trying to keep his cool. He's in denial.

"Haha, very funny (Y/N). You got me, now c'mon let's go prank someone else okay?"

He opened the door again only to see your abstracted figure charging towards him. Yep it's definitely real.

Jax only managed to start to process everything after Caine placed you in the cellar.

Jax locked himself up in his room, the realization of everything that had happened finally came crashing down on him. He stares at the ceiling on his bed, shaking and breathing heavily. Why, why now? Tears streamed down his face.You were doing fine yesterday! You were pulling pranks together.

He buried his face into his hand, sobbing while the other tugged on his ear. You were laughing along with him just yesterday and now you're gone.

You're never coming back.

You left him behind and now he's all alone again.

[omgneptunee]

let the purple bunny man suffer

i NEED jax angst im gonna explode

DKDNDNDNDNNDXDDCCNSNSNXXKOAKSXNSODXGX

[theloraxisgoat]

guess ai can have feelings…..poor guy😢

Art done by chasm_craft

[lucatumbling]

My mind had one simple idea: “What if Jax never had any form of affection?”

[d6volution]

Disconcerted.

Jax/Reader.

tags: heavy angst, hurt no comfort.

requested by: @ibbitynibbity

Another new addition to the circus. Great. Those were Jax's first thoughts when you arrived.. you were just like the other newbies, asking questions and not shutting up about this mysterious exit. That was until Caine explained how there never was an exit in the first place. It was merely a placeholder. Then your whole world came crashing down. You were distant for a while.. but soon you opened up and got more comfortable with the members.

You were kind, charming and actually.. kinda funny. Jax found himself getting drawn in by your aura. It was hard not to.

Unfortunately when it comes to Jax, grabbing his attention wasn't always a good thing.

Jax stuck his foot out as you walked by, with a 'digital' breakfast tray in your hand.

CRASH.

Everything flew from your hands, and you hit the ground with a thud, any previous chatter silenced, and all eyes were on you. "J.. Jax.." Gangle spoke up, clearly disturbed by his crude actions, but the bunny simply rolled his eyes.

"Whaatt? They'll be fine, it's just a joke. Right , y/n?" His grin grew wide as he watched you pick yourself up from the ground. Your breakfast glitching away into thin air. "S-Screw you, Jax.." Your voice was trying its hardest not to crack. This hadn't been the first time, no. This poor excuse of a bunny really seemed to get a kick out of tormenting you.

Gangle still made a point to come over and help you out, dusting off your clothes when you stood up. A flimsy ribbon caressed your back in a poor attempt to sooth you. "Thanks Gangle.." You said, shooting a small smile at the kind bundle of red.

"N.. No need to thank me.. he's.. been being a-a jerk more than usual.." She mutters under her breath, making sure to be quiet enough that Jax couldn't hear her. Luckily enough he didn't. The bunny just watched, his smile dropping when he saw you smile at gangle.. why smile at her instead of him? He was just messing around. You should find it funny.. you /would if you had any sense of humor at all.

It doesn't matter. It's not like he'll stop anyways, he told himself and silently poked at the 'food' on his plate.

You headed back to your room, too embarrassed to continue eating in the main hall. Arriving at your door you were greeted by a small note attatched to it, where your faceplate usually is. You blinked before gently yanking down the sticky note.

'Just a little apology doll, ;) maybe you'll have more fun with them instead."

Them?

Who the hell did he let into your room? You thought, and anger bubbled up throughout your body as you swung the door open. But, it was... empty. You sighed and closed the door behind yourself, flopping onto the bed and bouncing a little unceremoniously. Just then, you felt something crawling on your arm, no a LOT of some things crawling on you. Immediately, you shot up, screaming, and swatting the spiders off of your body. You hurried out of your door and fell back onto your ass in the process.

"Ouch.." The spiders had gotten knocked off of you, but their little shadows were still moving stood in your room, causing you to shudder.

Just like clockwork Jax was standing outside of your door, pointing and laughing at you. "Oh, this it too priceless, you should have seen your face, y/n. Bravo. I needed that laugh, babe." He was hunched over, still trying to catch his breath.

You were shaking with anger, the only reason he even knew about your fear of spiders was because of the time you all decided to come together as a group and open up to each other a little. Talking about your likes, dislikes... hobbies and.. fears.

"Jax.. wh-what is wrong with you..?" You said, still shaking from both anger and fear of the spiders from earlier. "What did I do to you to be treated like this!? Y.. You're insane! I hate you!" You screamed at him and his smile seemed more forced now. "Uh huh.. sure ya do." He scoffed and your breath hitched , you could hardly hold back your tears anymore.

"I do! It's n.. not my fault you're obsessed with me or something!" Tears were streaming down your face and Jax took a step closer to you. "You flatter yourself y/n, why would I be obsessed with someone like you huh? You can barely speak your mind without stuttering half the time— Nah, you're just here for a laugh. A form of entertainment for us all." He smirked before walking past you.

Your eyes were wide and you stood frozen in place. Was that true..? Was everyone laughing too.. behind your back? You spun sound but the hall was now empty. Did everyone think you were weak? Just something to laugh at to past the time?

You laughed dryly and felt your vision briefly glitch.

"Oh y/n! There you are." Kinger came rounding the corner shuffling over to you.

"H.. Huh?" His presence snapped you out of your train of thought, and your vision seemed normal again.

"Oh, a-are you okay?" He asked, seemingly worried.

'A form of entertainment.'

The words rung in your ears and your wondered if Kinger was laughing with Jax too before this. " ... No, Jax let spiders loose in my room." Your voice was hoarse from all that yelling and crying.

"Did you say spiders? I.. I'll remove them, I think they'll like it in my insect collection even though they aren't really insects but.." Kinger continued to speak to himself as he happily entered your room. Meanwhile you leaned against the wall, sliding down until you were sitting on the floor completely, silently waiting for him to remove the spiders from your room.

Jax walked back to his room, seemingly unbothered... well until he was behind closed doors. As soon as he entered his room, his shoulders slumped over and he sat on the edge of his bed. "Think I might have went a little overboard this time.. maybe I should check on them.." He muttered to himself, burying his face in his hands.

"Don't be a wuss, Jax. Just apologize. Can't be that hard." He said and stood up to his feet. Who knows maybe this could be a fresh start? A whole one eighty. He wondered if he could get some flowers too.. for, the apology of course. He said in his head as if he had anyone else to convince rather than himself.

Back in your room, you had your door locked and shut. Huddled on your bed, beneath your blankets with just your face poking out. You were muttering to yourself, staring at the wall. 'They all hate you, they all agree with Jax. You're nothing but entertainment. You're stuck here, there's no way out. No way out, no way out no way out.

The thoughts were becoming words and your vision began to glitch again, but worse this time.. at first you tried to fight it. Holding your head in your hands as if to physically keep yourself from falling apart.

Knock, knock.

'y/n, open up will ya? you're not still mad from earlier right? c'mon. i've got something to show ya.' Jax's voice was muffled from outside, but hearing his voice alone was enough to make you snap.

You laughed as your vision went completely black, only specs of color being seen here and there. Then it was silent.. and oh how blissful the silence was.

Jax sighed, and dug into his pocket after hearing no response .. pulling out a key and unlocking your door... his smile dropped and for once he looked to be in complete horror. "No.. no.." He muttered as dropped the makeshift apology basket, for a moment he was frozen but you didn't give him time to process. You were towering over him, a glob of abstracted black shifting shapes taking the form of a mindless monster.

He scurried down the hall, and you unceremoniously bursted through the small door leaving a gaping hole to your room. You bellowed and Jax felt his world crashing down on him. Did.. he cause this? Did he make you abstract?

His mind was racing and he hurried and hid around a corner. Fuck, fuck fuck. He grabbed his head and slid to the floor.

Even for someone like him this was too much, too much too fast. He was going to apologize. He.. didn't mean any of this he was just a dumb ..idiotic bunny. Jax relentlessly scolded himself until Ragatha came rounding the corner, huffing and puffing.

"J..Jax! Thank god.. y/n .. they abstracted.. we have to find Caine.. Jax..?"

He was smiling, but it was more crazed. "T.. This is all my fault.. I.. I'm.. Hah.." He laughs, and lowers his head so Ragatha couldn't see his expression.

"Go get Caine Rags.. I'll distract y/n." His voice was monotone.

"W.. What? No, let's go together—" She tried to reach her hand out and he immediately slapped it away. "I said go get Caine! Now." His voice was laced with a growl but in no way intimidating.. no, his voice shook. It was on the brink of breaking.

Jax stood up and walked in your direction, you were hard to miss. Leaving destruction in your very path.

"Y/N!" He called out, trying to get your attention. And that he did, your large form turned to face him. Bellowing loudly as you ran right for him, but he didn't move.. he stayed completely still and without hesitation you knocked him into a wall. "A.. Alright, you.. earned that one.." He said weakly, trying to pull away from your grasp now but you kept slamming him into different surfaces until he was glitching out uncontrollably.

"Oh my ! You were not exaggerating!" Caine's voice could be heard from a distance, but Jax was in far too much pain to even register it. The glitching hurt, but maybe its what he deserved for being such a asshole. Not just now, but all the time. Maybe his luck finally ran out and karma was here to bite him in the ass.

"And away with you!" Your abstracted form was tossed into the cellar by Caine and Jax reached out to you without thinking, "N.. No.." But you disappeared beneath floor.

Snap!

Jax was back to normal, the pain was gone.. well physically anyway, the pain from losing you was still burning deep in his chest. He didn't have anything to say. Any questions that Caine and Ragatha threw at him was ignored. He walked by them, and all the other members who began to show up after hearing all the commotion. He could hear their voices trailing off , talking about you.

How could you do this?

Do you think it could have been too much them?

Was it Jax..?

He walked faster and slammed the door to his room. Locking it behind him. Maybe it would be better if he stayed here..away from everyone where he could no longer cause any harm.

His thoughts only got louder and more consuming , his room seemed to shrink and box him in.. he sat on the ground before curling up in a fetal position as his thoughts started to eat him alive.

Just then, there was a brief glitch in his vision.

[hannathecartoonlover]

I made way too many memes man

This is how I am bruh lol

[roachthefish-alt]

I'm looking forward to new TADC episodes in hope that we'll see Jax break his persona and suffer.

No, not because I don't like him. I actually do like Jax for being irredeemable motherfucker who doean't care and ruins everything. And that's the reason I want to see him breaking down.

Anyone else feel this way? Like come on, I can't be alone

[sunification]

YALL. NEW JAX ANGST JUST DROPPED.

GOOSE POSTED THIS AND THE SONG HE SAYS IS ABOUT HIM IS “CREEP” BY RADIO HEAD. THE LYRICS?

“I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here? don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul”

OMG OMG HE REALLY IS DEPRESSED

[mkangleishotpink]

YOU KNOW WHAT I NEED?

A CHARACTER TO SUFFER

YOU WANNA KNOW WHICH CHARACTER?

THIS CHARACTER

YOU WANNA KNOW WHY?

BECAUSE I DON'T SEE MUCH ANGST OF HIM ANYWHERE AND I NEED IT OR I'M DOING IT MYSELF

[lavalamp-juice]

hey hello nice to meet you I didn't know you're also Spy x Family fan too other than TADC fan so yea anyway do you think Jax will get a redemption arc or not? Because I just found this

well at least she didn't say no

Hi! Thanks for the ask! :D (especially about my interests hehe)

Hmm I still don't think Jax will get a FULL redemption arc. But hopefully he lessens being mean, especially gangle.T_T

Oh and she also has said this about Jax:

Goose has also mentioned there will be 8 episodes so we have 6 left :P.

I am really excited to see what's the worst thing he has done, and if it will take place in a backstory/flashback OR if it will take place with this current gang.

Sum other things Goose has mentioned about Jax:

(keeping this blog family friendly lol)

I do hope he grows a little bit and in nicer to his friends <3

I do like that some things are being left unsaid! Super excited where this show will go.

TL;DR I do not think he will get a full redemption arc but we will probably see his story and why he does the things he does...

[bluey2000y]

day 10

"What the f%@!& is this place?..."

[shinydreamtacoprune-blog]

what if jax smiles all the time because caine's always watching? (he has eyes everywhere)